I sent my therapist to therapy REACTION by a Therapist - Alec Benjamin

This is my reaction to I sent my therapist to therapy by Alec Benjamin. This is my first Alec Benjamin reaction that I was requested to react to.
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[@SincerelyGwendolyn]

“If I killed someone for you” is also a good one to go through as a therapist!

[@Bigepodcast]

Rather than going to a therapist I listen to this song for therapy Alec Benjamin is so underrated but he is the reason I paid for Spotify premium

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

I am surprised I haven't come across him before. I liked this and will check out more. I'm pleased you have found something to connect with that helps.

[@cara2539]

@@TherapistReactsOfficial He has some really popular songs that most people don't know its him so maybe you have but if you haven't he has some really sad songs and some really upbeat parts in them

[@Kiolan29]

I recommend his song "let me down slowly" hes a great artist and wonderful person

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Thanks for the recommendation - I've added this to my saved playlist to check out.

[@aislingonzales]

@@TherapistReactsOfficial listen to the Wolf and the sheep by Alec Benjamin. You might figure out why he needed a therapist in the first place.

[@allyimpostgaming8507]

​@@TherapistReactsOfficialOr minds a prison if you haven't already done it

[@allyimpostgaming8507]

​@@TherapistReactsOfficialnow that i think of it his songs are probably all great to react to especially the album "these two windows"

[@Glitch-Reaper]

@@TherapistReactsOfficial 😕I got this song and I got a booklet with it and it says the therapist is saying he's hear it all before so like nothing the guy says can shock him no more

[@IDTTv2]

his song “gotta be a reason” is amazing

[@jellysloth]

Literally my favorite song of his

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Definitely going to check out more

[@Jumin08]

The fact that Alec got the idea for this song, because one day he was at therapy, and he actually said something that made the look on his therapist a little strange. I really love how he just tells his stories through music ❤

[@bethstratton3391]

This track is a fun take on Freud’s free association and a fun play on how trauma/issues can passed on from one person to another (usually generationally or within peer groups) but in this case the twist being that it isn’t the client passing it on, it’s the therapist. It plays off the adage that most therapist choose therapy as a career path because they need it or have had therapy themselves for their own traumas; and that sometimes their own issues can reassert themselves whilst dealing with a particular difficult client’s issues or after long days of dealing with multiple stressful clients.

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

So true…

[@mgsplayz11234]

If you liked this song, Alec wrote another one called "Demons", which is also very interesting, one of my personal favorites, and it talks about some sort of attachment style, since it talks about how he has "demons", and some person, the listener supposedly, is the only one who knows and keeps him from doing something... Rash, I suppose one could say.

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

I'll check that out, thanks for the recommendation.

[@Flowerssssssssss]

Hey yall :) I know some of you may not know Alec Benjamin so here is a quick explanation Alec Benjamin is a well known singer who has been doing music for the past 14 years and makes songs mostly about traumatic experiences like relationships and life. He has very few songs that are actually happy or at least have a nice upbeat song to it. If you are interested in hearing some of his music, here are some of my own personal recommendations :) Gotta be a reason Cynic Older Speaker Worst day of my life Mind is a prison if you have any questions please feel free to ask or search it up for yourself :)

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Thanks for the info. I hadn't heard of him prior to this request and I like checking out artists I haven't heard before especially ones with a mental health theme (as the title suggests).

[@aislingonzales]

The song is called I’m not a cynic He has officially two happy songs they’re called if we have each other and tie my laces Some of my favorites are Collins house, be my enemy dopamine addict different kind of beautiful end of the summer army of a nation medicine, man Just a small warning is voice changes

[@KReateKatRose]

His song "Must’ve Been The Wind" is my favorite.

