I'M BACK! life updates and mental health chat ❤️‍🩹

[@lindsayashton]

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. LIKE LITERALLY GORGEOUS. I’ve been watching you for years and have always been sooooo jealous of how beautiful you are. It makes me so sad to hear you say those things about yourself. “Surely anyone would feel this way if they looked like me” no girl!! You are beautiful!

[@Ray-pt5bi]

You are Beautiful, I agree. I don't feel jealous about looks, but I have no doubt in my mind that you are Beautiful

[@starsheart]

1000% agree. I have always thought the same.

[@AnaSerroGomes]

Thought exactly the same!!!!

[@clove4240]

Totally agree, you are beautiful inside and out!

[@sejbomb]

I think she’s beautiful and has a beautiful personality. I think a lot of us love what we don’t or can’t have, I’ve had those with curly hair want my straight hair and I’d pay ALOT to have their gorgeous curls. I don’t love my side profile, but unless I have surgery there’s not alot I can do, so I now just pretend it doesn’t exist 😂

[@jesscrimston]

It’s not that adhd is fashionable, it’s just that it was misunderstood and misdiagnosed, particularly in women, for so long! So glad to have you back ☺️

[@arielsview]

When you talk about your mental health you are helping EVERYONE whether they are struggling with the same things or not! Trust, the things that make you feel weird are the things that actually make you quintessentially human. Sending so much love!💕💕💕

[@sinestau]

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[@Blackh0lesun]

It is so strange to hear you say you don’t feel beautiful, because when I watch your videos I can’t help but think that you are indeed so beautiful. I have been watching your videos since the beginning and you have blossomed into a wonderful inspiring woman. I know that when your brains tells you the contrary it is hard to believe others, but I hope my words will resonate when you talk negatively about yourself😊

[@jillybeansx33]

couldnt have said it better!!

[@louisenicholls205]

silent viewer here - SO glad you are back ! Welcome back and take it at your own pace

[@NellieGarza-l6j]

Quiet viewer since FashionRocksMySocks. There is a quiet beauty in being open and vulnerable. Thank you for letting us see the turbulence. Its beautiful to feel understood and seen. I cant be the only one that feels so seen right now. Youre doing a kindness 💛

[@livhuson9300]

The fact that you have come back, filmed and edited this blog and uploaded it is a huge achievement with what's going on physically and mentally for you. I absolutely love watching your videos and it's been lovely to see you back

[@Amily13Awesome]

Would you like to make a video about motherhood? It would be really interesting to hear about your experience! You and Delilah seem to have such a nice mother/daughter relationship.

[@lucy-Lou]

For someone who doesn't comment on people's videos at all, I just want to say that I think you're doing an amazing job. For me, you talking about mental health makes it easier for other people not to feel alone. I know that when you're ready to come back when you are ready.

[@fabiolasajous5808]

Silent watcher from the beginning never comment on any channel. You were noticeably missed. You are kind and beautiful; don’t let negative thoughts make you think otherwise.

[@beaniedewitt]

Health concerns such as chronic illness is such a valid reason to have not felt like vlogging!! It takes so much energy not only physically with how you’re feeling energy wise but with how it much time it takes up for doctor appointments!! As well as very mentally draining processing everything which only exacerbates other mental disorders. Speaking directly from experience. So happy to see you back Rhiannon, we are all here for you 💗

[@Sueradiohead]

Oh Rhiannon, I hear you, I really, really do! You remind me so much of myself. Please can we chat more about this, mental health, ADHD, body issues are such a big part of our lives. Thank you so much for sharing 🥰💜xx

[@JosephinesMind]

I need to leave another comment - I've been in the proces of figuring out my own ADHD this year, and it just clicked that this is probably why you are my favorite youtuber. I connect with all of this so much. Thank you for being vulnerable, you are so brave

[@magdalenc4486]

Girl, you are honestly such a pretty woman and I’m so serious! I’ve always also loved your style and you have such a lovely soul. I know this wouldn’t have been easy for you to open up like this but I hope you know we all appreciate you and wish you the best always even if you post every week or take a much needed break.

