I'm not who I was

In today's video I share my heart on some tender matters and share how I'm changed. I'm not who I was. Today's Sponsor: Download the FREE Upside App at upside.app.lin... to get an extra 25 cents back for every gallon on your first tank of gas. You travel with me from the East Coast to the West Coast and back again as I speak about KZbin, Business, and Branding for a Christian Author Event in the Coastal Redwoods of California. I'm additionally super mega blessed at this event and the attendees, mentors and speakers. They loved me well, encouraged my heart, and built me up. It was just what my weary soul needed. The Lord is good. Blessings to you and yours! 💕

[@JamerrillStewart]

Thank you for traveling and this special journey with me today, friends 💕 Today's Sponsor: Download the FREE Upside App at upside.app.link/jamerrill to get an extra 25 cents back for every gallon on your first tank of gas.

[@joytreedesigns7876]

You're doing so well chix. You won't know how well until you're looking back on this time. I pray for you and your family xoxo

[@IoneEvans]

Sending light and love your way. ❤

[@sharontavares6258]

You are a inspiration for women

[@briannapapp1453]

Silent young (25yr old) viewer for years and I’ve always found so much comfort in these videos despite having 0 children however I’m sending you so much love. So so much love

[@JamerrillStewart]

Thank you, sunshine ☀️ ❤

[@sophiafanning2036]

Also a silent (23 year old) watcher and this woman is my THERAPY. I put her videos on to fall asleep. From her energy, the way she speaks, the way she talks about God. She was meant to heal, it’s clearly a gift of hers.

[@sophiafanning2036]

- to add, I say she’s a healer bc she does it without do anything at all. That’s how you know.

[@jwalt2021]

The Lord will give you strength to get through anything. I’ve had 2 miscarriages, 18 surgeries, I lost my 20 year old daughter 3 years ago and now I’m battling leukemia and through it all he reminds me Psalm 46:5 GOD IS WITHIN HER SHE WILL NOT FAIL. God Bless ♥️

[@laume8622]

Best wishes to you ❤

[@kassandrahenrikson2118]

Prayers to you 🙏🏻❤️‍🩹

[@lorriemolina9401]

❤

[@CynthiaKelly-w5n]

I pray you will be fine

[@girlygirl1890]

@jeanette walton I am so sorry to hear what you have been going through. Please research on here "Goodbye Lupus with Dr. Brooke Goldner". She has helped soooo many people who have had many ailments and diseases who have come out on the other side. Look her up on here and binge on her videos. Watch as many as you can. I have no doubt it will help you with your condition/Leukemia. Blessings to you my friend.

[@bethany3797]

Girl if we all were who we were, there would be no growth!!! Man have I changed and am so thankful that I am not the person I once was! Praise to the Most High Father for getting me through

[@marshalowman1611]

AMEN❣️❣️❣️❣️

[@tinarivera5806]

Don't ever apologize for needing good things in your life. Your a strong woman, mom, warrior

[@harblinshaven6303]

Amen!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@susanjones8938]

You remind me of my mom. She went thru hell and came out carrying buckets of water that she threw on others. She was anointed by God and so are you. You speak life to dry bones just like it says in the Bible in Ezekiel. You are more than a conquer. God shines thru you. Thank you.

[@JamerrillStewart]

Hallelujah ❤❤❤

[@tiachandler5350]

This was truly beautiful and actually hit Me with everything I've been going through even though the message wasn't to me I truly.felt it ...thank you for posting this comment

[@JuliaRtv50]

Ooooo maybe God will give you a word for me one day 😭😭🧎🏽‍♀️🙏❤️

[@crystalpartridge379]

'Worse case scenario, unknown future, God's already there'. Thank you for saying this. I needed to hear that today.

[@ChristinaBastilla-yx3hj]

I needed to hear that too. ❤️

[@dellavest9269]

SAME

[@JamerrillStewart]

He is faithful, indeed ❤

[@crystalpartridge379]

@@JamerrillStewart always!

[@maxiemac100]

Jamerrill it breaks my heart to see you cry...You dont need to divulge anything you dont feel comfortable sharing,just know that you have all of us rooting for you.We have all been through messes in life,its part of us being human. I love your content,its interesting and helpful...So thank you and chin up.❤

[@JamerrillStewart]

I appreciate that 💗💗💗

[@blessedhomeschoolmommy1453]

I second all this.

