Kudoclasm: When Lifelong Dreams Are Brought Down to Earth

[@obscuresorrows]

I hid a little bonus moment after the credits, but I suspect only one or two people ever sticks around that long. In an age of mechanical reproduction, it's kind of nice to imagine that you and I might be the only ones to see something. Obscurity still exists, in pockets here and there.

[@VeteranVandal]

+The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows Well, as you did it sometimes before, in every video I wait for the end. But I'm the kind of person that watches half an hour youtube videos almost everyday, so...

[@VeteranVandal]

+The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows Well, as you did it sometimes before, in every video I wait for the end. But I'm the kind of person that watches half an hour youtube videos almost everyday, so...

[@2b-coeur]

+The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows A while ago I had a suggestion which I really wanted to see given a word, and emailed to you because I thought that I had to have a Tumblr account to give you a suggestion using Tumblr. I was wondering if you'd seen it or not, and whether I should ask it again using Tumblr this time. It's pretty complicated, though, and I'm not too good at explaining feelings (that's why it needs a word, I do have trouble describing it) so it might be too long for a Tumblr message which has limited words/characters...

[@nicoleboudreau2646]

+The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows well I was going to pass it by, but on seeing your comment I choose to wait a moment.

[@wopwopkross]

+The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows thanks for doing it because it made me have an awe moment ^^ saw it before i read the comments

[@NTE_]

Still hoping this guy uploads again. Some of the most well made content, not only on KZbin, but just in general. Thinking about some of these obscure sorrows is calming and unsettling at the same time. It's a strange feeling. It's a rare feeling. It's an important feeling

[@kennethchan9861]

I think he's working on the book, which is why he has put the video on hold. Last time I heard, he's signed a contract or something and it's in the process of editing the book

[@TheDalekCaan_]

@@kennethchan9861 The book is finished, good news for both of you!

[@TheDalekCaan_]

@@kennethchan9861 Highly recommend the audiobook, by the way.

[@obscuresorrows]

"Between living and dreaming there is a third thing. Guess it." - Antonio Machado

[@pogmog]

+The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows "and" ;)

[@wistfulaether]

+Pogmog lel

[@obscuresorrows]

Ha! Correct! No points.

[@ezrajed6999]

I have a suggestion for a video. what is it called when after learning something, your even more confused before.

[@ezrajed6999]

+Ezra Jed hold up I got a better one, what is it called when you can't experience something for what it's worth becuase of other obligations

[@AveryMilieu]

"We dream to survive - it's no more optional than breathing..." Thank you!

[@BrunetteGiant]

WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO POST AGAIN THIS CHANNEL GIVES ME LIFE

[@Rex25059]

Same!

[@modestea9667]

i guess kudoclasm hit him

[@forrift7845]

he just posted

[@MSQuwerta]

Syngsness - The fear of never seeing a new The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows video again.

[@carlostdied1184]

I'm extremely syngsnystic right now. :(

[@arizonii3747]

@@carlostdied1184 So am I.

[@alencia7203]

😭😭😭

[@Teamgetout]

Is there a word for the feeling that you are seeing someone for the last time?

[@NeonicTrinity]

+Teamgetout only the thought of it brought me memories... obviously not good ones

[@TheReaMrBurntSausage]

+Teamgetout the feeling when you are seeing someone for the last time but you can't seem to make it feel meaningful or memorable. As if no matter what, tomorrow they will be history.

[@etlamzufall7219]

"At some point in your childhood, you and your friends went outside to play together for the last time and nobody knew it." Powerful, chilling thought if you think about it. All Love toward all of you reading this comment and value your small circle of your known ones.

[@Nick-yz9fd]

I too can feel when those moments are occurring.

[@sentosaco]

The term is called: BYEEE Specifically spelled with 3 E's to stress its infinite value, because you will never ever see them again. PS: I love this channel

[@lexthequeer]

I've never really had a 'dream' or like a 'life goal', so I've never experienced that disappointment. I've experienced the feeling of going nowhere - wasting time - but not quite this.

[@holyelisha]

His words are near spot on for what it feels like to feel like you can conquer the world only to slowly put yourself down and realize you'll be like everyone else. Another man or woman working till they're old. Life pushes you to give up on your dreams and ambitions but some don't. Thats when amazing things happen. Thats who I want to be. - Elisha

[@residenthipster5240]

These are so incredible, I get goosebumps every time

[@ashnnaina]

+Resident Hipster Same. I don't think I have enough goosebumps left. Each video is extraordinary.

