Only honest and genuine man ever I came across in the realm of so called spiritual leaders. Didn’t know him until KZbin had showed his talk in recommended videos in the year around 2013 I guess.
@rajasekaran18742 жыл бұрын
I feel the same J.K is a real human being.
@thattaikrishnan55232 жыл бұрын
What u gained, because he is addressing the entire human race.
@kevziro Жыл бұрын
There are many honest and genuine people. I don’t think you have explored many of them.
@imthere2141 Жыл бұрын
I feel the same, it was so hard to find someone... who... if isn't profiting on your sorrow, has really gone threw the all absurd thing. :'- ) !
@imthere2141 Жыл бұрын
Is "SEE MY SOUL " irony then? I guess so. In my personal research from Krishnamurti's talk, i read that soul, "ANIMA" in latin, comes from greek "ANEMOS", which only meat "WIND", and was therefore not MY..., and didn't actually mean anything, just silent passive sensitiveness.
@dkozz1 Жыл бұрын
His words here is like a flower. As it opens its beauty unfolds.
@Vishalsingh-nt8sw3 жыл бұрын
JK can't be referred by a friend or a family, he needs to be discovered like a Truth. Love you Sir, listening to you itself is a meditation. Makes me so calm and happy.
@whybye75722 жыл бұрын
Jk said you cannot have light from another so while you listen to jk, you would accept his words as knowledge and then you are conditioned with knowledge. Plz sir see all this. See the main point.
@rajesh16182 жыл бұрын
You are 100% right.for I feel so.What a person are you!!!
@21centuryboy1711 күн бұрын
Actually
@josephcobb62283 жыл бұрын
"your own perceptions set you free."
@Cappylady55520 күн бұрын
His teachings has radically transformed me and now with the tools I am grateful for every breath , every sunrise , and every conversation. He is a great gift to humanity. I now live on a soul level in my meat suit. After 50 years I am set free from inner sufferings. ❤
@zoetele1234 жыл бұрын
I wish I never saw a video of this man, but I can't stop listening to him. I'm sad, happy, but wiser than before discovering the real me.
@AshokMishra-zn9sr4 жыл бұрын
How one can comment when he see him image less
@saucemasterflex4 жыл бұрын
The real you will find hapiness. If you havent found hapiness then you still haven’t found the real you. Keep looking buddy, don’t give up.
@dnt0004 жыл бұрын
You are the universe yourself, everything more than that is your imagination, created by thought, the self. I am happy that you found answers.
@samyaknagrale3583 жыл бұрын
Me too
@summer121513 жыл бұрын
What's the real you ?
@brocklesnar29229 ай бұрын
I LOVE You my dear Jiddu krishnamurti ❤❤🎉🎉😊😊😊
@frankbruno85563 жыл бұрын
This is one of the clearest presentations of Krishnaji. Every word resounds in beauty and freedom.
@Freelove-v7u6 жыл бұрын
Thank you we all my hart J. Krisnamurti.
@RaviPp5211148 жыл бұрын
The comments already appeared on the teaching, is worthy of pondering. In this sifting of essence, we feel that there are real seekers of the actual, so, here I too am indebted to the official channel. Let me thank you profoundly sirs !
@pramodjondhale381 Жыл бұрын
Have seen this video several times. But I never ever heard this kind of talk by anyone else .. He is supra genius.. Just by listening to this you are enlightened instantaneously.. Something out this world..
@OrganicPlayfulJoyful4 жыл бұрын
The self is pure, not contaminated by our labels or images. We need the drive to pursue the truth, that the self is the truth. Rest(outside situation) is a sweet illusion.
@-lunte.3 жыл бұрын
the moment we use the word self to describe that which is beyond the self, it is still the self (an image)
@blacknblue79125 жыл бұрын
0:19 A legend was born again.
@philcorfield4039 жыл бұрын
To be free of attachment. To possessions, reputation, relationships etc.... It seems that for any of us to be free, means that we must also be free from attachment? The speaker said, "When you see that one of the major factors of the self is attachment and you see what it does in the world..."If you see the truth of attachment then that very truth is so; it is actual. Then you're free from it. Your own perception sets you free.... will you do it?" It rings true to me.
