I'm a High School Dropout | SoSonia

[@LisaYoungUK.]

I could watch SoSonia all day long..

[@notyou0001]

What I'm scared to change? Everything.. Or nothing. I don't have a dream, or something that i want to accomplish. I feel like I'm just wasting my time, if I could give my life to someone who needs it more I wouldn't give it a second thought. If only could someone teach me how to Live. I'm so lost.

[@marge22-22]

I used to feel the same. Try every activities that appeal to you . By trying you'll learn about yourself, and you'll slowly learn to live outside social dictates. Fear is a powerful vessel that could take you farther than you ever thought!

[@SOSoniaChannel]

Thank you so much for making that comment, and thank you so much for your honesty and personal experiences. I would really like to talk about it with you. Personally, I really think that its a combination of motivation and time. The last video I posted (less then a year ago) took place in the current time where I felt useless and just taking up space. After I dropped out of high school (the time when I made this video) I felt so much more happy. I guess that is why I made this video, it is about the leap I took of changing my life so drastically that I was able to be happy again. When did you start feeling this way? Why do you want to give your like to some one that needs it more? I hope this helps at all. Hope your having a good day. Sonia

[@adriannefluet2896]

Piccolamb22 hey i understand

[@louera]

I absolutely feel you. right now, I'm in college and not really living my best. it's like I'm in a trance most times, like this isn't really my life and I should be else where, living the way i really want to. but fear is holding back, since change is scary. on the other hand, it could propel me to change since I fear living a life that isn't mine and being unhappy more than I fear change

[@BarryRGreene]

Sonia, you have never "dropped out." You dropped into an amazon adventure. You have never "left" school. The whole world is your school. Thank you. You are a blessing to the world.

[@Onbetween]

Her videos always make me feel so happy and inspired. Like the little fuzzy feeling you get when everything's right for a little bit, or when you watch a good movie or discover THAT song. I wish all the best for you Sonia, there is so much more good to come your way I'm sure of it! All the love, I

[@naixma4772]

your description is so accurate 👌

[@MsTtttracy]

yeah i feel the same :)

[@cinemoni]

Sonia, you are such a huge inspiration! I'm so glad you're following your own path and not what is deemed normal. There's a lyric by John Mayer that I think goes well with this video: "They love to tell you 'stay inside the lines', but something's better on the other side."

[@anadelaisla]

I always find myself returning to see a maraton of all Sonia videos She's a big inspiration to me ;))

[@CoqueMacho]

You are awesome little Sonia

[@SOSoniaChannel]

You are amazing! I'm so happy I met you!

[@AmbikaDevi]

Go Sonia! I just took the plunge, gave into dealing with piles of paperwork and creating a whole new freedom for my writing. This involved dissolving my relationship with my publisher...and becoming one! There are still a few more steps to take and I agree-it is extremely refreshing! I am grateful for your films and send you love, Ambika

[@SOSoniaChannel]

It is so amazing to hear you say that! Congratulations, that is an amazing leap to take. Thank you Ambika, I can't wait to see what you do as a publisher. :)

[@AmbikaDevi]

Here's the link: www.MythologemPress.com

[@haleysorn-ampai9003]

Sonia I could never have the courage to leave school the way you did, Thailand or Jakarta neither schools are right. You are so incredibly right about class setting. I wish I could stop. We miss you so so much! And seeing you happy is the highlight of my week! Keep kicking butt and taking names, everything you are is beautiful.

[@LeahFrench]

Glad to see you back on this channel, Sonia! Can't wait to see what you create this season.

[@Internet_Fairy]

I love it so, so much! So inspirational and heart-warming

[@Zainaxxc]

Where is she now ?

[@chrisneve8647]

This is amazing!!! I'm a high school drop out as well and I just finished the most beautiful 500 mile bike tour along the west coast of the United States while wearing lipstick the whole time!!! Your film work is very unique and inspires many ideas inside of me! Can't wait to keep up on your videos!

