i promise to not end my life

[@TDruzhok]

Not going to trauma dump in the comments, so let’s just say YT has some oddly specific timing

[@icantpursuewhatimtrulypass7335]

🫂🫂🫂

[@salmonellasam2755]

Couldn’t agree more, hope you’re still here

[@SpedBoy29]

all love

[@888._ElI]

Nah. Fr

[@NuisanceDM]

I ain’t gotta know but I’m rooting for you buddy. So much still to see.

[@joshuamaryofficial]

I LOVE YOU GUYS YOU MAKE ME SO HAPPY .

[@deadus2884]

Thank you for this song, my friend. It's truly something

[@ezraking9245]

Legend 🏆✅

[@calskywalker95]

I think it’s you who makes us happy, that’s why we’re here!😊

[@wheezerAOTY]

i have no idea why this is in my recommended feed, but the second i saw it, i knew i had to listen to it. this is beautiful. good job man

[@RHP0292]

I made it out of the frying pan and into the freezer. That really hits hard.

[@crustycrustacean5267]

final fantasy quotes just like that

[@ericadelnigro]

Yuuup

[@fallenangelcrimson]

one’s own disconnection from themselves… i look at the child in the picture that i don’t remember being… there’s no real oneself… just several different characters we live as…

[@w4v2]

what character are you?

[@oightKoreraAreEditable]

@@w4v2 A good starter question

[@SuperFnLagers-ni6if]

Deepness.

[@joem7692]

and the different versions of you that exist inside of everyone else’s minds. its too much to bear

[@dahsarepop6700]

Well, I guess I won't end my life.

[@buira9482]

KZbin keeps recommending me random music with less than 200 views and this popped up. Awesome stuff, I hope you get more listeners!

[@joshuamaryofficial]

THANK YOU I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY!!! IM GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT!!!

[@halguy5745]

youtube music recommendation algorithm is surprisingly good. maybe even the best

[@josiahanderson9057]

Dude me too and I keep finding lots of rad songs

[@F12F12]

❤

[@dellarae]

Saaammmeee like last couple months! Not a bad thing just so random

[@orbismworldbuilding8428]

This is a very touching music Someone else said its like a hug, i describe it as warm. Not about positivity, but genuine and good. Like medicine, its cough syrup. Thank you for this song

[@houdinislove2492]

Howni felt with current joy with warm jets

[@limbothebiggay1709]

I just stumbled upon this at 2am and I am confused but its strangely soothing.

[@ladylordeve]

It's going to be two months since soon and I still have to say this to myself everyday, having this to listen today made it all a bit more conforting

[@geckogaming3658]

💜glad you stayed

[@emanuelemonti5788]

You said two months. I hope you’re still here

[@anjubelantara6380]

Hey, hope youre still with us

[@obsidianvamp]

This song was my introduction to you, & let me tell you, it’s absolutely phenomenal. I just listened to everything you have uploaded right now & I’m absolutely ecstatic to see what you release next. Bravo!

[@joshuamaryofficial]

AW OH MY GOSH THANK YOU IM SO GRATEFUL AND HAPPY THAT YOU ENJOYED THIS AND CHECKED OUT EVERYTHING. THERE IS MORE TO COME!!!

[@armandovelasquez361]

THE ALGORYTM BLESSED ME WITH THIS GOLD, INSTA LIKE

[@w0lfgang_parasyte]

it’s only been 3 weeks since i first listened to this but i keep coming back. beautiful song, thank you for putting this out here.

[@rickysaucedo5002]

If youre reading this, I know it hurts and everything you hoped of accomplishing has left us. But the fact that youre reading this means you hvent given up yet and idk you but I love you

[@missyourtouch]

i love you

[@mysteriousman3531]

I absolutely love it when videos have a small bit of voice audio. This is an amazing video. Keep up the good work

[@Ibrahim-df1df]

I’ve seen that kid in a nightmare. This song is tragically good.

[@soldierman3828]

nightmare? fr? hes my pluh he chill, ion why he do that

[@dylansmith1756]

he's also been in my nightmares

[@2fayeLa]

This made me feel something I haven't felt in a little while. It's feels better.

[@JustDontAskY]

I'm loving the production

[@russianpatriot5465]

this sent shivers down my spine

[@saai4life]

Here before this blows up everywhere and becomes that one song everyone uses in an emotional video

[@lienvanderlinde684]

Real

[@tahinisauce3595]

This feels very comforting. Like a hug. Great work!

[@joshuamaryofficial]

thank you, i think i need a hug after all these nice comments i love it have a nice day .

[@tahinisauce3595]

@@joshuamaryofficial virtual hug coming your way!

[@joshuamaryofficial]

@@tahinisauce3595 I LOVE YOU

[@rippog5449]

Watched this go from a few hundred views to thousands, I can’t stop coming back it’s a new safe space

[@bm1ofamillion]

This has a really neat sound, and a nice touch to sample FFX. Probably my favorite game of all time :)

[@joshuamaryofficial]

It’s one of my favs too

[@Biohazmat21]

THE FFX SAMPLE! This was already so good and that was such a unique way of using the lines, gave it new meaning. Excellent song 😊👍

[@ahmadfaroun2567]

this randomly pops up on my feed after 2 days of thinking how I'm going to end my life

[@MatTOcho-ks1yj]

This song was so good! Its like I couldn't even describe it, it wasnt negative or positive it was like it was in the middle, the colors of the thumbnail almost descibe the music, Awesome work!