[@NdobeMercy]

❤❤❤ also one of my best but love water fountain more

[@TWIAMH]

"mind is a prison" and "im not a cynic" from alec benjamin are good songs too

[@Cookieeeeable]

"Alec what have you done?" Made me laught so hard. Your video was very amazing. I've been listening this to song on loop for a few days now. I never thought about what he said to mess everthing up so fast, now I'm curios too 😂😬

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Thanks for the kind words and glad you liked it.

[@Cynthia-hm5wc]

This song is like the sequel to boy in the bubble where the boy in the bubble goes to therapy so hope that helps y'all also can you do therapy session by NF if you haven't already

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Therapy session is already on my channel - that was good track! Ill check out boy in the bubble

[@aislingonzales]

No this is the sequel to the Wolf and the sheep

[@MissMerc]

This song hit real hard for me because I have had two therapists tell me they are not qualified to help, and one of them told me two others also wouldn't be a good choice for my specific situation. I'm pro-therapy, my own experience just hasn't been stellar, even after I've been able to sort out the financial issues that always happen... It's wild. I appreciate your views.

[@almogxchq5282]

My tops of Alec- I sent my Therapist to Therapy Most of been the Wind The Devil doesn't Bargain Jesus in LA Gotta be a Reason Mind's a Prison Honestly mostly all his songs. But these are the ones I hold the closest to my heart

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

I filmed Pick Me recently. It’ll be up soon

[@almogxchq5282]

@@TherapistReactsOfficial Extremely excited to watch!

[@brandonwong8614]

See whenever I listen to this song everytime I heard the lyric "I heard it all before" I always think it's the therapist saying it, I never once thought the patient was saying it

[@jewellmadden8624]

I was just listening to I Sent My Therapist to Therapy and this video popped up after

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Thats cool, the youtube gods must like my video to recommend it to others!

[@noahlepengwing]

about 7:35 : personally, I do.. when my friends tell me they struggle I always tell them to talk to their therapist about it no matter WHAT IT IS but when I struggled with 'hard' stuff, especially thoughts of unaliving myself, I just wasn't able to tell my therapist about it, because I didn't want her to worry, or to feel like she 'failed' helping me (she was already treating me for depression for about a year at that time), or that she blames herself in case I have an attempt or anything of the sort..

[@Aubz1214]

He wrote I need help 12 times as an Easter egg for his album “12 Notes”

[@SirSoup44]

I've been in therapy on and off since 13 (24 now). As a teen I was never taken seriously and put in so many situations by professionals I never should've been in. They had no clue what to do with me and it just felt either fake or cruel. Things are much better now. My conditions are chronic but under control with meds and a very good psychologist and psychiatrist. Better times are just around the corner, I promise you.

[@OokamiKaii]

I live in Germany and I went to serval different therapy forms. Behavioral therapy, psychoanalytical/depth psychology and atm I am going to systemic therapy. And each one has their up- and downsides. And indeed the psychoanalytical therapist used a couch like this. I was very irritated at first because he offered to ways the couch and a normal chair. When I was laying on the couch he sat beside the headpiece and I was looking away from him. I only had a few sessions. But when I asked him why he explained it to me like this: many people with trauma or other psychiatric illnesses like to interpret the mimic and gesture of the therapist which can lead to misconceptions. And it helps to stay by yourself at therapy. And tbh I guess this was something I benefit from this sessions. To your other question: I am a social worker working for a social psychiatric service atm and my assumption is that patients say this to therapist to prepare them and to make clear they suffered. And some really made the expirence to be 'too complicated' or 'too traumatised' for the therapists (actually a friend of mine has this situation twice). And surely there are many people who learned that they need to let other people feel good or don't be a burden to them. I my opinion everyone can benefit from therapy no matter what they've gone through in live or what kind of profession they have. Because usually we don't learn in school how to process, show and recognise our feelings, the experiences we have and so on. At least not here in Germany as I know. Thank you so much for your videos and the open minded and honest reactions.

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Thanks for sharing. It is amazing that in schools we aren't taught (or teaching) how to process emotions etc. Also thanks for sharing your experience of psychoanalytic therapy, it is something that I don't know much about however am going to learn more about. Thanks for being a social worker - can often be a thankless task with a lot to carry in return so just wanted to acknowledge the hard work you are doing.

