I LOST MY SISTER *COPING WITH TRAUMA* | Fame-ished Ep 6

[@sh3lbynicole]

“I don’t know where I’d be without my mom” broke me. As a mom currently struggling, that hit hard.

[@greciat7664]

You’re doing amazing and I’m proud of you ❤

[@marycarla6705]

You’re that child whole entire world rn and ur child’s father if he’s present that kid adores u I know ur doing enough and u should be so proud of urself ❤

[@elenezamarron8369]

I feel like we all feel the same way when it comes to Andrew apologizing for making the episode longer than usual. I would love a 2 hour episode every Monday

[@kxmii]

!!!!

[@stephanieeverett2238]

Andrew, you are forever changed. Joy will come again. I lost my 3 1/2 year old son to a drunk driver in Nov 17, 1997. I can tell you sometimes the bandaid tears the scab off even now. What you lear is how to navigate the scars so you ease around them. Talk about it, don't apologize for taking advantage of deep friends and let yourself feel what comes to you. I'm proud of your strength, even if you have to fake it for a while. Everything you are feeling is valid and don't let yourself wallow in the anger. It's ok to be angry in response. You are not betraying your sister because you get angry at her about what's happened. Dreams you dreamed of sharing your life with her will just be different now. Like I said..... I love you and it will get better. Your smile will reach your eyes again. I promise. Stephanie. I was your subscriber long before I met Sam. ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜*

[@loveshell6945]

I’m so sorry about what happened to your son. That’s awful.💔 I also have to point out…Adriana is his cousin, not his sister. Although they seemed like siblings, that’s for sure.

[@makythesupertallnach]

I got chills when Andrew told the story about Easy on Me playing. I wish more people talked about grief and shared these beautiful stories, thank you for sharing this conversation with the world ❤

[@SheeK98]

Being severely depressed for many years myself I have sought out a lot of content to help me cope with what I was going through. But, I do not believe I have ever watched something that has made me feel so seen and heard. Eventhough I'm from a completely different country and have had a completely different life from you guys I feel like you're speaking to me. Thank you so much for speaking about mental health and loss with some humour and so much empathy. Praying that the weight of this loss gets easier to carry for Andrew and I also pray that Sam stays just as kind because it really heals something in me knowing what a good friend you are Sam❤

[@itscodyhilton]

❤

[@stephaniesturtz4653]

Hugs❤

[@Juli-ge4yp]

@SheeK98 What a lovely message.🤗

[@carmellamercurio1597]

Andrew, I lost my younger brother a little over six months ago to suicide. This is impossible and you are strong for speaking about it and bringing awareness to mental Health. I sent you a dm if you need someone to talk to or resources I got you. ❤love you

[@sarwall_]

I’m so so sorry for your loss 💔 I lost my little brother in a traumatic accident on 11/7/21. Still feels like yesterday. Give yourself time and grace, and know you’re not alone ♥️ I hope you and your family are getting through this difficult time of year and finding some healing

[@Beautybabe316]

I’m so sorry for your loss ♥️♥️💙💙

[@sydneykleiman7477]

sending you so much love

[@carolrollema3892]

😢So Very sorry 🙏❤️

[@dianaw4072]

💗💗💗 so sorry! I worry about my brother daily. He’s in recovery and is a substance abuse counselor but I still worry.

[@quinnmc6103]

I have to say, I lost my mother who was my entire heart very suddenly and traumatically last December, and Sam is handling this absolutely perfectly as a best friend. The way she listens, validates and emphasizes the points and feelings that Andrew puts out is so nice to see. Such a good support system ♥️

[@serenabaker7216]

Suicide has been a huge part of my life as well, my uncle and my cousin lost their lives to this. My father tried on multiple occasions. Alcohol abuse runs in my family as well. I just want to say that I appreciate all of the things you guys are talking about suicide, anxiety and depression are so hard to talk about, especially with people who don’t understand. On another note I am so sorry that people in the world are so hurtful to you both the conversation about the comments on the TikTok video is so heartbreaking.😢 I love this people, often associate being overweight with being lazy and not taking care of yourself, but no one wants to take into account with the majority of the time people who are overweight, are usually struggling with food and struggling with mental health. I just don’t understand how people can be so hurtful it’s hard when our mental health can be shown to the entire world by the extra weight that we carry on our bodies but the people who might struggle with drug addictions, alcohol, addictions, anger, addictions, anything other than that it’s hard to see in the outside and they don’t get nearly as much hate as the people who struggle with being overweight! I just want to say I love you both very much and I look up to both of you as amazing role models! I hope you guys keep this podcast going❤🎉

[@KH-nq1dv]

