I tried to end my life

[@mrssaml2001]

I lost my Sam at 36. We dated for 5 years and then we were married for 14. We were as tight as ticks, and everyday I had with him - was a day filled with love and wonderment. I liked him, I loved him, and I was in love with him. My main objective now is to be a good Christian and to grow a deeper relationship with my Heavenly Father. I am comforted by god’s promise of reuniting us with our loved one’s one day. That for me is all that matters.

[@cynbadlonewolf9455]

Being 60 and in a struggle for a long time now. All that helps me is helping. Help others. Whatever a kid or old person needs done. Just help. Keeps me going. Also. I call my kitty my reason for living. She is precious 🙌💕

[@nanshe3x]

This is absolutely true about helping others, and there are so many who need help.

[@AfricanLiterature-qq3ye]

That is a good thing, volunteering. That is how our non-profit magazine started. We have improved the spoken and written English of many graduates in Africa who were ready to end it. We connected with various authors around the world to finance the project. I don't wanna say to much, but we keep training graduates toward financial freedom through English literature.

[@hollyharris1874]

Omg, yes, my grey cat Emmy & 2 black kittens are my babies!! I need to name them, but they're my babies! 😂🐈‍⬛🐈‍⬛🐈‍⬛

[@nefer11111]

Your video came up in my recommended. My mother had myotonic dystrophy and my dad found her dead when he came home from work one day. They were high school sweethearts and she was only 60. He lost his mind and died 6 months later of undiagnosed cancer. I believe his state of mind caused his death. Stay strong because your videos are going to help many.🙏

[@tls4022]

Whether you believe in yourself or not but I could watch and listen to you all day. You have potential to be a KZbin or podcast personality. Please see that in yourself because the response from your last video definitely reflected that ❤ you rock!

[@OfficialKequan]

I’m only 19, and I tried to take my own life a few times. Everyday is painful, but I keep choosing life. I wish I could make everything stop but I can’t. I care about you man and I don’t wanna see you go!

[@patsygroves3812]

Please Value your precious life enough to not “Take It!” You are Worth So Much More !! God Loves you So VeryMuch !! God Bless you ! 🙏♥️

[@Montana-Girl]

Hang in there Kequan God loves you and He gets to decide when you leave this world please remember that ❤️🙏

[@karenbanks2733]

That's terrible..my friend did that 6yrs ago😢 he was successful and gone forever at that moment 😢 the pain and guilt of that I'll carry forever! At 19 your life is just beginning! Please seek help and don't try to take yourself away again Please 😢@ official kequan

[@OfficialKequan]

@@patsygroves3812 thank you, I understand I’m young and have a lot of emotions lol. But your words really do matter, the love always crosses out the hate. God bless you and I hope you have an amazing New Year🎉

[@OfficialKequan]

@@Montana-Girl Thank you and God Loves you too, seeing that people actually care about people on the internet is nice for a change! I recently have been looking towards God a lot more, it’s nice to see he has been looking back at me. Almost 2025, Happy New Year🎉🙏🏽

[@DianasDreams]

I am 66 years old and a survivor...now life is sneaking in happiness in my dark clouds of people that, family even, that drove me to near end...I can so relate as I am a widow twice...first time I was 24 he was 35, he died at work heart attack...2nd died in my arms I was 56 he was 57, heart failure & diabetes...then I married a abuser and I left him and divorced him too..then I just gave up living and eating, then I ate too much lol....NOW, I am nearly done loosing the weight, I am in a new apartment in Florida, finally happier! Thank God I do everyday...You are handsome, you will do alright!

[@DianasDreams]

The live shows I did got my watch time hours up

[@barbdurban900]

You are helping so many by just sharing. You will be alright. One day at a time. Blessings. X

[@Robbie-v4f]

Keep your head up, devil wants us dead, God wants us alive.

[@L82c]

Both aren't real

[@hollyharris1874]

The Devil Wants Us Dead is one of the best things I've ever heard.

