Self-Inflicted Achromatic (English Cover)【JubyPhonic】自傷無色

[@KitopiankingdomMagic]

Everyone's leaving long comments but I know that can feel tiring to read so have a short one; i really, really admire you, and nothing can change that.

[@lastdayonearth3028]

KitopianKingdom you rad bro she's my cousin!... I'm serious..I:-I

[@Ilovethisgame12123]

i wish what you said was true

[@fleurishhanie6642]

KitopianKingdom .

[@kituki5178]

You are awesome

[@jazzy_jz]

Same! Don't stop singing and being you please

[@justaguy2182]

I love how certain people think depression is SO easy to just get rid of. “It’s all in your mind!” Says internet influencer who likely hasn’t experienced a single form of mental illness before in their life. Depression doesn’t just go away. It sticks with people, and happens due to a mix of things. Edit: The whole “Rich influencer” comment from before was pretty short sighted of me, didn’t realize it at the time. It is totally possible to be rich and depressed. Money doesn’t buy happiness. Remember that.

[@RinRin-pp6oy]

Exactly. It's literally an illness, thats just like saying "stop having cancer, it's all your imagination"

[@birchy_paw]

Exactly, even if it stops, it’s still gonna be in the back of your mind. It might even come back later on, so I’m glad someone else understands this.

[@asdfghjkzxcbnm]

"It’s all in your mind!" WHERE ELSE WOULD IT BE KAREN IN MY LEGS?!

[@neroquin]

They aren't wrong by saying that it's in your mind, but that doesn't make it any less real or terrible.

[@asdfghjkzxcbnm]

@@neroquin yeah ik but i try to make light if things

[@nschannel826]

_"Somebody here to scream,_ _Someone here is stopping me"_ That line hit me hard for some reason

[@epicmoments2049]

omg fake depression 🥱

[@Crows256]

Yeah, same here.

[@nonong1096]

@@epicmoments2049 uhh

[@sadpenguin8616]

God is an ever present help in distress psalm 46:2

[@ChrisJones-gq9gt]

​@@sadpenguin8616 please stop

[@shuharahotline7381]

"Just by living I'm bringing you another day. Why just for me can you smile after everything?" Honestly this hurt for me. I have so many friends that care for me and love me, but i find it so hard to believe they actually do because of my low self esteem and it breaks my heart that they have to remind me that they do. Sometimes i wish that they didnt care about me, so that i didnt have to be a burden to them.

[@chloez1813]

I can kinda relate to you I'm young tho ♡

[@MOPS-jl6od]

Same here.

[@MikaelaTufts]

Oh my gosh… I’m exactly the same. I want you to know you are NOT a burden. You deserve to be loved and cared about. I’m proud of you.❤️🫂

[@alexbeuke5784]

Hay you are not a burden you lift overs❤

[@pokexchespin012302]

I wish I had the right words, but I just want you to know that we all care about you. Feel free to put how you feel in the description, we read, we would rather you get your feelings out than worry about keeping appearances. Depression sucks, but I'm sure you can get through it, you're strong

[@ClumsyJellyfishy]

Pokexchespin 100% agree!

[@lll_ime]

Pokexchespin you're right

[@percher4824]

Does hating yourself count as depression?

[@evilted]

Pokexchespin so deep I love it

[@pokexchespin012302]

Nightmare Cookie I'm not a doctor or psychologist, so if you feel that it's hindering your life, I suggest you see one of those people

[@demonswordsmancrona6589]

I feel like this song doesnt just repersent suicide, but also the expectations and premiscanseptions that people put upon others, forcing them to be something their not, becoming achromatic (without color) as they come to relie on those expectations to define themselves in essence loosing their true color and killing ones sense of true self. This continues untill they forget who the real them was and eventually they long for escape from the painful existence that comes with stripping yourself of all color so that others can paint theirs onto you. In the end by loosing your true self you begin to feel that you are lying to those dear to you, about who you really are. You no longer want to see them in pain for your failings at being something they thought you were, and that endless self loathing comes to a peak when you feel you ruin everything with your pressence.

[@crimson_red3765]

Ok, so you just explained all my life q-q I'm scared now

[@uglysweater-j3p]

Woah... That's deep...

[@me_irlg2413]

I'm in this picture and I don't like it.

[@cyfigames2540]

100% relatable, like, completely, I'm autistic so it's a little different in comparison, but being in public and being told my hyperfixation is stupid, stunning to relieve stress, so I stop stimming, so now I can't think what I want or do what I want without immediate stress, and criticism, so I stifle myself slowly surrendering hyperfixation to nothing, dropping motivation, no stress relief,and yeah

[@demonswordsmancrona6589]

@@cyfigames2540 im also autistic as well, so i understand to a degree

[@n8.h8]

I knew someone depressed. They were always saying how they are a bad person, how their life is meaningless, and how they're nothing. It never really made any sense. I always told them I was there for them, yet they pushed me away. Even though I desperately wanted to help, they didn't think I actually cared about them, so I decided it was time to let myself be pushed away. To this day, I wonder what it would be like if that person was still in my life.

[@Chiller-pc1dv]

I've been in that same place before, and I also have issues with depression, I suppose I just tend to cling to friends, as part of the reason I want to keep going is to try and be there for others, even though I feel like a burden to others and often feel guilty and have a seriously hard time speaking up about my own issues. I just want to say, you don't have to be the hero if your friend is pushing you away, or hurting you, just because they have their issues. You cannot be expected to stick along if someone is persistently pushing you away and refusing your help, even if they try to tell you that they need you and need your help....if you are dealing with that, and nothing you do seems to be doing anything, then just leave....because as someone who has dealt with people like that, it isn't worth the suffering it causes to you. It's stressful and confusing and it makes you feel useless and unwanted....when my recent ex friend did that to me, I was actually suicidal for a few weeks, till I managed to break out of that with the help of another friend and started ignoring the ex friend so I could actually live my life and focus on myself. Do not beat yourself up for leaving someone who does this to you, you are doing the right thing, as while it is good to care for others and be selfless to a point...when it starts to negatively affect you, then it stops being healthy....just remember this. Don't be afraid to take care of yourself, and while you don't always need to break off a relationship just because you tend to hurt yourself by focusing on others more than yourself....you should if that person makes you feel like you have to, if they manipulate you, if they never listen to you when you try to help, if they never give any kindness back in return, they don't have to be the best with comforting or best with words or a therapist, but if they don't put any effort into being there for you, or don't even act like they care, then they aren't worth it

[@nataliasawicka633]

I know people that are depressed but every time i try to help them or be there for them they don't believe me and think im joking when im not also when i told them that i understand their pain and i have depresion they thought i was joking or at least that's what it seemed like

[@50B3R]

Im actually crying cuz my bff is doing the same thing to me and she knows that everytime she does that she just feeds my own depression and anxiety..

[@othersideofthescreen6245]

I've been the person to push others away and, in some ways, I still am. When you hate yourself, you stop seeing anything good about yourself and anything worth liking in yourself so when others say they care, you become cynical and refuse to believe it.

[@gigglegobbler3000]

You can't help someone that doesn't want to be helped.

