IT'S ALL ABOUT ME

[@crissssseee]

one must imagine sisyphus happy

[@Looking_at_the_viewer]

True freedom

[@Amaleksspin]

Perfect comment

[@simonbedan139]

You made me laugh, but it felt weird

[@enter1323]

Camus was the first time I cried over a book

[@EvonneLindiwe]

I always do hope he is happy. :)

[@marcuscunha471]

This is such a human video. It is tragic, confusing, happy, sad, existential, yet beautifully relatable and inspiring.

[@moist8712]

I love that term, human video.

[@TerribleShmeltingAccident]

It’s satire

[@samd2862]

@@TerribleShmeltingAccident how

[@FallenHero85]

@@TerribleShmeltingAccident you did not watch the entire video, very very clearly.

[@TerribleShmeltingAccident]

@@FallenHero85 guilty

[@CheeseCipher]

he pushed the boulder to the top of the hill guys. he did it. keep going, ben.

[@bargamentosamuelleoc.1299]

and even if the boulder inevitably rolls down again, i feel like the wrinkle that has been subject to seemingly endless amounts of articulation- up and down and everything in between- will crease ever so slightly higher than any other time the boulder has reached the bottom of the hill. it's almost as if he's happy

[@mishlis3846]

@@bargamentosamuelleoc.1299 beautifully put.

[@Tron721]

And he shall do it again. We all will as we must find happiness in these small things Who ever reads this you are doing well and I love your dedication to keep going. Have a good day my friend

[@Mujergaga20008]

Awh

[@Wagon_Lord]

cheesed to meet you

[@cooperriehl944]

"To be perfect is to not be myself." This one hit home.

[@weihau5736]

i loved someone who struggled in a similair fashion as you did. to think they were worthless yet wanted everyone else to love them to prove herself otherwise. and when people saw through her, she pushed them away, thinking there was sumn wrong w us. she's self aware but she struggled to word her frustration, which led to even more frustration. i wasn't strong enough to withstand the brunt of her (self-)destructive habits; not for long at least and left. but in hindsight i think this video really helps convey her frustration. idek why i'm writing out this comment haha. no one's going to find it. maybe it's my characteristic optimism, she called it delusion. but maybe deep down -- i hope if there was only one stranger who scrolls into this it would be her. not just because i want her to remember me, but because if she found this comment, she'd have also found this beautiful hour long video that i think captures how she feels. along with the hope that this video provides her w any form of solace. so i guess really, algorithm do your thing and push this to her ty lmao

[@RedDenim]

I think peace will come for her too, you too

[@editusername]

hope this makes its way to her

[@smartwork7098]

At least I read it.

[@Aeiouaaaaaaaaa]

Your comment made me tear up, so it reached someone who needed it. I hope it finds her too.

[@TheTediousFellow]

Idk man people are STILL finding this comment

[@charlesconfino165]

“Love and fear cannot coexist. I fear myself therefore I cannot love myself” as someone who has constantly made huge mistakes in my life and am now living in fear that I’ll make another one, I felt this on such a profound level

[@fiat_ow7876]

Same. I know deep down I don't really love myself but at the same time I don't know what I fear about myself. Been a long journey of self discovery but I can't find it.

[@pixeltropolis4926]

This is what art is, what you've made right here. Pain into beauty. What a beautiful person you are. I know some of your pain, I've been there. You aren't alone and you are beautiful inside. This outer expression is a shining beacon of your suffering and triumphs in spite of it. Thanks, man. I'll revisit this for years.

[@TerribleShmeltingAccident]

I think you mistyped, instead of fart u typed “art.”

[@tubbytubic]

Dude your voice is so unique. Just something about the way you say things makes me feel a certain type of way. “Who I am is not a problem to be solved but a mystery to be experienced.” Holy banger.

[@benthomas9776]

If you like that quote you should read Dune. Frank Herbert has a lot of similarly good bangers, including that one.