[@AmeliaRane]

Energy ball tip - wet your hands with lukewarm water before you roll them. They won’t stick and it’s super easy xx

[@cathymungall-baldwin7391]

You're a superstar and very brave at being vulnerable here. You are so talented in so many things, artistic, creative, building things, cooking, crafting, film production, and your taste in style is impeccable for clothes, interior decor and homeware. I so feel for you about your body dysmorphia because you're stunning and look fabulous modelling clothes. Your channel is my go to for any inspiration I need, I've bought so many products you've modelled or demonstrated or recommended as I have no patience or energy for seeking things out myself. I can so relate with having multiple conditions. I have dyspraxia, dyslexia, PTSD, anxiety, depression, chronic cognitive fatigue, impaired short term memory and chronic physical pain from hip replacements and spinal injury. You've helped me to create a beautiful interior in my flat which helps when stuck at home often. xx

[@k8iepeach]

"I have all these things I want to do and all these ideas...why can't I get on with stuff like everyone else does" "I get by and then I burn out" this is SO relatable as someone with ADHD. I'm constantly finding myself stuck in that burn out cycle and I don't realize its the ADHD until I'm deep into the burn out. Still figuring out how to navigate these experiences..I didn't have the best experience with adderall but I've heard vyvanse is better...I appreciate you talking about this!! I also think it's a huge achievement that you're filming and uploading again

[@DarlingDaisy97]

SO glad you're back and i really hope you're feeling better!! I missed you so much, i've been rewatching your old vlogs like crazy the last 2 months🤭❤️

[@hannahbailey8906]

Wow! Such a raw and brave video! As a 30 year old mum who has recently realised I probably have adhd, this was such and interesting and insightful watch! I really appreciate it! Thank you, and sending you lots of love and hugs 💙💙

[@cami5657]

Do you think you have too much time on your hands? Could you use a distraction, maybe a voluntary role? I had the same issues when I was on maternity leave with my children and the distraction of work made me less self conscious.when you’re on your own a lot, you can overthink everything. By the way, you’re gorgeous. ,

[@tervalia]

It baffles me and makes me so sad that you feel that way about yourself. You're absolutely STUNNING and when I watch you're videos I always wish I looked like you.

[@HelloDolly1990]

Welcome back Rhiannon xx Thank you for talking about adhd, even in a climate of people rolling their eyes. My husband received a diagnosis in 2021 and has been medicated since then. Similar to you in the sense that antidepressants were never the right thing for him and he didn't understand himself until he began reading about adhd more. To provide perspective on why this diagnosis actually saved his life - he has type 1 diabetes and resultant complications, if he had not gotten help when he did with self-management, he would not have gotten on top of his blood sugar control, he wouldn't have stopped further damage to his eyesight, he wouldn't have achieved some of his most healthy hba1c readings for decades. It gave him mental clarity and the capacity to manage his life with all its complexities and if an adhd diagnosis gives anyone such capacity, its a good thing and never to be scoffed at!

[@lizzie8191]

Hiya, I have crohns and was diagnosed via an MRI and CT scan. It isn’t ideal, but it is possible. Don’t let them tell you it’s not. If you are suffering you should get the help you deserve. I also had the same issues where I could not gain weight, and it turned out to be crohns. It’s so lovely to see you back on KZbin, your blogs raised me! I hope you can see how beautiful you truly are, and how much we all love you.

