I Read My REAL Embarrassing Teen Diary to 1 Million Strangers

I found & read my REAL & super embarrassing Teenage Diary Journal to MILLIONS of strangers on the Internet. Leave a LIKE for a Part 2!
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[@Bobizard]

If this comment gets 100k likes I will read my journal from middle school in a video with Lauren…

[@Kittygirl-xz6rm]

OMG DO IT

[@ajbrooks2112]

PLEASE OMG

[@coolgachagirl9458]

EVERYONE LIKE IT RIGHT NOW!

[@TaylorSwiftSlays2000]

oh god

[@5thFabri]

DO IT

[@yammy]

Lauren this was absolutely hilarious!! You have to read more! 🤣

[@ojasvik8002]

Yess we need a part two!

[@MEOW-ot7mq]

We need to know what happened to A

[@ojasvik8002]

@@MEOW-ot7mq we have the same rainbow!

[@mskitre]

@@MEOW-ot7mq yeah lol

[@botchedrivers1852]

Hi yammy!

[@thespacesisters2031]

The fact that Lauren has the confidence to show this is impressive…

[@aundreast.laurent4410]

Yeah. I would never.

[@overthinker__]

True

[@cpt.bluebrry4014]

Yup

[@yourmobilemother951]

mhm

[@enhypen-ontop]

Yoimiya pfp *gasp*

[@urlocalsimpLMAO]

This is honestly very relatable, Lauren. As a young girl, The A and C situation was almost exactly the same as my young teenage life currently. Except it's two girls.

[@AkiIsASimp_]

HOWDY OTHER ACCOUNT

[@cityseabird]

Why has nobody commented on this comment.

[@__Mocha_moon__]

@@cityseabird idk

[@TT.WendyCallims]

THE LITTLE KISS BOBBY GAVE TO LAUREN MELTED MY HEART SO QUICK T-T 💕💕💕💕💕💕

[@user-ho3nz1uh5o]

Same

[@pluto-4427]

Remembering those awkward pre-teen moments feels like a punch in the gut Lauren you're a real one

[@LalaAshley88]

Izzy I’m twelve years old now and I relate a lot

[@justinecummings5704]

Omg I'm12 too

[@yawninglion1677]

When I was 12 I didn't have any crushes but because I was friends with a lot of boys I was the subject of so many "she has a crush on this boy" rumors. The pain was real. I feel for Lauren

[@Nightfox47812]

ikr

[@zeejobela279]

Ha ha middle school sucks! Ha 👌🏽😂😂

[@ariannaturkstra]

Thank you Lauren, I am still in middle school. Watching this makes me feel like I am not as dramatic as I thought. You have confidence, I appreciate that!

[@ariannaturkstra]

I feel bad for A, Lauren forgot to blur a part of him 0:54 . XD

[@LawdieIs2swag4u]

@@ariannaturkstrayeah his name is Alex lol

[@thedisguise3538]

Honestly I hope Lauren comes back to this and does the next journals because Emily's editing made me burst out laughing. We need more of this

[@nicoledevlin1047]

Agreed 👍

[@plumagranate]

We’ve been going on a “Lauren Becomes a Teenager Again” kind of streak and I’m all here for it

[@f1zzy_s0d49]

Fr same🤫🤭😍

[@Thehistorygeographyandflagnerd]

Yas

[@Thehistorygeographyandflagnerd]

Me too

[@overthinker__]

Samee

[@-memesis.-9735]

Same pal.

[@jadeOOO]

Love how young Lauren skips a week and then enters with: "I DEALT WITH HIM"

[@jennifermcclure7259]

@@Instabruh.User.. What the?

[@donaghbarry7501]

@@Instabruh.User.. Di che cazzo stai parlando?

[@heartsforurmum]

@@Instabruh.User.. mom I’m scared pick me up- 😭😭

[@bonbon-]

@@heartsforurmum it’s a bot 😭

[@heartsforurmum]

@@bonbon- ik

[@SofiaShrourou]

"maybe he does like me!" "He doesn't" "or maybe he doesn't.." "he doesn't" lol

[@oofmastergamingyt]

3:20 I feel your pain Lauren it’s happened to me way too often, and I’m a boy and only 18.