I debated to watch this episode not by myself. I decided to turn it on with my 19 yr old in the room. I had to tell him on his 17th birthday that his best friends dad took not only his life but the life of his son, my sons best friend. Understanding how mental health can do this to someone but also how he can take his own sons life too. My son struggles and to this day said it will never be better. I try to get him to talk to someone but he's not ready. He speaks to me. He misses him. He shut off everything he was doing to watch you guys talk about this. That was something huge to me. It was difficult for you, m sure. But thank you for doing that. It's good for him to see how others younger than me cope. I'll never give up on him. Love and my heart goes out to you. Sam,my mom was the same as I grew up. ❤

[@brandibucko]

I’m so incredibly sorry, Andrew. Losing a sibling is one of the hardest things we may ever do. Thank you for being willing to open up with us. I hope your family can heal 🤎

[@holli8493]

Thank you for being so open when you didn't have to be. This is a vulnerable topic. You are so strong, and it doesn't go unnoticed. Thank you to Sam as well for being there for you as well.

[@kjuarez08]

I lost my sister to a drug overdose in June. She struggled with a lot of trauma and mental health issues. But we were the same way, always together before she started using. When she was clean we started working on our relationship and were getting close again. Then she relapsed and was gone. Just like that. I remember the day it happened, everybody was asking me how she was doing and I didn’t know because she stopped calling and answering a couple weeks before.. It doesn’t get easier, you just learn to live with it. Yesterday was a bad day. Then I woke up and seen this. My heart is with you, and she’s with you as well. A few days after we buried my sister and finished all of her ceremonies I was house sitting for my friend and tending her plants. A dragonfly came and sat with me while I took care of all the plants. One of my sisters most favorite things in the world was dragonflies. I felt like she was there with me. Take in the small things, I promise it helps. ❤❤❤

[@dianaw4072]

Andrew, you’re so right. The pain never goes away. Grief is like drowning in an ocean at first because you don’t know how to swim, then you start becoming a stronger swimmer and the waves still come, you’re still in the water but you’re no longer drowning. I’m so very sorry for your loss. Praying for you! ❤ Todays my dads birthday. We lost him 9 yrs ago last month. It still feels fresh sometimes. I still want to call him. Grief sucks but all the tears we’ve cried is all the love we didn’t get to express while they’re here. ❤

[@cynjim88]

I have to say it was very sweet and refreshing seeing Andrew and Sam show some kindness and love between each other. We all know they love each other and we don’t want them to lose their dynamic but once in a while, it’s really nice to see how much they appreciate each other. ❤️

[@thedruekefamilyadventures8890]

My heart breaks for you. I just want to thank you both for not censoring your words or avoiding such a sensitive and incredibly important topic in order to not get demonetized or shadow banned. Sending you so much love. Just remember there is no right or wrong way to grieve. Never apologize for laughing or making jokes, taking time away from the world to sit in your own thoughts or jumping into work in order to keep your mind occupied. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@abigailsteeves9792]

Sam has such a great point. A huge traumatic event like this changes you and you have to figure out how to navigate through life with these changes. Some stuff you just may never revisit after an event like that. My younger brother attempted suicide in 2020 and it’s forever changed me. Certain things I smell triggers me and can make me nauseous because it was something I smelled that day. I can’t revisit my animal crossing island because we were playing it together just about every day leading up to it, but I also can’t bring myself to delete it either. Therapy can be so hugely helpful in figuring out how to cope and heal. Your not going to feel better right away, but it gets better over time. It’s constant work. So much love to you both ❤

[@skylerguthrie2706]

At 21:58 right after Andrew says Adrianna’s name, the camera got all fuzzy, I got the chills. She is with him ❤️ I’ve also lost a very close family member who was my best friend, to suicide. It truly never gets easier. Praying for him and all involved. ❤️

[@peachxtaehyung]

It's the autofocus with that. But I do believe she's there with him

[@CassieMakesArt]

I am just now watching this because unaliving is a triggering topic for me; I just had to comment because my heart goes out to you, Andrew. I lost my brother to unaliving on my 12th birthday and I thought I’d never be able to go on after that. I am 31 now and it’s true that the pain never goes away and grief is not linear. Some days I can’t even think about him without crying, but most days I can just think of him and smile. Sam is so right that when you are sui***al you are no longer thinking rationally. That’s a big part of what helped me get through it - my mom told me as a child that “his brain was sick.” And Andrew, it is okay to feel angry. It is completely natural. I was livid at my brother for doing it the way he did and when he did it. I used to scream and curse at him (just screaming to the sky) when I was younger. I don’t feel guilty about that anymore because it’s a normal part of the grieving process. Grieving a loss from someone unaliving is so very different than any other loss and there’s so many emotions. I’m sending you and your family so much love, and thank you both for talking so openly about this. I talk about this on my little podcast that is focused on mental health; not many people listen/watch, but my goal has always been to help at least just one person.

