I'm leaving Sony Santa Monica Studio.

[@Justinisbored]

No one looks back and says I wish I would have worked more on their death bed. I chose to be self employed early on as a web developer. My sister died two years ago, and because I was self employed I was able to be there for her in the last 6 months before she died. We had very little family around and it was the best possible way to experience such a horrific experience. You're making the right choice. Good luck.

[@Nick-cs4oc]

There’s something about the reality of a situation like that that scours away the BS, leaves raw love and connection. You’re indeed blessed to have that

[@Justinisbored]

@@Nick-cs4oc It's strange, after that experience my entire world view changed. Like all of the sudden of all the things I valued in life it was no longer things, or money, it was 100% time. I am incredibly fortunate to have a life where I can set aside time for friends and family because my work as a freelancer let's me pick and choose my schedule. Something I don't think I can ever go back from.

[@WritesTooMuch]

There actually are plenty of people who look back on their death beds and regret not working. Coming from a trailer park, and having no family members who went to college or held jobs... I've known more than few over my years of growing up and living in the bottom rungs of society. It's usually people who had families they did not support or provide for, and those who had substance issues who passed without living lives that were not plagued with destitution. And there are millions and millions of them just in the United States... I can only imagine how many there are around the world (especially third world countries). The reality is that we need money to live and support our loved ones, and without it you can afford to make memories or really experience life either. The goal is to find the sweet spot between being able to support yourself and family, and still have time to be present and enjoy that life you built. BOTH extremes are just as bad as each other... infact I'd say a life of unemployment, poverty neglected children, and one where you never traveled or experienced the world or life ...is probably a more regrettable one upon your death bed than one of comfort and pleasures, but at the expense of half your life in a office. A wasted life is terrible regardless how you spend it.

[@arjun220]

Most people, wait I can't die yet ! I have to finish my boss' presentation.

[@Ab46583]

There’s nothing good about work, if it isn’t something related to charity or truly impacting lives in a positive way. Work is not good and it does not define anyone. Unfortunately 99% of us will end up working a lot more than you should’ve

[@joshuarivers683]

10 DAYS OFF A YEAR? Man, the US is a weird place.

[@dctrbrass]

Very dysfunctional here

[@nickmaddalena985]

If she did get a salary job here in Aus, she does as least get 20 days leave, not including public holidays.

[@gaminggarbage22]

Full-time we work our asses off in the USA. 😅 Not a lot of time off for many of us.

[@douglasbriel6103]

It's why you have been seeing videos about people dropping out of the workforce. Basically taking lesser paying jobs to be with family more. The pandemic made many realize how they had been destroying themselves just to be canned at some point.

[@isaacswarts6826]

I worked a job with no days off for five years in a row got so burnt out I had to take a full year off the US work environment is not the best for people.

[@PaulGaleNetwork]

Take care of yourself, Alanah. I wish for you and your family, the best of health and happiness. You’ve been kind to me, and I think others share a positive impression on your character, so when the time is right to find work, you’ll be OK. Stay good.

[@p-o2938]

It's the one thing I can resonate on a personal level with you. I lost my dad in 2022 due to cancer, and before his passing, I would drive to his house to help him and mom every single day. I do not regret it in any way, shape or form. It allowed me to never have any regrets towards his illness because I chose to be there. I missed out on some other opportunities, but I barely remember them now. What I do remember is my dad, his silly jokes, gaming with him and his strength. My condolescences for your loss.

[@dominicpinchott7432]

Almost the exact same situation and timing for me. It was ~6 months. It was the best possible way to handle one of the worst possible situations. Everyone should have the privilege to support their families like this if they are able to. I'm very thankful I was able to.

[@Sak1d0]

I am so so sorry for your loss. I can't begin to imagine how difficult this has all been for you. I wish you nothing but the best in your future endeavors

[@eji]

I'm assuming working in Australia will also help your insurance situation, since US insurance when not fully employed and covered by a company is complete ass.

[@mikesannitti6042]

Seems like she's not moving, since all her contacts are still in the US, but her being freelance lets her go home closer to whenever she wants

[@SpawnViper4]

Even most fulltime insurances arent the best.

