Listening to Strangers' Real Voicemails About Suicide | Seeking Secrets

[@JaMiE-01]

The worst thing about being suicidal is being a survivor of failed attempts.

[@Sierrz]

This.

[@noellebee4972]

THIS IS MY FEAR.

[@indybun]

Yep

[@alissonrobinsonpalomo3629]

Yeah this :(

[@WeAreWorthless]

It's TRUE 100%

[@jcb0112]

I wish I could just give my life to someone who wants to live.

[@ariwholesalerllc9010]

I feel the same way I’m not selfish I just dislike this world we live in. I wish I would of known how horrible this world was before bringing children into it.

[@angeladavis9254]

Me too.

[@trinalenay3525]

i know exactly what you mean

[@marielm9026]

Me too

[@snehafrancis2331]

Me too... At times I feel like I'm being too selfish since there are people who want to live longer, but can't... And here l am thinking about wanting to end my life...

[@lindseylord254]

I feel like depression is so much scarier when you are doing everything you can to hide it from everyone around you.

[@RainRemnant]

That's a lonely place to be in, for me it's scarier because there is no one around me anymore like friends or family

[@dwewe8913]

@@RainRemnant I hope you are doing better

[@NicoleCzarnecki]

It can be, although it’s also scary when you’re honest about it and knowing that other people are going to abandon you over it.

[@mansitahilramani5887]

The fact that we have to hide it because people around us think its unreal,that's the worse part tbh

[@ahmedanish__]

umm... can relate its so true

[@irwincrook567]

I am suicidal at this very moment and no one knows. Ironically, these videos feel like therapy

[@jastychka]

I believe in you and that your life will be better, even if I don't know you personally ❤️

[@MrSupersmokesum420]

Same here but we gotta be strong idk you but I love u cus I feel the same way cus I like to drink then get those thoughts

[@jadaonye]

I hope you guys are both still here, I'm going through the same thing at this moment, everyday I don't know how to continue, I'm at my lowest I've ever been.

[@jastychka]

@@jadaonye Life is so unexpected, really... You may be feeling at your highest one day and at your lowest the next day. The thought that keeps me going is that any crisis is a point of growth and development of a person. I believe in you, you are important ❤️

[@jadaonye]

@@embunchofnumbers are you okay? Do u wanna talk about it

[@DGTL-nz9ek]

i honestly feel bad for the caller and listener it’s hard to listen and know that someone is going through something so hard.

[@jesussavedme6260]

Jesus loves you, yes you the one reading this. you are worth dying for. Your worth is beyond words can describe - suicide is never the answer. I love you so much and Jesus loves you so so much more. 🤍 Jesus can remove all your pain, suffering and hurt. He loves you with a love you’re looking for. A love you can only imagine. Please, never take your life. If you do not want it, give your life to Jesus. You are so special, so beautiful and worthy of love. I wish I could hug you and tell you how worthy you are! Accept Jesus into your life, ask Him to reveal Himself and He will. I love you, and I hope to see you in heaven one day. I hope this can help just one person know how loved they are and turn to Jesus. 🤍

[@zennr_]

@@jesussavedme6260 Jesus isnt real. By saying "give your life to Jesus" youre quite literally encouraging suicide.

[@Sophia-wz8do]

@@jesussavedme6260 can you not.

[@LeeAlexander]

- Always know you have the power to say “This is not how my story will end” . Stay strong 💪

[@realimereads2707]

@AmazingGrace I know you're probably meaning well by your message, I used to try to look to religion to sepf-soothe myself. Some people mightn't take your message well as they may have had traumatic experiences relating to religion or may have felt disappointed that they didn't get something from religion that would help with issues - for me it's sort of the latter. It just stopped working. And so maybe this approach is better if you know the other person is religious, but if not I would say hold off. Potentially read maybe healthline blogs about what to do if someone you know is suicidal?

[@kitkatwomp]

I called the hotline a few days ago and has the nicest woman ever. She talked with me and listened to me talk about all the crap going on, thank you Nora

[@neeneepie9684]

That's so sweet :(

[@merveillemaliem4306]

Which hotline did you call?

[@mbn9672]

@bug_in_a_ basket why are you like this.

[@cutepsycho1224]

@bug_in_a_ basket Can you please stop being disrespectful 🤨?!

[@ginny_m]

Very sweet. Just know whenever you're feeling down, remember it all gets better.

[@smashingtimexvi1755]

You don't really know what true loneliness feels like until u have something to share or talk about but have nobody to share it with.

[@morningstar4813]

it truly is the worst feeling...

[@aimeemariefournier1013]

Truth

[@aimeemariefournier1013]

I actually really have no one else I’m homeless unemployable and disabled with physical pain and severe ptsd. There’s no future in the cards no home no family or friends I will never live in an ALF after being raped in a community facility. I’m not getting younger. I have no one to trust or that will help me. I’m hopeless

[@vamvam7690]

@@aimeemariefournier1013no one is hopeless, you included. You may not see it but I promise you have more worth than you realise. I really hope things improve for you soon. Best wishes from an internet stranger x

[@TheIdentifiedPatient]

Welcome to manhood...

[@alissaruder9159]

I lost my boyfriend 5 years ago. As crazy as it sounds, him taking his life, saved mine. We bonded over both being suicidal. But he took his life unexpectedly. Since then, I’ve seen the impact suicide has on everyone’s life around him, including mine. Ive thought about him every day. For 5 years. Every time I want to die, I can’t. I can’t put people through what I am going through now. He saved me.

[@jesussavedme6260]

Jesus loves you, yes you the one reading this. you are worth dying for. Your worth is beyond words can describe - suicide is never the answer. I love you so much and Jesus loves you so so much more. 🤍 Jesus can remove all your pain, suffering and hurt. He loves you with a love you’re looking for. A love you can only imagine. Please, never take your life. If you do not want it, give your life to Jesus. You are so special, so beautiful and worthy of love. I wish I could hug you and tell you how worthy you are! Accept Jesus into your life, ask Him to reveal Himself and He will. I love you, and I hope to see you in heaven one day. I hope this can help just one person know how loved they are and turn to Jesus. 🤍

[@aliciadeadlydaisy7543]

Sending prayers for your health and happiness 🙏♥️

[@alissaruder9159]

@@foetusdeletus6313 Just trying to look for a light in the dark. Trying to see any light at all. Sending love your way. ♥️

[@_kind3r]

@@foetusdeletus6313 Are u okay mentally?

[@matcha9250]

@@foetusdeletus6313 you’re awful.

[@h.haydon8044]

I remember when I was suicidal and/or depressed I would feel so bad about feeling that way because I knew people were having worse lives than me, but that would make me feel worse and more suicidal

[@banggolovesyoutube637]

Don't ever feel bad for having these thoughts and feelings. No matter how much worse other people have it, that doesn't take away the pain and struggles that you go through. Please know your feelings are valid and it's never your fault to have these kind of thoughts. Someone could have a broken foot and you could have yours strained but it would still hurt to walk on it. So go easy on yourself. ❤❤❤ I suggest you could seek help from professionals or call the hotline when you have these thoughts spiralling. My heart and love goes out to you. ❤❤❤

[@HIKOL_Nightcore]

Yes, it makes you feel undeserving of life, making you feel that you should "free up the seat on a rollercoaster"

[@michelenguyen2003]

This is exactly what I feel right now.