[@dotexe6415]

His voice is so soothing. He could lull me to sleep, and the way he speaks just... offsets my anxiety. I don't even know how to explain it. I feel like it must be some kind of (good) brainwashing to have such important information spoken to me in a voice like THAT. And the quote is profound. This is what I mean.

[@dribanlycan]

ive always felt a lot of your content isnt just to the viewer, but also to yourself, a reinforment of things learned and things still trying to understand, i always love that about your videos, the feeling that you are pondering with the same thoughts you present.

[@Jhawk_2k]

A meditation on radical acceptance

[@zion6680]

I never went into these videos expecting to get healed and my problems fixed - So I have never been disappointed by a Sisyphus 55 created video. The endless speculation and deep dives into the psychology of man has and is still, endlessly entertaining and enlightening - and never portrayed as the absolute truth, just digging around to see what's what, and in that way you can never not come away from one of these feeling slightly more robust.

[@scottiusnevious5143]

Self diagnosing and self therapy is not helping yourself. You are simply riding a wave of emotion he brought using words. I think you need an actual therapist, and you should listen to stories of elders.

[@zion6680]

@@scottiusnevious5143 I think we don't know each other well enough for you to go and make assumptions about what I need, but thank you anyway hehe.

[@JohnnyTortel]

And yet it might be the truest of truths, because it's the human experience.

[@savageantelope3306]

Exactly but I find that it’s own solution

[@ovyas8758]

Literally me

[@thenobody9755]

The title of another video surely , I feel like there's something existentially terrifying about the literally me phrase , but I do think this video is relatable to alot of people there's a South African artist named Ed Young which seems to deal with similar tensions in a very intensely humorous way, there are some works which are just bizarre though 😅

[@phantomasuras]

Literally me fr fr

[@GuyFoxGuyFoxGuyFox]

Same

[@OzAbi]

He’s just like me fr

[@huev2439]

I cried at the end because we as people believe no one can relate to our suffering but we are all in fact so similiar

[@WarLoqGamer]

just 10 minutes into the video, and i can tell you, this is relatable to a scary degree. Especially considering i'm from Buenos Aires. I know all the places you've shown on the screen. I'm going through a similar problem. I get desperately lonely unless i have the attention of others. I can't conceive myself as worthy of love for a myriad of reasons, all of which i've been working all my life to try to "fix". And here i still am. I no longer hate myself, but it's hard for me to say that i am happy with who i am. I try to, from a more logical side. I can quantify all my achievments, i've done a lot of good things, but they're not enough. I'm afraid of making others uncomfortable, to the point where i can't tell a girl that she's beautiful, let alone ask her out. I keep on in an infinite cycle of throwing solutions to my problems, and eventually giving up. I'm trying my best to be at peace with myself, but i feel like i need to be ashamed of who i am.

[@MK-lz1bx]

Try listening to unreleased Mac miller

[@groovydiphenhydramine9707]

@@MK-lz1bxmac miller solves all

[@danielmcelroy4505]

🤲💛✨

[@f4rt989]

Yea this video hit hard for me to, I can’t imagine the extra weird feelings seeing your home environment play in the background is lol

[@xX-Frotnite-Player--Xx]

Where did your fear of making other uncomfortable come from? I have the same, and I often wonder that.

[@drewcrocker5127]

This is maybe the only youtube video ive continously rewatched and its both horrifying and enlightening to see how much i relate to this. Thank you for putting this into the world

[@MyachiTipsandTricks]

seriously the best man. i’ve been watching your stuff since college. i’m 25 now making pizza in vermont. i have other aspirations, but i’ve been slow kicking them into gear, but that’s okay. i feel not so alone when i watch your stuff. it’s been really fun watching you and your channel grow. whether this is your last video or you continue to do this for 20 more years, i’m glad i got to experience your art and perspective on life. much love

[@igooglemytube]

Lol - you're kidding right? xD

[@kkiko6111]

2:00 the song is Gyöngyhajú lány by Omega. Peace and Love from Hungary!😎✌️🇭🇺

[@logansmith1115]

I knew I had it on spotify somewhere but I forgot. Thanks!

