Inside Out - Duster (Slowed + Reverb)

it gets better man
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[@oliviamcvicker2683]

Man I feel like everyone here relates to each other in a way. We’re all suffering through some sort of loneliness self pity heartbreak and nostalgia. Or just a feeling of emptiness and not knowing what to do anymore. Always feeling like we’re just messing everything up. This song embodies it all. Hope things get better for everyone here

[@xoliloquy]

punpun pfp :((

[@oliviamcvicker2683]

@@xoliloquy feeling just fine again today

[@joshua__1207]

Said so well

[@kylebos6442]

Hope it gets better for u as well

[@deathcart4446]

Yeah you have punpun pfp i understand

[@girlonline7706]

I hope it gets better man

[@internetgrl4958]

Ikr im so tired of everything i wanna give up so badly but i cant 😟

[@girlonline7706]

@@internetgrl4958 same here man, how’s your week been so far?

[@girlonline7706]

@Blair Haygood it really does

[@Travelogueduster]

It does.

[@TheOmegaBiscuit]

it will get better, one day at a time :)

[@kiandodd5670]

I'm terrified that this might last forever

[@alicjab.226]

It wont, fortunately and unfortunately nothing lasts forever :)

[@kylebos6442]

Me too honestly

[@lukeyule9624]

ur profile photo funny ash !! you have a bright side. you’ll get through it!

[@lilflip9611]

@@Opiumdrainer why? Just why? I feel for you bro, it does get better. Wherever you are, whoever you are, wake up tomorrow and know that you got someone who would like nothing more than to see you KILL IT! Rooting for ya bud, I know you got it in you!

[@willzdabeast6942]

It does

[@ff3815__]

things will get better it doesn’t rain forever

[@bekind690]

no it won’t it never does

[@anaaa.19]

@@bekind690 yes, everything gets worse before it gets better :)

[@mainlymusic8418]

im getting help :)

[@luciabrandi3170]

i love you

[@keithosborne6203]

I hope so

[@asyaceylin]

i feel like im drowning and this feeling is killing me slowly

[@kemiiwii]

I feel you..

[@R.............]

Ja ouvi isso em outro lugar

[@adhyakejriwal]

I’m numb....I can’t feel shit

[@ramenyummm]

change your analogies people! it's merely chili. The spice will linger but can't remain long and will dissipate eventually :)

[@davidlennox6242]

hey man, hope you didn't kill yourself, but if you're still feeling down this video of a singing Italian hamster always brightens my day :) kzbin.info/www/bejne/fnnChqSujLmfbpo&lc=Ugx5ymKbaQOR7YK367d4AaABAg.9RxaP2T55PK9Rxbj1lSV39&ab_channel=colossalmusic

[@ezravegapaetow3724]

I’m convinced this song is what heartbreak sounds like

[@mileystar.0]

for me, this song sounds like when your family is all falling apart, and you can’t do anything about it.

[@jtw9998]

to a T my guy

[@h.e.a.v.e.n.l.e.e]

@@mileystar.0 ^^

[@simplynobody6287]

If I could choose one song, just one to be the symbol of my life. The constant notes being played in the background I would choose this one. Because this song is the embodiment of what it feels like to feel the way I do. The feeling of watching your own life pass right before your eyes. Feeling like you have no purpose being on this earth. Feeling like your drowning in a huge ocean of regret. And that feeling of loneliness everyone feels sometimes, except constant. This song is the only one which will be able to describe all of those feelings.

[@oscarnav8]

i hope you eventually find something, so far I've kinda felt the same. Just always remember that despite shit, life will always be worth living

[@catscatsplayz4969]

Today I got gum in my best friends hair,got suspended and I cut my hair like she had to cut hers. I feel regret for even living.

[@Finn862]

If you try to stand, you’ll realize you were never drowning in the first place

[@eugenefanboy4478]

I was there, and I'm here again. But I know this: The worst possible thing you could do in this life, is give up. As someone who's been through the ringer, it gets better. It might be impossible to see. But even just one day in the far future where you get to smile and watch a beautiful sunset with people you love, makes it worth it imo.