[@brandichilds16]

This hits me to the core. Being someone who suffers with depression and anxiety and social anxiety and I recently found out that I have bipolar 2. I have childhood trauma and have been raped when I was in my twenties. All that being said I deal with SI’s (suicidal ideation). I have attempted twice and failed, obviously, but the trauma I hold to my last attempt which was in the summer of 2022 is so deep and to this day makes me so sad and emotional because of how bad I wanted to do it. I couldn’t see a way out. I do still have SI’s to this day but we are trying to find the right medication that works for me. I have been hospitalized three times on my own doing because I knew that if I didn’t that I would have tried again. So now any time I have that feeling of suicide I check myself into the hospital. And it is so scary, especially your first time going but the ers are so good at taking care of you and then the facilities that just depends on where you are at. I am an advocate to people who need the help to go check yourself into the hospital. It is scary but it is so worth it in the end. I have learned so much and learned so much about myself from being hospitalized. Please if you are reading this and you can relate but you haven’t taken that step to go get help, message me and I will help you take that first step. The hospital will not release you unless they know you are going to a safe place and even if your homeless or like me and have county insurance so no insurance they will get you set up with places to go and stay and get you set up with your local mental health places that are free services. Thank you, Andrew for sharing your grief. I am so sorry for you and your family and what y’all are going through. I am praying for you and yours. Sorry for the long story but I felt that it is important.

[@jeannabeckman7424]

I just found Andrew's channel again after losing my old account today and decided to check up on him and my heart is just shattered for him and his family may Adrianna fly high sorry for your loss Andrew 😭🫶🏻

[@lizb6313]

I’m so so sorry Andrew. I can’t even think of words to say. I can’t even begin to imagine. Sending you so much love and healing.

[@janiemedrano5303]

you just talking about her and the camera not focusing shows she's with you sending so much love

[@serenajohns]

Thank you guys for speaking about the topic of mental health and suicide. My cousin committed around two years ago and it’s so relieving to see people with a platform speak about the topic and the feelings that come with that trauma.

[@biancagonzalez9793]

My heart deeply aches for you and your family Andrew. Genuinely appreciate the openness to this convo as it can be so overwhelming to share. One of my biggest fears is losing those I love. Even though it’s still a terrifying what if/when question, making the convo less taboo in this episode deff helps, so thank you. If this helps, I did want to note that many people are trying to refer to suicide by saying “died by suicide” vs “committed suicide or taking their life”. Small change, but it does minimize a negative connotation of victim blaming/shaming that society can often times do (not that you meant that by any means). My friend explained this to me recently too, so I’m also adjusting to phrasing it a little better (though I understand the subject is difficult regardless).

[@cassiezollner832]

To say I was shocked, I’ve been watching you two for years and Adrianna was a main person in your life. I am so so sorry this happened Andrew. 😔

[@jazzygrapefruit]

When my grandpa died I had a concert planned for that night, and then 2 days later. my entire family said i should still go and that he wouldn’t have wanted me to sit at home and be sad. i asked him if he could help me get something from the band as a sign, because i neverrrr get guitar pics or setlists or anything like that. nothing happened that first night, but at the 2nd concert 2 days later i got a guitar pic. such stupid luck, it was thrown and fell on the ground and no one could find it, but i looked and it was right next to my foot. i think about it so much. i’m glad she’s sending you signs. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, andrew.

[@alexisbinstock2797]

Goosebumps the ENTIRE EPISODE. Andrew, she is a huge presence even now ❤

[@elladavis3224]

Gosh I love you both so dearly. The conversation about Adrianna makes me love you even more, and then the talk about fatphobia too? My respect and love for you and this community you’ve cultivated is immeasurable. I lost my uncle to the cruel thing that is addiction, just four days ago. It breaks my heart to see Andrew in a situation that is so sad and I’m so upset that I relate to the grief you’re feeling. I am so glad you both are taking us along on your journey through life. Andrew, remember that Adrianna is here with you always. And also, it is so okay to laugh and smile - it’s what you can do in honor of her. And Sam, you are absolutely hilarious and so real for talking about the fatphobia you’re experiencing. I think it’s really unfortunate that those people are sad enough that they find joy in insulting others, but god it makes me giggle to see how you react to them by just laughing it off and joking back at them. Long story short, you two are incredible people and I respect you so much for talking about the hard things. Much love ❤❤❤

[@amandawatson682]