[@rellj8611]

It’s complete ass even when fully employed.

[@DestinL]

You're going to do great Alanah.

[@mcclog3975]

well said destin.

[@DrKFlares]

simp

[@LegacyRap7777]

She doesn't like you back, give it up.

[@ArthropodSpidey]

​@@LegacyRap7777😂

[@digitalXP13]

If she becomes you no.... but she's honest and more capable and intelligent than you sooo .... she'll do great!!

[@barryaldridge1113]

This is a shocker but seriously wish you the best in the future Alanah. Glad you loved being there and it made you feel amazing. Wish you the best for the future and can’t wait to see what you do next.

[@purpirek]

No it’s not Sony gone corrupted woke for 4 years

[@mr.cheese9571]

@@purpirekhuh?

[@cj3670]

​@@purpirek is the woke in the room with us?

[@creationzikaz4836]

@@purpirek Define woke.

[@snakebebop]

​@@purpirek that's a dumb statement to make. She was hired because of wokeness. What writing skill did she have prior to getting hired? The only creative thing she's ever done was plagiarize that Sekiro artwork she never credited and tried to pass it off as her own.

[@quietwulf]

I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s scary but when you look back, you’ll never regret time spent with the people you love. It’s all that matters in the end. Glad you woke up to it before it was too late. Best wishes for what ever comes next for you.

[@soozidarling5629]

This just happened to me this year Alanah. My dad was diagnosed with stage IV cancer in December of 2022, and he passed in February 2024. We got thirteen months - initially they had told us he had three to five years. I took leave from work for the last month of his life, and was with him when he died. When I came back to work, within two days I handed in my resignation letter. I appreciated my bosses, managers, and entire team so much, but I had to leave. I'm still figuring it out 10 months later. But I don't regret the decision one bit. I cried with you watching this. I wasn't even a whole country away from my family, I was just a few hours away, and it still hurt so much. I wished I had spent 10X more time with him. I hope you get all the time, and all the success on everything you're working on.

[@1_underthesun]

Very similar with me. Lost both my parents in a very short period of time. Ended up leaving my full time time job to a lesser paying job working from home but that allowed me more flexibility to spend time with my twin, her husband, and my niece and nephew. Unfortunately, less than a year later, she was offered a great opportunity on the other side of the country. So there I was making half what I was for no reason. I'm now back with my previous company, but set back 5 years. Guess the lesson is even great intentions dont always work out.

[@tiffanywyatt5137]

Many can't just quit

[@tiffanywyatt5137]

​@@1_underthesunnah you are just like millions of others. Your twin did nothing wrong neither did you.

[@rafafonz]

Did not expect this to be so relatable. First I’m so sorry for your loss. I also had to move back home from the US to Puerto Rico (not the biggest move but still) to take care of a family member due to cancer and while also leaving my dream job. It’s been one of the roughest and most difficult changes I’ve ever done. I wish you nothing but the best!

[@joeygarcia8619]

Thanks! It may be scary to turn a new chapter in life...especially coming from a loss. Keep your head up kid. Im only 4 years older than you and leaving a company i was with for 16 years was effing scary but i had to start my own and make it...or break it.. Guess thats the beauty of it. Overcoming the fear of what will happen and just let be. Fortunately, you seem to have a great head on your shoulders. So dont ever doubt yourself on the decision. If it helps any, business is great after two years and actually thinking why didnt I do this earlier. I trust youll think the same. So heres to ten years of building relationships. Now go be with the fam and free lance your talents and brilliance.

[@shooshik]

Hello, Alanah. Sorry for your loss. I’m in a similar situation living in a different country from all my relatives. I can relate to everything you’re saying!❤ Wish you all the best!

[@RatedY2J92v3]

I look forward to what you do next Alanah. I know you’ll do great in your next chapter. Will always support your channel and your endeavors.

[@thenathandean]

Truly devastated for your loss, Alanah. I'm so so sorry. My condolences to you and your family. Please be proud of yourself for making the decision you need to make for yourself and for your family. I'm excited to see your incredible work along the way while getting all of the time you need. You're a wonderful person and I can't wait to see your future unfold. We're all here for you! You got this!