[@travismazur7662]

Funny how music and words not being sung can invoke such feelings and emotions

[@Lynrowen]

Holy shit. A final Fantasy X sample in a song? Well done.

[@caylemsepeda4845]

Sharing this on my Tumblr to feel something

[@roachthing]

young sheldon

[@chrisshick9480]

Perfect wake up music when you get fired from your job 4 days before Thanksgiving ...🖤

[@tahinisauce3595]

Hey man, I know it's been two months since you commented, but I hope you are in a better place right now. Keep being strong

[@nwshinanzum]

Hope things are better now...❤️

[@Ava-km7tl]

I hope you’re okay now ❤ You are loved

[@joydividing]

Thank you, KZbin for recommending me this. Great song, love the spoken word/sampled audio and the static.

[@Apathyqt]

goose bumps my friend., the feeling this gives. MUSIC IS CRAZY

[@MamaNeedsaDeanBlunt]

Just discovered your work! This is my first song of yours I’m listening to and I love it so much, really reminds me of Sign Crushes Motorist! I can’t wait to hear what else you create🙏😋

[@Houseproudasamotherhen]

I said this to my father in the summer of 2015 after mom died in a feather ball accident.

[@chip00p]

I keep coming back to this, it's fantastic

[@Mister_Feelgood]

This song makes my soul vibrate. Not sure if it makes sense, but still. Great job chief

[@joshuamaryofficial]

IT MAKES MY SOUL VIBRATE TOO THANK YOU HAVE AN AMAZING DAY!!! DONT WORRY IT MAKES SENSE I TOTALLY GET IT THATS THE VIBE I WENT FOR LOL

[@letsplayfreakde1273]

Damn, this hits different rn. This is absolutely beautiful man.

[@TheUnluckiestPotata]

I think the youtube algorithm found me at the right time

[@tabithasanders8131]

The exact song I needed at this point in time -- thank you.

[@leithtessman7642]

this sounds like analog horror but as a song

[@maxfrezen-latynin4226]

I shivered a lot at 0:06 seconds. That really tells the story I think. Stay blessed

[@joshuamaryofficial]

God bless you

[@deadus2884]

That is one of the best things i heard in a long time. It made me feel widest range of emotions most of which i cant even understand Wow, just wow You've touched something unfamilliar in me. Thank you

[@joshuamaryofficial]

ur gonna make me cry that’s so sweet of you to say. im glad you enjoyed it and im glad the music was able to touch you in that way. that makes me really happy :)) thank you for your kind words and support much love to you

[@ChristinaFromYoutube]

At 2:30 when the feedback and percussion stops it has the effect of "wait, come back! Don't go!" That's such an interesting feeling to be able to replicate in music!!

[@wheezerAOTY]

oh that's cool! i never noticed that

[@dephtons]

This is actually amazing, keep it up ❤

[@ValentineEcklund-o3p]

Elegant in a semicatacl6smic clysmic tenor❤the vibes redunculus....😂

[@Chari-ty]

surely there must be more to this amazing piece of art..

[@NoahGKH]

This is truly amazing, I wasn't sure what to expect listening to it but I'm not disappointed keep it up dude!

[@joshuamaryofficial]

Ty dude new stuff coming soon

[@ChristinaFromYoutube]

A hug from you. Thank you ❤

[@eb6700]

This shit evokes feelings I try to repress. My mom got admitted to a hospital for her depression and I know I’ll never experience what she’s going through but I can’t help but think that if I was healthy and didn’t have stuff wrong with me that made her worry maybe she’d be alright. Fuck depression, your music is top notch though👌

[@tahinisauce3595]

Hey man, sending lots of love to you and your mom. Times are hard, but hopefully it will get better at the end

[@eb6700]

@@tahinisauce3595 thank you man I definitely appreciate it🤛

[@restlessparadox1953]

i hope u know this wasnt ur fault man. i hope u made it through and things got at least a little better, i hope there is love in ur life and u can *both* get the support u need. all the love to u and ur mom, still.

[@eduardohernandezdelacruz3515]

Wow the name of the creator, and music name's really, really slaps my soul.

[@welayinthorns747]

The timing of this is unreal. Cant wait to listen to more of your music. God bless 🖤

[@hunterkrause641]

Is there anywhere I can use a part of this as a sample to some fairy edm drop that makes everyone cry happy tears?

[@weslatind22]

Okay.. my ears love this! Ty

[@joshuamaryofficial]

Yw!

[@raayarhyiun]

This is so strange yet good, the voice also sounds like Hwei in english dabbing haha

[@catjammy1099]

The vocal part is from Tidus in Final Fantasy 10! :D

[@MagicMason1000]

I didn't know what to expect going into this, but I liked it way more than I expected! Will listen to more of your stuff :)

[@joshuamaryofficial]

THANK YOU SO MUCH HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!

