I'm Losing My Wife

P.O. Box
Jenny or Kyle Appleford
7211 Haven Ave, Unit E-407
Rancho Cucamonga, CA 91701
My wife’s channel:
/ @jennyapple4704
INSTAGRAM: jenny_appleford
FACEBOOK: Our Brave Jenny
For business inquiries: [e-mail]
DIAGNOSIS of my Wife:
March 19th, 2021 Stage IIIA Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (Non-Smoking)
February 2022 Stage IV Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (spreading to Brain, and other parts of lung and lymph nodes)
Gene Mutation EGFR with Exon 20 Insertion
TREATMENTS: Received or currently Receiving
2021: 8 Rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin and Paclitaxel) with 30 concurrent radiation treatments to chest and lung
Failed Immunotherapy directly after Chemo and Radiation (Durvalumab, 1 round)
2022: Chemotherapy
10 rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin, Alimta, and Avastin)
6 with Carboplatin, 4 without
Targeted Brain Radiation (Completed)
CURRENT TREATMENT:
I am on a clinical trial for my specific gene mutation
Our GoFundMe Link:
gofund.me/5edf...

[@donnacampbell6345]

Kyle, just a little thought - I want you to know, as the cancer patient, that Jenny doesn’t need you to make every occasion count, and every moment to be special etc. she just needs to spend each day with the ones she loves, taking one day at a time. No one’s life’s is filled with perfect moments. I know you feel the pressure but please don’t put that on yourself. Your love for her, and the fact that she can count on your love and care for your children going forward is everything she needs. I promise. This is how I feel; I have learnt this.

[@lleennyy26ll]

I'm a cancer patient and the guilt I feel I dont say no to the plans made for us all has a family,I go along with it.

[@lindapokey]

You are so right.

[@michelleblackburn8071]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻♥️

[@annegogh]

Just want to echo what you said. As a another cancer patient, the only thing I really cared about during treatment (and now), was spending time with my kids and grandchildren. It doesn't matter what they're doing. Ordinary things seem extra-ordinary, and my greatest joy is just watching them and deeply savoring even seemingly mundane things. Everyday moments are the most cherished treasures.

[@lindapokey]

My son just went through this with his wife. Jenny will tell you what she wants to do. All my daughter in law wanted was to spend as much time with her husband and children as she could. All you need to do is follow her lead. You are strong. You and Jenny are amazing. Sending all my prayers.

[@willettej7988]

You haven’t lost her. She’s right there. I’ve lived through my mom’s battle with cancer, my battle with cancer, and my husband has survived four bouts with cancer. I know exactly how you feel right now. But I’m in my late 60s and if there’s one thing I’ve learned it’s this: we only have today. You don’t know what is going to happen, and you don’t know what God is going to do. I was mourning the loss of my husband when he had only seven months to live. That was 14 years ago. He had a miraculous recovery from stage 4 metastatic melanoma. So all I can say is enjoy today and don’t think about tomorrow because none of us knows what tomorrow will bring.

[@informalrain4878]

What a beautiful response. Thank you so much for sharing this. God works miracles and it can happen. God Bless you and your family and God bless this family as well. ❤

[@julieb8341]

Wise and compassionate response. So true. Thank you for reminding us.

[@joycejensen9435]

​Kj 😮kids 😮

[@annellis9108]

Kyle, as a retired hospice nurse, having taken care of many patients including family, I can only tell you what I have said to many families who were where you are right now. Each day is precious but what it makes it precious are the hugs, kisses, I love you and time together. It cannot be perfect, it's life and it will be so difficult for you to find happiness and smiles if you put constant pressure on yourself. Sometimes knowing your time is short, makes it more valuable. As Jen has said, it could be longer. Her pain will be controlled and she will be kept comfortable because that's what Hospice does. Never be hesitant to ask for help. People want to help because they care and it gives them comfort. One day at a time, take care of you so you can take care of her and the babies. Go to God for comfort and reassurance. You will be in my prayers and please, if you need to talk, I am available any time. Ann Ellis

[@Anastashya]

They’re not using hospice yet. I don’t think they’re even having at home palliative care. I wish they would!

