ILLENIUM - Take You Down // Good Things Fall Apart (Nurko & William Black Remix)

- ILLENIUM - Take You Down // Good Things Fall Apart (Nurko & William Black Remix)
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0:00 Illenium - Take You Down (Nurko Remix)
4:08 Illenium Good Things Fall Apart (William Black Remix)
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[@liampadallan7442]

I found this song in 2017 after my first heartbreak when I was 15. I cried listening to it downloaded onto an MP3 player app on my phone, because at the time many of the songs on Sheep's channel were not on spotify. I listened to it while sitting alone at school dances, or wandering around, or sitting in the library or hallway trying to eat lunch as quietly as possible. I listened to it after getting diagnosed with a chronic condition and losing many friends because they thought I was weird or contagious due to the symptoms. I listened to it after I thought I loved somebody for the first time in 2018, and I saw him slowly drift away over 3 years and felt unlovable and unworthy. I listened to it after I sat alone for the first hour of homecoming because none of my friends bothered to tell me they would be late or where they were. I listened to it when I felt alone and cried on the bathroom floor. I listened to it when I ended up not being able to attend college in 2020 and transferred out of what I thought would be my dream career. I listened to it when I felt angry, or depressed, or worthless. Lately, things have changed. I am almost 20 now and haven't listened to this in a while. I now have an incredible best friend, who truly cares about me and I consider a platonic soulmate, who I feel completely comfortable with. My condition is improving with age, diet and physical work and has become very manageable; although it still flares up when I am sick or tired. I have late nights laughing and enjoying myself with my friends, and I'm in a program that will allow me to travel the world and follow my dreams. I found someone who wants to travel the world with me someday and thinks I'm the greatest thing since sliced bread. I even have a solid freelance gig going on the side doing what I love. Sometimes life has to break you before it puts you back together the way you were supposed to be. Every time I listened to this, I kept telling myself things would get better, but I didn't really believe it. Something about this song was calming and comforting enough that it gave me a space of quiet when I was feeling those terribly intense emotions, and the loneliness of being a teenager. I took those moments to rest, accept the comfort the song gave me, and show some compassion to myself. I listened to this again today and while life certainly isn't perfect, it does get better. It ABSOLUTELY does. And by the time it gets better, you will be stronger, and compassionate enough to yourself to accept the happiness in your life. I hope if you feel those emotions too, this song will offer you a bit of quiet. It truly is a masterpiece. I listened to it today, and it still gave me that quiet, but now to be proud of what I made it through :) Never give up friends!

[@smith5154]

You are not alone! we are here! :)

[@Infact77]

glad that you're doing well now!

[@Smilebyside00]

Wow brother🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@Freeliving111]

So it does get better ❤?

[@BuffaloGamer77]

After listening to Good Things Fall Apart a lot of times it makes me think of how I used to want to be someone who I wasn't to make the other people happy. You shouldn't have to apologize for being yourself. People should accept who you really are and if they don't, peace out. Life's too short to waste trying to be someone your not or to impress someone by being someone else. Be you, live your best life because at the end of the day its only you that has your back 100% of the time.

[@rafaelwk6052]

uau '-' "i love this "

[@-Nxghtmare-]

The thing is we are all craving for validation from others on different level.. So yeah, it's not THAT easy🤍

[@zebbichebilal4199]

Je 9999p

[@kennynelson630]

so true, i spent my childhood trying to conform to others so i could fit in. took me years to accept me for who i am. so much happier now that i do

[@bobvalmont1115]

Yes and no... Other people's opinion do matter to some extent because sometimes when they say you're an asshole they're right... But you have a point in that you should strive to be the person YOU want to be, not the person others want you to be. Either way it's going to take work but at least you choose what you're working toward and, as long as your honest with yourself and admit your flaws, you're halfway there

[@agiariul]

"Life isn't measured by how many breaths you take. Rather, it's by how many moments take your breath away." Thought this quote matched the vibe here

[@RealityHijacked]

Tell that to George Floyd xD

[@ToriA.]

