Jordan Opens Up About Postpartum Depression

[@j-17-smith]

I learned from my son’s pediatrician 24 years ago, after repeated ear infections and an allergic reaction to an antibiotic… antibiotics attach to white blood cells. The life span of a white blood cell is 14-21 days. So when you take the last dose of your antibiotics, they remain in your system until the newest white blood cells die off. If the antibiotic has not killed the infection, it will flare up again because it is no longer being fought. So when you think it’s “another” ear infection or round of strep, it could very likely be the same original infection. I wish they told all new parents this! That was when we decided my son needed tubes in his ears and his adenoids removed to address the ear infections. And it was the best decision! Good luck!

[@TheRealHellataz]

Jordan the bravery you have, to be not just public, but to do so with so much heart wrenching detail is inspiring and I know you sharing your experience will help other young mothers dealing with the same thing. Mental illness is so stigmatized and it’s wonderful when people like you who have a large following open up and become vulnerable. It gives other the same courage, even if it’s not to be as public as you, your words will still inspire others to at least reach out for help before it’s too late. I’m so happy you were able to communicate to Jeff and so grateful he was open minded and understanding to support you and not judge you. Shows the strong and resilient character you both have. 💜 Lawson and Layton are unbelievably lucky to have you both.

[@synthias5594]

Jordan, I had postpartum depression and didn’t know it. My primary doctor prescribed, and I depressants to me for the first three years. When I had to move to the next tier of medication for depression, he sent me to the psychiatrist. That’s when I found out what I was going through. That was three years after I had my youngest. Your story is my story. I had those same thoughts about crashing into some thing or if I missed the curve and just let my car go off the road. Stuff like that. Like you, I didn’t tell anybody because I didn’t want anyone to take my kids away from me. Isn’t it crazy how hormones can do crazy things in our body after childbirth? Then the protective side of us always kicks in, so we don’t share when we should. I knew in my heart that I would never commit suicide. I still know that I could never commit suicide. I am not afraid to go to the doctor when I need mental help. I can totally relate to you. I’m glad you guys are sharing your story. I know it will other women that may not dealing with, and scared to talk also. This podcast has really opened my eyes, or you could say woke me up, about sharing my story when opportunities come. Women, it is OKAY to get help for your mental health. We need to destroy that sigma that says “you’re crazy if you do.” Jeff, I admire how you are super supportive in the rough times. Fortunately, I have a supportive husband also. I’m glad you are sharing from your perspective so other husbands can learn from your experience and take supportive action with their wives. I love what you guys are doing in this podcast. Call and I look forward to the humor in next weeks podcast. 😂

[@danishamitchell3565]

You can tell Jeff really tried to be strong for Jordan in this episode. He tried his hardest not to cry and keep a strong face for her 😩 I love this episode so much and I’m sure Jordan helped a lot of women battling with this.

[@tamarakelli687]

I went through the same thing with both of my boys. I stayed away from nerve meds and antidepressants, but I don't judge anyone for needing those tools or any other. I just lived in prayer, reading the Bible and journaling to GOD. It really helps. Also, working out and eating healthy makes a huge difference. People usually call the way I did it, "raw dogging" it. A family member took Xanax to help hers, but she ended up being angrier, less patient with her kids, and even more depressed. But there to each their own. I just want to applaud you, Jordan, for opening the dialog for a way for everyone to relate and trade helpful tips. Thank you! We love you, both! Thanks again for sharing.

[@tamaratamigibson7168]

Thanks for sharing such a difficult time for you all. I had some tears during this podcast. I am sure this podcast will help a lot of women who are going through the same thing. Seeing both you and Jeff shed tears had me going too. It was great to see Lawson and Layton! Those boys love you Jordan!! (and they love you too Jeff). God Bless You!! Love you all! Tami Gibson

[@leenaprice6832]

I love how authentic and real this podcast is. Sets them apart from all the superficiality I usually see on KZbin!

[@jessicaheibert1738]

It's funny how in this episode in the beginning you're talking about how doesn't matter how you look or how you dress cause you can feel comfortable like we are always here in the same room. That's another reason why I love watching you guys because it's like I don't know how you guys are doing it, but you guys are so good at making it seem like everyone is in the room with you like. You guys are just with a group of people, but I think it also probably helps that it isn't just. You 2 also have people there in the room. And then you have everybody listening.. It's just so nice to watch so nice. Listen, so many people can relate to what you guys are going through. What you guys do, how you guys are? And we can all have fun together and everything. I got and I love how it can be fun. And it can be serious and you guys are just real. I absolutely love it and I hope your podcast keeps going!