This was the best episode yet for me. I truly appreciate the candid conversation about trauma and mental health ❤️ I’ve had anxiety for as long as I can remember and have really struggled with my mental health in adulthood so far. I’ve been especially down lately and this episode helped me feel less alone. Thank you, Sam and Andrew ❤️

[@carmellamercurio1597]

Death and grief are not talked about in our society and I think you guys spoke about that very well. I also jumped into things pretty quick because that’s how life goes right? But take your moments when they come feel your feelings out and let your self breathe or cry when you need to. Love you guys

[@sarwall_]

This. People just expect you to be over it after a certain amount of time, and life and the world just keeps moving while you’re at a dead standstill. It’s so difficult

[@geasty8862]

I lost my brother 20 years ago and the trauma is still something I’m coping with. It will manifest in new ways throughout your life but it is so incredible to have someone watching over you. I hope you feel that presence and that love as well ❤ I still feel his love every day and get signs consistently which I would never have thought would happen 20 years later.

[@moriahbh951]

I really appreciate that you both decided to talk so candidly about mental health. It's not easy to speak about, especially from personal or familial experience. Losing someone to mental health struggles is so confusing and scary. I am so sorry you're going through this. ❤

[@theresacasillas2172]

I appreciate you guys sharing your personal experience with mental health. I am an RN. I work very closely with people with mental health issues. I never realized the lack of resources there are in healthcare until I needed help for my own daughter. You guys repeat over and over “get help”. Truly there is no help. There is no solution. The Lord and the love of family and friends is the only “help” for mental health. The healthcare system fails mental health brutally.

[@KKaitolovernfighter]

My heartbreaks for you Andrew. There is nothing worse than a piece of you leaving this earth. Thank you for this episode. As a person who has lived with depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts and attempts, this episode is so real. I have also had friends and people I know be successful. Mental health is something that needs to be discussed. Thank you for spreading awareness and love. Your vulnerability and willingness to discuss this shows your commitment to the community and your love for her. Andrew you are so strong and such a wonderful person. I am so grateful I found Samantha's channel at the beginning of this year! You both have imprinted on my life in such a positive way. I wish I could make the haters go away. Please never stop being who you are.

[@sarahknieff9813]

Andrew my thoughts and prayers are with you. I have dealt with a lot of instant, unexpected trauma in my life and yes it is hard to come to terms with but minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, it does get easier. You are strong, your family is strong. Also Sam, thank you for being there for Andrew. Friends are incredibly important during times of the lowest lows and the highest highs. Thank you both for talking about mental health and being so vulnerable.

[@marinawickel6449]

this episode was amazing I loved every second of it. my grandpa died to suicide when I was 8 and I was in the car when my mom found him. it was very traumatic and I feel like steamed to cause me to think suicidal thoughts from a young age. but like andrew said things can change drastically in just a year you just can't give up, look at the little things in life and keep pressing forward if you are in a tough spot. I love how mental health is being normalized cuz its something everyone I feel struggles with. love you guys

[@GiabellaZ13]

I also lost my grandfather on October 15th, he raised me and was the king of one liners, even up until he died he was the light of my life and coped with humor, I won’t go into specifics but I know the pain you’re going through and I’m grieving along with you, it’s okay to feel all of the things you’re feeling as the emotions come, I’m sending so much love to you and your family 🖤

[@jennyklein3549]

I’m so sorry Andrew, I lost my brother to addiction 4 years ago around Christmas time. I admire your bravery and courage to talk about this. I love you both! ❤️

[@chelliemiller1762]

Thinking of you during this difficult time, Andrew! My mother has suffered from Bipolar Disorder her whole life and attempted to take her life in 2016. Unsuccessfully, THANK THE UNIVERSE! but it really is the most heartbreaking thing when you realize someone you love is suffering so deeply! We love you, Andrew!

[@krystalwhittenburg2560]

As a single mom, I can barely stand to think about the pain of the child that lost their mother. There is nothing I could go through that would be more painful than thinking about my baby crying for her mommy. And I have been through human trafficking, physical abuse, which led to addiction,.and a suicide plan. Then I lost the only man I could bring myself to love. (My daughter's dad). But I would do it all over again a million times before thinking about my daughter crying because she lost her mommy. I had to get help my mental health. What helped me personally was watching 'The Undoing" by Sara Jakes Roberts . That started my healing journey. And I'm literally a different person than I was 2 years ago. Prayers for your family Andrew. My hope is that alot of people get the courage they need to seek help from your story.