[@Jenkkimie]

I'm sad to hear what you're going trough Alanah but I can perfectly understand it. I lost both of my parents in 2022 while trying to graduate from university. The passing of a parent or parent figure really hits you different. Things that used to matter suddenly no longer matter that much and things you took granted for suddenly become the most important and valuable things. My condolences on your step-fathers passing. It takes time. It's been two years and I still think about my parents everyday. Slowly I am beginning to be able to smile again, all those good memories with them. My mother used to say that our loved ones never truly leave from here as long as there is someone who still remembers. Your step-fathers memory will live on in your heart and take solace in the knowledge that one day you will see him again. Wherever he is.

[@Philosophical24]

I’m so sorry for your loss Alanah. I too have a step dad and I know how important that bond is. ❤ You are a very strong person and woman to come out here and be vulnerable in front of us. Thank you for being brave and showing the rest of us how to be as well

[@Obsidian0Sky]

Man good luck. Love this. Seeing you in VHS was the most amazing surprise. I love that series. Keep it up in all the things!

[@mattmoss6121]

Great video! I'm a 53 year old gamer/musician, I had open heart surgery in 2016, I was in the ICU for almost a month. After getting out, my father passed away 2 weeks later. I couldn't go to his funeral. You'll see as you get older, what is important. Balance work and personal life and you'll be much happier! Sending my best from East Los Angeles.

[@betrion7]

My condolences 🙏

[@WritesTooMuch]

I had the same problem. My father passed when I was 24, and while I paid for his coffin and burial I had to work that cost off at my dead end retail job that week. So I couldn't go. Part of me was glad because I didn't want to see them burry him, but at the same time I had already seen him passed away when I found him on his bed earlier that week (he was healthy and passed suddenly). So the trauma was already there. I'm 40 now, and only have three living relatives left... I've buried a father, all my aunt's/uncles, grandparents, a childhood friend (who I also found passed) and more. I would be lying if I said it doesn't get easier... it actually DOES, because progressively more numb with each experience. It eventually becomes something your used to and expect after a point of burying enough people and pets. But the one thing you don't become used to, is that with each loss, you yourself feel that much older. That much more tired. And in a weird way, that much more wiser. I have learned more about life and how to live it, from experiences the lose of it - than I ever knew when I was surrounded by it in it's spring and summer. I also know that lose is not the same for everyone, and like in my case where I never had the luxury to have my father even half as long as you did... that no one on this planet is guaranteed the same path. The same luck. The same outcome... And just because you count yourself lucky today to have your health, youth and family doesn't mean tomorrow you won't join those who don't. So it's very important to live for today, be appreciative of who and what you have (even when it's hard) and never go to bed with regrets of things you wish you had said to those you know and love.

[@xmedcism]

Zwww.youtube.com/@xmedcism

[@Firebirdkenobi]

I’m sorry for your loss Alanah 😢 🙏🏽 my condolences to you and your family

[@king0fchickens696]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you have a good group of friends & family to help you through this difficult time. I lost my Dad in 2020 in November and it's still the hardest thing I've had to go through. Miss him everyday. 💛

[@PaganReacts]

My heart broke multiple times watching this video. Because I GET IT. And it fuckin sucks to know part of what you’ve gone through and anyone who can relate, it’s honestly sucky that we can. Losing someone you love so dearly really does change you in ways you probably won’t even expect. We’re all going through life for the first time. We’re all just figuring it out and doing the best we can. So absolutely do what’s best for you. 💖 happy to continue to support you in any venture. Excited to see more about Layers Deep and further podcast projects and more! 🎉 (also hope your Dad is ok!)

[@deebobeebo]

Fully here for and in support of you and your choice. Had similar situation myself and had to make choices. It's always hard and whatever makes you feel better on your journey is the right choice. I know me and everyone else are 100% with you all the way, on whatever venture you choose. Stand tall, be proud, be the best for them. And never forget that the grief is from immense love. Cherish the sadness and let it inspire you. Good luck! And I can't wait to see what's next!

