JAYTEKZ - Silently Suffering

JAYTEKZ - Silently Suffering
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Official "Silently Suffering" Lyrics:
I'm wondering who I've become and how'd I end up here
It's thundering and I can tell the sun is no where near
I stay up all night, anxiety keeps me awake
While I'm just thinking about mistakes I always seem to make
Think I'm addicted to my suffering
I'm so inflicted with this sickness that's corrupted me
I seek forgiveness deep within because I hate myself
It's either sink or swim inside of this internal hell
Fuck
So many scars I try to cover up
Broke so many hearts, relationships I always fuck em' up
Lonely in the dark hoping to God the sun is coming up
Only through my art you'll realize that I'm so fucking numb
These suicidal thoughts are plaguing me with no remorse
Got so much hate in me it's like my heart is tainted and it's torched
Feels like there's no recourse my back is up against the wall
The pain is reinforced with guilt that I cannot absolve
I'm so lost on my own
Everything I ever knew will never be the same
Will I ever see it through or will this never change
I'm forever in pursuit of chasing better days
I'm so lost on my own
Suffering in silence I don't wanna' cry
Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside
Recovering feels so impossible I wanna' die
I'm so lost on my own
Everything I ever knew will never be the same
Will I ever see it through or will this never change
I'm forever in pursuit of chasing better days
I'm so lost on my own
Suffering in silence I don't wanna' cry
Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside
Recovering feels so impossible I wanna' die
Recovering seems so impossible
How can I move forward, I'm my own biggest obstacle
Yeah I know it's probably best I check into a hospital
But I'm scared of being judged for pain that's beyond my control
It's hard to look my family in their eyes
It's hard to smile in their face when I just wanna' die
Please forgive for speaking my truth
I'm sorry for this painful energy that I exude
But I can't hold on, I swear to God I'm losing grip
Promise you it's been so long since I felt that true love exists
How can I be strong when all this hurt continues to persist
If this makes me wrong, fuck being right cause I can't do this shit
Fighting to survive but I been losing all my strength
I been fighting just to die and I'm surviving with no faith
All these thoughts of suicide slowly takes the pain away
My soul has been crucified while my spirits up in flames, fuck
I'm so lost on my own
Everything I ever knew will never be the same
Will I ever see it through or will this never change
I'm forever in pursuit of chasing better days
I'm so lost on my own
Suffering in silence I don't wanna' cry
Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside
Recovering feels so impossible I wanna' die
I'm so lost on my own
Everything I ever knew will never be the same
Will I ever see it through or will this never change
I'm forever in pursuit of chasing better days
I'm so lost on my own
Suffering in silence I don't wanna' cry
Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside
Recovering feels so impossible I wanna' die
#JayteKz #SilentlySuffering #OfficualLyricalVideo

[@xancient_truthx]

TO WHOEVER IS READING THIS AND LISTENING TO THIS SONG,YOU ARE A FXXKING BEAST! YOU ENDURED EVERY SINGLE STORM AND STILL HAVE THE COURAGE TO SAY BRING IT ON! I LOVE YOU ALL... YOU ARE NOT ALONE! 🌌

[@joeharris3470]

Reciprocated, Brother... 🙏🏾❤

[@DayDayTurner-nm2yj]

Thank you

[@brucedwayne7657]

Saving lives. ❤

[@rachelm.208]

His music has helped me through my darkest days, my heroin addiction, and rehab. 3 yrs sober looking back when I was using drugs, listening to his music late at night. You saved me at my darkest time. JayteKz - I hope you see this🥺

[@tomfisher4317]

Wow! We have a similar story, I'm glad you made it through! ❤️

[@Leo_the_fox_Boi]

I used to listen to him late at night also and it's helped me through many of my darkest hours also I have three years sober now

[@uglyboyx6648]

“Recovering seems so impossible” “How can I move forward, I'm my own biggest obstacle” FELT! 🙏🏽

[@calicoclan9240]

Dude I needed this so bad right now I’m having problems with depression and anxiety and this song is exactly how I feel... I’ve been fighting for most of my life with problems thank you for your music man!

