It's Time For A Change...

[@MarionetteStinger]

"If I weren't my own worst enemy, I would get so many things accomplished." Preach.

[@IjeomaThePlantMama]

Damn this video seriously has me crying in the break room. For so long, I've let my depression control my life. From small things like not cleaning my room or working out, to large things like taking nearly 6 years to earn my degree. Now that I'm in a professional job, I see more and more that I really need to talk to someone and get my mind balanced. The stigma of seeking help for mental health in the black community is too real, and I thank you so much for always being upfront about your own struggles. I've already started looking for a therapist in my area. I'm ready to punch this wall down too❤❤❤

[@portiaanderson1638]

pajamagirl123 I totally agree. It actually inspired me to pursue a job in it, to help show people its ok.

[@carolineneblett7565]

Anybody else like the video before they even watched it cuz you knew she was gonna look amazing?!! Love you drewww

[@sumaiyahbaksh2230]

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[@sumaiyahbaksh2230]

Sonny man lotala

[@DeeDee-ic3ty]

They may not get noticed but oh well Drew I'm so happy you posted a video today, it actually made my day. And I'm so happy that youre making a big change in your life and the videos! I'm glad you got the help that you needed. Please don't push yourself to the point where you have more panic attacks, anxiety, and mental breakdowns. We care about your health more then/than videos. Just remember to Pace yourself and that we'll always be here whenever you decide to post another video! ❤ We love you Drew!!1!!1!!11! [Edit] I am the shooketh. One , 84 likes?!? Oh stop it 😄😳 Two, Drew liked this?!? MY DAY WENT FROM SHIT TO GREAT! THANK YOU SO MUCH, I LOVE YOU DREW!! ❤❤ [Edit] WHHHOOAAHH 150 likes?! ❤

[@hiimbabu6640]

😊This was super touching..need more people like you in the world

[@DeeDee-ic3ty]

hi I'm babu Thank you, and I only said what others could have said too.

[@makaylamctoy6601]

You're right Jew make your changes do what's right and don't push yourself

[@DeeDee-yf9ov]

RIP to my account

[@iokei7926]

For everyone saying don't take medication, please don't advocate that. Not everyone can just exercise and take vitamins. I know for me, it's hard to do those things because depression. I know I have more problems than just depression and anxiety, but I still feel the same. Drugs aren't always the answer, but sometimes they are. Don't instantly tell people, "don't take meds!" And to Drew, thank you for being honestly you haha. Love you dearly, and I've been subscribed for a long time. You've been like a friend and role mode for me to pursue my dreams and be myself. Keep this momentum up; we all believe in you :)

[@jessa6463]

One thing that helped me about managing my anxiety is for every thought that goes "what if I'm not good enough?" Ask "but what if I'm more than enough?" . Besides taking vitamin D and exercising , it's helped . Pills made it worse for me personally , so if that's not helping know there's other options too ! I hope you find what works for you , Drew . Still happily following . 🖤

[@KamarynMarie]

Hello Pam I feel the same I can't take pills at all I tried different medications but I still felt crappy and I didn't feel actually happy I felt sad but I couldn't cry because of the pills

[@jessa6463]

b a b y b a d b a t s • that's unfortunate :( . I found out that low having low vitamin D levels makes you prone to depression and anxiety . Mine were at a 9ng and you should be at least 30ng . I can't say it's cured but taking it has helped it greatly . I hope you also find something that helps you too !

[@simplynessa15]

You are so beautiful Drew, im here for you. If you wanna talk text me. I have gone through everything you have, and still do.

[@zombieater666]

I suffer from the same thing tried multiple medications and they didn't work. The answer is pot. Smoke a blunt,bowl, joint girl you'll feel a weight lifted off your shoulders not only mentally but spirituality stay away from chemical medications it seems like it makes things worse smoke pot all the things you were worrying about won't matter its so hard to explain but give it a shot. Just know I've been following you since day one and I support you all the way ,Drew your so strong and i love you and things will get better. Don't beat yourself up over small things

[@Ashley-og9ti]

I dream of starting an actual channel. I've recorded so many videos, done endless research on how to edit, create thumbnails, what's the best & necessary equipment, etc. But I have yet to upload anything. I'm afraid & I'm so hard on myself

[@DrinkYourNailPolish]

Ashley Evon To quote Shaia Lebouf, JUST DO IT!! seriously, my channel is a shit show, but it's my shit show and even though it'll never be perfect, I have fun doing it and that's all that matters! Just upload those videos...MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE!!ヽ(ﾟ∀ﾟ)ﾉ!

