I Was Sexually Abused

[@Themandalorian935]

It's great that you are sharing this because it takes a lot of courage to share something like this. I really respect you for this

[@anielson22]

I'm so sad to hear that this happened to you. You are so strong girl! we're not alone. Thanks for being brave and sharing your story. I want to share mine too so here you go My "metoo" Story I have a therapist and a phychiatrist that have me diagnosed with Major depressive disorder, general anxiety disorder, and seasonal affective disorder all of which I treat by taking several different medications. And a lot of the reasoning (but not all) behind that is because of my abusive relationship that I was in for about 8 or 9 months which included mostly emotional and mental abuse. But there were some instances of sexual abuse, as well as some mild physical abuse. During our relationship we worked together, lived together, and basically shared everything. Every single morning, he would whine like a 4 year old little brat and refused to get out of bed which made us both late for work a LOT! He used to tell me I should work out more and try to lose weight. He would tell me I'm too lazy and messy and that he didn't know if he could be with someone like that. He thought we needed to have sex every day for him happy, which I wasn't comfortable with that. But to him, there was always something I needed to change, and so he would constantly threaten to leave me as a scare tactic. He destroyed and threw away a lot of my things. He would yell at me if I ever cried, or felt sad which I do a lot since I have depression so that made me feel worse and afraid to express my feelings. Oh yeah, and he also said, "I can literally see a demon in you and if you don't stop taking medication right now, then you're going to go to Hell." I don't just tolerate people demanding me to drastically change myself and my life to fit their ludicrous expectations of me. Especially if they tell me or else I'm going to Hell! Therefore, that was the last straw for me, so I broke up with him and kicked him out of my apartment. I let him take the car though because he threatened to take me to court over it which I didn't feel like I could win that case, so I just let it go since I am within walking distance of my work anyway. Plus, I hope that it gives him hell because every time he uses it, he'll think of how he took it from me. I hope he realizes how much damage he caused and how badly he traumatized a loving, vulnerable person. I hope he pays for all of it. But I especially hope he pays for the following: One night, about 6 months in, he and I and one of our 18 year old friends from work were drinking one night. Because it was what he wanted to do. We all ended up drinking wayyyyyy too much wine. We had a box of it and we drank about 3/4 of it between the 3 of us which that was lot for me but the other two were smaller people than I am so it definitely affected them more. So as the night went on, he threw up and started crying in the bathroom. Our friend got a ride home, and I tried to comfort him and find out what was wrong. He bursted out of the bathroom crying hysterically. So blah blah he finally just said to me that he had feelings for our young lesbian friend and I didn't even know what to say... And he stopped responding anyway, so I immediately started dissociating and went to sit down in the other room when out of nowhere, he flipped out and went berzerk like screaming at nothing as loudly as possible at 3:00am about how he's a huge piece of shit and everyone hates him and everything is always his fault! He was chucking things across the room like putting holes in the walls and destroying things because he was SO MAD! One of our apartment neighbors or someone came pounding on our door to see if everything was alright. They yelled, what's going on!? I froze. I just couldn't bring myself to answer the door or say anything. I was curled up in a ball, paralyzed. They eventually went away but things just kept on getting worse. He was mad at ME that someone was knocking on our door and continued rampaging to the point where I couldn't ignore it anymore. I didn't feel safe. So I went into fight or flight. I knew I would get hurt if I aproached him because it almost felt staged to me as if he was trying to get a rise out of me. Like he had admitted to doing to me before. And I am SO against drunk driving, but he scared me so fucking much, that I felt forced to leave abruptly without any of my things or anything. I instinctually headed to my mom's house. By the grace of God, I made it there safely, although, I did turn a 45 minute drive into a 20 minute drive at like 4:00am on a foggy winter night. That was very dangerous of me to do. I could've been pulled over, got a DUI and got in trouble or I could've easily crashed and got seriously injured or died.. but yeah. So that happened... I cried to my sister for a long time that night about what happened and slept in her bed. The next morning, I guess he "woke up from a black out, and didn't remember what happened". He was furiously yelling at me for "ditching him", he was calling me all kinds of names and it all just really broke me. It felt like a complete nightmare. He never showed that he had any surprise or remorse or apologetic feelings when I told him what actually went down. In fact, he was threatening to call the cops on me for "stealing his car" which was previously MY first car in which I had bought in full. Years of hard work went into buying it, and yet, I graciously/stupidly just GAVE it to him for free when I decided to moved out of state before I started dating him. Anyway, when I eventually buckled under his pressure, returned the car and went back to face him and the condition of our apartment, I was completely SHOCKED. The bedroom door was torn off at the hinges, he put 2 dents and 2 holes in my walls. One was from my laptop which got thrown at and lodged halfway into the wall. Which that laptop was my favorite Christmas present I ever got and served as my main source of entertainment. He obliterated my jewelry box which was also very special to me. And I guess he came close to alcohol poisoning which instead of freaking out about everything like most people would, I kind of just cryed a little, bottled up the rest of my pain, and I took him to the doctor. There was a seperate time that we got into a small physical fight where we were hitting each other out of anger and he very forcefully pushed me back by my breasts. I almost fell, and would've hit my head hard on a wall if I did. But yeah, almost our entire relationship I now realize that I was manipulated and confused by a very very angry and lost person. Somehow he would flip things around to make me think that everything was always my fault and I believed it for some time. And I was traumatized into thinking we were stuck together. I am like 99% sure he had severe Bipolar or something that he was denying. But it's been over 7 months now since I completely cut him out of my life. I am still scared to death of him and pray to god that I never ever see him again. It's going to take me a long time to heal from about 7 months worth of taking the full force of someone else's projected, gnarly bullshit. And I thank my lucky stars that it didn't continue on any longer than it did and that I never had any kids with him! It's just so sick and twisted how SO many people like him actually are like this and create so much suffering for the people around them and for themselves! It's really insane to me. Sadly, abusers are just inherently so selfish and cruelly demented, it's a real shame. To anyone who's reading this, if you buy a car or anything worth hundreds of dollars I urge you not to give those things away to anyone. It's just not a good idea. Also don't date shitty people. And if you have dated shitty people or are dating them, or even if you are the abuser, please find help. No one deserves to deal with what I did. No one. Thanks for reading.