[@2brite4uw32]

Me, an emotional person: *cries a little while playing this song on repeat*

[@outer1329]

mood

[@Ascensionisms]

felt that

[@sonicdatalkingball465]

This Song Is Giving Sad Vibes, I’m Sad Now

[@pinkremus961]

Same

[@dinodino9154]

I do that with every sad song QwQ

[@MegaJadzia123]

To Juby... I just don't know how to put my thoughts in words, but let's try... When you feel it for the very first time, 'these feelings might just go away on their own with time', 'I don't want to bother anyone', 'I'll wait until it gets better'. But it doesn't go away, it doesn't gets better, and you notice that those dark, rainy clouds making everything seem so empty and heavy are not floating under the skyline; they are attached to your head. But you don't want the others to soak, right? Choking on the rain feels better than telling anyone. But they notice eventually that something is off, they keep asking questions... maybe they just don't want to get wet in their own? Maybe they're really willing to help you, maybe it'll be even helpful, like a raincoat or catching a bit of a sunshine to light everything up. And those are first confessions, first supportive words, first 'always here for you'. But here comes the guilt, the game of pretending. Because how many times; how much are they able to endure? It's not a seasonal problem; it's not something to get over with and move on within a month. It is a hard, daily fight with your own head. Exhausting. 'You're only a problem', 'you'll make them upset', 'you don't ever make them smile, only cry', 'you're making things up', 'you're better on your own', 'they don't need you in their lives', 'if you keep this up, they may get rid of you'. And you don't want to be a bother; so you fake that everything's okay now. Keeping it quiet; they don't want to really listen, right? And you're to tired to even try. Your head is killing you, after all, those dark clouds are screaming that no-one is ever gonna understand. That you're not needed here... But that's not the truth. You are not a problem, nor a bother. Loving you is not a bother. Love always hurts, it's painful to see someone important to you suffer, but what isn't painful? It is worth it. People that really love you will fight- not only for you, but with you- no matter how losing the battle might seem with a passing time. And those colours are still out there waiting, even if with years you have forgotten how they looked like. And you're going to see those colours. You will. So keep fighting, even if your brain tells you that there's no reason anymore, that all you need to is to rest forever. We are here for you and we understand :< Greetings from my old depression, eating disorder and me myself. Thank you for your beautiful music that helped me out so many times and all those songs that mean so much. You're important, remember :

[@clury9477]

[@Fearthechamp]

That's really beautiful, what you had said, if anything it made my tears stroll down on my cheeks knowing well how truthful that is.

[@laica4119]

Megz these kind of feelings are almost like "Hope of Morning" from Icon for Hire. Maybe it's because you understand how It is, but man, that feels (even for me that have a perfect life and beber suffered anything like it).

[@killrbladz7989]

I'm not trying to be mean, but is there a reason why when someone tells the public about something personal, I can always find that one 1 comment that is 1 chapter long in the comments

[@MegaJadzia123]

Killer Bladz whatever, I didn't mean this to be so long or personal I'm just drunk and sad hah you don't have to read, comment or reply and the reason might be that the people have feelings

[@dinonuggiesaregoo]

I hate how relatable this song is and feel like this almost everyday and that this dropped on my birthday

[@nolongerusedchannel.]

haha aprkl fools day

[@mossycave3865]

It's funny... Listening to this song, even when I'm sad, just fills me with the determination not to die.

[@bia9510]

Katie Guinn oooh undertale o3o

[@chiary.is.not.amazing5760]

Begüm Erkan yup. That game saved my life.

[@Creatorsan]

That's ironic, if you listen to sad music while being sad it has a chance of making you more sad. Glad to see you happy cause if this song :)

[@_ioana_9602]

Katie Guinn can't relate

[@seaglxss.sakura7439]

There's a study that said sad music makes people happier

[@sinby9116]

I love listening to such gloomy songs. Knowing someone actually sat down and came up with the idea of such a dark subject. It kind of makes me feel better? I'm a young teen who struggles with re-ocurring depression and severe Social Anxiety Disorder; school even makes these matters much worse. I never speak out about these due to how everyone around me treats such a strange and foreign subject. Often times when I've had panic attacks around my family they brush it off and just tell me "You're overreacting" ; "You're too fearful." ; Even telling me to 'get over it.' Listening to songs about this when I have my occasional, vaguely 'I don't really want to exist, but I want to live' moment, which is quite often, it makes me feel a bit better knowing there are people that care, know this is an issue, and that I'm not utterly alone. Although, it doesn't help this emptiness, it numbs me...I guess.

[@flarenova6286]

unimportantnobody wow. You are summarizing me. However I have ADD rather than social anxiety disorder. School makes me freak out, being extremely introverted, but I bottle it up until nighttime so little can cry without annoying people. What fun!

[@aizawasensei9976]

unimportantnobody Hey! I struggle with pretty much the same thing. And I recently lost most of my friends due to stuff like this. If you’d like to talk, I’m here. My Instagram is emsxoxo_21 (only if you want to+only if you have instagram)

[@spiritshadowphoenix417]

I understand and even though I don't know you. If you ever want to rant or need someone to confide in. You can always email me, at [e-mail]. This is for anyone else to use if they wish for a someone to confide in without any threat of it being leaked or found strange.

[@mizex_7175]

Importantperson,I kinda want to slap your family

[@sadpenguin8616]

Blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted matthew 5:4

[@drew-un3os]

"I want to be the person that you think I am" That really hit home, I often feel that others perception of me is so different from who I am and who I want to be seen as.

[@moeginky]

Juby is back

[@Ed-zl7uj]

She-Fox Survives Yass!

[@moeginky]

Ed Linares ALL RISE AND BOW FOR THE QUEEN HAS ENTERED THE ROOM AT 12 IN THE MORNING

[@Ed-zl7uj]

She-Fox Survives NO JOKE!

[@moeginky]

Cameron Jones same mah dude

[@emily_cjw]

Thanks for the song... I don't know how to explain it, but it's always good to hear "I'll be there for you" or " we need you here" when everything's crumbling down... I've never ever express my feelings in front of family or friends, because I don't want to be a bother... but sometimes I can't help but to breakdown and cry... and when people ask me about it, I stay quiet and brush it off as if it was nothing... I don't know how to convey what's in my heart, and sometimes, it's like I'm having an internal argument in my own head... it's gets really tiring sometimes and it seems so much better to just throw everything away... But that's not an answer to anything. No matter how much it hurts, we have to keep fighting... and if someone cares about you enough, they'll fight with you and protect you... I don't really know what you're going through exactly, but stay strong.... I know i have to... and we'll support you all the way... I've always loved your songs and I really do hope to hear more from you... you don't have to keep up an appearance, just write your heart out in the description... take good care of yourself!

[@asteroidshower]

My friend is actually going through the same thing.. I've helped him so many times, along with my other friends. He can't talk with family, (not saying why) and he wants to die. Its hard seeing someone suffer, but sometimes it really time that heals a problem. If not, tell a friend you trust. Stay strong and I hope u find a person to support u :)

[@kaitsune2262]

I agree

[@cosmicrefractions2834]

The first three lines I read and I started to cry

[@cosmicrefractions2834]

When I read them

[@randomizedfishnuggets1214]

@@cosmicrefractions2834 same

[@vi.vi.vi.vi.vi.d]

I use to listen to this song all the time when I was in a really dark place but nowadays I'm doing a lot better even though I thought it was impossible for things to get better. To anyone hurting whos scrolling through this comment section know things will get better. If you need someone to talk to I'm here for you. Please stay. The world is better with you in it.