[@PhatNatCat]

You are the voice for many people 🙏

[@xcviij7045]

You’ve shown the strength to survive what many wouldn’t, but survival isn’t where your story ends. The world doesn’t need you to walk away-it needs you to stand up, channel that pain into purpose, and show what’s possible when resilience meets action. You’re better than what you’ve been through, and now’s the time to prove it-to yourself most of all.

[@Prisma-jv7if]

From someone who just stumbled on the last video, I was going to comment with something along the lines of, "I watched this video to the end, so please stay with us!" but then I saw this update and am certainly glad you're okay. I don't really comment on videos much, but this hit close to home as someone nearing that point in life and having been in similar situations. Anyway, here it goes (albeit about a day late) - I watched this video to the end, so please stay with us! 🙏

[@therearemanysidestoastory]

Me too! I found him to be refreshingly honest about how he's struggling. He's absolutely not alone.

[@PhatNatCat]

Just a sign that you are not alone. Many people are going through the same thing. You are brave enough to talk about it. The struggle is real.

[@danlai7396]

Lol have mercy 😊

[@marievam]

Thank You for your honesty and authenticity. I do also take off no direction as if I am wanting to dissapear out the door. Its the soul being overwhealmed by pain. You are Not Alone. You are always surrounded by unseen beings. Trust ❤❤❤❤Much Love and Strenght from Canada

[@kimberlyking8131]

❤ Glad you are feeling a bit better.

[@annieann9284]

57 isn't old you are a handsome man

[@roninhall1970]

he looks younger than 57 to me

[@equus3333]

I’m 74 You are not old.

[@annieann9284]

@@equus3333 and you aren't old either

[@jillcadman8139]

don't think thats his hair

[@joelast645]

@@roninhall1970 he is wearing a wig

[@rthrgamingzone1759]

Glad you are ok. I do the same as you. If I get upset or someone gets upset at me I just walk away. I always walk to clear my head to. Before I say something I will regret. My prayers are with you brother. God keep you safe. Like you I have started my KZbin channel a while back. Guess you learn as you go. Peace out brother. HAPPY NEW YEAR🇺🇲🎉

[@clarky417]

fight or flight

[@LovingLife-333]

Im 57 and alone through the Holidays too.... Its hard!!!!

[@Pntngbrn]

My dog died the Saturday after Thanksgiving, and I have honestly thought maybe I will just lay down and die too. It has been awfully lonely without him. Every day was the same day over and over again and I didn't care what happened. But I have started to climb out of the pit I was in. You don't realize how much people can relate to you and what you are saying.

[@jeffkenyon483]

Very true! Best remedy is to get another dog.

[@winros]

I'm so sorry😢 I, too, lost my doghter Rosie she was a pomeranian. I've never experienced such a loss... I can't function at times.

[@Daysleeper1000]

Oh, that's so sad. I'm sorry. It's so gut wrenching. I can't cope well, so I put my feelings away until I can deal. So I hope you find some solace knowing many of us feel your pain. Stay well. ❤ When my pup died right before Christmas last year, I volunteered to cover new years Eve and New years Day. ( I work nights in a hospital ) Staying busy working 12 hour shifts helped calm my mind. Stay well. 🐾

[@LifewithTogo]

Hang in there. Sorry for your loss. My wife lost her 18 year old schnoodle back in 2020. It was hard for her because her sister had bought that dog in 2003 before she passed. I surprised my wife a few months later with Togo. At first it was hard for her but he grew on her and now she loves the dog. It will get better and maybe when you are ready, you can get another pet.

[@hollyharris1874]

Oh muh Lort, you & I use the same language. I'm sorry about your dog. People act like we're not supposed to care so much, but pets are FAMILY!