[@MomPita]

I remember about two weeks after my son was born, I was looking in the mirror at myself, not recognizing who I was. All I could think of was putting my head through the mirror, and the thought of ending myself made me laugh.. and I laughed until I cried and I swear I cried for days on end after that, until I felt empty. Post Partum depression is no joke, it's terrifying. God Bless you Jordan, for bringing awareness, and talking about it.

[@KrystenGail]

Thank you for sharing. I had postpartum after my second baby and felt so guilty. I work in OB now and we need to talk about this, it’s ok to not be ok at a time that something is supposed to be so amazing and lovely. We need more people like you to talk about their experiences. Love you guys ❤

[@24newmexico45]

I am 61yr. old and have been a Big Brother fan and am a big fan of you two. I didn't know you two had a podcast and just found it by accident and glad I did. I just wanted to drop a line to say how real and funny you guys are. Thanks for being real and sharing with us.

[@paulaivie8008]

God doesn't give us anything we cannot handle. We are constantly being tested. Together you guys passed the test. Diagnosis is key, Admitting something is wrong is paramount and Loving each other through the Healing is crucial to a positive outcome. As hard as this was for you both, look at what it did to strengthen you personally and as a couple. Thank you for sharing such raw experiences with the world. side note: little kids in school are like petrie dishes. They bring home every little virus imaginable. Lawson is at the age where his tonsils might be causing him grief. Best of luck! You're doing an awesome job.

[@lvgirl]

No one knows what goes on behind closed doors. Hats off to you for being so real and sharing.💐 One day at a time!

[@sjayne27]

Your boys cuddling with each other is the sweetest thing! 😍

[@kanoedurocher4005]

Jordan you are an amazing woman. That was a wonderful thing that you were strong enough to share some really deep and dark moments of your life. You have probably touched many women lives and even saved a few as well. Jeff, you are an amazing husband and father. You being there for Jordan through it all and not just throwing in the towel is awesome. If you two can get through all of that, I see many more podcast in the future. 🙂And last, those boys are so handsome. Was happy to see them make their appearance.

[@akbizzle1]

Oh my gosh, Jordan… I'm glad you shared your story and I'm even more glad, that you overcame your postpartum experience. I mean, I'm a single, 37-year-old quadriplegic with no kids, just 2 nephews and a niece. But I'm now going to talk to my sister, and ask if she went through the same thing. You guys make me laugh and even tear up, watching and listening to y'all. I just love this podcast

[@dawne0606]

One of the main things that attracted me to you both is your raw honesty! You keep it real! Thank you for being brave and sharing your story. ❤️

[@carolparks-qn9wi]

Jordan sweetheart you are such a beautiful soul. Honey I’ve been where you have as well. God puts us in the perfect place at the right time. Be proud of yourself. Your doing and feeling everything a mother goes through. It will I promise get better. Praying for your family 💜

[@reneego311]

I have a feeling you’ve just helped a lot of people with this conversation. But even if you only help one person, it’s totally worth it. Thank you for sharing!!

[@Hoacc333]

Thanks for sharing your story. I just had twins 4 months ago and I had some postpartum anxiety and this podcast just made me feel better today ❤.

[@Marriedhimanyway.]

Thank you for sharing your experience and raw, real story. It will help so many people in a similar situation. You are a blessing! You make a difference! (I’m a former OB-Gyn nurse. And you told it like it can be. I hope others hear your story.)

[@nicgeorgiapeach]

So brave and honest. Grateful you shared this. When my daughters are pregnant I plan to discuss this so that we can be sure they feel comfortable being honest about what they are experiencing.

[@ellendee5441]

I loved you guys since big brother, even though you guys are a famous tv couple, watching you through the years I think what I loved from you was feeling your realness and how relatable you are to us "little people"😂 The fights, the bickering and the love, I really think I try to mirror my marriage I'm the same way as you guys. Sending so much love from Canada BC

[@melyssap477]

I honestly can’t thank you both enough for this podcast. My family fell in love with you both on BB and I love how REAL you both are!! Mental health is very important and I’m so thankful that you are using your platform to shine a light on how important it is to take care of yourself and be honest with how you are really feeling. I could say so much more but for now I just wanted to say thank you 💜🙏🏻💜

[@dannielleschmitt2268]

I love you guys. Jordan, you are so brave! Thank you, for being so vulnerable and sharing the difficulties in your life. I don’t have kids but I do have depression & have had those same thoughts you had. Just had a birthday & feel like no one even cares I’m alive & wondering why I’m still here. The struggles are real. If it wasn’t for God, I’d be gone. Also, I appreciate the way you look. You’re your real authentic self & not fake & even pretty when you think you look like a mess.