[@OokamiKaii]

@@TherapistReactsOfficial this comment really means a lot to me. Thank you so much. Keep up the good work and try to stay so reflected, kind and honest. You seem to be such a genuine person. ❤️

[@Sunnys..grxvve]

2nd comment ive made, ive noticed barely anyone has mentioned boy in the bubble by alec. I LOVE that one personally, and outrunning karma Boy in the bubble is about a kid getting beaten up but what i presume is a bully, but at the end it gives you a little taste of the bullies home life and it really opens your eyes And outrunning karma is theoried to be the bully from boy in the bubble, but i dont think it was ever confirmed by anyone. But both are really great ❤

[@pattystrom236]

His reaction to the plot twist is so funny and I think he actually enjoyed this song 16:05

[@Sunnys..grxvve]

Not long ago my therapist told me on only our 4th session "i dont think you can be helped" Not, "i need more training for this" "im not sure how i can help, but maybe if you ask your parents to refere you to blah blah blah" or anything like that. She just looked my dead in the eyes and said "i dont think you can be helped." She was my 3rd one from the same company, the first 2 i jsut felt uncomfortable with, and with her i didnt know how to feel i was just bored of meeting new people, being forced to open up and then let down over and over Im now on the waiting list for cognitive behavioral therapy. Im hoping this will help more, especially with my autism as i feel like my communication, way of thinking, sensory needs and eye contact issues will hopefully finally be adressed and it wont feel as pressuring in there So glad you reacted to this tho! ❤

[@FastestGunIntheWest08]

I struggled with the title😂😂, love the vid❤

[@seanA416]

Yeah. Such a strange and confusing title... "Therapist reacts to Alec Benjamin" would be better.

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Hmmm. I might change it then. I have to get the song title and artist in there for the search engine, but you are right there is probably a better way to write it.

[@FastestGunIntheWest08]

@@TherapistReactsOfficial Didn’t mean to be a bother😂, keep up the amazing content mate👍🏻❤️

[@aislingonzales]

You should change it to therapist reacts to I sent my therapist to therapy by Alec Benjamin

[@Ch_AquibKhan]

Take a look on his song "Dopamine Addict" that is very well sang.

[@KamikazeKit90]

I had a slightly similar experience. I went to a therapist who told me they were ill-equipped to deal with the level of trauma I'd experienced. She at least told me what type of therapy to look for. Still, it left me feeling more broken than I already did.

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Thanks for sharing. I guess it’s good she was honest, sounds like she maybe could have phrased it better though. Or somehow left more of a feeling of hope rather than more broken though!

[@kaitofishie]

YAY ALEC BENJAMIN !!! I LOVE ALEC BENJAMIN :3

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

That is good to hear. I always have a bit of an anxious feeling when I step away from my usual artists so its nice to hear people welcoming this!

[@aislingonzales]

You might want to edit that

[@kaitofishie]

@@aislingonzales CRAP YOURE RIGHT! THANKS

[@aislingonzales]

@@kaitofishie you’re welcome

[@canugetthejoy]

@@kaitofishie OUT OF CURIOUSITY..WHAT DID IT SAY?

[@kittacattaplayz]

My favourite of his songs is "the knife in my back" but it's unreleased so there isn't an official music video...but you can find the song on youtube

[@KaelaniWestbrook-kc3li]

I recommend listening to his song “if I killed someone for you”

[@bl3ndd]

You should react to "Dance With The Devil" by immortal technique. Very heavy song, lots to unpack there.

[@seanA416]

I'd love to see a therapist react to that song.

