Kevin Kantor - Honest Confessions on Letting Go

[@smileandbreathe]

"when you start to rearrange your vocabulary for someone else, replacing words like 'unhealthy' with 'compromise', you will begin to forget your own name." fuck.

[@danihircock7335]

"I've never wanted somebody to hurt and be happy so badly"

[@auroraschnorrealis1141]

...When you begin to rearrange your vocabulary for someone else, replacing words like "unhealthy" with "compromise" you will begin to forget your own name. Yes.

[@sarahbecker4649]

"I told *everyone* how bad the sex was..... BECAUSE IT *WAS*" STRAIGHT UP *SAVAGE* XD

[@tanayabarrett4766]

are you sure straight is a way to describe it?

[@tanayabarrett4766]

+Rio x sorry cant, still stick in the closet

[@LossesCostUs]

That seed and garden line was just off the hook.

[@Shawcohn10]

My favorite line.

[@ryanjones7477]

I can't say how many times I've thought that.

[@taradevaul8514]

"I've never wanted someone to hurt and be happy so badly." "I'm sorry I have yet to forget how to find you beautiful... I'm trying" These fucking sentences.. Holy cow...

[@AilsaB123]

"completely self fabricated history of something that only ever sort of was" could not relate more to this hahaha

[@abrianna9676]

Ailsa Bennett right??!!!

[@aesop2020]

How can I put this eloquently? Umm "this dude is all fucking awesome and stuff" That works

[@lindseyreese287]

"I told you I loved you. Last resort."

[@abirmusic9]

Ik

[@abirmusic9]

Maar and I have the

[@asseater0077]

This poem slayed

[@joysohns]

He slays.

[@dgobrien]

+eatanentireass #slay

[@theturtlewave2278]

asseater007 yes yes yesss

[@SimplyMayaBeauty]

Such raw emotions. You guys pick the best poems to upload. And your timing is kind of amazing too.

[@ajcalibara]

"You covered up everything to try to be with me. And I no longer knew what I was." Damn. That was me.

[@ThePerksOfBeingKiall]

This is so great an full of emotion. My favorite line: "How do you tell someone they taught you how to look at a seed and see a flower?" So beautiful.

[@SincerelyBluejay]

Incredible Especially the part about "baby" being a way to light up the room and monsters already in bed with your relationship. Absolutely incredible.

[@rhaight78]

"You covered up everything to try to be with me, and I no longer knew what I was." This. So much, this.

[@360angelface]

Omg this is my ex... I'm straight but I can relate to everything he says especially when he says "how do you tell someone that they taught you how to look at a seed and see a flower? You were blooming in another man's (woman's) garden and I feel like I'm the only one who got his hands dirty."

[@pOlykaUlitZ1]

same! I can relate so much to this poem, especially that part

[@sunnysodapop]

Could you explain that..I'm kinda confused

[@noreality2401]

sunnysodapop -anything learned in a previous relationship is credited to an ex. in this case...hes just saying his efforts are now benefiting someone else...the new lover of the ex

[@GagandeepSingh-rq6oo]

lauren davis bjhgh guy uh

[@Ava-fl2cz]

@@noreality2401 Thank you so much! I was trying to figure it out.

[@Claire24mt]

Transcript: Honest confessions on falling in and out of love with a confused, 20-something, semi-closeted gay man or I can usually tell in the first fifteen minutes if something is gonna work out for the long haul, so why did I ever bother or A Beginner's Guide to crying publicly at parties over a completely self-fabricated history of something that only ever sort-of was or How to Let Go One: Last Halloween Britney Melendez dressed up as Dora the Explorer and got so drunk that she stood on a chair and shouted ''How many shots has Dora had? OCHO! Dora tiene ocho shots!'' Five minutes later, you were making out with drunk Dora in the middle of the living room and in that moment, for some reason I knew you had to be mine. Two: I totally watched Django Unchained without you over winter break, even though I promised you I wouldn't, and then pretended to be watching it for the first time on our date. That was the only time that I ever lied to you. Which for me is a personal best. Three: I have never found you sexier than when you talk about German filmmakers, struggle to ice-skate, or tell me that I am wrong. Four: I have recurring dreams about deep-cleaning your apartment. Five: The first time that you told me I cannot stay the night because your roommate might come home and see me, I should have left you. Not out of selfishness or anger, but because when you begin to rearrange your vocabulary for someone else, replacing words like 'unhealthy' with 'compromise', you will begin to forget your own name. Six: You called me 'baby' like flicking on a light switch. Something quick and easy that you knew you could do to brighten up the room. But I am sick of sleeping with the lights on, because you were afraid of the monster in your closet and I was afraid that it had already climbed into the bed with us. Or that I had been the monster all along. Seven: I told everyone how bad the sex was. Because it was. Eight: I have thought about you during sex with other people. Nine: I've never wanted someone to hurt and be happy so badly. Ten: I told you I loved you. Last resort. I told you I loved you, like a bomb shelter. Something to hide in after the fallout. But we would always be hungrier than our rations would allow. Eleven: How do you tell someone that they taught you how to look at a seed and see a flower? You are blooming in another man's garden and I feel like I'm the only one who got his hands dirty. When he bites into your roots, he will taste my rainwater. When he strips you naked, he will pause between each article of clothing, stop and say 'How beautiful.' Twelve: I'm sorry I've not yet forgotten how to find you beautiful. Thirteen: I'm trying. Fourteen: For Valentine's Day you got me an eggplant. I don't really remember the significance, only that you covered the entire thing with silver sharpie, so that you could write little messages in black which wouldn't show on the purple, when you could've just written the messages in silver. When you gifted it to me, I didn't even realise what it was, because, well, eggplants are purple. You covered up everything to try to be with me. And I no longer knew what I was.

