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[@Aleksandra-bq8vd]

When she said "he doesn't have any friends" I almost cried. Colleen you're an amazing mother, don't devalue your struggles, you're not being dramatic. You keep your family safe, don't go anywhere and make all those sacrifices for like HALF A YEAR and you call yourself Karen for crying about your son not being able to have proper childhood???? Girl you're an angel, don't beat yourself up!

[@katelyn581]

Miranda you are the best KZbinr❤️

[@priyamanobal]

He’s only one though.

[@laure_1921]

Nya Marie he’s 2

[@Aleksandra-bq8vd]

@@priyamanobal Well it's still understandable than she wants all the best for her son. Sure he is young and most kids probably get their first friends in kindergarden, but I can see that it makes Colleen sad and I totally get that. She has so much energy and she wants to do all those fun stuff with him and she can't. It may seem like going to the store, museum and other places does not affect children, because they don't understand anything, but it's not true. Imagine that your whole life you've seen only your house and few family members. Often simple things are crucial in childs development. I totally get why it makes Colleen upset and she has every right to cry about it, even if it seems dramatic for some people

[@priyamanobal]

Lauren Dunne hes 1 he’ll be 2 in December but rn he’s 1.

[@SamandAlyssa22]

Your rant about Flynn today really hit home for my wife and I. We have a daughter about to turn 1 very soon and we feel like she is getting robbed of her childhood. We legit talked about that same thing in a video recently. We have been quarantining since March 2nd and have not gone to the store or barely even on walks because we are so terrified of this virus. I myself have lupus and with having a baby, I feel so scared that myself, my wife or our daughter could get it. We haven’t seen any family or friends since February of this year and it’s so hard/sad that our daughter doesn’t really know her grandparents. Thank you for being a great influencer and staying inside, wearing a mask and making these videos everyday. Great job Mom 😊

[@mikaylassav]

Colleen your amazing!! In the future Flynn should make a youtube channel with his trucks and all toys hey likes!

[@madelynrisner2298]

I feel Colleen and whoever puts a thumbs down on all of colleens videos instead of a thumbs up why do they even bother to watch

[@CowwoC]

We can definitely relate! I have 3 young kids and it is so hard for them to not see their friends or anything, I feel horrible.

[@caitlinkeating8177]

Yep, my daughter is 5 and she is missing her first real year of school (kindergarten) - it is virtual and is a shitshow. And her soccer season was cancelled. To be honest, she doesn't really know any better. She is more sad about soccer. But she loves the home time with Mommy and Daddy. It is more of me being a mess about how much she is missing out on. I could not imagine if I was a parent of a senior in HS, 8th grade or college. I would feel SOOOO bad for those kids!

[@SarahWheeleeTravels]

I haven’t seen family or friends either this year. Really taking it seriously and I’m so wrecked.

[@emilygilpin1897]

I feel ya girl, my son is about to turn one and he has NEVER left the house.

[@carlyt1944]

That so sad

[@ameliatod1195]

I feel so bad for you

[@anonamoose2229]

Never? What about his injections? Why not take him for a walk somewhere quiet?

[@emilygilpin1897]

@@anonamoose2229 well i obviously take him for walks when i can, and he has had his vaccinces but other than those things he hasnt expierienced anything outside of our super teeny tiny town. We live a long ways away from anything, and we were very sick after i had him. I almost died in the hospital with him, so i think me and my husband already have anxiety about leaving the house, and covid on top of it all has made us very fearful, due to me also having a chronic condition

[@Philippians4.6]

Aw I’m so sorry 😭 prayers coming your way

[@xLoLox1330]

Flynn isn’t getting robbed, he’s just getting a different experience. He gets to spend every day with both of his parents and that’s something you’ll all appreciate when he’s older :)

[@ingridlopez8546]

Yes! That’s such a gift to have both parents so active in your first year. There are positive and negatives :)

[@kianasky37]

Colleen don’t beat yourself up for crying, you have all the right to be upset. This world is wacky right now.

[@drieuxkoeppel8152]

My doctor told me this time in history has resulted in more anxiety, depression and sadness than she’s ever seen before. Dentists say people are clenching and grinding their teeth so much, due to stress. I have Major Depressive Disorder, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I’ve had a great life. I’m in a long, happy marriage. We raised two sons who are amazing men. That does not negate my own mental issues. My heart breaks for you, Colleen. I DO know what you’re feeling. Don’t apologize for being sad. For being human. I’m an RN, and when a patient makes a mess, or gets sick, etc, I tell them if it’s BEYOND their control, there’s absolutely nothing to apologize for. If there’s anything I can do (I’m on the East Coast, but still...). I’ve had to increase my mental health meds of late, so I do know a little of what you’re going through. Please reach out. I’m here. God bless you and all on the West Coast!