[@epicmoments2049]

omg fake depression 🥱🥱

[@molybdenum20]

@@epicmoments2049 what good does spamming this everywhere do? get a life lmao

[@sciencegnf]

I really need to talk lol

[@AldinRamic]

​@@sciencegnf hi so What do you want to talk about?

[@shoimi]

Adult: *Pressuring a child* Child: *Commits unalive* Also adult: *Why would they do this ? I gave them "everything"*

[@MrBaranygabor]

This is exactly what my father said.

[@chelseananiluwanimamaniya3855]

@ฅMitzu_Chuฅ JASDKHASDJK WTF

[@chelseananiluwanimamaniya3855]

@ฅMitzu_Chuฅ U JUST DID NOT-

[@cellobobbys9513]

@ฅMitzu_Chuฅ LMFAO😭✋🏽

[@she-they6046]

@ฅMitzu_Chuฅ YOU DIDN'T-

[@animationtrash6609]

Dear reader, If you are reading this and you have depression like me just remember someone is out there who cares about you you might not think so but someone does. You don't have to agree with me but just remember someone thinks of you each and every day. Thank you for reading this and I hope this makes you feel better about yourself.

[@wearevenom4121]

Xboxdog 5000 ...

[@flarenova6286]

Thanks. Um, hugs? No? *shuffles off awkwardly to hate myself more

[@chiary.is.not.amazing5760]

Flare Nova *hugs* I needed one.

[@flarenova6286]

Chiary [*TMPandah AmorosoTM*] thanks. :)

[@chiary.is.not.amazing5760]

Flare Nova no problem :D

[@depressed_coffee1458]

“I wanna be the person that you think I am” “Is the person I came to be the really real me?” “Nobody wanted me, no one there to need, if only I could live in the kind of world I dreamed” All of these hit me hard, this song is something I can relate to. I wish I could be something to someone, yet every time I am, I’m discarded

[@king4nothing611]

I listened to this song for two hours straight ._.

[@eeveelutionlover7301]

Carter Hopkins really?

[@kismaash1689]

same ._.

[@summerwolf7197]

Oh same ha ha

[@dailywalksaregoodforyou186]

Carter Hopkins same

[@Oltrya]

same

[@Inkenstarr]

The fact that I dissociated in the middle of this song thinking about how relatable it was scares me

[@nyxisbestboi]

"I wanna be the person that you think that I am." "Is the person I cam to be the really real me?" This is basically my main problem, the conflicting between wanting to be something my friends and family can look at and be happy and proud of, but also be myself and do what I want, which they won't like... It all hurts...

[@mollywinter1602]

it seems like a lot of the anime community has depression... :(

[@spookyketchup6413]

molly Winter I know right I don't know why 😕

[@StupidArtOnlineGaming]

Maybe that's why we all come together through the medium. It's relatable in a way that no other medium has really brought to light. People aren't afraid to speak out here. People, like you and I, want to be apart of something. Seeing others talk about their feelings that can be related to helps others in a way that's hard to explain, no matter how depressing the implications may be.

[@nightowlkyon4405]

This is an old comment but I just had to say it. True.. a lot of people in the anime community is dealing with depression and ALSO beyond the community. It's a matter of people's feelings, not just a community. I just feel like you're assuming everyone there has it. (Maybe not everyone but people in the community, do you assume so?) Not really.. it's just a coincidental that people there are dealing with the same things and so they are able to connect with each other.

[@arterialfirerose4659]

molly Winter it’s because people like me get judged over it on a daily basis and even my own family and people I’ve known my entire life will judge me over the fact that I like anime and KPop that’s why I wouldn’t doubt it if I had depression I feel like i do a lot of the time

[@TheWilderCat]

none of us have friends...

[@oOFrancyOo-d1t]

I feel so sad for everyone who is going trought depression. I just want to let you know that you're not alone and there's is still hope💕 I love this song to be honest, i cry everytime i hear it. It just makes me remember the long fight i had against depression. To me, it's underrated.

[@ohno8524]

through*

[@epicmoments2049]

omg fake depression 🥱🥱

[@oOFrancyOo-d1t]

@@epicmoments2049 I wrote this an year ago💀 But anyway, it's not nice to say someone has fake depression bruh.

[@oOFrancyOo-d1t]

@@epicmoments2049 and you wrote the same thing under every comment talking about experiences with depression. You mad? 💀

[@mirapixel5214]

when songs and random people online understand your situation more than your parents and 'friends' can

[@nadia_supremacy3767]

EXACTLY. Nobody gets it honestly. I lost my 7- year bff. So I started talking to someone online, That person online is my new BFF. I felt more alive for 2 days with the person than 7 years with that girl. but my own mother pulled that person away. how can someone you don't know take such a big part in your life?

[@mirapixel5214]

@@nadia_supremacy3767 I'm sorry for your loss. Yeah, blind love is sometimes the strongest because of the fact that it's blind. People online seem to understand more because some things like body language are concealed when not in person. We see what we want to see.

[@nadia_supremacy3767]

That is true. I can tell your going through a lot. I support you 100%

[@mirapixel5214]

@@nadia_supremacy3767 Thanks for the support. I'm over my past trauma. It's interesting how fast people pick up on things, dang.

[@nadia_supremacy3767]

[@HiddenSiren]

To anyone who needs to hear this Keep going and stay strong. Your story is just beginning.

[@pidgey_]

I can relate to some of the comments here. I'm just getting so tired these days. Getting dizzy is frequent and feeling like crap and so damn unmotivated it how i feel everyday. And because of that, I'm always down and sensitive. I used to be so damn sad. Like really, really sad thinking "im useless" "im not worth it" "im just not good enough as everyone else" "i wish i wasnt like this" and due to this, i lost so many friends and i lost myself. I became quiet and reserved and now, I've become quieter, more reserved and i get nervous really easily and i always get weird like when im nervous. I was sad, but now I'm just always so angry. I get angry at the littlest things and i find myself hating myself for it. And i hate that my friends i have now always think im depressed when I'm just laying my head down when im tired and they always say "oh she's depressed. Dont kill yourself~" as like a joke but it just makes me annoyed and mad. And today i was in a group with my friend who's really smart and this other girl who's one of the smartest kids in my class. We were doing maths stuff and i didn't get it so i asked to explain it but my friend just put me down and treated me like i was an idiot... and maybe i am. I'm always falling behind in Maths so whenever my friends tell me that I'm stupid and i laugh it off, i actually feel so fustrated at myself. My friends always joke around about my face and my fat and how stupid i am. Im so annoyed. Stressed. Fustrated. Angry. But not at them at myself. For being a doormat and existing to just get trampled. Im so sick of this. Im so damn sick of this. A character from this manga i read about said this line once. It was something that i could relate to that i just couldn't stop crying. "Im so tired. I feel like I could die." . Hey sorry for ranting and venting like this~ But i hope you all have a nice day. And remember to appreciate yourself and stay strong. I love all of you and you're all worth it ♡♡♡ let's grow together ♡♡♡

[@s0meon3onyt6]

THE SWAN it’s okay to vent. It’s okay to need help. That’s doesn’t make you weak or an idiot. I’m sorry you had to go through stuff like that. I hope that things are getting better. ❤️

[@ohno8524]

get more sun in ur life

[@ohno8524]

maybe eat a banana every now and then and get some water

[@ohno8524]

also get ur over urself 2 years later xoxo

[@sadpenguin8616]

Yea, though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death i will fear no evil for you are with me, your rod and your staffs hey comfort me. psalm:23

[@bonjour570]

‘if only i could live in the kind of world i dreamed, and ‘why would i wanna live in the kind of world i see?’ rlly hit hard. i often deal with fantasising, daydreaming during studying, reading novels to insert myself in.