[@nineplustentwentyone26]

Just know that even though there are people who are "worse off" than you, your current life is still your reality. It doesn't matter how little your struggle seems as compared to others; if it affects you then it affects you. Even though your situation isn't as difficult as the other examples you are comparing yourself to, the fact that it is an obstacle for still stands. You've got to overcome it! I believe that you can :)

[@sen7055]

@@nineplustentwentyone26 Thank you for saying this ❤️

[@PleaseViewMyChannel]

*"A human being can survive almost anything, as long as they can see the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that its impossible to ever see the end."* - Elizabeth Wurtzel

[@steadfast4837]

Exponential. Mcgarry Township.

[@arze868]

Depression simply removes the illusions we have about life and shows you that there is no end.

[@travisoshea]

I tried to take my life 4 months ago and ended up in the hospital. Never thought I would have them again. Tonight it’s back again and don’t know why, maybe when things are going well some how I’m saying to myself “who are you? Someone else deserves this other than you? You are nothing?” Would anybody really care after a while or would they just forget forever?

[@anatman6304]

​@@travisosheaI hope you are still here. I used to think I was worthless, but eventually I came to love who I am. I become suicidal bc of loneliness. No one understands me, or cares about me. I have OCD and I annoy even myself lol. But I know bc of it I am not able to be loved.

[@travisoshea]

@@anatman6304 thank you for the reply. I did try to end it but failed and ended up in the hospital. It’s weird that this message came today because since that day when I tried to end my life I haven’t really had those thought until last night and today. Thanks again for your message. Yes a lot of loneliness and low self worth

[@kidsythe]

I hate the ones that say it's selfish. it gets so bad someone can't find a way out and you're gunna call them selfish. strange how you can be cruel to someone who is gone.

[@lankkydom]

it's selfish, deal with it

[@kidsythe]

@@lankkydom it's selfish to demand someone stays around knowing they are suffering.

[@lilliesinthegard32]

Is probably their own way of coping with the loss

[@lankkydom]

@@kidsythe not really, suffer and overcome, life is not for pussys

[@princessmeisha94]

@@lankkydomit’s not.

[@phatmusic]

People start 'caring' about you once your gone. Idn everyone's story but speaking from personal experience we as humans are extremely cold and surface level with eachother. No one in my family has contacted me in months to check up, friends dissipate quickly, lovers find new lovers. The cycle continues so its no surprise that certain people don't want to be on this earth anymore when they feel insignificant to people who are supposed to love and support them.

[@RainRemnant]

Now that's well said and how I wish it wasn't all true

[@Frabedo644]

*through

[@SoyLaEll3]

I'm here .. I feel the same so I understand. Reach out and we can face it together if you ever need to or even want to

[@Ventus277]

I know it sounds cliche but the truth is that the only solution to break this cycle is to love yourself and only care about your well being. Sounds selfish but it's the only way that this "love" is in your control and can never be lost by external factors.

[@lecavalier32]

Completely agree. People threaten to be mad and upset if you leave, what about caring when you're here? I'm not expecting anyone to solve my problems or be my personal therapist, but literally people pull away when you do confide. Care while people are here.

[@sandtart5641]

I have been to some VERY dark places in my life, I understand the desperation. If you haven't been there, if you haven't suffered through it, you just don't know. Though this most likely won't be seen, I would like to thank everyone involved with this video.

[@banggolovesyoutube637]

My heart goes out to you. ❤❤❤ Jubillee is doing important work with their platform in discussing difficult topics. I wish you nothing but the best in your life and am extending all my heart and love to you. ❤

[@Psychedelic430]

@@sandtart5641 it has been seen , i can tell you that!

[@catelynnes8377]

Hi i'm SO glad u were able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, just know you're a strong soul capable of anything u put ur mind to💫💝 may i ask what/who helped you get out of those dark moments?

[@sandtart5641]

@@catelynnes8377 I was literally minutes away from hurting myself, I reached out to take the landline phone off the hook so I wouldn't be disturbed. I moved my hand closer and the phone rang...that call changed my life! Five seconds more, just 5 seconds, and I would not be here today! Thanks for asking.

[@sandtart5641]

@ I was never a cutter, I use to stare at shaving blades, but never attempted anything with them. The day I was speaking about the phone ringing, I had a revolver in my possession.

[@SneezeDemon]

I almost committed when I was 15, and I remember writing in my diary, "I won't make it to 18." And I remember the day that I thought I had saw my last snow, and thinking it was pretty cold. This year I was able to write that I made it, I'm 18, and in taking one day at a time. See the snow made me realize how much more beautiful it becomes each year.

[@sophiaharalson6137]

This comment gave me goosebumps! I’m happy you’re alive today! 😆

[@nameless-ck3du]

used to have the same thinking, sometimes i still do haha. i believed that i wouldnt live past 18, i felt as if i wouldnt be able to "survive" it, which of course i wouldnt! i was only 12, how could i be ready for that? yet i feel as though as time passes by, it feels as if my sense of worth has littled, i dont see a future for me. i find it impossible to imagine a future. i read all these stories of lost adults who dont know what theyre doing, who dont have a sense of purpose in life and i feel like i will grow up to be the same as them. ended up just traumadumping sorry. happy for you! keep living, ive always wanted to see snow🥰

[@zaireenalexiapedres2398]

Wanting to commit death

[@laurynmaree8127]

Proud

[@Angela.Mirafuentes]

Im proud of you for making it 🎉

[@andrewguzik6940]

I wouldn't say taking your life is selfish cause you never know what someone feels like inside there skin.

[@caro8164]

it is selfish, period. look at all those people suffering years after a loss. I particularly feel for the wife who sees his husband. they don't deserve to pay for their loved one's pain.

[@pebbles92able]

@@caro8164 you clearly have no idea how it is to have a severe mental illness...

[@Hello-tj2cp]

"You should live a life of unbearable pain because it would upset people if you were gone" is an attitude I see a lot

[@randommess6667]

@@caro8164 Everyone is selfish at times are we not supposed to care about ourselves and do we have to care only about others? I dont understand , Everyone tells me to not do this or that to upset this other person,,, and to worry for others before myself,,, so everyone else should care about me but i musnt care about me Maybe im wrong and confused

[@Justcallmyname75]

I stayed alive because the weight of my death would destroy my family but it’s freakin hard when you want to check out and it’s even harder explaining it to ppl you love. Just the conversation alone make ppl uncomfortable. This is part of the problem. We put on this smile to mask the pain. Some ppl will say that I have no reason to be suicidal based on what I have but mental illness is real. Most will say it’s a selfish decision but what about the person in pain? Thanks for your comment

[@RedBoy500]

I remember one time I tried to commit when I was 15 because I was raped at school, and I ended up calling an ambulance that took me to the emergency room. On the ride there I started crying and said "please don't tell my mom she's gonna be so mad at me." (they obviously had to call her) And I laid there in bed crying about the pain I was in physically, and all she could do was scream at me "what did we learn from this lesson". She made we I wish I had never called the ambulance, I'm receiving lots of help now but I think that day will forever be burned into my brain.