[@alpheratzand710]

the timing is a bit too specific

[@sakihasegawa456]

I am sorry, i can't promise. But, I'll try different options

[@user-nm8mt8vb3c]

I do not, and have spent so long dying that I forgot to live. Now it is far too late and everything beautiful has died and nothing is fun anymore

[@spacenaves]

funny timing

[@subhapradosh1384]

Me too

[@currently_online]

life is all about people having thoughts and making things and people then listening to these things and having thouths themselfs then in turn making things and so on and so on

[@LuckyHamburger]

This is beautiful.

[@andrade2129]

Strange and noisy. Love it

[@priestofcrab4043]

This is very interesting, very intimate. I feel like it'll touch a lot of people. Sadly, it doesn't quite sit with me even though I enjoy it somewhat. Don't give up skeleton!

[@acronym.4328]

The moment I found this video and saw the thumbnail my immediate thought was the kid kinda looks like a young AVGN. The song is great too, quite somber but charming.

[@joshuamaryofficial]

I do??????

[@acronym.4328]

@@joshuamaryofficial If you just look at AVGN for a tiny bit, you'll see the similarities. It's not a bad thing though, I just wanted to point that out because I can see it somehow lol

[@joshuamaryofficial]

@@acronym.4328 nah you’re good bro I think it’s funny!

[@acronym.4328]

@@joshuamaryofficial I'm glad, swell work on the song here btw :)

[@TheLostHustler]

Nice and meditative

[@elijahparks2417]

Damn I didn’t expect the final fantasy 10 noctus monologue

[@lilelfie]

love the ffx sample

[@joshuamaryofficial]

It's one of my fav games

[@Handsomeson886]

It’s wired ,this song pop up when i am really thinking about to end my life .

[@owlxp5270]

why is this so good omg

[@Smiley_Fruitcake]

absolute gold right here

[@SweetArmadillo361]

This song would make a killer sample.

[@yeetyeetonthestreet-colinm1186]

Wow..

[@dashthatonedude]

and i promise to be good this time

[@peregrinecovington4138]

Really good, keep making music

[@ladydianaera]

love it!

[@Superficial_Intelligence]

I have no idea what I just listened to. Though I quite enjoyed this... Whatever kind of music this is XD

[@joshuamaryofficial]

tbh i dont know either, my other stuff is like experimental noisy electronic hip hop but this is more of an electronic direction. but thank you!

[@Superficial_Intelligence]

@@joshuamaryofficial Yeah I could tell, I checked out all your other stuff and I'm excited to hear what else you come up with!

[@joshuamaryofficial]

@@Superficial_Intelligence thanks dude!

[@LavekGaming]

When the V2K frequency manipulation hits tough and the matrix is trying to send you a confirmation message that some people are demons in human form. Great work 😌

[@joshuamaryofficial]

thank youuuuuuuu

[@caylemsepeda4845]

Elaborate more please

[@jshsjsnsk]

yes pls elaborate we want ANSWERS

[@leviticussomar]

Elaboration ?

[@leviticussomar]

10momths later …..

[@thegeminiclub]

Lele I get thoughts like that when I’ve had too many drugs

[@hannahmayz]

Bravo ❤

[@tomatetoo2624]

I love the cracky sounds

[@joshuamaryofficial]

its a plugin called DAW LP by Klevgrand!!!

[@mothersofcain]

this just popped up on my yt, it's amazing, reminds me of opn. keep up the good work! :D

[@joshuamaryofficial]

THANK YOU SO MUCH AAAAAA

[@halkyen]

Honestly, stunning. I fucken love it

[@joshuamaryofficial]

thank you

[@halkyen]

@@joshuamaryofficial I honestly believe with your skill here if you manage to bring your music to the score of some movie you will blow up massively, best of luck, will be following you from here on out

[@joshuamaryofficial]

@@halkyen thank you >.<

[@Theboyfromjupiter]

damn, man

[@ChrisPrice-yl6np]

Tidus no worries Yunie is near....

[@joshuamaryofficial]

😭😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[@FwonTao]

I need lyrics

[@edwardkelber8878]

It was good man I liked the song. Thanks.

[@deathsinger1192]

I did too, wise move

[@RosesAreOverrated]

Literally me !!

[@rubee2215]

Final fantasy 10?

[@joshuamaryofficial]

Yeah lol

[@Lenn-ee4cy]

Idk what this is but i ain't complaining

[@atikaalt]

Nice song

[@dechustarmimi]

what a perfect timing yt algorithm is really onto something

[@timmeadows970]

Haunting....

[@hybrix]

The algorithm provides

[@Lokistrife777]

I feel so lost idk how to live life anymore

[@harrisonbrand8985]

i’m so full of joy :D hah

[@joshuamaryofficial]

[@rickyscott748]

FFX 👍

[@joshuamaryofficial]

YES

[@oleksandrbezkorovainyi]

good stuff