[@YeetoHead69420]

im not depressed i just like this song

[@channel11-n]

Chad

[@alicjab.226]

me too

[@DrLongSchIong]

Based

[@deeznusr]

yasss same

[@misterobtuse6242]

same

[@doomerbloomer6160]

Didn't know Inside Out could be more beautiful

[@modulatorhustle]

it sounds even better live

[@jacqueline2944]

Duster is so underrated

[@paristhemoth1641]

GOJO?? 😳

[@jacqueline2944]

@@paristhemoth1641 YES HAHAHAH

[@TaciturnusIneffabilis]

i honestly wish it to stay like this. normies ruin everything

[@jacqueline2944]

@@TaciturnusIneffabilis fr

[@Hi-fx5nx]

People will say they care for you but when you tell them about your problems they laugh and some people just dont pay attention to you until it gets bad. And eventually they think your fucking better and that 'you got over it'. It fucking hurts man

[@habhoooba]

:/

[@shinjago6897]

Hope you better now. : )

[@froggysoda]

thx for this

[@kylebos6442]

Ive just got this sick and anxious feeling in my stomach all the time for the few years. I fear it will never go away

[@funnemonkee]

“things will get better” they said...three years have passed where’s my better??

[@liamsengers9199]

Just around the corner man the corridor just might seem a little long

[@anto3625]

Man : (

[@doomerbloomer6160]

@@liamsengers9199 Right on. The secret is to keep moving. We're all gonna make it

[@capseamonkey6609]

LMAO I CANT TAKE U SERIOUSLY WITH UR PFP AND THE COMMENT

[@grrlfromhell4595]

it’s what they all say. it’s just empty words but i genuinely hope you’ve found something that makes it worthwhile staying

[@tomedwards6208]

Here I go, down the slope of self pity. I just can't be bothered anymore, I just want to grab someone so hard and never let go. I hate the person I am, I'm horrible, I hate everyone and just live in a pit of hipocrisy. Literally all I've got is music like this, that just makes me even more sad but a sense of hope at the same time. I'm a loser, I pray I slip away in my sleep every night. Just another depressing stain on this world.

[@georgiabath1358]

this hurt 2 read:( i hope things look up for you love

[@tomedwards6208]

@@georgiabath1358 thank you for your comment (I know I'm late, I just came back). Things look up, but then we're all just sent spiralling back down again. I want to escape this feeling but my loneliness and nihilism grab me and I can't shrug it off. I hope you're well.

[@georgiabath1358]

@@tomedwards6208 loneliness is definitely the worst feeling i’ve ever felt tbh. really hope things start looking up

[@meh3083]

@@tomedwards6208 hope things get better man. changing our mindset and thought process is the hardest part. i understand how you feel. it's hopeless, emptying, just.... indescribably hazy and numb and awful. i know i'm just a stranger but in some way i hope you know i feel for you. please, carry on, and you will eventually build your wonderful future you couldn't have thought possible before.

[@tomedwards6208]

@@meh3083 thank you. It means a lot, you're a good person. I hope you're doing well in your own battles. Even though I don't have a clue who any of you are, it's so nice to see there's people out there who do care.

[@eGToastyRecording]

If you're reading this, it will get better. You are not your mistakes, or your past. You are the whole kaleidoscope of you. Give yourself time, patience, and love. Give yourself the gift of the present moment. Develop an agenda of radical self-love.

[@lillianweston1638]

It doesn't. It hasn't. I feel like I'm getting better and then it comes back. I want everything to just end, to fall into a pit of darkness and peace forever.

[@Viper-yv8tw]

Same man, same, but I guess until the lesson will be learned this shi ain't going nowhere

[@charlenemoore4301]

I listen to this every night before I go to sleep. This shit makes me so sad.

[@611gay5]

Try a six flags ad

[@Jexviquz]

@@611gay5💀

[@eeeeeeeeee160]

THINGS AIN'T GETTING BETTER WITH THIS ONE 🔥🔥🙏🙏🗣🗣💯💯💯

[@paw759]

Will I be able to speak After a stiff drink? Would it break my panic? Would the sweat stop pouring out? Slow and deliberate With her words She'll walk through My heart Those eyes light a fire In my stomach Fall apart From the inside out

[@josiahgarza7337]

☕️🗿

[@wad-km4cn]

sick pfp

[@eugenefanboy4478]

​​@@josiahgarza7337☕️😢 am I right?