[@Ashley-og9ti]

Drink Your Nail Polish You are so right! When I'm making the videos I feel so happy, being myself & just talking to the camera lol. Thank u for ur encouraging words😊💖

[@DrinkYourNailPolish]

Any time hon. And I subbed to your channel. YOU CAN DO IT! :)

[@Ashley-og9ti]

Thank u that means so much to me!!

[@NanaNoms]

just do it! work your hardest and you will attract people that like your work

[@Harmless]

I have been struggling with somewhat similar issues; feeling in control in the face of mental illness and working toward my goals. It's so so hard, and I am SO HAPPY to see you feeling good about your progress. I am so happy for you, this is amaaaaaazing 💝

[@destinyh3127]

Who else was scrolling through the comments while watching the video ??

[@DrinkYourNailPolish]

Destiny Hauger Yep. 😄

[@itscmalvarez]

That blue hair really compliments your skin tone. It looks so pretty.

[@taessiemarie678]

drew you always remind that anxiety is something I have, but there's no need to use it as a crutch in life, this video is exactly why I love you 😊❤ BTW, I 💙 that color on you.

[@opinionatedlibra1934]

dancecutie Marie Same.

[@ShamekaCheek78]

I can relate because I suffer with anxiety and depression. Your video is very comforting and encouraging. You are a very brave and beautiful (inside and out) woman.

[@aurevoirjulia]

My favourite quote that helps me deal with my own depression and my own social anxiety is "If you're going through hell, keep going". It means different things to different people, but to me it just really boils down to not giving up. If you're going through hell, Drew, keep going!

[@missrican16]

Duuuudddeeee the feels.... I can totally relate. I have both and it's a vicious ass cycle and it sucks so bad. 😒 just keep pushing through it girl! 🙌🏽

[@MrsTealFish]

This hit me hard, thank you for this! I suffer from depression and anxiety too so I definitely relate, this helped me a lot thank you

[@mieshiadyches]

Im also at that point in life where if im extremely happy im looking forwards to a crash...and as of late, it hasnt been happening. I went from crying every single day to smiling more, simply because ive taken control of myself. Im not letting my depression and anxiety take me over and keep me down. It feels so good to finally love myself and be comfortable with myself including my flaws. Drew, you helped me realize that there is a way to get through this...and I appreciate you for that ❤

[@TheKenyatorres]

you go girl!!! i cant wait for your halloween spooky series !!! be happy and dont you worry .youre great in anything you propose to do haha

[@Vocalief]

The way you described having so many ideas but not creating them or them not looking right is exactly how I feel. I love making videos but for past few years it's been stressing me out because I want my content to be way better.

[@ScarlettRoseOfficial]

It's weird but I'm actually glad I'm not the only one who feels like that all the time. l don't upload videos either and I keep promising my subscribers I will upload more and here I am. Making shitty videos and hating my channel. So yeah, we're not alone in here. Hope you get better Drew!

[@dajah12341]

I have that issue too! It's crazy how you described how I feel.. I'm facing my issue as well and it feels so good

[@Musical_Beautyy]

I've been going through the exact same thing. It's a hard battle but I'm slowly getting to the point where I'm comfortable with myself. Just keep your head up

[@jenelleclark328]

I stumbled across your page the other day and I was immediately drawn to you. My heart breaks for you and your struggle. I too have a deep anxiety that can be quite debilitating. I pray you find happiness and healing through your pain. You are such a beautiful soul and you deserve so much love and peace. ❤

[@xXRavenCorpseXx]

If this isn't 1000% of everything my depression and anxiety is...hearing you talk made me cry because I feel every single bit the same way. I just have not broken thru that wall and I feel sometimes I never will. But I'm glad you have. It gives me hope...you're beautiful. Love that hair.