[@marshalowman1611]

I honestly do not know how people can get through this Life without God!!! He has always been my rock!! Sending love and prayers Jamerrill ❣️❣️❣️

[@sandratagaban5541]

I love Tricia Goyer. I read her quite often. Have fun. I'm sorry life is hard for you right now. One day at a time, Darling'. I've buried 2 sons. I know pain. I know you are in pain. God is near to the broken hearted.

[@marywalsh8344]

So sorry ❤

[@Cthomas5678]

I’m sorry you’ve had to endure that hun I watched my mother go through that when we lost my brother when he was 40 he was her baby boy I’m the oldest and it was terrible for me as he was my only sibling and we were so close but I felt worse for my mama ❤

[@melindalachapell4478]

I am Sorry for your losses. My heart goes out to you. I love That we can all pick each other up through this. I guess The web isn’t always dark.

[@carmelaburrone5029]

Oh Sandra...I'm so terribly sorry. As a Mother, I can't even IMAGINE the pain of losing a child. I've always felt God has a "special place" in Heaven for those who have suffered that loss. Sending love and praying🙏 for the healing of your heart ❤️.

[@kellybroady6378]

I'm just so sorry for your losses ❤

[@TheAngelahp]

Jamerrill my sweet lady , the devil can’t take us out so he tries to wear us out. Don’t u dare get tired. Keep the faith xx

[@melissamartin-m2e]

"When life is more than you can stand...Kneel" I have this on a sign in my home ♥

[@Happydaily24]

Girl none of us have our shit together fully. I hope it’s nothing that can’t be solved. ❤

[@happyonthehomefront4317]

Don’t ever apologize for those tears! Our Heavenly Father knows every one of those tears!

[@katieferrell6756]

Amen he dose well said ❤

[@dianenugent3666]

It's hard walking through new journeys. I'm a 76 year old woman in the process of divorce. First time in my life being on my own. Scary, but I know God has me in his hands and will guide me to the other side. Keep the faith and be strong whatever you're going through.

[@madelinegonzalez4970]

❤ needed to hear this today 😢😢😢

[@susanjoseph236]

Prayers for you

[@4mandysake]

❤Amen❤

[@mo-anniemc8227]

Legally separated last year after 43 years of marriage.Will divorce this year.decompressing from a narcissist life gets better.

[@janbond8460]

He NEVER leaves you nor forsakes you. One step at a times. Hugs and prayers!!! ❤❤❤

[@harblinshaven6303]

As a momma whom has started over and had to reinvent myself at 35 every victory is a celebration. I dont know what your storm is but with the lord as your captain you will come threw better on the other side. You are an absolute pioneer here, and with grace and dignity you have taken us threw YEARS of education. Thank you lady.... ❤

[@ashleymarievollersmith1599]

Always remember different does not equal wrong or bad. It means growth and change like the seasons. Feel your feelings, be you, and explore the you that is new. Value YOU and that will never be wrong. Hugs lady!

[@JamerrillStewart]

Amen to that ❤

[@gailots]

Halfway through and I feel you girl. I’m ending my 40 yr marriage this year after finding that for @30 yrs my husband was leading a double life. Jesus is faithfully walking this out with me and I’m amazed what the Holy Spirit can do! Much love and prayers. ❤

[@thejfam6630]

🙏🏽

[@duckmanyeah5738]

After 23 yrs of marriage , I ended up divorced. When you go out alone , carry a silk scarf with you. Carry it in one hand. That is you / me holding God's hand. We'll never alone. Thanks for sharing your trip. Never been to California but the views you shared are wonderful. God Is Good .

[@pamelacrowell2007]

The trials of life! Married badly at 21, 2 kiddos and 5 years later divorced, at 30 met the love of my life and lost him to heaven at 52. Have sone amazing grands and neices & nephews that keep me young. Still single and living well at 70. When you are in it, you think it will never pass or you don't realize how wonderful your life is until that ends (or you think it ends). Just keep walking ahead, taking care of yourself, loving all your oiddos and know that the Lord has a plan for you, even if it is to live with no 'life partner'. Lots of ❤ and 🙏.