[@swamp6825]

I’m so so so sorry she did that genuinely. I know this doesn’t mean much because you don’t know me but that wasn’t your fault, ever, for any reason. Rape isn’t a “lesson” to be learned.

[@georgie8154]

Hoping you can fully heal. Love you

[@user-mu8uu6us1s]

Stay strong

[@madalice6395]

Im so sorry, i also went through a similar experience when i was 13 , instead of my mother helping me and making me feel safe she told me i was crazy and she didn’t want to talk to me cause i was mentally ill

[@paulahillman1100]

The woman who said her husband is probably listening to Mac demarco made me smile ❤️, sending love to you all, losing someone is so terribly hard

[@geovybelen1818]

That actually made me cry

[@jamangel]

😞😞😞😞😞

[@pyles_72_]

i love mac demarco.

[@basedavocado2]

When I was in middle school my classmate was bullied, he took his life just days after I turned away his father's request to be friends with their boy. This memory still haunts me & I keep reminding myself that I could've saved someone

[@dannyd2152]

I'm sorry kiddo

[@tiana1170]

it wasn't your fault.

[@dori32]

you’re aren’t responsible for someone else’s choices at the end of the day🤍

[@jeremystevens6640]

@@dori32 exactly

[@MyAlex528]

Sometimes we just have to bear the guilt forever. It's a sad truth that probably you can never let it go. However, let the guilt make you a better person. You are a better person because you are carrying the guilt now.

[@Tetnisshot]

Dear Jessica, You took my hotline call and comforted me. You saved me for another day. My therapist was so proud that I reached out for help, and I got the help I needed. Sincerely, someone getting better every day

[@jonatripoli587]

we don't know each other but im also very proud of you for reaching out. hoping u will be better soon. Please take care

[@aswaheiman1355]

proud of you. hope you are well

[@Angela.Mirafuentes]

We’re all so proud of you!

[@Wonkess_Chonkess]

I don't know you but I'm also very proud of you! If this is to much to ask I'd understand but can we get an update about how you're doing? I'd like to know!

[@trevorallen8514]

You still OK?

[@angelpaiz3460]

I’m in a very dark place myself nice to know im not alone but it’s so weird how different we are all but still feel the same pain

[@someoneinthecrowd3162]

Hey there... I hope you're alright. If you ever need someone to talk, I'm always here to listen. The darkness may seem like it's never gonna end, but someday there'll be the sunshine filling your soul. I love you and I care about you. Please take care of yourself ❤️

[@maxmusic5380]

I want to Crack my skull it’s so bad to Feel this loathe against the world

[@serialpinknerd6235]

Same

[@catelynnes8377]

You're so precious 💞 just know your not alone🫂 tho it may feel like so, anyone can experience a similar situation it almost feels like your own but the difference is it's yours not anyone else's, a lesson that can carve your future to clarity. May I ask how you're coping w these overwhelming insidious episodes?

[@_mistertourist_travel3290]

I don't understand how people can feel suicidal I really can't like explain it to me plzz

[@danielrude1642]

I lost my grandmother to suicide on January 10, 2020. She had attempted 3 times in one year. I started living with her after the first one, to look out for her. I held onto so much anger from the second time she tried because I was in the home when she did it and I could tell something was wrong with her and she was being really nasty toward me. She was later in the hospital after an OD. I visited her in the psych hospital (her second stay) for the next several weeks. I started distancing myself, knowing that one day she was going to succeed and that I would be hurt. She stuck through the holidays, which were some of the happiest ones we had to date. Then one day when I was out of town, I recieved a call that she had done it, in the bathroom next to my room. Took me weeks to be able to shower there…. But I know she’s happier now than she could ever be on this planet. She struggled with increasingly bad mental health issues and paranoia. She had no brain activity in the parts of her brain that created the feeling of happiness. My whole family misses her deeply and try out best to remember the best times with the happy, caring, and loving woman we knew.

[@dirtbkecrash]

I'm so sorry for your loss..

[@tombocc5136]

I am deeply sorry for your loss and for what you’ve gone through

[@Kay_lahM]

I'm very sorry for your loss. She's in a better place.

[@jesussavedme6260]

I’m so sorry for your loss. Jesus loves you, yes you the one reading this. you are worth dying for. Your worth is beyond words can describe - suicide is never the answer. I love you so much and Jesus loves you so so much more. 🤍 Jesus can remove all your pain, suffering and hurt. He loves you with a love you’re looking for. A love you can only imagine. Please, never take your life. If you do not want it, give your life to Jesus. You are so special, so beautiful and worthy of love. I wish I could hug you and tell you how worthy you are! Accept Jesus into your life, ask Him to reveal Himself and He will. I love you, and I hope to see you in heaven one day. I hope this can help just one person know how loved they are and turn to Jesus. 🤍

[@Narra0002]

I’m sorry for your loss. She’s in a better place

[@panicing_socially1707]

The caller with the friend who appeared in a dream and said they could always join him broke my heart. That would be such a hard thing to hear, especially in a dream where your brain is making that happen. And the guy waking up in his own blood and being a little upset that he woke up. It’s horrible to feel that way, I get scared that I’ll wake up and would have damaged something in myself, both physically and mentally.

[@tiddywater9079]

I've attempted quite a few times of od and it's affected my body so much

[@jamelbunny5732]

@@tiddywater9079 how bad?

[@jayfortunelimited8785]

@@tiddywater9079 Never attempt. Your life is very precious and once you loose it, you cant have it back. I love you and if you need a friend, I'm available.

[@catelynnes8377]

@@tiddywater9079 hi this is a sign u hv a purpose in this world even if u didn't try to OD u always had a purpose fr the day u were born u just haven't figured it out yet. Everyone has a gift to unravel fold by fold and it's up to u to reveal that gift. May I ask how you recovered fr ur ODs mentally, physically, emotionally?

[@Foxygemme]

“I remembered being a little upset that I woke up..but I’m so glad I did.”…..that hit me in my heart. I’m so glad you woke up too. 🥺

[@aijapapaya]

Exactly a year ago I attempted. It was the scariest moment of my life. I definitely didn't think I would live long enough to make it to the one year anniversary of that, but here I am I guess.

[@heytippy9926]

I'm glad you've made it

[@wickedmoonwitch2822]

💛

[@oliviaclaire7388]

i'm so proud of you for being here

[@zoerose6194]

I’m proud of you for being here and glad that you decided to keep going. There are low times in life, but none of that will be permanent. I hope you’re in a better place now, and no matter what you deserve a lovely long life. 💙

[@akiaeki]

proud of you.