[@itsshannonburns]

Wow! Thank you so much for sharing your story. I can't imagine the pain you faced on a daily basis and so good to here you are no longer in that situation. All the love!

[@Allykelley94]

I give you so much props for coming out and sharing your story to us. Unfortunately, I know the pain you went through since I was sexually abused by my uncle when I was 4. It's such a horrible feeling going it and holding it in for many years. It sucks that there's people who think it's funny or okay to do this to other human beings. But in the end it made us stronger. Keep on being the amazing human that you are Shannon❤️ I hope you have a wonderful night!

[@crazycat4602]

I was abused when I was a teenager I did report it but it was my word against his this effected me I was bullied I had a breakdown it still effects me to this day.

[@sambrammall5291]

I'm sorry you went through that, some people are so fucked up. You're so strong!

[@Creativeclicksphotography]

What an emotional story to share- I'm sure it's not easy, even if you do talk about it often. I have had only 1 experience but it still affects me to this day. I can't comprehend what you went through. And I didn't say anything, I pretended it didn't happen, I tried to forget about it. As a result, it happened to another girl after me. I feel so terrible about it. It amazes me how many people think it just doesn't happen to women ALL THE TIME. As a mother to three daughters and two sons, it's really hard not to be over-protective and to find that balance of what they can do, where they can go, who they can spend time with, who to trust. I don't want to scare them too much or ruin their childhood innocence unduly, but man... so much responsibility to keep them safe. Praying every day that God will give me the strength to do so!

[@lilymccormack8190]

I am so sorry I was sexually assaulted at the age of 6 and I recently told someone about it and I am know 14

[@goodjob7490]

Lily Mccormack why you did not tell someone in smaller age ? (

[@xpDaddyxp]

good job Its not an easy thing to go up to someone and tell them such a risky subject like that. You do not know how the people would react, and what the abuser might do to you if you do tell someone.