@edzardpiltz63485 жыл бұрын
The self is the attachment. And the the resistance, which is attachment to not wanting. 😘
@thattaikrishnan55234 жыл бұрын
You have commented on k¹ messages. That means you have commented on k's messages but if you have actually understood k's messages then there won't be anything comments.
@thattaikrishnan55234 жыл бұрын
Read as any comments
@zan78384 жыл бұрын
lmao cant relate.
@kolarglimpse63842 жыл бұрын
Whole world wants to fallow his words.
@jinyoungyi2094 жыл бұрын
Thank you for all human being's love & wisdom.
@yashshah59037 жыл бұрын
Love you JK.
@tommathew76845 жыл бұрын
To avoid the self/ego, we must free ourselves from the known. Krishnamurti
@brianchamberlin672410 жыл бұрын
Namaste to justin bieber. We all thank you for sending us all here.
@rajasekaran18742 жыл бұрын
J.K the man of highest intelligence!
@yopueelin73004 жыл бұрын
“Your own perception sets you free.”
@adityarajchauhan79494 жыл бұрын
When sense of responsibility arises , it arises as sense of responsibility for oneself , hence self remerges , simply there is no freedom from self , only union of self with everything.
@nodifangproductions5462 жыл бұрын
beautiful
@joginderanand76182 жыл бұрын
We have accepted self as a reality There is no think er with out thought Attention perceives In pure perception no center is formed One realises that self is a bundle of memories This requires alert attention
@Rajat-qo7ot5 жыл бұрын
His way of talking is not for everyone,he is not a guru of masses. He can only be understood by a few and if you are understanding his essence you are quite lucky and blessed
@shalukapadia62095 жыл бұрын
ABhishek UPadhyay You are right Abhishek, but I would say this is for all the human beings, some may have known it before but some will gonna hear it first time but those true word if anybody will hear, would be working as a magical experience for the listener. If somebody is listening to it, that means somebody has initiated the process of transformation by listening those magical words.
@rishabhsen844 жыл бұрын
Aren't u strengthening the self, discussed in video, to be recognised by girls i guess.
@zan78384 жыл бұрын
how am i to determine if i am lucky LOL
@seamustackney9953 жыл бұрын
Lovely honest man
@prasadmulupuri87145 жыл бұрын
Nobody, to my knowledge, has delineated self and its multifarious manifestations and mischiefs the way K has done.
@johnsouza0015 жыл бұрын
The whole path of Buddhism is No Self or Emptiness !!! What J K says, is what buddhist practitioners practice on 4 seals.
@graphstyle4 жыл бұрын
Raj Barry far from my friend, very far from.
@nlnchary5 ай бұрын
person becomes nihilistic and irresponsible towards own wife and responsible towards other wife. such behaviour cause trouble to him. since speaker isnt in an institution he did it.
@amanmishra66173 жыл бұрын
Who is here in 2021 listening to all his videos?
@purohitchintan663 жыл бұрын
Me
@johnmoss38103 жыл бұрын
👊👍
@tageschance55013 жыл бұрын
You say, the only way to be free of that center within is to love without motive- every moment of life. Then I’m free, finally ❤️🕊
@pramodjondhale381 Жыл бұрын
The moment you realised that you are happy then you are already unhappy..
@BetAgain23 жыл бұрын
Self is a bag of lifeless past incoherent experiences causing only conflict and confusion. Being free from past, the known, demolishes self.
@bhupendratomar45752 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much
@thattaikrishnan55234 жыл бұрын
Free from everything. Now and now is always now. Is it possible. I have done gone through. The tragedy is thought always. We are taken away by thought process.
@clodhopper-dodo2 жыл бұрын
"We" are Not taken away by the thought process. The 'we' itself' is a thought . 'we' can never understand that 'we' is a thought unless the observer is above the level of thought. How can it happen? Ans: Only when there is no observer in the observation. There is only observation without the 'we' - the observer
@premanesbit9 жыл бұрын
Where there is so called "self"(ego) there must be conflict. More you try to get rid of it, more you are strengthening it. Is it possible to detach oneself from everything? From your own experience, from your own "life". Will you do it? Yes, you can. Then you will dissolve yourself into the Heart of God and realize that you live forever.
@yogeshthite56535 жыл бұрын
Then you attached to concept of God. We have habit to take resort something.
@thattaikrishnan55234 жыл бұрын
But thought process dominated. We never be able to remain in the consciousness state. This fight goes on.