[@Ash-cu1wg]

I hate depression, its become a thing that people think WE have a choice. NO! I DONT WANT TO HAVE MENTAL BREAKDOWNS! I DONT WANT TO HAVE MY DEMONS ALWAYS LURKING! I started to not use my mask as much and a group of girls in my class said 'Why are you so depressing? Ugg your ruining my mood.' So I said sorry and I put my mask back on. I remember in one of my old schools I stopped wearing my mask, and I became a ghost. No one talked to me or even acknowledged my presence. My best friend asked me why I keep on my mask, my answer to that is.. I dont want to be forgotten, it hurts so fucking much. When I told people how I REALLY felt they put their nose up at me 'you have a boyfriend, why are you such a depressing bitch?' They dont realise that there is so much more to it, I hate it I despise it. But what can I do? Die? Yea but.. I'm scared of dying, Im scared of finally finding out how worthless I am... so I torture myself every day

[@happkirb9903]

I relate everyday. My class thinks I’m just a smart person and nothing else to it. I just moved from my home state to somewhere farther and that hurt me a lot because I lost the only friend who understood me deeply and supported me. in this new school everyone only cares about what’s on the outside, so when I say something sad they’ll say “You’re lucky though, you’re born a genius (which isn’t actually true) why would you be sad?” And then it discourages me from talking. I have to put on so many different masks to cover myself in all the schools I’ve been in that I don’t even know who I am to be honest. it just sucks when nobody, not even your parents bother to see what’s inside and settle with what you show them.

[@jrsweater9929]

Dame

[@BarneyEg]

You can't get any more relatable

[@birchy_paw]

The reason I hate it even more is because people think that it’s something to be toyed with and use it to their own advantage, so they can gain attention, but they aren’t actually depressed.

[@Ash-cu1wg]

@@birchy_paw That happens so much its so annoying!! Girls on insta will be like (someone actually said this) "I didn't get to get my nails done, omg I'm so depressed" another girl said shes 'depressed' when I asked her if she knew what depression was she said 'Its when your sad somtimes' THAT IS ABSOLUTELY NOT WHAT DEPRESSION IS! Thats just being sad!! Another girl said I wasn't depressed because a few hours ago I was laughing, its literally like saying 'Oh you have asthma? You cant have asthma because you were breathing a minute ago'

[@wendycao4928]

You know it is a good day when you realize Juby has uploaded another song ;-;

[@Inverted_Wings]

2:55 don't mind me, it's just... My personal favorite line...

[@anklebiter420]

samee

[@MikaelaTufts]

A good favourite line to have❤️

[@deardaemon]

Glad to come back to this song and say I’m significantly better than I was in the past.

[@nadia_supremacy3767]

Good :)

[@stormytehcat]

If anything just gave me the strength to keep going it was you

[@epicmoments2049]

omg fake depression 🥱p

[@PixelBeReal]

“Why would I want to live in the kind of world I see?” This hurts a lot to me. Just seeing everything around me being usually destroyed, something is always my fault, I always did something wrong, Everything seems horrible. , it feels like I feel trapped in the reality I don’t wish to be in. I love this song, it is such a comfort for me

[@AnachronisticAstronaut]

_This_ song. The first time I listened to a song when I was feeling down. First time I cried hearing music of my own choice in my ears. A few years have passed since that time, I’ve matured a bit, and listening to this again made me realise how _much_ it sounds like the thoughts and words my own mind says. I was only ten. I remember sitting on my bed playing this on loop when my parents were out. I remember when it finally dawned on me _why_ I kept coming back to this one song. The one that made me realise why the days were blurring into one and why time slipped through my fingers like sand. One bad day was all it took.

[@nutella7644]

I STOPPED READING MY MANHWA FOR THIS AND I KNOW IT'S GOING TO BE AMAZING THANK YOU JUBY!! (It's either KZbin always sents notifications 30 mins late or I just don't notice my notifications)

[@kreldeprince]

natalia ??? KZbin sends me notifications about 20 to 30 mins late so I can relate 😭

[@vannacuevas1625]

JYE 조여은 same

[@KiwiMMD]

I remember myself few years ago listening to this song. The small and broken me. The me who wanted to simply smile and live like everyone else. The sweet and naive child who suffered from bullying, parents issues and toxic relationship. The young girl who wanted her suffering to end and finally have some peace and true happiness. And now, as i listen to this song today, I sense this weak, yet sweet girl's presence nearby. And the only thing I want to do is to hug her and let her cry everything she feels. "There's always light in the complete darkness" That's what I'd say to her. This girl's sufferings has ended. Now, she has great life with the best people around her. The life where she finally can be happy. The life with the best partner ever. The life with the coolest people around her. Her sweet dream came true. She finally found her place in the world and can feel being needed and loved. And I'll do my best to protect this dream no matter what

[@sadpenguin8616]

God is an ever present help in distress psalm 46:2

[@Al_-cf1dj]

I'm glad you got out of that dark place and are doing okay :)

[@MikaelaTufts]

Wow… that made me tear up. That’s so inspiring and beautiful. I’m so proud of you. You are amazing.❤️🫂

[@qwertzi2.099]

This song has been out for already 4 years now I've found it a few weeks ago and i still listen and relate to this so much Everyday, I feel like an empty vessel Everyday, I feel more and more how I lose myself Everyday, the masks I've weared more and more become like a different part of me Who am I? What am I? I don't know and I never will Talking to people about my problems It doesn't really help either I know they're trying to help me, but All I can muster to say are my "normal" problems Those that many people have, like failing at a subject, being constantly tired, etc I've been suffering from depression and anxiety for how long now, 2 years? It's not much compared to others, but it still hurts so much More and more, I realize, all the emotions I've felt, all thoughts I've had, all of them I've stored away deep inside my memory because I don't, or rather can't, remember They're coming back, but more and more it feels like those memories, emotions and thoughts I've stored up and forgotten , have become a "personality", a "mask", in of its own Everyday, I just feel like I'm more and more losing my "true" self Sorry for this long vent, talking to my parents won't work cuz they don't listen anything I say anyways nor would they believe me if they did or say things like "It's just in your head"

[@sadpenguin8616]

i know that feeling, do you want to talk? (the Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (psalm 34:18)

[@zukdragonic5192]

Is it weird I come back to this song/comment section every time I feel sad or depressed? I feel comforted knowing that other people are going through the same thing I am, but I'm kinda disgusted at myself for this. I feel wrong to take comfort in other people's suffering, but I don't know any other way to comfort the way myself.