[@victoriakarim7032]

I’ve watched you since the beginning and never ever commented, but I just wanted to say I wish you could see yourself through all of your subscribers eyes, because you are SO beautiful. I am so happy you are back because I love your content. It is a place for me to feel safe and content. Wishing you peace and happiness ❤

[@13vlee]

I was diagnosed with ADHD last October at the age of 28, I’m now 29. So much makes sense now. It’s so much more than just being hyperactive or having the inability to focus. It’s anything from not being able to regulate your emotions, hyperfixation on topics or hobbies (starting hobbies and not being able to see them through), impulsive (eating and spending), decision paralysis, etc. I LOVE talking about ADHD because I have friends who are also diagnosed and totally understand my struggles and I also like bringing awareness to the not so well-known symptoms. I was on anti depressants the two years prior to my diagnosis and it didn’t help my anxiety. When I found out that ADHD was the cause of my anxiety and depression, it made so much sense.

[@kamidoeslife]

We are the same! I am now 29 and go diagnosed at 28 in October. Lol

[@Hannah071293]

I’m currently on the waitlist with a psychologist for autism or adhd. I feel totally the same. Nobody would ever think I have either (apart from my closest) but I kept going through cycles of depression and anxiety and never felt good enough, low self esteem. Finally decided to take the plunge and investigate. So many women have been failed by our health system tbf!

[@emilyhouse1451]

Welcome back! Mental health is so important to talk about and it takes so much courage to be honest about it ESPECIALLY online. As an ocd girly I can 100% relate to the “ oh I am so ocd” thing it’s so infuriating when you are suffering!

[@jessely8209]

So so so nice to have you back! Massive respect for coming back when you have been struggling so much. As a fellow neurodivergent I know how hard the smallest aspects of life are! Xx

[@cecimn3977]

girl i have kind of your same body type and i get it, i was crying just today about how hard it is just trying to live life when you struggle sm with not liking how you look and it's awful to feel like it's such a vain thing to fix on, but for me is actually super paralzing. it's so so so soooo comforting to listen to you, and it makes me feel less stupid lol also, i missed you in general!!!!!! ilyyyyy

[@bethany-jade3090]

The joy I felt seeing this in my subscriptions! Welcome back Rhiannon 🩷

[@teeganegerton5472]

So courageous - so real - vulnerability is power - this has been so reassuring for myself in my own personal way. I have followed you for years; and always drawn to your beauty in the way you create, spend your daily rhythms, do family life, love your family so well. The space online you’ve created may not be all of you, but it’s still an outlet and expression and it’s so beautiful’ just as you are. Keep choosing you, there is light! Cheering you on.

[@TallulahMorgana]

I'm a chronic illness girlie too! Our phrase is "Unexplained issues? Think Connective Tissues!" Such as Ehlers Danlos, Hypermobile Ehlers Danlos or Hypermobility Spectrum Disorders. You have also mentioned your Mum's Crohn's in the past. Autoimmune things run in families and can be triggered at various times. So any type of Autoimmune Arthritis would make sense too and doesn't always show in bloods, x rays, mri etc. I have found getting involved in online illness communities has alerted me of things that are niche knowledge and 🦓 in NHS medicine. Although take stuff with a pinch of salt! Autoimmune things supposedly can link to the genes of many people that survived the medieval plague amde people more susceptible to autoimmune things?! I have Crohn's, hsd/heds, scoliosis, dysautonomia, oedema, neurodivergence and maybe also ankylosing spondylitis. aplus maybe others that I am forgetting💜 Your viewers stand by any length of KZbin break that you need. It is an achievement in itself to recognise the need to take a break and focus on physical, mental and emotional healing. You are a wonderful human being that brings your followers and I imagine your real-life people so much joy just by existing!

[@kori_bb]

Love love loved seeing this notification! Welcome back!

[@bekah2917]

I’ve been a subscriber for 12 years, all the way back to fashionrocksmysocks and I’ve always appreciated how you carry yourself. We have almost an identical build and I had similar comments to yours about people thinking I had an eating disorder, when I just had a fast metabolism and often a lack of appetite due to anxiety. Watching your videos has given me some confidence in my skin over the years. I tried some trends that I would normally shy away from due to my body type because I saw how great it looked on you. Take all the time you need to rest and maintain a healthy relationship with yourself. It makes complete sense why you needed a break and I’m glad you took the time for yourself. Prayers for you going forward with your doctors and the exciting stage of going back to school!