This is such a great combination! The artwork behind the music also adds on a whole other layer of meaning and beauty. It's almost like the music is telling a story of what is going on in the picture and you can sort of feel the emotions of the two people in the piece. It's as if the songs are their thought/voices. BEAUTIFUL

[@elif3jahlicia421]

watch fate series

[@anishatasnim9907]

I AGREE!!!!!!!

[@jeremiahtaylor8337]

The two characters are King Arthur (As a girl for some reason) and Gilgamesh. In the show they are from they died in separate time periods and forced to try and kill each other for convoluted reasons but they do indeed hate each other the whole show so idk why this picture was used but it works out of context.

[@janinebelleestrada7096]

​@@jeremiahtaylor8337Gilgamesh does like the king of knights though but she wants to be viewed as an equal to which Gilgamesh does view her. A strong king but she did say she failed to lead leading to her demise

[@accuset]

"Very well, Saber. Some things are beautiful precisely because you cannot attain them". Favorite version of Stay Night, and one of my favorite moments of it. Gilgamesh is best.

[@samuelrojas9203]

and what is the name of that version??

[@lyssata6844]

@@samuelrojas9203 it literally is just stay night i believe. Its the first anime series they made based on the game path where shirou chooses saber and avalon.

[@accuset]

@@lyssata6844 Yeah, it's just the normal route, it was the first stay night made into an anime. So like, 2004. Then UBW was done (first as a movie, then because nothing made sense, they did the series) around 2015. And Heavens Feel was 2019 I think. But the normal route is my absolute favorite, because Gilgamesh's introspective and philosophical nature is preserved in that version. The other ones, he's just playfully using sophistry, at best. But Zero Gilgamesh was very philosophical (see the 3 kings drinking scene for one great example). And then in FGO: Babylonia, he was even more of a deeply profound person, so it only made sense for the normal route to be the 'canon' route. In the sense of universal consistency of characters. Some people complain that he was cruel in Zero, so the UBW one seems fitting enough, but his cruelty was simply because he alone was king in Uruk, there were no other kings. And in the present, a lot of people are calling themselves kings. Plus he doesn't know anyone in Zero, so he has no reason to hold special concern for them. But he eventually comes to an amiable "agree to disagree" with Rider. He agreed to be the "owner", and rider agreed that he was the "thief" type. And their mindsets weren't hypocritical, so it was a difference in perspective, and the two agreed that it was simply that. His eventual admiration for Rider is probably why he spared Waver, when he could've killed him. Waver acknowledged Rider's perspective, and wanted to live to embody it, and Gilgamesh admired Waver's devotion plus Rider's sense of things, so he became amiable to their party when he didn't have to be. But Berserker, that *zasshu* . There is no admiration for those sorts of people, nor for Assassins who hide in the shadows, afraid to show their face, nor for little girls who dream of ideal kingships where everyone is happy and equal. Basically, no trash, no cowards, and no little princesses. And I'm okay with that.

[@xonic.8585]

@@accuset So this is an anime?

[@ELKONGA]

@@xonic.8585 yes, is "fate Stay Night"

[@RoxyLifeAndTimes]

3 years still in love with the first part of this track. ❤ From Namibia 🇳🇦

[@etenat8772]

ok this is the first remix of an illenium song that i didn't think was worse than the original! still feels like an illenium song. love it

[@citizen3894]

This song (take you down) has been my favorite song for over 2 years and still is!!!🤩🤩🤩

[@RoxyLifeAndTimes]

Same ❤

[@martamalcevich9026]

Such a beautiful song 🎧 I’m so deep down in love with 😍

[@ajeetpatel7991]

I didn't mean to hurt you When I hurt myself It's just an empty voice screaming out for help No I didn't mean to scare you But I couldn't see That when I went to hell I was taking you with me When I close my eyes I'm climbing in the dark Trying not to fall apart Sometimes I get so high Falling is the only out I see And I don't wanna take you down with me Take you down Take you down with me Don't wanna take you down Take you down Take you down with me This life is like a razor When it cuts I bleed But it's in my hand and I'm doin' it to me Sometimes it's like an ocean And it gets too deep There's no way now you could rescue me When I close my eyes I'm fighting in the dark Trying not to break your heart Sometimes I get so high Falling is the only out I see And I don't wanna take you down with me You need to let it go now Before you drown I know that you won't understand But you need to let go of this hand Cause I'm going down And I don't wanna take you down with me I don't wanna take you down with me Take you down Down with me

[@egiadityayudhistira3973]

Artina naon bos?