[@StriderStarfall]

Don't be disgusted by yourself, you aren't taking comfort in other people's suffering, you're taking comfort in knowing that you aren't alone. It makes everyone feel better knowing they aren't alone, it's human nature to seek out people who are in similar circumstances or headspaces. :)

[@MicrocarpaRutaceae]

Getting therapy, it's wild thinking that you have actual reason to live, while also thinking the imagery in the lyrics is all true.

[@Leaffyleaff]

I know no one asked for this, but what you said reminded me of something I think about often. About the meaning of life, it doesn't have one. We're just passing, nothing we make is permanent, but that isn't a reason to end it. Life doesn't have a meaning, we have the freedom to give it one Edit: typo

[@MicrocarpaRutaceae]

@@Leaffyleaff pretty much exactly what I'm thinking of nowadays. I appreciate your comment!

[@lexitheweirdo3641]

Dear Juby, These songs relate to me on to many levels. A few years ago I got told to kill myself and it still goes on to today. So when I got home I went into my room crying my eyes out, but my mother told me to stop being a snowflake. She kept telling me how those words don't matter and I'm not the only one who gets told that. She then left making me feel worse. I sighed and turned on KZbin trying to make myself feel better, but the song I was listening to didn't relate to me at all. I picked up my knife o had in my room contemplating if I should go back to cutting or not. Then your song popped up and I decided to listen to it and started singing along playing it over and over also listening to your other songs. I never had a KZbin account before now and I figured I should thank you for making me feel understood and not giving up on my life.

[@Jkennedy25]

You are an amazing, beautiful person, don't ever give up! You have a purpose on this earth, you may have not found your purpose yet. If I could I would give you the biggest hug through the screen! *give fluffy warm blanket and favorite food* I know this probably won't help but, people. Care about you, remember that!!

[@flarenova6286]

You matter. Your existing makes the world better in so many ways you probably couldn't count them even if you knew them all. You Are Loved.

[@lordadorable7362]

My friend, everyone gets insulted its okay to feel hurt by it but trust me. Try to ignore it and if that doesn't work turn to a comfort.

[@sleepyy1462]

My friends always say “I’m depressed” or “I’m gonna kill myself” it always angers me when they say that because I *know* they aren’t. Maybe they could be, but one of them said “I wish I had cancer to end it all.” What the actual fu-

[@Lonley_Location]

One of my classmates said they 'cut' themself, and send a picture of there 'cuts' in the class chat (the cuts weren't even deep, the cuts were like scratches from cats that don't bleed) . They also said that they wish the could just jump from the roof when like 15 people were around

[@---ed6mm]

I find it disrespectful how people act like they have depression then you have the people who actually have depression who dont get help because others think they're faking it.I dont have depression but I still find it rude and you should also get some new friends- ;w;

[@beautecore]

Sleepyy I had friend who was like that. She always used her “depression” and “anxiety” as an excuse to get out of something. I stopped being friends with her after this sentence and I QOUTE! “ I tried hanging myself with a hanger.” After the school found out she got the attention she wanted and blamed me for her problems leading me be sad and bullying.

[@neroquin]

Please don't just brush off any potential problems your friends might have.. Even if it's said in a joking way, there could still be a bit of truth in there. While I think that treating depression like it's nothing is terrible, every person struggles with something. I'm also sorry if this comes off as rude or pretentious, but I really had to say this.

[@anadiaz7284]

Same here I hate it when my friend lies to me or when everyone lies to me

[@PlanetConner]

It's not like I'm depressed or empty or have ever experienced something traumatic. But music like this is beautiful

[@hollyleaf143productions8]

I found this song today, after getting my first F on an assignment. I'm in college, and an all A student. This song made me realize the life I've been living isn't even what I want, I want to be myself. I'm just doing things for the sake of doing them, never doing anything cause I truly enjoy it. I think I'll drop out of college, cause I don't even have a major, I'm just biding my time at this point.

[@sadpenguin8616]

come to me all you who are weary and heavy burdened and i will give you rest (matthew 11:28)

[@LapisBapis]

Funny how I’m distancing myself from my friends and only certain people seem to notice. I tell them I’m fine when I’m not, I break down at school and I end up getting sick because crying to much gives me a fever and I can’t go to school the next day and seems like the people I talk to the most don’t really seem to notice at all or even give a shit. Most people think I’m acting and pretending just to seek attention. I wish it was easy just to laugh off my depression idk why I’m even depressed most of the time I just am

[@hobos7491]

I’m so sorry you had to deal with this, I’d genuinely recommend hanging out with the people who realized that you were distancing yourself.

[@quiqugachq2]

I relate to almost the entire song.. Im just giving my honest opinion so leave me alone I don't get noticed enough for hundreds to cry because of me. And no one's smile has ever warmed my heart like that. Smiles have never changed my mood positively. And no one is stopping me. Pain is.

[@iwasneverhere2527]

i used to listen to this song almost all the time when i was in my deepest depression yet. and that's really saying something, cause most of my memories blur together, and all i distinctly remember was feeling empty, and being trapped in my own body. anyway, one day, a song called "my r" was on my recommended page, so i watched it, then i watched a video called "miss wanna die", then finally, this song. these three songs sounded so foreign to me, and it felt like they were saying what i was too scared to express to others, so, naturally, i latched on to them for dear life. bored on the bus? listen to a song. just got home from school? listen to a song. can't go to sleep because of thoughts keeping you awake? listen to a song. it just felt good to feel like i wasn't alone, to connect with random people in the comments, who i probably won't ever see in real life, it felt good to jam out to some good songs, it felt good to cry, it felt good to feel something. then, for no reason (at least not one i can remember), i stopped listening to them. i don't know if it was because they were repetitive, or if i just forgot them, but i just stopped. but, i've been getting better since then, and i didn't remember about any of these songs till about a month ago, when i first heard the music box version of my r, it sounded so familiar, then i suddenly remembered what it was from, and i've fallen back in love with these songs. they helped me from giving up, so, thank you @JubyPhonic, for helping me at my lowest

[@jmking4943]

Those songs actually helped me get through my depression. So happy they helped you as well.

[@sadpenguin8616]

God is an ever present help in distress psalm 46:2

[@MOPS-jl6od]

I discovered those songs in probably the exact same order. Also, glad you’re doing better!😊

[@LOKI_LO0ZER]

"Just by living I'm bringing you another day, why just for me you smile after everything" I'd just like to say, I have been an empathetic person for my friends.. And these lyrics mean alot to me, cause even though I help alot of people through things.. I push away the help for me. I am very suicidal and constantly bite myself and scratch my legs. I'm not even sure if this is depression, and I don't like self Diagnosing... Ever since my brother was born my mother was very abusive to my father, it's been like this for 10 years.. My mother got divorced because my father became a drug addict. After that, we moved away and my mother pushed all the taking care of my little brother responsibility on me. Then I met my friend, who was very suicidal and I immediately in my brain jumped to action into talking to him... I used to talk him out of it... I even went as far as into cutting myself just so we could make a deal that no one cuts. I would smile for him, I would draw things for him, introduce animes to him. Then my mother started to lay her hands on me, she would throw things at me, she would wack me in the back in head, one time she pinned me to the bathroom wall and banged her head against mine causing mine to hit the wall really hard. She would also mentally abuse me, calling me bitch, pathetic, useless, slave, retarded. Which caused me to give up completely. I now am suffering alot of stress, I constantly bite myself scratch my legs, pull out my hair, bang my head against the wall or anything. I finally told my friend and he kept trying to help me and I pushed it away... I don't even know why... I just did it.. No I do not have crush on him... I just thought I would clear that up..