[@Lazyboijere]

My condolences Alanah. Your work ethic is incredible and how you found a way to do so much charitable work as well is inspiring. I look forward to seeing more of your work. Wishing you the best.

[@jibblerino]

I was in a similar situation earlier in the year but it just left me with unresolved frustration & anger. I appreciate that you put these difficult topics, & share aspects of your life in this format. It cant be easy. Stay strong, & i'm sorry for your loss.

[@too_many_fish]

Didn't expect to tear up at my desk job watching an Alanah Pearce video first thing in the morning. So sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing...gives me a lot to think about personally. I'm always very impressed by the way you articulate things. Will be praying for you and your family.

[@elvishladdy3404]

Major respect for opening up about something like this, Alanah. I personally believe this is the right decision to make across the board for your mental health, and allowing your creative ideas to flourish outside of a full-time work space, despite how wonderful SMS must have been to work at. I look forward to seeing where things go and know you'll have so much support

[@puertorico2727]

You will do amazing at whatever you do, my condolences on your family. Good luck and we all will continue to watch. 🥰🥰🥰

[@HasanBabasi]

I’m an immigrant to the US. I haven’t seen my grandparents who helped raise me since 2006. My grandpa died last week in my birth country and I didn’t even get a chance to talk to him. I also had to give CPR to my father in law and it didn’t work. You can only grieve the way you can.

[@CarlosXPhone]

Please for the love of God, go get your citizenship. Please.

[@Franticity7]

Your grandpa is with you all the time

[@MrSujano]

My condolences, Alanah. Life is short, life is fragile, and life is always more important than work. You'll figure this out, and you'll continue to make the most of it. At the end of the day, you will always be able to find a job doing something. Take time to prioritize what you want in life. It's your life, and only you can decide how you want to live it. You haven't done anything wrong so far...you've learned, you've gained experience and you're wiser. 💪

[@devincopeland5167]

More people have to live by the mantra "work to live, and not live to work". Ask any old person, their regrets in life is not spending time with family or traveling more, not that they missed a meeting or didn't work enough overtime. Hope for the best for you Alanah

[@Tusrista]

True but I'm trying to understand the situation here. She wants to freelance and expand her KZbin (and Patreon) presence but is she doing it to spend more time with her family in Australia? I'm noticing the younger generation want to work on their own terms. Great if you can do it but not a reality for most people.

[@ratednitro8239]

@@Tusrista Yes, she said she wants to see her family whenever she wants. And you're right most people can't do the same but I guess she can

[@macaluso48]

How do you go on them vacations and do things with family without making money usually 40 hours a week isn't enough to live healthy with good food and something u like on the side let alone travel and if u have a family yeah idk I work 48-56 hours a week that's not that much

[@langleymneely]

After losing my family (mom & sister in the same year) I relate so much to what you are experiencing. I wish I could go back spend time with them. I empathize with you and hope that doing what ever you need to do to evolve through your grief brings you solace. Much love to you!❤

[@facelesshalo5174]

I don't think I've ever commented on your videos before, but I hope you do well and I'm sorry for your loss. I know how hard that chestnut is. Good Luck out there.

[@jrlonergan6773]

Very sorry for your loss

[@WildWildWeston]

I'm sure the team at SMS will feel your absence Alanah. I think tending to your soul is always the best decision in life even if it means taking a break from things we love. Your future projects all sound super fun and I'm excited to hear your voice in new and interesting places. Best of luck with this transition in life

[@CPT_Crandalf]

If they really cared they would figure out a way to give better time off for their employees so SMS can go suck it.

[@BTMaverick707]

Thats heart breaking... i lost my dad to Covid 3 years ago and now its been my goal to move back to the original town to just be there ever since... after missing all this little to big events that i have been missing for 20 years. I feel this pain and regret, it sucks and i havent been able to shake that anxiety ever since. My condolences Alanah, made me cry today im sorry

[@DareToEntertain]

12:35 “it’s hard to have a full time job and do creative stuff you wanna do” this is so real. I’m really sorry for your loss and I wish you the very best with this endeavour with freelancing

[@sarthakbaghla6274]

Alanah, this video seems oddly personal and terrifying at the same time, to see others living your worst nightmares is devasting. May God Bless you and give you strength. You are very brave and we have seen you done great things in life and we all are really proud of you!