[@noahcarver6072]

This is the story of my passed 5 years.

[@razradrenaline]

@DevZen it’s the song lyrics...

[@allmight_gaming1604]

This picture reminds me about saber vs Gilgamesh

[@outlaw832005]

Pretty sure that's what it's based off of. Which is FAR from the song's vibe.

[@danielarmendarisguzman2488]

Man... Seriously?

[@fahadjanjua2054]

Coz it is brother... at least fan art of them

[@brendanf7327]

That's fair

[@RoemelloDouglas]

Is that a smite thing?

[@shirinrahman1844]

I love this so much! Please make more . I come here everyday and listen to this 💕

[@Alphation]

So much relaxing....love your music...always..... its like i am sleeping into deep ocean...flying above sky......😊😋😍😘

[@user-md2xb7bq8n]

zzzzz

[@venihagnia5813]

Relaxing?pahahahahhahahah Im crying like a fking dog here cuz of addicted to hero-in.tht doesn't relax god damn it i wanna fking disappear Good song tho,bye

[@codytolliver]

This remix hits me right in the feels, makes you miss that one person you can’t let go 😔❤️💔

[@ChimkinMcCluckie]

I can't get enough of this song. It really speaks volumes

[@biogermscreation4437]

its almost 2022 yet I still get chills listening to this song Much vibe from this

[@irenemichuki]

The 1st 28seconds of this song are my current obsession

[@kennymcdermit4636]

i honestly really love this, i just sit here thinking about everything and just realize everything is better and everything just works out thank you for having this keep up the amazing work!

[@johncooper9727]

I'm blessed to be able to hear music like this.

[@IllumiMusic]

Such a dope remix! 😍

[@deconstructingnarcissism3062]

@@phoenixcustomrifles1430 i can all too well unfortunately :/

[@ibrahimhazazi2313]

@@phoenixcustomrifles1430 محج

[@jasonbernard9012]

Dope remixes and then a dope mashup*** lol

[@chrome-chan9914]

I'd say the remix is actually better then the original xD

[@notrya91]

@@chrome-chan9914 agree with you

[@rebbecahisrael2631]

Love it 💙💙💜🎵🎼🎶

[@APixieNinja]

This Take You Down remix hit me harder than the original. 😢😭

[@user-ph9tk7bv3p]

nope

[@love-yh8ki]

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[@love-yh8ki]

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[@mrwhale7997]

Did I say something wrong? Did you hear what I was thinking? Did I talk way too long when I told you all my feelings that night? Is it you? Is it me? Did you find somebody better? Someone who isn't me, 'cause I know that I was never your type Never really your type Overthinking's got me drinking Messing with my head, whoa Tell me what you hate about me Whatever it is, I'm sorry Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I know I can be dramatic But everybody said we had it Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I'm coming to terms with a broken heart I guess that sometimes good things fall apart When you said it was real, guess I really did believe you Did you fake how you feel when we parked down by the river that night? That night? That night when we fogged up the windows in your best friend's car 'Cause we couldn't leave the windows down in December Whoa Tell me what you hate about me Whatever it is, I'm sorry Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I know I can be dramatic But everybody said we had it Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I'm coming to terms with a broken heart I guess that sometimes good things fall apart Overthinking's got me drinking Messing with my head, oh Tell me what you hate about me (about me) Whatever it is, I'm sorry (oh, I'm sorry) Yeah, yeah, yeah (oh, I'm sorry), yeah, yeah, yeah I know I can be dramatic (I know I can be) Everybody said we had it Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I'm coming to terms with a broken heart I guess that sometimes good things fall apart

[@lokeshvarkumar2705]

Seems 👍

[@RaynoK]

Amazing tune!