[@odinpaxton2408]

Thank you for being articulate and helping others like myself understand things that we normally never would. Sometimes its so hard to tell what's going on inside but you surveil it with ease

[@violeteyeztarot]

Hi. I really like this video. Thanks for cr8ting it. I’m an alcoholic in recovery. I am an artist a single mom of 2 toddlers, survivor of domestic violence. I’ve been alone with my kids for 3.5 years. I relate a lot to your videos. And June 2023 I spent bathing in cold water bc I couldn’t afford to pay gas. I work for Amazon flex and back in college to be able to work as a k-12 art teacher. I like ur channel and your sense of humor. ❤ I relate to a lot of how you feel.

[@spazz6252]

hope you can achieve your goals

[@screechingcosby]

Keep hanging on

[@dogarumarius3490]

Heya, Violet! I am so sorry you are going through this. I hope you are alright and will soon become balanced in life and in being. If you need any help or advice please reply. I am a 22 year old student in Romania and would love to help you if you need it. Have a great day!

[@flamingaish]

more power and love to you and your family

[@igooglemytube]

"cr8ting" Lol - Irish Whiskey shall forever be your Friend :D

[@ikram_aka]

Self awareness to me almost feels like you know more then should, it allows you to be so connected with yourself you realize your lack of importance and purpose, you are but a grain of sand on the eternal beach

[@CptEmotionlessVODS]

I tried saying ‘I love you’ to myself in the mirror. I got it out and immediately broke down into tears. I never cry. It felt amazing. I said it a couple times and then laugh cried at how hard it was to say something so simple and easy. I love me and I don’t care if you do! Wanna know why I don’t care? Because I love you too.

[@tiagomoraes1510]

cringe and borderline mental colapse

[@poofy933]

this genuinely made me laugh thank you and i love you too!

[@CptEmotionlessVODS]

@@tiagomoraes1510 yeah just about

[@saikiranboddu812]

❤

[@blob1010]

​@@CptEmotionlessVODSthat is how we are

[@andrejpribis3911]

Unfortunately, I found myself at most points of this video. I cried most of it. You said everything i was afraid to hear but deep down knew was "true" about myself. Holy shit. I never could take myself to therapy, and I know I should, but I'm scared. Hopefully this year I finally will.

[@screechingcosby]

You can do it

[@notaperson9831]

As someone who has been in and out of therapy for most of my life, this channel has been better therapy for me than most therapists I’ve had lol. Some are good tho. 🖤

[@davidcrawford9026]

Don't worry therapy is useless and most therapists have room temp iq, save your money

[@xX-Frotnite-Player--Xx]

Why are you scared of addressing this within yourself?

[@andrejpribis3911]

@@xX-Frotnite-Player--Xx bcs it would be admitting that something is wrong with me. I don't like the idea of being the one receiving help. It's cyclical.

[@oouziii4679]

物の哀れ is convoluted enough without an ego. You're doing just fine

[@eaintemo]

I’ve felt so many of these conflicting thoughts in my life. I usually cap off my internal dialogue with “I’m overthinking it and should be ashamed of being so self centered” and it undoes all of my progress to find my sense of self. I’ve been accused of being overly pretentious, wordy, and melodramatic. Having my thoughts echoed through words makes me feel happy, in a more simple way. Thank you, ironically, I saw this video as completely selfless of you

[@yosh2248]

In regards to your comment on "I need to be perfect": i was talking with one of my friends about this random debate within my friend group whether my hair was brown or blonde (its brown). He just simply replied with one of the most heartfelt and genuine comments I've ever heard: "I dont know. Your hair color isn't the first trait your friends think of when they're thinking about you." That simple comment told me that i was enough. No dramatic speech was needed. Just a genuine comment from a friend saying "you are enough". I dont need to be perfect. My close ones love me for being me. I like me for being me. I dont want to be perfect. I want to be me.