[@bluecheshirecat13109]

As someone once been there please please please don’t guilt trap the person when they say they’re suicidal

[@_Xeno0099]

What should you do Instead?

[@bluecheshirecat13109]

@@_Xeno0099 get professional help, be there for that person, show them how much you appreciate them

[@JustSomeCanadianGuy]

I had that when I told people. Nobody reacted appropriately except my dad. Never bothered telling anyone again. Honestly I feel like I can’t do it until my parents are gone.

[@izzylandyt]

@@bluecheshirecat13109 first one it depends. The rest is true.

[@villandoom]

For me guilt is not a great demoviator

[@rohdeemme4255]

I am so glad that these people are being honest about these thoughts Jubillie Is awesome btw

[@jesussavedme6260]

Jesus loves you, yes you the one reading this. you are worth dying for. Your worth is beyond words can describe - suicide is never the answer. I love you so much and Jesus loves you so so much more. 🤍 Jesus can remove all your pain, suffering and hurt. He loves you with a love you’re looking for. A love you can only imagine. Please, never take your life. If you do not want it, give your life to Jesus. You are so special, so beautiful and worthy of love. I wish I could hug you and tell you how worthy you are! Accept Jesus into your life, ask Him to reveal Himself and He will. I love you, and I hope to see you in heaven one day. I hope this can help just one person know how loved they are and turn to Jesus. 🤍

[@zahrasitaaminoe8971]

Agree, Jubilee is awesome

[@michaelmaendel]

So awesome

Did you cut yourself Cutting yourself

[@YuriCrimmy]

​@@jesussavedme6260 I would get mad for u being a bot, but this is wholesome. Thank youl

[@veronice_ronnie]

Holding the gun and not being able to pull the trigger is another feeling of failure

[@DDDawn23]

Sometimes life doesn't get better for people. No matter what they try to change.

[@darkreaper9205]

Life isn't fair & many of us are living in dark times.

[@ujalabashirch7469]

Please if someone tells you they will suicide if you don't agree to do what they want from you, you don't have to let them force you to do the things they want from you, and also don't take it casually. Let someone close to their family or friend know about the fact that they are threatening suicide so that they can help them by getting professional help. It's a serious issue 🙏

[@Ceerads]

Thank you!

[@mahasewatabiswas5753]

I totally agree with u most of the people who say this are dealing with mental health. people can first try to get relatives and professional help and when the person is stable u guess then break up if u want to but make sure u are with them as a friend I guess

[@IronMaidenPanda13]

Yes I agree. You can give them the number to the suicide prevention hotline and other recourse and ultimately it is their decision to reach out and get help by professionals . You can still care about someone while caring for yourself.

[@lostinescland]

Maybe it's true, but I doubt that a suicidal person would accept professional help. (not at once, at least)

[@ujalabashirch7469]

@@lostinescland but we can't stop trying also its likely that they accept professional help if insisted by someone close to them (from family or some friend)

[@favour4150]

Make sure you're okayy! if you find anything triggering its okay to pause the video and come back later if you want to.

[@jackievict0ria]

Thank you, I needed this reminder. I will come back another time. I wish you peace and happiness ❤️

[@alexisb9250]

Needed this. Thank you

[@jesussavedme6260]

Jesus loves you, yes you the one reading this. you are worth dying for. Your worth is beyond words can describe - suicide is never the answer. I love you so much and Jesus loves you so so much more. 🤍 Jesus can remove all your pain, suffering and hurt. He loves you with a love you’re looking for. A love you can only imagine. Please, never take your life. If you do not want it, give your life to Jesus. You are so special, so beautiful and worthy of love. I wish I could hug you and tell you how worthy you are! Accept Jesus into your life, ask Him to reveal Himself and He will. I love you, and I hope to see you in heaven one day. I hope this can help just one person know how loved they are and turn to Jesus. 🤍

[@favour4150]

@@jackievict0ria I wish you all the best!

[@favour4150]

@@alexisb9250 Take care!

[@do3258]

The woman who found her husband hung himself absolutely broke my heart, I'm so sorry she had to go through that and she still struggles and finds it hard to remember the happy stuff - I'm so sorry

[@jasmineprophete540]

I wish her so much love 😢

[@rbh0107]

being suicidal is such a dark hole to be in, it’s so physically and mentally hard.

[@urisuu_]

i’m rly sorry u feel this way, i hope ur feeling better now. ❤

[@lorenheckard5146]

It's so unfortunate that in the United States today, professional help for mental health issues is behind a pay wall. It's easy to address that someone who is struggling with these issues could benefit from professional help, but for many Americans barely getting by financially, it's simply unobtainable. Even "reduced income" talk therapy is around $350/month, and antidepressants are about $95/month. For those of us who can't afford health insurance, we're simply left to endure our struggles on our own terms. If we prioritized people over profits my dad might still be here today, but because he was poor, he's not, and that guts me.

[@harrybalzahk]

Lets start with limiting social media 😂

[@marcelkuchta5639]

Yes its so sad that theese things cost something, it should be free (payed by State)

[@marcelkuchta5639]

@@kevincorncone still better than none free :D im high heh ;)

[@joannafaivreartist]

easy to address? L O L

[@lorenheckard5146]

@@joannafaivreartist As in, when expressing one's struggles in America today, the simple and somewhat dismissive response they are often met with is "you need help, go see a professional", as if that's an option that everyone has.

[@vickyvanna]

Thank you for this. The story of the 10 year old losing his father before his birthday had me in tears. As a new mom struggling with postpartum depression, I can’t imagine my little 4 month old baby boy without me. My mind searches through those dark areas and I snap back to reality. My baby is such an angel, a blessing, & he deserves a family. I want to be his family & watch him grow with my husband. I look forward to healing.

[@anmarbhchrios]

💕 hope things get better for you and your family. I'm pregnant myself and have experienced depression in the past so I feel you

[@kimberly1271]

Send you lots of love and light! One day when you’re on the other side and in a place of peace you will look back and see just how far you have come and will be full of so much joy and happiness that you made it to that side.

[@vickyvanna]

@@anmarbhchrios congrats! being pregnant is such an experience. i hope your pregnancy is going well & that the rest goes smoothly for you and baby!

[@vickyvanna]

@@kimberly1271 thank you!

[@virginiagomez7442]

what is post partum depression if you don’t mind me asking

[@elchicano187]

I believe most people never tell anyone they feel suicidal because they might be looked at as being some kind of lunatic or weirdo, or just being weird in general and that’s my opinion.

[@sme138]

I swear , its sad that some people feel suicidal at a young age too..