[@kamelacubillos]

Wow...I just love the art and the beauty put into this video. This world is one crazy place, and I'm glad that Sonia is able to share all her adventures and journeys with us on KZbin. She's gonna do great things :)

[@severined.c7753]

Wow, Sonia I can't tell you how much this video touch me right now... I'm scared of every single thing currently and school is on the top of my list. Along with going outside (in this wide big world!) and living this life that I must admit I never really know how to live :( I don't have any plans about what I am gonna do later and now I just feel completely blinded by everything and everyone, only knowing that I need to live a creative life. I guess a lot of people feel that way but I just though I'd share it here. I love your videos and I hope you have a great day! I'm really proud and admirative of you for having enough courage to live the life you want

[@wazzap500]

You probably heard a lot of people tell you to not live in the past or you will live a life in regret. What these people probablx dont know is this: Don't live in the future or you will live a life in fear. You should live in this moment. Relax for a moment and forget about the future for a moment. Focus on your current goal and take small steps to accomplish the great things. Maybe you are overwhelmed but you know you can do it.

[@severined.c7753]

Thank you so much! I really needed to see this

[@sincerelyjae]

You are the definition of cool..you know why? cause you're different and completely yourself and love that

[@rhiannontheodoulou2788]

I study Film Production and Sonia literally inspires me to create and experiment so much more! She's so amazing 💗

[@unapologeticmoi]

Congratulation girl ,go on and be your unapologetic self. I am daring myself to be more open and just to do something and not be scared ofthe unknown . So basically feel the fear and do it anyway

[@guinnessbradley5108]

Good for you ! I took the leap with a gap year so I could do some traveling. You are right - the world is now my classroom

[@SOSoniaChannel]

Thats amazing! How did your gap year go?

[@guinnessbradley5108]

So well! I'm working on my photography portfolio and I get to see the Grand Canyon soon xx

[@AhsanteB]

YES SEASON 2!!! Have fun on the journey, Sonia!

[@DulceRubiocandy]

Ahsante !!!

[@lexieleeann8447]

when I'm stressed about school I watch soul pancake and you guys always seem to put a smile on my face

[@rebexxa]

"I see it as jumping off a cliff. The free fall. Diving into the cold, endless, murky waters of life. Anything could be in there. But hell is it refreshing." Almost made me cry for some reason.

[@Jehan25ful]

whatever will happen to you Sonia , wherever the life will take you , don't ever lose this honesty . your videos touch my soul ! I send you a lot of love ..

[@ilovecutexoxo]

ARGGHHHH these videos from SONIA are so satisfying to watch.

[@mythirdchannel]

I am slowly falling in love with the journey SoSonia and the new age creators have taken me on with their video-narratives. Sometimes I wonder if it's a youth thing, daring to dream, aspiring to be, being out there and trying to get a grasp on this thing called living. I remember myself as a teenager and a young adult, I remember having these questions, but I also feeling confused, and alone, and scared to even explore them in my own mind. Always looking at my peers, admiring how they were trying to conquer the world. And even as an un-confident and insecure teen, still for many years later, I can look back and realize that there were moments, periods, times that I could find my confidence, and the world made sense, and I was for a very tiny bit part of the adventure. And I think it's something that I've lost as I grew older, things became comfortable, and comforting, and stable. And those are all good things! they really are, but I think I'll always have to wonder what could have been. Other times I wonder if it's an art thing, making all of these beautiful short, concise, vignettes of life, so beautiful, are they here only for us to see? only for show? the doodles, the visual imagery, a collection, bits and pieces, how to they exist in their wider context, in your life? surely some were tailored or made to express an idea, but some must be just what happens when life happens, a small window into the journey. But the thing I wonder about the most, is where does one find courage? because for me, and I imagine a lot of others, what's holding me back is fear of failure, making a mistake. I was thinking about it today, before watching this video, there's not much in life that's stopping me from doing anything I want to do, I'm financially secure at the moment, I'm an adult, I have free time, and sure I am committed to my job, but people quit all the time. I wondered what I'd do if I had the courage to follow my dreams, and the sad reality of it is - that there's nothing stopping me other than me, and that I have no idea what those dreams are. Never have, if we're being honest. I didn't grow up knowing what I wanted to do, I just tried out so many things. And sure, I was good at a lot of them, and I've stuck to some of them to this day, but none became the pivotal dream to peruse. And this isn't to say that I'm not happy or satisfied with my life, I usually am, everyone feels displeased at times with things, everyone is entitled to feeling unhappy at times, it's just what's reasonable to expect. But I can't help but wonder, am I doing what I'm meant to do? or just riding a wave that I got on? Seeing you out there, taking a chance, playing the odds, putting yourself out there and taking risks, it's inspiring, and it makes me happy :) even though I know that not every day in life can be like that. I hope I can be a bit more daring in my life too. And I hope you keep dreaming and chase your dreams.