[@rebeccacharron2305]

I can relate so much because I was sexually abused and I haven't told anyone and it's been 5 years and it was.l by my bother in law but to have to live with that person and him being your step dad would have been harder

[@infected_reptiles__1400]

Rebecca Charron I'm so sorry that happened 😔

[@theknowall2232]

Rebecca How do we know you were not of age? How do we know he wasn't underage. How do we know he didn't dump you for another girl and that is why you have hurt feelings? Did you tell your mother? father?

[@kitsune8627]

"How do we know you were not of age?" lol Are you blind.

[@theknowall2232]

For most of the world the age of consent is 14, 15 or 16 ... what's to see?

[@kitsune8627]

And I imagine you must be an all wise 21 year old, judging by your name.

[@OhAnggggg]

Oh my god, i literally just commented on one of jenny's video saying i relate to her so much and then i saw this video and realized i relate to both of you. I just started a couple years ago opening up to being sexually abused by my uncle and cousin and my family pushed it under the rug and told me to cover up my body more. I WAS EIGHT!!!!!!!! and it happened until i was 12 years old..... This is the reason why i detached myself from them. That they do absolutely nothing and my sister even put my niece in the same environment!!!!!!!!!!!

[@peppefernando]

Im a child abuse survivor. This makes me sad :( because I was sexually abused as a child:( all I ever wanted to be is a pro footballer so I can give my family the life they deserve. I was raped when I was 9 years old by the football scout :( I have a story of me on my new KZbin channel. My mission is to prevent others from having this happen to them. My life has changed a lot.

[@LizaAmelia]

It's so great that you share and all the things you say are just so important! Big ups for you!

[@renenowaylynch6423]

there is nothing great here she is making herself a whinning broke down victim who cant get over things .

[@kooolkay]

I'm very sorry to hear this :(

[@rehsiennes]

So sorry to hear this but thank you so much for opening up about this Shannon! As women we should make it very clear to men: sexual harassment]assault means a hard kick to the balls in return! And kick em hard so you drop him and have him cry on the floor! Then see who is vulnerable! Seems like the only way they learn!

[@cooperthe1]

Thank you abundantly for this video. There CRIMES must be REPORTED❤

[@marciabogoyavlensky106]

So proud of you,your free now

[@jennirafa9529]

Thank you for making this video. I have so much respect for you.

[@renenowaylynch6423]

STOP PLAYING THE VICTIM MOVE ON

[@constanmoreno5688]

You are a very strong person ! Keep doing videos bc we loveeee it! Greetings from Spain!

[@Richard-nq3rh]

Wow that was such a long time. I'm sorry you had to deal with that all alone. Wish you had the strength to come out when it first happen I know how at first your afraid and just don't know what to do but by thirteen you should of came out. You should tell your victims of abused that today everybody has a cell phone which they can use to record the rape and they don't have to record the video but the audio of it will go a long way in a trail but with that type of evidence he would plead out snd not have to testify. Again my deepest sympathies on your years of abuse it wasn't your fault. What needs to be done is teaching boys of how to treat girls/women that there not there for just there sexual pleasure. Take Care...✨

[@AlphonseElric122]

I'd lived with my uncle since I was 6 I'm 18 now and I live in the college dorms(Which i had to force him to let me attend.) He liked to put his cigarettes out on my chest and back and he raped me most of my life. He treated me like a house slave and sometimes wouldn't even let me go to school because he wanted to make sure I would be home when he got back from work so he would have dinner already prepared and some "stress relief" before he went out. I don't have any other family, I wasn't allowed to have friends or a boyfriend so I don't know how to make them now and I'm terrified of men anyway(including my professors). I can't wear anything that shows my skin below my collar bone because I don't want anyone to see the burns and think I'm crazy. My uncle still talks to me most days, he likes to act like a normal guardian asking about my time and life, treating me "well" most of the time even when he's doing terrible things too me he acts like he cares. I have to go home during breaks, and I don't have anywhere to go but there, so I don't know what'll happen when I go back, probably all the same things... I'm stuck and I'm too much of a coward to say anything about it where people can actually see who I am.

