I’m so sorry for your loss man ❤️ | First Time Reaction | Ren- Suic!de

[@sil_sweetwater]

Suicide, suicide, suicide. A word that is banned from many spheres is repeated 3 times. It’s time to talk about it! Thank you, Ren

[@Max_JustMax]

i hate how instead of tackling the issue we decided let's ban the word. out of sight out of mind. it's so stupid

[@tattoodude8946]

@@Max_JustMax That is a big issue in our culture today: instead of communicating, we cancel whatever point of view is counter to our own. And it is not a political thing; all sides do it. The algorithms are programming us to be more stubborn and solidified in our own points of view. Slap on the blinders and just say everyone else is wrong. There is nothing more frustrating to me than a narrow mind and an inability to have a discussion logically. You can't learn anything if you can't communicate. I never thought I would see a time when a single word is banned just for its implications or because it is uncomfortable. It makes me sad, but also frightened about where it is going.

[@cobaltfog]

@@Max_JustMax Keep it in the dark, then if it comes up, tell people to call someone and take on the stigma of a taboo word along with everything else they're doing to themselves. It makes no sense.

[@frankensteinfpv]

I wrote a post about it and shared the song on Facebook. 2 of my friends seen and liked it. Fair to say Facebook hid my post. So stupid!

[@captainmorgan999]

Absolutely 💯

[@Doobbie420]

Well I'm a grown ass man crying on the assembly line at work 😢

[@peterdobos1606]

Ren added that final piano section several months after the song had been finished up. If I remember correctly it came out of him in one short 40 minute session, just him sitting at his keyboard and recording evey line as it came to him. We should all have a friend who would miss us this much. Sorry for your loss, Ren.

[@purplebongo27]

Thank you for a needed reaction. Thank you for your sensitivity. Suicide needs to be talked about..thanks Ren...so sorry for your massive loss..be kind to yourself love & light 💜🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🌻

[@dawnpatterson8708]

Wonderfully written.

[@dottedlinewent]

I would say that we all have a friend who would miss us this much, we just maybe don’t know it or see it when we’re feeling silicone. This song changed my entire world. I miss my friend too, and for anyone reading this, someone loves you and would miss you so much. Please stay - you matter.

[@darlingnicki9706]

​@@dottedlinewentI just want to say that they way you put this really just hit me hard. I'm not in that dark of a place anymore, but this really helped.

[@SnailHatan]

Shit. This one really got me, man. Miss you, Seth. I haven’t been as good a friend to TJ as I should have these past 6 years in your stead. I’ve been going through my own shit, real fuckin bad, for a while now, and haven’t been able to take care of the ones I love like I know I need to. I’ll try to do better for you bro. It’s the least you and T deserve. Love you man. 🐻

[@dawnpatterson8708]

I usually rush to see each and every reaction to Ren and his incredible creations. This one....hurts. It's vital and can save lives. The discussions being had already are both painful and healing. So, each time I take a deep breath and press play. Knowing I am about to have my heart break in the most beautiful and painful way. Thank you Cliff, I appreciate you.

[@craigevans8912]

I`m with you, your comment resonates with me. Five times watched, five times my heart has broke.

[@dawnpatterson8708]

@@craigevans8912 This will be rough. Watching caring people react to his pain. If I hear one joke or wise crack.......I will not be nice.

[@Sidraughen]

Yeah, it took me some time time to click on but it is something everyone should hear no matter how hard.

[@Jason_xofilos]

I concur.

[@nadanuff7916]

What a beautiful tribute and honor to Joe. Peace be with you, please forgive yourself. ❤🙏✝️🌹🇺🇸💞

[@darthshrek1]

I've lost friends and family to suicide. I have fought depression as far back as I remember. I was self harming at the age of 5. This song hits really hard.

[@dandymcgee]

glad to have you with us

[@tattoodude8946]

Ren is making it ok to feel, to hurt, to be human. Keep going, Ren. The world needs this more than ever.

[@leoscone4036]

That last part of the song is as real as it gets. Ren was running to the bridge quick as he could, calling Joe over and over. Joe was on the phone with another friend of theirs, so as long as Ren got a busy signal he knew he still had time. Then Joe's phone went out of service. Minutes later Ren ran onto the now empty bridge and looked over the edge for his friend, whose body was never found. Amazing work from Ren again. Blessings.