[@juliexleonor]

This picture goes perfectly with this emotional song! 💜 💜 💜

[@0fov234]

Fr

[@rickrond370]

This artwork...

[@garrettzwar4369]

His shoulders don’t seem right

[@lianmei1520]

Arturia.😭💓

[@tamonoverao263]

Can we talk about the wonderfull art in the back?

[@lost_166]

Love it it just so good

[@salwinchester5063]

I can't stop checking you mrmommusic, thank you.

[@troyyetman9228]

You ever know somthing was over before it even begins? .. you try to push it off saying “that won’t happen” but it always does... every time

[@timberstove7029]

Your not alone, if you can accept the shit things in life for what they are only then can you start finding joy in starting something new, and when it finally lasts you will be stronger for it and a testament to your own ability to persevere even in the bleakest times, surviving is half the battle, what you do when the dust settles is what will forge you in the furnace of life.

[@godofsaiyanz2617]

Manifestation plays a much bigger role than people realize. Its alot of work trying to make it work and it only works if you want it too... but I do understand what you mean about knowing that it's over before it begins. Allowing yourself to Love tho is very important too for Your Own Self. Even if it is the Wrong one you have to go thru these experiences to Find out what you want out of Life once you've had enough you can always walk away. You are in control of your Destiny. I love you my friend and I hope you make good choices in life Much Love from U.S.A. a Native American of the Americas 👑

[@Ferindel]

I... am here for you Troy.

[@Madmatt18]

@@godofsaiyanz2617 thank you for writing this. a month later its what i needed to hear.

[@cloverdog85]

I love the artist that jade the pictures it’s amazing.

[@eng.abdulrahmanjamal1968]

The same opinion bro

[@bi2428]

what is ...........jading a picture?

[@cloverdog85]

@@bi2428 typo lol

[@chrome-chan9914]

Sabor is pretty cool eh? Also knowing as Arthur in the fate series.

[@excelsior8682]

WLOP is an amazing artist. Check out their other works, he's evolving.

[@anushakarol3210]

Just wow ! Im so stunned by the lyrics , so beautiful !

[@greedynarcist7078]

Damn the tempo is so perfected ♥️♥️

[@jackhdz2506]

Both songs represent both of them qwq

[@AirwaveDrumandBass]

The best two remixes of the album!

[@rahmakareem4888]

I love this version 🤩

[@oynlengeymer2434]

The song and this image together... it's hitting me hard right now. :'(

[@eng.abdulrahmanjamal1968]

So right

[@sinon3042]

u like the image?? xD

[@eng.abdulrahmanjamal1968]

@@sinon3042 actually yes

[@theperpetualmaverick812]

The best song I have heard in years

[@optandeso1333]

a very good choice of art to represent the songs

[@ArtaMallard]

Title: Take You Down . . The best music, i like and love you❤❤

[@sumitparashar6674]

Wt a lovely remix n composition...refreshing and rocking..!!

[@margaritadelay1315]

I can smile n sing with it now ☺️ it don't hurt 💖

[@prabhuram8976]

Niceee ♥️ No matter what , when ever I play this, it feels amazing

[@MallorieByrneAP]

Here are two songs from the "Ascend remixs" that I like the most. 👍👍👍

[@BuffaloGamer77]

Love take you down. Has so much emotion to it and I could just see someone loving someone so much they have to let them go to save them. Good things fall apart hits home for me. "Tell me what you hate about me, Whatever it is, I'm sorry" ----I''m coming to terms with a broken heart.

[@BuffaloGamer77]

@@ogsrxni1977 To me it feels like a pain in my chest that wouldn't go away. I couldn't eat, no will to do anything, just wanted to stay down and nothing could bring me up. Nothing could save me and I just wanted to be left alone. After though I reflected and I feel like I'm worth way more than that. I'm too good for her anyways and why was I even upset about it. So glad I made through it. Listening to Zedd and Jasmine Thompson's new song "Funny" gets me in the zone where I am.