[@cmcfaflygirl]

I am truly an invested subscriber to your channel. You make me want to watch your comeback and see how you turn your life around and grow this channel. I have so much empathy because I understand. I have no one (no family) and I spent Christmas alone as well as all holidays. I lost my parents by the time I was 26. My world was my son. He crushed my world and is no longer part of it. I struggled for years. I was just existing. How could I live without him? I’ve come a long way but I’m still healing and trying to build a support around me. When you are asked for an emergency contact and you don’t have one to give, it cuts like a knife. When you talk about coping, I never have did any drugs, I don’t drink and I don’t smoke. What I have done is go to counseling for 5 years. Intense 2 days a week at first. Now once a month. I have good days and bad days. I know that tomorrow is a fresh start. We just sometimes need to get to tomorrow. Your wife wouldn’t want to see you like this. I’m sure she would want you to live. I know my parents would want me to get strong and live each day because they always taught me that life is too short. We have to go on and live for US. I know it’s hard but please remember to be gentle with yourself and thoughts. There are many out there in a similar situation. Keep making videos with authenticity because I love that and I bet others do to! Prayers and love and light to you my friend ❤

[@MoonlightSoulPath77]

Absolutely❤

[@therearemanysidestoastory]

Good Morning! Sarah from Adelaide, Australia here. I was watching KZbin last night and your video, about having nothing to live for, randomly came up. My husband was on the computer in the background and was listening as well. Firstly I thought how brilliant your honesty was. We had just spent some time in the forest and we've decided that the forest is the place we're going to play in on weekends, with no one around us, nothing to buy, and just be. I am now 50 and I feel the same as you except that I do have a live in companion who helps me with my shifting moods. He also supports me financially and keeps me in a shelter. He keeps me alive. I was a woman who rode bikes, travelled, rode horses, canoed, sailed, hiked, went out dancing, sang, played guitar. I was sociable. I worked as a really good cleaner and a support worker. My job was helping people access activities that able bodied people can access easily. This year ALL of that changed. I can no longer walk due to an injured knee. The surgeon said that that he won't be doing a knee replacement until I'm 70. That's 20 years away. My life as I've known it for 50 years is now over. I am going through a complete shift in my reality and I can't believe it. We are also bee keepers, I'm studying bee keeping and I can no longer do this. I too feel like I have nothing to live for. Thank you speaking so honestly about your life.

[@gardenfreshhome]

❤❤❤❤❤ Such a change, lots to process True. Priceless memories Love is there with you There's more memories that the two of you can make😊❤ this next season of yours will be evan better❤❤❤❤❤ Love you😊

[@therearemanysidestoastory]

Thank you for your encouragement 🎉​@@gardenfreshhome

[@margomargo898]

Can you get to Mexico for knee surgery? Cheap and good. You can’t wait 20yrs.

[@Sablesez]

My heart goes out to you for having that feeling of emptiness. In my times of despair, my dogs gave me great comfort. How about adopting a dog. I truly believe it may help you and give you comfort. Blessings to you, be well and please, please never entertain the thought of self harm again.

[@Rich-g7v]

You are a survivor. You are stronger than you know. Your honesty and truth speaks volumes. You will help others through this channel.

[@TheOracleofWhimsy]

I love KZbin; it really saved my life after my divorce. I have met so many wonderful people here, and you will, too! Thanks for another great video. Just be you.

[@yuktithegreat5390]

Im so glad you are still with us and you are not old!! You are so young! Old starts at 80!! 😅❤ You are on your way to achieving whatever you want sir

[@MrBaltimoreRon]

No such thing as "Old" it is totally a frame of mind. No doubt about it. You can have a young spirit an any age!!!!

[@karenbanks2733]

You're a nice looking guy! Im 56 and single in NC i feel what you're going through everyday! Loneliness is very cruel, stay strong friend, there's always something to live for! ❤

[@River_cat_plays]

We want you here, we’re behind you rooting for you!!! ❤

[@michel333100]

I am a Canadian and I recently got diagnosed with cancer. I have had a hard life but I just knew if I tried hard enough , I could make it in this world. My story is long and it would take forever to write down what I have been through. I spent my life working hard sailing on ships on the Great Lakes. I made a good living always. But life was full of heartaches and things that went wrong in my life. All I can say to you is , no matter how bad life is to you sometimes, there's always a light and glimmer of hope in thus world. Don't give up. Yes it's a terrible fight, but I fought and won. Unfortunately now, my life will end but I always believed in a better day. So cherish your life and keep trying. Something good will come to you.