[@bugglemagnum6213]

I would have been like all right bro appreciate that a lot but what about when you think about my appearance? like when someone comes across my mind i usually visualize them but i know not all people do that , idk definitely a nice thing to say but almost not related to the discussion at hand (not that he shouldn't have said it). not hating at all just kind of my first reaction.

[@yosh2248]

@bugglemagnum6213 nah bro, you're all good. The feeling of being enough is what I found to be more important that the feeling of being perfect. Because it is possible to feel enough, but it will never, ever, be possible to be perfect.thats what that interaction taught me. If I can be enough for others, then I can definitely be enough for myself.

[@gisele_for_president]

You’re not alone

[@Benjs242]

The part at 43:56 or so reminded me of this poem I read earlier this year: “Sure, there were times I was thankful for the cage; but what a life I would have lived if I had been free.” Really fantastic video, resonated with me immensely.

[@Dazuperstar]

Do you remember the title of the poem or the poets name? I can't seem to find it

[@Rosyandguildy]

@@Dazuperstar Second this! Would love to know

[@Lil1kv]

This is one of the few pieces of art that has made me feel truly understood and not alone in this world. Thank you for being vulnerable and making this.

[@joshuawhitley3923]

A masterclass in existentialism. There is no guidebook on life, therefore we write it ourselves. And that is the hardest part.

[@plants7932]

In complete tears by the end of it. Ben, you are indeed a mirror. I turned 30 just a handful of weeks ago and the last 10 years of my life has been attempt after attempt to stay alive in a happy way. 3 therapists, many drugs both pharma and otherwise, hundreds of books, but namely only one relationship. It is now that I am coming to head with myself in a way I never have before. Forget a new chapter of my life, its like I picked up a brand new book, one that I wrote before I even existed, one that I wrote just for me, and now as I'm reading it I find myself wide-eyed wondering if I have always been this person the whole time. It's like I was trying too hard in all the wrong ways to do the least. I had never felt much anxiety or fear before this time in my life. All my emotions are on the surface, ready to emerge at a moments notice, even with no notice. I feel myself purging and purging, i cry almost everyday out of fear, regret, love, self-compassion, hatred, ecstasy, you name it. But what's blown me away is how I'm not afraid to show those emotions, the fear is in something else, something so deep I'm not even sure I have reason to fear. Be well.

[@wd89601]

This sounds really posative ! I'm glad your happy and healing

[@notaperson9831]

30 is indeed a change. Just wish I had come to some of these feelings and realizations sooner in my life.

[@plants7932]

@@wd89601 very positive, all the struggle and hard work of my 20s paid off.

[@cianbroderick7733]

Just going to say that I'm envious of your ability to heal to the degree that you seemingly can. Over the last 3 or so years, I have read over 100 books, yet, due to some sort of disorder that makes reading a massive pain, it's never truly brought me joy. I'd trade any other issue just to be able to wake up and know that the act of reading won't bring me mental and sometimes physical nnoyance

[@igooglemytube]

@@cianbroderick7733 Lmfao - YOU are a star! reading brings you "physical nnoyance" - you summed up the whole video mate :)

[@benrgifford]

its not often that I watch/listen to something that makes me stop and reflect on my own journey. I'm kind of in a rut. This video was a reminder that other people are experiencing a lot of the same things that I am. Its ironic that often in our lowest and most confusing moments, often we find perspectives that help us make sense of the absurdity of reality, both our subjective as well as the objective.

[@beneaston1099]

You have helped me. This shit made me cry, there's a reason the comments are always saying this feels personal. This shit was so personal and thank you, you've made me realise some things about myself.

[@annakarchina5606]

you dont understand how many times I rewatch this video...

[@drmontano9414]

This video is about viewing yourself in full awareness. Its the beginning of journey into happiness.