[@tinkermaedchen_9978]

Sending a the love and prayers from Germany. I've been a silent watcher for years. No kids, 2 person household.. I don't even eat meat so I barely could cook your recipe's, but somehow you just bring peace in my life with your videos and I am thankful for that. Sending a warm hug to whoever needs and reads this!

[@melissagayheart7716]

U really touched my heart when u said whatever way ur life is going the Lord is already there...I got teary eyed u touched my heart AMEN!! Im so thankful that he is there!! ❤

[@billraterink1985]

Just saw your CA trip. Wife and I think you do an awesome job with your videos. We also pray for you, and your family. Remember, if the Lord brings you to it, He'll bring you through it. God Bless You, ma'am.

[@carmelaburrone5029]

Ive been following your channel for several years. As a 63 yr old woman who's experienced abuse, abandoment, loss, chronic illness, and trauma, including having my life "hanging in the balance" between life and death, I know it's only with my faith/trust in the Lord and the prayers of those in Heaven and on Earth I am here to tell the tale. Hang on, my dear. Our God is one of many graces, wonders, and miracles. I promise you will not only get on the other side of this, but go on to help others as a result of all you've endured. One day, when your book is published, I hope to be among the many who read it. Sending love❤ and healing prayers🙏 from Connecticut. GOD BLESS.

[@ElizabethGontkovic-uq4mw]

Your comment is also me...Prayer is my 1st n most ..I've was raised in disfunction, I refused raise mine in such..Since 08' I lol( instead of tears) my vacation is the days I'm admitted to the hospital, ( to many times)..God outside his hand on all, to keep us strong, to continue to be there for our children, removes those not worthy of us, & children...We feel all is upside down, but we strong ones speed through & can take a toll in private..Bravery in the face of others...

[@carmelaburrone5029]

@ElizabethGontkovic-uq4mw Healing Prayers being sent your way Elizabeth.🙏

[@tdleitch]

“Whatever that unknown future is, He’s already there”. This hit me so very hard tears filled my eyes and a lightness filled my heart. Thank you for this. I have felt the constant heaviness of uncertainty for so long it’s become overwhelming but that statement, “He’s already there”, brings hope that I’m not alone. Thank you for that reassurance 🤍

[@deedeeunkefer2270]

Because He lives, we can face tomorrow 😊

[@rhondacoye3491]

Jamerrill, you inspire me! I am an-almost 67-year-old Southern Louisiana woman who has been following you on KZbin for several years. Oh, how I wish YOU and KZbin had been around when we were raising our four children. You are strong and beautiful, and you have handled life’s challenges with dignity and grace. Your calm demeanor and quiet sense of humor are what we love most about you. Never apologize for being you!

[@JupiterMoon19]

I'm so very proud of you and impressed by your courage. I suffer from agoraphobia and anxiety. I can't even admit how many times I've driven to a place and sat in my car unable to go in and ultimately just driving home again. Please be proud of who you are. There are many who only dream of accomplishing what you do and have done. Please pray for me and as always you and your family are in my prayers. Stay golden and true to yourself. Your sharing opens doors, thank you for that. Daily courage doesn't always come easy. Love, peace and kindness to your heart Jamerrill. ❤️🙏🏻🌏☮️

[@CAH2727]

Thank you for sharing your life and your soul. Sending, hugs, love and prayers. Remember to give yourself Grace. ❤ Your feelings are valid! You never have to apologize for your tears ❤

[@maya20233]

Hey Jamerrill, you got this girl❤❤❤, you're such an inspiration to so many of us. ❤ from South Africa

[@latoya6158]

Oh girl please know your journey is yours and people know that. You are amazing! Love, faith and support being sent your way.

[@ccshimmer]

Just signed papers last month ending a 13 year union to a bishop… it is the most heart breaking hard thing to do when u have tried ur hardest… my spiritual life has been on the floor and struggling to reconnect with God… you inspire me… I always say God doesn’t give us more than we can handle and one day I will give my testimony and it might help someone… narcissist survivor with children who need me… you got this girl… we got this… ❤ u in Jesus name…

[@deborahwarren9368]

I first found your channel in 2020 when I was pregnant for the first time and felt so alone while choosing to self isolate as much as possible. I lost my mom in 2013 and missed her presence sooo much during that time. You have been a constant friend and momma figure for me for 4 years. We are made to change! I'm so grateful for the journeys you've shared with us and the vulnerability you've had. We love you, Jammerrill! All glory to God!

