Jonghyun being relatable for 13 minutes straight

Happy Birthday Jonghyun. We love you so much. Thank you for bringing so much of joy and happiness in our lives. We will protect your precious smile always. 💖
#HappyJonghyunDay #HappyBirthdayJonghyun

[@chyberries2923]

To everyone reading this- Hello! I'm a Shawol, I've been a Shawol for 5 years and I just wanted to say something, we should resemble Jonghyun for his accomplishments and his talent, not for his death. Please don't just make sad videos about him, treat him like a normal kpop idol. Yes, he sadly passed away but that's not what he should be known for. He should be known for who he is, not his death, and don't become a Shawol if you're just there to talk about his death, become a Shawol because of their talent, yes it's okay to bring it up a few times but not if you do it often, you can make edits and all of that but whenever you see videos of SHINee don't bring up his death because he was a member. Instead, go with the video, if it's about OneW being funny for example, talk about OneW, not Jonghyun. Thank you

[@Saraash3067]

Thanks for your message

[@hihi707hihi]

i completely agree!!!

[@annatoscano9775]

Well said. Totally agree.

[@jikookie5595]

nobody could have explained who he was resembled for, better than you could have said yes, he is a star and will now always shine in heaven. May god bless him and everyone else who had the chance to read this comment and replies!

[@desitinyinurarea]

@Beppy no

[@joonstalli]

i don’t think he ever realized how unintentionally funny he was 😭😭 all these moments are literally so precious. such an angel.

[@tonymontana-lachimolalabts6088]

I didn’t want to say it but the was i can’t😭😭😭

[@armygirlsarika391]

Yeah right

[@STALKER777LK]

Unlike key, Taemin (and surprisingly, Onew), Minho and Jonghyun never realize when they're funny and they have never been aware of it

[@mayla787]

Exactly my thoughts 😁

[@Im____ltm]

I knew it from the very beginning! He was always so savage on SHINee’s Hello Baby, even back in their fetus days. “Is this the reality you wanted?” 😂

[@mentira32]

Everybody trying to get Taemin to guess "luggage" is my favourite Shinee moment ever

[@hellothere113]

and the face Taemin made at 1:33😂he was so confused😂😂

[@shineformejimin5025]

I'm telling you I'm completely dECEASED at this Definitely now my fave moment too

[@zackitachi1]

Taemin's confused face is my life blood. 😆

[@mjj1434]

@Bamboo Kun - It just made me giggle - release some tension .

[@imjudgingyou000]

his FREAKING FACE DUDE 😭😭😭😭 poor tae omg

[@jigeesha3668]

Jonghyun annoyed over Taemin taking his turn to speak is one of the cutest videos to ever exist❤️

[@armygirlsarika391]

Yeah right

[@jonyu3597]

Jjong's crazy energy charged SHINee's explosive stage performances, AND made their variety dynamic hilarious. Jongyu were the Dumb And Dumber couple, who werent afraid to be ridiculous, they JUST WENT FOR IT. I'm glad Key2min have learned from them and are not afraid to be silly nowadays.

[@shiningudk9743]

Yeahhh and Dumb Trinity was OnJongHo.... Ohh good old days😂😂

[@madeinbusanjkjm]

That was the best reenactment of a suitcase I've ever seen. 💖 Jonghyun was so unintentionally hilarious and witty.

[@MariekeNoortje8104]

Right?! Absolute genius!

[@Julianna_w]

I always love his savage humor and how he gets triggered in variety shows and concerts, our bling bling drama queen lmao. The whole Jongmi skit in Knowing Bros had me laughing from start to finish 🤣

[@raquelchaveiro5992]

Its been a while since I have seen him called that, Bling Bling, he really is a King. I miss him

[@Julianna_w]

@@raquelchaveiro5992 I'm glad he got that nickname. He'll always shine.

[@bri_brie]

Jjongs height makes everything funnier cuz he starts yelling and then everyone stand up and it looks like a toddler throwing a tantrum 😭😭

[@Madhusmita_Kar]

I think Jonghyun had a great sense of humor.