[@louisho2522]

Bro dropped the hardest hour-long existential edit and thought we wouldn't notice

[@BudoBoy0007]

I absolutely adore the bee and sunflower animation at 38:12

[@pbj2727]

I cried from this video. I think I just empathize. I hate using the word because it assumes I can be in someone else’s shoes. Yet I truly feel empathy. Because even I feel the same shame in being able to empathize as I almost assume Sisyphus would as well.

[@burner887]

This was great, love the random but coherent jumps in styles and narration

[@enr4g3dhippie]

Thank you for making this. It may have come out 8 months ago, but it came to me exactly when I needed it.

[@mayherlive]

this video really really calmed me, watching this video, i kinda wanted it to go forever, i really liked to think that "hey its not just me who's going through this shit, there are others too!" i dont know why it felt good but it did

[@Laugh._.Legend]

This video is art. I love how articulated you are and your words resonate so much with me. The different segments of the video replicating the types of youtube videos such as vlogs, lets plays, math lessons, etc. is such a cool idea as well. Your channel popped up for me during a rough time in my life a year or so back and ever since then I watch almost all of your videos religiously. You've really got something special here. You've got my validation (not that you should need it)

[@brandonmorin1179]

You are literally my favourite channel on KZbin and this was an incredibly heartfelt and vulnerable video to watch. I'm in awe of your bravery

[@saint5105]

This video is tragic, painful, existential, weak, pathetic, beautiful, relatable, kind....many more adjectives that ultimately sum up to being human. This was my first exposure to sisyphus and I'm glad I found him. Great Video!

[@TeeJuDYT]

Pathetically brilliant…

[@igooglemytube]

Indeed - "weak"

[@gavinkempskie8846]

I honestly love the way these videos are put together. The odd faded backgrounds look awesome.

[@mailh8r211]

This was beautiful. Your videos really are art that speak to a deeper part of me. I resonated with this so much. Thank you, and best of luck to you and everyone on our journeys.

[@4pfdattu605]

this is awkward i thought i was the main character

[@nabri-nfg3262]

No im the main character

[@igooglemytube]

humanity is doomed ...

[@igooglemytube]

@@nabri-nfg3262 SstaaaaHHhpppP it already - you guys are making humans (in general) look bad. Man-up Kiddo.

[@cammiebell]

We are all the main characters in our own story

[@ILoveMoms445]

"Pre time skip luffy"

[@PrestinaMeers]

That last credits song is one of my favorite songs ever and has been for awhile before you even made this video it’s the best possible note to end something like this on (:

[@jackfastan5196]

I've been a viewer of this channel for years on my normal account. It has helped me somewhat grasp how and why i'm feeling. I might not be here without it. This video spoke to me like none of your videos beforehand. I'm at my lowest point, but this has been what i needed to see. i feel hopeful. thanks man.

[@Aeiouaaaaaaaaa]

Hey, good luck and stay strong. I may be a stranger online but I’m rooting for you, genuinely.

[@Roubainx]

I see you my friend. Being vulnerable with your feelings of depression and anxiety with another is hard. If you want to express your love loudly to another, you must look for them, and you must be ok with discomfort. The journey is long, and sometimes full of horrors. You must find a way to throw your throwness into another. I find that viewing every person as a universe in themselves is a good way to keep faith in others, and the possibility of finding one to sink into completely! All the best to you, all of it!

[@LorentzInvariance]

Your “no face” reference hits very close to home. I don’t know any answers, but I will say, at some point it changed. It only took one person to see through it all. In reality it was many folks, but they all played a part. They all lifted me through the fog to see the beauty of the sun rise. I’m forever grateful, whether they know it or not, is somewhat irrelevant. All that matters is that it happened, and now I’m here.

[@LorentzInvariance]

Side note: was this all supposed to play out like a Wes Anderson film, or was that just me?