[@lovekillslife408]

feeling like this is so terrifying , feeling like ill never get better. it’s so hard having a mindset like this and trying to have friends, a relationship and getting more closer with family. this feeling i have in my stomach is such a horrible feeling, it’s so draining.

[@なぽりーぬ]

音が低いバージョンも素晴らしい！

[@josephpmorganDA]

I remembered my dog Griffin, so vividly because of this. Went through a breakup after a 9 year relationship in 2017. I had a tough span of 6 to 7 months. I got into a real dark place. You know who was always there, Griffin, through it all. He knew exactly how I felt. It's not the breakup that hurt me. It was when Griffin left me that really hurt, we didn't have much time together due to cancer. Boy oh boy, we had an amazing time together. Griffin, thank you for the memories, forever old friend.

[@kono4455]

fly high griffin 🙏🙏

[@TheWierdKid-ls2xm]

I know how you feel man My dog also died of cancer

[@josephpmorganDA]

Thank you ​@@kono4455

[@josephpmorganDA]

​@TheWierdKid-ls2xm absolutely sorry for your loss as well

[@breeeegs]

There was a girl I used to have feelings for who didn't reciprocate. For months after she was gone, I thought I was seeing her everywhere, even years later I sometimes still feel that way. If I did see her now I'm sure I'd experience the anxiety and stomach-turning that this song describes.

[@axellikesmilk695]

Same bro, same.

[@TheWierdKid-ls2xm]

These things happen, just leave them in the past. After all, God gave us the present for a reason

[@Noahwalter-e7b]

Same

[@keysifyy]

This is my only escape from this unbearable pain

[@githevanderlely3148]

pls make a 1 hour version because i love this too much

[@isaquecmaia293]

I feel slowly falling in an empty void while listen to this song

[@jeromybyers9122]

i come back to this often ,, it doesn’t really get better but i’m getting by

[@ookpookie]

as long as you can get up for the day that's enough. You are amazing

[@g_0i1ll91]

I wanna cry

[@keithosborne6203]

Kinda funny how a KZbin comment section can understand me and relate to me more than the people who are closest to me

[@ForeverBlooming-05]

I never expected a heartbreak to be so harsh. Hes all i think about since after 3 months. I still have to see him everyday with his new girl.

[@hytekr1]

What’s insane is the saddest people are always the ones to become the best and strongest in the end. We got this fellas. Keep shuffling them feet forward

[@RonfireRed]

This song made me cry a lot 😢

[@hurtadoguzmancarloslimberg6985]

para mi esta pieza tiene un significado demasiado profundo que no es solo mio tbn es de mi hija nos traspasa el alma de ambos al mismo tiempo como una hoja enorme de vidrio.. de saber q yo no puedo estar con ella por culpa de su madre ni ella conmigo.. pero al final nos volveremos a encontrar y esos momentos serán los mas felices de nuestras vidas.. el tan solo correr nos ara reir porque ambos nos necesitamos y llenar ese vacio nos ara feliz con tan solo mirar la misma flor al mismo tiempo.. lose porque la esperanza nunca se pierde esta ahi.. en esta cancion.. añorando que algun dia llegue asi como esta cancion llego a mi vida.. ARLETH!!! YO TE ENSEÑARE LO QUE ES EL MUNDO REAL!! DE UNA MANERA EN Q NO DUELA TANTO.. LO JURO

[@user-oj3vv1yz5w]