[@shawnettezaccaria2462]

Beautifully said. ❤

[@cherryblossomvanillabean1751]

@annellis9108 I absolutely love ur comment!!!!!! Amen!!!!!

[@maryfurey3543]

❤Kyle YOU ARE PERFECT JUST AS YOU ARE. Your lives are filled with love for each other & your children.Ask for help with other stuff, people want to help you! Putting pressure on yourself will exhaust you. It is all so unfair that this is happening. Cry, laugh, punch pillows as needed, there is no wrong way just do what helps you both to keep treading water. Every day will be different but special in it's own way. You & Jenny are such a kind and loving couple.What could I do to help? I will pray and send hugs across the country.Please give yourself a break and give Jenny a gentle hug from me Blessings always to all.❤❤

[@kcatlady2018]

@@Anastashya: hospice is best when entered early. Same with palliative care. They could help with social workers who are specialists in working with children (and adults). Pain management, bathing, spiritual all incisive helping walk this journey. You all are my my ❤❤

[@Coco-dz3id]

Kyle I am old enough to be your Mom. Can I just say, the pride in my heart as a Mom for you is so huge. You have held the earth up. Please give yourself grace. As a outsider watching you & Jenny, your love for your wife& your children is so strong. Your little moments in your car are so very precious. Oh you are so perfect in each others eyes. Your doing it Kyle. I’m so proud of you, I could only hope to have someone just like you in our family. You are a wonderful gift to all the people closest to your heart❤

[@rcb4ever1]

This is beautiful😢😢😢💕💕💕🙏🙏🙏

[@mariecleo214]

Yes well said indeed. I'm in total agreement with you and i'm seventy. This is such a wonderful family love connectio isn't it wow so so sad 😢

[@Coco-dz3id]

@@mariecleo214Thankyou so much for your beautiful words

[@michelletoler1528]

Amen to that!!

[@shoni5182]

Such lovely words✨💫

[@rebeccadodds4716]

you don't need to be perfect for you're wife, just be present. She knows you love and adore her and you are doing a great job!

[@giovannimaisano9194]

Perfectly said ! Stage 4 here too. I was given a time line too... Love is all you need. Support her. One day at a time" one min to one hour, someday, seriously.♡ Do today, do now.. Love every moment. Theres no perfect in this situation.Pace yourself. Love and light Mary

[@glitterbomb7764]

Have you not seen the level of perfection she expects from him?

[@brigitteashe6317]

I know what u r going through. I been diagnosed with cancer stage 4. I am praying for your family. I have 6 months to live.

[@beautifulworldlive1020]

Rip

[@irinamcanally6539]

I hope you are still here

[@kimb2596]

Hi Kyle, Lost my husband to small cell lung cancer in 2008. Our son was in high school. Some of the best times where when we just hung out at home watching movies etc. I went to great lengths to plan what I knew would be our last vacation and it wasn't worth it. The small moments at home all of us together were the best and the memories that comforted me. You need to take time for yourself to relax because you can't help her if you are overwhelmed. Keep things simple and enjoy the time you have. Don't try to be perfect because that is not necessary. Praying for you all.

[@_smurfitude]

Same here, same diagnosis to small cell carcinoma. She smoked heavily, then stopped. I was out on the road as a trucker when she began this journey! Emory said she needed a lung, so she said, then my health began to fail. On my birthday she called me because of a reaction to her B/P medicine, then it was a mass in her lung, all at another hospital. They did a biopsy, and afterwards a tentative date. September of 2016, she drew her last breath. When I saw Kyle like this, I felt helpless all over again. I'm so sorry, I don't know what else to say or to do! 😪😥🙏🙏

[@larissa_7729]

I saw the title of this and my heart dropped to my toes. Heartbreaking. Know you have a lot of people all around the world praying for you and your family during this incredibly difficult time. We love you all ❤❤

[@christyredelk9478]

My father lost his beautiful wife, my mother in March 1969. She was only 49. I say this, because for the first time in my life and your generosity in sharing your experiences with the world I feel I can understand what he must have REALLY gone through. It forever changed him, of course but he managed to raise me alone. You’re incredibly strong; Asking for help is an admirable thing to do!