[@shelbyjacobs6816]

I am 10 now and I was sexually abused and I told my mom and I could not sleep I would stay up wondering why it happened to me and it was my neighbor who tried to rape me and I was looking up sexual abuse to see if I'm alone and now I just feel like it is so sad how it happens to some of us I was so scared to tell I was cutting my wrists in front of my mom and i had about 8 scars on one arm and about 6 scars on the other one and if you can relate to me and you don't know what to do you should tell someone you can trust like your mom or your dad or your teacher or your friends mom you have to tell someone or it won't stop it did not stop for me it kept going for 3 years so I was like I need to tell it does not feel right it is so uncomfortable

[@jenniferrogers7676]

The only bad thing that ever happened to me was I witness my mom died right in front of my eyes but it's still not as bad as what you went through so I feel very sorry for you

[@0xMrix0]

STAY STRONG WE LUV U!!

[@GermanRainbow]

Nooo, not you too :( I'm so sorry that this happend to you and so many others. Stay strong

[@lillietracy8737]

Yes, its happens way to much 1/3 women 1/6 men And 50% of transgender people Will get abused like this.

[@lenysjb]

Shan you so strong. So proud of you . Fan

[@annabelleboylen3787]

My friend laughed when I told her I was 7 and it was cristmas Eve and it was my older brother and she was the only one I told

[@krumelmonster15]

I'm sooooo greatful that you share this with us! I can see how hard it have been for you. I have a diffrent story but i can understand you! It's hard to deal with it when you have to deal with it nearly every day. People making jokes and don't understand why it isn't funny or ask you after every shitty comment if it was too much... Soo Thanks for sharing!! ;)

[@lilmuffinsparkcat4750]

I am so proud of you to come on here and tell your story you are a vary brave and strong woman

[@roadmaster720]

sorry to hear you have been sexually abused. sounds like your on the right track now. keep your head high and move on. don't ever let that sob pull you down again. its not your fault. takes a sorry man to do that to kids.

[@dallaswoody5458]

I'm so sorry.

[@孙凡-q7m]

I am so sorry for hearing what happened to you. When you say everything happened in the past shape me now, I am glad that you have been a brilliant girl❗️ From now I become your fan.(笑😄） The same as you, never fall in the love...but I just know you will have a wonderful relationship.

[@moishe5642]

So inspirational!

[@infected_reptiles__1400]

I'm so so sorry that this happened to you 😞

[@nsabeauty9529]

I was 2 but my parents won't believe me!!😭😱😟😫😩

[@goodjob7490]

nsabeauty 952 how you were abused ?

[@ConcernedCiti-Zen]

Trump, Biden, Bill Clinton--a sad reflection on America.

[@jeffdoyle5542]

Amen 4u Amen on this Amen Amen Jeff will pray 4u always Amen Amen Amen Amen

[@Mei-jr9xp]

I feel you because I got sexually abused by this kid named Zach (not his real name) we would play this “game” where he was the dad and he had to change my diaper and digging his fingers in my crotch it hurt really bad when he did it and when I was peeing and I did not tell my parents but then they figured out and ended the missary I was going through and I still regret not telling my parents to this day trust me it is not fun so if this happens to you tell your parents RIGHT AWAY like if you agree if you got sexually abused

[@maeirene6219]

❤️ you are so brave thank you for sharing and inspiring.. I wish I was as strong as you are I’m 27 now but no one knows I was assaulted 🥺 thank you for this video..

[@DJcyberslash]

So what actually happened? Sorry to hear this.

[@abdulwahideid9860]

We support you.

[@sarasobra2374]

Love you ❤️, i'm crying😢 Desde México 🇲🇽🙌🏻

[@emilyperez608]

I was sexually abused at age 2 to age 7.

[@viewfromthehighchair9391]

I'm sorry that this type of thing happened to you and admire your courage in coming forward with your story. Thank you!