[@kz8501]

Sucks sometimes

[@hxllowsquad113]

Trevor I understand I got two kids my nigga and a wife that tries her best to keep me together when I’m breaking down but no matter what nothing she says helps me a lot of people say they stay alive is because of the kids and honestly I’m failing call me selfish but I don’t care if my kids need me i just wanna end this shit but for some odd reason god doesn’t want me to go so I’m here suffering while my kids think I’m this amazing person

[@Kcsoberlifesavedme94]

I feel ya man ive been suffering for years i have 3 kids and i try everyday to get better ive tried meds ive tried everything i am barely making it i have no family no friends my finacee trys ti tell me im worth it but i wanna give up know ur not alone my dude u can add me on Facebook we should be in contact its good to keep each other going its sarina hawkins on facebook

[@hxllowsquad113]

Sarina eberts can’t find u

[@ilikewaffles889]

Trevor Edwards keep fighting

[@Tavis15ify]

It's scary how all of these just dropped as soon as these feelings came back Just straight broken

[@xwendigo1394]

Can't believe it's already been 2y since this dropped.

[@jennifer4020]

This too shall pass...nothing but love, you make beautiful music my man, that I feel deeply. Love you jay

[@shealynnarizmendi4405]

you have saved so many lives.

[@horselesspower7446]

Back here still stuck Still broken Still lost Stil hopeless Still mentally ill Still life a mess Still life falling apart And still alone

[@TotterTheHuskyYT]

I'm wondering who I've become and how'd I end up here It's thundering and I can tell the sun is nowhere near I stay up all night entity keeps me awake While I'm just thinking about mistakes I always seem to make Think I'm addicted to my suffering, I'm so inflicted with this sickness that's corrupted me I seek forgiveness deep within because I hate myself It's either sink or swim inside of this eternal hell So many scars I try to cover up Broke so many hearts, relationships I always fuck em up Lonely in the dark hoping to God the sun is coming up Only threw my art you'll realize I'm still fuckin up These suicidal thoughts are plaguing me with no remorse Got so much hate in me it's like my heart is tainted and extorted Feels like there's no records my back is up against the wall The pain is reinforced with guilt that I cannot absolve I'm so lost on my own Everything I ever knew will never be the same Will I ever see it threw or will this never change I'm forever in pursuit of chasing better days I'm so lost on my own Suffering in silence I don't wanna cry Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside Recovering feels so impossible I wanna die I'm so lost on my own Everything I ever knew will never be the same Will I ever see it threw or will this never change I'm forever in pursuit of chasing better days I'm so lost on my own Suffering in silence I don't wanna cry Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside Recovering feels so impossible I wanna die Recovering seems so impossible How can I move forward I'm own biggest obstacle Yeah I know it's probably best I check into a hospital But I'm scared of being judged for pain that's beyond my control It's hard to look my family in their eyes It's hard to smile in there face when I just wanna die Please forgive me for speaking my truth I'm sorry for this painful energy that I exude But I can't hold on I swear to God I'm losing grip Promise you it's been so long since I felt that true love exists How can I be strong when all this hurt continues to persist If this makes me wrong fuck being right cuz I can't do this shit Fightin to survive but I've been losing all my strength I've been fightin just to die and I'm surviving with no faith All these thoughts of suicide slowly takes the pain away My soul has been crucified but my spirit is up in flames I'm so lost on my own Everything I ever knew will never be the same Will I ever see it threw or will this never change I'm forever in pursuit of chasing better days I'm so lost on my own Suffering in silence I don't wanna cry Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside Recovering feels so impossible I wanna die I'm so lost on my own Everything I ever knew will never be the same Will I ever see it threw or will this never change I'm forever in pursuit of chasing better days I'm so lost on my own Suffering in silence I don't wanna cry Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside Recovering feels so impossible I wanna die (Suffering in silence I don't wanna cry Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside Recovering feels so impossible I wanna die I'm so lost on my own)

[@elkilonation805]

Thnx for putting up the lyrics 😔this song is very good had to come back

[@itsnotrllyyuni]

It’s pretty sad and scary that most of us feel the same way:(

[@pedrodapeso]