[@saintshrooms9424]

It’s also the fact that after you say anything they treat you like a delicate doll that could break at anything and it’s just not fun

[@peacenholiness6855]

🎯

[@wreckerthegoat]

this is true, im only 13 so if i ever told my mum that i wanna yknow.. “off” myself she would probably tell me that i'm overreacting and that going outside should help (since i'm homeschooled and i don't go out a lot). no one understands and i have no one to tell this to anyone

[@CantRead1]

​@@wreckerthegoat that's almost the reaction I would expect and I'm 21. I'm afraid telling people would make it worse.

[@anuraggupta5554]

It sucks when you have no one to talk, no one to share your problems, not even a single friend. You just fight by your own but at the end you tired, you tired of fighting. And the thing after fighting that come straight to your mind is end it. Stop fighting, give up. There is no one who will come and tell he/she is with you and end up life is the only way you find after it.

[@SPIDY17]

❤

[@DMAC1301]

That tired you keep telling people but they don’t understand. I’ve been told you need to sleep more. It’s not that kind of tired…..

[@josephinematthews7419]

Hope you are doing okay🙏 you deserve to have someone to trust in your life, I hope they come your way.

[@user-yg1ik1qq4l]

i lost my dear friend to suicide last year. i remember this dream i had a month or two after she passed away: i was walking down the street and i see a bunch of college students chatting with one another and among the crowd i see her. i felt my knees get weak, and i just couldn't believe my eyes. i ran to her asking where has she been but she wouldn't want to tell me. the dream felt so real, so when i woke up i cried. i will never not miss her.

[@sufiyanshaikh5167]

Hope you doing okay.

[@user-yg1ik1qq4l]

@@sufiyanshaikh5167 thank you:)

[@pieeehi]

best of luck to you. so sorry you had to go through that :c

[@freddougman58]

i’m so sorry.. stay strong. ❤️

[@mervekahraman5696]

As a suicidal person i wish ı had someone like them by my side :(

[@jeremystevens6640]

Same 😢😭

[@banggolovesyoutube637]

My heart and love goes out to you. ❤❤❤ I'm really sorry you go through that. I hope you could have someone like them by your side one day, it's never too late. ❤❤❤

[@banggolovesyoutube637]

@@jeremystevens6640 Same goes to you. ❤❤❤

[@jeremystevens6640]

@@banggolovesyoutube637 thank you ❤️✌️

[@mervekahraman5696]

@@banggolovesyoutube637 💖💖💖

[@gradycastle4125]

Watched this In class and started crying I’ve never had any suicide encounters with any family members or people close to me but I really feel for all these people

[@jesussavedme6260]

Jesus loves you, yes you the one reading this. you are worth dying for. Your worth is beyond words can describe - suicide is never the answer. I love you so much and Jesus loves you so so much more. 🤍 Jesus can remove all your pain, suffering and hurt. He loves you with a love you’re looking for. A love you can only imagine. Please, never take your life. If you do not want it, give your life to Jesus. You are so special, so beautiful and worthy of love. I wish I could hug you and tell you how worthy you are! Accept Jesus into your life, ask Him to reveal Himself and He will. I love you, and I hope to see you in heaven one day. I hope this can help just one person know how loved they are and turn to Jesus. 🤍

[@kellynemecek5894]

I had a friend when I was in elementary/middle school who would post scary things on their social media, and talk about not wanting to be here. I told my parents bc I was scared for her, and they told her parents. Her mom thanked me for saying something. But my friend was furious with me, and I lost her as a friend. But she’s alive to this day.

[@hyuoka]

thanks from the bottom of my heart to the younger you for sharing it with your mom & your mom sharing it to the kid's mom. truly, telling a close one helps almost all the time. you did a great thing! losing her as a friend will never be equal to losing her forever. and i hope as she matures and realises, she'll come back to you and talk about it.

[@kellynemecek5894]

@@hyuoka I don’t think we’ll ever see each other/speak to each other again, but I see on social media she’s doing well so ❤️ I appreciate you replying to this.

[@hyuoka]

@@kellynemecek5894 oh, it's nice to hear you have some way to still check upon her. nonetheless, always remember you saved a life & I'm very proud of you for that. there have been countless incidents where a single small step could've saved someone's life. i wish the best for you.

[@mollyelv]

Im 15 now, and tbh im very depressed and i have 1 trusted friend who i usually shares my problem with them, and i would be sooo upset if my friend snitch and told my parents about what im struggling with. So what your doing its clearly wrong! Your friend trusted you and u snitch on ur friend and betrayed them, now they're gonna have trust issues, and the worst part is you might be the only person they could trust/ talk to at the time, so knowing that you snitch on them , they prolly have no one to talk to and hold their feeling inside since then, which is worse...

[@elenagonzalez8463]

I told a friend how I used to self harm and she ended up telling a teacher. At the time I was really upset but I am so grateful she did. I am sure your friend will grow up and feel grateful for what you did

[@melshortir]

I lost one of my best friends to suicide a week from now a year ago. I'm struggling right now. Sending you all love

[@hiranaeem9169]

I hope you find peace .❤️

[@mikayla7260]

I hadn’t cried the whole video until I finally heard the guys story who I could tell was hurting badly, then he said 2 days before his 10th birthday and I lost it, oh my world I can’t even imagine

[@CanadianBear47]

i wish my family would openly talk about suicide i have had these feelings since i was a kid and just knowing that i am not alone could have helped

[@aminaa1522]

I learned in my own household that sometimes we who suffer have to break the silence, and to normalize having these kind of conversations. It really takes a lot of effort, also depending on what kind of people you live with. When people gaslight you it’s even worse. But I believe with patience and continuously trying to start a conversation you will be heard..

[@barneyyuyy1901]

Me as well since childhood!!!:)

[@estherzambrano4597]

I can actually relate with the first situation. You don’t want your family and friends to be desesperate with all that horrible situation you’re living, so you just pretend to be cool, cause seeing them being desesperate and afraid just hurt as hell and downs you more into depression. It is scary and frustrating.

[@imthethevillainofyourstory2670]

ask someone if they're ok or give them a hug. it may not seem like much but it can probably save their life

[@imthethevillainofyourstory2670]

@Kermit its not about that. maybe they need someone to talk to and maybe you can give them resources. i mean duh you can't make them happy, but asking them if they're ok and letting them talk is a start

[@cheekyftoro8962]

@Kermit sometimes you just need to get trough the day.

[@pieeehi]

@Kermit actually, it saved mine. me knowing that someone cared for me enough to notice and ask me if I'm okay gave me a reason to stay and eventually improve my mental health. of course I understand it wont always save a person, it does have a big impact, a lot bigger than you think. sometimes I really wish people would ask me that more. if you ever feel like someone is upset, hug them. please. you never know how much a simple gesture could brighten someones day, its always worth a shot.

[@dasylula3968]

No. I don’t agree with your point.

[@izzylandyt]

The latter would be a lot more effective (if given those choices). Asking someone if they’re ok is a generic, lazy, somewhat rhetorical question. “Hey what’s up / going on?” is a bit better.