[@me_irlg2413]

From personal experience and my own research, I think you have depression and either have, or are at a high risk for, anxiety. Please see a therapist or a psychiatrist.

[@nadia_supremacy3767]

please don't abuse yourself. I know it is hard and you are going through hard times. It feels like you're alone but you aren't. I know it hurts..You'll find your support. My mom is very simular to yours, I know that you might hate her right now, I hate mine too..But still you should always love your family..You have my support :) NOW SMILE!! (p.s~ I like anime too )

[@epicmoments2049]

omg fake depression 🥱p

[@Crows256]

That's sad, you two should definitely get professional help as soon as you can. Don't give up, be there for each other and support each other until you can get out of there.

[@ChipDrewPog]

"Now as I am I understand it's best I die" This one hits home

[@tolentinoalexam.7262]

thanks for making me cry

[@nadia_supremacy3767]

heh, sometimes smiling helps :)

[@ktfinnsthegamer3117]

and then a girl walked up and despite herself she seid "Hay Don't Do It Please"

[@rosebud577]

F

[@minarishell]

@Kasumi thats the joke

[@miriam5051]

my r

[@LoverOfStuff]

*cue the music*

[@teethdotjpeg]

*my r*

[@mattyvamp]

this song. this is the one. i've always insisted "i think relating to songs is dumb. there's no way you could relate to a song." but here i am. im trying to sound as undramatic as possible but this song hits fucking hard. and not completely in a bad way. for a long time and still very frequently i feel how the beginning of the song starts, feeling like theres no reason to live, how nobody cares, and how just by living you're hurting people. but also the ending lyrics. "why after everything could you smile just for me?" and how "just by leaving you're no one for another day" all it does is remind me that there are people who are willing to spend time on me, to smile for me, and that by dying, you're not changing anything. this song. damn.

[@epicmoments2049]

omg fake depression 🥱p

[@buttercupkat]

Don't listen to the reply above! Your depression is valid, and I hope you've managed to lessen it, if not entirely get rid of it. It's been a few years so I can't be sure you're alive, but I really hope you are. You deserve to be able to see yourself grow to become happy, even if the happiness fades quick. You can do this.

[@mattyvamp]

@@buttercupkat ahah you're so sweet, thank you!! i did write this a few years ago and i have come a long way since then your comment is so kind, i appreciate it ^^

[@buttercupkat]

@@mattyvamp No problem! I'm so glad that you're doing better. No matter what, know that someone far, far away believes in you! Good luck in the future.

[@frlikechocolate]

A rather underrated line is “Hundred lives, never changing them or anything.” I honestly have taken the line “You are meant to do great things.” to heart. I feel like if I don't change the world radically, my life will be a waste, and it's still a hard mindset to get out of. So i don't know who sees this, or who needs to hear this, but what you are doing is enough. Im proud of you. Good job. ❤

[@Lemonne-]

"In the end, the smile you gave to me, right when I wanted to give it all up, and I really do wish that I didn't and all of the moments I tried to just die, said goodbye," These lines hit me like a fucking bullet train, HOLY SHIT. 3:03

[@LilyBug-iw3cp]

I can't believe some people disliked this masterpiece!!!

[@joselynmartinez4562]

I personally think if you don't like it then keep that to yourself and just stop watching(BUT this is a masterpiece so it's quite confusing as to how they dislike it)

[@dp2989]

KZbin should delete the dislike button and keep the like button. Keep yo' opinion to yourself.

[@analyticaltomato]

Tony Flamingo or do like the comments, there is a dislike button but you can't say if someone disliked it or not

[@-notactive-8775]

Luna Wolf they thought it was the dis i like button

[@sharkskin9728]

agreed

[@enginitasaputra3381]

we all feel wrong sometimes. For kids maybe they are not good enough for there parents because of bad grades, not intelligent enough, or else. I feel it too. So, for all parents that read this comment, please don't pressuring your kids. they are still little. They will remember everything you said to them until the end. So please, they are still little, they still need to find there own character, they can't be depress forever. Maybe you think your child is happy, but maybe they fake it. So, for the last time please don't ever in a billion years pressuring your kids. I'm begging for you all parents. Thank you...

[@user-ov1fd7xf9s]

I have had suicidal thoughts and thought about telling my parents, still haven't told them, and i still have suicidal thoughts. but the one line that hit me was ''why can't i laugh it off the way that i dreamed?'' Because i used to (and still do) fake a smile and laugh. Everyone thinks i'm still their innocent happy child. My older sister saw me crying one day, and i told her that I just had a bad day, so it went over her head. But then she entered my room and saw me crying second time. i told her what's been going on, about all the fake smiles and laughs. And about all the bullies. She told me her problems and now I can't get over the fact she has to be in a dorm away from our home and can only come during weekends. So yeah, I basically told her my troubles and knew I could trust her the moment she had to go.

[@me_irlg2413]

Tell your parents, they might take you to a therapist who can help. If not, I'm always here to listen.

[@user-ov1fd7xf9s]

@@me_irlg2413 Oh they've already tried two therapists, because they saw all the suicidal notes in my backpack for school. But, as you can see, it hasn't helped. I appreciate the fact you're lending me a helping hand, even if we do not know each other. ^*^

[@ohno8524]

@@user-ov1fd7xf9s maybe u shouldnt keep ur suicide notes in ur backpack but actually go through w them !

[@user-ov1fd7xf9s]

@@ohno8524 Thanks for the advice, it's gotten a bit better since maybe 6 months ago actually, it's not yet all smiles, but it probably never will be, thanks for the idea though! :D

[@ohno8524]

@@user-ov1fd7xf9s credit where it's due

[@jmking4943]

This song is the literal embodiment of how I used to feel. I felt like my existence was worthless, that if I died, everyone would be better off. Sometimes I still feel like that.

[@Enny-chan]

Hey Juby....I get that feeling...Being depressed..I understand what's it like...If you need more time..You can rest a bit more..But please don't face them by yourself..It's not healthy for a person to bottle up all those feelings and pretend that everything's gonna be great or wear a mask to hide the depression...Seek help from your love ones..And please don't also think your alone in this world..We all love you for being you and true to yourself...Don't hate yourself kay? You help thousands,no maybe millions of people through music..We're here for you,JubyPhonic...We'll always be here for you...Thank you also for being with us..Hope this comment helps you...Please don't cry okay? I know smiles are better than tears..So Smile...And make it one true smile....like you give us a reason to smile through music... ^_^

[@Leaffyleaff]

I've been feeling awful for like a month, and despite ditching those thoughts, I sometimes find myself wondering if it wouldn't be better if I never existed This song? It reminded me that there are so many who care for me, so many people whose life I improved. I may not be at the best place right now, but I'll keep fighting. As someone told me, "the only thing you can't go back from is death" Edit: after 2 months, I think I've fully recovered! I can't believe I was so deep in, but fortunately I was able to keep going

[@LoolooWackers]

proud of you! ik im just an internet stranger but i hope you have a good day, keep fightning soldier

[@Leaffyleaff]

@@LoolooWackers thank you

[@user_quieto40]

i think its sad that no matter where i am. I am always caught daydreaming, in class, at home, the store, anywhere. But for years ive been dreaming about being in this place were everything is colorful, cheerful..everything is perfect for me...im with the ones ive always wanted to see, weather its 2d characters, or my past lost cats, im there with them living perfectly in my own world..then i have to wake up, and it sucks...out of all of my issues, problems, and hurts, im always stuck thinking about my world ive made up...knowing it'll never be real just breaks me forever, my parents yell at me telling me to get back into the real world, acting like ive asked to be here in this world. it sucks you know. but put of everything i still manage to put on a smile and be able to live another day for the only 4 people that care for me. And ill do just that, forever and for them. as long as i have someone to live for..im the happiest person for that.