[@kara8207]

Everyplate is a must try ‼️‼️‼️‼️

[@archthebestest]

Awesome podcast. This is exactly how i felt with my second son. It was awful, and is not talked about enough. Although my OBGYN told my husband to "watch me" when i was discharged. It was like she saw the warning signs within the first few hours of his birth. Awareness!

[@GramsJams]

It’s okay Jordan. What is past is past. You’re doing great now. I don’t remember depression as much as the fear. I was so worried about every little thing with both my newborns. I was scared to death about doing anything wrong,it took a lot of the joy of just having them away. My baby girl is 51 now,my baby boy is 48. We made it through just fine. ❤️

[@craftypi7596]

Thank you for sharing such intimate times of your life. It was so authentic and raw. It really spoke to me. I haven’t had children but, I identified with the depression side. I don’t speak about those times in my life. I admire your bravery to do so. Thank you again. ❤️

[@DoranneB]

Thank you for sharing your experience. I also thank God for putting your aunt’s friend in the right place & time to share her experience. You really needed that moment and I think God made that happen. He is so good! I am so thankful you are on the other side of that scary time, and now you can help others to become aware and to know to not be afraid to seek help. Love your podcast so much! What a beautiful family. ❤️

[@stacie9865]

I felt the same after having my son. I felt so guilty and like a horrible mom because I didn’t have that immediate connection. I couldn’t breast feed, and he had trouble with his formula. I blamed myself for that too. I don’t think I stopped crying for the first year. I would get so angry every time he cried but didn’t want to show it bc I didn’t want people to think I would ever hurt my baby. He is three now and we’re connected by the hip. After my daughter, I had it again but not near as bad.

[@debyoung5968]

I admire you for being willing to discuss this topic. To be real and raw. To be so open is helpful. I won't share details but can say, I went through something similar. I had my first child when I was 16 years old. I didn't know how to be a mother to a baby I felt detached from. I never spoke of it. I never admitted it. I kept it all inside for 7 years. Finally, I sought counseling and learned so much. For anyone going through this, please don't be ashamed to seek help. Thanks Jordan and Jeff! Sending you a gentle hug and wishing you and your family the best!

[@maireadleonard5569]

Love how real Jordan and Jeff always are and this topic is something people don’t share or speak about enough ❤

[@Blaqueasian]

REAL…this was REAL and it hit. My PPD was years before yours Jordan but as you were talking I felt it all flood back. Tears through the whole podcast! THANK YOU 🙏🏽 both for being so open and willing to share your experience. One thing about PPD, it never completely leaves you. BLESS YOU and your precious family! ❤

[@lornag2227]

Thank you so much Jordan for the sharing of your postpartum. I for one never had any children but at the age of 42 I am married and I'm 67. I had a total hysterectomy. The doctor didn't give me any hormones or anything. But wow, I really had some sort of a breakdown. Suicidal thoughts and everything. So he put me on Zoloft which has saved my life. I still do get a few panic attacks here or there and will also take my Xanax. My doctor was very understanding and thank God my husband was. 32 years of blissful marriage. Thank you so much for sharing everything. I do remember you have an a podcast in that tiny apartment after Lawson was born and how he was crying in the background and you didn't know what to do and it's like. Oh my gosh, I just felt so helpless that there was nothing I could do to help you even know you have no idea who I am. But you have come a very long way and I believe you have helped a lot of people out there. Your podcasts are awesome. I hope you can find out what is continuing to make Lawson and sick. Good luck at the doctors. Take care, Lorna❤

[@taylortwinsandpreslie8662]

I had baby blues after my first born. It was a few weeks of the hopelessness and then it was gone thankfully. Then I had my twins a few years later and those baby blues stuck around for weeks. I also would take daily walks. I'd get them in the stroller, walk around my neighborhood just sobbing but knowing I needed to be outside. It was such a hard time. Thankfully that feeling of total hopelessness left after 3 weeks. Going through that made me way more empathetic to people who struggle with depression on a daily basis. It's no joke. Please get help. Know that you're not alone.