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Just added that to my saved my playlist to check out. Thanks for the recommendation

[@peskybirdddddd]

Fun fact I’m schizophrenic and I actually had no therapist to help me this is a bit relatable for some reason. And I love to actually see a therapist/psychotherapist react to artists/singers It’s not everyday you come across this. This is actually so entertaining and makes me feel happier for some reason, especially how your explaining the way you are, it makes it more understanding and entertaining if you ask me. Ps alec Benjamin is such a good artist, I love his songs And i recommend I wait for you -Alex G or just any Alex G song‼️

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Thanks for the comment and I am glad you find these helpful. Ill check out Alex G

[@peskybirdddddd]

@@TherapistReactsOfficial no problem! Any time, great to know! 😄

[@malakammar7035]

I don't mean to say this as an offense but I don't really trust therapists I tried to talk to one once they actually made it worse.

[@Angie-qi8pt]

What if the notepad saying "I need help" is a double meaning where Alec needs help and no one seems to be able to help him. Sometimes we need several therapists who specialize in different traumas and mental illnesses. Or that's been my experience so far.. idk It also makes me think about how some people can't support others as like a generalization because it makes them face emotions that they can't carry (which isn't a therapist's norm ofc but in the gen public it can).

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

I can't remember now if I mentioned it in this reaction but I have often thought before that having more than one therapist can be helpful. Or having a break and then returning to a different therapist, but same modality, can also be helpful as it can get a different perspective on things. However, I do understand that going through the trust / safety building phase again can be incredibly difficult. I guess with all things related to therapy it highly depends on the individual and what their needs are etc.

[@Angie-qi8pt]

@@TherapistReactsOfficial oh yea, that's a very good point. Which kinda circles back to other things you mentioned in the reaction too, finding a good fit can be difficult and can push ppl away from finding help. Yep, very true.

[@Angie-qi8pt]

@@TherapistReactsOfficial thanks for this video. I love thinking through these perspectives with you.

[@nickiv3459]

Not to get off track but that couch looks lowkey comfy

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Yes, I try to avoid it during the working day as I'll never get off it!

[@Yuma-g3i]

😅 This song is true for me, but I don't remember what i said as i was talking to a female therapist. She never said it out loud, but she quit the day after talking to me. I found out from the staff that she's now taking therapy herself for what one of her patients said. In more ways than 1, my life is a Nightmare. No that's not a mistake, I have been talking to Nightmares (FNaF 4) in my dreams since I was 4. I even named him Nightmare due to his looks, which you should look up. Somehow, i named Nightmare and had chats with him before he was even in a game. He's friendly with me, but i can never remember what we talked about during the night. While at mental hospitals, they basically used me as a test subject for mediation. Nightmare kept me sane during this, despite the problems it caused with memory loss and basically becoming a robot that does anything you tell it to, then has no recollection of anything it has done. Ill tell you more if you want to chat, but slowly. I don't want to have another therapist who's too overwhelmed and ends up quitting.😂😅

[@louaneima3459]

Not a therapist but this sounds really intresting (sry if that sounds rude) hope ir alright, this was 7 months ago, are you still in contact with nightmare or have thinhs happened since? Was he like a friend or toxic?

[@louaneima3459]

Or* , things*

[@PJO101-TC]

This is one of my favourite songs!

[@SpeckDoggo]

Great review, this was entertaining to watch. I know it’s one of his more popular songs but on the topic of Alec Benjamin, May I recommend paper crown, it’s a beautiful metaphorical depiction of trust/trauma and if you analyze the metaphors, or just think about the lyrics deeper, I think it could also fit the theme of your channel.

[@warcatfurever101writeroffanfic]

My couch is very simple; it’s a dusty brown couch; sags when you sit on it; it’s very comfy. I don’t get one of the fancy chaise lounges he got lmao 😂

[@emilyjayde3704]

Alec has so many amazing songs that I think you would have great insight into!