[@xerxesYt123]

oh, i thought you were going to sing the high notes in the chorus... i lowered my volume.... xD

[@GerthuyaRana]

Xerxes Ashleyy Vlogs!

[@Ghoucho]

Xerxes Ashleyy Vlogs! Same

[@toontownveteran]

Is there an English version where in the chorus it’s high notes?

[@shukakura937]

yes kzbin.info/www/bejne/joK2oZZ7ic6Aaac

[@seaglxss.sakura7439]

Shinmo__ thanks

[@randompersonontheinternet9336]

I’ve listened to this cover for years, truly my absolute favorite of yours. I love the way the meaning is conveyed and how your voice suits this song so perfectly, the arrangement, it’s all so perfectly fit together!! I adore this work so much and I really wish it were on Spotify, but it’s the main song that brings me back to my playlists on KZbin every now and then. Thank you so much for this masterpiece, Juby! ❤

[@AstraIVagabond]

"There were some words in your letter that touched me: ‘I should really like to get away from everything, I’m the cause of everything and only make others sad, I alone have caused all this misery to myself and others’. Those were words that touched me - because that same feeling, exactly the same, nothing more and nothing less, is also on my conscience." - Vincent van Gogh, in a letter to his brother, Theo

[@DMH96AZ]

There are days that I wish I lived in that world, but with how broken I am on the inside and outside I try really hard to keep myself together and this song speaks the truth to all of us that feels like this

[@sadpenguin8616]

Come to me. all you who are weary and burdened and i will give you rest (matthew 11:29)

[@truenrc9097]

i hate it how i relate to this. i actually despise it. but, wow. i just want to be someone useful, you know? being the oldest sibling in my family i have to set the expectations. i think theyre pretty low because of me. my sister can do so much better than me. im just holding her back, like everyone else. i live by a river and the amount of times ive wanted to jump. its so much quicker and less tolling than being such a waste. im useless when i try to be useful. i.. im not having any major problems as well. its just self-hatred. so much. hatred. to be honest, im going to clean my room later. i'll see to it.

[@deadinside3700]

i feel like this song represents me

[@susannakendson]

I have high functioning severe depression. I just pretend to be happy alot of the time but I havent been truly happy in about 14 years. I'm running out energy to keep going,I'm tired of trying to be happy and being the emotional support pillow for everyone else

[@blackvshinewhitex9845]

It is painful and tired, but at least everyone didn't have to worry about us. So it's worth, right?

[@bailymarshall5568]

Kick off spring break with a bang, right Juby?

[@i_say_slay_way_too_much]

I guess this was kinda my life at school like the way it said “Just my living I’m hurting them another day” it’s just never ending as if I’m invisible..and the part it says “Hundreds cry all I do is ruin everything”..”nobody wanted me no one there to need”..”just by leaving I’m helping them another day”

[@sadpenguin8616]

Though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death i will fear no evil for you are with me your rod and your staff they comfort me psalm 23

[@i_say_slay_way_too_much]

@@sadpenguin8616 🙏 Thanks

[@matthewmcfarland3102]

This song fits almost too well. I spent many years thinking I only bring pain to the world, that nothing good came of my existence. Wondering who would cry after I died, and wondering further what would change about their lives. I was ready to throw everything away. The only thing holding me back was a fear of failure, of ending up even more painful. I now have good friends that have dragged me out of that line of thinking a few times. It took luck, yes, but also the ability to take a chance, to reach out despite the anxiety that you'll destroy everything you built with them. I'm still not all the way out, I still fall back into thinking this same way occassionally, but having people there to show you how much you bring to them helps so much. If you are reading this in that hopeless state of thinking you're worthless, know that you most certainly aren't. No one is useless in this world. Think of the people you've never met, whether it's a random classmate at school or some person you've seen on the train every morning, whose absense you'd feel. You likely are the same thing to someone else. Also, just know that you will make it through if you keep going. It won't be easy, but you will make it. You will have to hurt people and people will hurt you, but that's how life is. The healing process is important to life as much as anything else. Don't focus on not hurting people as much, try your best to focus on being kind to yourself and others more than you hurt them. It's a balance, not an absolute.

[@barcafan1760]

True af and i can totally relate, people always teach to be kind to others and i agree it's necessary but being kind to yourself is even more important

[@Rin-gu9sq]

I know how ya feel....I've attempted Suicide many times but...as you see....they never work.....I was a normal Teen but my parents separated and I got abused till my mom died a year ago....I skipped so much school and was held back a grade...I started cutting...I got seriously depressed....I then attempted Suicide by being hit by a car so I walked out in front of a busy street I got hit but lived...then I tried drowning but lived....after the last attempt my father called in a psychiatrist for depression they got me on pills but they didn't help....And now I'm here!

[@Rin-gu9sq]

Still pretty messed up...

[@geekypines3997]

lulu glad your alive

[@Rin-gu9sq]

Geeky Pines that's sweet...I'll just have to keep going!

[@geekypines3997]

Azhelo Hassya Wtf

[@Rin-gu9sq]

Azhelo Hassya there's not many cliffs where I live ;-;

[@samtheanimefan4602]

I just realized that at 1:00 the stuffed animal is hanging by its neck like a noose.

[@404-x6t]

The song is absolutely my life.

[@eira6844]

Are you depressed FBI? Wanna arrest some lolicons?

[@hobos7491]

Let’s arrest lolicon fans together fam

[@soliethesun]

Hey Juby! I read your desc! I'm very sorry about the pressure that you have to be through! But your fans will help you! Fight depression! Don't let it take over you! I used to be like you so you're not alone! Stay strong!

[@Mocha_tealeaves]

I HAVE BEEN Looking FOR THIS FOR YEARS UNABLE TO REMEMBER THE TITLE AND I FOUND IT IN MY OLD PHOTOS WTH

[@mylahkirk9625]

The first time I heard this song I started sobbing because I knew how much this represents me and how I have been feeling for years, but no one knows my true feelings....

[@jsfyxzuf117]

And what is your true feelings?

[@random.4505]

you're fucking amazing please know that, I think you deserve the world, im sorry if what im saying is hecking stupid im currently crying and not thinking straught but whatever, i think you are a wonderful person, i need you to know that. i love you

[@mylahkirk9625]

@@random.4505 T^T the word needs more people like you! I LOVE YOU TO!!!!