[@sarabea4817]

This was super brave. Thank you for your vulnerability and well done for taking the time off you needed 💞 Edit: I just saw the bit where you said you think anyone would be critical of themselves if they looked like you. This broke my heart because to me you are such an attractive person, you have such a lovely face, as well as being attractive you look KIND and warm. I think this shows just showcases your dysmoprhia because to us you look just lovely and I (and I'm sure many others) watch and are envious of your looks. Just to remind you that your thoughts are not always a reflection of reality. ❤

[@Kirschkern]

Yey, Welcome Back ❤ regarding your bedroom: if you look at a color wheel, the opposite color of petrol is an orange tone, so the warm yellow as a wall color could work. I would get the bigger blue knob, to stay in the blue family 😊 and I would consider painting the ceiling too

[@teaghanstevens]

I am so grateful that you have shared your experience with adhd!! I have been catching up on your videos from last year (congrats on your wedding btw!!) after falling off the KZbin bandwagon for a little bit, and I have noticed so many small signs that made me think you have adhd - as I could see myself in you (I was diagnosed a year ago). Thank you for advocating for our invisible disability!!! I hope that you give yourself so much love and grace, and that you send so much love to the younger versions of you who had to travel through life not knowing this pretty big detail!

[@georgiadawson6176]

Watched you for years and now makes a lot of sense why I’ve always felt like I related to you as a fellow neurodivergent! Thank you for being vulnerable and helping those who aren’t ND have a little insight and aid understanding! ❤

[@AliciaWallwork]

Genuinely been here since the beginning (on my old KZbin) and I can honestly truthfully say, you are beautiful on the outside and in. I would love to look like you 🤍🤍🤍

[@TheSammyrae215]

Coming from a similar mind and experience “a naughty toddler” is the most accurate way to describe what you’re experiencing I’ve ever heard. I’m proud of you for pushing forward. It’s hard. Stay strong.

[@HerArtisticAlterImag]

I'm so so glad to see you taking charge and ownership of your mental health! After watching you for so long and seeing your struggles as well as relating to a lot of them, it's so wonderful to see you taking care of yourself. Being open about mental health and neurodivergence is so important and it makes me so happy to see people talking about their journeys. You're an absolute inspiration and your gentle strength is a beautiful thing to be able to share in!

[@jbjochims]

your knitting skills are insanely good

[@rachelabrey3597]

I relate to you so much and have for all the years I've followed you. Thank you for being so open and honest, it's nice to able to relate to someone so much.

[@NatashaSummer]

Brave, vulnerable and yet your hope really shines through, that’s all I’ll say. Welcome back lovely. Do things at your own pace, we got you 🌸

[@alliasn3384]

Sending you so much strength and light. As someone with ADHD (albeit mild) I deeply relate to everything you’ve said, especially with the rush and burn out cycle. All things considered I totally understand the struggle to pick up the camera to vlog but yet you push through and that’s admirable - I don’t think I could do that! Having gone through it myself I think it’s so inspiring to see you pick up the pieces and try new things, especially a nutrition course. Even if it’s just a class or two, it’s still a huge accomplishment for those of us who are neurodivergent. So give yourself grace as well, things are hard but you will find your way! ❤

[@kristinesharp6286]

Ask Doug what he wants for the bedroom. Among the choices you like.

[@justathumb]

omg rhiannon hiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!! 🥰 literally checked your socials yesterday to see if you were okay! missed you!! so happy to see you again! ✨hugs ✨ edit: couldn't relate harder to that feeling of being absolutely exhausted by what appears to be doing "nothing". ive had ocd most of my life, and it's so incredibly comforting to see someone who i respect and admire so much who gets it! love you rhiannon, it's awful for any of us, but at least we're not alone in it! maybe we can even have a chuckle about it together 😉💕

[@francoherrera5237]

Thank you for being so vulnerable. You really help some of us feel less alone. I know it might not change anything, but I have always thought you were very beautiful. I saw someone else do this and I have put a picture of my younger self or my daughters and any time an intrusive thought comes up. I remind myself I would never say that to my younger self and especially not my daughters. I will never tell them they are ugly, overweight or anything I say to myself.