[@SANDRA-ez4ic]

Kyle, I also have lung cancer so I can say this.....Don't worry and beat yourself up so much about making every day special. When you are faced with this just being alive and with your loved ones makes every day so very special already....you don't need to worry about "stuff" or trips so much....just love each other every day as much as you can.

[@SANDRA-ez4ic]

Kyle you maybe could also benefit from a prescription of Ativan like your wife has for those moments where your anxiety is taking over.

[@bioshawna]

​@@SANDRA-ez4icthis is a great idea! I do understand he wants to be on point for Jenny and he seems like the type of guy to try and take on everything "naturally" but it couldn't hurt. a low dose for the most stressful moments.

[@MiMi-tt6yr]

I suffer from severe depression and I haven’t enjoyed life in over a decade. I live a very poor life. I wish I could somehow transfer my body to Jenny because I know she’d do so much good with it. I don’t understand why the best people on earth are afflicted with terminal diseases like this. It’s just heartbreaking. To Kyle, I wish everyone on earth could have a companion like you. I have never seen anyone (man or woman) that is so compassionate, supportive, and truly kind. People like you are very rare. I’m so so sorry you’re facing this. It’s maddening how unfair this is.

[@almastirmizi13]

❤❤ I truly agree. Jenny is extremely lucky to have Kyle as her life partner.

[@EleanorWeldon]

Don’t give up on yourself. These days are difficult but the grace in facing the darkness is a reminder that you’ve been through it before and will come through it again. That is a promise.❤

[@charlottebruce979]

I'm so sorry you have depression I've suffered with it too. I'm feeling better now it will come and go throughout my life but I'm so grateful for the wonderful joy of life of all the beautiful things in it and the people that are caring and compassionate in my life. Try to appreciate each and every day, go out and smell the flowers, and appreciate the rain. There are also many wonderful partners out there that I've observed with real love and respect for their other half. I refuse to be bogged down by negativity. Life is incredibly short and incredibly precious.

[@barbdoherty3213]

Kyle, thank you for giving us a look into the caretakers version. My mom died at 41 leaving my dad as a single parent. He wasnt perfect but he did the very best he could. The main thing was that we knew we were loved. Never! stop telling your kids how much they are loved. My love and prayers are with you Kyle as you go through this new experience. You and the kids are all Jenny truly needs right now ❤

[@lesliewilliams2495]

Hi Kyle. My husband and I went through end of life with our 6 year old son after battling cancer for 18 months. It is brutal. So I’ve kind of been where you are and It’s devastating. When kids are involved it’s devastating. We fought up until the end with “new therapies” because we didn’t want to give up. I have no regrets BUT……in hindsight we’ve come to realize that we just worsened his quality of life in his remaining days for no reason other than him becoming a science experiment. Like the doctors told you and us this might give you a little more time, but that’s it. Please consider Jenny’s quality of life vs spending her remaining days in San Diego fighting. It’s ok to stop and take a big deep breath and do nothing. You deserve this quality time together. Your kids need you more right now than ever. Your world is crashing down and please just think about the possibility of spending the next 6 months wrapping your heads around this the best way that you can vs being a science experiment. I say all of this with compassion and empathy, you both are truly amazing loving people. And again I’ve been where you are and only wish someone gave us this advice. It’s OK to hit the pause button and do the bucket list things that you want to do together.

[@98849]

Sorry to hear that you have had such an awful experience. I think that you have offered some very wise words here. I used to be a radiographer and saw so often the Guinea pig patients - drained of any spirit of themselves and just becoming a statistic for research purposes. Sometimes a patient would ask me if they were getting better but I could never answer that question. Often it was difficult to get the patient off the table without breaking down myself but always trying to give a smile as I said goodbye.