[@D-Man2025]

Why do you feel your life has to end?

[@michel333100]

I got diagnosed with esophageal cancer in my esophagus. Chances of survival are slim. It's one if the worst cancers you can have. That's why I say cherish your life be glad you still ok. I got this verdict the first week in December. How do I tell my grandsons goodbye now? So just be glad you have family around you. I hear you completely and I feel bad for you. There is a guiding light somewhere.

[@D-Man2025]

@ would you be open to a phone conversation? There is no reason to give up. You can beat this! The body can heal incredibly, much more than what most doctors understand. It has to be under the right conditions to heal. I’ve studied holistic healing deeply since 2007 when I had my own health scare. I’ve been told by the son of a Native American chief that I’m a medicine man. I have a gift for understanding healing and listening to the messages we are given. I can teach this to you. It really depends on you. Some people are ready to go even though they don’t realize it. If you’re not ready to go you’ll fight with all you have and have the ability to exercise the extreme discipline it takes to heal.

[@AlexaSmittles-gd1rt]

@@michel333100 Sometimes a diagnosis is wrong. Secondly a lot of people have beaten the odds. Please look in to alternative treatments like ivermectin, strawberry tree honey, curcumin fenbenzadole. Positive thoughts are also very important to your health. Wishing you a long, long life with your grandsons. Don't give up!!

[@marievam]

❤

[@sal1665]

Your not old. I am 63. Thats old. Here for you. I have thoughts of wanting to join my late hubby too but thats up to God not me. Sending hugs.

[@mariabui2969]

6 years difference at this age is not that much lol

[@Cait311]

63 isn't old girl what, that's when you start to get old.. I feel like in your 80s that is when you're old

So glad you're okay! You never know when you're going to meet that special someone or get a big break, so hang in there! Live in the moment; especially when looking at the big picture seems too overwhelming. It's always good to be present, anyways! Sending love and light your way!

[@manisha-lf4vs]

Brother, we care for you. Everyone is facing some battle in their life. All we got to do is keep fighting. You are an inspiration ❤❤❤

[@lisaleigh7779]

I'm here for you ❤ When you said you'd rather have someone to as opposed to getting money. I get that, I have been so sad, because my mom that was in my life for 61 years passed away on June 10th of this year. It was devastating 😢 my heart was torn out and stomped on! I can't put into words what I felt !! She went to the hospital just because her legs were swollen and we were making plans for dinner when she came home. She wanted a rib roast with mashed potatoes! My cousin was going to make her that dinner and plans were made. But suddenly, her vitals started going down, oxygen was low, and BP wasn't stable. I had a sick feeling, although trying to stay as positive as I could. Make a long story short, my mom ended up with sepsis, omg!! I was always so afraid of that and that's what my aunt passed from 10 months before my mom and my grandmom on June 10th many years ago, eerily my mom passed on the same date as her mom and the same month. I haven't been the same. But I know our loved ones are together. Please stay with us !! If you want to grab a coffee, even virtually, I'm here !! ☕️

[@sunshine9122]

I'm so, so sorry, Lisa. I admire how you're able to offer so much hope and encouragement despite the struggle (for lack of a better term) you're going through. Wishing you healing and sending hugs.🫂 ❤

[@LittleSlim78]

Brother. God has a plan for you. That’s why here and are you’re still here. Keep your head up man.