[@JamieMarzy]

Im glad you said this. People think that because you are well off and have a happy family, that you cant be depressed. I wish more people understood.

[@drieuxkoeppel8152]

Jamie 1019 ❤️

[@naturesdragon46]

This made me cry how much you care about every one

[@Monicaleigh43]

I just referred to you at work as “my friend Colleen” 😂 “my friend Colleen HATES fruit stickers.”

[@fzzypurpleturtle]

I say that sometimes because explaining it's a youtuber to ppl is too much to explain atm

[@jenniferconnolly8849]

My son just turned 8 and is autistic. He normally has issues with socialization and during quarantine it has been so much worse. He craves social interactions with children but he isn't good at it without learning from their behavior. I feel like he is regressing so much in this time, and he also doesn't have any friends. It hurts my heart as a Mom that he is going through this situation at no fault of his own. Don't ever feel ashamed about your feelings. You're a beautiful person and only want the best for your family.

[@cutiecrybaby5381]

I’m sorry. I hope you and your son are doing ok. Quarintine is hard for all of us. Sending love ❤️

[@abbystephens9766]

I moved on from this time of life. It affected my autism hard. I wanted to die because the pandemic turned my world upside down.

[@Marandanorton93]

I feel bad at the fact that Colleen has to justify being sad and having emotions... 😣

[@jacksonurenmusic]

Yes!!! I agree! She shouldn’t have to apologize for being a human and having emotions. She’s amazing for doing what she does.

[@Stephaniemickle]

Oh my god I know I feel so bad that she has to say anything other than just what’s making her sad. I cried right along with her 😢

[@ImKazza]

It's so sad in itself isn't it!

[@bumblebee6550]

Ew, emotions! (Irony off) Please, never be ashamed of feeling happy, sad, disappointed or whatever you like to feel. It is okay to struggle sometimes.

[@maddyhoverter]

She doesn't have to she's choosing too

[@madisonmarrs8519]

I had a teacher that said something that stuck with me. He was always confused when students would cry over bad grades. He knew there were so many worse things. Then he realized that that bad grade might be the worst thing that has ever happened to them. You don’t define your sadness based on what others have been through. You are living your own life and everything is relative to your experience. It is ok if you haven’t been through the same level of situations. You are not the same person as them. It is good to acknowledge that people have been through much worse but it is ok if spilled milk makes you cry.

[@NicoleShizzle]

This is nice 💗

[@NicoleShizzle]

I hope she sees it

[@tapiocapudding8]

YES just because there are people who have had it worse doesn’t make you pain any less valid

[@catsandpizzaxx2097]

Wise words🥰

[@fellowcommentscroller.8748]

This is the best comment I've read today uwu Even though our grade can ruin our entire life ×-×

[@allisonzimmer1222]

Honey, your feelings are VALID. This whole situation is not what anyone planned for their kids, and yeah... it sucks. Period. It's ok to be upset about that. Really. The one thing to hang onto, is while YOU know how different his life could be.... he doesn't. It's not weird for him. It just IS. ❤

[@kayladewaard4019]

Stop apologizing for being sad. Everyone is sad, no matter how you feel about the politics of the situation, or what stage of life you are in. This lockdown is bad for us...we are social beings. It affects us all, emotionally and mentally. You are allowed to be sad and you are allowed to express your feelings without apologizing. People who attack others for how they feel or because they dont agree are in the wrong. Being sad itself is not wrongn

[@Tina-bd9et]

He has his cousins and trust me sweet girl - they will be his life long besties. ❌⭕️

[@mmw344]

Tina literally my cousin is my only friend! 😂

[@adalynbooker9689]

and he’s not even 2 he won’t even remember when he’s older so it doesn’t even matter if he has friends he won’t remember lol

[@lightbulbjr1347]

Tina this is soooo true! Me and my cousins are absolute best friends

[@susanobrien6613]

My cousins are my best friends

[@ashrapieters2521]

This is so true! I wish my kids had cousins. Won't be for a few years tho :-(

[@kayleighhornback5000]

it’s sad that colleen has to explain herself for being sad, because she feels that if she doesn’t she will sound selfish or dramatic. it’s ok to be sad, no one will judge.

[@kaylapatrick4815]

Peridot

[@courtneymichelle5746]

I do the same thing and honestly no one should have to do it.

[@GALAXIE262]

She has to explain because she knows that people WILL judge. Theres alot of a-holes out there.

[@user-qk4br9qv8g]

can you explain your pfp?😂😂

[@avarismimi]

It is sad. We won’t judge. She’s awesome. Love your comment.🥰

[@asash21]

Your emotion are valid, don’t be sorry for crying about your issue. Come on gurl! Give me a hug now!