@dabeezkneez87163 жыл бұрын
@@dekz8 and is 'forever' not in time?
@ramangottumukkala73713 жыл бұрын
Brilliant ! Thank you
@cecileqwertyuiop0986 жыл бұрын
message understood ! we're doing it
@gameofthrones56555 ай бұрын
❤love this clear light here❤
@bandugupta585 жыл бұрын
Jiddu is absolutely awesome!
@ramdhiwakarseetharaman59892 жыл бұрын
If I can fully take in just this video in, I can be free from a lot of suffering. 🙏
@solomit17 жыл бұрын
Your own perception will set you free
@pillettadoinswartsh49746 жыл бұрын
not if it maintains its own status quo
@solomit16 жыл бұрын
Yes i agree perception will only set you free if you come to the understanding that JK talks about
@espritvacant17615 жыл бұрын
❤😍🙇🍀🌞K. le plus logique des humains que je connaisse😚😘❤
@yogithashetty25874 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for bringing this to us 🙏
@faisalalishah6311 Жыл бұрын
Me 2
@misha12006 жыл бұрын
Imagine there's no countries It isn't hard to do Nothing to kill or die for And no religion too...
@moon5darkness5 жыл бұрын
Michael Kotov like living as animals in jungle with no laws or regulations?
@vinayrash5 жыл бұрын
@@moon5darkness Animals have no brain
@moon5darkness5 жыл бұрын
Technically they do
@gevanlappido13045 жыл бұрын
Micheal you may want to check out the talks by Yuval Noah Harari on the positive sides on nationalism. Having countries and the belief to be connected to people who I don't even know is not only bad but also have many good aspects which helps to live peacefuly together
@gevanlappido13045 жыл бұрын
@Abdulrahman Al-Anazi I feel it does relate to. Seeing the bad side of nation/patriotism or for example money is easy. And there are many examples of its destructive power. So strong that it is easy to forget that it has light and good sides as well. It let us cooperate in great numbers without knowing everyone personally. Do you know the person generating your electricity or your ambulance driver or store clerk? He only does it since he get paid and a nation build roads. People carrying for people they've never met and never will. It also can be used to hate people you've never met. But I don't feel it is the fault of nations or religion per se. Yuval gives a bigger picture to understand better 😊
@Prashanttt709 ай бұрын
Anyone in 2024😂
@Aadityakumar00 Жыл бұрын
Legends are here to watch j Krishnamurthy first video😂😂
@thattaikrishnan55234 жыл бұрын
Is it possible to be aware of everything at a glance. If it is possible then it is awareness. If not the mind is caught in a particular pattern and there is repeating of thinking.
@tommathew76845 жыл бұрын
The "me" is operating all the time.
@rohitsingh-tm2si3 жыл бұрын
listening to you ...like a real motive
@gemsgalore91993 ай бұрын
I love u factually.i really mean it
@madhiazhaganranjith51123 жыл бұрын
Ego driven only to find ego is false
@super7ace4 ай бұрын
It doesn't mean we have to shrink/narrow our senses & mind.
@SrikanthIyerTheMariner3 жыл бұрын
I think "Wow I have understood the amazing words from JK " and my ego pats itself on its back. Back to square one.
@rajmars3 жыл бұрын
I dont think you have understood. You are still identifying yourself with the tag in your second name
@Manuel-zz1nz3 жыл бұрын
Wonderful
@davejung523 жыл бұрын
What a powerful lecture.
@gemsgalore91993 ай бұрын
The unique thing is k never give any reference of anyone means no direction.
@cricketabstract30995 жыл бұрын
Thank you sir
@vidyaranyavijayapura11215 жыл бұрын
It is false sense of security that drives one to myself. If that false shield is thrown out as first step then it may be possible to get rid of this
@tommathew76845 жыл бұрын
You, me, I..... leads to economic and social conflict.
@kamesh78184 жыл бұрын
Thank you.
@tommathew76845 жыл бұрын
This is the thesis of "The Godfather" series.