[@cherrybomb1386]

Oh wow 😢

[@vivienneclarke2421]

Even before this song,,knowing the story,I've thought about it and just can't even imagine how that must have affected Ren......it's so heartbreaking

[@annspicer2786]

utterly fukken gutwrenchingly painful - I'm not surprised it's taken Ren so long to so openly confront those events and lay it out in his music

[@FullMetalcoreJojo]

You're the first reaction I came to. Your videos and words have been a comfort, a reassurance in the dark for long time. Thank you...

[@Perspectiveon]

I was 13 when I first experienced a friend gone. Now I´m 60 and have lost count how many chose out. This one hits hard. So many of us out there. So incredably important to be reminded not being alone. Thx for caring and reacting.

[@dandymcgee]

thank you for sharing with us

[@Lulubelle123]

Such a powerful song - that ending .. 😢

[@ali50n]

This is going to take so many listens to be able to get through without tears.. everything's about this is beautiful

[@achebwahs1111]

Oh Cliff, far out man. His brilliance of pen combined with his raw honesty made his pain feel precise, made us feel our own.

[@helenajrgensen3157]

This track is so rough, so beautiful and so real. I can't help but notice that all of us who follow Ren are from all parts of the world and of many different ages. He embraces widely, precisely because he is so genuine and so strong in his ability to show, put words and music to his feelings. He teaches us all, or me, to feel again. I have never cried so much as after I met him. For him and his experiences, for my own and for all the people in the comments who share their experiences. It gives me faith in man again ❤

[@frankensteinfpv]

I was in a live chat watching this this morning. And the realness and love Ren is bringing out of people is amazing! People that were struggling found strength to speak out. And others in the chat found love and wisdom to share with them to give them hope! It was so amazing to be in a chat full of love and hope! Ren is bringing out the best in all of us! Love you brother and keep being you! 👌👍🤙🔥❤️

[@vivienneclarke2421]

I was there too,it was Beautiful❤

[@frankensteinfpv]

@Vivienne Clarke oh it really was hey! Was so great to be a part of something so good and wholesome...

[@vivienneclarke2421]

@Frankenstein fpv .........and connecting with others who have been touched by this ❤️we are not alone even tho sometimes we think we are

[@frankensteinfpv]

@@vivienneclarke2421 100% #neveralone

[@Jos-mc8lx]

Ren, just forgive yourself brother ! You've earned it !!! Peace !!! All the blessings you and all the RENegades needs

[@leanneh5293]

I'll never listen to that tune without getting emotional. It rips your heart wide open. I love everything about Ren. He is golden. We need to protect him. Thank you for such a wonderful reaction.

[@paulajardine5566]

the bass is like a pounding heart beat

[@globally123]

We all have to remember to be kind to each other more. We are all in this together.

[@Ph4n_t0m]

This absolutely flattened me. I never lost anyone to anything like this but I felt every sob that racked his body.

[@Sniper-steve]

I’ve lost friend from ptsd from war to suicide and one friend Ben told us on what’s app he was about to do it by the time we got there he was already dead every word Ren said is exactly how it makes you feel guilt anger and grief that won’t leave 💔

[@leanneh5293]

Same!!

[@marycomerford1456]

Same! That ending just wrecked me

[@lynette.]

In this he highlights both sides of suicide and in the pain of the one left behind hopefully will give pause for thought when in the madness.

[@christinapeck966]

It was painfully beautiful 😪💔🎶the world needs REN✨🌎🎶 prayers for REN✨🙏🏽❤️‍🩹 🎶 music is life! Good to see you cliff 😉

[@jessicalingo4346]

Its going to be a long time before I can listen to this without crying. Maybe thats a good thing. The tears that come from this is healing. We all need a collective healing. I believe ren sees that and is bringing healing to those that listen.

[@2nicnag2]

I just listened to Ren for the first time today, I am broken, words don’t exist to explain the feelings I’ve had listening to this song and Hi Ren.

[@Av3rageD4D]

Thank you Cliff, this is tough subject for a lot of people, but Ren’s music is shining a light on the broken. His ability to connect people through pain, is special.

[@NadineLaFrance-pf5rq]

I saw this song when ren dropped it live it was beautiful I cried this my third time listening to this song I am doing to cry again

[@Letishia-zt3sg]

This song is powerful

[@i603iGames]

"Some where lucky and some where not" bar hits me hard.. because even though I was blessed with the best childhood anyone could ask for. Once I was an adult the world hit me even harder. Life is a mental test for everyone no matter your upbringing!