Last night I met my ex after not seeing her for 5 years. We both moved to different parts of the country after high school. I did her wrong. I didn't cheat on her but I wasn't good to her. I was so excited to finally see one of my oldest friends again after such a long time. I arrived and she was with another guy. A guy that always tried to get with her in high school when we were dating. I had a panic attack but just swallowed it and walked up to the bar and said hello. I was ignored for a while while they took shots. After 30 minutes of silent humiliation I ordered a double shot of whiskey and put it down and went out for a smoke. Came back to the bar and we began talking and within 45 minutes we were behind the bar holding each other and crying all over each others nylon bomber jackets. She told me it looked like I've had a rough 5 years. She said she could see it in my eyes. We wiped the tears and headed back to the bar. I was still panicking and threw up in the bathroom. She took shots with the other guy and in between would speak to me about my astrological chart and movies. The bar closed and I left without saying bye. She ran in front of my car and made me roll down my window. She kissed me goodbye and told me to call her the next day. Right after she got in the car with the other guy and went to his house to smoke weed. I screamed on that drive home until I tasted blood. Stayed up for 2 days straight and I ate nothing. I called her the day after I saw her and she ignored my call and text message. This was my most listened to song this year and it became a self fulfilling prophecy. I usually play bass but I guess now is the time to learn my first song on guitar.

[@eGToastyRecording]

I'm sorry you're in pain about this. I hope love and light find you soon if they haven't already :,)

[@user-oj3vv1yz5w]

@@eGToastyRecording Not yet but hopefully soon. Thank you.

[@en4x]

damn bro im so sorry about that, fuck bro i hope everything gets better for you, this might not help that much but i still wanna try, love you bro, hope everything gets better.

[@user-oj3vv1yz5w]

@@en4x thank you. I appreciate it. Really.

[@TheOmegaBiscuit]

Had something like this on a smaller scale, songs not crazy hard on guitar and feels nice to play along to, hope you're doing better man much love

[@AmityIsSleepy]

I know it sounds like I’m just saying it, and you’ve probably heard this more times than you can count, but I promise that it really does get better. You just need to keep fighting. I truly believe in you. You don’t know how strong you really are. I know that you can make it through whatever you’re struggling with. I know it sounds corny and I know it feels like I’m lying, but I promise you can make it out of this, you will be happy/happier at some point. Promise me you’ll keep fighting. Please.

[@JontyMc999]

I'll try bro it's my last term and I rly hope I pass it so I'll keep you updated

[@AmityIsSleepy]

@@JontyMc999 You got this!

[@norgesveldet]

this song hits hard after 8 hours of sobbing.

[@juicewrldforeverlivesinour1786]

This is the second day in a row I’ve had on repeat…

[@julia-nc1ll]

you guys here too...?

[@ed2365]

Listening to this song in college with my band mate Will forever be one of my favorite memories. I hope you see this, lazy eye! Been doing some thinking. I think we did it big. Remember when I played this at the open mic to you and about 2 other people? Must have been special. Miss you.

[@El.Packito]

Idk why I’m listening to this it’s just beautiful and helps me escape the cycle I go through, everyday it’s just college study work college study work every single day and I’m getting tired of it man I just want to go on vacation and see my family and not worry no more man it’s been 7 years

[@1up412]

Same playlist …same day… endless loop of loneliness until the void closes in

[@Doro_xmt]

Good song to relief and rest for a while keep it up

[@g0rezzz400]

help i feel like im dying

[@jiminsforehead8570]

hold on

[@elio7045]

i love the comment sections under songs like this one because i know i'm not alone

[@phroged2255]

I'm gonna make it, it's just a bad phase. I will make myself proud

[@ookpookie]

I believe in you

[@cup8548]

im not

[@Mrgoatluckygamer]

@@cup8548you still here?

[@Mrgoatluckygamer]

Yes you are!

[@mother8107]

i jus dont wanna be alone anymore

[@ookpookie]

Hey man if you want to talk to anyone im open and will listen

[@orbitron3574]

makes me wanna cry every time:( truly have sm love for this song

[@pemacde1074]

I just want to give all of you a big ol’ hug man

[@TheWierdKid-ls2xm]

That would be nice.

[@Mrgoatluckygamer]

I would like that

[@hector334_7]

thank you ❤

[@Nanochamp_the_guy]

This song makes me think "I just want to experience happiness in my life again."

[@nathan_4]

mood asf

[@kvyqiii]

duster is like calming but depressing as the same time. It reminds me of sitting in a quite before a storm type of weather. Reminds me like you’ve lost everything and everyone so you’ve only got your self sitting in the field thinking about all the mistakes you’ve e made in your past life

[@twistedshadow2161]

i feel like this will never end its been months now and still no change

[@G30RGI3]

I just want to be held man......