[@Amber-LouiseAsher]

I'm so happy to see you back! I've watched you for 8 years and really enjoy your wholesome, calming content. I would love for you to stay here with us, but your health and wellbeing must come first! Pls never doubt how much your subscribers really adore you.

[@ellaalto]

The door knobs- I like the blue ones and the bigger size. I don’t mind things matching but at the end of the day it is up to you. For the walls you could also repaint a warmer shade of white? If the other colours don’t quite work. Thank you for opening up about your health issues. In terms of being assessed properly it offers up proper treatment and care, so ignore the people who think “labels” are over rated. Our generation did not get assessed for these things like younger generations are, and now we are struggling and wondering why.

[@patsydewdney1998]

So lovely to have you back Rhiannon! thank you for being brave enough to share. You come across as such a lovely person inside and out. Praying for you and your family,

[@mimam4747]

I really appreciated your honesty, your openness and bravery is commendable so thank you for sharing it must have been so hard to speak about it and especially to post it to thousands of people online. But what you said about your appearance made me so sad😪 You are one of the most beautiful women I have ever laid eyes on and please don't ever put yourself down! Every time I see you, I'm in awe of your gorgeousness, your eyes, luscious hair, figure... I can't see anything you describe, all I see is stunning-ness🤩 God made you in your unique, amazing way and no-one else looks like you in the world, that's bloody something! When I catch myself speaking negatively about myself I picture little me and I say how would she feel if I said these things to her. I pray your self-healing journey as well as mine improves day by day and we love ourselves unconditionally just as we deserve too xxx

[@mimam4747]

ALSO MORE KNITTING CONTENT PLEASEEEEE!.

[@jillybeansx33]

I'm so happy you're back!!!!

[@nobebi]

Hi lovely we missed you, welcome back! Rhiannon you are beautiful inside and out, I’m so sorry it’s hard to believe for you, but you truly are and I am glad to have the opportunity to enjoy your company ❤️

[@maisiesturrock]

thank you for your realistic explanation of your struggles with body dysmorphia! someone very close to me has had this ever since we were young and watching you explain it in a casual and empathic way I think would make them feel so seen about something that can make you feel so so isolated

[@milkymilkshake244]

The talk about adhd and antidepressants is so close to home for me. Thank you so much for sharing. I’m personally very interested in the meds, if you are comfortable sharing. I’m so happy you’re back and alright. It’s the most important thing

[@jes2540]

The orange goes really well with the blue too

[@jemmaxx3706]

I relate to you so much regarding body dismorphia, it’s so helpful to hear someone dealing it too! xx

[@jesssnellx]

Rhiannon the nutrition course sounds so exciting! Well done x

[@elstruly]

thank you so much for being so incredibly open and vulnerable about your mental health with us. I mean it so wholeheartedly when I say you are truly helping so many people in feeling less alone in dealing and understanding their mental health. it does sadden me so much hearing you talk so negatively about yourself and really highlights how others see you so differently to how you see yourself. as someone who relates so deeply to the way you speak about yourself, it really does set that theory in stone because I have been watching your channel for years and have always thought about how beautiful you look and I do truly mean that. I am so glad you took the time you needed and am so glad you are back

[@plauliful]

Hi Rhiannon, a silents long-time viewer here. I've been following your journey and your life for over ten year (which makes me feel very old) and it breaks my heart that you have been struggling so much. You are just a bit older than me and were always kind of a big sister figure since I found your channel when I had a bad time in my life. Thanks for being open and sharing your story. You are helping probably more people than you could ever know. Take your time, be nice to yourself and thank you again just for being you. All the best to you and your little family all the way from Berlin 🧚🏼‍♀

[@MindfulMagicMama]