[@ashleybush5714]

traumatic experiences seem worse considering they come out of no where and hit you out of no where. experiencing it myself with my cousin, even after 12 years, it still hurts. like sam said, the weight gets easier, but it’s never gone. you will be driving randomly and you’re then just bawling. talking helps so much, but no one will know exactly what you’re going through and you’ll never feel like anyone truthfully understands how much you’re hurting

[@kanthegemini43]

andrew im so sorry! i promise it does get easier but you're right. it doesn't exactly get better. my best friend who was like my brother overdosed and two years later no one knows if it was on purpose or not(we suspect a little bit of both honestly). he called me when it started to happen but i was at work and i declined his call. i was the last person he tried to contact before he died and i declined his call. when it first happened my grief was this giant boulder i had to carry around everywhere with me. as the days passed i grew stronger and more used to the boulder so it became easier and easier to hold. as the weeks and months passed it changed from this giant boulder that obstructed my view of everything and controlled my life into a moderately heavy rock. now its a stone the size of my hand that i keep in my bag. i could choose to leave it on a shelf or in my car, but i choose to keep him and this memory with me. sometimes my bag feels too small or my shoulder feels too sore but i never put the rock down. when it feels like its too heavy i take it out and look at it and think about him. josh and his memory are so fucking sacred to me and his memories are so beautiful. you got this andrew. think about how beautiful of a palm stone adrianna's memories will turn into

[@mitzloo1933]

I’m so sorry, Andrew. Your relationship with Adrianna was so wonderful and so fun to experience on your channel. You guys always had me howling with laughter. I’m so sad that she is no longer with us.

[@codiek9343]

Andrew when you told the story about Adele playing I got the chills. I am crying with you! How beautiful of a sign in the darkest time. Grief never goes away but it changes over time- I hope one day this feels a little easier for you. Sending so much love!

[@KA-gl5rr]

So sorry for your loss Andrew. No one deserves to go through what she went through to do what she did, and no one should ever have to go what you’re going through. And Sam, you’re a queen for allowing such a space for Andrew to share what he wants and provide comfort and advice on mental health. Y’all’s friendship is what I aspire to have with my friends. Wishing you both all the love, space, support, and kindness in your lives.

[@ashleerodriguez4805]

Thank you soo much for sharing Andrew. I feel it's very important to talk about these things. Growing up where I'm from people always avoid it or hide it and I think awareness is key to understanding how we can do our part.. Sam you are a beauty! People who are hurt or have nothing good going for them are just trying to make you feel how they feel. Keep on going girl! Love you both!❤

[@headxtrip]

I couldnt help but absolutely break down when you were explaining to her child that she died of old age. My number one fear is leaving my babies before they can unerstand properly that I've left. I'm so sorry Andrew, you've got a big support system over here, and all my love and entire heart to her baby.

[@milagirlxx6230]

You dont move on you move on with it. How utterly tragic. Its hour by hour at this point and will slowly become day by day to week to week etc x

[@rebeccaroark6800]

Andrew - I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family. I know how much grieving hurts and I hope you heal quicker than you might think. Sam- your hair looks stunning. And to both of you- I literally do not understand the people leaving hate. You both are so real, and you don’t conform to what society thinks or says. You both are so inspirational and you make me feel like I can be myself. Please never change and just keep laughing at the haters - they simply want to be you!

[@Kelley.Nicole]

Andrew, I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being so vulnerable during such a difficult time! Sending you so much love. It's crazy this episode came out today because I'm wearing my merch from Samantha that says "The world is a better place with you in it".

[@dogmomxo4363]

As someone who has lost multiple friends to suicide, this episode was so healing. I often feel alone in my grief, especially the longer time goes on. Thank you for reminding us that we aren’t alone. Andrew, saying “I’m so sorry for your loss” seems like such an empty statement compared to the weight of what you and your family are going through… I am sending so much love to you all❤️ Sam, thank you for being the friend we all wish we could have. Your support for Andrew is so important. Love you both💕

[@Rizza.]

agreed

[@alisonodonnell7005]

She just popped in for a quick hello to me, too Andrew! As I was listening to your podcast, I was studying for a module for nursing school. As soon as I flipped to the page on aneurysms, Andrew literally said "Do I have an aneurysm?" Sending you all my love xo

[@nicconway647]

Validation is so bittersweet. Healing is a journey. Life is beautifully wicked. Sending y’all so much love.

[@nicconway647]

Also thank you for the comfy vibes of this podcast especially during this episode. Feels like a safe place lol.

[@kate7369]

It feels so small to leave a comment right now, but my love is with you. That was heart wrenching. Some day the weight will be easier to carry, but for today, all you can do is be kind to yourself.