[@nadiaarghh]

hits me

[@Cunningmist]

It's just so hard to accept that she's gone. I'll never be able to see her eyes shining, her tepid smile, to hold her hand while we're walking, to pick her up for going together to the seaside, even to feel her head resting on my legs... I can't even remember her voice.. I miss her very, very much, even if she totally destroyed me. I'll never forgive, and i'll never forget.

[@newgeneration474]

You think that will make you happy. Think about it for a second. You miss the feeling. Not her. Try to find a new good feeling

[@metishan-9ol656]

I thought I got over my social anxiety at the age of 14 but I never did. I worked on myself a lot. Everytime I meet up people it's the same. My hearts beats so fast and I breathe so heavily. Maybe one day

[@ThatAstro]

I hate when people say it gets better, the thing you're sad over does, but you're life doesn't, once it's bad it's forever.

[@cgarcia3137]

I should’ve just kept it at friends...

[@laluko01]

Life just gets too much nothing and then builds up till there is nothing again . I dont know what Im trying to say when im this spaced out but I love this song and hope others in the comments are still here and if anyone wants to talk lets talk and vibe .

[@oliviamcvicker2683]

yeah man

[@sophia5537]

I’m here listening to the song I listened to while I escape from all my problems for the 4567893rd time, typing while I wait for my nail polish to dry, I just can’t seem to understand why no one will listen just to me, not as a girlfriend, or an annoying sister, or a disappointing daughter. Recently I had received a message from my ex saying he was thinking about how I was months after I ran away from our last relationship, hoping he would text me just that. All I wanted was a “I was wondering how you have been” and that’s exactly what I received, I felt like I was entering a new chapter in my life, that this would all be over after years of thinking things would never get better, being suicidal since I was eight, abusing harsh medications, eventually getting off of the medication I needed completely entering an episode that I’m not sure if I’m still in or not, corona starting when I was only 13, deadbeat dad not coming home, dealing with a manipulative “friend” I had for 4 years, just meeting a new group of people who all had their problems right after moving back from Cali, etc. It was like nobody could share my so called dreams, which meant none of it was happening. I’m not a people person not trying to sound “edgy” or anything of that sort, it’s not a big deal but It’s that one boy. I was with that boy during the time not telling him a single thing in my life trying to keep up with that smile but I was so tried, didn’t want to be in that relationship at the time anyways, and he was off on his board while I was sitting here getting lost more and more by the second. I tried to hint him but he didn’t get it, and it’s not his responsibility to listen to my problems as we barley knew eachother. I just wanted someone to not hear, but listen. But, I got that message from him after months of attempting to escape from it all. We hung out after about a week of talking, eventually realizing it was all to get back with me, not to listen, or at least hear. It was how it was the first day I ever met him, it really meant nothing. After hinting him I wasn’t stable to be in a relationship still but wanting to talk, he hadn’t texted me back, it’s not his fault. But i’m realizing it wasn’t a new chapter, just a quick sentence. A fun one, I miss being with him but it’s even funny when I realize I’m just 13 how serious could it be anyway. Not very.

[@kidonthemoon1247]

Wow, im so sorry you had to go through that. Trust me it gets better, you only have one life and if you end it, thats it. No more chances. So please stay with us. If you need someone to talk to im always here. Stay safe 🖤

[@modulatorhustle]

kick the tragedy

[@RockyStonester1]

i can understand how you feel so lost, but i know from reading this youre a really smart kid, seriously. and you should know your pain is real man life is full of choices, and really youve only got two: to invest in your health and wellbeing, or to invest in your sickness. this is true forever, from the day you take your first steps until the day you die. and believe me health is much more important. take care of yourself, please, you are still so young and have so much time to figure shit out. also, personal advice: as much as you can, dont use social media, it is absolutely not necessary and that shit will utterly destroy your perception of the world, only feeding your depression further.

[@bush9091]

Feeling disconnected from everyone is the worst

[@Y0za]

Can relate

[@TsukiRyuko]

Couldnt relate more my friend.