@madarauchiha84593 жыл бұрын
Explain
@asharanikamble65942 жыл бұрын
Actual spiritual human being😊🙏 infact he is God,,☺️
@allpointstoone43464 жыл бұрын
Great
@kartikg.kartikg2 жыл бұрын
13:05 the soul of the video
@_XY_2 жыл бұрын
Krishnamurti knows the Matrix
@gnpantulu19194 жыл бұрын
" Sometimes " I feel Mr JK. suggests us to be adumant or hard to the human psychology . But how could He , be a seeker of the Truth , without Self ?
@CliffBarz3 жыл бұрын
Leggo my Ego
@ericnicholson8706 жыл бұрын
I was probably there in 1979 listening to this. He is a spiritual iconoclast. I stick to zazen these days! Listening to K may start people off on a spiritual path but in the end it a 'lot of words'
@livinglife33525 жыл бұрын
did you observe self is disappear
@prasadmulupuri87145 жыл бұрын
i feel the other way. Others are mere words and opinions.
@andypoudel63775 жыл бұрын
When one does not see the facts it becomes bunch of words not the other way around.
Me or I culprit. Attatchment is the problem.No division, no conflict
@andrewwellesley87474 жыл бұрын
We have his words but up to us what do with it.
@duncantoms11 жыл бұрын
justin bieber sent me here and i'm glad he did
@himanshiteesha32247 жыл бұрын
Duncan Toms how?
@kevinbk60283 жыл бұрын
Himanshi teesha in his dreams
@K-BAAP Жыл бұрын
And he have recorded for that as well.
@_XY_2 жыл бұрын
👏👏
@Olga8888 Жыл бұрын
❤
@preethikrao2 жыл бұрын
🙏🙏🙏
@zainabalnakeeb27484 жыл бұрын
I am really trying to understand but I feel like I am lost
@nangotoman94294 жыл бұрын
And how you're doing by now? Did you keep trying?
@livinglife33523 жыл бұрын
Sensitizing ourselves with expressing greatness of words/someone is also another form/kind of self. Human is much much complicated on earth.
@mayanpictures30002 жыл бұрын
Stay with K, he’ll show you what’s going on with you
@julianal.573 Жыл бұрын
💐
@livinglife33525 жыл бұрын
Is it like listen to heart instead of me(self) and act upon or react?
@ff_hao5 жыл бұрын
to be aware of the whole relationship of all. and with that follows pure compassion.
@anitapaul2302 жыл бұрын
To be able to perform action doesn't it mean that there is at least tiny bit of identification needed?
@srikantramasubban3777 Жыл бұрын
Non attachment & emerging of responsibility
@carolinatopa96333 ай бұрын
I want to be free for this center of me It is possible?
@masonart49502 жыл бұрын
Here's my problem with his philosophy.... If I were to make no effort and just be myself, what if I am a murderer? A thief? No effort, no trying, means being exactly who you are right now amd following every impulse. And we are full of sin.
@nicbarth38382 жыл бұрын
oh ya I agree with you for sure, although I think he meant it towards the audience, hehe murderers well you could say that they are full of self since they couldn't give up wanting to murder, although?! like you were saying its directly because they don't think enough about others a spontaneous empathy that doesn't stretch as it comes from your own perceptions of self in having awareness of ones emotional state, kinda autosignosia which may impede perspective taking, although this kind of empathy can be learned as a result it will generate a once diminished percept of self state thats created with more nuance, or greater affect. I think it is both that self is inflated in desire hence impulse control problem and diminished in spontaneous and possibly understanding as it comes from muted foundation. hope this helps
@unikrator2 жыл бұрын
Hello, MasonArt. You pose a good question. The following is my comment to the best of my understanding of J. Krishnamurti sayings on "effort". Do not take my response as representing his teachings; that is something you have to engage on your own. So, respectfully, here goes: If you are a murderer/thief ("mt" for short for this discussion), any effort to change means the mt is still the actor. No matter what effort the mt makes, the mt actually is perpetuating himself/herself/itself. The actor/effort-maker and the act/effort are inseparable. So, effort continues or pre-supposes the existence of the effort-maker, so to speak. But, consider: What if effort is non -existent? You indicated that if you make no effort, you are what you are (an mt). Consider the opposite: If no effort is, (if the mt is not acting/"efforting" or no effort of any kind is made at all), who or what is there - since the mt is absent? The mt cannot be where it does not make nor generate no effort. So, what is there, then? We can say that the mt "IS NOT", or 'no effort' does not allow any actor to arise. Be clear, too - that 'no effort' is NOT from any 'effort' by an actor. Rather that 'no effort' is an outcomet of awareness of the nature of effort. One cannot make a state of 'no effort' come about directly...trying directly would ironically involve effort, wouldn't it? No, 'no effort' is cessation that comes from being aware (beyond just knowing) of the nature of 'effort' and 'no effort'. Hope you continuing questioning and coming upon realizations on your own. I do NOT wish you good luck on your journey. Unnecessary for what faces you. Go it alone. So, in the truest sense, 'no effort' ceases the continuation of the actor, and thereby his continuing state and 'muschief' (as K is fond of referencing to the misdeeds, confusion, etc. we engage in...your so called 'sin'). And, what state/being comes when you make no effort? Roughly, it's nameless because it is what you've not come across before. It is nothing familiar. (And it will NOT be an 'experience'...that's another discussion.) All these you are free to delve into, apart from my discussion.