[@brynr2953]

Gosh, I forget how high the stakes feel when you're only 11. Suddenly, I'm like getting flashbacks of suppressed memories of my own middle school drama. Mad respect for Lauren reading it out to the internet. She's braver than us all 🤣

[@fancyfew4094]

@Bruh Bruh reporting you! 😜

[@missirenekaman7151]

@Bruh Bruh I am never EVER translating again

[@user-lq2ig1yc4z]

@@fancyfew4094 same

[@user-lq2ig1yc4z]

@@missirenekaman7151 IKRRRRR I translated it and now I need to go bleach my eyes 😭

[@nxbodynose]

@Bruh Bruh Wth...

[@fairyc0reart]

others: playing video games lauren: *revealing her deepest darkest secrets to the public*

[@Obvi.cate8]

Lol

[@pastelpeaches2913]

Omg I love ur pfp 💖

[@Melissa-ub4mh]

Bro 3 bots?!

[@fairyc0reart]

@@pastelpeaches2913 thank you so much!

[@samszczepanski2281]

Ohhhhhh you lost it with the edit :(

[@user-ce1cw4fc7x]

Lauren always finds a way to make my smile every video this is also very relatible for me rn.😂❤

[@jheck4530]

“Well at least you ranked.” Got me dying 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[@raddishh1381]

I love how Lauren speaks of her younger self like she’s a completely different person

[@Yournansaman]

Don’t blame her I’d do that as well

[@mia.yesjustmia4855]

@Bruh Bruh excuse me

[@Ash_Cucmber]

@Bruh Bruh report button looking very nice today

[@Sleepy_Skexches]

Fr

[@fancyfew4094]

I reported Bruh Bruh! People these days!

[@EvilResidency]

Ahh Lauren the woman who gets paranoid buying kids meals and filming in public but has the confidence to read her journal for us her audience. 💜 For our Zsider Queen 👑.

[@IDK_Logan]

You mean bread queen also right?

[@yoofs-]

@@Instabruh.User.. dude you barely have any videos

[@teezbigone]

@@Instabruh.User.. cool ig

[@X-Wiktoria-Gacha-X]

@@Instabruh.User.. No one even knows you stop saying your better

[@leonardobazail8740]

​@@Instabruh.User.. wtf?

[@UnknownKarissa]

I had the same cd. I also had awkwardness between my friends at that age. Thank you for your sharing.

[@Haileyyyyyyyyyyyy]

0:54 thank you to writer Emily for not blurring this out now we know the name of you crush lauren

[@BlitzAsh]

Sometimes laurens sanity and confidence are just up the roof

[@_-NatureMations-_]

And sometimes, her sanity is out the window and onto a road and flattened by a car XD

[@_-NatureMations-_]

@Jack Wrath Uhm you don't have any posted videos and you don't even have 1000 subs XD

[@kacey5409]

I hope I’m not the only one who really wants Lauren to do another one of these so I can laugh my a$$ off all over again 💀💀 Edit : thank you for all the likes . I’ve never had this many before 🥰

[@abnormalchickennugget]

@Jack Wrath lies

[@kacey5409]

@Jack Wrath sssssuuuuurrrrreeeeee

[@Iheartgus]

@Jack Wrath u wish

[@pyschodummy344]

@Jack Wrath aww it's so cute that you think your likeable🙂

[@ARandomInternetPerson_]

@Jack Wrath Nah dude you're not

[@PlateofBread]

Lauren: “Come along with me! 😊 Me: 🎶Come along with me, with the butterfly’s and bees🎶

[@Breadcrumbz0]

Nostalgia 😊

[@jess_queensversion]

SOMEONE IN 2024

[@Booknerd-vi2jf]

When I was 12 I met a girl 2 years older than me. We became close friends and she changed schools but still came to my sports events. When she came to my games I would always think “ one day I will be apart of her wedding “ 2 years later I was 14 sitting in the pews of a Curch staring at the pink flowers on her casket. 30 minutes latter I watched them seal her tomb. The sun shines on her grave through the window in the cemetery 10 minutes away from my house. My grandmother says “ the sun shines on a happy body” that can’t be more true. This was 10 years ago

[@Buttercookie_Draws]

The fact that you have an entire journal filled out is impressive. I could hardly even finish a sketch book, let alone an entire journal like that

[@gregheffley715]

I already did 16🗿

[@-themightymittens-]

I have so many unfinished drawing notebooks

[@DaMiku_Worshipper]

@@Instabruh.User.. LAUGUAGE!