[@gwendolynwheeler8945]

Yannik D lol

[@19sunshine23]

It breaks my heart how conditioned she is to justify herself after every couple words.. it's like she's so used to fighting to express herself normally... the stuff influencers have to go through

[@natividadvelasquez6036]

Seeing them show the trucks I forget we're just a camera.

[@nkk_23]

throughout this quarantine, i feel like ive literally been a part of her family. i know that's SO weird and there are a million other people that watch her videos too but there's something so personal about her vlogs i love her so much

[@malloryfallon6394]

ikr??? I thought i was the only one 😂😂

[@adri_johnnies_version._.]

IKR lol

[@gwendolynwheeler8945]

natividad velasquez same

[@tiffanyann9763]

*The last 7 months have been extremely difficult, especially for those of us who are quarantined. Thank you for vlogging every day and being so real. My daughter and I look forward to your posts, they’ve literally been getting us through this time. Hang in there!!! It’s ok to be sad, this too will pass and life will resume again* ❤️❤️

[@tiffanyann9763]

Just watched the whole vlog and you are so far from being dramatic. We are doing the same thing you are doing, quarantining. On social media we see people out, not wearing masks, not social distancing and it’s so so hard. It’s just not worth the risk of getting sick. You are being a great human and momma and I totally feel your pain 💔. Please know you are not alone ❤️❤️❤️

[@ILikeBirds]

Tiffany Ann :)

[@ashcatchum]

Even when we do go to Target it’s not the same. People are distanced you think about if you’re going to get sick you have to remember to wear a mask and cover your face and you can’t see somebody’s else face and everything is so hyper controlled it doesn’t even feel that free to go out if I’m being honest

[@lizg.m8231]

I'm also in quarantine and my kids are 10-15 but I'm taking this seriously because I know that we migh have the chance on getting the virus and pass it to someone else or that someone we know has it and don't want to have it since I'm the one who takes care of my kids if I get sick whites going to take care of them my closest family member we'r don't really talk so .. I understand how she's feeling I'm getting sick of this but not risking my family on catching this virus. Everyone has their own opinion on this and the way they want to take this serious or not.

[@hiimbi1075]

This comment is the best

[@eharding7]

I feel the same way! Remember- he will NEVER remember this time period. Think of your earliest memories, they don’t start at 1.5 or 2. There’s your silver lining, Mama. He won’t remember, but you will. Take care of yourself. For him, you are enough.

[@nutmeg_and_cinnamon]

I was already crying but when she said “he doesn’t have any friends” I cried so hard. No one can judge her for saying “I miss the way things used to be” because we’ve all said that before. Everyone right now is feeling like this, everything is okay.😊

[@kacieclarke7081]

Flynn has nothing to compare his life to. He’s so incredibly happy to be around you and Eric and Corey and his cousins all the time. He will be so incredibly excited to have friends and go to museums when he gets older, he’s not missing out on anything he won’t remember. But creating positive and healthy relationships with your family will matter. You’re doing amazing ❤️

[@TrueDignity]

Took the words right outta my mouth. I do understand feeling like our whole lives have changed though. I don’t think it’ll be the same for a while. 💔💔

[@misscrackwood]

You are so spot on! We know how it was before, they don't! There's a bit of comfort in this, and I try to see life through my kids' eyes to be more at peace with everything going on!

[@kaylap9967]

COLLEEN YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID! DONT MAKE THEM SEEM LITTLE THEY ARE YOUR FEELINGS AND THEY MATTER!!!

[@lucyjune7593]

Colleen THATS IS NOT A LAME THING TO BE SAD ABOUT, I’m literally the most emotional person ever lol. Ur an amazing mom and an amazing person, and ur doing the best you can. Ur also literally the sweetest and most loving person ever. And ur not behind, I didn’t make my first friend till I was 7😂 but once all this corona crap is over Flynn is gonna be able to do all the things you want him to. He’s sup super smart, so I’m sure he’ll be able to learn rly quick. Ur not alone. Love yah😉✨💕 (also everyone loves a good cry lol)

[@lucyjune7593]

Flynn’s literally the cutest thing on this planet

[@juliaharding8890]

honestly for some people it might be annoying how their kids obsess over things for too long kind of like flynn with dump trucks but colleen isnt like that and she's such a good mom and she always spends so much time with him. I'm telling you colleen, that's gonna make a really big and good impact on his and your relationship when he is older and when he can appreciate it. Such a good mamma!

[@gtvlogs2103]

me being obsessed with one direction the past 9 years

[@maisy3526]

@@gtvlogs2103 facts

[@lizalove91]

When I see the way she allows him to help in the kitchen or with whatever she’s doing and encourages him and tells him good job it’s honestly incredible and will give him so much self confidence and joy. I was not raised in a healthy environment and my self confidence is so low because of it. When I watch Colleen I know I want to be that kind of mom one day.