[@JiminNeedsHisLostJams]

I lost my dog today. He was found dead at 5 am. A leopard had attacked him apparently. It's been 3 hours since I'm crying. I was trying to cheer up by watching some funny goofy videos but all of them had at least one dog and I'd burst into tears the second I see them. However, this video made me feel better. This was also uploaded around the time my dog died (11 pm - 1 am). We just buried him. My head finally feels lighter after watching this. There are so many strong people out there, who keep going and don't give up. Thank you Jubilee. R.I.P my best friend and best pet. You were too young to die. I'll miss you forever and I promise if you ever come to me in any form again, I'll keep you like a diamond. You'll always be close to my heart. I love you 💜 My best friend 19 October 2017 - 21 March 2022

[@CookiesNCream4ever]

I’m so sorry for your loss. But just know he had an amazing, love-filled life because of you.

[@JiminNeedsHisLostJams]

@@CookiesNCream4ever aw thank you so much. This means a lot to me

[@neeneepie9684]

Sorry for your loss.... your comment made me cry, if you need someone to talk to let me know 😭😭

[@JiminNeedsHisLostJams]

@@neeneepie9684 thank you so much

[@neeneepie9684]

@@JiminNeedsHisLostJams I have a 15-year-old dog that every time I think about her passing I cry...... Dogs are special

[@jetbllackwings]

“it gets better” is so overused. i can only hold out till january.

[@user-xu4xj2cd2j]

How are you now brother? Hold on there take each day at a time, your not alone were all in this togwther

[@jif420]

It should be it can get better

[@bethrut1990]

My husband took his life 2 years ago. It was only a few days before our youngest turned 1. I still grieve for him everyday. I’m also so angry with him for leaving me to raise 4 kids by myself. But I also understand the pain of having suicidal ideations. Sometimes it’s overwhelming and even the thought of friends and family Isn’t enough to talk yourself out of it

[@TA12002]

i can’t even afford to be alive and i can’t afford my funeral either

[@jeremystevens6640]

Same 😢😭 stay strong ❤️✌️

[@adamantium4797]

....

[@henryjohnson-ville3834]

Funeral is a scam, cremation is like $2500.

[@Emmy-pj3de]

My dad committed suicide when I was 7 years old and my mom had to explain it to me. Years later she told me that night the sparkle in my eyes disappeared and never came back. I think I blamed her a little bit for telling me while it probably hurt her more than it hurt me, although they were separated. Last year she had cancer and I feel like I didn't help her enough. I can't imagine how difficult it must have been for her. I feel lost

[@banggolovesyoutube637]

I'm really sorry for your loss and for having to go through that then and now. My heart and love goes out to you. ❤❤❤ I hope you get to find peace with this someday and have a journey full of healing. Life has been hard on you and i'm so sorry. Know you have my heart and love. ❤

[@Emmy-pj3de]

@@banggolovesyoutube637 Thank you so much! ❤ I have been feeling lost for a long time but I don't have the courage to talk to people in real life about it. I also know a lot of people are dealing with more difficult things so I don't feel like I have the right to feel so bad. Thank you again. This message means a lot to me. You are an amazing person and I wish you all the best. I have been working a lot on myself so I hope I can find peace and accept myself one day. ❤❤❤

[@marcelkuchta5639]

@@Emmy-pj3de i hope you will achieve peace and I personally believe it

[@Emmy-pj3de]

@@marcelkuchta5639 Thank you!

[@MsAldil]

How is your mom now?

[@mortom5829]

The fact that after hanging up the phone a lot of them smiled to try to hide the feeling of sadness is really maddening cause that’s the response that they get because of trauma

[@Genocider88]

The truth is some people never talk about it, one day they just stop coming around.

[@rubycr306]

I couldn't stop crying. I've never had a conversation with people who also struggled with this nor heard other experiences this deep. It's comforting to know you're not alone

[@DMAC1301]

The worst for me is accepting that those thoughts will never go away. I have to live with it always.

[@dayangmarikit6860]

05:11 - I understand why he feels anger towards his brother... but we must accept the fact that life is not for everyone. We were all born into this world without a choice and some people have decided that this life is not for them. I mean, who are we to force people to continue living a life that they don't like?... Forcing someone to continue living just because you don't want to grieve their loss is even more selfish, because you are basically forcing them to live a life of suffering.

[@dayangmarikit6860]

@@game_scoop Oh wow, you've done a great job arguing against my statement.

[@barneyyuyy1901]

YESSSS!!!!you are correct!!!

[@sierrabrown3325]

As someone who has struggled with suicide attempts and has lost close friends to it as well- I can relate to some of these at a deep level. I love this channel and I love what they do for not only the viewers but the participants as well.

[@ComeWhatMay24]

I just lost my sweet grandma to stage 4 cancer & dementia a couple of days ago. I needed this video.

[@karin1636]

She doesnt have to suffer anymore. And i hope some day, you dont either

[@OwynPenrose]

being suicidal is so mentally and emotionally draining. i just wanna disappear forever.

[@massacrepanda1410]

"I'm coping with the effects that losing my own life might have on their life." My son. THIS is the only reason I'm alive.

[@kaedesmultiverse]

i relate to the girl who talked about her friend when she was 12. in a way i experienced something very similar. when i was 13, my best friend who went to a different high school after spending 3 primary school years together, faced bullying and hard times at school. she became depressed and suicidal. one night she sent me a text telling me she was going to end it, and she said goodbye. i can still remember screaming and crying at my phone begging her to answer my calls, and she didn't. my mum found me halfway through a panic attack and so i had to tell her what was happening. i still feel horrible for betraying my friend's trust like that, but we got in contact with her mum and things got so much better for her. although i myself am still in a bit of a dark place, every day i find it easier to say with confidence _it will get better._

[@xlessthanxx3]

Thank you for this. My younger brother passed by suicide in 2020 at 19. The two years is coming up. I resonate so much with the caller who expressed anger towards his brother. 🧡🦋

[@madelainebullock1709]

You are so strong and I am so proud of you. My heart goes out to you and I wish nothing but the best for you ❤

[@freddougman58]

keep going girl ❤️ i can’t imagine your pain, you are so strong.

[@Dean4511]

I won't rewrite my above OP, but if you take the time to read it you might understand that hurting you and everyone that he loved was a huge, and maybe the only, regret he faced at the time. I'm sure your brother loved you very much. It's often the sole reason a person hangs on and endures their suffering and pain, sometimes for years on end. But sometimes it becomes too unbearable, too overwhelming, and you hope the people you love will understand and forgive you. I think I can speak for your brother, I've been in his shoes. I am in his shoes.

[@Ashmeraz_]

Why have anger for him?

[@leonardocitterio9520]

"Being human is an extreme sport"

[@preciousone835]

When I feel the most suicidal I just listen to stuff like this or watch videos of children whom grew up without parents because I’m a mother of two myself… Nothing ever outweighs the feeling but I just wish I could.

[@seekinpeekin]

I'm glad these people had the courage to talk about their thoughts. I've bottled up a lot of things and don't think I'll ever be able to tell someone other than myself.