[@lilyplayzgames2021]

@@Instabruh.User.. What is wrong with you creep…

[@charlimander5683]

@@Instabruh.User.. What is wrong with you.

[@hazzard_destroyer]

Thank you past Lauren for making everyone laugh and feel less weird

[@candlenellie74]

when she said "i was 11" ngl maybe the school system was different but if ur 11 then at least u were a GENIUS compared to ur classmates if ur 11 AND ur in 8th grade hopes that makes u feel better

[@ziennesadventures6026]

Oh Lauren~~~~ You accidentally showed A’s name, dw I’m not some kind of psycho, I’ll keep it to myself. (P.S You never fail to make me laugh, and I’m sure it’s the same for your other subscribers as well!) Love your vids Lauren!

[@cosmic09]

Lauren’s out here being our internet mom. Thank you for being so wholesome 💜

[@SunooAteMyMintChoco]

The fact that Lauren has the confidence to do this like I could never✨

[@kittyarwaaa2]

@@Instabruh.User.. no bitches

[@dandi-lion38]

Someone needs to make an animation about this with the "dear diary, why? Why does he hate me? " audio

[@Ellyn_filipino_623]

Honestly I never had a dairy because I was so aware that writing in a dairy doesn't mean people are gonna respect it and I have secrets I wanna keep to myself until I die😂

[@BeautifullyCharli]

Her confidence is amazing, even when having to read 10 year old drama in front of millions of people

[@Art3mizz]

I absolutely LOVE when People read their Diaries from their early Teens. We all used to be so dramatic 😂

[@Sunnydaze081]

Same

[@lee-os2pc]

Ikr we were all so dramatic back then, man i barely even wrote diaries but i still remember my memories when i was like 10 still remains..

[@makaylaspalding5480]

Yeah

[@B-bloob]

I know someone told me to shut up on a zoom chat and I lost it- I wrote in my diary about it-

[@donnalee6028]

Funny

[@EvelynGrief]

Pre teen years are hard. Hugs make it thorough the years

[@virgi744]

LAUREN!!! in the picture when you were in the dress ITS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!😊😊😊😊 1:28

[@lckyminer_2256]

This is basically a YA wattpad story that was written by a 12 year old. It was both funny, amusing, but I could also feel the cringe in a good and positive way.

[@Lareyna_W]

This is super funny!

[@ItsValerie448]

like pinned coment

[@booksaremylife6703]

That’s exactly what it is- which is sad cause I’m a 12 year old with a wattpad acount- 😂

[@emilynghann7128]

@@booksaremylife6703 Me too!

[@booksaremylife6703]

@@emilynghann7128 I will follow your wattpad if u want-

[@iclynnx]

I'm actually pretty thankful that Lauren shows that she too started out like any other person. It's comforting in a way. I have a journal myself, and it's going to be so sad to read it when I am older. Nearly every page so far (I don't write often so not that many pages) I vent about my bad luck with who I happened to get a crush on and how she doesn't like me back 😅 It's just thoughts fresh from my mind, often during intense emotions, so it does not always sound very sane.

[@HannahTheBossy]

I hope you have fun reading your journal in the future Im very sad that I didnt write a journal when I was a preteen I wish I did I feel like it would be fun to read it now that Im an adult but I cant cuz I didnt write one :(

[@ihavea1d10ticlife]

@@Instabruh.User.. you do know that Lauren hates bots and people named “Instagram user”? So your lying lmao

[@urbosasflurry4711]

@@Instabruh.User.. yer gross

[@iclynnx]

@@HannahTheBossy Don't worry, I didn't write in a journal either until after I turned into a teen. My first page was written in May 2020, and I was... 15? So yeah.

[@bfamily6319]

@@Instabruh.User.. an asylum would be too good for you

[@phosduckie]

Lauren’s journal having boy and friend drama meanwhile mine has just sad stuff about anxiety and depression and then some fangirling

[@bettybeebe]

I am 36, and this took me back to when I was this age. I think we're all like this at this age because I know this was exactly what my journal was like. Absolutely love this video.