[@justsomerandomguy6156]

Can I have like an hour of Housecat's cover of Ladyfingers. That ending music just hits the spot

[@mrfamilyfriendly4370]

This video is truly the definition of what being honest is, as far as you can get there. The ammount of self reflection, but also commentary on said reflection and realization from that reflection is impressive, I really need some time to watch this one, there are so many topics in regards to feelings, expectations from society and self worth that this hits home. I already held this channel in high regards, but this geniunely changed some outlooks I have on myself, my surroundings and what I just... do. Thank you

[@JereyStonearm]

You can't start to imagine how relatable everything you said was. It's like someone was describing me and my view in life. Thank you for making this video. One of the most important ones i needed to watch.

[@NathanTarbet]

Just the opening 2 minutes are worth recognition in of itself. Sick video.

[@leslie_godina0553]

I clicked on this video out of pure curiosity and for the first time in a long time, I felt understood. Thank you for sharing

[@StruXid]

This is the video I've always wanted for someone to make. Just a person saying his thoughts out, not telling us what action he needed to do. Just pure Thoughts. Never have i ever felt this relatable to a youtube video and not skipping a single second in long videos. Hopefully you'll find that feeling of understanding yourself clearly. Thank you for this art, Sisyphus.

[@perubisht29]

"Even ogers could tend to a beautiful garden "don't know where I remember this line from

[@headlesscentaur]

Super late, but this is from Exurb2a's "The Answer is Not a Hut in the Woods"

[@griffithdidnothingwrong7117]

@@headlesscentaur my favorite KZbinr too, love exurb1a and his second channel

[@emmanuelmyer6437]

oh man, after seeing this, I dont know if I can say I can relate to you or not. You brought into words what I've been feeling throughout my life, but I know that we are not the same. This finally affirmed me that opening up one's self is the only way one can feel genuine love, yet I was always denying this even after reading Tuesdays with Morrie. Unfortunately, even if i want to open myself up to finally love and be loved, I can't because of fear.

[@kian2185]

I just wanted to say that this is the most beautiful video I have ever seen. I don’t think any KZbin video has instantly impacted me as much as this one. Thank you for making it. It helps me feel hopeful, not so alone, appreciative, and helps me accept my reality. I am eternally grateful for this video, and all your other videos. I seem to understand and have similar self criticisms to you but just know, that you have greatly improved my life from this video alone. Thank you

[@cruzsotelo639]

This is beautiful man, I appreciate your vulnerability and you putting yourself out there like this🙏

[@connorferguson2269]

all i know is that i spent so much time thinking about what would make me happy that all i did was ever think, when i realized that, i gave up. a part of it was freeing but now i sort of feel disconnected about everything. i cant engage with anything truly but i don't want to go back to being miserable but now no longer really feel happy in any strong manner.

[@atal_7]

It was 3 am where I live when I started watching and now it’s 6 am in the morning and I can’t stop thinking about this video. I’m moved by this piece of art that you have produced in the form a video. I want to feel happy aswell. I want to love myself. I hope I do find my true self someday. Thank you for sharing. I admire you.

[@daisyfoo2608]

I just realised the whole video is 55 minutes, just like the channel's name. Very smart.

[@sand9705]

I just really liked this video. I hope the future is kind to you.

[@oshing9]

35:25 love isn't something that "happens to you", love is way of life bringing forth and sustaining deeper objective perspectives, true compassion, empathy and liberation. Love in it's purest form devoid of attachment, ego and pride.. is the answer and the truth transcending through time and space(quoting Interstellar-the movie). Self love isn't validating what your ego-self/"facade" adds to your life, although the ego helps you achieve your goals, one often forgets your goals can be sometimes be misguided or not in allignment with a higher purpose on the planet that is alive and only thrives and seeks Balance(yin-yang). We all understand and accept superficial and material manifeatations that can boost the ego aspect yet a deeper understanding of Self love is tapping into that collective unconscious of globally shared ancestral knowledge and wisdom guiding you towards inner peace.

[@lizardBoy2]

Thanks for being so open, for a a clear window into your thoughts and struggles.