[@reubenhayward6974]

every time one of his new vids come out i worry that it will be an abysmal failure and then i read the comments and there is an individual suffering from an existential crisis. And i think; he's done it again.

[@obscuresorrows]

+Reuben Hayward If you worry about that, hey, imagine how I feel. :) My philosophy is, if what I'm saying is honest, nothing is a mistake. Even errors and flaws will be in some way revealing.

[@reubenhayward6974]

+The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows. I can't even imagine the pressure, do you worry that you will run out of obscure sorrows at some point, and have to clamber for some abstract ideas people struggle to relate to?

[@obscuresorrows]

+Reuben Hayward Actually no, because I've been writing this for six years now, and most of my definitions are still unpublished, so I have a deep bench of ideas to draw from. I do worry that I'll run out of ways to keep it visually interesting, though. I can only make an animation with highlighters once.

[@rjsaurabh02]

+The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows you are animating emotions in words expressing and crafting vividly what resides inside. you will never go out of ways i believe.

[@imskyliine]

Man its been a year already, where are you?

[@akashdtx]

I don't care "When" you post , "How" many likes or views it has or "What" the new obscure sorrow is called. I just LOVE your work. Please, please keep it up. It's like nothing I have seen anywhere, or ever will. My feelings and all the obscure and abstract thoughts that consume my little head, during the short periods of epiphany - are so elegantly presented in the videos! It's like a pleasant dream. Thanks again! P.S. I do care about the "When", "How", and "What". Love your videos. Please make more.

[@TanujSistla]

This is pure art and it is truly beautiful. We hope you return one day. There aren't many channels as unique and beautiful as yours.

[@cherstepanek5746]

Watching the video and reading or just listening to the narrative are two completely different experiences. When I want or need to think about how this or that obscure sorrow has manifested itself, or is manifesting itself, in my own life, I need to look away from the videos and think about my life. The videos-- marvelous and beautiful-- are sort of distracting entertainment compared to being confronted with the reality of my own life as he verbally describes the feeling in question. Overall in the world in which we currently find ourselves, it's too easy to distract oneself from confronting the reality of one's existence with things that seem meaningful, but are actually just entertaining. Maybe he's got a word for that.

[@jll2001so]

Honestly, I never comment. I never figure that my comment is meaningful, or that I have any need to comment. But honestly, this needs to be a podcast series. Or, at the very least, needs to be much more well-known. This is what humans need - more commentary on the things we forget the most in life: sensations. And the words you bring to the internet brighten those experiences, and your speech gives them more life. Thank you for all of this, and continue to gift the scattered and interconnected world with more wanderlust.

[@mariafoteini]

please start making videos again.

[@johnappleseed8369]

he needs to

[@wopwopkross]

I come back every week hoping to leave with a tear and a smile.

[@valentinag.7633]

what happened to him?

[@wopwopkross]

Valentina G. We don't know :/ he said: he was writing the book version. but nobody heard from him since :/

[@zafragaxt]

im extremely late, but his webpage has information about the book. And he still posts there book's coming next year

[@rosalinaholland8585]

I love it how real you are. You connect all these feelings we have and then send them out into the world to let us know that despite how we may feel, we are never alone. You really do make a difference in peoples lives through your work. Thank you for making such beautiful things. : )

[@papafrancesco2937]

8 people were in such a deep thought after this video that they accidentally hit the dislike button and left.

[@photonwerewolf9740]

Each and one of your videos feel so special... evoking deep thoughts of everything that happens, has happened or will happen in life... be it a friend, me or a bystander, everything comes into a strange light of perspective with these videos... both the music and writing are just delightful, to the point where sometimes I just listen to the video and find myself needing to listen to it once more in order to understand as much of it as I could.

[@hanijanzi3790]

man this is art please come back

[@thebluelight]

Ah yes, just what i needed! My daily dose of existential worry

[@holyhelo5speak]

man I need a friend like you, people always shy away from such heavy topics but it makes you feel alive and inspired, I love it.

[@cyoung7127]

Beautiful music. I wish there was someplace like a big planetarium where I can be fully immersed in these sounds and images and be at peace with my thoughts.

[@vivlodia]

lmao this is 4 years later but i think you should check out lofi music

[@t.j.huckaby1924]

I think there's is a place Like the one u describe. It's called Heaven.

[@SeerOfTime577]

This channel is incredibly beautiful... The kind of eloquence that makes you want to cry.