[@gettinsumsunmld]

This is some straight up tough truth. Jenny is so young and she looks so good even in the middle of her struggles. We are all still hoping and praying for a miracle for our sweet Jenny. We don’t know if one will come. I pray that both Jenny and Kyle will discern what is best for their family and when it’s time to say, let’s spend our time together, the way we want to. I hope this treatment will help give you more time and with no awful side effects. I pray that when the time comes to say we are going to do do what’s right for our family, you will have perfect peace. Sending love and hugs. 💕💕💕💕

[@openlybookish]

This advice is so important. Quality of life is key.

[@nadiawelham7737]

❤🌹Im very Sorry for the Loss of your Lovely Boy, Im sure he realised, you fought very hard, for his life and you love him very much and thats why you did what you had to, what a cruel world it is When we lose our little ones/ Loved ones

[@FaithyandOtis..Massachusetts]

So sorry for the loss of your son. I halted the end treatment with my husband, and we choose to spend what time we had left together❤ when he passed away I was with him. It was such a peaceful passing and I knew we made the right decision of stopping all the extreme measures and just enjoying what little time I had with him. Thank you so much for sharing and again I’m sorry for your loss.

[@louern123]

as a perfectionist, after losing my ex husband, my best friend, and my daughters father, i’ve absolutely learned that perfection is a waste of time. life ends and after that, nothing is on you. prayers Kyle, 🙏🏻

[@michelemoyna2691]

@ Loren Where u & Ur Husband Divorced when u Lost Him ⁉️

[@louern123]

yes, but he was still my best friend @@michelemoyna2691

[@sharoncresenzi3016]

I lost my sister 23 years ago leaving 4 small children the youngest was a baby, you don’t need a bucket list you just need to be together, I’m sure Jenny would agree. The most precious moments will be remembering you altogether as a family. My sisters children grew up to be very caring and special people, never forgetting their Mom, I know she is still watching over them.

[@penelopemoon2848]

I lost my husband of 20 years and my BEST friend 3 yrs ago. We are never the same. It’s just a breath at a time some moments. Prayers, love, strength to you all. Listen to your gut and you WILL continue to “hear her” in your mind’s eye when it’s her time. Doctors aren’t always right. Hugs to you all. 🙏🏻💚

[@clarencehogrefe1220]

My Beautiful Wife Jan 2years 8 months ago and like you all did everything together also. Nine of our lives will. Be changed forever without our Loves God Bless Kyle ,You and everyone on this page.

[@jillybeanfortnite]

I’m so sorry for your loss honey

[@dedehodo8890]

Jennie IS blessed to have you as her husband. The care, love and attention you give surely provides a sense of security for her and your children. Many times we feel inadequate for the situation, but God chose YOU for Jennie. God is with you!!

[@rhondajohnson8978]

Praying for all of you! 🙏 I can tell you my father had lung cancer and was given 2-3 months. He opted not to pursue treatment. He lived almost 10 months after being told. Hospice was great with helping keep him comfortable and supporting us as the caregivers. Just remember nothing has to be perfect and anytime spent together is a blessing. Prayers🙏

[@jwoodnc1]

Don't know if Palliative care would be for you and Jenny. They could give you support and they don't discourage further treatment if desired .

[@aprilsmith6587]

My sister did the same with her breast cancer. She opted not to continue with any more treatment, as the outcome was inevitable. She wanted to spend her last days with her family and friends instead of treatment after treatment. I understood.

[@song4mozart]

Kyle, I am so worried because we haven't seen Jenny in 6 days. Yes, I check every day. You guys have become part of our families. This may sound strange since we have never met in person, but because you have opened your hearts and vulnerabilities to us, we feel as if we've known you for years. Well, we are all connected, and we are all a part of one great big human family. Jenny, you, Ellis, and Winnie are always in my prayers. We love you all. God be with you.