[@kym_train5460]

oh my god bots

[@AidenismyfavDCcharacter]

@@Instabruh.User.. bro wth-

[@absolutelygoobing]

@@Instabruh.User.. no… just no…..

[@coconutchlo]

Can we just appreciate how well the editor Emily edited this…😭💕

[@ashikarman6276]

😭😭😭😭😭

[@tweek3903]

whos that.....?

[@momosh4617]

@@tweek3903 the person who edits her videos

[@RealGingyer]

nice pfp😳

[@coconutchlo]

@@RealGingyer thanks 😏😏😏

[@mally6563]

This journal is so juicy. I love this! I have a crush too!

[@Axolotlslimes133]

Please please please do another one. You are so relatable.❤

[@cierraslowsdown]

In solidarity with Lauren: I’m 31 and had boy-crazy phases lol. I specifically remember having a HUGE crush on our 2nd(?) 3rd(?) neighbor teacher, as well as Lance Bass. Lol I had a puppet doll with the No Strings Attached theme and LOVED it of course lol. Kids got married under the slide, remember those bead animal keychain crafts you’d wear on your backpack? Yeah, lots of bartering and trust broken back then 😂😂

[@Tomboysksksk]

From eating kids meals to reading her diary from when she was a teen, no matter what Lauren does it always is entertaining and funny to watch. Thank you for being an amazing youtuber

[@rando4541]

I read the eating kids meals as eating kids 😅

[@hawtyshawty7200]

Wait how many likes do you need for part two?

[@hawtyshawty7200]

Of the video?

[@palmoasis1855]

@Tomboysksksk POV: ur comment is like every comment

[@Rei..flowers]

@@rando4541 I read your reply as I remember eating kids meals made with kids

[@Moo_cow1]

I can’t believe this was a year ago 😢

[@Artpro392]

The fact Lauren’s reading this to 8.33M ppl SLAY LARUEN YASSS LOVE THE CONFIDENCE

[@justanorangeblob5411]

Lauren being an absolute queen by reading her own cringy diary to the internet

[@theholesinyoursweater]

Can we just appreciate the fact that Lauren publicly humiliates and embarrasses herself for our entertainment? 💜💜

[@theholesinyoursweater]

@@viccvi what?

[@theholesinyoursweater]

@Jack Wrath no u aren't

[@viccvi]

@@theholesinyoursweater she humiliates herself just because she wants us to be happy, this isn't healthy

[@Darin15846]

@@viccvi I don't think she's really humiliating herself. She seems to be having fun reading all of this. We're not laughing *at* her, we're laughing *with* her

[@Darin15846]

@@viccvi I personally don't think so. I know she always seems happy but I really do think she's having fun reading her old diary

[@LunaMartinez-ic6yc]

Teen Lauren “Maybe A, likes me.” Now Lauren “He doesn’t.”

[@Theythem96]

Love it Lauren ❤

[@That_Art_Girl26840]

As a pre-teen, watching this made me feel so much better about myself; thank you for the video Lauren 😂❤

[@AirTheHuntress]

As a pre-teen who kept a journal last year, I can confirm that it's wierd and cringe

[@probocs]

GA ？

[@francesobyrne670]

Thwen

[@winkyuh]

Aww❤❤❤😊

[@user-jp7wb4mk1c]

Que

[@Kitty-mo6vy]

I wanna see a playlist of Lauren literally just being an 18 year old, also- we’re all cringe don’t worry Lauren :’D

[@Kitty-mo6vy]

Alsoo, PART TWO PLEASEEE

[@funnyapple414]

@Jack Wrath says the one who makes minecraft stories and clickbait videos

[@hnixiee]

*sighs* 2 bots, already

[@Mistxiii_]

I think I’m actually not a super cringey teenager, I feel blessed 😭

[@ssssilly]

She was 11, 12, and 13 years old while the time period of the diary.