[@ChloeJo]

Your mom being with you when you found out I feel like is such a blessing

[@mackenzieholtz1116]

in healthcare, we deal with a lot of loss, i always use the backpack analogy! a lot of people refer to grief as a mountain..we climb up u til we reach the hardest point and then it gets easier, but that’s not true at all. the backpack analogy refers to grief as a backpack you carry…sometimes the backpack is the heaviest at the beginning, sometimes it’s the lightest…you may reach times in life where something brings the grief back, you take that moment of grief and you add it to your backpack. sometimes things help you cope, so you take some grief out of your backpack..but no matter what, you will forever carry your backpack. It may be heavier 5 years from now than it was in the beginning, and that’s okay. you never have to “get over” your loss. You just have to learn how to carry your backpack💕

[@jessicaraepearce]

I was so shocked when I saw your post about her passing, she seemed so bubbly and happy. But we never know what somebody is dealing with behind the scenes. Big love to you and your family at this sad time love you Andrew x

[@Thorcita]

Andrew, thank you for being vulnerable and sharing such a personal thing with us. Being a person with depression myself, lots of things you guys have said really resonated with me and changed my perspective. Mental health is not spoken enough and I appreciate you doing this. I love funny videos (and even in this video there were funny moments), but it helps me hen I find smoeone I can relate to and not just all laughs and perfect stuff. Another thing I don't know if you realize, is that a lot of us are literally alone and this is like having a conversation with friends. I love you both

[@dianapenuela1925]

I’m not going to lie, both of you guys kept me floating in my ocean of depression last year. I would watch both of y’all’s videos on repeat all the way from 4-5 years ago.. you guys were the reason why I even wanted to to start some kind of KZbin channel or podcast. I do have one now with my cousin.. and I have y’all to thank. Adriana as well.. the way you guys were when she showed up in your videos reminded me of how close my cousin and I were that we both actually came up and wanted to keep trying.. we are on strangers but just know that I love you guys like friends. And it sucks that people love to suck! The grammar in their hate comments always crack me up though

[@caitlynhinojosa]

I'm so sorry Andrew, my condolences. I can't imagine losing a cousin/sister like that. I'm proud of your family for signing up for therapy. Thank you for this heavy episode, its needed that we talk about this more in society.

[@lizwentbigtime]

Thank you for being open to share with us and I’m sending love and support to you and your family, Andrew. I’ve been watching you for years and always looked forward to your new videos - and Adriana was one of my favorite people to see in them because you two were so perfectly matched! My prayers are with you and your family/loved ones at this time. 💕 And to both of you, this was a beautiful episode to see you show friendship support to each other. I know I really appreciate the honesty of your opinions and viewpoints. I love seeing you guys thrive and hope to only see more of it 🥰 Please continue to be there for each other as we continue to be there for you 💕

[@danielleormerod2167]

Thank you for saying ‘it’s never going to get easier’ because it’s so true. You just learn to live with it. I lost my best friend almost two years ago and it still doesn’t feel real. Thank you for being so vulnerable with us and talking about such an important topic. I love you both so much and I wish I could give you the biggest hug Andrew❤

[@kathywhite1282]

Andrew I am so sorry for your loss. I loved seeing her on your videos and thank you for using this podcast to encourage people to get help in honor of her.

[@vanessaa308]

Andrew I’m so so sorry. This episode has brought me to tears. Thank you for sharing your experience and giving advice to anyone who is suffering. As someone who struggles immensely with mental health, I’m glad that you and Sam are using your platform to promote the seriousness of mental health. I’m sending you so much love and healing during this time. And Sam, thank you for being an amazing friend to Andrew during this time ❤

[@Kennaggrace]

Sam hearing you talk about anxiety and social anxiety and adhd is making me feel so less alone & I relate so much so thank you greatly❤

[@theresacasillas2172]

I have no words. I loved seeing her in your videos. Your loss is beyond deep. Please don’t let it consume you. Always speak about her with love.

[@celysehernandez6862]

Seeing his spirit altered so much is heartbreaking. We all love you Andrew, she is with you always. Always was and always will be.

[@SamiG247]

I love this podcast episode. I’m so so sorry for your loss Andrew. I also wanna suggest EMDR therapy if you’re experiencing flashbacks from the scene and things like that. It sounds kinda crazy like does it actually work, but it helped me SO much after a traumatic event I had that I kept thinking about, getting flashbacks, and panic attacks from. Love you both!!