[@jacqueline8559]

They deserve time together without filming everything. Give them the space and grace to have that precious time......

[@jillybeanfortnite]

@@jacqueline8559I don’t think she meant if that way..she was just explaining that she worries because she feels so connected..so it was an innocent comment..

[@terigilmore6448]

I lost my husband pancreatic cancer. I have 12 kids, it’s fast and brutal. I’m so sorry you and your family have to go through this.❤❤

[@mmmmlllljohn]

One day at a time, Kyle … you have done an amazing job in supporting Jenny and your kids. Never give up faith in God. Thousands of people are praying for Jenny’s full recovery. Love from Toronto, ON ❤️🇨🇦🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@trishd8373]

Kyle--So many of us out here are at a loss for words. But, you all have an army of prayer warriors for sure !! And with the prayers let us all together hold onto the hope of the new treatment adding more precious time for you all. For this moment--one day at a time, certainly easier said than done....but your awesome and amazing support system is never going to allow anything to go unchecked. Please feel all these prayers and love going out to you Kyle..Go and give Jenny,Ellis and Winnie the coziest afternoon you can. Tucking you in my prayers as we speak. Miracles still happen. Love to all.xoxo

[@avahaggerton5342]

It's just heartbreaking! But never forget, you have the largest sounding board out here that ever existed!!! Feel free to unload your fears at any time, right here! We love you, and feel such heartache for you. Take it easier on yourself and let YOURSELF enjoy each moment left with your sweet family.

[@hilarymoorjani8336]

I feel for you Kyle. My mum died when I was 3. 7 children and all got separated. You will come out strong. With all your memories. Your children will be so proud of you. Always talk about her with them. My mum was never spoke about. Just keep strong. Your a good father x

[@MaryMacElveen]

One step at a time, Kyle is the only way to handle all of this. Jenny, YOU, and your children are in all of our prayers. 🙏❤✝️

[@beemybabi]

Kyle I lost my brother from diagnosis to his passing in 4 weeks. I lost my son, unexpectedly, a couple months later. I found that living in the moment with both of them is the best thing I could have done. I was with my brother to the end and I’m grateful for the time. I did struggle with memory issues and racing thoughts. Take notes and set reminders to stay on task. Just live in the moment… you have been an amazing caregiver, husband and father.

[@gilliangoodman6362]

Omg ,I'm so sorry for your losses in such a short space of time ❤❤

[@beemybabi]

@@gilliangoodman6362 thank you. It’s really a lot and it makes my heart go out to all that go through this.

[@marjoriecorcora7617]

We are here anytime you need us Kyle. We love all of you and if you find it therapeutic to come here and..just talk, we will listen, because we care. Strangers can be the easiest to talk to sometimes. God bless you, Jenny, and the little ones.

[@MsGray1968]

I have been in your shoes, I lost my husband to cancer. It was the worst 10 months of my life. So, I will keep you and your family in my prayers 🙏

[@caribcarib4337]

this is f--ked losing someone so close and dear

[@hemanor58]

Kyle, I’m a 65 year old man that never cries but hearing you talk about what your family is going through, filled my eyes with tears. You are facing all this courageously in a manly fashion. Your wife is fortunate to have you. I promise to pray for you bro.

[@youareabsolutelyright2579]

Great comment! 😊

[@xxthegamerz0riginalxx920]

🙏 Kyle and Jenny

[@carolinekirkpatrick3497]

You have a whole community here to help you along the way. You don’t have to figure out the rest of your life today. I am praying hard for a miracle for all of you.

[@poKartPhotographie]

My dear Kyle, When you said « I love my life, I love my wife and I love my children » I knew you will overcome your loss because you are able to cherish what Jenny gave you, taught you, and you are on the way to the acceptance of the fate you two have to face. And that you will be able to harvest the joy it also brings, will bring. I lost my father to cancer and I felt honored that he let me be part of the journey till the last breath. My heart goes to you all four, your video is so true to the core that I couldn’t help but send you my respect and friendship. Jennifer from France.