[@cara2539]

He has been to therapy actually his old therapist tried to sue him I think but he didn't mention names so he released the song and I think his therapist stopped trying to sue but im not sure thats the full story

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Oh wow, didn’t know that…

[@cara2539]

@@TherapistReactsOfficial kzbin.info1S06HWCWfKE this video talks about it

[@ltlmissquinson742]

My mind instantly went to a series called dexter... Dexter in therapy could have said something along the lines "hey doc I just murdered your family and now want to talk about it since I found out you are an expert in emotions". But other than that... ye don't know. I'm at min 12:42 just now so I'll watch the rest now but you wanted us to drop suggestions ^^

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

I’ve never watched Dexter. I know what it’s about and I’m really intrigued by it. It’s just one of those series I’ve never got round to watching and then forgot about. Might give it a try at some point soon.

[@Oscar.-.]

I just listened to an older Ren song and you have to make a video on this masterpiece. The song is Ren - Penitence Ft. Molly Mckinna, I am lost for words for how incredibly this song, like many others from Ren is. Edit: Just wanted to add that I really enjoy your reactions including this one, keep up the great work. You always give me things to think about.

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Not heard of that one so I will check it out. Thanks.

[@alindadingshoff8739]

You should listen to the band called citizen soldier, which makes songs about all kinds of mental problems and those are really relatable

[@TobilobaDoris]

Alec Benjamin song are inspiring and his lyric are easy to understand some of his songs are; Devil doesn't bargain Let me down slowly If we have each other

[@AlexanderGerhardRodriguesBik]

I had a theory... what if the first Alec that went to therapy at the beginning of the song was a therapist... that could explain why he says the line: "I've heard it all before" at 2:54.

[@NicoleHuff-ck8sz]

I’ve been through 8 therapist saying they couldn’t help me and I feel like giving up on it

[@Ultimate3409]

Man, Alec has saved my life many many times. THerapy however, has not.

[@NdobeMercy]

❤❤❤❤❤ Alec is one of the best artists

[@tomk.2601]

That's bad news if you've caused your therapist to seek therapy, which causes the therapist's therapist to seek therapy! Sheesh! I've seen some *really* scarey clients/crazies, though I wasn't compelled to seek 'supervision'. Besides, in the worst case, the Police thankfully relieved me of my burden ... for life, or until he does himself in, gets killed by a fellow psychopathic cellie, or drops dead before then. (Promising penal opportunities 🙄.) I had a leather chair very similar to that (second hand, mint condition) for client visits. When I retired, it retired and came home with me, and I sit in it now even less than when we worked together (and it's STILL in mint condition ... the chair, not me. I wore out.) Anyway, my love enjoys it. (I considered therapy a must, though I can't truthfully say that I've missed it ... at all!)

[@dotcomGone]

Nothing can replace Alex's "mmmmmm"'s ;)

[@yan200go]

Try listening to All in by Marino, he's underrated but very good

[@joansmith4642]

I think part of the people mentioning the therapist would need therapy after their appointment might also be partially them trying to regulate the emotions for the therapist or help them because they are used to thay being their role

[@AxleBoost]

Please check out his song "Devil Doesn't Bargain." Talks about what it's like watching someone in a toxic relationship trying to 'fix him.'

[@calliecaylor2652]

You should react to his song how it feels be to replaced! It’s on his KZbin channel but not on Spotify!

[@thegrumpybunny073]

You should listen to his BOY IN THE BUBBLE and MIND IS A PRISON, and you can that song.

[@thegrumpybunny073]

Please react to Ren's Sick Boi and Hi Ren

[@04kmg]

Please react to The Kid Laroi's music, he's a 19year old australian rapper/singer who was happily in a relationship with a girl for over 3 years, but she cheated on him with another guy and left him alone, as a escape he's doing music. I would recommend to you to listen to his newest album "The First Time", where he tells us the thoughts he had and the stories they made in 17 songs (and 3 interludes) in 1 very good album. I think other people would also like to see you reacts to it.