[@mayla787]

Definitely 🥰

[@Sueuhevffbcjjidis]

*has

[@minsugacat8999]

@@Sueuhevffbcjjidis he's dead 😢

[@Sueuhevffbcjjidis]

@@minsugacat8999 shut up please :)

[@unitedcoddy5956]

@@Sueuhevffbcjjidis HE IS DEAD LMAOO🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭

[@marchymeow4584]

An iconic king 😌💎👑

[@armygirlsarika391]

True

[@sleepyhead0007]

Yesss!!!!!!!!!!! He is

[@Angela-xf1xj]

Happy birthday Kim Jonghyun..Now we are no longer sad, but we want to remember you with laughter and jokes, keep staying with us, because you are always in our hearts and minds..We never pass a day without hearing your music cuz your song makes us strong and can survive anything even in our toughest times. We love you always forever

[@robinwangai3303]

GODDAMMIT ANGELA NOW I'M CRYING-

[@xxnelliexx]

Honestly still sad because we lost such a talented precious angel. Plus crying and laughing to him do the most random shit is a great pass time. Well crying doesn’t always mean im sad idk lol

[@نيرمينعبدالرحمن-ي6ك]

talk about yourself ,You are not sad about losing him. Five years have passed and I am still grieving for his loss. I have not forgotten him. It still hurts

[@jinkisyellowsuit]

this is my first time celebrating jjong's bday since i'm a babywol, and it's been so amazing!!! seeing how loved he is makes my heart so full

[@cheeesecake178]

welcome to the fandom babywol

[@grea12345]

Me too

[@chellekim7070]

Welcome to the fandom I hope you find your happiness here!

[@MandySam13]

Every Shawol loves this guy. He is ever present. Check out his solo work too if you have not already, he’s truly amazing. He produced most of his albums. One of the few SM artists that had so much creative control coz they knew how good he was. Gifted songwriter/composer, who wrote for others too. He collabed with many artists even outside SM. Legend level guy.

[@jinkisyellowsuit]

@@MandySam13 i have!!! i adore all his albums, i think my favorite is story op.2 but i love base as well 🥺

[@Annie-ow9yn]

1:30 my favourite moments is him trying to act out luggage and his saesang skit on the plane. I didn't get to stan Shinee when he was alive but he is still my bias. Happy birthday Jonghyun❤🌙⚡

[@michellesmirnova4471]

Jonghyun’s complete dismissal of people making rude comments is what I love so much about him The way he’s like “I sing songs about sex if I want to.” It’s really inspiring, especially in developing the industry it means a lot

[@shineeingstars]

I would like to remind each and everyone of you to be mindful of what you write here. Let's make this a safe and healthy place for everyone alright? Anyways I'm curious to know what are some of your other favourite moments from Jjong? He's probably one of the most entertaining & hilarious person EVER pls.

[@_ilovekpop_thanku5125]

Like...YES

[@marchymeow4584]

Every moment of jjongie is a fav of mine he is an iconic funny legend 💅🏻

[@NataliaMoon29]

when he makes jokes and flirt with key also when he acts like an aries he was xDD

[@shineeingstars]

@Geovana Blan The song is called CRAZY by Jonghyun. It's from his 1st a ep album called BASE. 😊

[@oohwhatatragedy7908]

my absolute favorite is KRUMP KRUMP

[@sabrinaash4104]

Most memorable Jonghyun moment.....? All I can think of now is that time when Yoogeun ran straight to Jonghyun's crotch and he writhes in pain and said to Yoogeun "Appa has to marry!" TvT

[@caroline366]

I remember that and did&do still laugh at that moment🤣

[@andredaniel6658]

Timestamp???

[@seashells1460]

I personally don't see Jonghyun as an "unintentionally funny" person. I think hes well aware he's making a joke and he's trying to get laughs. He was a very emotionally and overall intelligent guy 💕

[@musicmakesone4846]

That Gangsta Paradise during Weekly Idol will always be my favourite :)

[@mypinkexo]

jonghyun is one of my favorite human beings, seeing his smile makes me so happy:] i'm really lucky to stan such talented, funny, humble, hardworking music genius like him!! happy birthday jjong, i'll always love you the most!!

[@Onaamiu]

When you realize the true purpose of this video was to get all of us Jjonged...

