I wrote this thinking about my own death

[@jackhughesbooks]

Lot to unpick here. Firstly, I love the fact you are not afraid of longer pieces. Some other YT composers keep it down to about a minute which is great for a single idea- and very effective -lovely stuff, but I like it when I am taken on a journey. The abstract dissonant opening is very disquieting which really sets out your stall considering what this is about. the Following melody is lovely- the 5/4 bar using the trill to break the reverie was master stroke, in that the jarring shock it drags you back to the nature of the subject. The next section is positively elergiac -I got wandering through an avenue of black poplars in the land of the dead. The ending is bold, honestly. I was reminded of something brian Eno said years ago - in concerts he would pick out piano notes at random and let the audience construct their own meaning and patterns. Its what humans are hardwired to do - create meaning even from the random. This does the same in forcing you to reflect and construct meaning. It is also a reflection on the repitition of every day life. And like that repitition it has no external value whether it is good or bad, if your life is happy or sad depends on how you see it, the cycle happens regardless. If I was being totally arty farty I would say the 4 notes repesent the 4 seasons. You are a thoughtful composer and in my eyes you know what you are doing. Finally, no I did not count the number of repititions, I just let it wash through me. Great work.

[@MatthewLeeKnowles]

my longest piece lasts for 26 hours, so definitely not afraid of duration ;-) Glad you picked up on the trill, consonance against dissonance, slowing down against pushing forwards, it's like the trill on top was watching over something dying. Eno is a smart guy and absolutely right of course. It's like mishearing song lyrics, there are songs I've listened to 500 times and heard the wrong words every time, we hear what we think we want to or should hear or simply whatever the mind conjures on the first attempt. You've reminded me of Alan Watts, my favourite philosopher, I bet you're familiar with him? "How does your head look to your eyes? Well, I tell you, it looks like what you see out in front of you, because all that you see out in front of you is how you feel inside your head..." You are my perfect audience! I haven't counted, but I tried my hardest to do 39 :-))))))))))