[@anna-fi3yy]

take you down is about illenium’s fight with his addiction, but i love that it can interpreted in different ways!

[@sen7459]

kinda looked like violet evergarden

[@blayze1934]

@@anna-fi3yy with addiction is connected more problems :) Every problem makes another problem. Because of ur addiction u can lose someone who u love. I would search this in his song, not only problem with drugs. U can love someone that strong that u want save them and hurt urself the most and just let them leave You.

[@smitpatel2421]

If you want to listen " TAKE YOU DOWN " song in 🎧 8d version. Please visit to my KZbin channel 😊.

[@emmanuelchisambwe1743]

This song made me realise that ...no matter what; people will never understand you 100%... I was filled with suicidal thoughts ...I was feeling almost nothing I started posting suicidal posts on my socials but people said am js looking for attention...this made me more hurt 😔...I died inside .Its a miracle that I'm here listening to this piece of music that changed my life and I'm still breathing because of this song ...IN THIS WORLD MENTAL HEALTH IS UNDERRATED.

[@ban_droid]

The world is hard, to survive, you'll need a reason, if you dont have any reason, then search for it, search it hard until you find it, god bless you my friend 🙏 be strong 💪

[@endiraengtipi9478]

It's really good to hear d music n voice too..........

[@user-zk1ix4ec2j]

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[@DerlChur]

@@user-zk1ix4ec2j am i having a stroke?

[@ghosthookcc2050]

this art is insanely good, I love it.

[@go_fuck_yourself]

Looks like WLOP, look him up on DeviantArt :)

[@usamamuhammadnadeem6868]

Gilgamish and Saber from the Fate/zero series.

[@abilofficial2082]

Good Things Fall Apart❤️😍

[@SemiDivineOne]

Not something I normally ever talk about but this hits me at such a deep and powerful level. About ten years ago I was going through latest stages of bad relationship headed towards its end. I started taking pills and I knew the dangers but it just felt better to not hurt. What started off as weekends, turned into every day and that turned into multiple times a day and that turned into me getting fucked up at every possible moment I had at my disposal. I could see where I was heading and knew I was walking a razors edge. One misstep and over the edge I'd go. When finally sick of it all and wanting to stop, I realized I was now in the mits of a full blown physical addiction to pain n killers. Instead of trying to get fucked up every day, I was instead trying to just not feel sick and horrid. I'd lost a lot getting to where I was but fighting through that while trying to still exist in life was mad crazy. Ended up costing me my career at the time, many of social relationships, most importantly though, it cost me sense of self worth and confidence. During that entire time there was only a small few that knew what I was battling. As much as it was effecting me, I was still able to keep up the facade to most everyone that I was ok. People knew I was struggling with depression but assumed it was all a result of the terrible break up I had gone through. My mom, my current sig nif other, my brother and sister were all in the know though and I'm mad blessed for that looking back. Lyrics from this song encompass perfectly how I felt so often. It took me a couple years but I finally got myself off pills. I never slipped towards anything else like H but I can see and fully understand how a person does. If not for the physical addiction and withdrawal, I would of quit two years minimum before I did but they are insanely tough and hard to get passed. Every slip would start you back at one and that was just really tough. It took me an additional 5 to 6 years to finally reach the other side of this terrible dark and seemingly bottomless ocean of despair... But I made it. It's something almost no one will ever know or understand and I'm ok with that. I did some things I'll never not feel guilty about but I also got to the other side where almost no one else I know that found themselves in similar situations was able to do. I carry that as a major personal accomplishment and source of strength. The fact I carry it secretly, stuffed away in the most private stocks and places inside, serves as something no one else can take from me. Its been a little over a decade since all that and every day gets me a little farther away from that pit I dug. I still haven't bounced back professionally or even found a solid direction in that regard. It's like the entire experience changed everything about my being. I will find my way even with that at some point, meaning career and profession. Until then, whatever I can legit do to pay my way I'm OK with. When moment is right, a door or window will open and help usher in that next chapter. Crazy as this will most likely sound, I don't regret any of it happening. I regret some of my actions during but the entire experience? Not at all. Very few are ever forced to confront, learn, and ultimately accept the darkest and weakest parts of themselves. I turn 39 this coming weekend and feel I know myself on a level very few my age do. I don't even think many 20 years older could say the same. I believe this will help shape the second half of my story in a way, that without going through it all, wouldn't be possible. I'm excited for that. To anyone reading this going through their own struggles and hells. You can do this. Bite, scratch, claw, and fight with everything you've got if your wanting to win this battle. You're stronger than you know. The damage that those closest to you might recieve during is often something they'd never trade. Real love means they'd walk through hell with you if it meant finding an exit together. Let them. To Illenium, thank you. Your seriously mad talented and genuine. You really let your walls and defenses down to write this. From a stranger on the internet that might be lucky enough to catch a live show but beyond that may never have any direct interaction with you, You've helped in changing my life. I'm forever grateful for that. Anyone going through their own personal hell, you can do this. I'm there if you need it