[@Sirensduo]

I can’t believe how far she has come ❤I’m proud

[@adesespringalle]

Lauren I'm so happy u did this video bc I'm 11 rn so some of these things are kinda relatable, I can't relate to th 'finding a lover' and 'cute list' parts tho

[@izzykelly4733]

I love how Lauren does this little phases like pregnant vids then mom vids then baby vids and now teen vids! 😂 You just never know what to expect from Lauren 😂

[@belbodders2421]

Am I the only one who had noticed she is staying in different age groups for her vids? What's next? Toddler? Kid? Young adult? GRANDMA OR GRANDPA?

[@LaurenZside]

I go through different campaign story arcs every few months 😂

[@LaurenZside]

I go through different campaign story arcs every few months 😂

[@mbtd2011]

@Bruh Bruh I WISH I DIDN’T TRANSLATE THAT, WHY WOULD YOU PUT THIS ON THE INTERNET?!?!

[@berry_x3]

@@mbtd2011 ME TOO 😭

[@maitreyisrinivasaraghavan8867]

she had more romance as a 10 year old than I think I'll ever have in my entire high school life

[@RUBBERDUCKSSSSS]

💀

[@Amy_jo_]

Cheers to that

[@Kieran.studios]

I had some but not really

[@DoubleDoggyTrobble]

😂☠️

[@Ghost88YT]

EXACTLY 😂

[@Kat-hh7fz]

*gives lauren a hug*

[@Sm1ley0.1]

2:24 when you said that date, I was shook. That is 21 years before I got diagnosed with type one diabetes that exact day..

[@nolongerhomosexual]

dear Lauren, I really appreciated this video, because, as somebody who next year is turning 13, its nice to see a video highlighting the cringey and embarrassing parts of being a preeten girl. And although I didn't relate to some of the parts, over all it was comforting that even a queen like you went through this stage of life. sending you digital hugs, A grateful fan

[@ASTERIA_YT]

Same considering it’ll let more people become confident when sharing stuff you think people won’t like you for-

[@echoedstars807]

happy birthday a year in advance :D

[@haerinslover]

@@echoedstars807 thanks

[@haerinslover]

@@echoedstars807 oh bcz im also turning 13 next year

[@nolongerhomosexual]

@@echoedstars807 thank you! have a great day :)

[@veryh2130]

To be far, when my grandpa proposed to my grandma, she said "I'll think about it." And she said yes like a week later! By the way, this was hilarious. I'm so glad you feel comfortable enough to share this with pretty much the world. 😂

[@ARTLECCHINO12]

@Bruh Bruh me too 🙄

[@MerdralphaV]

Do more please!?

[@KingDucky21]

1:14 did anyone else notice how to like symbol lit up

[@nevermind1904]

Watching this made me think: did I miss something? My childhood love life was non-existent, but I did write a bunch of stuff in a journal. And reading it made me feel, rather than being embarrassed, "Did I write this? I actually felt that way?" as well as, "She really tried her best to write out her feelings even with the simplest, childish words." It made me smile and cry bcs I remember promising myself I wouldn't hate my past self if I'd ever changed in the future. I think I kept my promise well 😊

[@arissamazumder]

That's so sweet

[@nevermind1904]

@@arissamazumder thank you

[@The_Yeetning]

I purged all of my cringey diaries. It seems like that's the age I wrote in my diary too! Thanks for a good laugh: not laughing at your past self, but laughing because I went through similar feelings when I was 11! I'm well into my 20s and so thank you for your sheer bravery and being vulnerable to the Internet. ✨

[@abicat4229]

So did I. I was always paranoid that someone would read it and think I'm weird

[@atqraxiia4306]

@@Instabruh.User.. What did I just read? (๑ó⌓ò๑)

[@urbosasflurry4711]

@@Instabruh.User.. why you speak of f*cking Lauren You don't even have content

[@RosyKitteh]

I filled up like five notebooks a year and I kept them all because they're full of drawings that I would like to redraw someday. I already have drawn a few but I want to draw more. Mostly as a tribute to my past self who couldn't draw what she felt and saw as well as she wanted.

[@user-oo3iy2wq9v]

Editor Emily does so well on Lauren’s videos ❤️❤️❤️❤️✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻

[@ipoop24-7]

lauren is so real for liking nsync they’re my messiah

[@gottaloveminniie]

Let’s be honest we’ve all wanted to keep a diary at one point of our lives but miserably failed after 3 pages..