[@juliaharding8890]

@@lizalove91 im sorry about that. You def make a good point as well.

[@musicmania2970]

Colleen literally looks like she’s wearing makeup even when she isn’t! Your gorgeous girl

[@eveeouioui]

RIGHT!? She doesnt need makeup. She has a gorgeous face

[@moriahmagana]

Yess

[@musicmania2970]

Geneveve Kugler exactly!

[@erinveara1373]

You have every right to feel this way! I feel the same with my kids. I just want to be able to take my kids to the grocery store or target and not having to think “is it safe” “do we have masks” etc.

[@musicbyshara]

3:00 Flynn's little "adada" sounded exactly in pitch with the background music omg a true singer

[@mahipatel7418]

Girl you are the most inspiring, beautiful women ever, and you are such an amazing and perfect mom to flynn 🥺🥺🥺

[@sarahdrummond5334]

Aesthetic_ Queen agreed💗

[@abbymarievlogs]

Aesthetic_ Queen nice mom scoff

[@sav9062]

Abigail Stilwell ?

[@emmahood9412]

True true true

[@NicholaNich]

yes!!

[@natalierene8429]

remember you always have time to do so many things with flynn, he’s so young he has so much time with you and time to do those things. when he makes friends in school or something the kids he talks to will have been in the same situations as him, and it’ll be cool for them to bond. he will be able to do all of these things soon and it will be so much cooler i think because he has never seen it before, he’ll get to experience it soon, hang in there momma we love you so much

[@madifacius6732]

Dear Colleen, I know you probably won’t see this but you got me through quarantine! Flynn is going to grow up with tons of friends once he goes to school (if you choose to send him to school)! Trust me, Flynn is going to be responsible and he loves you and Eric a lot! He loves kory, and all of his cousins! He loves your mom and dad! He loves your whole family. It’s going to be okay. I’m here for you! We all are! It’s okay to cry. Sometimes I need to cry for no reason, I just cry for 5 minutes and I time myself so when I stop I feel sooooo much better! And also, everyone hates 2020! When you are bored or if Flynn has nothing to do, drive in the car with all of the windows down and play games like first one to see a dump truck wins a toy or a piece of candy! Flynn will have fun! Love you

[@mikeysrose]

"Woah, it's squirting" would have been a good post-intro-song sound bite. 😄

[@sedonagallardo8581]

I was thinking the same thing!!! Maybe it will show up in a few days :)

[@nbowyer90]

When my daughter tells me she misses seeing her friends I feel like my heart could literally break in two

[@luv_strawberriez]

Naomi Bowyer when I tell my mom that she says” you didn’t have any in the first place” lol

[@bellagrace6016]

Dont feel bad I am 11 and ya we all miss our friends but this is life now just tell her all that is going on and still won't get it but if you are trying your hardest than that's all you can do I dont know you but I have a feeling that you are a great mom so stay positive and safe😊😊😊

[@ImLilyBlue]

@@bellagrace6016 same!

[@zivagreenhalgh9880]

I don’t have any

[@sevastra0921]

My kids have each other and cousins and we will allow their friends that are also home schooled can come over but no one that is doing in person learning.. the schools are already having outbreaks. Its a nightmare but things will get better!!!

[@jaxonholmes590]

Eric’s little smile when Flynn is playing with the trucks. He looks so purely happy

[@mirabella1570]

I just had the best idea ever: get Flynn one of those small electric cars that he can drive around in

[@d.h.9169]

Flynn hates electric stuff. He doesn't like the noise 😅

[@Allybbbbbb444]

Also still too little for that!

[@sofiacustodio7319]

I feel you I chose to be homeschooled this year but I regret that so much as I’m just craving normality and all my friends are back at school and it’s just me😭

[@kferguson5792]

Please know, whenever you feel like you are being too dramatic, there is someone watching who feels the same way. You are not alone and it's ok to feel jipped! You were so excited to enjoy this stage in Flynn's life to the fullest. How could you NOT be sad?! How could you not be miss the rhythm and joy of your very busy, very interactive life. Your feelings and tears are valid. Sending you love ❤❤

[@ceanobabe]

colleen stop saying i'm being so dramatic. i've literally cried over crying for no reason which then made me cry.

[@jumpergirl502]

Oh my goodness, that proud little hand-on-the-hip while painting pose was TOO MUCH. Such a joy to watch your little guy grow up - thanks for sharing these moments with us :)

[@brooklynnscotty7795]

My son is only 7 months but he still hasn’t gotten to meet 90% of his family.

[@gwendolynwheeler8945]

Brooklynn Scotty 😱😱😱😱😱😱😭😭😭😭😭

[@emmaleigh141]

Same. Mines almost 11 months.