[@sealbirdy5627]

Used to listen to this a lot in 2017-2018. Was going through some hard times then, and even now I still remember the lyrics by heart. Things have gotten better now, tho I still struggle with mental health. But it's a bit better now. I just wish I could hug the younger me and tell that everything is going to be okay

[@epicmoments2049]

omg fake depression 🥱p

[@sadpenguin8616]

Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and i will give you rest matthew 11:28

[@pikapalt4391]

The story of my life

[@tiredcat5481]

This was made for multiple people to relate to. You are only one of these people, quit the act.

[@cagedowl7366]

Same

[@drew_the_ghost6628]

People can mostly joke about stuff they relate to. Whether you did or not, I leave this comment in hopes that your story is not over. Hopes that it had a twist for the best.

[@camillebonanno7060]

yeah I relate

[@camillebonanno7060]

thats a tad rude xd lol

[@Moon-xo8ty]

I relate this song exactly 6 years ago, but seeing this now, got me thinking how young i was back then to already feel this kind of emotion.

[@jerrycarmody5866]

When the teacher pulls a pop quiz on you and you didn't study at all Lmao I'm horrible

[@jerrycarmody5866]

In the midst of the depressed anime otaku comments, you see this. Pfft-

[@somethinginthewoods2662]

Your profile pic...

[@margaritabulos]

@@somethinginthewoods2662 Beautiful ain't it?

[@eira6844]

*TRIGGERED THOMAS*

[@g0reph0bic8]

Am I bad person for laughing at that? XD

[@ZeraKonno]

This song really represented how I was early high school. The loneliness, the damage after being cheated on 4 times with one person then the relationship after ended in accusing that I cheated like excuse me? I really thought I was nothing to no one and this world was just not for me. But the night I really planned to hang I got a call from my best friend. They heard how low and sad my voice was and knew exactly what was going on. Talked me to sleep and I woke up once more. At school the counselors called me to the office for a wellness check. My best friend was at a different school and contacted my school to check on me. This then involved my family to inform them on what was going on. It really opened my eyes that people do and will take time to listen and care for you. Sometimes… it takes going to the deep end to see who really cares. Now I listen to this song and smile with tears. Knowing that I’m still here and I overcame such mental torture. Yes I’m still very much friends with the one that saved me and I refuse to let them go after that night. Just imagine me crying in their arms after a performance and finding them in the crowd. It happened and I wouldn’t be here without them. So to those currently struggling. Just talk to the one person that cares. Hold them close and let them help you. You won’t regret it. Life is cruel but once you open your eyes you can really see the beauty of life. We only have one life, don’t let it end so soon. You have many more chapters in life to write my friends. And if no one has told you this yet. I love you and very proud of you for being alive today ^^ don’t go anywhere friends

[@A_purestarrynight1]

6 years already? Damn I remember how angsty I was

[@slushelhusky2448]

I love that the line "Just by leaving I'm no one for another day, hundred lives, never changing them or anything" stays the same in the last chorus, it shows that they've accepted that their life wont affect many people, especially them realizing it wont affect anyone negatively, they know now that they just fine just living for one person and in the future, for themselves.

[@Loland_The_Cracked_Silence]

We loves you Juby

[@slapyoface639]

My mom just confronted me about me acting really weird these days. She said that I need to tell her. I need to speak it up. I need to because she's my mom. Yes, she is my mom. But everytime.. she's just so-- no so aggressive about it. "Why can't you just tell me!?" , "You're just gonna watch yourself get more damaged???" somethings like that. I'M TRYING like please just stop I don't want to anymore. This is why I don't wanna show my real feelings its because its so annoying to deal with her trying to comfort me. I know she wants to help but LORD. I cant anymore I feel so bad talking bad at her. I don't give a shit anymore i dont care about my being i dont wanna make people get so worried about me. WHo cares anyway?? ITS NOT EVEN ME ITS JUST MY BRAIN its the one whos letting me know that i feel like shit. holy crap i hate my life lmao

[@izzythelily8569]

..when you first discover this song you don’t relate to it now you do.

[@MishaZGreen]

You have helped me express and feel emotions in a way I've needed to, and what you do is truly beautiful. I have the same problem minus an SO. Half the time I feel I can't trust anyone around me, half the time I feel like I'm the one who can't be trusted.

[@siennap9808]

This song is a friendly reminder that nothing matters because we're all gonna die someday, and millions of people don't know or care about you, so what's the point? You're not changing anyone's lives by dying, and for some people, it'll make their life slightly better. We're all going to fall to the ground one by one.

[@deadcells963]

I guess someone missed the point 🤨 maybe you won’t make a difference with an attitude like that but I know I will 👉🏻

[@Malakai__WeLoveYouMafumafu]

I think we should all acceptp and embrace the fact that we will all die. No point fearing the inevitable. But even if no one cares about us, even if we don't change anything, why not try to do a bit of good and enjoy ourselves before we leave this life? Wether you believe in an afterlife or not, I think everyone should try to make themselves happy and do a bit of good and shit I'm crying why am I crying

[@junmaismile8171]

"Nobody wanna me, no one there i need" this part always make me cry

[@Zee_Vortex]

I know the song is dark and all but the kitty made my day. P.S I fight Depression too you can do it.The only thing that keeps me from commiting suicide is this: Think of life like its a Videogame and everytime something Bad happends its like fighting a final boss you could just give up and take the easy way out but that is not an Option surrendering is not an Option.I know you can do it and maybe you could go to a therapist. Sorry If my grammar is really Bad its because I am from germany.

[@nadia_supremacy3767]

Why can't I live in the kind of world I dream? That hit me hard. I can relate.

[@Nerdalert-w4f]

I relate to this song too much I don’t really talk about it with anyone because I’m scared and I don’t want to make it seem like I’m trying to get attention even though I didn’t get my parents attention it was like I was invisible I’m turning 14 this September so I want to get a really good friend who can relate to me so they can understand what I’m going through but I’m scared to make friends 😅.

[@raincandy_UU.]

I can be your friend :) I’m 13 too! how are you? you can always vent! I understand how your feeling and I’d like to know how you are.

[@urpinkponygirl]

I used to relate to this, as my family was abusive, but gladly they realized its wrong and now they love me alot

[@simiebat]

These lyrics... I thought about Mystic Messenger's Seven T_T Replaying his route really opened some emotional wounds again.

[@Cowmaize]

As someone who used to heavily identify with this song, it won’t be forever. It can’t stay the way it is forever. Nothing good stays forever. Nothing bad will last forever. You will get out. you will find your way, You just have to be alive long enough to get there. As someone who’s BEEN there. Continue for the rest of the year, just make it to next year

[@Malakai__WeLoveYouMafumafu]

This used to be my comfort song 5 years ago when I was going through a very difficult time. Now I am older and my life has gotten so much better. I'm really thankful she made this cover, I love it so much

[@arsenobarseno3909]

*Everyone:* Talking about how relatable this is and etc. *Me, who came for the music:* (˙ー˙)

[@thesparkleunicorn14]

I listened to this for the first time. I almost broke down at the end of it. The tears just flew

[@Edible_chalk]

Every year, this song keeps biting me in the ass. I'll listen to it for a while, then convince myself "yeah, I TOTALLY don't feel like that anymore this song isn't relatable" and then a year later, I remember it again and I have to come to the realization that "fuck, this is the most relatable song I've ever heard in my life"

[@emmaberry6415]

You put everything from my life into a song.

[@emmaberry6415]

P.S., don't let anything change who you are. You are strong. You are THE JubyPhonic.