[@clawskullectors]

This video hit me like a bus. You talking about how you are feeling is exactly how I feel. I'm so anxious all the time, and I feel like I'm not living up to my potential. Thank you for this. Watching your videos genuinely makes me happy, and makes me inspired to be the person I want to be. This video specifically makes me want to tune out all the negativity in my mind to do what makes me happier. Drew, you are strong. We love you.

[@emilyetcetera6233]

As someone who suffers from a similar mental health situation, I really really really needed to see this video. Like it made my whole day.

[@geeky_mimi]

Aw, I'm so happy for you! Self growth is an amazing feeling. I hate that we can be our worst enemies. My self doubt has been in the way for so long, So you are truly inspiring

[@NICKASAURWORLD]

I know exactly how you feel, I've been going through the same exact thing actually. Getting this huge wave of momentum, and feeling great about myself. Actually having confidence and wanting to do something. Then all of a sudden anxiety kicks in like "Hey, here to fuck up everything, here's some negative thoughts, and also something stupid you did 8 years ago." Then I'm just like "Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!!" And I get back into my shell, it honestly really sucks. I am so glad I can relate to you and so many other people dealing with this, because the people who can't relate are always like. "Oh, you're just lazy, you don't want to do anything." Either that or, "You're just shy, it'll be fine." Or even worse "Get over it!" So it just feels goo to know that I'm not the only one going through this.

[@romaapluto]

Tchaikovsky loathed the Nutcracker!!! If you hate it, it's almost guarunteed that someone will love it.

This happened to me with a lot of hobbies I have but I'm slowly trying to get myself back into it. I find that my procrastination and anxiety stems from the jealousy/loneliness I feel when looking through other people's accounts on social media so I decreased my time on instagram, stopped using snapchat, and haven't used twitter since last year. I'm not saying "oh you should delete you social media!" Because it is a big part of promoting your channel. But I find that sometimes we accidentally spend too much time than we need to on our cellular devices and other electronics when we need to take a break from other people's lives and turn our focus/attention to our personal hobbies. For example, I'm currently working on my obsessive-ness with watching too many KZbin videos and using that time to practice yoga, meditation, making my own little amvs for fun, studying on my future career, learning to play guitar, draw, write stories/poetry, a.k.a things I use to do before I invested 95% of my time into KZbin and anime. So yes! It looks like it is time for a change in the both of us!

[@leechase9037]

Lately I've been trying super hard to get my shit together and I keep trying and failing and feeling horrible for not having the drive to do stuff, and this video was a really big kick in the ass. I'm happy for you and I can't wait to see you progress further, and I'm going to try and do the same. Thank you for being so inspiring. Much love 💗

[@KTWZProductions]

You're one of my favorite KZbinrs of all time, I always get super excited when I see that you've uploaded. Your kindness, creativity, brilliance, and openness are really beautiful and, like you said, kind of rare in the current Internet climate. Your advice about continually moving up the hill and celebrating even the smallest successes was really helpful too.

[@TheWorldChampion01]

Your struggles are so relatable. Thanks for being so open and honest about them. You're making people feel so much less alone; including myself. We love you.

[@HartxStarr]

I'm so happy you feel like you have some direction, and it was so amazing hearing you say that you've felt better about yourself than you've ever been before! You're so strong!!

[@thisdaemoninpurple]

I love your perseverance Drew! I will keep tuning in and am super happy for you that you'll be posting more. The casual vlogs sound like a great idea. =)

[@CourtneyDawne]

Wow. This was so well spoken. I struggle with such similar battles. And so much of what you said really hit home. Thank you for being an inspiration girl. Keep fighting 💜

[@AWildRadcliffe]

Can we just talk about how amazing this video is edited, and how smoothly she talks.. she really does belong on KZbin, you're perfect for it!

[@luz1673]

Id love to see more videos like this!! Ive always liked it when you sit down and talk to us!

[@aprilbrooks8125]

Totally love your transparency, it's refreshing and inspiring. Keep moving forward!!