[@isaatturki8569]

stramm bruder

[@tobiasbruck4321]

I was once in your shoes, deoressed and with no direction. Trust me when i tell you it does get better, but not from its own. You need to do something for it. And now i can listen ti this beautifull song and just be happy that i fought. And you can do it to🤞🏼🧡

[@tobiasbruck4321]

towards everybody feeling down, like a lot of people in this comment section.

[@modulatorhustle]

@@tobiasbruck4321 Have a nice day man

[@tobiasbruck4321]

@@modulatorhustle you too my friend.

[@meh3083]

thanks, i'm sure this will help someone. it certainly has helped me a little bit

[@jmilesc]

Good words man

[@sinigangnahotdog7187]

This song makes me feel some type of way specially after leaving everything behind even the man I love the most it honestly hurts so much but he deserves the type of happiness, but that happiness only appears when I'm gone.

[@morps47]

im not even sad anymore i just love this song and listening to it while driving around at night in the summer

[@juliii21]

No matter how hard I try, I always come back to this same exact video. Every time with new stories, every time with new people in my life, every time with the same tired head. Every time with the same wish, for it to forever end.

[@Trde-maternity]

i know man. I'm sorry i can't be someone for you. you don't deserve to go through that alone.

[@BloxFruitzNakamaForver]

No grandma, girls don’t think I’m handsome.

[@audreyy6980]

I’m so tired of everything.. School, Family problems, not knowing who I am, always being alone. Just tired and I don’t things are gonna get better tbh.

[@Y0za]

It's been 3 years since you wrote this comment. I hope you are doing great now. Time heals and I hope it healed your wounds

[@georged7583]

one day

[@viggosk9378]

This song makes me wanna tear up man 🥹👍

[@leemoee9867]

idk bout u guys but this shit make me straight smile cheek to cheek

[@deeznusr]

this song pulling me down

[@deeznusr]

i feel like drowing

[@deeznusr]

I MEAN DROWNING

[@Elliott_MB]

Sometimes I feel like this song is the only thing I can relate to rn.

[@Jexviquz]

Just so you all know, it may be hard, but it’s not over yet. Keep fighting. The rain will stop soon

[@dylanolson6077]

12 years ago I met a girl in the 4th grade who I have been madly in love with ever since. We always were so close to each other but for whatever reason we never really were ever in a relationship. It’s hard to describe how I feel about her and I know she had feelings for me because we talked about it multiple times and we just never for some unexplainable reason were ever together. We always stayed friends and had relationships with other people over the years. We sorta fell off after high school but about a year and a half ago I started seeing her again like every week, and we shared our first kiss after 11 years. It felt unlike any other girl I’ve ever been with. She was going through a lot of emotional trauma at the time over her last boyfriend and I only wanted to just be there for her, and after sometime she couldn’t be around me anymore because her heart was just somewhere else. I have never cried so hard over a girl, but I don’t blame her at all. We didn’t talk for months and months, until I saw her one last time at a bar and we just talked about everything that was happening between us, and I haven’t really heard or seen her since then. I see she has a boyfriend now and is doing much better, and I couldn’t be anymore happy for her, however I can’t help but beat myself up everyday over her. I waited too long to make a move and I was too late. she moved on and now I will spend the rest of my life wondering. I dream of a second chance with this girl, even if it meant going back to the start. She was the one. but I guess its time for me to grow up.

[@reimufumo4465]

I want a 1 hour perfect loop of this shit man.

[@CHRISSSPPPYYYY]

There's 2 songs ive listened to from this album and I love it

[@tavafinau7853]

* Storms Don’t Last Forever *

[@strawbrykeik]

no one truly knows how my state in mental health is, talking about it will just annoy them it's not worth telling

[@johruu7738]

i can relate bro.

[@februh7448]

Ong bruh

[@chepecabro3043]

Here i am... Listening to this at christmas

[@jeffmen8266]

This song sounds the the gradual end of sadness.