@hajeradli34643 ай бұрын
❤❤❤
@truthseeker44915 жыл бұрын
Attachments= self....
@momocita77 Жыл бұрын
Fasting day today 💚🙏
@raghurampotturi4 жыл бұрын
Though he is Great speaker and perfectly told about self... Surprised to see he did not understand the eastern /indian approach of same thing. And many times he pointed that few particular approaches r incorrect which indicates he did not understood the depth of Buddhism/ Advaita vedanta. Here he asks to think.. eastern approaches says think and if u cannot think then here are another ways like Bhakti /meditation etc..
@netgalactic4 жыл бұрын
//particular approaches r incorrect which indicates he did not understood the depth of Buddhism/ Advaita vedanta. // Which is totally wrong of you. He has mastered Buddhism and all of the Vedic including the Upanishda during his leanings with the Theosophical Society. But he never utters a word about it. But he has understood the true meaning of the freedom which you may have not! Do more research on him and make a judgement about a man of that caliber! You have proven your level of understanding with that, sorry.
@sanekabc8 жыл бұрын
He says that where there is division there must be conflict. I don't get that point. I am a Greek. Do I automatically have a conflict with a Frenchman? I am not the tree and I have no quarrel with the tree. Can someone elaborate?
@ChaoticaExtreme8 жыл бұрын
Conflict and division has nothing to do with anything like this. If it did, there would be constant conflict with every other we come into contact with. This is why different types of ego exist. 'Self' is not created. It is planted at birth. It is not possible to remove it, nor even be free of it. All that can be done is to try and be the best one can. It takes constant effort, or 'mindfulness' as it's called. The true inner will always burst through though at the first sign of emotional disturbance. As an example, it is JK's ego that makes him behave the way he does. He is being his self, just talking in this video. He is attached to what he believes. Detachment means what it says. It is not a creation of the self, nor even by any kind of notion of a higher self that is the true 'you'. It is bestowed. Nothing has any affect on it, nothing overcomes it. All this reference to other nations, marriage and such is meaningless. Such is just material thinking. True detachment means all other members of humanity mean the same to you, Full stop. Forget belongings and anything else you heard. Nothing else need be said.
@ChaoticaExtreme7 жыл бұрын
Bornix Nyine It is far more basic than that. It comes down to individuals that one doesn't even know. Never met, no matter what wrongdoings they may have done. Would you feel the same way about a mass murderer as you do your own family members fx? This is the true meaning of detatchment. Unconditional is the associated word. For all JK's wise words, he still spoke often in material terms. I do not use the description of 'higher self'. I am a human being that is here to represent the 'interests' of something that cannot be described. A proxy. That is all.
@ChaoticaExtreme7 жыл бұрын
Bornix Nyine Course it's Ok. We're just kicking things about. However... What you are saying is not based on your own truth. Not your own thoughts.You are quoting theosophy. Blavatsky etc. Blavatsky makes no sense to me. Leadbeater was involved with JK. Leadbeater spoke of Kundalini. He knew nothing of it. Even JK doesn't agree with Leadbeater on the subject. Such material is of no value to anyone. How can that possibly be part of a discussion on anything except what others have stated. Where does that involve the realities of what 'higher self' is? You state that you are God incarnate? How do you support that?