[@lauraventicinque532]

It worked ❤

[@kimbapkidding9933]

It worked tho-🤡💅

[@xxnelliexx]

It did work

[@rain.chasee]

it worked-

[@Kais_Peaches]

OH I'M CURIOUS YEEEAAAHHH

[@run2095]

TM: "im an innocent boy" JH: *chokes on water. KB: "watch out babe" Would be my most favorite ever. Sorry to burst our bubble guys but apparently Taemin's talk about his magic hands :')

[@bluejeans5125]

Mine too!!! LOL

[@jonyu3597]

What program is this from?

[@run2095]

@@jonyu3597 thailand interview radio. I forgot the name but lemme check it at second

[@run2095]

@@jonyu3597 Tofu Pop radio, i can't share link idk why

[@run2095]

@@bluejeans5125 he's be like. I know you're not 😏

[@forestguardian0309]

Shinee always clowned Jonghyun so hard but he gave it back as good as he got and never hesitated to remind them he was Mr Bling Bling ☺️ Hes a gift to this world

[@Ani-sd9zt]

Me in 2019 gets into Shinee: bias Jonghyun Finds out that he’s up in heaven: bias still Jonghyun December 18 rolls around: cries but bias still Jonghyun Actually gets to know other members and starts stanning: bias still Jonghyun Shinee Don’t Call Me comeback: bias still Jonghyun but damn it Key be bias wrecking me Today: it hit me that I didn’t even know him when he was alive but he’s still my bias CUZ THATS HOW FRICKIN AMAZING HE IS THAT HE LEAVES A HUGE IMPACT ON PEOPLE EVEN WHEN HES NOT HERE WITH US Not only is he an amazing artist, vocals, dancing, solo, but he’s also such a caring comedic crack head like we’re blessed😭💕

[@mayla787]

So you are a jongkey shipper🥰

[@daluxoeu3153]

1:55 *Minho: 25 models came and they are all taller than me, I feel a little belittled in the beginning.... Jonghyun: what kind of life have I been living for the past 27 years??* 😂😂

[@MandySam13]

That shady smile Key gives at that comment was so funny as well! Both are savage kings! 😂

[@forgetfulstranger]

Key was enjoying lmao

[@leejoobi8884]

😆😂🤣

[@babyclownfish8156]

HOW DOES HE THINK I FEEL?! IM 5’2!! EVERYONE IS TALLER THAN ME!!

[@cjessy2558]

I missed the sound of his laughter his wit his humour his savageness ❤️

[@lauraventicinque532]

Everything about Jonghyun was special, I wish he knew how special and loved he was

[@onyour.silvia_]

Exactly how i feel

[@shiner5256]

JongHyun always The Great balance within the Group. He can Match his personality with all of the Member Differently. The Only one Who Can handle and Naturalise Key's sassiness. One of the MOST talented idol

[@teresahowells4879]

Very true

[@czyrusdames]

Woah I agree

[@augustrose5]

This is how I want to remember Jonghyun; for his great sense of humor, great personality and incredible vocals.

[@gds5959]

Jonghyun was so hilarious and always had a bright chaotic energy on variety shows, I loved seeing these moments again 🥺🥺

[@melissamarie9839]

I’ll never get over that video of Jonghyun eating the dogs face 😂😂😂 cracks me up every time

[@hurrycat9538]

To me he's the funniest member in SHINee, the dynamic with other members make it even better 😂😂

[@amouryong]

I couldn't stop smiling through out the whole video

[@tanya19-d3k]

Jonghyun's "OH MY GOSH!" is something I never knew I needed🤧😭

[@ochixiru]

That reenactment of a luggage was so perfect omg 😂

[@blingbling4109]

Happy Birthday Jjongie!! Damn his humour 😂😂 he is the sassy queen! "Suit Up" has never been the same after that!!

[@ayeshayusuf3264]

Sassy queen 😍👑😍

[@sahartariq3261]

10:21 is my happy place he's just too FREAKING ADORABLE! And we all know he's an absolute sweetheart and softie in real life but the camera just brings out the savage crackhead in him just like that.

[@jebepilled]

jonghyun inventing comedy for 13 minutes -straight-

[@kipklop975]

omg 6:48 will forever be legendary 😂😂 I love how the backstory is also that minho actually sprayed so much water on jjong hence the floor was slippery HAHA

[@tracywright5907]

Jonghyun is one of the most charismatic bad ass Kpop idols ever. Total legend. Great video. 💙

[@SunooAndHisHourGlass]

It's sad that the K-pop industry is no longer like this...

