i went on holiday by myself

[@sarahcorke4252]

girl, a year ago u thought you’d never ever like porridge but now you’re out here smashing out baked oats left, right, and centre. you conquered porridge and you’ll conquer staying away from home too BELIEVE

[@harmonyhope1709]

So true it's fantastic!

[@milliesabine2107]

Next up, coffee!

[@harmonyhope1709]

@@milliesabine2107 haha... Wow can you imagine if Grackle finally liked coffee?!

[@dennihughes4124]

@@harmonyhope1709 and matcha!!! or fizzy drinks ...

[@harmonyhope1709]

@@dennihughes4124 haha oh yeah.. aw bless her she loves so many foods and drinks but yes coffee, matcha, oats and fizzy drinks are definitely not the ones for her but she does keep persevering, you gotta give her credit!!❤️

[@lil_ianX]

Honestly as another girl in her early twenties, single and thriving, trying to figure out what life has to offer, your videos make me so happy. It just motivates me to live my best life and try out new things along the way. Thank you so much for sharing this all with us. It means a lot 🥰

[@VamLoveAndKisses]

Therapist here 🙋‍♀️ and trust me separation anxiety is a real thing and I've noticed a big rise in separation & social anxiety since lockdown. We've all gotten used to our own little comfort zone, and socially anxious people have had a perfect excuse to avoid seeing people (covid). But now that excuse is becoming less valid and people are noticing their anxiety shoot up. My advice would be to take it slow, push yourself a bit at a time and build it up gradually. Also, make a note of how anxious you are at the start of a trip vs the end. Usually we find that the initial anxiety is the worst and that leads us to avoid/give up before giving the anxiety a chance to fade. But keep going! You're doing fab!

[@cde6513]

I never comment on these videos, but i really wanted to reach out to you! I am probably the same age as your parents, and have kids similar age to you, but I completely relate to what you are saying, as i used and sometimes still do get very anxious when leaving home ! I am the most laid back relaxed person at all other times! What you are doing is totally the right thing, slowly push yourself out of your comfort zone regularly and your confidence will grow...! I found leaving too much time in between put me back to square one, so try doing it as often as you can.. this is what i did, and it ended up with me going abroad for 6 months it was so hard to begin with, but i had the time of my life.. so keep going its so worth it even when you feel anxious!!

[@carolburke9153]

@@cde6513 you go girl! 💓

[@silent_amy]

Tomorrow is 2 years since my sister died. I'm in another country from my family and my friends are all busy. So I planned to take myself on a minor adventure (to Covent Garden), but I'm starting to feel overwhelmed and anxious about it. I'm going to try and vibe Grace and take myself off for the day.

[@dees3179]

We do a death day anniversary meal of the deceased’s favourite food. In this case cream tea. And drink a toast. We also have quite a few of their possessions still in the family and make a point of using them. Both generally, but especially on that day. Gone but not forgotten. Best wishes.

[@dianebaker5243]

Please go out and about. Have best day ever. Then try next time overnight try B and B stays they friendly and homily places to stay. 👍🥰

[@hollie531]

❤️❤️❤️

[@sarajohansson1107]

❤️

[@cherieleeishere]

Sending love 💗

[@sarahcorke4252]

THE EXTRA GRACK GANG IS BACK TOGETHER

[@harmonyhope1709]

❤️❤️❤️

[@yesmygraph]

WHOOP WHOOP

[@erinshorey3224]

I live in a shepherds hut in my boyfriends mum’s garden. It’s so lovely. The perfect amount of privacy without being far away from a real life proper adult who knows stuff x

[@clairechocolate12]

That actually sounds perfect 😍

[@ElisabethClemens]

I've always felt so ashamed for being homesick and finding out I'm not the only one is literally making me feel so much better

[@garymcgregor5951]

If you were the only one who experienced it, there wouldn't be a common term for it! 🙂

[@mandixoloveyourself7788]

Ahh, separation anxiety, had it for MANY YEARS I couldn’t be away from my mom or home. I grew out of it with therapy, it really helped!! I did have some childhood trauma with this though so there was the reasoning but it’s always worth a shot just talking to someone about it and working through it :) best of luck grace!