[@Chaewoniis]

underrated comment

[@Chaewoniis]

fr

[@iamobsessedwithshadowsight]

I tried to keep a diary when I was like nine but I had nothing embarrassing or anything I didn’t want to just tell my friends so I ended up just drawing pictures of my dog in there 😭

[@maryglassburn2309]

YES

[@_-NatureMations-_]

​@@iamobsessedwithshadowsightLol me to

[@nalleryscraftytreasures]

Imagine “C” sees this now as an adult and is like “what the heck? I had no idea.” 😂 He’ll regret it Lauren no worries. You were such a cutie!

[@claragemheart581]

The fact she even read this in front of everyone, i could never, i would’ve died in the first page.

[@DivaMayzz342]

Sussy ..

[@js_rzy]

@@claragemheart581 same

[@wqrw1290]

@@claragemheart581 Luckily I never had one 😋

[@elwirawegenek5040]

I have a diary and I’ve never ever shown anyone it😅😂

[@avamcnulty413]

PLEASE CAN WE HAVE A PART 3 :DDD

[@-BunnyxPlayz-]

Not in front of 1 million people..but in front of 2 million people 😂

[@coffeghoast4043]

I love how she exposed herself with her diary, this is pure conntenct.

[@TabysHere]

That’s what’s called brave, or desperate or content… Yeah hehe

[@cheezieEditz]

its so cute thqt Bobby kissed Lauren on the head 😭 9:04

[@Lilly_291]

Lauren not noticing A’s name was in drawing she showed right at the beginning.

[@xxLJEGTxx]

“What’s your favourite book?” …Lauren’s diary 2000-2003 👁️👄👁️

[@leysaminer9926]

This was genuinely really enjoyable. I love the surprise she has to her own young experiences and thoughts.

[@DeGaJonEli]

I love how Lauren is so confident reading this but it’s HILARIOUS and embarrassing at the same time lol, I feel it Lauren because I found a whole lot of my old drawings in a box called: October 13th 2015 and..they looked so bad..

[@That1rand0mgirl]

0:54 I saw A’s name 🤭

[@laliune]

ooh alex

[@user-rd2rb2wi4q]

MORE!

[@KuriaNeko]

This is absolutely relatable! I was just as cringy and boyfriend obsessed when I was 11. It's nice to know we all go through similar preteen melodrama.

[@froggie256]

It’s so brave of you to read your diary online, I would’ve been extremely nervous. But it just shows how far you’ve come as a person and in life ❤️

[@Quackyman]

I was doing random stuff, found a book, opened to a random page and resd the words "I almost broke my foot with a desk today" and instantly closed the book and put it back

[@Thecrazygirl_xx]

YOU'RE LITERALLY YAN CHAN KEEPING A STAR CUS HE GAVE IT YOU😂 this whole thing was absolutely hilarious

[@comicmaker5950]

Can we agree that this woman never lets us down and puts a smile on our face. we love you Lauren❤❤

[@reneebrown6547]

yes

[@gachacookie5779]

Stop you're trying to get a heart from Lauren

[@justanotherhuman2246]

Wow another comment that hundreds of people will copy and say the exact same thing 😀

[@BigBossMan7833]

@@justanotherhuman2246 fr

[@leamoreira9225]

@@gachacookie5779 well would you do that too? plot twist: she just wanted to put in a comment :) btw you should not be making drama in the comments it's not nice just being honest

[@juliannaelliott]

I love how she has to clarify that it’s her every entry don’t wanna confuse the journal 😂

[@kothj2953]

I can relate to you because I once liked my childhood best friend (we've been friends for 6 years) and I was always there for him but I never said anything to him about it. Then one day he stopped showing up to school so I tried to contact him but he completely ghosted me. And after a few days he posted about him moving to a new school and I was really sad because I never got to tell him how I felt or even say goodbye to him (he literally never told me he was going to leave) I tried to move on but I couldn't. One day I saw another post about him going out with a girl that he met at his new school and I was sad cuz he only knew her for a few months but knew me for years... And not too long ago I ran into him at the mall and it brought me a lot of deja Vu. He also told me that I look "different" and that I was prettier than most girls at his school (like bruh you can't just ghost me and say that after everything) I was so shocked to see him but I said hi and just walked away. If I'm being honest I miss him as a friend but still kinda upset about everything that happened. 😔😭❤️‍🩹