@ChaoticaExtreme7 жыл бұрын
Bornix Nyine "If we knew everything and therefore our own truth, there wud be no need for learning from any1. Naturally this is not the case" That's just according to you though. One doesn't need to know everything. If you have no own truths, how do you know what you learn is relevant? Truthful? Blavatsky's words obviously mean more to you than mine. Is it because the person is a well known? A celebrity? "This divine spark is the same for you and all life but you need to investigate the matter further to clearly understand it." Now you are telling me I don't understand. I already understand it. It is not the same for me. When I die, It's finished. A new body will replace this one and my 'Soul' will continue to evolve. I am but a vehicle. God incarnate I am not. You can't place that on me since you already stated you are still learning. I ask you again.. How do you know? Are you not aware that one's own truth comes from within? Do you have no doubts at all about the things people tell you? Obviously, where these big names are concerned you don't, but you should. I can listen to who I like, but the final choice of whether I accept the words is mine.
7 жыл бұрын
ChaoticaExtreme, good point, you can listen to whoever you like, but the final choice shud come from within. Totally agree. And there4 u shud not be prejudiced with my learning from Blavatsky or theosophy at large, for I have found the greatest help in my quest. One's own truth comes from within. Totally agree. Even James Allen says let man come and find rest in the heart of Christ which is the center of his own heart. You bliv that you are only a vehicle, I bliv that my physical dense body is my vehicle, the horse which I ride on. And yes, my soul after death continues to evolve but we must be keen on wat the soul is and wat it is not. And this is where it is important to understand the Septenary nature of man if you bliv that such a thing exists anyway. If you don't find the relevance, it's up to you. Bottom line, let it be as you prefer to know truth. Perhaps btn me and you are politely lost in the mirror of context in which we present our discourse. But to each his own for every man can always find truth within his own heart whether by learning from sm1 else or simply through his own experiences that are free from superstition and prejudice. For these two can be delusional and increase the pain of ignorance. I am not the one tell you wat is and wat isn't. You already know only if you'll look deep inside you. And so let it be for every ardent seeker of truth Peace and blessings to you and everyone. This is surely my last submission
@cmanjularao98333 жыл бұрын
K.....❤️
@LABoPHILE Жыл бұрын
👍🏻
@free.as.abutterfly10 жыл бұрын
his teachings seem to me very similar to Roberto Assagioli's Psychosynthesis..?
@metricmoo10 жыл бұрын
Bieber's?
@gyan17915 жыл бұрын
Or Roberto internalized and added from K
@artofjourney Жыл бұрын
Brain attached to objects as an image because your cosmic begins has not absorbed into the physical state that the brain has created in your mind and therefore cannot process information from the outside without any input
@_XY_2 жыл бұрын
How to unplug from the Matrix
@mocifear45983 жыл бұрын
This mans energy is not right, he talks a lot of nothing, we are bound by our attachment to this world, this is the human condition, we do need to learn true realities, which will help us look in as an observer, but we can not detach the self, the self is the means to observe and learn, without it you create a psychopath! So his teaching is dangerous, we need to learn to be contented and be an observer looking in, this perception is good for looking at the higher perceptive, ego is important so is fear and love these emotions help us navigate in our world, our goal is to keep it all in balance, that’s the great mystery!
@nicolasaronmoralesobreke93162 жыл бұрын
nunca lo doblaran o al menos meterle sup en español ?
@sanekabc3 жыл бұрын
Well, we carry on with the status quo because you have given us nothing to work with other than to see why making an effort is counterproductive. Most people will not see beyond this paradox. But if you do then it has been done. Not you have done it. I know you see this problem, this conundrum K. Yet, you make it sound like it is my fault that I carry on with the status quo.
@seamustackney9953 жыл бұрын
It's not your fault .it is the same for us all.look at the misery that was put into us Gods education society it was all bull but now we know our problems that is in some sense is liberating.b wishes
@srikotiaryan88886 жыл бұрын
damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
@rohitsharma12852 жыл бұрын
15:15 😂😂😂😂 bruh
@jeremyseligson22205 жыл бұрын
You left out that which speaks feels etc, that is the self. You did not id a center but a miasma - at least at the start
@sanekabc3 жыл бұрын
Will you do it? But without effort, which is a paradox. lol
@cutyoursoul43983 жыл бұрын
it's a paradox only for the mind. dropping the self is effortless, actually is more an effort to keep it hahahaha