[@niknak2770]

tearing up throughout the whole video. my heart goes out to you Andrew, losing someone is never easy. sending hope and healing to your family 🤍

[@adrianahays5477]

I’ve been following you both for so long. I hurt so bad for you Andrew I balled this entire episode. I’ve always struggled with mental health and have almost gone through with committing suicide a few times without telling anyone. I have a two and a half year old son. I needed to see this video and hear this story now I know I can never leave my family or son behind. The pain for everyone is unbearable. She loves you. You’re both amazing

[@AngelaMarie426]

I’m sobbing right now .. this episode was really rough but I appreciate Andrew sharing. You are so loved Adrianna 🤍

[@shahzianoorally4788]

Oh Andrew, my heart is so gutted for you and your family. How unbelievably devastating, Adrianna was such a beautiful soul, I hope she is at peace now.

[@rileycobb6545]

i lost my 13 year old cousin to suicide a few months ago. it’s the hardest thing i’ve ever been through and it feels never ending. he never showed any signs and always seemed like the happiest person. i will never understand and i will always wish i could have done something to help him. wishing you healing and sending love ❤️

[@chlover42069]

Thank you, I really needed to see this video. Andrew, im so sorry for your loss. Don’t listen to anyone on how you should be mourning. Do what you know will help you. Sam, you seem like an amazing friend. Very glad you two have each other. Keep spreading the love

[@agirlandheriphone4728]

Words can’t express how sorry I am for your loss. It is comforting to know that she is sending you signs, that is beautiful. You will see her again one day in heaven ❤ she isn’t in pain anymore. She is only love. We love you both Sam and Andrew. Thank you for being so candid and honest.

[@tatianahenry5605]

Samantha and Andrew... don't apologize to any of these haters....they are not even worth being mentioned

[@haleyburke1406]

I watched every single video you ever uploaded with Adrianna, and pretty much any video you’ve ever uploaded. My god. This news was a punch in the gut, and so shocking. Her smile was so contagious and beautiful. She was so funny. I remember when you announced her pregnancy on your channel. And your alls story times from when you were kids--. I can’t even begin to imagine how you and your family feel Andrew. I’m so so very sorry. I wish I could express how much my heart hurts for you. I’m sending you all the light I can possibly muster, and extra light for her son. I just became a mom on September 2nd of this year, and thinking about little Blake. 💔💔Im sending him the biggest, warmest momma hug I can. I love you guys

[@celesterose712]

You guys I love getting ready while listening to the podcast. Please dont shorten them!

[@avavav1]

I cant even believe ppl hate comment on you two. You guys are literally the best most funniest cutest pair and honestly your podcast has to reach the top like i have no doubts.

[@chloeaase737]

When it comes to comparing situations to others or just feelings in general. There is something I always say and live by,” your feelings are valid, if they weren’t you wouldn’t have them.”

[@rebeccalavern8397]

I lost my best friend to suicide almost 3 years ago. Like Andrew said, the pain will always be there. Not a day goes by a don’t think about Kenny. She never got to meet my children, be apart of my wedding, or have kids of her own (her ultimate dream). Please please stay. You are so loved. So much more than you know. ❤

[@Rznky]

Sobbed😭😭 Andrew your stories since Adrianna are just 💔 I hope your grieving process is full of moments like that.

[@Momof3littlemes]

First, I want to give my condolences to you, Andrew. You are in my prayers. I can’t imagine how you are feeling. Second, to you, Sam - I have been watching you for a few years now because you have such a genuine, thoughtful, and kind heart. You have shown us how to be a good friend helping another friend with their grief. Thank you so much to both of you for sharing; I know it has helped shine so many lights on so many topics in just one video. (PS - Andrew - not sure if you know this about night anxiety, but something that has REALLY helped me is finding my “time limit”…if I stay up past 10:45/11, I’m up all night, so…I make sure I start trying to go to sleep by 10.) 🥰🙏🏻🧡

[@paulinemckinley2807]

Sending you so much love Andrew. Thank you for being so vulnerable with us. I love watching and listening to you guys. I’m so envious of y’all’s friendship! 💖

[@Just_Jess]

Andrew my thoughts are with you and your family! I lost my "brother" (he was my cousin but raised as my brother) to suicide almost 5 years ago and I still breakdown on a random Tuesday because reality sets in that he's never coming back. It sounds like you have a great support system which makes grieving a little more manageable. Sending so much love to you right now ❤

[@202checkerz]

Sending you so much love Andrew at this sad time, and to Sam too for everything you’ve been through. ❤ You are both such beautiful, warm souls that spread so much light and laughter to the world. This podcast is such a treasure; you speak so eloquently, bravely and insightfully about life, loss and human nature. Hearing about those troll comments is disgusting - it’s ironic really that the unhealthiest thing you can do to yourself is have such hate in your heart. Keep being you and keep celebrating yourselves. ❤

[@laurynpawl6839]

You guys were so vulnerable today. Please do some more episodes like this. I can really relate to both of you.