[@Tommy-un4wo]

i love the the music in this video- especially that rearranged instrumental to "The Place Where He Inserted The Blade" towards the end. i almost cried

[@randalalansmith9883]

"Spectatorship of Suffering" Thank you. Somebody finally said it. I've never felt the need to fly some place to see poverty. We have plenty. I've never felt the need to fly some place to feel like the foreigner. I feel alien enough in Walmart.

[@aymanlikesoranges]

this is amazing

[@mattnoort]

Yes schemas! Love it that you brought that up! I did schema-therapy. And that finally made me understand why I walk in the same destructive cycles again and again. The real difficult part was and is the therapy itself, taking action with it, becoming a more whole person of who you truly are. Loving the damaged side of yourself, and learning to love others as well. Of course that goes with a grain of wisdom to not just naively trust everyone you meet directly. But most people you meet are pretty chill and have good intentions to be honest. We all got our problems and that's okay, but we need a little tough love with ourselves from time to time ❤

[@fiat_ow7876]

"I want to be me" is something that hits be so hard. Genuinely sitting in tears repeating that phrase in my head. A big part of my identity is "if you don't do the work then you don't deserve anything". Combine this with years of watching manosphere content and being MDD/Alexithymia and it's been a recipe for disaster. I just want to live comfortably with someone who accepts me for me, not someone who sees me for the things I've achieved.

[@frankie5721]

i honestly believe this to be the most beautiful movie i’ve seen on this platform. great work as always

[@venkatchait007]

When you lack self worth people accepting you diminishes their worth rather than increasing yours.

[@anewstyle66]

Dude i rarely comment on youtube videos and i wanna keep this short and sweet. This video was actually amazing man. Watching this made me smile and helped my well-being, seriously. This was just amazing man.

[@AYUSHKUMARGUPTA-cj7lr]

The wavelengths on which this is relatable is beyond measure for me!!! But you did it mate, I can imagine a happy Sisyphus now

[@TheAkashachi]

This is your magnum opus. Such an amazing, deeply thoughtful and impactful video. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. It definitely gave me a lot to think about and reflect on my own personal journey

[@KalebPeters99]

I loved that bit with FD as the tree. 😅 Reminded me of Midnight Gospel!

[@sophiaisabelle027]

We will always support you. Keep working hard to achieve your goals.

[@zuriesu]

I've been avoiding this video for no particular reason and now having watched it albeit having watched the other bits and pieces posted and now the full experience I feel just the same as ever. I haven't found the reason why I decide to walk day after day nor who I am and I have yet to come to peace with that, but a part of me feels happy. Knowing there is that possibility that I can eventually let it all to rest even if I don't figure myself out. I honestly just hope the life ahead of me is one I enjoy and can continue to grow in. Thank you sisyphus for sharing you story.

[@panu5575]

I put this video on, and towards the end my dog waltzed on into my room, nudged my arm and laid down on the floor. So I laid next to him, and the shot of you sitting in the forest started playing. I'm still smiling, it was a very good shot. These videos never give me answers to my problems, and in fact no video, movie or book has. But they do give these little moments of clarity, of seeing things in a different light - not removed of bias but atleast with a more positive bias. I do hold faith in this life as well, although my journey to being okay with myself is not through yet.

[@krishnaberad5792]

beautiful comment, wish you the best

[@shamishenroe5906]

its just so sad.... many of your word are so relatable for me.... the feeling of emptiness and asking yourself at night "is that afternoon laugh is a happiness or just a respond of the situation" it makes you think about what happines is actually mean for you, when people says its self love damn sure i dont love myself in someway "To be perfect is to not be myself" :(

[@liammccoach5790]

I'm 46 seconds into your latest informative video. I will watch further, I just want to give you a massive hug and tell you how greatful I am to have discovered your work. I am excited to see what the next 55mins hold, but I would really like to say, you have helped me. You have helped the people around me. Thank you

[@stefania.]

real

[@igooglemytube]

46?? grow up already :( You should be smarter than this by now old sport.