[@jerithomson9552]

I cannot even begin to imagine how triggering talking so openly about SI is for Jordan. Sweetheart you are so courageous to be so vulnerable on a public platform like YT, IG etc. I just want to give you a big big hug and tell you that you are so brave. One correction is that these feelings during postpartum are “normal”. I’d rephrase and say “common”. These are not normal feelings. These are extremely severe mood related disorders relating to hormone imbalances that occur during the postpartum period (up to 1 year after birth). I have had to get a patient’s permission to add her significant other on a call and make him aware of what was happening with her because she was too scared/ashamed/disappointed to tell anyone thankfully she shared with me and we immediately got her help same day OB appointment and same day counseling appointment. I 100% agree with getting out to walk every single day. Do not lay around, take a 3 min 🚿 shower, walk and have a list of a few friends family you can call to help you stay connected with outside life.

[@t_r_a_c_y_aka_gigi9846]

BEST Podcast ever!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!

[@jmac2757]

I heard Brooke Shield’s tell her story. Very similar to yours. So important to talk about. You two are so special for being so real ❤

[@KristiSmith-Johnson]

I just listen to this episode, I cried and just wanted to hug you. I love your vulnerability and sharing this story. Thank you

[@donnapatelmo316]

Jordan you are doing a great job you are living away. From family Jeff works a lot you basically had those children alone for years ! Don’t be so rough on yourself.. I’m so sorry you went through all of this 😢but God bless you both 🙏🏼❤️ you did it 💪🏼 you are stronger than you think Jeff was awesome 👏🏼 good man

[@ilselieberthal8773]

Very helpful info.

[@meganteeter6759]

I totally relate to your story. Esp the part about going to doctor and just turning on the bubbly personality. I think I was also scared what kind of meds or things they’d make me do. Or I couldn’t take it back once I said it. ❤

[@chrissybrangi6599]

You're such a BEAUTIFUL SOUL🦋 It takes courage to be this honest. I've been watching/keeping up with you & Jeff since BB and love you both..I know so many people say that but I mean it from my heart. Your such good people. I've never had a baby but have STRUGGLED so much most of my adult life with severe depression & I had the same thoughts😪 I too was so afraid to tell anyone but finally had to & got help. It's ok to talk about it because more people feel this way than we think. BTW, you look beautiful without any makeup on, you always have. I look forward each week to watching this podcast. I will pray for you & your family. Sending you lots of love 💜

[@andolicious16]

Jordan...I've been there...thoughts of drivijg off the bridge. My son is almost 6. For a long time I didn't know what was wrong with me. 2 yrs ago summer 2021, I was so close to ending it. I started praying to God and it stopped. I told my boyfriend a few months later. Postpartum can be sooo hard. My mom (who I later found out to be a narcissist) moved in with us when my son was 6mths old. She didn't help us with our son like I thought she would....but I went crazy with PPD and her living with us. She finally moved out last mth and my son started Kindergarten recently and I finally feel like I can get to know ME again.. My niece is due in 2mths and I shared this video with her (she is struggling while pregnant) Thank you both so much for talking about this. Intrusive thoughts are so scary. This will really help some women who are struggling.❤

[@maryadam7616]

Omg thanks for sharing the kiddos. I love them so much. Jordan you are the best mom. Everyone goes through these things. Alot won't admit it. I love you and Jeff so much. Thanks for this podcast. I have really missed y'all.🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@louisetvancouver6161]

Thank you , sharing is not always easy but it’s necessary ❤

[@CutiesbyKelly]

My daughter kept getting strep infections again & again. Found out the strep but “living” deep inside the tonsils. We had them removed along with her adenoids and she hasn’t had strep since. That was 15 years ago. You are an amazing mom Jordan. It’s ok to have off times, its ok to be overwhelmed, it is also ok to need a break. Just remember to give yourself some grace!