[@BlinkedAgain]

As I got a little older, I've realised the anticipation of everything is so much worse for me than actually doing it, especially being away from home. Remembering how I feel once I've 'settled in' to a new place or situation helps me so much with the awful stage of anticipation and first night upsets. xoxo

[@Dentiera]

Always go in trips by myself, apart from the fact that I don’t have friends, except maybe 1, who lives in another city, but they’re the best thing ever. Organize as you please, go fast or slow as you like, eat what you want, explore what you like, pee when you need. Life!

[@sabeenahsan9343]

Hey Grack or anyone who forgets toothpaste, just rub some salt on them if you have it. Salt really removes that grimy feeling and is actually a nice alternate for toothpaste ☺ Love you and your videos Grack ❤❤

[@harmonyhope1709]

So proud of you. Your confidence has grown sooo much!! When I first started watching your channel (years ago) you definitely would never have done this!!!!!!!! 🙌👍👌❤️

[@iana6713]

That shepherd's hut is so picture perfect. All you need in one compact, cosy package and so stylish. I really like it. I'm one of these people who could quite happily take off alone to a place like that. Glad you enjoyed!

[@Chelsealauren]

I totally get what you mean about homesickness, I was terrified to go to uni this year because my parents are literally my best friends... the first week was awful & I have never cried so much in my life, but then I went home for the weekend, saw my fam, and when I went back everything just became so much easier over time! I just need to remember that my fam will always be there and I can always go back to them❤️ Don’t know if that helps haha x

[@bunnies4life354]

Video idea- you could rank your favourite rom coms on one of those ranking tier lists! Would be fun and also I genuinely want to know your opinions on this incredibly important topic:)

[@wrappedmoonlight]

I had extreme separation anxiety when I was younger (ex couldn’t spend the night away from home for sleepovers… I would end up crying and calling my mom to come get me etc). Eventually I ended up seeing a therapist and that really helped! :) But it took a while (and some work) to be able to stay away from home (and my parents) before I truly felt comfortable on my own!

[@lindabhri2681]

Also I really felt it when you mentioned homesickness. I started university in a different city and moved into my own flat around 6 months ago and it still doesn’t feel like home. I’m thankful for all the time I can spend at my families place due to Covid and universities not being open right now but I know I have to fully live on my own again soon and I know It will be an exciting time but homesickness keeps me from enjoying all of that...

[@katharina1398]

I started uni last year in the first wave and I moved out for it as well and starting in a new city was so hard, I cried every day for the first two weeks or so. But it does get better! I love being here now, I feel comfortable and I totally enjoy it. Even if you don't vibe it in the beginning, you can get there!

[@lindabhri2681]

@@katharina1398 this makes me think positively! Thanks for sharing your experience!!!

[@laurawilliamson888]

My daughter is similar to you Grace so I'm finding your journey a helpful insight. Please be as honest as possible as it will really help others. Also it's great to see you grow as a person

[@rixt135]

Even though I don't struggle with homesickness I can still relate to the irrational fears and honestly seeing you smashing yours is giving me more courage to challenge my own. Absolutely love watching your videos

[@HRHPrincessLiz]

Aren’t you and your Grackle family glad you went to New York before alllllll of this shenanigans? Wooooo 🎉 Travel when you can darling... and enjoy it your way!

[@RuslanaMarch]

I love going on little day trips by myself. Excited to watch this!

[@kristinaswift13]

I struggled with home sickness for years and I’m so proud of you Grace for booking solo trips away!!

[@NH-zh6zb]

you should defo book in a lil meeting with an anxiety therapist, maybe only a few sessions may help you understand more about your homesickness & how to overcome❤️

[@melissabotincan3765]

My goodness girl, you sure know how to make me smile! Every one of your videos makes me feel SO happy and wholesome and I love that you just embrace your true self! Absolute love ! Thank you

[@jennymangham6904]

Grace Im 36 and I get homesick just staying in the UK too and I go to South Africa a lot to see family and that makes me soooo homesick. I think it just shows how much we love our families and being at home - surely that’s a good thing 🥰😘👌

[@melissacc00]

I live for this - I need this confidence. Also tried baked oats after your hype and I AM LIVING✌️😌

[@theartist_harlivi]