[@kellyj817]

Maybe Jenny can make a "coming of age" video where she can talk to Winnie about what to expect with her first period, how to use sanitary products, how she might feel, etc. I think this will be so special for her daughter to get to hear this from her own mother rather than someone else. I know you all have so much on your plate so I hope this isn't an overwhelming suggestion. Praying for you and your family ❤ I hope Jenny experiences a miracle and gets to live many more years than expected. Please take care ❤

[@creaturedomes9364]

Weirdos

[@kellyj817]

@@creaturedomes9364 Are you really trolling on a post where a young wife & mother died of cancer? Do better.

[@margaretleavitt6992]

Kyle, You are the most wonderful husband any girl could ever have! Memory loss is part of being overwhelmed and you are surely overwhelmed. So many of us have watched you be loving and supportive. Jenny is so lovely and loving and just so strong. Cancer is a horrible disease and it saddens me how many people still die from this disease. You are not alone in this because so many of us are here for you. I pray for you both every day. Keep reaching out because we want to keep staying by your side

[@MasnoenaVermeulen]

😭😭😭🥰🙏😅❤

[@thewhitehorsefarm]

You don’t need bucket list items…. You need, SHE needed, to feel loved, and seen and heard. Let the children see you both during this transition. Make sure the animals see her during her transition. You’re already doing the important stuff….loving her, reassuring her, being funny with her, and the kids….everything else is disposable. She truly loved you with her whole heart. And she loved her kids most of all. They’ll miss her, but they’ll always know the love was there.

[@deborahhaezebrouck707]

Oh my heart breaks for you all. My Mother in law passed away with Lung Cancer. It was so hard watching her going through that. I’m praying that Jennifer beats all odds with this treatment. God Bless 🙏🏻❤️

[@lynChip29]

My heart is breaking for you. These are your darkest times. Just breathe, Kyle. One foot in front of the other and one day at a time. You will raise your kids amazingly well. They are her legacy. Stay strong. Everyone is rooting for you guys. Sending love ❤

[@becomingchristian]

It’s hard to grieve the loss of loved ones while they’re still alive 😢❤

[@enigma_-_79]

Anticipatory grief is a real thing. In Kyles position, his children are going to need him to be strong and keep them safe, from day one. It’s never too soon to get grief counselling so that he is prepared and able to be the Dad that they need.

[@geraldinesleigh2635]

I’ve lived w my husband for 40 yrs. I met him when his first wife died of cancer. He had two boys at the time age 3n 4, you will meet someone nice to you cuz you’re so caring. Your kids will be ok, god exists, thank you

[@kimberlyspiegelhalter467]

We Love You Kyle! Please know that. The prayers are flooding in from all over the world for you, Jenny and the family. ❤❤❤

[@LyndyLive]

When you look back in life it’s not the “things” it’s the moments spent together. That’s what your children will remember. As a caregiver the stress is so deep on you. Just be sure you take care of YOU. You have done an incredible job throughout this. ❤

[@debrahanko3978]

Being a caregiver and going through this myself your words are so true and comforting.❤

[@LyndyLive]

@@debrahanko3978Big hugs to you. I’ve been there too. And I’d do it again in a heartbeat. But the stress is so heavy. Hugs.

[@debrahanko3978]

@LyndyLive yes in a heartbeat, I would do it all over again too. Hugs back and to all going through grief.

[@KTen-cm6wx]

Kyle, it’s okay to cry, ask for help and keep doing what is needed for Jenny. My prayers are with all of you🙏

[@amarinarichards2358]

You are a amazing father Kyle, your amazing wife beat cancer and you beat cancer wth her.

[@ThePortalTheory]

Im still praying for her healing, so much. I choose to believe in miracles and that she can pull through this. ❤ to you both.

[@ethiopaethiopa6321]

Amen

[@marleen6507]

Amen.