[@ziggy2489]

Thank you for making this. Giving people a singular word to describe such complex thoughts and feelings is so fulfilling. Also reminds you that you're not the only one who feels that way. Great videos by the way. The editing and clips are really impressive and just nice to watch

[@danielduanetv]

This is exactly how I feel. Great video man.

[@obscuresorrows]

Thanks Daniel.

[@cassandra9581]

Is there a word for wanting to do too much and being overwhelmed and doing nothing because you couldn't decide?

[@Djk092]

in italian we call it "imbarazzo della scelta"

[@GunslingingHavocHD]

Italian is one of those languages that has words/phrases for things that English doesn't have. Like Mardi di figa

[@Oktoberry]

And what does that mean then?

[@MsAmiClassified]

analysis paralysis, isn't it?

[@burgogaming1]

anxiety of freedom

[@TheOmarhegazy]

Everytime I watch this channel I cry a lot..

[@adarkerstormishere]

I've only seen two so far, but I think your videos might be some of the most heartwrenchingly, breathtakingly beautiful videos I've ever seen. I'm gonna go watch some more...

[@alchemicalsoul8023]

Every time i watch one of your videos i get shot of joy. It seems like a reaction to the fact that you explain this feelings in such a intricate way, where as if it was me i would just feel them but wouldn't be able to put them into words. They resonate so much with me, they just click in my mind so perfectly and i get the Aha moment.

[@NicolasIbarra]

This channel is simply one of the most creative and beautifully constructed ever. I love it so much!

[@batoul47]

I just watched this video and I'm glad I only got around to it now, I've been crazy busy lately and really needed to listen to something so soothing and relaxing. The videos keep getting better and better, just when you think nothing else can hit home like the video you just watched the next one blows you away. Hope that book comes along soon and you post videos more often.

[@morris2900]

Absolutely brilliant. I've spent years trying to understand the chaos of my life, and then I listen to kudoclasm, which expresses it all.

[@sywitz]

I think this balance between chasing dreams and floating aimlessly is key. Thank you for making it clear to me, these videos are life changing and beautiful

[@nialldewar]

Why have you stopped? This is the best channel on KZbin!

[@emmetpetrichor8608]

How about a word for the emptiness you feel after finishing a good book/series like when the final page is turned and you loved the story but not the ending as in it being over.

[@wopwopkross]

good idea anf thats why i love films and books with no endings ^^

[@gavinbenes9172]

Dear god please

[@loganparton1900]

yess

[@colinm.3021]

Here's my word for it: Calyparok Etymology: Calyp- from ancient Greek meaning "cover", and Ragnarok from Norse mythology, an apocalypse that ends most of the Gods' lifes.

[@kaneradu]

shitty word ^

[@TudorNecula]

i feel like most of us *me included* keep waiting for The Event. something to happen that will trigger you into pursuing those dreams and fulfill them, something that will push us out of our comfort zones and throw us into the world. i mean, everyone has that deep buried feeling that they are destined for greatness and their reason for being born is to achieve something that will leave a mark on this earth. but first the event has to happen. and that's the trap. for a large majority, that "event" is just a lie we tell to comfort ourselves, that there's still hope for us, in the future, to achieve everything we ever dreamed of.

[@petteral94]

well said!

[@TudorNecula]

+Sarah Meaney go for it :)

[@TudorNecula]

I feel you, guess you're right. Even though for me, being in my comfort zone, I lack the motivation to shoot for the stars as they say, because I can deal with life on the day to day basis, without doing much, even if, as a whole it's not fulfilling. but why ruin a mediocre thing, right :) ? That's why I was mentioning the event. i keep telling myself this lie in the hopes that one day i'll see the sign and i'll jumpstart my life. i dunno...

[@maiiouma]

Sir, thank you for being there for me when I'm feeling...well..when I don't know what I'm feeling.

[@memskew]

These are a beautiful gem in the youtube landscape, John. Thank you for your efforts in creating them.

[@LordSwordbreak]

Kudaclasm and sonder.... Two new favorite words of mine! Thanks for amazing eye-opening realisations in every single video. Thought you should know!

[@MsLadyLancelot]

This was a truly beautiful one!! Love this video very much!!!!!!!

[@shelleynobleart]

I both love and dread these. Exquisitely beautiful poems, skillfully rendered visually. Rare depth of spiritual understanding. They force me to tears.

[@soorajnarayan3375]

Exactly what I'm feeling now. You have a great talent of putting thoughts into words.

[@BamfMaUndertow]

Your videos are awe inspiring. I absolutely love every moment of them. There is one that I've seen by Shots Of Awe, talked about having a a wonderful feeling after an intimate intellectual conversation. I get that after every video you make. They're so powerful.