[@DeeDubVlog]

This type of video is so crucial to the dialogue around suicide. Thank you.

[@AnxiousTrap]

8:30 poor girl, what horrible image to see, and re-see throughout your life.

[@rileyelliott1764]

10:28 you can tell she's found healing, it's so beautiful

[@ariannagrace7957]

I was crying watching this especially when the guy was talking about his father

[@flarelink6782]

Respect for those who spoke out

[@She22496]

I don’t know if this is called suicidal but I feel like everything would be fine if I didn’t exist. Like, I don’t wanna face future, I am scared and I wish to just disappear. But when I think of my mom I have guilty feelings again. I love her. But most of these feelings and thoughts are because of my parents. I love them, I do, really but they make me feel as they are the only one who needs attention. Only their feelings matter. I don’t know how to put it in words but its a terrible feeling. And I’m really sorry to anyone who understands this feeling

[@alejandrabarsoom7606]

For some of us. Our light has turned off long time ago and we are walking in the dark without a purpose. Just exiting for no reason.

[@DalveerSingh-iy4ik]

It takes a lot to take your own life so it's not something selfish or weak to doo

[@loganmiia5425]

for the person who’s grandfather died, my family did the same exact thing when I was young with my uncle died from a heart attack and then years later my cousin told me that there’s a suicide due to his ptsd from the war. it’s a different kind of pain when your a bit older and you actually in the process loss all over again.

[@klarazavala3521]

thank you to Jubilee for giving me the opportunity to be apart of such an amazing and impactful video and giving all of us a safe space to be open and heal through our struggles❤️

[@saumyageeganage7470]

I wanna tell my whole story to someone... My heart is getting heavy day by day

[@QueenLori07]

You can tell me. I'll listen

[@saumyageeganage7470]

@@QueenLori07 it's so kind of you. But how?

[@cheekyftoro8962]

Saumya write it here i am am listening. Call a help line they will be happy to listen to you.

[@saumyageeganage7470]

@@cheekyftoro8962 once I called a help line... The one who was there on the phone told me " you're responsible for the situation you're experiencing now you're the one who messed up thing " like that it was so hurting so I gave up on calling help lines

[@cheekyftoro8962]

@@saumyageeganage7470 That was bad advice. Remember the person on the other end is only a person they can be wrong mean or just an asshole. Try again. Keep trying you are important your life is valuable your worth it.

[@hearts4_soph]

“i remember being upset i woke up, but i’m so glad i did.” that hit hard.

[@mik9051]

Im scared of being a husband and having these feelings affect my marriage. Im not even married but I wonder if people actually love me or not. Throughout my childhood there was lots of inconsistency and confusion not to mention the one person I hoped would stay did not. I hate how I act when anxious or nervous. I hate how I cant say what I want to say. This sadness is a part of me, at least for now. I sat rewatched the clip of robin williams ranting about life and just sat there. I unintentionally hurt people when I'm hurt... and anxiety makes communicating so dreadful and even scary. Thats probably why I dont have nightmares anymore, because this time, the nightmare is reality.

[@Airhead247]

Focus on the little things you can do every day. Not on what you should do, but only on what you can do

[@mik9051]

@@Airhead247 I feel like there are no accommodations for people like me.

[@barbalatros]

i feel the same way. i keep pushing people away, especially the ones i love. something is very wrong with me but idk how to fix it

[@yuli1_266]

This may be selfish of me to say, but I oddly find comfort knowing I'm not the only one that feels like this. It was like putting a checkmark st the end of each of your sentences... it's this feeling of something dropping inside you. This heaviness in your chest and it feels so lonely to bear...so..Im glad I'm not as alone as I think I am in feeling this way :')

[@peacenholiness6855]

Your just out of balance and need grounding. Try daily meditation and prayer ☯️ time is your friend

[@clickslefttoe]

It's been 2 years since I've survived my attempt. Thank you to all of these people who took the time to tell their stories, and to those who listened as well.

[@pen8197]

Congratulations!!!! 🥳🥳🥳

[@wreckerthegoat]

i'm proud of you dude. be strong, reminder that there are people out there who love you and are proud of you.

[@itschristaleeann]

I went to a small private Christian school and a student that was about 3 grades below me (I was a freshman and she was a 6th grader) died by suicide and our school just told the parents to find their own counseling because they didn’t know how to deal with it. I was traumatized because I related to her because we were both adopted and the isolated feeling takes me back to that moment. I’ll never forget it and how angry I still am at my school and heartbroken that I didn’t reach out to this girl. I’ve come to terms that I was a child and it’s not my fault that I didn’t know how to act but I’ll always be angry at the place who put the burden on our parents and an establishment who saw suicide as a sin and especially since this girl was Catholic (the school I went to was Baptist and had a weird animosity towards Catholicism). It’s a memory I wish wasn’t burned in my brain but yet here we are over 15 years later 😔

[@DecemberThe1nOnly]

At some points I think like the world would be better if I wasn’t here and I wonder to myself if people would care if I was here or not and then I remember and realize that people go through worse things then me and they still take it day by day so maybe I’ll do the same

[@SKIWOK]

At 7:02 she smiles. And I really understand that reaction because my whole life I’ve reacted to horrible situations with smiles. Constantly trying to act okay for other people in order for them to not feel the pain that I’ve felt has effected me severely. But, now I have this support system that understands that I don’t like talking about it in any other way than a joke because that’s the only way I can really make it seem real. It for some reason does help me.

[@lonercitycrew]

Never a day that goes by where I don't think bout it life sucks dude

[@kazaza08]

I can relate. It just feels natural to do in pure pain. Your thoughts don't reflect what u should do though, understand that ur brain might just cling onto that due to pain, traumas and scars. My best advice is to try to be present, stop numbing ur emotions acknowledge them and let your mind have space to breathe. When ur present u heal ur scars, your brain feels safer and u start to notice, feel and see the beauty in this world.❤️

[@stuffz4040]

10:22 hit me like a wake up call. I’m in college and have been struggling a lot. It’s hard to see through the haze that is depression that what I’ll do could be such a big thing.

[@camsandjams]

hey i hope you’re well, i wish you the best

[@sillystar0924]

I hope you're alright 🙁🖤.

[@dio_brrrrrando2480]

It’s hard being suicidal and have everyone give you “pep” talks…. We just want someone to hear us

[@supersaiyancj8505]

This really resonated with me. I've been and still am in a dark place mentally. Mental health is nothing to scoff at or ignore....the feelings I've felt consume me sometimes,but I still think of those who would miss me if I decided to end it.

[@marcelkuchta5639]

Please dont end it

[@partypoison4730]

love you bro. ❤️ that's all.

[@marcelkuchta5639]

@Kermit21 not funny dude, it's his life

[@veIIamina]

This is so important for people to watch. Thank you for highlighting heavy subjects. ❤️

[@potatomaster0674]

To anyone reading this, please reach out if you need help. Please dont end your life. Even if it feels like no ones there and no one cares, i do. I care about you and I'm proud of you and im rooting for you to get through this. I love you and i pray for you.