[@samanthaclothier8581]

Loved this episode. I struggled around the same time as you and it was hard. Thanks for sharing. ❤

[@chrissyp9325]

Thank you so much for sharing your very personal story with us. I was in tears with you feeling so bad that for that long you felt that way and felt ashamed to say anything. I'm soo grateful that women was there to talk wirh you, I truly believe that was God's work in helping on the journey to healing, making your relationship with Jeff even stronger and letting you know, that Lawson has the strongest and best mommy. I will make sure my nieces who are moms and will become mom's again, watch this podcast, so that if they should ever feel the way you did, to know it's OK to speak about and get the help they may need. God Bless you Jordan, and you are an amazing woman, mother and having Jeff say we will get through this together, defines a bond and love that will never break. Having that gives your boys Everything they will need to know what true love is and what true support is. Love you guys!!! Be Happy Always ❤

[@vkdpjjkk98]

Thank you so much for sharing your story Jordan & Jeff ❤

[@alb1kenobi]

Thank you Jordan & Jeff for sharing your experience with PPD. It will help others while healing yourselves. Loved having the boys join you at the end. Huge plus in realizing they love you both. God Bless! Onward!

[@SarahSmile555]

Beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful episode!!!

[@CecileH730]

I’m just now watching your podcasts. Your kids are adorable!

[@barigirls]

I remember when they put my daughter on my chest and I immediately said to myself: this is not how I'm supposed to feel. It was a traumatic birth and I was exhausted, but there was no connection. I definitely had PPD but I didn't tell anybody, because I was afraid they'd take my baby away. Luckily things started feeling better, but it was so hard and I still carry a lot of guilt.

[@blahlissa]

I cant express how much this video is important. This is REAL life and it happens to so many mothers. Thank you for sharing Jordan

[@mdcec]

Many blessings to both of you & your darling boys. You never know just how many people that you're helping and relating to and how very special you are in doing so. Forget the reality tv Jeff & Jordan as the real life couple is so far superior!!! Love and appreciate you both❤

[@betsybabf748]

I am a suicide widow. All should remember, suicide doesn't end pain at all. It magnifies the pain by 1000 and hands it to your loved ones to struggle with their whole lives. Loved ones are never better off without you, no matter what your brain tells you.

[@mclovinlife4018]

I’m such a huge fan of you two. I just got done rewatching your seasons of big brother again. I usually do it once a year, specifically for the two you. the coupe d’etat moment will forever be my favorite bb moment. happy you guys started a podcast!

[@sarahdull9518]

Thank you Jordan & Jeff for this podcast! Postpartum is something that needs to continue to be talked about. The spouse’s & friends & families experiences need to be shared too.

[@Doxiemama88]

Love the realness of your podcast!❤️

[@kcoy7988]

Have always loved you two~and always will. God bless.

[@stefgreen624]

Beautiful family! Thanks for the real talk! I can imagine how hard it was to talk about but as someone who hasn't had kids yet, this made me realize how important it is to be open and honest with someone about what I may experience when I do have them! Thank you both for creating these podcasts! I've been a fan of both of you since I first watched BB11 a few years ago! I wish you and your families nothing but happiness and health! ❤❤❤

[@KrystenGail]

I commented before I saw the boys and OMG they are adorable! Bring them on more ❤

[@laurawallace3178]

I have been there, all the feelings and thoughts. Thank you for sharing, I know it was difficult and scary to be so vulnerable & I know you have helped SO many women with this episode. xoxo

[@Iamthestorm68]

Thank you for being so human. Depression and postpartum and suicide is not nearly addressed as it should be. Both me and my oldest son are bipolar and we both have come so close to suicide. If you or anyone you love needs help please reach out. Thank you both so much for your honesty and awareness. You are amazing and so are your son’s. Much respect.

[@lisashores1472]

I have suffered with depression for several years. Thank you for sharing this. I have felt this way all the time.

[@63angel]