[@lpssprinklesandsugarbackup9571]

im very sorry about that

[@jh3102]

I feel bad for us people that have hard life problems because I was sexual abused for 13 years but it ended like 5years ago now he's in jail but yeah I told my mom and she took care of it and that night he hit me with a shovel on the head and I didn't wake up then my real dad and my mom took me to the hospital then I was ok P.s I almost died but this is a true story that happen to me

[@turnaroundanddie]

glad I ran upon your channel subbed :)

[@janesmith2004]

Thank you.

[@MoneyMan28]

Mom's fault for bringing predator inside house

[@sydneyt.nguyen4475]

Um i was sexually Abused a bit today :'( ...

[@TheUnatuber]

I hope you survived the Trump Administration!

[@joyanderson9722]

Same me right now.

[@Carriehammer718]

Just discovered your channel. I watched a video of you and Jenny before this one. Right away I noticed how naturally gorgeous you are and so full of life and laughter. You never know what someone is going through. I was abused twice and raped once. I can't stand when people make jokes about it. It definitely is a trigger and it's not funny. I can't believe trump is our president.

[@Rengokuwhatareyoudoing]

My friend likea was sexually harassed at the age of 9 and Elizabeth and Emily actually know how to fight

[@kieranmcloven2530]

feel for you

[@mahinraymarayma6739]

you are really really storg women ..... I proud of you. ........

[@gavgav4567]

Keep up the good work :)

[@KhansKitchen]

😢

[@aaaqmpzaaa]

so proud of you

[@sknoeringer]

Thank you

[@garyprater8139]

KAZOO is the best security app for your safety and it's connected to 911 and social media etc

[@kaedancenestich6834]

[@f3aok]

One in three😃😮 where did you pick up those ridiculous statistics from some femenist website. That would be over 100m in just the US alone.😱

[@kieranmcloven2530]

and wanted to feel for them selfs

[@ninapangilinan3774]

Sending love from Vancouver

[@raymartinez6851]

who are you to say that President Trump shouldn't be running the country? Stick to your story. Don't have to throw you 2 cents in about your political views.

[@SHAWNA499]

Ray Martinez I agree,with you.why bring up the president?Her story is sad.She could of left that out

[@mellisavogel5031]

Did he drink St Pauli girl beer?

[@ARSONXBELLA]

God waited how long?

[@jefferydoyle5276]

Ur a very brave woman from JEFF

[@caterinadelieto6635]

I Did This Year

[@makaylaanahan8393]

Same here

[@luluedits101]

I feel so bad for u ;(

[@davidengland938]

😁😁😁😁😁 god bless stay strong but stay out of those clubs there bad for you 😁😁😁😁

[@joeayon9743]

yes it is very hard I was 13by. neighbor he son

[@petr9568]

That’s crazy why did you have to bring Trump in to your story First of all the politics are very dirty there’s a lot of sexual accusations that are false second show me a wealthy guy who’s not chased by women they all do that

[@helenfaith1508]

petr9568 no there not how many times have you heard Obama talk about wanting to date his daughter

[@justinelodder]

[@mellisavogel5031]

did he give you any jewelry? what music does he like?

[@eithkobbsh1094]

Oh stop ...

[@andreaquinn5225]

I love you :) x

[@bobbiewoods9785]

another one thats wants to be you tub famous

[@homejoke7961]

😚😂😂😂

[@michaeloravetz425]

#PeeToo

[@peac_e8104]

mexico

[@jefferydoyle5276]

Ur a very beautiful young woman from JEFF

[@raymartinez6851]

President Trump hasn't anything to do with your abuse, but of course your have to put your political views with your story. He was not talking about abusing teenage girls. Hard to tell if your story really happened. Oh I forgot women never lie about being sexually abused, Please!

[@cyancaster3924]

Congrats! You are now making money and subscribers off of your fake story.

[@NuckingFuts]

A Well Known Astronaut wtf is wrong with you

[@cyancaster3924]

Nucking Futs nothing, why?

[@LumiLiz]

A Well Known Astronaut Its not fake

[@nikki-oq2zh]

The Dude that's not very nice! You shouldn't say things that you aren't sure are true. Sexual Abuse is not something to laugh or joke about and you should respect this woman because she had the courage to share her story.

[@emi-wl7et]

The Dude Stfu!

[@nd5076]

so proud of you