[@nikkicole54321]

thanks for being open and honest about your highs and lows. it looks like you're on an upward swing and i'm happy for you.

[@courtneejohnson7225]

You are so great I'm super happy your feeling good and I 100% understand what your going and through it sucks but I love your channel and think your doing awesome

[@waitinginawaterfall]

"Popped that bitch in the mouth and kept running." I'm seriously going to use that as my motivation to keep going now. I would watch anything you do Drew. I'm so proud of you!

[@avaalthoff9248]

you look so beautiful in this video!! take your time with your health and youre doing an amazing job on youtube!! Love u and stay strong!!!!

[@pumpkin4754]

I believe in you, Drew! I'm so proud of you for all you've done and all you will do!

[@NuMindframe]

Ooouuuu this hair color😍 Keep fighting, gorgeous. Loyal subbie here and I love ALL of your content. Will always support you 💙

[@madissenlawrence4587]

I've been through the same thing and I have really bad days a lot. This video really helped me, and I just want to say I really love your channel and look forward to your videos.

[@DrinkYourNailPolish]

Love the running analogy. I run for my own physical and mental health. Love you and your channel! ❤

[@elenaisabella2033]

You are not alone, actually describing anxiety as a loop makes so much sense, we do really care about your mental health more than consistent videos. Thank you drew

[@MikaMiku3232]

Drew you're really awesome. I remember watching you're curly red hair vid and keep replaying it over and over. You're editing is awesome. You're personality is awesome too.

[@JordiC03]

you are so inspirational to me. today I was crashing myself & I felt like I just wasn't doing anything right & that my life was going nowhere. Then I watched this video & tears just fell from my eyes. You remind me that even though I feel inadequate, that doesn't mean its true & it's okay to keep going. keep pushing forward iloveyou Drew 💕

[@kayjaybeauty5568]

you did so great with your store hun! I'm proud of how hard your trying and I love the clothes I got from you! thank you for not giving up!

[@LoveMyUnusual]

It's funny how things work out. I came on YT to see if there was an update to your closet, and this vid is here. I am so happy for you, Drew. From your first anxiety/depression videos to now, they've always spoken to me and helped me. I know exactly what you're going through. I can't afford to be my worst enemy, either. It's time to keep pushing. 💗

[@iloveodie20]

I can't even tell you how much I relate. Everything you are saying is me. I love you. I'm proud of you and I'm so happy you're on KZbin.

[@ItsMsAliciaNicole]

Drew you're so relatable and pure. I just love how your energy radiates through the screen. Stay strong!!

[@PudgeAndGush]

You're right. I am skeptical but I'm still going to continue to support you and your channel. We want you to continue doing what you love because you're so talented and wonderful Drew. We want you to know that you're amazing and we all love your videos and you in general. We want you to be happy, healthy, and just over all okay.

[@Onedayrenee]

The.length.of.the.video.does.not.matter. we love you!

[@HoneyBee0219]

I really needed this video. I've been deal with depression and anxiety for awhile now and hearing that someone is having ups and downs like me is great to know!! Thanks Drew❤️❤️

[@qu33n.v31]

We love you to drew 💕

[@brianaa96]

I don't want to sound self absorbed but literally everything you said is the same for me. It's very bitter sweet to know people are going through the same things. It's good to have someone to relate to so I feel less alone, but then I feel bad because I know how crappy all this feels. But when you share how you feel and what's going on it gives me hope because here you are, you got dressed, you set your camera up and made a video, you edited, you posted. You did something even though you went through all you went through to do this and that makes me feel like I can do what I need to do too.

[@heyitsphoenixx]

I relate to this video sooo much. My channel is basically a wreck due to my anxiety and depression. Love you, Drew. Your such an inspiration (especially in my first few videos) 💕💜💜 your one of the few youtubers that I can see myself in and relate to 😍

[@tahtiannagordon9585]

Girl I'm getting teary-eyed from watching this because I know what it's like of dealing with depression and anxiety. But I'm taking one step at a time of getting better! You are loved here Chica and things will get better for you! 💗😊 #ForeverDisasterFAN

[@opinionatedlibra1934]

I feel the same. I diagnosis everything (what people say and their actions and what I say and do).