I could have posted this myself - the adhd thing, and burnout and overwhelm. Especially as a mom to a young kid- the chaos of life and not being able to have a clear thought. Ooooof I feel that. Somehow I was so distracted as a kid that they did diagnose me when I was in elementary school, but at 36 I still don’t have a full set of coping skills. Sending you love, grace, and understanding. So happy to have you back 🤍

[@MirandaAndersson-bi5hv]

The timing of you uploading this was perfect for me. You’re one of my faves on youtube and I really needed this right now. I’m in hospital holding vigil over my grandfather who is really sick. Currently alone during the night, and it’s very trying. I started watching you last year, starting at your very old videos from when you were my age now (22). Thank you for your amazing content❤️❤️

[@jackietremblay8939]

Rhiannon I swear I've been your biggest lurker for the last 13 years, I've probably only left enough comments to count on one hand, but I'm here to thank you from the bottom of my heart with tears in my eyes for talking about your ADHD diagnosis. I've just been diagnosed as well after suspecting for a number of years. I'm 25 and trying to start my adult life after university has been the hardest thing because of it. The way you speak about how it presents in your everyday life is nearly exactly the way it presents in mine and it is just so validating to hear about your experiences and emotions around it. I also feel like talking about ADHD right now feels like hopping on the band wagon, which just makes it so much harder, but I'm so grateful that you took the time to share and be vulnerable with us because girlllll. I feel you. And I bet countless others do too. Thank you for always being so authentic in your videos. You have and always will be my favourite youtuber because of it

[@powertiny]

Thank you so much for talking about your experience! I’m 27 years old and got diagnosed with ADHD and autism this year and it has been really hard to adjust to the knowledge of how my brain works

[@laurfrancess]

I'm so glad you're back and I hope things are really starting to improve for you! Missed you and your videos, can't wait for more when you're ready! xxx

[@sunnydayforme1]

I think light yellow paint and light blue doorknobs for the bedroom. Would go with the bed i think😊

[@katjawestphal8041]

Beautiful inside and out. You‘re my one and only youtuber/lovely human being on here I’ve been sticking to for years and years. Love your aesthetic, your way of catching every day moments, all your hobbies and chit chat and your words and openness about mental health. So important, helpful and not in any way annoying - been catching you interrupting yourself lots lately, telling yourself to get back to what you‘ve originally wanted to say. You‘re not bothering us with your chit chat. Quite the opposite! Keep doing what you love and focus on that. You said it yourself, you love doing this. And we love watching all of that plus listening to all of it. Very glad to have you on here Rhiannon, just keep swimming! ♥️

[@ras8031]

Ohmygosh Rhiannon, SO much of this resonated with me!! The chronic rheumatological illnesses, anxiety/depression, GI issues, etc. Thank you for sharing this with the world

[@ERellierose]

I’ve watched you for as long as I can remember. I was tearing up watching this, thank you for sharing. I know this won’t change anything either but you are beautiful! Sending you lots of love ❤

[@twilightfaun]

Please don't apologise for chatting to us about your mental health & struggles. If we didn't want to listen, we wouldn't be here supporting you 🥰 Listening to you talk about your struggles has made me realise I'm very similar to you, I also really struggle with my self-confidence and have overwhelming anxiety. You've inspired me to try and seek some help and work on how I could deal with the way I'm feeling! Also, just wanted to say I wish you could see how beautiful you are through my eyes and lots of other people's eyes - for so many years I have wanted to look like you! Much love to you, and so glad to have you back ❤

[@thelynndiaries]

i feel the same. whenever i talk to my therapist about being self conscious about my body (not necessarily body dysmorphic) i feel so vain worrying about how i look and how others perceive me!