I never expected to see my fave KZbinr who is the best distraction from my family violence situation staying in my absolute dream home! I’ve been trying to find a way out of this situation for ages and my ultimate goal would be a gypsy wagon and to see you in one just had me in tears! It just made me feel like my dream is trying to find ways to remind me it’s still alive. I really needed that msg right now…thank you for always being you and helping us through all the good times and bad ones, too💛

[@AlisaBlanchard]

I struggle with being away from home as well! I'm Autistic so being separated from my familiar things/people/routines ends up being super detrimental to my emotional state. I def suggest bringing your fave pjs, maybe a familiar candle or pillowcase and doing familiar things like your skincare routine, morning/evening routine to help soothe and trick your body into thinking it's at home Your small trips are such a good idea and what a fun way to see new things!

[@harmonyhope1709]

The Shepherd's hut is so CUTE!!! ❤️ So cosy!! Everything you need for one person really

[@nat3007]

I know it looks such a cosy place to live.

[@harmonyhope1709]

@@nat3007 aww hi NAT, how are you? Ikr that's such a cute place to holiday/live ❤️

[@nat3007]

@@harmonyhope1709 I'm ok just trying to do things again went into the local town for the first time since I moved it's so pretty. I thought I'd miss the city more but no.

[@harmonyhope1709]

@@nat3007 aww that's great news!!! Good for you 😊❤️

[@savannahm5529]

tears & nervousness are absolutely fine to have: you went anyway! that takes a strong person! you sat in the apprehensive discomfort & looks like you had an overall beautiful time. When you got turned around you seemed to stay positive & if not fully... you came back to your baseline. glad you went! that little place was cute as heck!

[@gracebevill]

This video is free therapy omg 😊 (loving the little montages!!)

[@annieesharples13]

I totally get you with the homesickness and getting yourself into a state the night before you leave - happens every time, so thanks for chatting about it!

[@JadeCanada237]

I remember being so nervous to even grocery shop when I went away to university because I had never done it alone. Grace you are doing amazing! Pat yourself on the back. I used to pressure myself so much when I was younger because I wasn't ready to do things others my age were. Not everyone is the same. You are your own unique wonderful self :)

[@amymiller4903]

You are always inspirational Grace. You are always a ray of sunshine. Although I understand that you are working on expanding your horizons being away from home, I watched this vlog thinking that you might go out at least for a walk in the countryside. What a gorgeous place to be yet you stayed inside with your electronic devices. Maybe next time you will give yourself the latitude to explore your surroundings rather than just driving past them in your vehicle? At any rate, good for you for a good, calm sleepaway.

[@ciera5781]

Grace 💖 I’ve been struggling to sleep for ages now and your videos are literally the onlyy thing that can get me to sleep 🥺 they are so relaxing and wholesome x

[@tonyamalinowski]

I also get so homesick. I was accepted into a semester abroad in Greece while I was in college, and I turned it down because I was too scared to leave home. Even now, I’m married and in my 30s and traveling for work fills me with anxiety and dread because I just want to be home with my husband. I used to regret that it held me back from so many things, but now I’m just grateful to have a home, a partner, and a family I love so dearly that I don’t want to leave them, even for just a couple nights. I have come to appreciate my homebody nature and accept it. I still get frustrated with myself from time to time, but I’ve come a long way! This is all just to say that I see you and hear you on the homesickness since we were just little kids!

[@clebo100]

It’s separation anxiety and I feel you! I've always suffered with it and even now at the grand age of 37, i still get a bit of a weird feeling if I’ve had my parents over and they leave! I was always that kid that tried to do sleepovers and had to get picked up by my dad at midnight because I was crying to go home! The more you do on your own, the better you'll feel but it’s nothing to be ashamed of and there are plenty of us out here! 😘

[@peppermint1bd]

I appreciate that you didn't edit out your thoughts about overcoming homesickness. Thank you for being candid. ❤ And looking forward to more solo vacay videos! Would love to do that sort of thing!

[@annabelpatterson6098]

Bit late off the mark here...but I was exactly the same as a child. My mum had to come with me when I went to play round friends houses and I always get super anxious before going away. I would say it's one of those things you are either like, or not. We just love our home and fam, lol! Also, I have just started Spoonfed too - Tim Spectre is a boss when it comes to nutritional knowledge.

[@harmonyhope1709]

LOVE 'About a boy' total emotional roller-coaster for sure!