[@tnshel9]

You will be okay, give your self time to heal. Always remember it’s okay to stop and take time away from your issues and situations. May God bless you and your family.

[@Sotweetie]

Jamerrill, whatever you are going through is apparently making you much stronger and giving you a beautiful glow. In all of the years I have been following your journey you have never seemed healthier or looked more beautiful. Keep your chin up!

[@sheridefelice3734]

Sometimes I'm not sure if the person I am today is who I really am or if I became the person I am in order to survive.

[@Cheray_]

That just spoke to my heart🤗❤🙏🏾

[@jeanninewakefield4630]

You put words into how I feel sometimes. I’m definitely not who I was at 18 if I were there would be no growth or maturity.

[@kindnessmatters4068]

Yes... same. ❤

[@kmom452]

Well said.😊

[@amberlovejoy]

Same

[@hobocampmama4905]

Thank you for showing up- we are all tender for one reason or another and it means a lot to see you pulling on your cowgirl boots and keepin' on truckin'! Love you friend! xo

[@infamouszxnicky]

Jamerill, you are such an incredibly strong and faithful woman. You’re not who you were. But what you are and will always be is a kind, loving, caring and devoted Mom and beautiful woman. Please don’t ever feel like you’ve got to share certain things. Just because you’re on KZbin doesn’t mean you don’t get to protect yourself and your children. You’ve always been such a protective Mom and an inspiration. I’d love to read any book you write! Praying for you! Susan ❤🙏

[@maryf2964]

Sweet girl, I've been following you for several years. Im 66, never married, no children, but i love your content. Your love of family and the Lord are a beacon to the faithful. Keep on cooking, and loving, and sharing with all of us. You're doing fabulously well!!! We're all praying for you and the kids. ❤🙏❤️🙏

[@vanessar.morales8499]

I don’t know you but I just love your content! I’m sorry 😞 you’re walking through this trial. I too have been there and admire how you’re handling everything for your children. Privacy is golden. I promise you: you’ll be fine and stronger on the other side ❤

[@janetroche3648]

I agree

[@kseniadevcic548]

I was thinking the same thing.

[@JamerrillStewart]

Thank you for those kind and encouraging words, friend ❤❤❤

[@tinablum9089]

Been there...and unfortunately...got that tshirt...stay strong...trust me...there is alot more sunshine and happiness and healing in your immediate future...you are already and will continue to become a stronger and beautiful example for your children.❤❤

[@kimwatts6338]

I understand this place you are in your life. Keeping you and your family in my prayers. When we are st a crossroads, or can’t see the forest for the trees it is in this time of darkness our heart is open to the lord. We can not know the light with out the darkness. You know this but sometimes we need to here it. You are a warrior do not fear because God only allows battles to his strongest warriors

[@nikki27ish]

Please don't apologise for growing and changing, you are becoming who God knows you can be in this season. I'm so very proud of you prioritizing your needs too, you are teaching your children their needs will matter too.

[@Rodal0210]

It's okay to feel, it helps us grow! You are one of the few people I actually look up to. Your vulnerability only makes you stronger and wizer!

[@HomesteadwithEhlers-Danlos]

You look so happy and like you are taking on the world. ❤

[@lin90210]

My brother and father were diagnosed and being treated in hospital in cancer within a few months of each other....definitely changed me...I haven't been the same ever since. It caused trauma but it also made me aware that health is your wealth, family is your wealth, life is precious and to be grateful for any little good thing or achievement in your life.

[@elliecamar8659]

Everyone will go into the wilderness. Just know who is with you while you’re going through it. Thank you Lord!

[@MakbuleCakr-pe3ox]

I’ve been following you for so many years. You’ve always given me joy and laughter. With your videos it feels like I am in your kitchen, just chatting with you and feeling at home. I am sure I am not the only one you give that feeling. I hope you know how much we appreciate you and wish you the best. Lots of love from a Muslim sister ❤

[@mrslovely1519]

I'm an atheist (and a Brit) so can't offer prayers but I have watched you for years and always enjoyed your drive and send you hugs and love. Just do what's in front of you and don't let things overwhelm you. Every day at a time lovely lady.