[@Claire24mt]

I just saw someone had done a transcript before but it was buried in the comments. Facepalm. ANYWAY I loved this way too much so here's another slightly differently structured transcript ha

[@vellaJuliana]

thank you for doing this!

[@blueturtle3623]

Thank you so much! I love Kevin but im HoH!!!

[@anxhelo8649]

thank you!!

[@stephanieforcier7289]

it's kinda sad that i've watched this so many times, i can almost recite it word for word. this is one of my favourite poems of Button Poetry.

[@joysohns]

Same here

[@srayhappy]

This is one of the most raw wll crafted poems i've ever heard.

[@kaleb345]

This is my favourite poem on Button Poetry; I watch it all the time.

[@dahiana1113]

This is seriously one of my favorite poems

[@minerva4711]

"I'm sorry I have not forgotten how to find you beautiful.... 13, I'm trying." Wow. That hit home. I listen to his poems almost daily... they're so great.

[@alishasharma8332]

His poetry is so amazing, as is his method of conveying it- fast and simple but col and hard cutting. Also- he is so beautiful holy hell inside and out

[@rachelclere5364]

I like the counting of each new thing and how it still pertains to the subject!

[@JadeAlexOfficial]

"I have reoccurring dreams about deep cleaning your apartment" I LOVE THIS LINE

[@nicolegil19]

When a poem is lit AF🔥🔥🔥

[@luanders5232]

I love this. Probably watched this 50 times already.

[@petyatodorova4949]

I've watched a lot of slam poetry and this is still my favorite poem ever.

[@21redsox21]

Number 9 is probably one of the realest things ive ever heard. Seriously.

[@noreality2401]

when Kevin says ...flicking on a light switch...he reminds me of Judd Nelson in breakfast club. great job! you have ample stage presence, sir!

[@djangodjang7569]

this is so gooooood. this guy is fresh and original give him a pat on the back this channel should do more promotion it really reflects passion and emotion (see what i did there) im a 15 yr old boy and i find this channel amazing, poetry is becoming more popular and i know a wide variety of people will enjoy this

[@gblanco2073]

every time I get on KZbin I listen to this. never heard a Poem that's given me chills until I listened to this..definitely one of my favorites.

[@gremlingrandparent]

god he is perfect.

[@allyssajolin4328]

He reminds me of Zachary Quinto's character on AHS: Murder House.

[@tomtom9889]

Im not sure if it's a thing in slam poetry, but the numbers really sounds like what Alex Dang did in "Times i've been mistaken for a girl".

[@fpestanokeziahmarie9461]

It's a thing :)

[@collybenjamin5246]

Can I just....like keep this poem forever? Ugh. I love it so fucking much. Kevin, you are a God.

[@AriadnaBalderrama]

"...because when you begin to rearrange your vocabulary for someone else, replacing words like 'unhealthy' with 'compromise,' you will begin to forget your own name." 😭😭

[@lightblueboi]

19 people have covered everything up and forgotten who they were.

[@kellymoran7644]

"I told everyone how bad the sex was...because it was" Ohh, burn

[@LossesCostUs]

The counting element doesn't seem to get old in these poetry pieces! I loved it in Alex Dang's, Hieu Nguyen's, Ariana Brown's, Patrick Roche's, Rachel Wiley's, and this! (naming others to give you some suggestions to check out from Button Poetry videos!) Any other suggestions?

[@nipzxoxoxo]

rudy francisco - scars. I cried like a baby i swear.

[@curtisxmeyer4819]

Numbered sections in poems are called cantos. Shameless plug: If you want a poem with cantos, you should KZbin search Curtis X Meyer's "7 Grains of Salt."

[@LossesCostUs]

Thanks! The more you learn :3

[@totomlee93]

Tonya Ingram- Thirteen

[@HolyKoreanPanda]

Guante - REACH

[@beckyaa100]

Only just found out about this guy today. He just makes me speechless.

[@spicyjanko8648]

You covered everything up to be with me and I forgot who I was.