[@bella6689]

Give yourself permission to fail. Give yourself permission to not finish things. You are already "doing it" good job ❤️🌈👌🏻

[@EnneSicksTeaPhore]

I will always be a supporter of you! That vidcon video was seriously very well edited and I love your content!

[@ceeluv87]

By the end of this video Im crying because my daughter was diagnosed with depression/anxiety. She is going thru that loop you speak of and it causes my depression to get worse. Yes both her and i are suffering the same thing. It hasn't been easy going to two drs, paying a lot of money just for the psychiatrist to change her meds again. Im glad you're going to do more. We're here for you!!!

[@Shemile1]

Your bravery to publically share personal struggles is not only commendable but humbling. Trust me when I say: you do not know your own strength. When you do, you will be unstoppable. Chin-up girl because smiles look beautiful on you!

[@erickaevilchick]

I'm dealing with that also. Especially now that I'm between jobs and starting school. I don't take medications but I'm starting to think about it

[@TheGothicDemoness]

Totally relatable.. I done nothing then feel bad. Meds are a minefield. You look amazing

[@WhoaaNellyy]

"I popped that bitch in the mouth and I kept running" I fucking love this lmfao

[@kyokitty16]

thank you for this vid. I've been feeling do depressed lately but this really hit on so many things I've been feeling. so thank you again

[@mariesok4874]

I can completely understand! I have been really upset, because I am not where I wanted to be the age I am now. And this summer I said to myself, "f- it, lets get this done!" now I haven't been getting a crazy amount done, but it is something. You have to start somewhere. I am starting here. Even if I feel like crap, I am moving forward. I really love your channel and wish you well on your endeavors! You are fantastic!

[@cassiemichelle03]

For the record you could literally post a video of you eating pizza and casually talking about your favorite TV show and it would be gold

[@rawwuu]

This was really beautiful to hear. You dont need to be perfect, your best is good enough. You are enough 💕💕💕

[@Pastelmonstaa]

Gah, you made me cry because this exactly how I feel. Thank you. I am also trying to get out of my hole, and finally have taken a tiny step further than I have in the past. I now I just have to keep pushing, even if thats the hardest part. Again, thank you

[@KxngL]

This is exactly how I feel, I been YouTubing for about 7 years now and In the more recent years I've struggled with being consistent for the same exact reasons. I'm just not getting back into making videos after my 7th hiatus. I'm glad you made this video drew!

[@vickydavies1684]

i relate to everything you said... and im really happy youre finally starting to feel a lot better about yourself. Thank you for this video. It really helped me realise a lot of things about me

[@kinkycannawitchtv5498]

You are an amazing person!! Never give up I suffer from the same!!! You help me get through it!!

[@Onedayrenee]

You made a short video "how to annoy your boyfriend" and to this day it is the greatest video ever

[@artemisb9441]

drew!! i'm so proud of you 💕 i've also been dealing with the whole "getting up just to fall back down again" thing, thank you for inspiring me to keep getting back up 💝

[@OhOlympia]

Hey girl you are amazing and if you have to take a break we understand , or at least the ones who support you. You are a strong young lady and you can do this. I mean if you got this far why give up why.

[@TalkingCheeseBurgerr]

Drew! I miss seeing you! Sorry if that sounds creepy. We'll always be here when you do put out a video wether it's tomorrow, next month, 6 months, or a year later. I'm sure many other fans feel the same way. You have an awesome creative personality, you just have to believe what other people see in you.

[@darlingvania]

So happy for you!! Keep going and believe in yourself! I've been struggling basically all my life I have BPD and severe depression and anxiety and trust me it gets better! I've been in therapy and on meds for about 3 years now and I've become such a better version of myself! I hope u continue to find better ways to be and take care of yourself because I'm rooting for you!

[@AllofTheAboveOfficial]

I really needed to hear some of this, as I also struggle with depression and anxiety. Watching this video gave me the kick I needed to pick myself up and keep going! Thanks Drew! Keep it up!!