[@tonyhunt4250]

I am actually happy now that he final released that hurt through his music that he has been haunting him for so long.

[@willbender9035]

This is a phenomenal music video. The second half breaks me every time.

[@ArwensPhotography]

This hit hard & deep, as someone who knows that pain of losing a loved one to suicide I fell even more in love with the realness that is Ren & his musicality thanks to this song. He laid his soul bare here. 🩷🙏🏻

[@carmenhuyser808]

Agreed 💯

[@Blonde82red]

I heard this on Instagram and it is heart wrenching and beautiful!!🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤 Breaking Benjamin "Dance with the Devil"🖤🖤🖤

[@im2yz4u17]

Near the end you said "a lot of people need you now". That is so true. Ren is by far my most favorite musical artist. I do need his music--it makes me happy.

[@JointdaleRecords]

such a powerfull track ,, then the piano hits and wow......amazing art Ren is creating..hitting people in the heart worldwide...#RipJoe great reaction man..keep up the great work

[@julihouser7468]

You are right! We are energy, from 1 source and energy is not destroyed it is transformed, we are all connected and we are all here for a purpose. Ren's purpose is to be an inspiration to others with his artistry, and your purpose is connecting with others by providing your reaction videos, thank you and much love to everyone!

[@cherylrobbins715]

Not just for Joe and Ren, but for ALL of us. ❤️

[@shawnalajame7888]

This was really, really painful to watch… LOVE YOU, REN… RIP Tia Susan Foley and Joe.

[@belgand5555]

Ren just hits us right where we need to be.. I want to go outside and yell people wake up listen to Ren.. so Impactful.. thanks Cliff!♥️🎶♥️

[@laurencemayshroom5940]

Crazy how any different line from this can resonate with so many people. Already seeing across the multiple reactions. It's amazing that he can touch everyone's heart in one way or another. The line " the distance is my plaster cast" resonates with me massively on a pre and post the deed level. 2 friends in the last 2 years that I hadn't spoken to much before combined with being away from where I lived and therefore constant reminders. Ren doesn't realise the medicine that he is. The thought channel to save you having to think it yourself. Thank you Cliff for always being personable and real about mental health. Big love everyone

[@karllines2952]

In an age where nudity and suicide are taboo, he screams suicide 3 times , then bares his soul.

[@madcat528]

RIP Joe. ❤ Ren, beautiful tribute! 😢 You and your dear friend will be together again one day!

[@nedheadwyoming]

I believe this❤

[@MissMeKate]

Music like this and the conversations it is starting will save lives. Especially seeing young men like you and Knox showing that there is no shame in being vulnerable. You speak to the folk who might not have those conversations with people in their lives, and Ren is the catalyst for the changes they need. This one is hard but my goodness it is necessary.

[@mariajoseurizar5093]

No better person to react to this song that you, thank you for always talking about this issues, it hemos more than you know. This song you feel in your skin, in your bones, in your soul, Ren makes such beautiful art bearing his soul and pain to the world

[@dancerbird76]

This song hit hard when I watched the first time. It’s taken me nearly a week to start watching reactions - it’s hard to see people hear the second section of this track for the first time but it’s opening the door for people to have these important life saving discussions. Ren’s willingness to show his vulnerability and wear his pain is giving people ‘permission’ to share their feelings with others. Thanks Cliff for another great reaction.

[@rhondaanderson1694]

I live in Alabama my daughter had her baby yesterday in KC, Missouri. She named her daughter Wrenly Mae.❤ She listens to country. But they are gonna call her Wren. Thought it was cool. A lighter moment in such a heartbreak raw Song. Ren made me cry again. ❤

[@blackfairyxdusy]

I will never forget how much you helped me when I reached out in the past. I was really struggling. Your an incredible Man to go out of your way to help people. I love you dude! ❤️ xxx

[@CliffBeatsOfficial]

I’m still always here. I love you too 🙏 👊 ❤️

[@blackfairyxdusy]

@@CliffBeatsOfficial Keep your head up man, You deserve every happiness in the world. I’m also always here if you need someone ❤️

[@raisnaix]

"Washed Up and sea sick" The song is about his friend who committed suicide by jumping off a bridge into the sea.

[@captain_Kickapoo]

Everytime I got depress, I hang myself with the same rope that failed me 10 years ago until I look at my cats staring at me and realize that it's not worth causing the pain to the people around me

[@DonnaPoynton.]