[@stephanie4912]

These videos always make me want to cry. Truly touches my heart.

[@twistdshade]

thanks for posting this one. glad it had more of a bright side than usual.

[@CodyTaylor115]

Hey we miss you and your videos!!

[@gab2550]

This is by far the best video in KZbin

[@salt8233]

i beg that this channel comes back to life, its a source of escapism for too many for it to just disappear

[@MrHws5mp]

Thank you. These are beautiful things that you make.

[@ChielScape]

This is so fucking depressing. Many dreams have come and gone in my mere 25 years of life. I worry about dreaming itself, these days. Is there any dream I can have with a somewhat realistic chance of attaining it, some day? I worry about the time I have to reach that point, and what little time I might have left at that point to enjoy it before I die. Even little dreams for normal things seem to take a long time to chase after, but all I can do is to keep dreaming, in order to pull myself through those times.

[@Munchiemendoza]

Please make more videos. I've been watching from the beginning and I'm missing my doses of obscure sorrows

[@JesseMuniz]

These videos are part of the last remnants responsible for sparking my curiosity in people and life. Thank you for that, I wish you only good luck.

[@Blitzentine]

Just a quick thanks that you link the music, not just because I loved it but, because most youtubers will incorporate music and never, ever reference it in the description. Despite how incredibly important music is in both life and the media we create with it, we leave it as an afterthought. Also, this is exactly what I've been thinking about. I think I recently just hit that mid point of hitting the ground. I'm 27. I guess I'm trying to figure out how to get to a high enough place to leap again.

[@lemonfruiit]

I really miss these videos and I hope they come back some day xx

[@Nora-vt6cq]

What about; The feeling of being disassociated with your reflection & The realization that you are completely in control of your life and can do whatever you please with it

[@unknowinglyawesome9316]

when you look in the mirror and are surprised at who stares back at you. Wondering who it and where they've come from. What does it mean for you. Do you still exist or have you been replaced by this new being who you can only hope is better than who you used to be. You start looking back, trying to pinpoint when this change occurred, the cause of it, only to be consumed by the vast amount of little things that seem so profound now. You wonder why you realized only now, staring into your new reflection, how much you've changed from where you were. As the days go by you try to hold on to the feeling of awe at your reflection but as the minutes tick on and the days go past the feeling fades, until you become your reflection and can no longer see the differnce

[@t.j.huckaby1924]

That's just called, "badassness". Nice one!

[@LeighVuillermin9]

we have dreams before we have memories is the great indicator we are more then we know

[@originalchef4385]

It's about time you give us a word on love, romance, connection, relationships and that kind of stuff. Love your videos!

[@UKgamer87]

These are really amazing videos keep them coming :)

[@michaelhartmann9971]

I absolutely LOVE this channel All the best, you're a big success in it's infancy .. you got this !

[@BrianRDriscoll]

I thinks its a great explanation of where we all sink to when we become adults, and then whether we choose to stay or ascend the illusion of "reality" given to us. Thanks for the video!

[@elegalalien1]

Man I need more, wish these would come out more regularly, i understand they take ages to make,I just love them so much n I'm sure so many people are checking their sub box to see whether you've uploaded yet. Just wanna know if you're still making videos. But Great work man, your videos touch me, they really reflect whats going on in my head, as I'm sure they do to all watching, and they're just so beautiful. By far the greatest channel on YT.

[@wopwopkross]

we (the loyal fans ^^) all do that just comming back to this channel hoping to leave with a tear and a smile ^^

[@guiimonteirod]

This is fantastic. I love your channel and your work. Tks .

[@ennysunny774]

this is amazing, it's so moving

[@hellomydarling5990]

Oh the beauty that lies in this channel is breathtaking.

[@K.S.Khunkhao]

So freakin' beautiful.

[@lemmatos]

The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows is just the best. It really touches the core of the so called "human condition". I bet there's no one that has thought a little about the meaning life and can't relate to most of them. Just great. PS: that last part gave me the chills :)

[@majdalayek9535]

I don't have a name for the feeling I get everytime I finish these videos, but it's something way beyond this world..

[@GunkShovel]

Whats the term for the sad feeling one gets between new "Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows" posts?

[@KeyWarPlays]

+Parker Myer Prolonged expectations? Who knows.

[@hbrpaulo]

+Parker Myer Oleka.

[@eviefieseler1093]

Parker Myer It is called Suspension of Belief. Luckily, Suspension of Belief is very often tempered by hope.