[@VegaEridani]

How about all of the above? And these too: *Jonghyun to Minho: I AM NOT YOUR ARMREST! 🤣🤣🤣 *Jonghyun trying to act out luggage. Jonghyun rolls on the floor as Key "opens" the luggage to take out stuff *Jonghyun negotiating for the hanwoo beef set for the next 2x dance *Jonghyun and Onew at the SMAs 🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@MsSalugi]

Jonghyun, Minho, and Onew will forever be the goofball trinity😂 Whenever those three interacted in the same room together, it was a wrap😭🤣

[@_ilovekpop_thanku5125]

Happy birthday Angel

[@shinee5942]

I really love his "nan.. de?"like idk it's cute but not really cute. Like.. Someone help me describe his "nan..de? "

[@catalinacelisaranguiz58]

10:15 probably my favourite Jjong moment!! So cuuuute

[@SesshyLover777]

The "no I knew it was the 2nd verse I was right here, I WAS RIGHT HERE!!!" fucking SLAYS me every damn time

[@hanscheesecake3134]

Jonghyun + Jackson = Same vibes, legit the same person!😭😭🤌

[@marchymeow4584]

12:38 jokes on you i love being jjonged 😌😌💅🏻

[@zhangbravery6800]

The “romantic” videos and the luggage has me rolling in the floor dead. He’s so funny 🤣

[@jb.i.love6v675]

When Jonghyun said "What kinda life I have been living for the past 27 years" i-😂💀 bc I can relate😭

[@koya5001]

We miss him like crazy! Watching this brings laughter to me, but also this immense sadness too. I wish he could be here somewhere, retired, on this planet. But instead, he became a star high above us.

[@HangNguyen-wg2hx]

A Vietnamese singer made a video on YT saying that she could connect with Jonghyun’s spirit after his death. She said he had reincarnated into another life . So don’t be sad, I think he is happy now.

[@koya5001]

@@HangNguyen-wg2hx Sure... That would be nice, just never trust those people who post it on KZbin and say they connected with someone from the death. Not saying it can be true, but I think if it be true she'd not make a KZbin video about it. Bit disrespectful.

[@HangNguyen-wg2hx]

@@koya5001 I really appreciate your opinion. But I’m sure she didn’t make that video for views or attention of JH’s fans because she didn’t mention JH’s name in her video title. I myself didn’t know about that until my husband told me about her story ( my husband doesn’t know anything about Kpop but cares about spirituality and karma)

[@koya5001]

@@HangNguyen-wg2hx I'm just more of an atheist I guess, although I do believe is some form of spirituality. The saying and my struggle is always "believing is seeing, and seeing and believing" and especially when you believe something you could maybe see it because you believe, or you think you see it because you believe. Btw, I meant my last comment not as a mean one, it's just I'm not floaty enough to believe in people saying they talk with death. Although, I speak to them all the time hoping they would hear. Makes no sense, I know but it is what it is. ♥️😆

[@SugaryGoodness]

The amount of good vibes and fun he just adds is insane

[@etheralyoon1217]

why didn't I expected to be jjonged at the end in a jonghyun video.... I'm....

[@Ethan-df5sr]

I expected it but I wasn’t at the same time 💀

[@sonusir1979]

Instead of laughing, I'm crying... He was such an angel, my birthday comes in the same month as him and every time April comes all the memories I had of meeting him at a fan sign event come flooding back...WE WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU JONGHYUN NO MATTER IF YOU AREN'T WITH US ANYMORE

[@seiikei]

WE DONT CARE BOUT CAMERON BRYCE IMMA CRY THE NIAGRA FALLS OVER HIS DEATH

[@KirbStompYT1]

@@seiikei um am I missing something? Cause how is your comment related and why wouldn’t you care about Cameron Boyce dying?

[@maeic19671]

See...this video right here is the exact reason why this tiny man is my ultimate bias 💕

[@sashinirathnayake7352]

He's THE chaotic king, especially in variety shows.

[@cherry.joy2445]

I feel so nostalgic... I've witnessed all these moments and much more... and I can't believe how much time flies ...I swear that Juliette comeback feels like it was yesterday my first cb with my SHINee... now I'm streaming Atlantis comeback .. *cries in aqua pearl*

[@gwenateez]

Not at him dancing Growl in 'different' way 😂😂😂😭😂 Oh my gosh i love my crackhead man so much!