Beautiful and Heartbreaking ❤😢,Thanks Cliff x ❤Ren R.I.P Joe Hughes ❤

[@stonedwolf13]

Ren is too real! Thanks Cliff!

[@AndreJHoward]

That last part was rough ... beautiful but rough. Hits really hard.

[@AprilJMoon]

Ren is opening doors to understanding 'taboo' subjects and creating discussion. Their is always HOPE and help. A stranger can be the best listener. You might think there is nothing left, but as with Joe, there are ripples that affect everyone from your circle and beyond. Talk, hug, cry...SCREAM it from the highest hill, somebody will hear you and offer a helping hand to pull you from your emotional whirlpool

[@vintage080774]

I've lost friends to suicide, three years ago I was almost that friend myself. This is such a hard hitting yet beautiful song and tribute to all those we've loved and lost.

[@angelcaraballo4907]

This is an Anthem without sounding off is an ANTHEM!!!! Big ups to Ren for the message and every1 taking it in on a positive way....kno that some1 loves you no matter what and needs you to be alive as appose to takin the wrong way out.....

[@sarahcp6117]

Thank you for this. I love your Discord and your genuine support of others and I've been looking forward to your reaction since Ren released the title of this song

[@mldkenny]

Thank you for your words Cliff.

[@justmejoy124]

Cliff if YT cuts you know theres a connection that they xant touch bro we will be here for ya🤜🤛

[@ErasedSins]

Ren has a new song, watch the official video and like it. Come to Cliff, watch it again and it hits harder. Cliff thanks for always being a safe place for people to come and for supporting Ren. Love you my guy.

[@webcrawler2007]

NGL, took me a bit to be ready to watch your reaction to this one. I knew it would be tough. Love you brother, great reaction and break down, as always.

[@dennisvernonhaydock]

I thought I'd shed as many tears as I had for the people I've lost to suicide. I was wrong. We need to shout the word suicide out as loudly and as often as possible if we want to honor those people we've lost to this scourge. We need to shout the word suicide as loudly and as often as possible to help those people who may feel it's their only option.

[@RichRhodes]

For Ren and C.B. - Awesome respect for your choices in the face of adversity, especially the decision to share. Honest, real... rare.

[@KariTripp]

Thank you cliff 😢 you have ALOT of people too now. You’ve become such a staple in my daily life with music loving. Your words do hold weight and mean a lot to those watching. Thank you for speaking on these topics regardless of how much money you could make on KZbin watching other content. Your reactions matter So thank you ❤ much love

[@jclarke8849]

Cliff, mate, just glad you are out there. Said it before, will say it again; whatever that particular vivid colour (color) is called in the spectrum of life, yeah that's you, buddy, I always feel just that bit chipper when I tune in.

[@MarkWilliams1968]

Empathy and Love are the only way we overcome Fear and Hate. Reach out for love, Reach out with love. Reach Out, no matter what ;

[@justmejoy124]

Cliff this one got me to the bone my friend . I have a experience so damn close to this with my mom the different circumstance but all else is almost the same and every emotion as well to a T. A part of me knows a part of him i feel. Ive listened several times and that ending truly gets me. Every single word gas such a greater deeper meaning that more wirds cant explain but i so feel this one to my bones bro

[@donald1379]

Ren is incredible and im glad that he is sharing his journey with all this beautiful yet serious music...thank you

[@tonyfro23]

You two are perfect one to give us a video and one to react to a video. Y'all can't imagine the things you can do for people you never meet by just giving a genuine EFF. The reactor and the artist are the real deal.

[@Danishbassist]

love to you and Ren

[@williammaddox6363]

This one wrecked me but am compelled to listen on repeat. It really hits hard as my brother attempted multiple times. This needs to be played loudly and on repeat as it could save someone’s life. Love to Ren for pouring his lose and pain into this masterpiece. Thank you Cliff for supporting your followers.