[@ibouchi]

Alanah..... i know all too well exactly what you are feeling right now. I have been in the game industry for 20 years now and was actually at Sony San Diego when you started at SMS. I moved to SoCal from NorCal/Central Coast in 2005 to pursue this lifelong dream to be a part of the this industry and had been down there ever since. Now i understand that the distance for me is not nearly the same as it is for you and your family. But i too missed so much. I actually did miss the sudden death of my father and grandmother. I wasnt there when my mom was going through so much of her cancer treatments. I felt like I was a let down to those i loved. I have nieces and nephews now and i realized that i didnt want to just be a face on a screen. Covid happened and allowed us to work from home and i finally moved back 2 months ago and still have an incredible job doing what i love in the industry that will always have my heart. I just want to tell you that you ARE making the right decision. the work will find a way to allow us to do what we love while still being where we need to for the most important things in life. This is the right decision..... take it from me, from someone who (for the first time ever) hosted Thanksgiving this year for the remaining 16 members of the family and got to hold and love on my nieces and nephews. Going home will the best decision and your heart will be so full from doing it

[@Jslicer13]

We're here for you Alanah, we can't wait to see what you do next no matter where and we hope you get what you're searching for in this change💜

[@stephen12holbrook]

First time Ive watched one of your videos but I really appreciated your message! Ive been working in VFX in LA for 13 years as a freelancer, and now with the industry in total flux, Ive struggled to find work for the past 1.5 years, and sometimes Ive wondered in hindsight whether I should have taken those full time staff opportunities some years prior. Obviously there's no guarantee taking a full time staff position would have protected me from my current predicament, but I have often wondered. Seeing this video made me realize I made the right call, because when I was offered a staff position from a couple places some years ago, my first thought was "Do I really want to commit to working all year round (with only 2 or maybe 3 weeks off per year)?" I decided at the time that I valued my time more than work/money. Of course now Im desperate for work, but basically what Im saying is I completely understand your decision, and Im glad you posted this video because it affirmed the decision I made for myself those years ago, good luck out there!

[@DavidFGM]

My partner is going through something very similar, and I can see in her what you're feeling. Sending you all our support and wishing you the best of luck on this new journey. I've been a fan on and off since your IGN days, and I’ll continue cheering you on. All the best, Alanah.

[@hassosigbjoernson5738]

A long hug and much love from a viewer living in Germany! I can only imagine how proud your father must have been - having raised a daughter with such a career and more importantly her heart in the right place! Your choice only can be the right one, because of that.

[@Patryk-Sowinski]

I'm sorry for your loss, wishing you all the best in this tought time. Think everything you're planning & doing make sense. And being who you are you'll pull it off, you've been able to achieve many goals throughout the years that you've set yourself. As always looking forward to all the awesome things you do!

[@sai_tyrus]

Allanah, I am SO sorry for your loss. I'm glad you're able to refocus on what's import in life - living and enjoying those you love. All the best. Excited to see what you do next.

[@TheMarslMcFly]

I'm so sorry for your loss Alanah, all the strength to you and your family 🙏🏼 I wish you all the best for everything the future holds, I know you gonna crush it 💜

[@Tredok]

Damn, Alanah, sorry for your loss. I hope everything goes well for you. Will be happy to support in any way i can

[@joseveracruz3261]

My condolences and I hope you cherished the memories you had with your family. Good luck on your future journey and I can’t wait to see all the content!!

[@zankheal]

I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you love and peace in this moment. I went through the same thing with my dad and I totally get it. Family comes first, and it makes sense the way you are saying, you are not doing life wrong. Take time to heal your soul. Love you.

[@NaturalistScott]

I'm so sorry for your loss Alanah. 9am-6pm and 10 days off, jeez! I have worked in companies with US offices and I knew the expected work ethic was different but WOOOOW!