[@emilyleung4295]

I still can’t get over Colleen dressed as Miranda talking normally

[@jadehodgins8818]

Ya my sister doesn’t believe that there the same person

[@evie2660]

Same

[@vinoneya2015]

This is supposed to be serious

[@softballkfaplayzz6992]

SтгашвеггуLемопаdе .-.

[@NicholaNich]

soooo weird to see

[@cheryl8259]

He’s such a sweet little boy, when life ever goes back to normal he will make so many friends🙂❤️

[@emmabringhurst9325]

Yes, he's very kind and he always wants to share things, he's not violent and he gets really excited about things, he'll make tons of friends once it's safe to

[@cawrumin]

Completely with you on feeling like we’re missing out on so much. My little sister and lots of my cousins and friends got robbed of college and high school graduations, dances, concerts, so many cool things that I got to experience just a couple years before them with absolutely no issues. My heart breaks for them but also for myself. I find myself often thinking about how many cool things I could have done with my husband or friends and family if all this stuff wasn’t going on in our world today. Trying very hard to stay positive but you said it girl sometimes it’s just freaking hard!

[@markherrera4612]

Each month young families can reassess their quarantine plan. The level of risk changes depending on where you live. Keep it in perspective, we take life risks every time we step out our front door, even pre-pandemic life. So what would it look like to responsibly prepare for and visit Target? Life is fluid.

[@juliagalvan9709]

I’m a FTM & 29 weeks preggo. I’ve literally been pregnant this ENTIRE pandemic (which also means I’ve had to be sober this whole time lmao). Not to mention none of my family members/ friends are taking this seriously so I feel extremely isolated. I swear to god if it weren’t for my husband I don’t know what I’d do, he’s trying his hardest to be there for me when he can but he’s also still working full time. Your vlogs along with other creators on KZbin make me feel less alone during the hard times when I’m all alone at home... so thank you Colleen & trust me I’m feeling the exact same way.

[@emilymyrick8801]

I'm 21 weeks right behind you. Pregnancy in a pandemic is our own special sorority. It sucks, but at least we know that something good will come out of 2020. Hang in there, mama!

[@delaneypdkearns]

Wishing you ladies the best! Stay safe and healthy!💗

[@FCUK-]

I totally thought u meant female to male and got really confused until I looked it up lol

[@isamarleonardo4277]

I’m 28 weeks, literally a week behind you and also a first time mom and I know the feeling. I feel like I’ve been robbed of my experience. I can’t even go out and try on maternity clothes and buy things for my baby. And whenever I go outside it’s just the worse because I’m always out of breath as is and wearing a mask doesn’t help. I’ve almost passed out a few times.

[@Colbert148]

@@FCUK- same! Had to look it up, first time mom 🤣

[@emilybooth6570]

She literally always says that she looks bad without makeup but she is SOOO beautiful!!! I love you so much Colleen ❤️❤️ Also she is the most inspiring and wonderful person ever!!!

[@booklover_1]

Yes! Colleen is gorgeous

[@kianasky37]

💯 agree

[@zozodioz]

Ikr I love her

[@madisonaskey3288]

You’re not dramatic! Your feelings about missing the normal stuff is soooo valid...i work with little ones and it’s hard to watch them miss their friends. It’ll be ok mama stay strong❤️

[@lolasmith3209]

Colleen i have really bad anxiety and one thing that really helped me is to schedule times to worry. and when my body wants to worry i tell my self its not your time to worry. i think it would help. i love you have a great day.

[@elleskarbek51]

Flynn is only almost 2. Right now his cousins are his best friends. And that's okay. When I was little I think my only good friends were my cousins. And that's okay. Yeah. He's missing out. But he has so much life to live still. You get to see him and he gets to see you every day. You and Erik are his best friends. And Cory and Moose and the cats. He is the happiest baby without any friends. Right now his family is enough. Spend as much time as you can with him now. ❤💖

[@j4ydeep789]

I definitely didn’t have any real friends until I was in kindergarten.

[@maggiekendrick4427]

Preach sis

[@zoelockett]

plus a lot of the time you can’t remember it. yeah it’s sad that he isn’t getting the full experience and i really feel for that but i literally can’t remember anything before i was 4 so hopefully it’ll be all good

[@elleskarbek51]

@@j4ydeep789 Dude same. And Now almost 20 years later I'm not even in contact with any of them. My real bff I met in 2nd grade.

[@elleskarbek51]

@@zoelockett Yeah. Same here. Like my parents brought out the cam corder but I didn't remember anything until we moved into the house my mom still lives at which we built when I wad four.

[@brittanyconnolly2928]

Okay, first of all, NEVER be sorry for having a “breakdown” because Flynn can’t experience certain things or because you can’t do the things you enjoy. Those feelings are totally okay, the only thing you can do is love your son and take it day by day.