[@andRubymakes2]

Wonderful reaction, I think we were all hit hard by this one! I am sure your words have also helped someone, you had me in tears all over again! thank you 🙏 ❤️

[@Letishia-zt3sg]

This song is so beautiful, i watched this video when it premiered such powerful song

[@geoffreynolds3157]

This song reminds me of my cousin. She was 31 and she suffered from Bipolar Disorder. After years of battling against her own mind she lost the battle and jumped from her apartment balcony. I was 16 when this happened and I watched my family fall apart through this, her mom and step father took their lives 3 months later and my dad fell into a deep addiction. My Dad is sober today, but I watched him suffer and my family deal with the trauma. It took me till I was 30 to address this trauma. After a couple years of therapy, I’m in a good place, but the pain never fully goes away. It amazing you leave an open space to reach out, cause my cousin never had that safe space and I feel more and more of us need to help provide that and de-stigmatize talking about whether we are doing alright or not.

[@GoodGirlGone]

My dear man @cliffbeats.. we need to talk! I can’t believe you have not yet done Love Music parts 1-3!!! This is Ren showing how much he loves music (all music).. the music is dope, and gets better with each part and he has bars on bars in these… you will absolutely LOVE it!! (Ps study up on all the Bond film titles before part 2.. yes ALL of them)… also do yourself a favour and check out 1990… apart from the cool vibe, the nostalgia is legend!! Thanks for all your reactions.. I binge watched all of your Ren ones (and some others) today… subbed early on, as you are great… keep on doing what you doing!!

[@stuartfraser8060]

Great stuff Cliff, knew you'd do this one justice as ever 👍 Don't let the blinkered YT automatons get to ya, see you on the other side 👌👍

[@Meyliassa]

What hits me hardest is how incredibly well Ren has captured both sides. The internal struggle of fighting against the darkness that keeps trying to drag us down, and the grief of those left behind. I've been on both of those sides, and I know so very well how much each of them tears at you. I've never heard either of them put into words so perfectly, much less within the same song. Ren is truly an exceptional artist.

[@PDXmaker]

Always love your reactions and compassion. Ren is one of my favorite artists alive right now. I am grateful he is alive. As someone who has felt so hopeless and suicidal in the past (due to so much intense trauma, ptsd, depression, anxiety and a life of intense chronic pain and illness and suffering) - and as someone who has lived to see things get better, to heal and grow and experience light and love and joy again - these words and video bring me to tears. It hits hard. I can only imagine how hard this was to write and sing but it’s fucking beautiful and heartbreaking and honest. Grief is all the love we never get to fully express to someone once they are gone - big love equals big loss and grief. Ren certainly poured out the love in this one. To anyone out there feeling alone tonight… even if you can’t find the light in this moment, I promise it’s still there. So many of us have felt lost in the darkness and truly believed leaving was our only way out - but I promise you there is hope. Call a hotline, call a trusted person, talk to a therapist if you can. If you need help, call or text 988 for free support from trained counselors. There IS light and joy and love and healing awaiting on the other side of this darkness if you just keep searching for it. I am proof. It takes work, and it’s not always easy, but the beauty of life is worth the fight. You are not alone. You are loved and you are stronger than you know. You deserve a shot at happiness, healing and peace. You deserve a shot at feeling the sun on your face. 💜

[@annewilliamson6261]

Beautiful words. ❤🙏❤️‍🩹

[@thomasskywalker8893]

Hey Cliff, man! Can I just say that honestly you seem like, just a solid dude, man!

[@Astravan63]

There is an alarming rate of suicide in the last few years, and i totally understand with the climate we live under ,its doom n gloom across the globe , there is no hope or anything to look forward to ,the pandemic ruined so many people's lives,losing family, homes,jobs . All that going on with people who were already suffering with mental health, such an awful thing to go through ,i myself have been through the mill with MH ,the despair and hopelessness feeling , fortunately iv managed to re set my thinking to a point ,im not out of the woods yet ,but definitely improved. Overthinking! Is the enemy ,and keeping busy is part of the cure for me . Music is also my medication

[@RonNL70]

This one hit so incredibly hard 😭

[@gothmama7456]

Love to everyone 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

[@heathercryer3238]

Thank you Ren for singing my pain. Lost my brother too, day after my birthday coming up in a few. I guess you never get over a thing like that, even 25 years later. It is good to cry together…even if you don’t know me.

[@redbandita020]

Cliff, thank you for being such a solid human being. I buried my cousin, who was almost like a sister to me, 10 days ago. She was 52 and saw no better future for herself. I am still numb from that, and now Ren gives us this. If we met in real life, I think you would be a wonderful friend to have.