[@jorobin8131]

Thank you for sharing your story ❤️

[@CYI3ERPUNK]

hang in there dude =] ; never give up =] ; GL on your journey ; 'I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself' - DH Lawrence 'Self-Pity'

[@SemiDivineOne]

@@CYI3ERPUNK Damn, thank you kindly. It's something I've been able to leave behind me for the most part. However, just like every great battle, personal or not, it leaves its mark. I carry the scars of it all, some visible but most not, and I've come to learn they may never fully heal. They serve as a reminder though, of just how close I came to going over the edge and not being able to find my way back. They also serve as a very deep and personal reminder of the strength I possess. It took every bit of that strength to be able to break away from the cycle and eventually, learn to move forward. After living it, I've learned so very much. It cost me so much but in the end, I'm alive and that is more than many that have gone through similar things. For anyone going through their own battles, or those growing weary from the damage being close or loving someone who is causes, things can get better. It can't rain all the time. I've grown a deeper empathy for those struggling with these kinds of things. If physical withdrawl weren't so all encompassing and a about impossible trying to balance existing within a "normal" life while going through them, there would be far more standing on this side of the shit with me. Gotta wonder if Purdue and other pharms are looking at that and seeing potential profitability. It gets harder and harder for them to stay profitable while avoiding lawsuits with current pain medications. If they ever created a drug with minimal side effects that broke the physical addiction without the all consuming hell of withdrawl, they'd make absolute bank imo. They'd make massive profits once again from many of the same peoples that got swallowed up by the tidal wave of OCs over the last decade. Would also bring a positive pr campaign and message from organizations many look at as corrupt and wicked. It's a win, win in my mind. Till that day though, it'll remain a dream, and I will silently carry the scars and wounds of dancing with devil. Thank you so very much for your kind words and encouragement. Gets easy to feel overwhelmed with all the ugliness and shit of the world we see and experience on the daily. We at times, lose sight of how amazing and beautiful life is because of all that. Then out of no wheres, you catch a comment from a random internet stranger and are instantly reminded that there's so much more good than bad out there... More light than dark. It's just that all those that spread darkness are so much louder and in your face. I've got mad respect and love for anyone that spreads the love and light. My deepest and most sincere appreciation.

[@altairlopes4853]

you take good songs and make them even better

[@chase4618]

I was trippin the first time I listened and it was magical

[@cxtiezz7073]

same

[@deconstructingnarcissism3062]

Most beautiful thing I have ever heard especially the beginning. Ive been through hell the past few years and I almost cried at the beginning.

[@KraySW]

💯

[@jhumphrey4620]

Loving the vibes

[@musiccloud6830]

I am a big fan . I love his music so much I love the songs lily,alone,faded and hope

[@alicehenson7109]

Hits Hard!!!!!