[@keodantes3907]

It's the major or bank holidays. Which is normal for all u.s. companies. Except for maybe retail and food industry. You can take more days off with your pto. Either she didn't or she left that out.

[@squishy1624]

that part left me a little confused. idk if her situation is different because idk if shes a citizen or not or only here on a visa, but at least at my job, if you’ve worked for 10 years full time you can accumulate vacation time. 10 years at my job would earn you 3 weeks paid vacation, 5 paid personal days, 5 paid sick days, and 2 floating holidays.

[@ArathirCz]

@@squishy1624 Are those all per year (as a benefit for working 10 years there) or you get those if you wont take them earlier and once you take them you need to work another x years to "earn" it again?

[@squishy1624]

@@ArathirCz its every year. at the start of every fiscal year, if you’ve worked there for more than 90 days, you get PTO. the base of it is 2 weeks and everything i mentioned in my previous comment, but after certain milestones, you get 1 week added to your vacation time. but there is a limit and i think its 5 weeks

[@Ball.Daily11]

I mean that’s a regular work week …. I think what really happened is my KZbin channel is big and can support myself and do whatever I want lol.

[@gamecopshow]

Puts it in perspective . Going thru something similar with a loved one on their way to the next , constantly obsessing about precious time I’m missing out on for work and my fam lives in my STATE. I can’t imagine the amplification of that dread living overseas . NEVER CHANGE PIERCE . Been watching you make big moves since 2014 , we ain’t goin nowhere

[@Marcthegeek]

Sorry for your loss. I know how it feels. I lost my MOM this year and am still sad about it. You will do great.

[@HarryTo1]

I don't really comment on KZbin videos, but I've been following your content for a number of years and you really are one of the most down to earth, honest and "human" people I've ever seen on the internet. It's clear to everyone how talented you are, so I have no doubt you'll have every success on whatever you try. Hey, why not start your own game studio one day?

[@alanvictor5799]

Sorry for your loss, Alanah. Hope for the best to you.

[@BubbaBiscuit]

I have recently had to much loss in my life also this makes me feel good to see you taking the chance on your self and trying to make time for your family. Don't burn yourself out that list of projects seems like a lot, enjoy your family time and creativity. Wishing you and yours the best.

[@talesinside2030]

Condolences to you. I followed you while you were at IGN and was happy to see you writing as it seemed like it was something you really wanted. I am so sorry for your loss and I implore you not to blame yourself for anything - life does this to us and we make decisions that make sense at the time. It’s okay to consider your life and passions even when that takes you in places that might be far from people we love. It’s also okay to change your mind or change directions. Do your best to be gentle with yourself and best of luck with all of your endeavours.

[@mateuszkrzastek]

Hey Alanah, you probably won't ever see this, but I wanted to share my similar perspective. I lost my dad to cancer, while I was working on another continent, during covid with no possibility of going back home to see him. Had to say goodbye to him over the phone. Lost 13 years of time with him while living abroad. Soon after that, when lockdown ended, I moved back home. You've absolutely made the right decision.

[@yeah____right]

You’ve got our support, exited to see where u go next!!!

[@Carl_KFBF]

6:33 nobody in their right mind could criticize you for what you’re going through or how you’re handling it. Best of luck with going freelance, hope it all works out! Maybe get some more acting gigs?!

[@presidentc4]

There's a lot of people not in their right mind unfortunately, and even more that just completely lose said mind when they interact with others on the internet

[@Carl_KFBF]

@ that’s sadly correct. People suck sometimes.

[@Youthman]

Alana’s, I’m so sorry for your loss. Taking the leap to be self employed is a huge lately of faith. But I have NO DOUBT you will crush it as a freelance. In Jan of 2000, I made the decision to leave my job and go full time as a content creator. I’m now making 3 times the amount I have ever made in my life. Also, I now make my own schedule so I can spend a lot of time with our grandson, taking vacations with our kids and so many amazing opportunities have come available as a result of being full time content creator. Yes it’s scary, but I believe you made the right decision. Family first.