[@cristo8119]

I haven’t finished the video yet. But keep going 🎉 i have those days im questioning everything and my purpose in life. But I get up and keep trying. So don’t give up, god and angels are here for you! I was told I couldnt have kids, my boyfriend doesn’t want to get married and Im in debt two folds then I was four years ago- four years ago i was healthly debt free had a great career. I feel like everything I try has failed. But something tells me to keep going! So keep going friend 🎉 here to support you and your channel 🎉❤ congratulations ❤🎉

[@gardenfreshhome]

It shows So many people evan, if they are not on the street, are severely suffering 😢❤ Warriors win! Gods got us❤🙏🙏🙏🌟

[@krisskross8985]

Yes you are engaging people. I enjoy your stories! Great quality to have! You are looking good. Keep it up! Checking in with you tomorrow.

[@cynbadlonewolf9455]

Sad about the views. So many of us feel same I think. Is why. Also. No one is authentic and not tryn to sell something these days. Appreciate you

[@zenfan1098]

It seems so many people care about strangers too, nobody wants to really die and when they see people struggling no matter what, caring folks come around because they may be or were in the same situation. Good luck to you Sir and your situation, you're obviously not alone. Prayers for all hurting, no matter what the reason. 🤗🙏💕

[@davidm4525]

Glad you're doing better man! 2025 will be better, there will always be challenges but you will get through them. Definitely feeling much better energy from you 🎉🎉

[@sara.allegra]

Glad you're still here. 💓💓💓💓💓💓

[@Brianbaker1976]

Do not ever consider that plse. Your helping others showing thst you can get through it.

[@robing9278]

I watched your earlier video about having nothing to live for, and now this one. I admire your honesty and candor in sharing your feelings and story. For what it is worth, I thought I'd just offer some random thoughts, in hopes they may help. It is natural to feel sad over the loss of your spouse and the holidays are difficult. Many people feel especially lonely at this time of year. I know from personal experience that when we are depressed and sad and lonely, it colors our view of everything. If nothing else, I hope that the views and responses you've received here are a toehold for you and give you something positive to focus on. Some people have mentioned how much a pet has added to their lives. Is that something that interests you at all? There is nothing like the unconditional love of a pet. What would your wife want for you? Thinking about that might show you some path. Having children doesn't necessarily mean they will be there as a support network later in life. Sometimes that can actually go badly! I do hope you still have your job and don't have to seek a new one. Someone told me once that life is like a puzzle. We have to have all of the pieces and then we have to put them together. You hopefully have your job, you have a roof over your head, and you have your good health. Companionship and friends are a couple of other puzzle pieces . . . You are a handsome man. You are not quite 60 and could easily live 20 more years. I imagine there are plenty of women who would enjoy knowing you. Volunteering is a wonderful way to spend time. It is a cliche, but true, I think, that when we give to others, we always get back more than we give. You mentioned cub scouts. Maybe being involved with Boy Scouts is an option. I was in cub scouts too (I became an Eagle Scout) and I know it is a fine program. There is great satisfaction in mentoring. Helping adults learn to read is another valuable service. Or maybe just joining a hiking group, given that you are good at walking! I hope these don't sound like empty platitudes. I do wish you the very best.

[@berniewildtatoo5702]

You are stronger than you think! May your new year bring tidings of great joy❤

[@carriegeib9922]

Glad you feel better. So sad your wife died. Walking is good as long as you go home. I love walking too. It clears my head. You're fun to listen to.

[@BlainsTube]

"Brokenness" can be one of the most valuable, beautiful things we can experience in our life.

[@Kaitmanda]

I’m glad you are still here and came back home. I looked back through your old videos and am sorry to see that you lost your wife. I am a bit confused as to when she past as one video is 10 years ago and another was like 4 years ago.

[@MikaMitenaLives]

We are ALL Connected my friend❤ Liked 💪🏽👍🏽 & Shared

[@cephotoart6466]

Glad you’re doing ok. Definitely have been there and a tough place to be in when you feel all alone.

