I'm fine, by the way

[@Cooliemasteroz]

Yes trauma as a child is so so much worse as a child than if it happened to you as an adult. I was a very sensitive kid and had trauma at 8 or 9 years of age and only got over it at 49. I also have experienced barriers in thought process. Years ago before I began to comprehend what happened to me I started to think that maybe there was such a thing as an intelligence barrier like the sound barrier after experiencing the odd occasion when my mind was not held back. I must have spent half my life wondering what happened. The good news is that you can have breakthroughs and all of the sudden a problem you’ve had all your life is gone so be patient and keep looking for answers. The thing that helped me was a dog.

[@NinaRideout]

Thank you so much! That’s very kind of you to write. I’m so sorry you suffered yourself. As you said, trauma as a child is very difficult to recover from, because you don’t have a foundation. You have nothing to compare it to!! I was very lucky, to have a wonderful therapist, who gave her time, I think inspired by my music, initially. Then, once she’d discovered this trauma in me, I believe she felt, knowing I was unlikely to get succeed at getting help from anywhere else, decided to commit the time. An act of extreme compassion. Trauma resulting from undetected autism, is a kind of new thing… but she put all together and I’m getting better!! Hope you’re okay now. It’s not a nice thing - but we must look forward. Yesterday, I was interviewed about my life history & music. This is a story of interest to lots of people, I think. Thank you very much for sharing your story with me.

[@robertscammell6139]

Very brave of you to put this up - keep going, you'll be fine eventually. Why not try a different style of guitar for a while - something to relax with that is not too demanding and where it doesn't matter if you make mistakes and you can sing at the top of your voice at the same time if you feel like it - finger style country blues does it for me...!

[@NinaRideout]

Thank you!! 😊 Yes, I am getting over it. 👍 I don’t have any trouble with classical guitar, really, it’s just an insecurity thing - for internal reasons. A self- worth issue. Anyway, I will be fine - as you’ve pointed out. I feel better every day now!!! ❤️ Thank you so much for commenting and best of luck with your blues playing… it ain’t all bad, in this goddam world, I’ll do okay, once my heart is fine and I’m not sad. Thank you Robert. ✅

[@bricemzn]

lets fucking go dude

[@NinaRideout]

No need, to swear!! Lol. I'm getting over things, really nicely now. 😊

[@miltonyannis3719]

What I see here is a sensitive, intelligent lady and a beautiful soul. None of us Nina, yes, none of us - even those who may appear to have got their act together - have any certainty as to what lies ahead of them in life.

[@NinaRideout]

Thank you very much. I appreciate your kind words. I think, one of the problems I had: feeling I needed, to be perfect… I was extremely self-critical!! It left me vulnerable, to others - that. There’s an interesting irony, though: letting go & being more relaxed… means, you actually - achieve more!! However, to be honest - more than anything: I just, want to enjoy playing my guitar again… making music has given me the greatest pleasure. 😊

[@colinrunciman5166]

Yes wee know

[@NinaRideout]

Thanks very much!! ❤️ Nice to know - I’m alright! 😆