[@jessieee_p]

I remember subscribing to your channel as a teenager, and now I’m almost 30! You’ve always had the best sense of style and I love watching your videos, especially the chill ones. So don’t worry about taking a break, looking after yourself is the most important thing 🫶🏼

[@tinyapple2719]

I was really moved by the part of the video where you mentioned pursuing a degree-especially since I’ve recently felt a strong pull towards studying psychology myself. I’m in my thirties and considering this new path, which has been eye-opening as I’ve started to explore my own neurodivergence. Your openness about ADHD and mental health makes so much sense to me now. I think part of why I resonate with you so deeply is that we share some of the same experiences. Thank you for being such an authentic and inspiring presence online-you’re truly someone I look up to.

[@emilyhopkinson]

welcome back! 💛

[@alexah8521]

So glad you’re back!! Just when I needed it. But don’t feel pressured to post, do it at your own pace!

[@tooothdecay]

Congrats on starting a degree! Thanks for being open and honest with us as always. We are rooting for you

[@AnnasPagesandReads]

I think the color of the bed can act as a neutral and go with any color you decide to paint the bedroom. So glad you’re back!

[@princesspinkblue]

Thank you for being vulnerable and speaking up about your mental health issues! Youre not alone! There are sooo many people who are in similar situations who dont realise they can get help or are too scared to seek help! Youre helping so many people by helping destigmatise conversations about mental health ❤️🙏🏻

[@Naturalrnmom]

It breaks my heart to hear you say that about yourself. You are so beautiful! I’ve watched your videos for so long now and no matter what you look like you will always be beautiful!

[@abbiehavana]

Always been a silent viewer but I just wanted to say how lovely it is to see you back! I was diagnosed with ADHD last year and its healed my heart a little to hear you talking about the same things I’ve always felt but never known why. Thank you for being vulnerable and shedding light on how ADHD impacts every part of life, in ways most people could never imagine. Keep being you, it’s more than enough ✨

[@lottiehardwick2595]

Welcome back Rhiannon! So pleased to see you back and feeling ready to vlog and share your wonderful life with us again! It’s great to hear you talking about ADHD in adults as women are so often missed for not fitting the typical view of ADHD. I’m sure you’ll already know but the ADHD foundation are excellent and have some really great resources for adults with ADHD. Sending lots of love🫶🏼

[@amanveerbajwa]

You are such an inspiration for all women, thank you for being so vulnerable and open about your insecurities it really does bring in to perspective how ANYONE can be going through the biggest struggles. You are genuinely the most beautiful soul inside and out, and have been such a calming, inspiring and STUNNING person.

[@sammysquanch5256]

I feel like I've grown up with you. I'm so happy to see you back it's like seeing a friend for the first time in forever 💗

[@ellierobinson7149]

Silent Viewer 🤍 but I felt myself compelled to write on this video. You are no way ugly looking, weird looking or anything other than beautiful for that matter. You are so naturally beautiful, your whole aura and everything about you always comes across so kind and graceful. I hate that you feel this about yourself however understand it cannot be changed by comments you receive. 🙏 I have Crohn's Disease and was diagnosed at 10 years old, this past year has been a terrible nightmare and I am really unwell at the moment. But I am so glad you have returned to KZbin, you are such a lovely cosy watch and I just adore you as a person. Thank you for picking up the camera, editing and getting past your fears. 🙏 I hope you feel in a better place soon with answers! X

[@ari21teague]

I'm so glad you're back!! I've missed your videos so so much. I hope you're feeling better❤

[@ashb7525]

rhiannon you’ve been my comfort youtuber since i was a teen. i’ve always thought you were sososo beautiful! some of the things you have voiced in this video are so relatable to me, to the point where i thought i was the only one who felt this way until 38 minutes ago. your vulnerability is so brave and has helped me and so many others. just goes to show, you’re never alone 🫂 keep doing what you’re doing Xx

[@lynpallister6527]

It was beyond lovely to see you back tonight, I have a lot of similar traits and have always wondered as no one got diagnosed then, I’m 57 now but never fitted in, always a worrier ,seeking perfection, not trying things in case they went wrong, I’m so glad you’ve found help.❤

[@cheshirelandry]

Commenting again as I’ve finished the vlog. I’ve also been late diagnosed with adhd as an adult. It’s been one of those where I feel relief of “oh wow this makes so much sense” and then a mourning period of how things could be different if I was diagnosed and educated on it as a child (which I know is unrealistic with how it was more difficult to get diagnosed as a girl in the 90s/00s) but it brings me hope to look out for signs in my daughter and to be her advocate and her being able to see me as being an advocate for myself.