[@DSherman50]

I suffered from home sickness as a child. Going to summer camp was heart breaking. Now I am just as attache as I ever was but to my home. As much as I love being around people I always look forward to my time at home. Now that I live alone as my kids are grown, I really need my alone time.

[@de8852]

Grace I'm the exact same way about leaving home and my parents, I'm such a home bird and I feel like no one else really understands. And I really want to travel and experience the world yet my fears and anxiousness hold me back! I'm envious of my friends who can just get up and go without a worry in their minds or hearts. It may be an attachment issue or fear of something, I'm studying psychology so maybe one day I'll find the answer and ways to get over it or cope with it better! But don't worry, I 100% understand how you feel and definitely experience the same struggles!!

[@catarinadomingos5962]

You’re doing great, wishing you luck on your journey of overcoming homesickness, it’ll be super fun to tag along (if you decide to take us with you)!

[@Sarahjaney28]

GIRL I feel you on the homesickness thing! 22 and I get sad sleeping over at a friends

[@jenniferschultz7178]

Therapist here, we've spent the last 15 months being told the outside world is a dangerous place & we must stay at home - I'm in Melbourne Australia, we've just come out of lockdown 4! - is it any wonder we all want to stay at home. 90 mins away - great first step & it looks like you had so much fun. I loved your cooler (can I confess when I went to London in 2019 I took my favorites, drink every day tea just because I like my own stuff - I did get a bit of a laugh from the quarantine guy). Our whole world was turned upside down last year - it's going to take a bit for all of us to find our way out. This is step 1 of you getting to NYC!

[@katharina1398]

I absolutely understand the homesickness thing! When I was in year seven and I was staying with my grandparents, I got so homesick and had to cry all the time and I was just feeling miserable. Even though they were my family and I felt so bad for the whole situation, it was horrible. And then last year I moved out for university and then corona came and it was the worst. The first few weeks in the new city I cried every single day and I seriously thought about quitting my studies just to be able to be at home. But one year later I can safely say I love uni and living on my own, so anyone else can get there too!

[@DelToro7]

This looks like the perfect way to spend a weekend.

[@darceyhello5059]

I have friends but I want to do this. Seeing you go on a lil trip alone gives me the inspiration to actually do it. Just need to find a place and book time off work. Always been afraid of looking like a loner or something but actually I just want to have a good time and look after myself. Always love your videos and hope one day (when covid has settled) you will do an afternoon tea meet up or something because I would love to meet you. Without knowing you have helped me so much when I have been at my mental low points xx

[@anamorphosee3103]

Hey, I’m 21 and I also have home sickness and I feel less alone since I watch your channel ❤️

[@dianebaker5243]

The summer adventures begin I hope so for you. Loved the place you stayed in. Thanks for sharing 👍😁

[@summer9360]

these vlogs literally just feel like we’re on facetime its so comforting 😫

[@SophieBrown24]

I’ve been thinking of doing something like this, reckon this video is a sign that I should just go and do it!

[@natashaj4113]

Do it! Have a great time 😀

[@meriambenouis5318]

Oh dear! Takes me back to when my husband and I forgot our toothpaste on our honeymoon. We realised too late in the evening and shops were closed. We always make a point to triple check the toiletries now before going anywhere.

[@alanax_]

Aw this was such a sweet idea! Loved to see you exploring :)

[@mrsfunnyXvideos]

Never been this early here. I'm already sure this is going to be an amazing video. Also sure it's going to make my sunday way better

[@pinkysworn]

Girl, I totally get the irrational homesickness thing. When I was a kid, I had pretty regular meltdowns when my mom would go out for a couple hours once a week to get groceries. And I literally have the house number of my childhood home tattooed on my wrist. But I also moved 4 hours away for like 5 and a half years and then moved back to my hometown but into my own place, so I’d like to think I’m fairly well adjusted now. My point is, 1. you’re not alone and 2. you don’t have to do things according to anyone else’s timeline.

[@marabeth9400]

I can definitely relate. I love the cozy feeling of home.