[@hannahdurbin1158]

Yeah

[@molly8385]

Totally feeling this. My son is almost 2 and we miss the library...museums...friends...just normalcy. It’s okay to be sad sometimes. In this with ya girl and feeling all those feels too 💛

[@oliviabradley6524]

colleen, erik and flynn playing trucks together with moose in the background is the cutest thing ever. and when colleen was painting with flynn, omg. i cant wait until im a mum

[@Eyjayey03]

COLLEEN IF YOU SEE THIS, DO A HAND PRINT OF HIS HAND ON THE PUMPKIN!!!!

[@jackiebailey5537]

That's what I was telling her through my phone. Each year put his handprint on the bottom with his name and the year.

[@lightbulbjr1347]

I thinking the same!!

[@jacquelinem.9188]

Flynn doesn’t do well with handprints 😂. He scrunches up his hand and he doesn’t like things on his hand. Cute idea though!

[@deffowolfiie-roadto5004]

That's what happened when my little sister died *cries* I'm literally crying right now guys

[@Stephaniemickle]

imsiscool 247 I’m so sorry love 💕

[@catherinemadison2175]

Her: he's almost 2 and he doesn't have any friends! Me at 14: ......

[@ILikeBirds]

Catherine Madison ;-; I only have 7 friends

[@adah5195]

I Like Birds haha I have TWO

[@catherinemadison2175]

Haha I have 0

[@gamingwithevelyn2740]

Gurl same

[@Rose-tj5ko]

Me at 14 too.......

[@nikoletterentzelos1761]

Colleen these breakdowns are soooooo normal! Seriously it feels so good to see someone that is haveing break downs and don’t feel like yours horrible person, it’s very normal, and I totally feel you. I found your vlog channel right when quarantine started and you have honestly been the only thing that has kept me sain. I have a big problem with bitesing/picking my nails so learning all the things that you teach us from what you have learned has helped me so much. So much!

[@audioliciousxxx]

I love Moose in the background high key doing a protec and also wanting to participate in playing trucks. He is such a sweetie!!

[@oliviamcneill6938]

colleen when you're honest, vulnerable, and emotional, it seriously makes me feel better and less alone

[@Iona1812]

Everyone has break downs like this multiple times, that’s what quarantine does, you aren’t alone in these feelings and you are not being dramatic!

[@kaylamunguia9568]

Us mamas gotta stick together! I relate to this so much. My daughter just turned 2, so it’s been super hard to have her in 2018, where we were going to mommy and me classes, and all sorts of things, to now, nothing besides trips to the park. I do try super hard to be thankful that she is so happy with the bare minimum because I know one day, she will get to live life as we knew it, and things will get a lot more busy. I cry multiple times a week thinking about how my daughter has no friends too. You’re not alone! His day will come where he will have a ton of friends that you can’t get rid of because they’re at your house all the time! 😂 hang in there mama! I love and appreciate your content so much! 💗

[@xprincesszenax]

sometimes i forget that some people are actually staying home and not going anywhere because everyone i know has to work (not from home), and of course after work you go wherever but with a mask. if i didn’t watch colleen i’d probably forget altogether

[@norahkirsch4022]

We all completely understand, you and Flynn are not having a normal toddler hood. You are amazing and are doing everything perfect!😘😍🥰

[@ariannagillis8528]

Your amazing

[@tuanhang34]

You are so sweet

[@zacharymcdonald1619]

You are a great parent. And Flynn will easily make friends .

[@candykittycat2007]

yeah my parents rarely took me places when i was young once he goes to school he will be fine

[@Selina_AA9]

I don’t even have kids but when you said “Flynn doesn’t have any friends” you better believe I cried 🥺🥺🥺

[@ani3646]

Selina Aleman same:(

[@mateo402]

Same

[@mikeysrose]

I graduated with my master's degree in May and just started an unpaid internship (remote) because the job market is so jacked right now. Somehow I can't bring myself to do the work expected of me, and I don't understand why. At night I'll think, "Okay, tomorrow you need to buckle down and just spend a couple hours working on that article. It'll be so cool and you'll feel so much better about it," and some other part of my brain is all, "Yeah! Let's do that! Awesome!" but then day comes and I'm just so... lazy? But I don't think it's proper laziness. I don't know what it is, but my mind will not gear itself up for work, so I'm left wandering around trying to find the gear and crank it into action, but somehow I can't. Please someone here tell me I'm not alone in this.

[@evangelynbeltran202]

mikeysrose you’re not alone

[@c.b5996]

Omg you are absolutely not alone! I literally think of how I'm in that rut daily and I get realllllllly hard on myself so please don't do the same. We have to both understand that we are doing the best we can and not be hard on ourselves. I'm right with you 1000 percent! I'm so glad I read this comment bcuz it was like I typed it myself, it's exactly how I have been and been feeling

[@tucoqueta321]

You’re not alone. I have been a part time student. Getting my bachelors seemed like a dream and I am on my last semester and I’m hiding away from my projects. Idk what’s wrong w me either.... I’m an A student. Now idc.