[@singerjo5791]

Oh, please get to know Jesus! He died and rose from the dead for you. Eternity is coming.

[@hometowngirl8062]

Life is too hard not to search for the Prince of Peace…Jesus!

[@KH-df8fc]

He's waiting.for you , and I promise it's a peace beyond understanding ❤

[@samiamiam5221]

Also an atheist who thoroughly enjoys watching Jamerill. While I’m very content in my lack of belief, her heart and spirituality is a beautiful and comforting things. Thank you, jamerill for being such a peaceful place to rest my brain for a while, and I wish you all the peace, love, and goodness you bestow on your viewers.

[@patriciakoester1580]

Jammerill you are a beautiful wonderful human being, thank you for all you do. God Bless 🙏 Patricia

[@beverlyrow9]

It is well. God's got you.🙏❤ Much love and blessings

[@JOHANNA-qd6iz]

I was a stay at home mum with 2 young children when life as I knew it fell apart. The worry of how I was going to keep my children feed and pay bills kept me up at night, after many tears spilt I found a job worked hard got a promotion overtime. Years later my children are doing well I'm debt free and living a good life, it was not easy many times I didn't think I would ever come to the surface and breath again. Jesus was telling me I'm beside you just let me lead you, I'm so happy I listened.

[@donnaharling7653]

There’s something healing about nature and I’m so glad you got to spend time in it .

[@jacquelineroy3972]

Jammerill don't apologize for having tears or a cry for that matter. You are human and have been through a lot in the last few months

[@fallout6000]

We are stronger than we think we are, after 30 years of marriage my husband decided to leave me for someone else. So I couldn’t function for weeks but I started climbing out of the pain and now I’m back better than ever and I am not the same person anymore. You are so strong and beautiful and God has a plan for you

[@soniauk4284]

Oh I just want to give you a hug ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I went to a retreat last November, restore your heart. After having a season of grief and hurt I needed to spend time with the Lord, nature, brothers and sisters in Christ, absolutely wonderful and blissful.... The Lord is with you precious lady xxx

[@sheliajavery1783]

Hey Babe! Life and the People in it Sometimes Turns On Us! Your doing what's best for You! Looking fantastic while its being done! Keep Lovin You!!

[@gwenreed4650]

❤Your testimony ,how you're leaning on the LORD, is an encouragement for me.

[@shaninaleieha3181]

Hi Jamerrill, when I was married and raising my kids, I was ashamed that I could only afford to shop at thrift stores and Walmart and Costco. For some reason, I thought I should have been able to buy them "better" and more expensive things. I homeschooled my kids as well. I felt like I wasn't doing enough. Your sweet videos helped me see that what I was doing back then, when my babies were little, was pretty darn good! I wish I had known you then. Please know that you reach so many people by being who you are and doing what you do. Thank you for helping me heal that part of my life. Bless you!

[@marycleath17]

Ive been on the road to getting better too. I lost my son who was 21 in a car accident and then lost my husband to cancer a couple of years later. Just last August my 20 year old grandson committed suicide. He was living with me at the time. I think I'm coming out on the other side. God has been holding my hand through this all. I do understand going through the whole process of healing. Hugs and prayers and lots of love to you. ❤

[@JamerrillStewart]

I’m so very very sorry for your losses 💗

[@hiawathawells7910]

One of my favorite moms on KZbin, I love you honey. Your life is yours to divulge or not. We see and know your life is different from before. I applaud you for coming back as soon as you have. Pray into the next season. 🙏🏽 🙏🏽 🙏🏽

[@JamerrillStewart]

Thank you sunshine!!

[@janetgray8737]

Jamerille, you do not need to apologize for your tears. You have been through a lot this past year. I am just glad that you are back on KZbin.

[@AuntMommyshouse]

Even in your hurting/healing the love & light of the Lord shines through you so beautifully 🩷Thank you for sharing these tender moments and being an inspiration to us!