[@n5r15]

I don't know anyone who's experienced the grief of losing someone they loved who would give you shit for this. You're making the right call. The pain of losing family feels dam near impossible to get through. The only thing I can say for sure was any help is surrounding yourself with more family. I'm so sorry for your loss. Just got to the announcements part of the video and FUCK YES! More Podcasts and game dev interviews? Yes fucking please I'm here for it!

[@vimzim8576]

Condolences for your loss. I hope things work out and you can stay close to family.

[@martindeleon9863]

Subscribed to help support you. Heard the first half of your story and thats all i needed. Praying for you, your family and for your future! Hope to see more content!

[@seacrezt]

My brother has regrets leaving us at home. It's been about 10 years too for him. He always brings up birthdays that he has missed and I know that will hurt him forever. But I know my parents wanted him to follow his dreams and he did just that. I was always scared to leave my hometown but I have the memories that he doesn't have. You can't win in these situations.

[@bobcharlotte8724]

As an aussie game dev living in Japan, I understand completely and wish you all the best! Curious though, you wanna have more freedom and time for family but continue to live in the states? Not move back to aus?

[@eagle_rb_mmoomin_418]

House, partner, friends are all in the US🤷, so I can see why a more flexible career that isn't locked to a particular location/office makes sense.

[@felipegus]

Sorry to hear about your loss. Being in a very similar situation, I can absolutely relate to how you're feeling about missing the good parts and being far away when you want to be close. Wishing you plenty of luck and success back home!

[@benjaminr7359]

Sincerest condolences, Alanah. Family is everything. Be with them and be happy. I hope everything works out for you.

[@Xparkman30]

Did they cry?

[@santilu31]

So sorry to hear about your step-dad. Prayers to you and your family. I hope things work out for you in all of your endeavors. Excited to hear that you're working on the show The Comic Shop. Looking forward to when it finally drops.

[@koesimo]

So sorry for your loss Alanah, we all love and support you through this difficult time/transition.

[@BigheadSMZ]

Santa Monica Studio just got a little bit better. There's hope for the triple A industry yet.

[@gingerpunk2]

You are ABSOLUTELY doing the right thing. Chuck that doubt out the window and never think of it again. You will be absolutely fine, and I am excited for the next stage in your journey. looking forward to following the streams. Keep your head up and good luck!!

[@bml2200]

Most of these "I'm leaving" videos don't really land for me but this one did and it definitely resonates. Screw work, life's too short, have fun. Also can't wait for MovieHaus, about time the team gets back together!

[@KumarMitra-u8k]

Shocking, someone only famous for two things has yet again done the only thing her career has been built on: jumping ship, leaping frog, moving up. Ambition is one thing, but obvious soulless careerism with no loyalty or decency can only go unnoticed so long. If you've seen the same pattern, you're capable of thinking. If you haven't... you get very mad when people call you a simp, don't you? Not to worry, heroic knight, surely sleeping with Alanah is just one selfless noble comment away. :)

[@PLightstar]

That is really hard. When my grandad passed, i had a similar feeling and got to know my sister more and we are now a regular part of each others lives. Hope you can find the right balance. Im lucky ive found it, but it took many years to get there and its still work to toe the line, but it is endlessly worth it.

[@HomeroSaint]

WHY DID YOU LIE ABOUT GAME SCIENCE IN TGA???? YOU ARE SUCH A LIAR!!!

[@NaturalekXXL]

good choice

[@Yelpy]

Sorry for your loss! Shit I've doing the same thing, been in LA 15 years now and everyone's back home in Ireland... missing it all too. Sigh, food for thought! 🤔

[@beggsy69]

Condolences, I think you are doing the right thing even though it is scary. Be with who you want to be with and I have faith you sort out what you need as you go.

[@swchurchill]

I lost my own dad 10 years ago this month. Its hard, and it never gets easier. It does change perspectives, and I wish you all the love and connection with your family you can hold on to.

[@Shabeeebn]

Devastating loss, my condolences Alanah. As a big fan of the old Funhaus I'm glad to hear that you'll be making more videos with the old crew. Looking forward to Filmhaus!