[@racheldinka4926]

Its okay Colleen life is hard but you gotta keep pushing forward. You are an amazing vlogger, mother, wife, sister, aunt, and friend! You are amazing and wonderful!!

[@gracekwon427]

Pls don’t invalidate your feelings, Colleen 💕. You’re not being a Karen. I hope this all passes soon. You’re an amazing mom!!

[@sherilynl4038]

my son didn't have friends until he was in pre school/day care at 3. this is his reality, all he knows...you are comparing to what you want and know. he'll be fine...you...cry and you 'll be fine :-)

[@d.2542]

I didn’t have friends and stayed indoors with my care taker(because my mom worked all the time) since I was 5. 🤷🏽‍♀️ I have bunch of friends now and It’s not affecting my life. I understand how she feels with experiencing little things, but good times will hopefully come

[@hiimniasha]

I love this 💕

[@22autumn28]

I didn't have friends till I start preschool at 3 either. And like your son, I have friends, I don't remember life before 3, and im happy

[@justsophia22]

I definitely related to feeling like everything in the world is robbing my son of doing stuff that he should be able to do. He’s a little over 1 and has never gone to the park, hasn’t been to the aquarium or zoo or children’s museum or anything that I know would be an awesome experience for him. I’m just praying to anything that’s out there that this gets under control soon so I can give my son the childhood he deserves to have.

[@graceedelia4048]

flynn held up a truck and i OUT LOUD said “wowww cool truck flynn!!!” like i was talking to him through facetime or something. these videos are amazing and they’re getting to my head HAHA. love you !!

[@klmkatz07]

Flynn is so good with his colors. He knew exactly what he wanted when he was painting 😊

[@jacksonward7816]

Your being a human and I’m enjoying it. I’m not even a parent but I completely understand why you feel this way ❤️

[@mesquitegirl2013]

Same

[@cesandariflores2187]

I felt this so much, my daughter is a little younger than Flynn and she used to go to daycare and see babies all the time and now she’s been home for half a year! We haven’t left the house since March lol but she watches your videos with me and LAUGHSSSS her heart out with Flynn so he does have a friend!!!

[@devsox1]

I'm on my hands and knees begging Colleen to stop explaining and justifying everything she says. YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID AND YOU'RE AN AMAZING PERSON AND MOTHER!! We LOVE you and you don't need to explain yourself, we get it and we get YOU

[@kacieclarke7081]

Flynn’s little “yup” when he was painting the pumpkin was adorable

[@inadesloovere8700]

I’m 100% sure that Flynn will make a lot of friends when he’s older because he’s such a sweet person.

[@peanut1648]

You know she is a theater girl when she says “woe is me”

[@lindsaygraham7380]

Noooooo you’re not being dramatic this is 100% how I feel every day about my toddler! The term “robbed” is such a good way to explain it! It’s so hard, every single day.

[@nourabdelalim1023]

To the people who are saying she is overreacting: SHE IS A HUMAN. ALLOW HER TO CRY IF SHE NEEDS TO. it's her right and we should support that not complain about it. Let her feel loved like any human should 💗. Have an amazing day💝

[@hiimniasha]

Exactly! 💕

[@adiaknin6960]

Name a single person who said she’s overracting

[@beep___]

Adi plays Isaac random comments

[@theinstabookworm6428]

*Your feelings are valid, Colleen.*

[@avarismimi]

Yes💖💖💖

[@charlenemcdermid915]

👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

[@blakedane9617]

YOU.AND.YOUR.FEELINGS.ARE.COMPLETELY. VALID. Period 💅🏻

[@oliviamendrygal1279]

COLLEEN STOP BEATING YOURSELF UP!! your an amazing powerful mother who loves Flynn and would do absolutely anything for him. you are loved by so many people. you don’t even know me but i love watching your videos. love you!♥️☀️

[@emilybarnes8144]

I have felt this so many times! My little girl gets so excited to see other babies when we have to go out or on walks... but I’m so sad she can’t have any friends right now 😭❤️

[@kimberlybangle3694]

seeing Flynn talking and saying the colors especially when he says YEP is so adorable.

[@shelbycrowe3567]

Colleen: “He doesn’t have any friends” Me: Crying with Colleen

[@shaheedroylance]

Ikr.. It makes me cry when she cries, even when they're happy tears I get emotional for/with her.. 🙈

[@zozodioz]

Same

[@kaila3468]

Me too😢

[@Chacha-fc3ns]

Shelby Crowe ikr same 🥺🥺

[@claralima9265]

YEEES!

[@gisole98]

Omg that little smile he did at 2:35 made hiim look SO MUCH like Erik!