My comment is long, but I hope you guys will read it anyhow. My daughter gad post partum depression. I've never known anyone who had it before. After my daughter Becca had her first son, she was thinking that her son Tyson hated her and that he would be better off without her. When my friend from Colorado came here to visit us and to meet our first grandson she walked in on our daughter giving Tyson an ice cold bath. It was so cold that his lips were blue. She was poring the cold water over Tyson and thinking that she was going to rescue him from this world. My friend called me to the bathroom to help Becca and our grandson. Becca went to her bedroom and was huddled in one of the corners crying and he was afraid of being alone with her son. My husband and I talked to Becca and her husband and we invited them to move in with us. They lived with us for about a year when she started doing better. We felt better knowing that there we were there to help her and help take care of our grandson. Her husband didn't know how to help our daughter. My daughter was 18 and her husband was 19 at the time. My husband and I never experienced anything like that. Our oldest daughter Jessica was married for a short time and Jessica and her husband would babysit Tyson if Becca needed some time away from him. Even though Becca and her family was living with us, she still needed time away from Tyson every so often. If it wasn't for my friend who came to visit us from Colorado, I don't know if anything might have happened. She understood the signs of postpartum depression a lot more than I ever would have. I didn't know what the signs were for postpartum depression. I was only thinking that she was over reacting about things. I even told her a couple of times that she should go outside and walk around and clear her mind. In my opinion its not like regular depression until my friend explained it all to me and what she went through and almost died. When she told me that she tried to take her life and almost succeeded, I took it serious. Her husband shared just how afraid he was when the hospital called him to let him know that Jerri went to the fire station to get help after taking an entire bottle of a new prescription of anti-depressants. I've been going through depression since covid began and it's nothing like what our daughter went through. I'm glad you had Jeff and others around you to help you when you were dealing with postpartum depression. There's too many people who doesn't take depression of any kind serious. Jeff and Jordan, I sincerely wish that more people would speak up and share their experiences when it comes to going through depression and feeling suicidal. There's people who are going through difficult things in their lives and are afraid to talk about and share what they've been feeling and going through things that have taken them down a path where they don't feel like there's any other choice to walk down that path alone. There's a huge stigma on mental health. I didn't realize it until my friend friend that came to visit me from Colorado was suicidal. I had to take her to the hospital. When I've had to go to the hospital for physical and health problems, she was treated a lot differently than I was. They had someone watching and guarding her like she was a criminal. The nurses and doctors was afraid to be alone with her in the room. When they treat me for health related things its extremely different than how she is treated.

[@LH-hm9nk]

I have never had postpartum depression but I have anxiety and depression. I was in that dark place. Talking is most important!! I appreciate you talking about this.

[@vegas0525]

Jordan, loving yourself and finding self awareness was the most important step to giving your family the love they feel from you now. Your courage and story is so inspiring! Remember to keep the faith and that life is a series of curveballs that are hard to navigate sometimes.

[@Joys_in_life71]

You are a very strong amazing woman to share your story. Thank you so much and I love that I found your channel

[@LnzBo]

Thanks for always keeping it real. ❤ Through the light, easy stuff to the tougher, deep stuff. Love y'all!

[@DeannaLyle]

Honestly watching your Jeff and Jordan tv or togethermess even big brother or amazing race, you two have always been so imperfectly perfect and real wether on tv or not. And It has been so inspiring and such an help for me to come to terms with things aren’t always perfect and things are messy and that’s okay! I have 4 beautiful children with number 5 on the way and let me tell you there are times I wanna just disappear for a few hours but didn’t cause of mom guilt, but since watching your podcast and that I finally did take some me time and I don’t realize how much I needed it! So thank you for the banter and the truth and just for being to very real non acting people. I admire you both truly! It’s okay to cry, it’s okay to take a minute and it’s okay to not have it all Together! Togethermess should be the normal ,not what most society and media portray normal as, with their masks and perfection. Thank you both❤

[@Dr.Pepperlady]

That literally broke my heart to see u guy cry and to love and the pain at the same time is so hard, and you two worked so hard to get where u are, much love to you guy,

[@sharikurzh732]

Jordan - Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and open regarding a really difficult subject! I'm so glad that you and Jeff were able to talk it all out and that he was able to be a support system for you!!! ❤ ❤ ❤ You are one of the lucky ones, even though it must not feel like it. I'm talking about the part where you were able to be heard and not judged! A couple of months ago there was a story in the news about a Mom that had a baby and then later she got pregnant with twins and they had to go to the NICU for a little bit. She was having severe PPD (It might have even been PPP - Psychosis). But, she did end up taking her life! It was so sad!! 😢 Now, this is absolutely none of my business, so if you Don't want to answer, I totally get it. But, is that the reason why you guys chose to not have any more kids? I just remember you talking about how you wanted lots and lots of kids. I'm probably older than your Mom and fell in Love with the two of you on Big Brother! I've pretty much watched everything you guys have put out. When I'm able to I watch Jeff on Daily Blast. Wishing the both of you nothing but Love and Happiness!! Thanks to both of you for being so Brave God Bless!! 😘 💕

[@lolamar6064]

Girrrrrl, I love how honest you are. I never had kids but I am going through peri menopause and it sounds quite similar to the moods I've been going through, omg, depression,anxiety, suicidal thoughts, low energy, . I finally went to a naturalpath and had my blood work done to check my hormone levels and sure enough, extremely low estrogen and progesterone. I started HRT(hormone replacement therapy) in May and giiiiirl I feel soooo much better, happier and no more dark thoughts, finally feeling back to my happy go lucky self . If you're still feeling low, please get your hormone levels checked. Love you both xo