[@ashiiboiiowo7389]

Gabriel is a really good song. Its unreleased i think?? But its one of his lesser known songs

[@CrazyShen44]

I love this song hes an awesome person and i love is music❤❤

[@smilezx477]

You should do more of Alec Benjamin

[@bellachairunnisa5222]

This is a good reaction lol

[@pixedust-eb5gy]

Ok but if you listened to the rest of his music you would understand why his therapist needs therapy

[@kylesherwin1929]

You should listen to his other music to he's really good

[@TonyMontanaXx]

Please react to Godspeed by Mac miller. It’s one of the Saddest rap songs ever especially given what happened to Mac.

[@gachawithjustgalaxywolf._.7793]

Bullet from Hollywood Undead is a very heavy which i relate to a lot. Would be cool if you could react to the song!

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

I’ll check it out

[@gachawithjustgalaxywolf._.7793]

No pressure btw there are a lot of recommendations so i fully get it if my one doesn't make it through :)

[@Gwingfield]

Rockstar in his prime juice wrld would be a great song to cover

[@Gwingfield]

Scratch that, although it’s a great song and I’d love a reaction, fighting demons might be a more insightful song to react to

[@aislingonzales]

His name is Alec Benjamin Not Alex Benjamin

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Yes, I think it’s where I am saying Alec’s as in meaning something belongs to Alec (I.e. Alec’s opinion) it’s impossible to say that without it sound like Alex.

[@pi3.14etc]

​​@@TherapistReactsOfficiali think they thought you said alex because at one point you said alec's and repeated the 's' at the end so it sounded like you said alex's but it was just once :)

[@ilovelilpeep999]

I think you should totally get into lil peep he’s my favourite

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

I can tell that by your username! Yep more Peep on the way. I really liked Life is Beautiful!

[@ked49]

No, it is the therapists therapist. 16:05

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Yes, I was tieing myself up in knots under the pressure of the camera being on me lol

[@UniqueWagner]

This one was pretty good. Are you releasing more Lil Peep soon?

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Yes I have more XXX, Juice and lil peep on the way soon. I have to time them around record labels and copyright otherwise it puts the channel at risk of too many copyright strikes in one go and then losing the channel.

[@ExiledOne250]

Can you take a look at Mind Is A Prison?

[@aleemspence4598]

i recommend xxxtentacion train food plzzzz love your vids keep doing what u doing

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Train food is definitely coming soon, I actually think that’s next on my xxx list

[@ApolloGenetix222]

Can you PLEASE react to Tombstone by Rod wave and\or sinner part 1-4 and numb 1 and 2 by Phora hearing your feedback on deep emotional songs I really appreciate what you do🙏🏽💯

[@jellysloth]

Alec posted this on his story

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

Oh wow I didnt realise. What platform is his story on?

[@cadeozik]

@@TherapistReactsOfficial it's on his Instagram!

[@territhetankedupterrapin6592]

So he sent a therapist to therapy after being told that there was nothing he could do for him, and then that 2nd second therapist had to go through therapy and was told the same...hmmm. 🤔 Sounds legit! 🙄

[@duckxd1838]

👍

[@JorgeLopezSoto-nd1pn]

❤

[@jackploeg5514]

i heard it thear was a dead end whit my sleep problems ther now i neet emdr bud now that already bud ther didnt now how to say it he never dit bud i feel that what he say

[@benniraab4178]

more juice wrld

[@-DeadDoll-]

When your therapist gives up on you after gaining your trust it does put you off reaching out for help again.

[@TherapistReactsOfficial]

I can only imagine how hard that must be.

[@alexcarter7813]

Yes, it's why I turned to music for therapy. Love Alec Benjamin and NF specifically

[@NicoleHuff-ck8sz]

I’ve been through 8 therapist saying they couldn’t help me and I feel like giving up on it

[@NicoleHuff-ck8sz]

I’ve been through 8 therapist saying they couldn’t help me and I feel like giving up on it

[@NicoleHuff-ck8sz]

I’ve been through 8 therapist saying they couldn’t help me and I feel like giving up on it