[@nobody_30-s6o]

2019, I miss you!😢

[@treasur6569]

i feel like i’m losing the definition of happiness gradually- and like i’m drowning. and i’m slowing forgetting who i am. and i’m slowly giving up

[@keithosborne6203]

It’s a repeating pattern of emptiness and I want to end it but I feel like there’s so much more to live for but ever time I tell myself that I can never find that thing that seems to make thing worth it

[@panchikocut]

i am so fucking exhausted

[@the_gifted1928]

nice song

[@rangel2709]

This song makes me feel something that i cant feel naturally

[@x6kk]

Without music, life would be a mistake

[@M1Y4MUR4s]

For all the ppl that's struggling, i hope that, you can overcome it.

[@rasmanawari6687]

it feels so heavy inside

[@random88667]

i wanna be genuinely happy again.

[@random88667]

i wanna be genuinely happy again.

[@samss721]

dawg

[@modulatorhustle]

woof

[@381tuana9]

till this day this song still warms my heart

[@jujutsu127]

Every time I hear this song, I remember a quote saying “ just because you see smile on someone’s face doesn’t mean nothing going on”

[@F.B.I-jp4uw]

y'know what I'm gonna watch Scream, I'm gonna play this song whenever I watch scream.. it fits perfectly.

[@cravehd1613]

Im just wanting to be happy for once. Havent been happy in a long time. Ive been so hard on my self these past few years. Ive been trying so many new things and none of them are working. But i know someday it will be worth it. All this pain im going through is only gonna make me stronger and better person. I met a beautiful girl this year and i totally fucked it up. I cant ever forgive myself. Seeing her with someone else just cuts my heart in two. Im left alone picking the pieces of my heart trying to put it back together. No matter how hard i try it doesn’t seem to be any better. I dont want to speak to her anymore because i feel i hurt her. But shes the only person i think about everyday. I never thought i would fall in love. Why did i fall in lpve i haye myself for that. I told my self i wouldnt and look at me crying over a girl who doesnt even care about me. Im so stupid and a loser what even is my lofe. Sometimes i wanna end it but theres so many people counting on me to be successful. I cant let them down i gotta keep going this fire inside me cant be put away. Even if the whole world is flooded in water my fire will still be lit. Im going to break the curse in my family and bring peace. Im going to change everything and im going to be the best version of my self. Ive put myself through hell these past few months trying to improve. It feels like im stuck. The one thing that im really proud about is i never gave up on goals. Im still trying till this day no matter how many times i failed. I wake up the next day and go at it again. I know one day im gonna make my Younger self proud. Its hard coming from an immigrant family because no one really understands me. It feels like im alone but theres so many people around me idk how to explain. Maybe some of you guys understand. I just want peace in my life but i have to reach my goals first. I know i will if i put my all into it. I used to smoke not knowing that i was just clouding my feelings. Im never smoking ever again. I wanna live for as long as i can. I wanna meet my beautiful wife and i wanna show her the world. I wanna protect her from this cruel world. I wanna just be there for her when no one else is. I wanna be the one she turns to when she isnt feeling right. I want her to feel loved like she is the only girl in the world. Amen may god bless you all and just smile and laugh because we only live once.

[@levantinedoomer2317]

"Fall apart, from the inside out" The theme of the last 8 years in my life

[@Ben-jc8tq]

i still remember my first girlfriend. in 4th grade, she treated me like i was human when i didnt feel like anything. we would hold hands all the time, we did shit together a lot. then one day around 5th, she moved away without telling me, and i got sad. I would make her gifts, i even stole for her, but it was all for nothing. she came back around middle school, 7th grade. she was completely different, and treated me like i wasnt human. and it hurt so bad, despite being surrounded by people that cared about me this time. she changed for the better, for herself, overall. and honestly me too. but there are some small moments when i think about her, even in high school, and why/how she changed. i always think about what happened. how can someone treat you like you're worth so much to them, and then crush it? I'll never understand what i did wrong. and honestly a part of me doesn't even want to know, because i know i wouldn't be satisfied with the answer.

[@ookpookie]

hey man You didn't do anything wrong. it was all on her nothing on you. you just keep going because I know for sure you'll find someone even better.

[@Ben-jc8tq]

@@ookpookie thx man. youre a real one for this. thank you for replying, i appreciate it