[@joannmarie1971]

So glad you are okay!❤

[@kc_2525]

I’m an older mom who is newly single after my fiancée of almost 11 years walked away from his son and I for someone he had been seeing secretly. He left me with nothing, sold my car, knowing I’m a stay-at-home mom with a few health issues that need tending to. (Us moms tend to put our own stuff on the back burner lol). Point being, I’m alone, struggling to buy food and provide, taking it one day at a time to move forward. It’s tough to imagine anyone wanting to be with single parents or older women- let alone the combination. Hang in there friend…my hope is that there are good people left in this world who will have the desire to make new friends, share stories, make life feel shiny again. 🙏🏼💜✨

[@River_cat_plays]

I’m so sorry to hear that, I know what it’s like I’m praying for you & your son & for a beautiful happy healthy life. ❤ (My daughter uses my KZbin channel I’m a single mom 32yrs old) lol.

[@OlonzoAmmons-z8y]

I'm glad you're here my brother 🙏❤️🙏

[@Kat-yw6he]

I'm sure that a lot of people feel suicidal a lot of the time. By making videos and spreading awareness of depression and suicidal ideation you are helping people even if you don't feel you are. By the way 57 is not old. I am 51, we are Gen X and we are strong 💪 I find going for a walk away from home helps. Much love from the UK ❤ Stay strong.

[@lycanart876]

I just found your channel. You have to keep making these vids, dude. You have a ability to tell stories. I know things may not look good now, but we the people out here gotta keep on going. You never know where you might go.

[@HD50991]

Stumbled across your last video and instantly came to this one. Happy to see your with us. You matter and have purpose! Dropping a comment to boost the algorithm! New subscriber here! Happy New Year to you! Keep your head up! 😊🎉

[@cmentertainment5006]

I believe in you. Keep your spirits up .❤😊

[@equus3333]

I’ve been there. I lost a spouse and was in your space. I married again at 68. Met someone, fell hard💕 happily married for 8 years. You’ve got this. If you’re up to it. Start a grief group. Chat online to help others. You’re meant to do this . Much love, blessings I support you

[@dianelooper3755]

The holidays are so hard for a lot of people! I had very bad childhood! I pray you find encouragement! After holidays many businesses did not do well and had to layoff people! What a shame! You should get UC for time to find new work! Prayers for you!

[@riccinibivosa2059]

57 isn't old bro. And there are people that can't walk, cant lift a finger to feed themselves or comb their own hair. They don't even have money enough for internet. Sorry you lost your wife but you need to appreciate the life you have and get on with it. Everybody has problems, everybody has sadness and hardship. Be thankful that you're upwardly mobile, you don't appear to be malnourished so clearly you've enough for food. I mean be grateful for your haves and whatever you don't have either go get it or do without it. Life's hard for everybody dude. Sorry but that's the cold hard truth. I'm a New Yorker and I'm just saying it straight

[@amybedard2867]

Your young I am 58 and I am also German. Keep up the good work I am from Massachusetts.

[@AthelstansSuccessor]

Its important to realise people who feel alone are ironically part of the biggest community that exists, which is people who feel the exact same as they do!! I have to remind myself that occasionally.🙌

[@DarleneGardiner]

So glad you are here today ! 57 isnt old by any means ! Many adventures await you and youre handsome to boot !!!!

[@elizagail7873]

i will keep you in prayer , glad you are ok

[@L82c]

Just keep him in thought God isn't real

[@elizagail7873]

keep your head up

[@brendapeterson4637]

I made a comment on your last video and I also understand your loss. I am sure many people who commented have been through the same thing. Alot of people care for others who suffer from being lonely and the loss of a husband or a wife. This community will be there for you if your open to them as you were.you will get trolls sometime as well.. Have a great day !😊

[@Tlynn86CG]

I'm a new sub watching because of your authenticity. I hope you find success, new friendships, and a purpose you can nurture 😊

[@Montana-Girl]

Keep the faith my friend God loves you 🙏❤️

[@ConstantinosP]

Keep up the good work, there are many people like you and me and everybody else. You can never know what difficulties someone has to endure in their lives, just trying your best everyday, do not give up. Stay strong and motivated!