[@TylerMayMedia]

Dang Sonia! This is so good! I love how you put so many elements and moving parts together into one piece of art! Amazing video! Hope we cross paths on your traveling again in the future, my friend!

[@paolonaive]

really wished that i have met you when you were still here in Jakarta! you're creativity is beyond!!!

[@SOSoniaChannel]

Thank you so much!

[@abbyescatron2026]

Your videos are always worth the wait

[@SOSoniaChannel]

You have no idea how MUCH that means to me Abegail.

[@austinthaijam7009]

the ending gave me chills. "hell is it refreshing". made me feel like I was 20 again exploring san francisco for no other reason than to get closer to the vein of life. so inson-spiring

[@imagineallthemangoes9421]

Sonia, you're an amazing free spirit. I love that. Every time I watch your videos I feel inspired to create and look at the world in a more beautiful way. I hope you continue to find beauty wherever the road takes you

[@kasiemariecreative]

Your voice, your passion and your drive are all so incredible. Please keep inspiring young minds to do what they love. This was amazing.

[@addieprinz3569]

I love you. You speak the truth and it amazes me how honest you are. You are definitely an inspiration

[@x7ogforever]

SoSonia you create fantastic content! Unlike anything I've seen before. I'm scared to commit to things, ranging from parties and meetups to a university degree or a path in my life. And so, at 21 years old, I fear I am will not amount to anything more than a jack of all trades, master of none.

[@JrCruseky]

To me, she has the best content on this channel. So creative, and her story telling is great!

[@niciacruz]

Sonia, you're such an inspiring person! I wanna be like that, create like that, share stories like that: in such a creative and loving way. So thankful for having you in my life (even if it's just on the screen).

[@growithbelle]

This is the first time I watch a SoSonia video and omg I can't get over how creative you are and how much you managed to do and say in only three minutes

[@haleyblaismusic]

YOU'RE SO AWESOME

[@karnaphorionescaflown8074]

I often rewatch your videos and they keep getting amazing. Make me feel better each time. Love your art. Cheers from France.

[@thanhhiennguyen5894]

She's back

[@SOSoniaChannel]

I sure am!

[@bonnie4552]

Everything you make is amazing and beautiful and purposeful. Love it, Sonia!

[@candacewilliamson91]

Sonia! I've been watching your videos since day one, you always inspire me. I'm 18 too going to a Community College that I hate stuck in a job that's a 9-5 nightmare. Everyday I wish I could quit and do what I want, I love to film and talk about life with people, but i'm scared if I leave it all behind I'll fail. I wish I could change my doubt. I look at my camera everyday that I worked so hard for just itching to be used but I've gotten to scared. But tomorrows a new day, right? Here's to Change. Much love, Candace :)

[@Participant]

Hi Candace, thanks so much for your comment! It means SO much to us that you would share your thoughts and what's going on in your life now. Sometimes taking "the plunge" means starting small. Just pick one or two days a week to pick up your camera and start creating. Don't set goals, don't judge yourself for your creative decisions. Just create to create! Once you get back into the habit of creating, we're sure all that doubt will melt away!

[@hannahes666]

Welcome back Sonia, we've missed you

[@oneandall7586]

YES! You're back!!!!!!

[@Jennifrlim]

Im afraid to step out of my comfort zone. But you make me rethink stuffs, Sonia. :) cant wait for your new adventures to unfold!

[@LucidScreening]

Sonia, you could easily be huge on KZbin, this is your future. Use SoulPancake as a springboard, not a final destination!

[@edenkauffmann6393]

This was absolutely beautiful and i enjoyed every second of watching it. I have lots of journals too, with paintings and poems etc. And I couldn't be more excited for my first trip out of the country coming up. I have been so scared but watching this is getting me more excited. 💗

[@ellil7106]

YES YES YES SONIA IS BACK IM SO HAPPY! THIS HAS BEEN THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY

[@summersoaks4407]

AHHHHHH!!!! I'm so glad you're back. I thought it was an abrupt ending and you weren't returning.