[@mystomachisflat_butheLissilent]

He knew how to make everyone laugh even without trying

[@hickyxnicky411]

Jong is too funny, miss him lots!

[@littleangelica2442]

2:02 Jjong- WHAT KIND OF LIFE HAVE I BEEN LIVING FOR THE PAST 27 YEARS? makessss meee cryyyyyy

[@BlackStarSymphony]

The krump one will always be funny.

[@MandySam13]

I have seen some of these before, but it never gets old. He is so funny and cute. Totally savage when he chooses to be, while having that intense sensitive side to him too. The package! Him trying to explain “Suit Up” without using the word Sex was just LOL! I’d have loved to see him explain “Moon!”☺️ Wonderful compilation celebrating his fun moments! Always be with you Jonghyun-ah! Love you! 💙

[@srabastisengupta]

Jonghyun is the comic relief of Shinee.. I love how effortlessly funny he is with sparks of naughtiness in his eyes.. And damn his smile.. he has one of the most innocent and cutest smiles I have ever seen.

[@marchymeow4584]

6:43 *KRUMP KRUMP PUSH UPP PUSH UPP*

[@andykarstark9291]

Omg they r saying push up push up? All this time I have been saying Poosho Poosho! 🤦‍♀️

[@mahnoorvids2781]

I miss Jonghyun. He always put a smile on my face and my god when he smiled i was so happy. He will never be forgotten. This video means a lot because it means people are still thinking about him as they should. We need to remember the funny guy who was an amazing attribute to SHINee and always would be. Shawol forever xxx R.I.P Jonghyun. We all love and miss you xxx

[@rica2k5]

im kinda sad how im so late stanning shinee thanks for the sweet fun memories you have left us Sir Jonghyun may you rest in paradise

[@parpar_]

Not just his voice but also his humour, confidence and energy really helped rookie shinee !

[@teresahowells4879]

Beautiful memories of a beautiful man. This the perfect collection to show to someone new to Jonghyun and SHINee. I love the Excuse Me Miss exchange between Minho and Jonghyun. The krump is an all time Jonghyun classic - it sums him up so well - being dorky and having fun, but still smiling and laughing his head off after he lands in a heap on the floor.

[@evelring2366]

I just found out that he's from SHINee today and my friend told me he passed. This positive comment section makes me feel much better about it tho.

[@_sam_ddn]

I love how you've added "Oh my GOSH!" after each clip 😂 Happy belated birthday Kim Jonghyun 💐❤💎

[@warmwinter948]

so much energy and love in a tiny body lmao i love him so much

[@LadyCookie88]

I miss him :/ he was an authentic, inspiring and just overall lovable person...

[@luvletter93]

Can I just say all these moments are so LEGENDARY hahaah you just can't get tired of watching these over and over again. I loved every single moment of Jjong and his humour hahahah missing this active (and sometimes out of control) pup everyday!

[@kikisdayy]

Omg Jjong would have so much fun with ending fairies and on Jessi’s show ngl

[@bambibapexo395]

happy birthday our angel

[@cvntsoul]

That clap crab one is my fav lmfaooo . Also the blindfold thingy. And the krump one😭 the laugh tho. This dude is so funny. A pefect and talented human being!

[@beckyc9530]

He was so funny. so lively. When I saw the clip from the lonely video filming my heart stopped. I know we shouldn't just remember him for his death. But that small clip made me remember how people can act silly and smile and still be suffering on the inside. We have to really pay attention to our loved ones.

[@itspeachiie]

It’s so sad that someone as bright as Jonghyun had to leave this world. 5hinee forever!

[@diamondsfanj]

My precious Jonghyun. This video makes me both sad and happy at the same time. Ah how funny, talented, and handsome you were

[@SunhaJae]

He was such an angel..so cute handsome hilarious.. Who can told after see him that he was in pain for years for life!! Many of our fvrt idols maybe depressed sad even we can't Imagine.. We must protect our love..