[@zofia7657]

Grace’s videos are the ultimate safe-comfort space

[@Tipper1941]

Found Pret’s list of ingredients on their website for your chicken broccoli soup. You should make a big batch and freeze it. I would make it without the broccoli then add it once it melts and cook for a few minutes because I like my broccoli to have some tooth. Soups are generally very easy. Expand your repertoire.❤️

[@jv0501]

Love you so much Grace!!! You've been helping me through this pandemic, and I appreciate all that you do :))

[@Maariyahuddin]

😂😂 love ya grace, also cheeky Sunday upload

[@EverStar5]

100% agree soup is such a great food! It’s actually my favorite food. Yum! Also HOW CUTE IS THIS LITTLE COTTAGE!!

[@anabitlan9335]

Hey Grace, quick tip, if you ever forget your toothpaste again, put your toothbrush in water after that dip it in salt shake any excess and brush your teeth, make sure to not swallow and don't apply the same pressure as you would do with toothpaste, I know it sound disgusting but it works.

[@kirinwallace7699]

I honestly have the same thing before a trip or whatever but it’s gotten so much better so I’m glad that it’s getting better for you as well!!!

[@Susbub91]

Sorry about the home sickness Grace. These things can be hard. Just because Covid came means it just wasn’t the time but now May just be the time for you to shine ✨ on your own away from your comfort zone a little more and a little more 😉. Best wishes x

[@jessicaisabelle2478]

Always been homesick really fast even if i slept like literally 5 houses away from my parents. Now I'm getting homesick when im separated from my soon to be husband. My friend planned a little trip before the wedding where i have to be apart from him for just one night and it's kinda stressing me out. So i get you!!

[@yetinaut]

YAAASSS We are here 👏🏼 for 👏🏼 personal 👏🏼 growth 👏🏼 keep expanding your horizons gorl. This is the content I need 😇

[@ortalsalman5198]

super calming and relaxing vlog! exactly what I needed-thank you grace

[@andreastewart8566]

Your homesickness might stem from being the youngest child. I too am the youngest and I had CRIPPLING anxiety from leaving home until I just up and left when I was 18. I was so tired of feeling that way that I moved out, just up the road from my house. After 2 weeks I was completely fine. Since then, I've moved across the country for the past 10ish years. I hope you don't let it hold you back forever. Once you go you'll be feeling better, hopefully!

[@andreastewart8566]

@@pjequinelady4726 That is amazing! Having a fear of living your life independent of your family can be challenging for some for sure. I only used that as reference because some people's personalities almost feel guilty about being the last one to leave. When I was Grace's age, I had a very similar personality and that was my fear. I didn't want them to be lonely and I was scared. I have since not felt that way but it did take some time! I am so glad you didn't have to go through that, it truly is an awful feeling!

[@lipo126]

Grackle videos provide so much serotonin 💝

[@HollyRhian]

If it makes you feel better, I was exactly like you when I was younger and then a couple of years ago I became the complete opposite. I travelled to Australia for a month after never even being on a plane and now after COVID I plan on moving there for longer. There’s nothing wrong with being a home bird but I promise you, if you want that to change it is possible :) just go at your own pace and do what feels right for you xx

[@dovestone_]

I’ve had the homesick thing the same as you all my life, Grace. BUT I got over it by living at uni and now I don’t have it anymore. Ik you stayed at home for uni but when you move out, though the first couple of weeks will be hard you will be able to get over it x

[@emily1celebfan]

Depends on your comfort/confidence level and if you did end up introducing yourself to the owners across the street, but I bet if you’d popped round in the morning and asked they’d have lent you some tooth paste or mouth wash! The place looked lovely and seemed like you had such a wholesome time! Very healing 🙌🏼

[@LucyyWritesVlogs]

Queen. I always think of going away alone! Last year I did a couple trips away with who I was seeing but now single and still at home, girl needs some peace 💪🏻👌

[@emmaswirkowski]

Grace have you ever thought about looking into attachment styles? Reading up on this has helped me understand my anxious behaviour a lot better, proud of u for challenging yourself 🥰

[@MelissaThompson432]

It's perfectly ok to brush without toothpaste. A lot of what makes toothpaste desirable is the flavoring. The brush by itself will take the crumbs off your teeth....

[@chesca7295]

That's completely untrue. You need the fluoride for one.

[@MelissaThompson432]

@@chesca7295 fluoride destroys brain cells. Look it up.