[@50toinfinityatleast]

You’re not old at 57. And you’re not senile lol. But I’m so glad that you did not harm yourself. And I’ve just started watching the videos so I’m gonna go back and watch the rest of it. Make sure that you seem to be OK as I watch it. Because I worry, but I will definitely say a prayer for you Right now.

[@lemsom5644]

Please don’t do it! Everybody dies ONEDAY!

[@cheriebrownsstory]

Praying 🙏 don’t give up

[@jimrobinson5143]

Im happy you are better!!!was certainty praying for you.Ive been in depression for quite a long time because of chronic pain and have few freinds but some of that is choice.I was feeling horrible the other night and felt completely alone and saw your video. God absolutely guided me to see it!I felt terrible for you but i also knew i wasn't the only one.That made me feel much better in itself. Where are you from?Im in franklin ohio.My daughter lives with me and if it wasn't for her i wouldnt be here!!! But anyway im 62 so i know bout age!And yeah ive tried to end it a couple times long time ago so if ya ever feel like that again reach out!!! Thanks for telling your story!!!!!!

[@sternchen9565]

Let Jesus Christ into your heart. He is there for you and gets you through anything. Praying for you 🙏

[@abigailh7715]

I'm so happy that all the love & support helped you heal & see how valuable you are and how much you are needed here. So many relate to you. You have a bright future ahead!

[@ELECTRONICAMOM]

I LIKE LISTENING TO YOU RAMBLE BECAUSE YOU ARE AUTHENTIC AND ORGANIC. IT'S VERY REFRESHING. HALF THE VIDEOS ON KZbin ARE MADE USING AI WITH THOSE SYNTETIC VOICES, I "THUMBS DOWN" ALL THOSE.

[@TonyABabb]

Glad to see you back! Hang in there and focus on what you love doing!

[@ourjourneylivingtruth303]

Hey I just lost my mama last month 😢I get grief 😢if you want to talk through it let me know. I live in NV and yes married but I only relate mostly with males going through pain as well.

[@mrichards2211]

Just found your channel. Enjoying your videos! Keep up the good work. 🙏🙂❤️

[@pce12345]

Thank you for being so honest. I'm glad you didn't ❤ Maybe book a cruise?

[@k91985]

Only saw you for first time yesterday. As soon as i saw this one i thought oh Christ no. I knew you were going to do that. My father did it and was gone at 35. He was so fun and good looking, no one expected it. It was years ago but we did not get over it, it wtecked our whole life. There's no way i want anyone else doing that, i love everyone. You just need one close person to turn this around, give your self a chance to be a bit happy again. There are loads of people feeling the same and looking for a nice man to make them feel safe again

[@gjjgb]

Praise the lord, that he helped you!

[@LifewithTogo]

Shared your video to increase visibility in the algorithm. I’d recommend you comment on all the comments and heart/like all the comments so you get more visibility. It’s what has helped me grow my channel the past two weeks.

[@sissy5707]

New subscriber. Sending you Love, Light and Healing! ❤❤❤

[@JacobGHenderson]

Great news for the channel. I am subscribed.

[@Sebrinawilliams67]

God has you here for a purpose. Stay strong. We've all been there. Believe me! There are happier days. I believe in you.

[@DES1GN3R007]

appreciate the update brotherman. I am glad you snapped out of it .

[@kimjackson3391]

Sending love from across the pond, Suffolk…England 🇬🇧 just subscribed to your channel. ❤

[@PathofPurpose-z4h]

People still care for one another brother.

[@Cmbswims]

Please turn to God. Your relationship with Him means everything. No one can give you true peace except through Him. I too, have been so depressed that I couldn’t even put in my shoes. The death of my 15 year old, only child was and still is too much for me. After 7 years, I have examined every part of my life and though I had a relationship with God, it wasn’t the same as it is today. God IS the answer to everything. He is talking to you. You are a good person. Please take care of yourself and be kind to yourself. There is much more for you here. You will join your wife when He’s ready to take you home. ♥️♥️♥️🙌🙌🙌

[@maybugz]

Watching from the uk 🇬🇧 here. Just stumbled on your channel. Keep fighting brother, you seems like a good man, you're interesting to listen to and an inspiration.