[@rocioargueta3545]

Im so inspired by your creative process and your way to translate your ideas to reality. Its such a refreshing video to see when you feel uninspired and unmotivated. Thanks for reminding me of what one can turn with just a simple idea. :)

[@princesstedla1234]

Before this video I replayed your videos over and over again mesmerised by your art. Now I finally have a whole new season to watch😆✌🏾️😆 SO EXCITED TO SEE WHAT YOU COME UP WITH SONIA

[@katkandi1997]

I'm scared of disappointing my family....I graduated high school last year, and I had originally planned to go straight into college. I got accepted into the art school of my dreams, they gave me all the financial help and scholarships they could offer, but my family doesn't have any money to help me and it was just not affordable to do on my own. the weekend after i graduated i took a road trip halfway across the country and visited 6 new states I had never been to before. I always knew I wanted to travel, but this adventure sparked something in me that made traveling the world seem less like a dream and more like a reality. As soon as I got back from my adventure I was crushed with the realization that I had to get a job. all the money I had saved for the trip had run out and I had nothing left for gas, food, or any of the new bills I acquired as a new adult... I want more than anything to just travel again. I hate working the same job day in and day out, and my family still expects me to go back to school, but I find more knowledge in the people i meet when im traveling than I could ever learn sitting in a classroom for hours everyday. I don't know how I could ever make this a reality though, and i am scared of disappointing everyone.

[@LivingMyLife1991]

One thing you need to keep in mind is that it is your life. You are allowed to do with it how you please. This is something I still need to accept myself too. I am also scared of disappointing people, but I know I am my own person and to be able to become the adult I know I am I need to make mistakes and learn from them. Only one who are allowed to judge us in the end is God not your parents or anyone else. If you are happy yourself, then it is all good and I am certain your parents want you to be happy as well, even though they might be disappointed in you in the beginning, they will get over it eventually. But working is something we all need to do and if the job is related to something you love, then it would be pure joy to work and earn money. To be able to do something you love and earn money to do it in the same time. Maybe you could become a flight attendant or just start your own travel blog, which is also a way to start earning money with something you love to do. You could blog about almost anything. Maybe there is some cool places or activities to do where you live and write reviews for others. At first it would be definitely slow start, but hey, it is a start :D This way you also show your parents that travelling is your passion. Sorry if some of the sentences make no sense. I am bad at expressing myself well in English :/

[@niteclock7315]

This might be the last KZbin video I see for 2 years. So I figured I'd leave a comment. My big adventure is just beginning as well. I'm leaving on an LDS mission, 2 years away from home in a place I've never been before. There's a lot of big changes to my life coming up that are so exciting. You're videos are always my favorites, your art is beautiful. Thanks for making a video that somehow applied to my life exactly. Have fun on your adventure SoSonia!

[@kushshah6953]

The cinematography on this video is amazing!!

[@nataliedavila1040]

You're an incredible human being, Sonia. Thank you for existing and being you. If you ever find yourself in Chicago please hit me up because I would love to meet your beautiful soul. 💘

[@kesizhuo]

From the video: ¨The thing is a school setting is not for everyone, and that´s OK. I know that I love to learn and what I did was remove the 4 walls and my current classroom just got a whole lot bigger¨. That sentence gives A LOT to reflect about. In an ideal world the school setting should meet every student´s need, and it should not be OK that it doesn´t. As teachers we need to keep it always in mind. Great video!

[@alexisbinch2643]

I AM SO EXCITED FOR SEASON 2. YOU ARE MY FAVOURITE!

[@darceystreeter170]

I absolutely love these type of videos they inspire me to go out and explore the world

[@evewhale5738]

I know this video was made a long time ago but I relate. I just dropped out of high school yesterday. Im scared of the future and whether I'll blow the fresh start with my own selfishness and comfort zones I hide within. Im scared that this life I have been given will not meet its' potential and I'll find my new classroom to be made of closed off walls.

[@parisgbrl]

Don’t be scared. Adventure is waiting for you. ☺️I’m proud of you for doing something so many people don’t have the bravery to do. You don’t need to worry about having a the best start. What matters is the end. In the end, you can decide if you have done all you wanted to do, go where you wanted to explore, and completed what you wanted done. You got this

[@anamm3351]

I hope she is good 🙏

[@sarahjasmin7677]

I would love to join you someday :) Have fun Sonia. Keep doing what YOU do best!