[@AKNeal81]

"Noooooooo!" The word you say when the video ends and you were really enjoying watching those birds fly around.

[@OnyxCrow87]

I really love these videos. Keep them coming. Thanks :)

[@richfilms6307]

We need our dictionary back!

[@wopwopkross]

we need him back indeed but wait did he leave?

[@Puzzl3man]

This channel is so cathartic.

[@juanmonsalvo95]

amazing as always

[@TheSiddhiDesai]

Please make more videos. Your work is truly amazing

[@lostinwonderland3965]

This is beautiful! You have such an eloquent way of composing words into sensory stimulating poetry.

[@darkendkefka]

I can't begin to tell you how much this channel means to me...

[@Rachel-uh5nn]

Please make more videos! They are so amazing.

[@gerardofrutos9333]

I've been waiting now for two months... Please keep uploading!

[@wopwopkross]

i have been here longer just sitting with a now empty bucket of popcorn and a empty bottle of coke waiting for the hello fresh to give me food xd waiting for that special moment when that anotation pops up on my phone and i smile of happiness ^^

[@mishukzoo]

It's funny how you've matched the theme of lifelong dreams that seem to be almost impossible to achieve with skydiving/wingsuit clips which coincides with my lifelong dreams. Skydiving/Wingsuit proximity flying have embeded such a deep desire in me since I was a teen but now as a struggling young adult I feel like those dreams are getting further and further away from me. Thank you for this video and for the work you put into these.

[@maiiouma]

I still have no idea why this channel doesn't have millions of views already?

[@TampaxCardboard]

I have favorite'd all your videos!! Keep up the great work.

[@bhavyajainnd]

Your Videos make me emotional, How do u do that ... But my English teacher doesn't accept these COOL NEW WORDS, WHAT SHOULD I DO ??!!!

[@francispena2818]

tell her there are two things a word needs... form and meaning these are more then words in my opinion, they make the meaning of a word more... meaningful

[@TheReaMrBurntSausage]

+Bhavya Jain i hate academic english/english teachers because of the arrogant mentality on the language. The language is simply a tool in an art form, the rules and strict forms of poetry and literature disgust me. Connotation IS denotation, its not a separate existence. English is fluid, it evolves rapidly and is a social construct. Let it be what it what it is: a way to share.

[@georgesalafatinos4301]

+Unique and Hilarious Username They teach this written "sharing" as science indeed. but theyre often not wrong about effectiveness of techniques and stuff.

[@TheReaMrBurntSausage]

I think I need to explain that I don't hate all english teachers, its definitely important to prevent speech from blurring into a meaningless vernacular

[@Bathna33]

Where did you go..

[@JamieDallas]

More words please. Hope you start uploading again soon.

[@MaximQuantum]

I love how every new word is just another story.

[@watsonmike8]

words can't explain how I've felt till now. Thank you

[@amulya1284]

I feeeel hypnotized aftr watching your vids ! Very bful concept!!!! Love your work!!! It's like some one reading out my mind in a more bful way :)

[@jonbaxter2254]

Speaking of dreams, can you do a video on meeting someone you connect with so well in a dream, only to wake up and never see them again.

[@sallye.4306]

Your soul though.. It's beautiful and unpainfully philosophical & meaningful, how rare is that..

[@jasperperez5338]

This is utterly beautiful

[@respin]

I genuinely love what you make keep it up :)

[@RL-cy5mg]

Are you still updating this series? It's fantastic and sombre, would love to continue watching more

[@YoussefE.]

you deserve more views and likes and subscribers

[@TheOmarhegazy]

I cried hard.This is so touching

[@kaylajude2453]

It's been a year. We all miss these videos. I feel so empty without them.

[@Lorncat]

Can we please get an update on whether there will be more videos? This channel is important. Thanks.

[@denzelnolet]

Very poetic. You have a way with words.

[@tiwaryaf]

i get insights every time i watch any of his videos

[@Shanmuga]

+The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows : Can you please provide the link for "Strangeness and Charm" by Nick Bardoni & Stephen Dominic Warr ? ( The background music that starts at 1:07 ) It is so emotional and stirring.

[@luky98ification]

I have watched every one of your videos and every time I am not at all disappointed, they're always so in depth and meaningful. Do you think you could do a video, and make a word about the feeling you get when you visit a ghost town, and you just take the time to think about the way the people that must have loved and all the generations that grew up there, now it's all gone. I'm not sure if you've ever felt that feeling but it's definitely somewhat depressing. I just don't know how to accurately describe it.

[@luky98ification]

*Lived