[@nilsmeissner1283]

Hey Cliff, thanks for your great reaction. I myself was close to the edge with self harming and suicidal thoughts about 8 years ago. Luckily I am better now. But a good friend of my wife jumped to his death just last December. Ren's song hits hard. So good and important. ❤ from Scotland

[@flintknapper]

Some times that voice can be damn persistent. I hope it never feels like the right time for you. Shut that voice up no matter how loud and persistent it can be.

[@Lunabracco]

Every word you speak is the truth! I am not religious either I don't believe in God but that doesn't mean I don't have faith! ....

[@globally123]

Thank you for your kindness by offering to help,have a good one. Cheers.

[@StevenJago-j2y]

Love the reactions bro, you a genuine person and just a good lad, all the best from liverpool

[@scoutbane1651]

You should do freckled angels too. It's the first song he made dedicated to his friend, and imo it hits even harder. Love you man you're always such a legitimate reactor. I can see you mean every single word you say.

[@thomaslanfranchi3552]

I’ve not been able to listen to this song and not cry. it hits so close to me, but for other reasons. it’s given a different outlook on life, from other peoples perspectives that I was blind to before this. Thank you Ren.

[@Microplancakes]

Ugh!! Heart wrenching!!! Another powerful piece of music and lyrics!!

[@salishseamermaid]

I really appreciate your realness. We need these discussions to be commonplace.

[@dawnpatterson8708]

This one .......hurt. It took me a bit to realize that this is a GIFT of perspective. There are many who are so lost in the depths of despair. That they can't see a hand, friend or those around that love them. This is an intensely personal glimpse into the pain that a loss such as this creates. Yeah, it hurt. It was supposed to. If it makes just ONE person, take a minute to think about how one split second decision. WOULD affect those around them. It was well WORTH the pain.

[@philk9227]

Thanks Cliff. This connects on so many levels with so many of us.

[@fourcornersofbrighton]

Great reaction! This one has been hard for me. I have dealt with depression for most of my life and much of what has kept me here is the realization of how it would hurt those I love. The second half of this song is brutal but it is also a good reminder of how it hurts those left behind. Musically, it's another masterpiece! The video is beautiful as well. Louis Mardlin is the video editor for Ren's animated type videos and he did a fantastic job with this one.

[@BrotherPraetus]

Gawds, man. I don't know how I missed this reaction. Glad I finally sat my ass down and watched your reaction, Cliff.

[@Lou-xq9br]

You are always so kind and respectful ❤️ #Ren ❣️

[@Jason_xofilos]

What is amazing is how vulnerable Ren was at when he wrote this and created this video plus currently releasing to it all of us. 2nd is Ren’s loss of his childhood when he lost his innocence and feeling of immortality. He reminds me of the Maestro Tuomas Holopainen who composed most of Nightwish songs, poetry in his lyrics, and music. One theme Tuomas has is Dead Boy meaning a loss of childhood. Finally, while emphasizing the pain Ren’s friend Joe was going through also showing how hurt he was by the choice his friend Joe made along with the guilt of just possibly missing getting to Joe in time to save him or even to say goodbye plus Joe’s body was never found for closure. In other words, the choices one makes affects more than oneself. As Aurora has sung ‘Let the River Run’.

[@11Scorpions]

Why do I appreciate this song so much? Cuz he gives BOTH POVs: the one who did themselves in AND the people left in the wake of what they've done 😞

[@nightmare62089]

I've watched a few reactions to this song since last night and for some reason this is the time that my dam finally broke. When I was 9 or 10, I lost my grandfather to his own choices. He had been in remission from cancer for a long time but had a few other things going on and woke up one morning feeling worse than he had in decades. Racked with pain and whatever else was going through his mind he made his way to the garage and punctuated his story with a shotgun. I haven't thought about it in a long time. When my dad told my brother and I a few days later it was one of the first times I ever him saw him break and I changed. I became the one that stayed solid for my family and friends when things got bad and only dealt with my shit after they were good. I'm still this way and it led me to me heading down that road once or twice in my early 20's. I understand both sides of this situation. I get feeling like there's no other way out and I get being hurt in a whole new way because someone left you behind. I get feeling guilty for blaming someone for the choice they made but also feeling like the guilt is misplaced and you have a right to be pissed. It fucks you up and it's fucked up. I'm sorry for dumping this here, but I needed to get it out. Please, for the love of your loved ones, if you're going through anything like this reach out to someone.

[@melissawinstead8848]

❤Always with love! Peace and love always until there is no more!❤