[@luj3986]

So glad you’ve opened up as much as you can to us . Been seeing in your eyes your struggling. Being a mum and going through challenges is so incredibly hard . I’ve been fighting cancer and a chronic illness for the last 6 years and I know too well you don’t get to pause life to process . Proud of you for challenging your self Love your channel Looking forward to videos to come ❤❤❤❤

[@vergieclark131]

We serve an awesome God ! So happy you were able to participate in the conference and have your spirit lifted ! Prayers ! 💖🙏🏼

[@kendabrewster2154]

The messes in life show us how strong we really are. We are stronger than we think.

[@kyliestark7356]

You are a survivor. You may be battered and bruised by what has happened to you. But you are one strong focused Momma and you have an army of people behind you - literally. We adore your vulnerability and honesty xxx

[@lalamoser3275]

It is hard to type this, but when you teared up, I teared up. Your pain, your life changes, everything resonates with so many of us. How blessed we are to have the Lord! We can lean on him no matter our circumstances. We are here for you Jamerrill, all 377,000 of us 😊 what a friend group you have! We look forward to new adventures with you! Remember, you are loved! 💙

[@JamerrillStewart]

🥹🥹🥹 thank you so very much!!

[@edenelston7668]

"bags under the eyes," she says, with a gorgeous face of make up, perfect hair, looking put together as all get out❤ you're doing fine, Miss Jamerrill. Just fine.

[@sprinkledwithcolor]

I have seen this same woman looking back at me in the mirror many years ago. Know that God will never leave you and His comfort is what brings the true healing❤ praying for you♡ xoxo

[@LalonAlexander]

I am a catastrophic thinker. Nurse for 45 years and seeing how life can quickly change. Love to you and lean into Him like you are doing ❤️

[@TheSquirrelgirl55]

You are in a tough season. I went through one at age 42, with two school aged children still. It was rough rough and I definitely changed. But as I look back at age 69, I realize it was actually for the better, though in the dark season it did not feel better . We are here for you, please know that. Thank you for taking us along on this trip.

[@lesleywatkins1172]

I can totally agree with the title of this vlog, “I’m not who I was” I had something life changing happen to me 6.5 years ago, I’m so very different to who I was, it’s been a very tough road to tread but I’m about there on my new journey of “who I am now” ❤

[@lady_v_101]

For over 4yrs now, I've laughed, cried and found peace with your videos and words.. When I had treatment for a reoccurrence of cervical cancer, your videos got me through it.. Thank you.. Your message in this video has hit me hard - my future is uncertain, I don't know how long it will be, but God does, so I need to trust him, and not worry.. THANK YOU.. Much love and peace to you, from New Zealand xx

[@JamerrillStewart]

What a journey, sweetie. I’m honored you’ve found peace in my videos. Here’s to the future that the Lord holds 💗💗💗

[@fayetruth4662]

I am so happy you took the time to feed your soul and were nourished . Just keep swimming 🐠🐟🐠 sweetie.✨️💖✨️ You and the lord have got this❤❤

[@TheSquirrelgirl55]

Glad you took that trip! Thanks for taking us along. At age 69, I look back and see how I am not the person I was. At age 42, with two school age children, I went through a very rough season that I believe really changed me. But really overall, for the better. But while you are slogging it out, it is tough. That period of life can be a tough season. We care about you out here, and are here for you.

[@lesliebaxley5517]

There's nothing wrong with different. We change and grow through our experiences. Know you are loved and supported on this journey.

[@lisabeierling1837]

You’re right, you are not who you used to be. But also, you are not who you used to be. Hugs to you my dear friend.

[@lisatakeitorleaveit]

I am so proud of you and we have every right to reinvent our lives and it’s a wonderful lesson to your children - life is full of pivots ❤ I have been through a major life switch and my sons learned that we cannot control the storm but we can adjust the sails 💪

[@DLRyoung]

You’re never alone… God is always with you. I love the new you, you’re stronger, you’re amazing! You are loved. God bless you

[@susanhamilton1707]

Life is full of changes, it is best to adapt and move forward as best you can. Some of us have a "Forest Gump" life.

[@susanh3936]

Sending love. As long as you learn as you move down your path… you are doing ok. 💕

[@heidiDonato]

what a blessing the huge trees so pretty the woods thanks for sharing.