[@Missy_L1987]

I’m a silent samantha watcher lol I love the videos Andrew makes a debut! Today I found your podcast, I watched this one first and my heart is breaking for you Andrew ❤ I now watched all of them and liked and gave a good review on apple pod, you 2 are so funny and sweet. I’m hooked! Keep doing what you’re doing and don’t let a single soul get you down! I’m just cleaning my house while my little man is at school, crying, laughing and soaking up every inch of your amazing personalities. I can’t get enough! ❤from Canada.

[@Rizza.]

ugh andrew my best friend passed in 2017 right before she turned 25 and i know EXACTLY what you mean when you say that person was the part of you that is your personality, and your humor... just 100% can relate completely.

[@Rizza.]

...AND right after she passed i was in a store with my nieces clothes shopping and i saw a pair of sweatpants that had a phrase down the side that she used to say a lot throughout high school.. of course immediately bought them. i still know those pants are for her every time i wear them lmfaooooo it feels so lame but i understand

[@LizzieFlizzie]

I’m so sorry about Andrea. It’s hard to lose someone close to you. My Momma passed away last September and I’m still having issues. I feel like I don’t have a purpose in life anymore. We did everything together and I talked to her every day. It took me about 3 months to get through not talking to her. I miss her everyday. It makes me feel better when I text her still today. I feel like she see it and it comforts me. I pray for you and family. I got on KZbin about 2019. You’re one of the first channels I came across and laughed so hard and you always made my day. I love the videos with your family also. Great bond. The love y’all have for each other is amazing. I saw you and Samantha Jo in videos together and you guys are the greatest!!! Love you two so much!!

[@katetomlinson1638]

andrew my heart shatters for you, your strength is heroic, and losing somebody suddenly and so tragic is a shock that slaps you for years, im still dealing with braden peltiers murder from march 26th 23 the date is burnt into me heart, the news of him being shot crushed everyone, rip bra, our soldier, hero, and best friend! im so sorry for your loss andrew i have so much sympathy and i know you are strong because i see myself in you, or visa versa. either way i love you dudes, i hope youe healing journey starts soon and ends soon!

[@hct_529]

Love this episode. Thank you for talking about what is hard to talk about. So sorry for your loss Andrew.

[@kristenhajjar2406]

I lost my sons father the same way. He was only 24 years old and I just imagine everyday how much he’s missed of life. He’s missed everything in my kids life but also just in his own life. 24 is so young to leave this earth, so much left to experience. Like you said, it doesn’t get easier just find ways to cope differently. Thoughts to you ❤

[@taken4ever52309]

Andrew, I’m so so sorry. My heart is absolutely broken for you, your family and Adrianna’s son. I’m sitting here sobbing hearing about this and I only knew Adrianna from your videos so I can’t imagine what you and your family are feeling. This is such a tragedy. She seemed like such an amazing person and I’m so heartbroken for you. I don’t know what else to say other than my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. ❤

[@222ulema]

andrew, i am so sorry for your loss. sending so much love to you and your family. thank you both for opening up in this episode.

[@LilMissBookLuvr]

I could literally listen to y’all talk all day. I’ll watch any length episode ❤️ sending prayers

[@abbilinn17]

i cried a lot during this episode because i relate to it all too well. i had my grandma and grandpa on my dads side both pass away in 2014, my other grandma in 2020, and i would sometimes get sad here and there, but would mostly use dark humor and crack little jokey jokes to cope with my sadness, and then last week while sitting in my car it hit me so hard that they are actually gone and i won’t ever get to talk to them again, they won’t be at my wedding next year, they won’t meet my daughter, and i got so jealous that so many other people get to have their grandparents in their lives for so long and i only got 15 years with 2 of them and 21 years with the other. i’m so sorry that you lost someone that close to you.. the day my favorite cousin goes i think my soul will leave my body forever. (also, crying screaming throwing up with sadness because i was in the Dells visiting my fiancés family in august hoping you’d be there. man)

[@tannerlewis]

This episode is so special and NEEDED!! Andrew I send you my deepest most sincere condolences to you and your family❤️ Thank you both for being so open and expressive about your struggles, you BOTH are changing the world for the better. Thank you.

[@Nikkkielizabeth]

This was amazing guys, I could listen to you talk for hours, especially when it comes to subjects such as mental health, it makes me feel like I’m not alone. And I’m so sorry for your loss Andrew, I was shocked when you posted about it on Instagram. From what I saw, Adrianna was such a funny, great girl. 🧡

[@savannahterry2574]

Im so so sorry andrew I lost my brother in 2019, my brother took his own life. So many prayers for you and your family, I love you guys so much!