[@liezemarieze9661]

You know, it's so weird. I watch your video's every day, and it helps me so much. You think just the same as I or I think the same as you haha! But i just want to thank you for that💛

[@dreamingofelena4900]

I really need this. You all way brighten my life with your videos.

[@SOSoniaChannel]

Wowh that means so much to me. Thank you so much, I hope you are having an amazing day. :)

[@elizamitchem8641]

Sonia you are such an amazing and inspirational person!

[@anmaba]

Good luck and all the best for whatever lies ahead! Lots of love xxx

[@BharatKulkarnibb]

You are such an amazing person! it was great knowing you, you have made the best decision in your life being a dropout! All the best for your future! Be crazy! Get Inspired and keep Inspiring

[@mickigp]

This is so amazing! Best of luck with everything. I can't wait to see what's in store.

[@groovigirl]

I'm in the process of applying to colleges and I am incredibly overwhelmed. I have been staring at essay prompts for way too long. This video really helped me take a step back and realize that there is more to my life than high school and college. I think things might end up working out.

[@nicolasbueno9136]

You just made my heart sing, I´m completely in love with your video.

[@tanyameyer5326]

Something I'd like to change is to be secure enough in myself to not need the approval of others. Slowly working on it :)

[@Jacqueline-iw5kk]

I am so happy someone shared this video with my. I'm also a high school drop out. I had plans to play Divison 1 volleyball at Princeton University, but during my junior year of high school I suffered a significant brain injury. Dropping out has turned people against me, but it was the best decision I've made. Sonia, I would LOVE to connect with you.... With MUCH love, Jacqueline

[@tyrafiona]

Amazing Sonia, it takes true courage in who you are to live the life you want to live, it is a truly beautiful thing, because isn't that what life is all about? Finding yourself, deciding what is your reality, and then actually living it. Congrats! :)

[@anthieuhh]

i am pretty scared of the unknown that lies ahead in my future. Its crazy how much can change in a short time, so we all really have to make the most of right now. I lpve your videos so much and glad to see you back :)

[@Agt123h]

You do you girl! Who cares about others you do whats best for you and the universe will provide!

[@1997jankuschef]

This is really cool. I'm one of the most self-conscious people I know, and it means that I am constantly evaluating how I can get more out of my life - or rather, being frustrated that I don't connect more easily with people and take more risks. That's what scares me: that I'll never be the person I want to become.

[@annaseufert6397]

I appreciate soulpancake, SoSonia and their work so much. obviously Sonia is investing a lot of time, creativity, truthfulness and general awesomeness ;) in those videos ... and still she is getting rude comments about being a "rich blond girl" At the moment I am talking a year off, getting the same comments ... making me questioning my priorities more than they should It just made me so happy realising that those comments mustn't have something to do with the person they are aimed at. I admire you , taking a lot of strength from your videos, and other, really lovely comments prove, that there are a lot, you inspire and help as well. I feel so deep respect for the fact that people can cause such feelings in another. So if YOU decided to follow your "plan of changing plans", as have the opportunity to do so, who is anyone to stand in your way? This is a shoutout to all those who sense what's best for themselves in their hearts. try it. or you will never know who you could have inspired.

[@hannages7719]

can't wait for the new videos coming up 😍 you're so inspiring! I'm in the process of making big decisions myself right now and it helps so much to see you make your decisions and being happy with it 😊

[@MsPiineapple]

Oh Sonia, you are such a brave woman. You inspire me.

[@amegabyteofmaya]

I'm SO excited for season 2 :)

[@LeeKiwiMusic1]

Just left Uni before finishing my degree. Next scary step is to travel and start creating. So crazy how the right things just start popping up, like this video ❤️ perfect for right now x

[@vatti6493]

What... Do you do for income?

[@TheMIGHTYBeagle]

for real

[@mescalinemonkey8183]

Idk

[@huneebui5545]

True that

[@AllStar1568]

Thats the real topic here

[@Participant]

Glad you asked! Sonia is a very sought after filmmaker and artist who makes videos for us and other clients. We feel very lucky to be working with her.