[@elizabethwade5143]

I'm so thankful you are still here Jesus Love's you so much and people out here care about you don't give up god has a plan for you

[@sarahkalnajs5810]

Glad you’re doing better. Also 58 is not old (I’m the same age)….its not 20, but it can be better than 20 in many ways! I’m not wealthy. I have struggles harder to keep in shape but I have a small business and I go to the gym etc.. My husband‘s mother is in her 80s and her husband died at around age 60 and when she was in her 70s she met a new person who she’s been with ever since. Love knows no age.

[@DebUno]

I’m so glad you are back ❤ I’m thinking if you sat down with your boss…tell him/her what happened and I’m sure they would understand.

[@elishadavis6598]

32 here in January I have had the feelings too so much through life. I was adopted. Born premature and weight 3 pounds. I was addicted to five drugs when I was born. and I never been evaluated properly even though I got adopted. Anyway life has it ups and downs and no plants here or trees grow with both sun and water. We need the rain just as much as the sun i hope your doing okay and that Jesus is always here to listen if you need him ❤

[@ConnorHillary]

I am 21 so maybe my opinion doesn't mean much but keep on going. My life hasn't been great either, it has been terrible honestly. In my childhood days, i had no agency over my life and was stuck in an emotionally abusive household. Now, i have anxiety and just the works, i had to go to the mental hospital this year. Don't discount it, i had fun beating all the old people at UNO during my stay lol. I am lonely, i have no job, no friends or partner and I am 21! We all struggle my man, no matter the age. Also, i love planes too! I used P3D for awhile to fly the 747-8 and so on. Subscribing! Have a good one, it is a horror show out there, no one is gonna deny that. Bless you!

[@ConnorHillary]

Also, i agree with everyone else, you are handsome!

[@sunstar4990]

I am glad you are alright. I love Seinfeld. Inuse to watch them regliously. Its hard to have a favorite. I love all the episodes. Alot of small channels are being pushed by KZbin. That is the new thing now. So just keep posting. Especially in 2025 alot of KZbin channels are talking about it. Some of the already making more money. And there views went up. So don't give up. You never know , next year things might look up. And won't be a one hit wonder.

[@christopherjohn611]

I want to go back to 1986 as a highschool grad and start all over

[@musicmamma]

84 for me. True! I want to start over, again too.

[@berniewildtatoo5702]

There’s a lot of volatile energy! It is all due to the universe, but we must endure to overcome! Believe me this had been the worst year of my life! You wouldn’t even believe it, but I am determined to be better than ever! I’ve asked my angels and guides to protect me, and they will! ❤

[@noragelineau3490]

You do have something to live for. Please reach out. You can give to others, reach out, touch lives. You’re young, young to do all kinds of wonderful things. What is the alternative, today is a gift. Your life maybe not what you want at this moment, that’s true for everyone. Love & reach out to others. A child, dog, neighbor that’s your purpose.

[@sherrymiller2302]

Ok...getting a pet is OUT of the question since you could just "walk away" and abandon them... and that goes for anyone that might get involved with you, unfortunately. My brother, who was diagnosed borderline schizophrenic, used to also randomly take off like that. He had a loving family along side him but it didn't help. He died at 50 from his own lack of care. The truth of the matter is...the ONLY one that can help you is....Y-O-U!

[@user-vz3fh6oj7d]

Glad you are ok👍🏽

[@stevenjacob5980]

Keep on posting. I like your honesty

[@wendy-uc9rj]

If you want to be a success on YT, then prepare yourself mentally, physically and spiritually for being a success. You are a very interesting person, you speak well, a good story teller and you have wisdom of age. You have everything it takes to be successful on here. AND you have good friends, do you know how rich you already are??