[@GagandeepSingh-rq6oo]

Hattie Carpenter hhnh

[@rogansullivan]

This poem speaks to me on so many levels.

[@katokebofhe738]

Incredible, incredible

[@giaannstormshumaker5106]

HIS VOICE .Amazing.

[@danaak8006]

Can we appreciate how this starts with how he wanted to get closer to that person and ends with pain and memories

[@vick2218]

i watch this literally everyday

[@milanjain8739]

Speechless.

[@mkru06]

#11!!! This poem hits home.

[@Ashybearification]

Holy CRAP! This guy ROCKS!

[@the5ofclubscover]

Ooh... Right in the emotions.

[@priscilaperson3784]

I love this poem :)

[@literarycoc00n]

Wow. This was a great piece and great performance! Kevin you rock!! I can't help but think of Tyler Oakley when I first watched this clip (if you've read his book, you will understand).

[@apoorvajain]

Super. Just amazing. I found out about this guy just today and was absolutely amazed at his elaborate performance skills and simple language

[@jennifereustaquio2992]

This kind of breaks my heart every single time.

[@MultiCharliestar]

That last line tho

[@plahntsx9436]

this was insanely accurate i love it

[@GagandeepSingh-rq6oo]

plahnts x gigy

[@valleymmm]

This is the most beautiful thing. I can relate but I think everyone can relate tbh it's not a gay or straight guy or girl it's just beautiful.

[@destinyheath6583]

He sounds like Neil holborn to me! I love Kevin. He’s such a good poet!

[@lostgypsygurl]

I am straight but this poem hit me so hard in the heart. I am trying to nurse a broken heart over someone who was never my boyfriend but when he told me we can't be together because it will not be practical it hurt like it was a break up. It hurts like it is a break up. But I never told him I love him. In this poem he said "i told you I loved you, last resort" that's when it hit me. I never told him I loved him even as a last resort because I didn't have the courage to break my heart even more as it already is.

[@jessalynnellis9712]

that ending was really powerful.

[@Buxombeauty3]

Screaming! I love him!!!!

[@Cornbeneathcanada]

I needed this right now

[@Parasaurolophusful]

You can totally tell he and Bianca Phipps are from the same school. They got the exact same cadence and inflection patterns.

[@daydreamin4]

Damn. All the feels.

[@ab-by7dy]

I hope this man is living his best life rn

[@abby2109]

This is legitimately perfection

[@vadnoviice]

"I'm sorry I haven't forgotten how to find you beautiful"

[@caffeinatednation8885]

that deep clean your apartment line... nice!

[@AyeYoCaptainAriana]

That was so strong from start to finish. Holy shit.

[@anastasialynn6332]

Stunningly beautiful and full of truth. Thank you.

[@sunkissedangel]

My type of poems!!!

[@KafkasKarma]

God, I love the itensity

[@e.x.nihilo]

He spits fire

[@LeviBessette]

you are so amazing.. thank you

[@huntermeek7450]

THAT WAS SO POWERFUL

[@TheyCallMeHughes]

amazing

[@khushbu_luhar]

"I have never wanted somebody to be hurt and be happy so badly." Damn

[@MrPhunkylizard]

That's amazing, simply amazing.

[@janicerobinson2225]

the boy is a monster! So dope dude

[@ashleycole6498]

So beautiful

[@MaddyLaLaLove]

"You covered up everything to be with me, I no longer knew who I was" 😢😢😢😢

[@aidenrivers1953]

Beautiful

[@SomeCallMeWeird]

Wow. Just... wow.

[@amazingly_bookish]

Omg, you are a beautiful, talented gift! ❤

[@styledbystaceyjay]

one of my favvvvvv poets!!!

[@avu2888]

"You are blooming in another man’s garden and I feel like I am the only one who got his hands dirty." I've NEVER felt a line harder than that one.

[@fatimakhanshahid]

Oh my god I love this.

[@Checkersss]

I LOVE THIS.

[@genuineinterest]

AMAZING.

[@PutBoxOnMe]

“I told everyone how bad the sex was, because it was” what a fucking mood, I relate to this poem so much, my ex girlfriend was months ago and it was only eight months but she’s ruined me for other people because she was so toxic and manipulative and confusing and I’m terrified to tell the girl who I’m “talking” to this because I hate going into what could be a good thing broken because it’s basically asking her to fix me and I don’t want that to be her responsibility

[@emilyson5075]

I love this so much

[@meera648]

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH

[@veronicaniero211]

Wow, this is so powerful

[@kristinreale8617]

love love love love

[@PuppysInc]

This is so great. It made me smile and laugh and feel good.

[@danab2625]

That... Was amazing .. I love it

[@slenderbass0]

Amazing.

[@jaliyahw.6082]

I LOVE THIS!!!!

[@christinathomas7639]

Omggg so beautiful