[@emibeth8956]

I remember spending most of my teenage days watching Shinee in Variety Shows it started from Hello Baby, to their episodes in running man, their appearances in weekly idol etc. In all those shows Jonghyun has given me so much laughter and comfort. He never changed he was always the dazzling, entertaining, humble, and savage human being that he was. I’ll always treasure the memories I have of watching him, my only regret was not seeing him in person and taking his presence for granted, but thank you for all the laughter and comfort Jjong. You will always be remembered and loved.

[@BTSARMY-vj8eq]

We miss you too much jonghyun😭😭😭😭

[@run2095]

Happy birthday our beloved! You're an Aries too huh? Suddenly I can relate more with him. I dear you Jjongie.

[@Yvonne_Taylor]

This video made me fall in love with him all over again. He will forever be by bias.

[@parissong1758]

He signed again instead of telling the girl he’s already done it. He’s truly the sweetest

[@nicosei5615]

he's the coolest fr

[@NataliaMoon29]

omg thanks for the video, its good to remind him this way i stan shinee late but im glad that i decide to become a shawol such a beautiful group btw can u do someday "shinee being their zodiac sign"? that will be amazing¡ *HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONGHYUN WHATEVER U ARE, forever in our hearts*

[@cjessy2558]

Jonghyun is quick witted and funny and savage at the same time. I missed him so much even though it is getting easier to watch his old videos like this, it does still hurt

[@harshalibhagat26]

How can we ever forget this angel who gave us so much memories 🥺😭❤️💫💜

[@exothenationglobalpick3086]

Precious memories will never forgotten and Precious person will always be remembered! You will always be in our hearts Jonghyun💙

[@cindchan]

I've only just started getting into Shinee. I remember hearing about Jonghyun when I first became a Kpop fan about 3 1/2 years ago and always thought it was sad. Now that I'm becoming a fan, I'm sad that I never really got to know him while he was still with us. I am grateful for these videos that show me who he was. And I'm glad that they are funny videos, so that I can laugh and see what a very talented person he was!

[@shineeingstars]

It's never to late to become a fan and we are so glad to have you. Jonghyun indeed was a very funny person and I'm so glad I could share that with you although this isn't everything. We shawols are always so happy whenever they get new fans. They are all really incredibly talented individuals and Jonghyun definitely was too. His artistry and contribution to SHINee/kpop was massive. There's many other videos you can take a look on youtube that explains that as well as funny ones too. Don't hesitate to ask if you need any help and welcome to SHINee World. :)

[@redfoxakame]

My biggest regret in life is not knowing and stanning SHINee sooner. I was just a carat (like I'm not even too much into K-Pop) and became a shawol a few months before their cb "Don't Call Me." And I was just Taemin's fan first. I wish I could've been there with the SHINee World as witnesses to Jonghyun's wonderful life. I wish I could've been a support to him, too. Maybe it would've been sadder (and I cried over him a lot of times now), but it would've been priceless. The time that the fandom has spent with SHINee, especially when Jjong was still around, is so beautiful and precious. However, it wasn't my fate to be with them at those times. So I'll be here with the remaining Four, supporting them as much as I would've back then. And I will be one of the witnesses of this legendary group, SHINee. And since I'm also a carat, I will support SEVENTEEN as much, too. The things I wasn't able to do for SHINee, I will do for them. It's my own way of honoring SHINee. I wish the best for both groups. Me? I will never leave either of them. :)

[@orionreyes8333]

He's funny without even trying!! 😂😂😂😂😂

[@MsSalugi]

Basically anything this man said during Hello Baby had me laughing and in tears😂 His competitive Aries spirit always popped out when trying to win over Yoogeun's heart lool😭 P.S. For anyone who is in need of hilarity, I HIGHLY recommend you watch Hello Baby. Its wholesome, is comedic gold, and has so many one-liners I reference and still to this day crack up to🤣❤

[@cotton_qtie8438]

Let’s admit it jonghyun was the definition of confident gay 😂

[@rosamaryful2]

HAPPY HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY KIM JONGHYUN!! (4/8/23)🎁😇 RIP🙏🏽

[@justhere1278]

Jjong is always a funny,relatble,cute Angel.This video made my day better.💗

[@arcie3716]

Seeing him react to Blackpink and playing with the puppy we’re my favorite moments from this video. So cute ❤

[@sathvikasharma8229]

I still can't believe this precious soul was suffering inside back then and the fact that he is not there with us anymore is damn painful😭