[@sharrongermanos7293]

No matter what the changes in our life take place God is always with us. You just keep in mind that he is leading at all times. Bless you and we are holding you and your family before him in prayer. ❤

[@lindafrazier8799]

Isn't it wonderful the things we learn in the pain? Those lessons are never wasted! You and others will need that wisdom. God bless you dear one!

[@barbaral1486]

No matter what you are going through, you are a woman of God ! Just do the best you can !

[@bravehearticus]

"Your mess is your message, your test is your testimony." oh lady, that's beautiful.

[@brandicastro383]

yes i agree with you god is using her to get a message to all of us

[@kristin5635]

Sweet Jamerrill, I'm so sorry you're walking though this. But know that you're not alone. ❤

[@jennifermiller5041]

Oh, Jamerrill! Im so so sorry for your pain. I have been walking through so much pain myself. My husband decided to go cold on me and our Pastor and walk away from our marriage to pursue his lusts. Im broken, oh so broken. But God! 5 kids and 22 years of marriage. Anyways, I want you to know you're not alone and that time helps the pain subside some. Sometimes we go through things that will forever change us, but so ling as we hold to Christ, all will be ok one day. I am so sad that you are also experiencing a freight train season. Keep the faith and take it one day at a time. Grieve, and take a break if needed from social media. Its no one business unless you want to share. Big hugs and much love to you. ❤

[@stephaniekennedy7753]

You have grown...you are a speaker who many seek for knowledge...your cooking is exceptional...you are a beautiful, authentic, business genius. Gifted, AMAZING!! May you receive blessings your whole life.

[@sorij3560]

You are different. It’s proof that work is being done. I’m reminded of this old song: I won't go back, I can't go back, to the way it used to be Before Your presence came and changed me.

[@libbyjill]

You are the mom I’ve always needed and never had. Sending so much love your way 🤍

[@debibee4507]

You are so strong and brave, do not let anything pull you downJammeril, God bless❤very inspiring vlog

[@ginayoungblood5536]

It is the most difficult journey but look for the Lord in everything because he is there and he is directing your steps. I’ve been there, years ago and today I wouldn’t change a thing because of my precious time completely trusting in the Lord. Praying for your heart and family’s healing. ❤

[@happydays7143]

Dry shampoo dry shampoo (Batiste). It will be your best friend forever , trust me ❤. Spray your roots and rub it in for instant lift and body , it's a game changer 🙌 Xx

[@JamerrillStewart]

Thanks for the tips!

[@denisecole6128]

Also I discovered these waterless shampoo caps. I love them!

[@letagaymagnuson8102]

This is not our real home…we are just passing through. You are loved!❤

[@sherryzimmerman9220]

BEAUTIFUL Retreat Site….the redwoods of California are a gift from God….ZiPlinning Mama Yippee……”working out life with the LORD ….we know we are truly never alone”

[@cindysieler1397]

Jamerrill, I applaud you. I've been alone for 22 yrs and I would never travel alone or eat alone in a restaurant. I wish I had the confidence you have. God Bless you

[@JamerrillStewart]

Thank you for being with me 🤗🤗🤗

[@mikemontehess9529]

So glad to see you posted this! And glad to see you having some time for yourself!🥰 what a beautiful place.😊🙏🏻❤️

[@kelsiefletcher]

You DESERVE good things. Thenk you for being you. Thank you for being here for us and teaching us. Different isnt bad, because usually if we are different its because life is different at the moment. You are still you and you are still amazing❤

[@journeyofamidwestquilter]

I would LOVE to attend one of your speaking engagements in which you speak about growing a KZbin platform. I would love to get that going for myself. Also, Jamerrill, I hear you about wanting things that are good for your soul...... I am in a hard season right now in my own life. My struggles are not the same as yours, but they are real and I am just trying to forge a path through them (and with God's help, I will!). So, like you, I am trying to focus on taking care of myself, being kind to myself, eating good food and getting exercise. That's not easy for me, because I have been so terrible at taking care of ME for years, even though I excel at taking care of others. Anyway......not to highjack your vlog, but I have so much respect for you. Thank you for being who you are and sharing your life with the world. Isn't it amazing how, even in the brokenness and weariness, we still find beauty? ❤❤❤

[@kellyschurger]

Thank you for your vulnerability. Remember that it’s okay to not be okay sometimes. The Lord will continue walking with you on this journey that feels daunting right now.