You a life saver bro I gots lots of love for your songs my girl left me 2 weeks ago man it felt like I knew her more than her own life she even promise me she never gonna leave i break down every night cause that promise shit cuts me deep it breaks every time feels like demons are around me in the night time she couldn’t keep it real but just end up leaving 😢 I feel your pain jaytekz I do thank you idk how much I can thank you 🤞🏼

[@homegirljackyy]

Kid Pete Head Up!💪🏽

[@pedrodapeso]

homegirljackyy thank very much I appreciate it💛 I’m in need of a friend add me on Snapchat lailanpete7 🙏🏼

[@whitelightskin]

Hey man, i'm always here for you if you ever need that person to talk too. I went through the same shit as you and I put my ex's feelings before I did with mine and I gave her my all and she took me for advantage and walked over me. Even tho it hurts now it'll get better and at first I didn't believe that and it took me a whole ass year to get to where I am now which is happier in life. I'll be straight up with you....you will get over her over time but the memories and the energy you put into her will stay there cause that's permanent but when you find that other female that'll love you for you and won't do anything to hurt you those memories that you had for your ex will still be there but will be replaced with the new memories that you have with this new female. Also I wanna tell you that when that new female pops up and like she's all about you and only want you for you, at first keep your guard up but over time if you see that's trying still just slowly input her into your life cause if not she'll start fading away and when she finds someone new you'll regret not lowering your guard and trusting her cause you'll see her happy with another guy which that could've been you but you was to stupid to realize that she just wanted you....that happened to me that's why i'm trying to give you this advice. but seriously if you ever need anyone just HMU on Instagram @KidTEW and i'll respond back to you. Keep your head up and live life man do you for now.

[@pedrodapeso]

TEW thank you very much for your words brotha I’ll hit you up 🤞🏼💯

[@danielfirman5413]

I’m going through the same thing bro I hear ya try to stay strong I know it hard I’m on my edge to because of it keep your head up

[@lovebugboss4493]

Hearing this song I really needed it I hate being depressed n going thur all the pain I go thur in life. It’s hard to stay strong at times..

[@Im2stoned4ya]

this song is so how i feel i listen to this and cry as ive felt so lost for so long

[@deezyb88_64]

This is one song that reached me in the midst of my lowest point in life. Thank you

[@DimitrItzz]

back again to this song.. suffering about 15 years.. and going deeper and deeper in this dark forest. I'll never heal I guess, but at least I have his songs. thanks Jay, I feel I'm not alone.

[@ginuenmiller]

Here I am sitting.. Wife and kids in the living room and I'm just sitting here just balling with a Stright face just spiraling deep inside my own head once again.. I hope I can make it out before I effect my family..

[@Target-cf2rr]

I know I don't know you, and I have no idea what you are going through. I just want you to know my heart goes out to you homie. I lost my wife and kids almost 10 yeas ago, and it never gets easier, fuck what they say. I just don't want to see another family fall apart. I don't really pray anymore these days, but I promise I will say a prayer or two for you and your family..

[@josuecorrea7190]

His songs definitely help out a lot of people I speak for every one who doesn’t I know how the pain feels I’ve been going through it too but I have learned how to cope with life and everything that comes with it. I love you all have a great day everyone.

[@ACEONE325]

Me and my older brother love your music we lost him back in march and the last song he posted on hes Facebook was after all this time. By jaytekz

[@retrogamesmadeeasy8058]

Life is rough man, this song has got it to a T right now. I love this rapper.

[@jesslacy3945]

I just heard this song for the first time and and I am in love with it!!

[@fckurride85]

The struggle is real. Do people know the pain we truly feel. One day I hope to feel free

[@moseau8852]

What I love the most is knowing there is people out there who understand the pain I’m going through

[@brittanynordfors3620]

ayo yor music is helping so many people rn including myself i almost did it tn but i got stopped..im prayin “god” has a better plan ahead for me i hope everyone is keeping their head up

[@captainjames1199]

love the music and this album cover.

[@xxxsad736]

Its jaytekz forever

[@iamneptunian]

🖤🖤🖤

[@dazmarsters7110]

This is me 💯, it's not easy but I'm trying slowly and silently to recover.