[@amirasydnor]

I feel this so much. I'm literally going through this same situation. I've been so f*cked up lately struggling to make it. But I have been trying to stay positive and keep going. I hope you feel better soon ily 💖🍥⭐🎶

[@tyijawilliams]

Cheer up Drew Halloween right around the corner🎃🎃🎃

[@laurahargrave4602]

What an amazing platform you have to touch others lives by being open and honest with who you are and your struggles. There are so many that suffer with the same things you do. My oldest daughter certainly has and now, finally, at 28 she is living her best life. That's not to say that her depression doesn't rear it's ugly head, but she's learning to push through just like you. She's now a flight attendant and building her first home! Keep shining your light sweetheart!! You have so much to offer this world and it doesn't have to be perfect, it just has to be you!!!! I, for one, think you are beautiful and you rock that teal hair!!!!!

[@umhi345]

Most youtubers don't do this but the ones that do that are honest about their faults are the most brave.

[@evelynadams9395]

Love you drew, Things will get better stay strong and stay positive Remember your life is super valuable and your important just like everyone else #Positivevibes🌈🌈🌈

[@nyliahclark3843]

Thanks! So much drew for being open with us and telling us your story, im sure we all appreciate it. Keep up the great work and push through it if you can!!!!

[@PlusSIZEDQueenDIVA]

exactly how I feel!! thank you for being soooo open! you can do it! xoxo

[@BUBBLESLOVESYOU123]

I have depression and anxiety as well I can relate to this a lot some days are fine and then there are days I just feel like giving up.

[@mayimaclark]

I appreciate you and your honesty. This whole situation is literally me with my art. I've been putting off making anything new for half a year now and I have people constantly asking when I'll have something new out and it just makes me more and more anxious. Because with all these people waiting for it, I feel like anything I make will never be good enough or live up to the standard I have in my head for this amount of time to pass and me to not have created anything and made no progress in bettering my skills. I'm terrified that I'll try and make something and it be garbage or I put it out and no one likes it, so I convince myself it's ugly and just trash it. I hope I can finally follow in your footsteps and create again and break down these walls we put up. Can't wait to see more stuff from you, no matter how long it takes. Always love your content, Drew, and appreciate you being so open about things like this. Thank you!!

[@LottisLibrary]

I do the same thing, staying up thinking of great ideas for things and then the next day I've either forgotten it or I tell myself it was stupid 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@cutecalmcozy]

QUEEEEEEN... THIS IS EVERYTHING! I CAN RELATE SO MUCH. YES WE WILL KEEP GOING. CAN'T STOP NOW! IM GASSIN MYSELF UP FOR MAKING 8 NECKLACES TODAY. I CANT LET MYSELF DOWN. EVERY STEP I WILL CONTINUE TO ENCOURAGE MYSELF! UNTIL MY ETSY SHOP IS FULL OF ADORNMENTS! THANKS FOR SHARING. CAN'T WAIT TO C WHAT'S NEXT FOR DREW DISASTER. PS LOVE YOUR VLOGS!

[@AnnieNorthman89]

You're amazing Drew. I know you will get through this huge rough patch, we all have moments like this and progress will happen. It might not happen today or tomorrow, but it will happen. Never stop being awesome and please do take care of yourself first. Your mental health is far more important than uploading videos. Much love to you

[@gingerthefluffthewolf9876]

So proud of you!!💜💜I believe you can do anything and your my role model since i to have so many illnesses. So thank you. We love you!!!!

[@LisaEmeritaHandmade]

Woah I can totally relate this cycle. Like exactly. I spend more time meticulously planning what I'm going to do, and mostly it's outrageously unrealistic and idealized. Then when it's time to move from the planning stage to the execution stage, for one reason or another I self sabotage by overthinking it, or abandoning it, or distracting myself with something less important until the opportunity has passed. 😫😫😫

[@cosmicconiferous]

That color on you! 😍 You're beautiful inside and out.

[@MsKittyKazumi]

I relate to you so much. I've never been able to express it or even put it in to understandable words. Thank you. ❤️