[@SuperSone]

People online who say that they care about somebody they don't actually know only reminds me how much nobody actually does.

[@user-xu4xj2cd2j]

Reach out to who? Talking doesn't help it just let's people know but you still have to fight it yourself

[@MerryMountainVolcano-ut5xr]

​@@user-xu4xj2cd2j I agree. It still sucks tho

[@MerryMountainVolcano-ut5xr]

​@@SuperSoneyeah for real

[@gumlow4120]

I often think of the time my ex disappeared and drowned; after that I have never felt so depressed and suicidal. My heart goes to my friends who took care of me during those times. I feel horrible the time I was staying at my friends and took all my sleeping pills and she didn’t know.. just thought I was sleeping a lot she would look for signs of life every 15 minutes.. I would respond but hoped I wouldn’t wake up… I’m so happy I did.. fast forward today I love my life and I’m so grateful to be here. Even though I’d hoped my ex was also here. It pains me that I never got to see him accomplish his dreams.

[@banggolovesyoutube637]

My heart goes out to all the people in this video and to those who have experienced terrible, painful losses. My heart especially goes out to those who are experiencing suicidal ideation and struggle with living. I suggest you could seek professional help and/or reach out to your local hotlines when these thoughts emerge and overwhelm you. I am truly sorry that you are going through difficult things that may have caused you to feel this way. I hope you get to heal in one way or another. I hope you get to stay and choose life over permanent death. Life feels impossible to move on with but i hope you know that you are truly and deeply loved even if you don't feel like you are. You matter. You are valid and you are loved. Your life matters and second, third, fourth and more are shots worth giving. Please, stay. Give life another chance. Please tell a loved one that you are going through what you're going through. Tell someone you trust and seek help. We love you. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@madelainebullock1709]

This video is so impactful and can change a lot more than meets the eye. My heart goes out to anyone struggling and I just wanna say to anyone dealing with bad mental health, you are not a burden I promise you. The way you feel is so valid and I feel like it’s important to add that even if you feel you’re not suffering as much as some people your health still matters and is just as significant. Your problems don’t deserve to be undermined just because people are going through worse.

[@I3lackEye]

Thanks alot! I really appreciate it

[@rat4life190]

I have so much sympathy for all of these people. I lost my friend to suicide and I connect with them very personally.

[@blank5341]

5:24 seemed liked a very selfish and weak thing to do seriously ................?. Calling his brother selfish and weak not even knowing wt he went through smh. RIP

[@payton5342]

because it is. when u deal with pain and decide to off yo self. u just throw your pain onto everyone else who loved you. its like cheating in a relationship because you were depressed but 1000x worse

[@evilcrusader6322]

I lost my aunt to an overdose 8 years ago, my cousin to an overdose 1 years ago, and my non biological uncle to a motorcycle accident 2 years ago. I still struggle to grieve. The worst part is that I didn't cry when I feel I should've.

[@cheekyftoro8962]

Crying doesn't have a time limit. There is no wrong or right time to cry. Sometimes we need to hold on to our tears a little longer so our loss doesn't seem so real so hard so painful. I cry for someone that died 30 years ago that i never got to know. I cry for a person that i still have but know i will lose. Your tears are valid no matter when they happen.

[@kkottii]

To everyone reading this, please know that you matter & you're valid :(

[@karitikamalik1676]

Thank you soo much! I need to hear this for sooo long!! Love you prapti!!❣️

[@mystica3312]

Thank you

[@spooky4890]

Thanks

[@maxmusic5380]

I don’t matter we’re all worthless I must crack my skull to free myself from these concepts of todays world if I’m dead I don’t need any validation and money. I’m finally totally free from all the problems humans created.

[@Sev22suff]

No I’m not

[@ndiorogueye3807]

My heart is broken. The majority of these anecdotes are : my grandfather, my father, my husband. We should pay a little more attention to the man’s in our lives.

[@PrettyGirlGracee]

Thank you Jubilee for giving me this opportunity to be apart of such a vulnerable and important subject. This healed me from within to be able to listen, respond and relate ❤️

[@KIWIgirl2014]

I lost a friend to suicide five years ago. He was initially reported as missing and it took about a month before his body was found. He was only 23. We weren’t super close, so I had no knowledge of the fact that he was struggling mentally. You wouldn’t know it from his social media posts. He was in an acapella group, he was an actor, and he was studying to be a music teacher. He was incredible and I had so much wanted to be in his life more, but he always seemed so busy. Sometimes I wonder that maybe if I had reached out, maybe that could have made a difference.

[@mh2038]

[@naiya8497]

I lost a friend about 3 years ago. Similar to your situation, he was reported as missing and it took the police the same amount of time to find his body. I stayed with him for a while because of personal issues and hadn’t heard from him until the day of with him telling me to get out of his house, no explanation. I called him and it went straight voicemail. I reached out to his family and no one gave me a definite answer as to what happened. One of his friends told me they found his body in the water on X date and I never reached out after that. For a while, I thought it was my fault that I didn’t ask him more about how he was doing/feeling but after taking to my therapist there was nothing I could have done to stop him from doing what he did. I don’t think I’ve fully accepted what happened but more so I don’t think about it much unless it’s around the anniversary or his birthday.

[@barneyyuyy1901]

Well he was an actor🤷 You out know what they say the ones that look the happiest are the saddest when no one's around.

[@VishalValhellanArya]

Really needed that "it gets better" bit... Thank you for keeping it for the end.

[@river165]

I'm seeing this at a time where I really need it. Today, I was confronted by my aunt. Really, it was an intervention of sorts. My grandma, whom I take care of, has dementia and is doing poorly. My aunt told me, as well my mom and sister, that if she goes to a nursing home, we lose the house (back mortgage and all that). The home I, that we all grew up in, would be gone forever for us. She knows how bad that will hit and hurt me the most, because my grandma brought me home from the hospital, after being born three months early and literally fitting in the palm of my aunts hand; the base of my skull at her finger tips and my bottom at the heel of her hand. So, my aunt knows how much I struggle with my depression and fear of losing my grandma, and how I've not been on my medication for over a year this past April 7th. How my BPD has got the best of me and make me go manic here and there, how I haven't showered in over two weeks and my room is an absolute mess and this has been going in since the beginning of this year where my grandma really took a turn. She hugged me and told me not to do anything and if i feel it, tell her before. The scary part is, I always think about it. Not a day goes by where I don't think about it. But when things get bad, and they have, I've done things and not realized the severity of it until I've come back to my reality and was told by second hand accounts. So, I can't ever promise, as much as I would like. But I will be going to therapy again, by her force of nature and dragging me to said appointments. I know, i have known, i need to better myself for my grandma and myself. grandma would be so disappointed if she could understand everything I just typed up. I'll try.

[@user-jv5ir2gl8j]

I was diagnosed with depression last 2021, I thought I am ok but I’m not. I am again back to this being suicidal.