[@cldflorida]

We’re there for you Kyle. Here to listen and be there to support you as much as we can from afar. 🙏🏻

[@bethanderson397]

Matthew 11:28 … “Come to me, all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest”. Kyle, I understand how overwhelmed you are right now, it is a lot that you guys have been given, this scripture comes to mind, I hope it will help you. I’m keeping all of you in my prayers! I have cried for Jenny, you and both of your babies for what you are going through. I still hold out hope for a miracle, as Ellis said, miracles do happen and I say Amen to that 🙂

[@Sandra-pm3it]

❤

[@pattyl7244]

Stay strong. You'll get through all of this. I'm 66 years old and have been through some hard times as well. Hang in there.

[@barbarafann8133]

No one can heal the hurt anger or pain that you, Jenny or the children are feeling, but we can pray. Every second of every day is a memory that you are making. Being there with her is more valuable than you will ever know Kyle! My prayers will not stop and I truly believe that God hears our prayers.

[@cherryblossomvanillabean1751]

Amen 🙏 praying as well and u are absolutely correct in saying God hears our prayers and he answers them!!!!!!

[@kariay50]

Amen🙏🏻

[@tommckinley1660]

I just went through your exact experience with my wife. Everything you are experiencing resonates with me. Cancer diagnosis, , chemotherapy, radiation, imunnotherapy, LMD (death sentence), proton therapy. I set monthly goals. She was diagnosed in December 2022, January we went to Chicago, February we went to Jamaica, March we went to NYC to see her brother and our son (& treatment at Sloan Kettering), April to Cancun with our daughter. She was very happy to have these opportunities and I will always cherish the moments. I was the primary caregiver and watched her die a little bit everyday. My prayers are with you.

[@theresarovida8541]

Dear Appleford family-your names have been placed on the temple prayer list which will reach prayers from thousands of people. I will be fasting this Sunday and will dedicate my fast to you.

[@libertycan6959]

🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@Abe-t5r]

my heart goes out for u , i pray for your wife to cure the brain cancer, my wife died from brain cancer 2 month ago ,you have to be prepared , i know its hard to accept but for her comfort at her last days u need to know ,if they did'nt already told you,,,in her last days first she will lose her voice , than her sight ,she will not lose her hearing ,,and thats when u have to keep talking to her until her last breath ,, i know this ,it happen to me ,,the hospiece nurse instructed me,, with tears in my eyes ,god bless you

[@cynthiacatherinehoward8615]

Dear Kyle, Jenny is so blessed to have been graced by a man who loves her in the most beautiful self-sacrificing way that most women could only dream about having in there lifetime. I want to thank you and Jenny both for allowing us into your cancer journey that continues to touch so many of our lives each day. We love you both and our thoughts and prayers are with you always. 🙏❤️

[@melodymiller3282]

Dear Kyle, when I was young, found the love of my life ❤ we were young had a daughter 💔 he was diabetic at 10 years old and we went through quite a bit together lost his kidneys and had been on the kidney machine until he received a new 🙏💔kidney. The doctor warned us, he has 10 years at most then his kidney will fail. Id always believed in miracles.🙏 God did warn me how long he'd have to live, how long I'd be taking care of my husband. This happened in the 80's Now I look back and had seen what God was trying to show me all life's lessons 🙏, VERY DIFFICULT AND I KEPT ASKING WHY???? I WAS SO DEEPLY HURT AND CONFUSED. I WILL TELL YOU IT MADE ME VERY STRONG BUT CON BECAUSE I STILL DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHY? WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG LIFE THROWS YOU ALL K8NDS OF HARD SHIPS. IN THE END IM SO MUCH MORE CLOSER TO HIM. I WILL SEE RALPH AGAIN AND I CANT WAIT!

[@BrendaShoemaker-xy4uz]

Amen❤

[@angiehh516]

The go fund me in Kyle’s video description is growing! Let’s keep banding together to support this family!! They’re so deserving. Thanks for being real, Kyle. ❤ You and the family have stolen our hearts. I hate to see you both go through this.

[@TheGaredbug]

yes if we could all share this on FB or other platforms, we can help make life a little bit easier for this family.