[@AUSTRIAN101]

tHis vidEo is the literaL Pure definition of funnyness

[@Chloe_Lewis]

“Like a scrapbook….of embarrassment….😂😂”

[@brookerolo664]

Ok, I’m around the same age as Lauren when she was writing in this journal, and some people in my grade have a new bf/gf every week. While I’m over here like “wait what?” Seriously, during one of my volleyball games, I was sitting between these two girls… and they started talking about dating, being in the talking stage, and talking about this one guy that might come to our game, etc etc etc. DUDE WHAT- P.S. they date for about a week and text each other for about 10 minutes each day and at school, they just giggle when they see each other and then whisper something to their friends 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@justsam4321]

Oh KZbin Gods. Please, do me a solid here. Let this blow up. I'm 5 minutes in, and I'm on the floor laughing my ass off. That diary is absolute gold. Also. Editors / animators, you really went the extra mile here. Thank you for your service Right. Now that I'm done. I have a headache from laughing so much. We need a netflix show based on that journal.

[@brebstixx]

I've been commenting on all the new comments, so hi!

[@jolenescarberry9697]

yes

[@GeorgiaHepburn-kd3ym]

I know this is besides the point, but your cursive handwriting is gorgeous!

[@WhoamI-ml6dj]

I need to know more. I tried reading my own diary from when I was 11-12, and I just can’t do it. Another video might give me the motivation to push through it. I wasn’t as romantically spontaneous but I do have ONE dramatic moment where I was transitioning from one crush to another and I wrote things like “I love both of them so much I don’t know what to do,” but that’s just the summary of that situation. The way I wrote about it makes it sound like I was severely distressed by it, and everyone knows I would have never confessed anyways. It is emotionally exhausting, both the emotions I felt then and the emotions I feel towards the same things now are just… (for the “now” bit I mean that some entries are normal like “I got a 100 on the math test today!!! I’m so happy!” And then the next entry makes me want to hide for at least a century to recover from the second hand embarrassment I feel for my younger self)

[@Mango_TN553]

The fact that Lauren feels safe enough to do this on the internet is just amazing! ❤

[@thesimpsonnsfanclub]

as a pre-teen i really love that ur doing this

[@kielanderson5090]

Lauren can you please make a video with all of the diary/ journal

[@xoxoluvvy11]

What I do before bed: watch laurenzside for 3 hours straight😅❤

[@MonikaDDLC25516]

ok will do 🤣

[@MiuMiu_Wony]

Only three😂😂😂

[@Zelliaaa]

Same 😭

[@BlaineS-Videos]

Me too 🥲

[@Cookie_10167]

😬🤫

[@waternymph99]

I used my journal to vent about how depressed I was and so whenever I reread my journals, I just get bummed. Your experience was much more fun! Not relatable at all for me, but hilarious and I'm hoping you continue this

[@awesometani8148]

I hope everything is better now!! Are you Jewish btw? You have the same name as a friend of mine :)

[@waternymph99]

@@awesometani8148 I’m doing much better now, thanks for asking! No I’m not Jewish, but cool, another Rebekah! I don’t see many people that spell the name the same way I do

[@WhoamI-ml6dj]

I wrote a lot about the people I hated. I wrote about my depression later on but when a teacher found it she reported it to cps or smth and my mom got in trouble (my mom knew about it already though because I told a “friend” about a year before the diary thing and she told her father and he told my mom. My mom started looking to get me a psychologist after the father thing and I got one a few months after the teacher thing)

[@LilyTheTacoCat]

@@waternymph99 I know a Jewish girl with that name and I always thought it was spelled Rebecca but now I'm questioning it 🤣

[@AriPlayz08]

@@waternymph99 I had a classmate named Rebekah and she had a twin sister but they moved last year 😢😭

[@Maya_gamer269]

Hi Lauren ❤ Love this vid❤😊

[@user-le3ui8in6u]

I also use to draw people as power puff girls