[@donnette5117]

Thank you for sharing the vulnerable piece of yourself with us. Little one, you touched me deep inside. I’m personally giving you a huge virtual hug and a kiss 😘 on the cheek! I for past 2 1/2 years have been in a dark space. Your story touches a special place in my heart! ❤ Thank you

[@gracenan]

Thank you for sharing your story 🥺💕

[@luvkahlua]

❤your willingness to open up and be so vulnerable about your struggles will definitely help others. Thank you for always keeping it real.

[@tinorram296]

Just came across your podcast. First off, thank you for sharing such a private and difficult part of your life. As a fan of you and Jeff’s, I’m glad you made it through and you’re doing better. We love you!! ❤🙏🏽😘

[@cameraman043]

powerful stuff. Brave of you to share.

[@tammycope3145]

Thank you for sharing! And Jordan I would have helped you take care of that lady!!! I bet that Colorado is so much better for your mood than California!!! Lots of love to all of you!

[@estellahenderson804]

Awww I’m so happy you are ok Jordan! Thanks for sharing

[@donnapatelmo316]

So touching & real 😢I’m sorry you went through so much but it’s amazing how you both got through it together.. you have a great husband Jordan ❤.. #blessed 🙏🏼

[@yanibarbs]

Many things you went through during and after your pregnancy I went through too. I hated being pregnant…that feeling of unconditional love did not occur…I took care of my son because I knew I had not because I wanted too…..I don’t know how I got through it but I did…my son is the love of my life…

[@cweir4471]

Thank you for sharing your story! I’m glad you made it out the other side together. So many people give up on their relationships when things get tough. And how stinkin’ cute are your boys?!? I went back and watched your BB seasons and it’s fun to know where you are now when looking back.

[@sheridanmcbride]

I hate that down/angry/irritable feeling you’re experiencing right now. I go through it often and it’s never fun. Thank God for anxiety/depression meds 🙌🏼😂 but it can still be debilitating at times. Love y’all 🩷✨

[@BobBohner4851]

Oh wow this is going to help so many people. Great job

[@WeggieQueen2005]

I love you both so much. YOu are great parents and NO ONE is a perfect parent. Don't beat yourself up, Jordo.

[@sueschmidt8465]

You guys are just so awesome. Thanks for sharing a very difficult topic!! ❤❤

[@michelle67310]

So proud of you and your strength in sharing this 💪🏻 Being vulnerable like this could NOT have been easy but you just saved so many others in doing so. ❤

[@LauriStoffel]

I didn’t think I could love you more, but after listening to this podcast it happened! So proud of everything you guys have conquered, and just amazing that you are willing to share your story to help others!

[@skinnwalker4515]

So brave of you to talk about that difficult part of your journey. Thank you. And beautiful family.

[@jonimetcalf5737]

Excellent video. You can help so many others. Love to you both❤

[@ShawnaLynnn]

I HATE so much that you went through this but I applaud your strength for talking about this. It’s important to make it safe for parents to talk about different traumas around pregnancy. I refer to your depression as trauma because I know that’s not what you expected or wanted. Love and hugs to you both! ❤ 🤟🏽

[@MsBlackhawk69]

Postpartum is so stigmatized. Women need to have an outlet that makes them feel safe to say anything. Their feelings are legitimate and important. I am so sorry you 2 went through this. Hugs to both of you.

[@Dr.Pepperlady]

Oh man the end was beautiful! And epic, those boys will protect there mommy for life, remember they are very resilient! Good job much love to the whole family and jordon yes the lady at the game was GODS way of coming through ❤

[@jmelover1]

You are loved, Jordan! Walked that road myself!!

[@AshleyR]

Thanks for sharing Jordan. I'm sure it's a difficult thing to go through and even years after it still effects your mental. I hear a lot of women who have had c-sections say they can't connect with the baby and that it's very different for women who have vaginal births. It's not that c-section women don't love their baby the connection just isn't there from the start. It's major surgery on top of the life changing event of having a baby.

[@suebruce9518]

I know your podcast will be helpful to your listeners that have or had these feelings and maybe didn’t realize just what they were going through. God bless you and your family. Sending prayers for Lawson’s appointment.