[@agata8980]

Sonia is back! I'm so so happy

[@atlas5335]

i'm inspired! i don't think i need to be so worried anymore! i will search for, why i am not happy right now!

[@SoHoEffect]

I just decided to take time off university to become a writer and travel, start a youtube channel and learn photography. Thanks Sonia, this beautiful video was always in my head while thinking about my decision.

[@AL-or5iu]

You are such a kick ass lady and such a big inspiration to me! You inspire me to do what I really love, traveling! I hope some day we can meet! :)

[@ambivia]

I'm so happy to see your videos again. Your art is so lovely.

[@TheHomeAloneProject]

I have recently been compared to if not said that I have the potential to make videos in your style! Immediately I was like "I'm not worthy of such a comparison" I feel like I lack the inbuilt talent and creativity , resources, drive and adventure for life that you so posses. But I was of course flattered. But it's the mind set above that I need to change. the belief that I can be good and that I have inbuilt talent and that I just need to work hard to create it/ show it to the world. That's what scares me right now and something I need to work on. Also to find my passion for life,my vocation. I feel like I need to take drastic steps in order to get there but I need courage and bravery like you to make the change. This video is inspiring ! I so happy I discovered you through becoming youtube ! you have a bright future ahead ! Can't wait to see what you become/ create

[@charliemartin2471]

You amaze me all over again everytime I watch one a your videos! What a brave thing to do! You're so talented and incredibly create... Wow!

[@charliemartin2471]

Also, you inspire the heck out of me and make me want to better myself!

[@superpowerLisa]

SoSonia, you make me cry from beauty overwhelm!

[@DrakyLifetale]

You're a huge inspiration SoSonia! Keep creating (:

[@4dr14nn3]

0:57 in and I'm already feeling super mystical and magical

[@thricewrithed]

I've been on youtube for a long time but I have honestly never seem someone with as much talent and potential as you.

[@nadine010]

This is one of the greatest thing I've ever seen! INSPIRATION

[@KittyKat-ms3yz]

Very very inspired and moved by this. Thank you

[@Verte0Jaune]

I have no other words than thank you and i love you and I am happy you exist. Wishing you all the most beautiful wonders of life

[@_digital_dan]

I come from Ukraine and started my first year at the university here this September. And since that I've been feeling quite unhappy. But I'm afraid to drop out because I won't be able to transfer to a German institution in a year, which, I think, will open a new and much more exciting chapter in my life.

[@Indielollita]

I'm sort of in the same boat. Tbh i love studying (i dont know if i genuinely love to study or its just because that's the only thing ive been doing for the past 12-13 years) and learning, but sometimes i ask myself if sitting in a lecture hall and taking notes is actually making me happy/going to be useful in the future. My classes just began so Im trying not to jump to the conclusion, but I feel you.

[@mivaproductions]

Sonia you are actually such a inspiration man !! keep doing your thang :)) x

[@angelavelasco6441]

Been waiting for so long for your videos Sonia!

[@ambivia]

Something big in my life I'm scared to change... I just moved away from home and I find it so hard to live in the wide-eyed carefree exciting way I want to without drowning in anxiety about money problems. But one of the ways I tackle it is creating art every day, just for the sake of creating.

[@NikaSimak]

That is so cool and inspiring.... well I just have no words

[@wildherfilms]

Oh my goodness, oh my goodness OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!! Sonia, I discovered your channel a few months ago, and I could relate to you so much. I am currently 15, I am extremely passionate about film, art and expression, but the school I go to does not nurture my creative side at all, and I feel like a caged bird. My family can not afford to send me to an Art High School, but all I want to do is create films that inspire the world. Yesterday I had a panic attack during school from all the stress that was put on me, and I had to go home. I even filmed myself talking about the school system/society and why I do not agree with it. Right now, the video is private, but if you are interested in seeing it, tell me and I can make it public. I really do not want to go to school anymore, but the society has placed a fear in my head that if I drop out of highschool I won't be good enough, and I will not get a job, and I hate that. I am in such a dilemma. All I want to do is create meaningful films that touch people's hearts, and I want to change the world. Im not sure if the universe is sending me a message by seeing this video, but it would mean the world to me if you responded. I've also always wanted to work on Soul Pancake!