journey to the north (episode 1) - i think i've lost myself

[@DavidAPiano]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts, i certainly had similar thoughts in my early to mid 30's about where i was going, and read several philosophy books, i had certain dreams and aspirations in my 20's in terms of music, some were fulfilled and some weren't and i become a bit disillusioned about everything, however after some soul searching for a few years and now over the last 5 years in my 40's music has found it's way back to me in an even stronger way, like it's a re-energising of everything from playing piano, composing, and listening, and along with that more book reading, catch ups every so often with my 4 friends who have similar interests, and i enjoy it when they share something that they have been absorbing, it all adds to up to something, i'm not sure what haha, but I know I love composing and practicing on the piano😊 But sometimes i do wish i was Jack Antonoff haha.

[@leasmovingstudio]

thank you so much for your message and for sharing your thoughts David ! it sounds beautiful how music has come back to you and that you have friends to share your passion with🌷 i think not getting the recognition we hope for our work can be very hard and can leave us very disillusioned and I think we all sometimes wish we were Jack Antonoff haha but I also think we have to look at what we achieve at our own scale and I think there's a beauty in creating art not for the whole world to see but only a select few, it feels maybe more sacred (i don't know I'm thinking out loud now haha)

[@DavidAPiano]

@@leasmovingstudio Yeah you are right about achieving things on our own intimate scale, the beauty is in the creating and hearing someone's thoughts on whatever has been created.

[@msilvia4807]

I really like this video and your reflections and I do resonate with most of it. However, I find that the part when you say "I am a social human and not a natural human" or something like that doesn't make sense. Humans are naturally social, we are influenced by our circumstances, our society, our upbringing and those around us, and I find much beauty in that, the parts that we take from others also say a lot about us. I am convinced that it can coexist with having an individual personality and it is not something we should run away from. Perhaps it was not your intention to say that, but it is a perspective I felt compelled to share. In any case I do feel very inspired by your search for identity and I hope you enjoy it and experience it at it's fullest.

[@leasmovingstudio]

Thank you for sharing ! By social human, I meant more this idea of having to perform in society and this facade that we create of ourself. I might not have expressed myself properly. I agree with you that there is a beauty in being influenced by the people that surround us, by the things we consume and the situations we live through. I don't want to completely break away from that. I think what I want is to be more conscious about what and who I let myself be influenced by. 🌷

[@msilvia4807]

@@leasmovingstudio that makes total sense and I support you in that! Perhaps deleting social media and reflecting more about ourselves is something we should all do