[@startledautumn8758]

And then they were all crying! Lies upon lies. Glad they kicked you out.

[@DroolingDrilling]

So are you gonna respond to the journalist who said you lied about the Wukong team crying?

[@josephjuarez7340]

I am so sorry to hear about your dad passing, I understand how that feels. I also understand the missing of lots of key family moments and how that makes someone feel. I hope that in the future you are able to rebuild and foster your family relationships. I am also so amazed at your strength and how you were able to make this decision for yourself. I hope that with time your pain eases, since I know that it never really goes away. Much love Alanah and good luck with all of your projects, I can't wait to see them!

[@Senyuno]

As a viewer this is exciting. You're one of the biggest voices in this media. We always understood your job and life offline. But hopefully you're happy and successful, because then your projects finally get to see the light of day. And your positivity and knowledge of games media and journalism comes out. You have millions of views of defending good game design. Your views do matter to the betterment of this industry. And I miss hearing those stories as much in recent years of Play, Watch, Listen. So I look forward to seeing you more!

[@connorstephens7467]

Is she though? lol

[@chacachaca11]

My condolences alanah. And man. You had me doing some introspection won’t lie. I wish you the best of luck on your new journey and I look forward to more content

[@fgklfglhf]

Liar.

[@KnotsOfWonders]

Why the lie? I am disappointed..

[@zoidus6429]

I'm deeply sorry to hear of your loss. I can somewhat relate having lost my own father earlier this year. As far as regrets go, I understand about that, as I have a few of my own. But you certainly shouldn't second guess choices which lead to joy for you, because I'm certain your family (including your step-dad, I'm sure) were happy that you were happy. I say this not knowing this sort of personal stuff of yours for certain, but I speak from my own experience and of what I've observed of others. Blessings to you, your family and the future of both.

[@ningunoag]

Liar!

[@GnasherGear]

You’re not a good person

[@thriftypsgr]

I am sorry for your loss and I am glad that you are taking time to restructure! Thank you for your amazing stories. I run a very small channel with a live show and I would love to have you on to pick your brain about game development.

[@Pikaru-c4u]

Not trying to be rude but what did u do there? Is there anything we played u wrote for

[@Materva_]

You know the saying go _ go ___!

[@mrdiamondJIM]

They got bored of passing her around.

[@vaultboy1419]

Considering the controversy she currently made for herself, I wouldn't doubt that. It's pretty puch the only thing she's good for, with her trash opinions and open racism.

[@CoOp_Art]

You got this Alanah! I'm excited to see the new projects and what is to come in the future

[@RabbitConfirmed]

Does that mean Kratos is finally going to be badass again instead of a soft ass soy boy?

[@imtrash2812]

Speedrun to open OF ??? 😂

[@jpkc86]

hey man, strong video. Sorry for you and your family's loss. Best wishes in these future endeavors. Yes, you articulated things very well. Take care Alanah! Oh about the movies.. you haven't seen ANY movies though lol!! I kid I kid.. just a nostalgia moment in my head of you learning about movies!

[@dermotfitzpatrick5045]

Maybe Game Science will give you a job

[@randomguy6679]

I don’t know if that’s sarcasm or not

[@CRF250R1521]

How the f were you there to begin with ?

[@jameson3500]

DEI

[@sport_and_tech]

What the heck is that supposed to mean ?

[@spardasquadspqr3535]

​@@jameson3500 by DEI u mean that they gave a job to white, good looking chick with related work experience?? U seriously need to touch a grass😂

[@V-570]

@@spardasquadspqr3535 Alanah "kis are a disability" Pearce, ex game journalist (bad already), worked at IGN (not getting better) and Funhaus (still not getting better), known for her absolutely terrible takes and lies. Keeps suspiciously falling upward, probably due to nepotism . Hired by Santa Monica Studio as a "writer" (not in the credits), made a... cookbook, got to be a character in Cyberpunk 2077 for no known reason other than being herself, etc... Alanah pearce, a woman, put in postions where she has shown no related talent, skill, or experience. That checks out for DEI, and nepotism.

[@zeeochance]

She worked under Corey Barlog's desk a lot.