[@mandyhuffmanmartinez6740]

I had my son in May he’s my first everything. I feel this in so many ways!! I literally cried yesterday about the exact thing. No baby shower no maturity photo shoot, my husband was the only one able to be there for my emergency csection. Then coming home alone just my husband and I. And it’s still continuing, it hurts my soul. I feel so robbed, my son has only met a few people in our family and has only left the house a handful of times. It just sucks. But I am so blessed with having such a beautiful son.

[@bernardettesultana8390]

If only everyone could be as real, raw and down to earth as colleen ballinger. Gosh I love her

[@Abby-zr5rk]

Moose is literally the sweetest dog the way he sits by Flynn when he’s playing 😍😍🥰🥰💕

[@fzzypurpleturtle]

I feel all these things regularly right now myself. I have 3 kids, and its been difficult thinking about all the things they are missing out on. Mommyhood is filled with moments of elation and moments of grief

[@amandamartin7865]

I can relate to that mom pandemic guilt. My sons about to turn 3 and has an autism diagnosis. He also has no friends yet and I’m being pressured by drs and therapist to get him around other kids or put him in school when I don’t feel it’s safe right now. His social delays make me feel even worse that I can’t take him places and find him friends. We’re all just doin the best we can in an impossible situation ❤️

[@moonailedit339]

Every time Colleen says she needs make up, I never notice the difference. She’s beautiful without it

[@avarismimi]

Agree. She’s beautiful & so natural

[@GirlsDownUnder93]

My Flynn is my second, he’s a little bit younger than yours and I totally understand how you’re feeling! You don’t have to justify your feelings, your feelings are valid!

[@megstieglitz6341]

it’s okay colleen it’s all gonna work out in the end even if it’s not for awhile. in the end your always going to be his best friend, even coming from me. i’m 13 and my mom and dad have been there for me when i have been at my lowest points. being a teen is super hard, i’ve been through it. in november till about march of this year i had 0 friends, going home from school everyday watching people have fun. but now i met people in quarantine that make me feel happy and include me so please don’t apologize for being sad because this is a hard time. and always be flynn’s best friend because he definitely will appreciate it in the long run :)

[@JordanSmith-vm4tp]

You're seriously not being dramatic, you've got to stop being so hard on yourself. 🥺 my kids have been having such a hard time being stuck at home, my daughter should have been starting kindergarten this year and my son is still little and has been missing out on a lot. I cry about this shit almost every day. And that's okay.

[@mistydehoyos2434]

Colleen we all feel your struggle you put me to tears when you talked about Flynn not having friends or he has not been to a store or anything we all feel your struggle. Colleen you are trying your best every day to keep you your family and other people safe and you are such a great women for that

[@itsarah]

Fact: Colleen makes our day a billion times better! Love from a positive U tuber :)

[@utbooms]

Ike so true

[@vialuvsyou]

I.See.You.Everywhere.

[@KelsHoyley]

Never feel bad for feeling your feelings. They are valid no matter how lucky or privileged you may be. I stop and cry about once a week. I didn’t get my graduation, I miss going to stores with my sister randomly, I miss going to dinner with friends, I miss going to the movies, if it wasn’t for covid I’d have a full-time job and be living in LA instead in still with my parents struggling to find work. My sisters kids are stuck at home and miss going to the park and miss Girl Scouts. My dads cancer is back and if it wasn’t for covid we would’ve caught it 6 months ago (his test was suppose to happen end of March and was pushed back because they didn’t want him going into a hospital) my aunt died in May and we still haven’t gotten a goodbye or been together with the rest of the family. I think EVERYONE has a story like mine, we are ALL struggling and feeling it, life have changed and it SUCKS. We are aloud to cry and feel our emotions, we are human. Hopefully, we can in the end learn to be kinder to each other and more patient and compassionate because of what we have been though and learned.

[@adrianas87]

I know exactly how you feel. My baby boy is 18 months and I feel like he's missing out on so much. I feel like I'm missing out on so much. He's never gonna be this little again and it makes me so sad. Especially when you see so many other people doing whatever and going wherever they want. It's not fair :( Sometimes I wanna be selfish and just take him everywhere, but I know what we're doing is the right thing. I hope this is all over soon.

[@Lucy.andress]

“I. Am. Sad.” Me too girl. We’ll get through it.

[@j.s.peeler1108]

I REALLY wish she didn't feel like she had to undermine her own emotions. Like I know it's hard to not do that but just because people have it worse doesn't mean you get to not feel negative feelings!

[@sydneybowes2439]

Thank you for posting and sharing your emotions, I am a senior in high school and my family is in major quarantine because my mother has serious health conditions. I have been really sad so thank you for showing me I am not alone.

[@breckhensley]

i just want to give colleen a hug so badddd! girl you are an amazing mom and are doing everything you can!