[@kidconundrum3105]

Not once did i imagine I'd hop on KZbin and see someone explain my mental state better than i can. For the amount of times sys said "me", not once was i sure he wasnt talking to me. Needed this lowkey. Thank you

[@xcutepoison5099]

I think this was the most personal insight I have seen on KZbin so far. I will have to watch it again to really comprehend it because it feels significant to me. So here you go. Here is your bit of attention, you had mine. Take care of yourselves internet strangers.

[@elle3660]

What is so brilliant about this film is that it allows at least some people to feel seen. Many existentialist philosophers have said that the only way we know that we truly exist is through "the gaze of the other," or sharing eye-contact with another being. But somehow, I feel more real from watching this. I feel seen, despite there being no literal gaze. Thank you.

[@PretentiousBLOB]

No no this... this whole thing, all of this.. It's all about me

[@Emma-fq9pv]

Hearing someone else talk about using validation as a means of feeling lovable helps breaks the facade a little for me. The fact we’re all struggling means it’s not a case of simply not being good enough to acquire the desired level of validation; it’s an error to utilise validation as a barometer of esteem.

[@simongerrits]

I think this is my favourite youtube video

[@aarons.8398]

Im halfway through the video and you‘re speaking so many things out that I can relate to. Thank you for doing this and keep going, we all just struggle our way through life, some more, some less.

[@dl2725]

The representation of F D as living tree is wonderful

[@fumbdounded6511]

This hit way too close to home. I cried listening/watching this spectacle and I hate how I can relate to almost everything you've said in this video. I am currently in a very rough situation and this kind of made me understand what I am feeling right now. Seeing you understand and learn about yourself makes me think that I too will figure things out in my own time. Thank you for this it really means a lot.

[@joeyschaefer9238]

Wonderful soundtrack

[@commenteroftruth9790]

42:30 - 43:40 this is very helpful. the perspective of 'I have to have worth' to 'I am existing, and the parts inside of that existence are all a part of my whole being. that it is more complex than a static digestible explanation for why I continue to be here. that a perspective of hope rather than fear is much healthier'.

[@home1250]

I hope this get awards. Firstly, I spent last night having a five hour conversation with my best friend about this exact concept. You having a video that perfectly aligned with that conversation was so serendipitous. I appreciate your work, your effort, and understand and vibe with how well you articulated that fear and existential feeling

[@Quargame]

it felt so surreal because i also had the same conversation last night, most of the video was my yesterday's rants

[@eliaricca8060]

This is simply one of the best thing made by a human i ever seen. Can't say anything but thank you, this is soul food.

[@AdamBorseti]

Every once in a while I see a video on KZbin that I think transcends the platform and this is definitely one of those videos. Sisyphus, you're a real artist and you've helped me and a lot of other people navigate themselves with greater clarity and sense of self.

[@kaekuda]

I’ve gotta say, this really describes a lot of my mentality too. I always expect the worse out of something trying to test out the waters, I’d rather feel secure in failure than insecure in progress. A lot of the time I realize it’s not as bad as I thought, I try things for the first time and find out it wasn’t all I drummed it up to be. It’s a very reassuring thing but sometimes it still leaves me waiting for the time things go wrong, honestly don’t know if I should just go with things or actually seek discomfort

[@araresmnt8657]

I can deeply relate to what you put out in this video . I have never felt so touched so intemetly by any piece of media . You are good at this . Be happy Sisyphus , stop Imagining it

[@stifledvoice]

Sounds like you have case of Ben Thomas Disease, it usually resolves itself after 70-80 years.

[@MrTotalwinner]

It's such a crazy confusing world out there, but it's sometimes nice to remember that we're all trying our best to figure it out together

[@neyanandmilen6172]

Ben Thomas, I watched the video but I saw you. In the end, I think you have achieved what you aspired for through this, revealing all of who you are - the tenet between being watched and being seen. Bravo. (On a side note I’m a psychologist and it’s been deeply moving to find the voice of a patient in ways I have only felt)