[@so4ye519]

Both songs and background fits perfectly specially for saber and her wish .

[@Kyrik]

im glad i was born in this generation and able to listen to illenium and nurko

[@anshumanchandra295]

Damn even the art style is so pretty

[@TheFates222]

This Take You Down RMX - Holy Smokes!

[@smitpatel2421]

If you want to listen" take you down" song in 🎧 8d version. Please visit my KZbin channel 😊.

[@APixieNinja]

Ikr? Its got tears running down my face.

[@rachelcarlisle5456]

@@smitpatel2421how do i do that

[@smitpatel2421]

@@rachelcarlisle5456 search my channel name in youtube 😊

[@CrimsonSlayer7]

i see illenium or nurko and instantly click. I'll have to check out william black now!

[@InfoThree3]

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[@user-or9hu1qc8q]

What an intricately beautiful remix.. just tremendous. Really emotional

[@HaloElite]

Just freakin' awesome!

[@ShePlaysSixStrings]

Love this song

[@Ronnil.]

love this songs, great remix music.

[@memememes2717]

this intro always give me goosebump, NIce

[@BarthNW]

Nurko = 🔝⚡💯

[@bdhd206]

Best song I've heard in a while, thanks.

[@gaidyjesusgomezguillen9266]

i love it the initial presentation... this image is awesome

[@HamSandvich]

why do all of illenium's songs mashup so perfectly with eachother?? 😂

[@shadowrayTV]

I know right? He has a kind of a flow to his music that a few can match... I don't think that there is a single ILLENIUM that I hate. Be it any remixes that he does. All his songs grow up on me. It's just so beautiful.

[@rantautips9604]

Only heart can feeling the song!

[@muhammadfarizwanbinrusli4781]

The Beautiful Of The Melody I Cry #Love

[@sid_berry]

Sometimes the only one who can understand you is a song, these two songs are life in this moment

[@lucasdaniel-kc1dr]

Her voice is more than beautiful

[@xskillzdatki11x]

Goosebumps

[@buntyrajkumar5979]

Gilgamesh & Saber background picture... Awesome... ♥️♥️♥️

[@anishatasnim9907]

BEST ONEEEEEEEEEEE BESTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THISSS!!!!

[@sepiniworld]

Não sei explicar o que essa música me causa... É demais , um pouco de alegria e tristeza, não sei ao certo. Super curto.

[@lyrys3277]

sinto a mesma coisa

[@karthikar9377]

WOW.....Whoever made this artwork is true legend....

[@harajukuoni4806]

Karthika R saber vs gilgamesh

[@Asenata1978Wind]

❤️❤️ Piękne 🎤💕

[@ansanwrld1778]

Great rmx ❤️💞

[@alambatuvillage5284]

Nice Music for listening at work time

[@conormcmanus.1858]

Touched by the hands of a musical God

[@jamiekapule7833]

Die a hero..or live a villain

[@musiccoffeechannel4389]

Perfect sound!

[@amey6126]

I guess lockdown isn't that bad after all

[@akshatmoga9351]

The editor is a genius for adding the above pic with the first song, both are made for each other

[@goodlyfes]

NURKO and ILLENIUM pls collab and go on tour together!!

[@someoneprice2371]

10/10

[@DistractionAtlas]

How to create the perfect remix: ILLENIUM TRACK = P E R F E C T I O N

[@thanyarataom2935]

💕

[@mohammedabderrahmaneaddani7139]

Saber with illenium omgggg

[@dosu5064]

This remix took my lovest part from both songs

[@notrya91]

This is so Beautiful . My new Drugs

[@spaintrix9360]

Beautiful song

[@Neuronerd314]

MiTee one inside danced with my hand . love this.

[@sherimoore7840]

Omg i LOVE this remix✌🙉😻😘

[@BuzzbeNine]

I love this song❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@ayrtondeingruber9059]

Perfect picture !! Awesome mix ! ^^

[@DaddyySage]

Omg! I Was Not Expecting This Heat 🔥