[@chesca7295]

@@MelissaThompson432 lmao. Oh. You're one of those.

[@MelissaThompson432]

@@chesca7295 you mean sane and informed? Look it up.

[@esmeraldavanwildernis1440]

Added that book to my amazon wish list. I would love some more Grack book recs!!!

[@bijanlove8000]

A Grace vlog and a cup of chai tea is the coziest afternoon! :)

[@catherine3480]

Love everything you post Grace! These kind of videos are so relaxing... I would love if you took us around the area where you are staying next time (Corona friendly, obvs). I would love to see some little towns or something :)

[@kittygreig1507]

Hi Grace I’ve been obsessed with your videos recently (especially your London vlogs hehe) and you are such a positive and sweet person, your videos are always so entertaining and uplifting thank you 😊😘also Banksy is soo gorgeous 🐱xx

[@Lucymargo271]

I was ✨inspired✨ and went to book one for me and my bf and without realising booked the exact same hut you’re in lol thank you

[@memecharis]

You don’t have to apologise for so many tiny things in your videos, I promise I don’t even notice things like the foggy lens most of the time :) nobody’s perfect but that’s what makes us special. Keep on keeping on my friend, proud of you x

[@kates7277]

Getting Secret Garden vibes...expecting Mary and Dickon to run past your window :)

[@meriambenouis5318]

As lively as your comment is, it really creeped me out. Lol, Victorian children running past me whilst I'm alone in a cabin gave me shivers.

[@anseladams23]

The pathway to the little house you were staying at gave me some Holiday (the romantic comedy with Kate Winslet and Cameron Diaz) vibes. So cool. I'm setting up my next girl alone weekend getaway.

[@JaniceRafael]

Grace, in North America, when you return things through Amazon, they mainly throw the things away. Do they also do that in the UK?

[@kayleighworth8250]

Merchandise, bakery merchandise !!! We need this !!

[@sarahwalker3097]

I have the exact same problem of being homesick. I never could have sleepovers I would just cry until I puked and then the older I get I just get really really homesick. It’s really hard.

[@craigharris7808]

I'm in exactly the same situation here Grace. I've been meaning to venture out and travel and such. I don't quite have the same home sickness, it's more of just a fear of something happening. I love the idea of travelling but I've never really had the confidence. I also can't drive which is an issue. I definitely want to look into air bnbs that are on train routes or something and spend a long weekend away. You've inspired me.

[@dees3179]

Try and hire a bike or electric bike that you can take on the train. Massively increases your range.

[@craigharris7808]

@@dees3179 That is a great suggestion however again unfortunately I never learnt how to ride a bike (I know, shocker)

[@JB-vd8bi]

@@craigharris7808 not shocked. I never did either x

[@Leeeeyes]

My house is currently blackout due to blow up somewhere at our street...so my laptop died just now...now i can have break and you come on time! Im so so so happy!!!

[@mayaziolkowska7477]

Love these videos!! such cute and cozy vibes

[@sineadryan4424]

Lol I love unpacking, it's like opening presents 😂

[@sandrahaycock8471]

Hello grace. You are so upfront about your homesickness. How did you manage uni and even being a model? You are a woman of many sides! All of them amazing!

[@dennihughes4124]

She stayed at home for Uni x

[@lindabhri2681]

Finally another soup lover!! I think I could only eat one type of food for the rest of my life it would be soup because it’s delicious, nutritious and versatile!!

[@tinaandfriends9504]

Got 2 maths test calculator and non, two science tests biology and chemistry, a drama pitch assessment, a history vocab quiz and a RE pitch assessment next week and I am terrified. This vid helped. Thanks

[@emmaheerkens2732]

i love how you did the litlle trowback to a few days before

[@daniellemurnane-daly1613]

The home sick thing I still get and I'm 26 not just you grackle and I don't even live at home anymore and when I visit even though it's 20 mins away I get homesick when I leave 😂

[@isobel5563]

I had the chicken broccoli and brown rice soup from Pret yesterday!

[@AnnaR86x]

Living for the Ralph rollback side pony fit! 😍

[@idespiseguugleplus6511]

What brand is your water bottle?????????? I've been trying to find it online.... I'm obsessed.

[@alanathebespectacled]

Yass Grace we love exposing ourselves to the things that scare us!!