[@Chris-vy3zt]

His music saves lives you should be more heard ♥

[@z3rodarkness523]

Another banger great job jay you really are going somewhere bro keep up the hard work 🔥🔥🤙🏻

[@edgardohernandez3278]

Helps me get thru life I'm not alone

[@Ricardosammy99]

Tears instantly..

[@iamJesusLopez]

this song is so fire i’m so happy i found your songs

[@grizzlyrebel_28]

Desperately needing someone to talk to but I don't need no pills or therapists I just need true people around I'm at the wits end I'm close to the end!!!

[@Glock20187]

Man jay man

[@kayliebswanson9856]

Thank you man, your musics great. Congrats on a new album

[@Marcedesdang417]

It's either sink or swim right.. I feel that

[@fcmorena246]

his my painkiller

[@aleksandrasstaskevicius7612]

This is so true it like me o just feel like everyone it ungenst me

[@lorenzaojeda3349]

man you still got that studio

[@Highclass710]

If somebody see this one day I will be gone from this world don’t you cry you never knew me so why shed a tear just know I was smiling at my last moment goodbye forever 😔💔🔪

[@lukaswilliams7150]

This was literally on my suicide playlist a few years ago I was gonna blow my brains out obviously didn't happen but this song exist I still go back to it now and again glad I didn't do it

[@juliovargas123]

🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹

[@kevinnlmao7451]

❤️

[@ricardoduecewilliams608]

One powerful song THE PEOPLE'S CHAMP

[@ivonmonjaras8239]

ANHEDONIA

[@XYXV3]

0:35 I'm tinkin of my mystakes all da tyme 3

[@hannahphelps8736]

Damn. I related so much to the last album. I just discovered this one since I've been busy going through thee imaginable. Panic disorder is the worst suffering, I came here now after an unbearable attack. I almost called the hospital. I punched myself a lot. I am calm to these songs. I'd kill for a duet with this talented being.

[@amywilson389]

I fucking love you ...you are not alone

[@cruzvisuals1572]

I love you jay thx bro :(

[@louisetom3148]

😭😭💔 i missed my babe ... I love u

[@Apple-hn1ci]

Butterflies - Yomaez

[@tamaracontreras3810]

😭😭😭

[@tomohawkcloud]

This song is my shit

[@MrTurboCat21]

You speak a lot of truth in these lyrics man. I understand. You speak for all of us. It's a shame we have to put the truth into music, and not taught at school. There is no meaning and point for our existence, that's the real truth. No God. Just our lonely loser existence, pretending to be an almighty Superman God. Ps. You sound quite similar to lil Wayne btw. Eg. Your use of voice and sound is cool to me. Eg. Not too negative and gangster, and not too vanilla ice cheesy, and mainstream. But a very good middle ground appeal there. Respect your emotional effort here, if indeed it's authenticly coming from you. R I p. Your eternal existence begins at death of this life. There's no light family or heaven either. That's all crap they tell to comfort us. There's only YOU. We are all ONE. All hope is lost. Over and out.

[@elimontana6357]

I'm 14yrs old 💔💀

[@simpforanorphan4747]

I’m 12. 💀

[@mirasimmons4904]

I'm 10

[@domriz7369]

God with save us all if he submit and ask for help caring the load no medicine no nothing only God can truly heal

[@brandonhutchinson3482]

Why does this only have 71 comments

[@maxozeven5563]

JESUS

[@EddieLove]

Depression makes you feel like you are alive but not living.

[@smileyhernandezx_x1498]

whats the beat to this song? i wanna try to rap on it

[@soulpark3128]

*Uhm, so I have this poem that is, let's say - not bad. Would you be interested in reading it & turning it into something?* *It's called - Unwritten Contract. I don't wanna say it's good & give false hope (for either of us).* 💜💜 *(edit) I was holding my emotions back the last few days, I was good the first 2 times playing this but then I played it again while reading the lyrics as you were & then it hit me. Then I been playing this over and over the last 30 mins and after each time I felt a little bit better. I wanted to edit my comment and say thank you so much for sharing.*

[@InfernoSaiyan]

😞

[@kz8501]

Hate listening to your music sometimes. It just makes me think...

[@amieew.v9860]

😢🩵🩵🩵

[@johnpeloquin9646]

You have no clue

[@InfernoSaiyan]

💖