[@Sophie_Kam]

You know… I do recall you mentioning not liking your looks every now and then but I’ve always thought you were beautiful. You are literally one of the two KZbinrs that I still follow since being a teenager (I’m 33 now). I liked your hair, your style, how you are in and out basically. Whenever I feel like I need to get my ish together, I always think of you and watch one of your vlogs. I know you just show us part of your life but your vlogs make me calm. Whenever I need to quiet my thoughts, get distracted or just relax, I watch your vlogs. Thank you for sharing this with us. Must be hard and a bit scary maybe, but I truly appreciate it. I send you a big big hug.

[@Moocher88]

so happy to hear an update! i’ve missed these little chats ❤️

[@noa13597]

I’m genuinely so happy you are back!! Missed you so so much!

[@amber4417]

Also congrats on your decision to go back to school! I hope you’ll really love it!!!!

[@michellesokrl]

You shown so much strength in this video,it takes huge amount of courage to be this open. Really admirable thing! Sending all my love

[@Jessica-gg3ul]

So wonderful to have you back!!

[@tortelliniiiii]

Thank you for this! We've all grown up together, and as a 31 going on 32 year old myself, I can relate to your struggles with mental health so much. You are helping us all by being vulnerable and we are so grateful for it! So happy for you and your degree also!!!

[@SakuraRosalie]

Rhiannon, congrats on going back to school! That’s wonderful & I hope the intensive science course goes well. Nutrition is a fascinating field! Also, thank you for sharing about your mental health! As some other folks have said, speaking your truth is powerful and it tremendously helpful to other folks who might be struggling-there’s still so much stigma around mental health and neurodiversity! I’m also neurodiverse and struggle in similar ways to you. I’ve had anxiety, depression, low self esteem and body dysmorphia my whole life. I also have visualizations with my intrusive thoughts, like you described. Something that might be worth reading about is “cognitive distortion”, which is basically when negative thoughts & visualizations kind of “glue” themselves to your brain. There are lots of exercises you can do to break these patterns, anything from saying it out loud in a silly voice to imagining yourself flying above the negative thought until it’s imperceptible. These seem silly but there’s studies that consistently doing this can sort of rewire your neural pathways and they happen less. I have found these exercises tremendously helpful, so I wanted to suggest them!

[@shannonwuke1043]

My heart breaks hearing how you feel about yourself. You are so beautiful and I absolutely love watching your vlogs in awe of your lifestyle and how you do so much in your own way with your foods, clothes and everything! It’s easier said than done but you are so beautiful and your mind is a horrible thing! ❤

[@FourThousandMilesTogether]

Finding out about AuDHD changed my world! The need for routine hit the inability to keep it. The need for predictability but the tendency to create chaos. The love of chatting to people but the needing to recharge after. It’s like having a brain of opposites and always sounds like how you’ve described feeling. I didn’t relate to everything with autism due to feeling such deep empathy and being really good at reading emotions. But hearing autism and adhd can cancel eachother out in a way, or make it double. Made so much sense. Just got my diagnosis last month. It was so validating and devastating no one noticed for my first 25 years! It could be worth a read up. Being neurodivergent in itself is traumatising as the world is just so much and we are so delicate and precious. Plus other trauma on top and we get a shiz storm of anxiety and depression that we think we were naturally born with.

[@sophiedrago6052]

We love you so much and are so glad you feel ready to come back and share this all. This is the first time I've sat and watched a youtube video all the way through without getting up / pausing in ages. Thank you for your vulnerability and honesty. Looking forward to watching again :) ❤