[@jamiechanz1943]

We Around The🌎 are STANDING/PRAYING/BELIEVING and We ALL Will Continue To Be Here For Y’all! This Video Touched ALL I’m Sure- We ARE HERE For Y’all! Y’all have BLESSED ALL Our Lives By SHARING Something SO HARD! Millions of HUGS/PRAYERS are Being Sent to Y’all and Your Precious Children! 🙏🏻🤗🌼

[@EvelinaStephens-tt4pu]

What a blessing you are to Jenny. You're a good man; be kind to yourself. I can't imagine all the pain your family is going through. ❤😢

[@thelmab.1516]

Kyle, your goal to make everything "perfect" in the days and months ahead is unattainable and will only make you feel worse than you do now. Perfection is not the "be all, end all" that people think it is. It comes at a tremendous cost. What Jenny is going to need from you is to just be "present." Stay in the moment when you are around her. Your being there for her and the kids is all she could ask for. As far as the long list of things to be done , you're going to have to start delegating some chores to family and friends. This tragic situation is going to take a village. You can not do all of this by yourself, and no one expects you to. As your therapist would say, give yourself some grace. The pieces will slowly start falling into place. None of us knows what tomorrow will bring. We must just take it one day at a time. Hugs to you all. ❤

[@cheyenneskylark]

I lost my sister way back in 2001 to cancer. She was brave and lived 6 years when they gave her only six months. Her two boys were able to have that precious time with her. They grew up well adjusted enough and one is a hospital administrator and another an architect. Know that your children will get through this with you. I know what you are going through and many don't realize what the family goes through with the cancer patient family member. Take one moment at a time. Don't project too far into the future. It needs to be handled slowly. Keeping you in my prayers along with everyone else here online. We understand your grief, struggles, and fears. Just the fact that you are so conscientious about getting everything perfect, shows how much you are a kind, compassionate person. Reach out to your local church and hospital social worker who is really great at coordinating all those concerns your talking about.

[@barbarafawcett9926]

Get the legal documents done. Will, Power of Attorney, Guardianship for the children so you know, whatever happens in the future they will be brought up and loved by who you and Jenny want. Not something you think of right now.

[@irenevoltsinis910]

You are amazing person Kyle take care of you self and beautiful kids you guys have just pray for you God bless you been strong for you beautiful women you have ❤❤❤❤

[@hurricanedonna5606]

Kyle you're an AWESOME HUSBAND AND FATHER and DON'T EVER FORGET THAT! Praying 🙏 for Jenny,you,and the kids! I'm so sorry for what you're going through. 😢

[@annemariewight6079]

Dear Kyle, my heart goes out to you. I lost my husband three weeks ago today 😢 He was my best friend, my everything and we were total soulmates. We were together over thirty five years. It's so hard but take it from me that you will deal with it. Somehow we get the strength from somewhere to get up every morning and face another day. Love to you all ❤️

[@vmmurphy3918]

My condolences for your loss

[@enigma_-_79]

I’m so sorry. I wish you all the strength in the world to help you live life the way your husband would want you to. Life can be so cruel, but it’s also very beautiful. The sun will shine again.

[@maureenharzinski504]

❤

[@Bluetreez]

I'm so sorry

[@lindanitzschke1315]

Having done acute care medical transcription for 13 years, I just cannot imagine why they did not immediate scan your wife when she presented with her symptoms. Disgusting!! So sorry, Kyle!

[@angelawilliams4239]

I can’t imagine the pain you are going through. Your You Tube family are standing beside you,Jenny and your beautiful children. Much love from Australia.🇺🇸💕🇦🇺

[@The.Doctor.6149]

You’re a far braver man than me Kyle - you’re inspirational. I’m here shedding tears and I see the strength in you that I don’t have and never will. I’m losing my partner too - but only because she’s tired of me. I wish Jenny could have the life I’ve wasted, I’d swap it in a heartbeat. I’m so sorry. 😢

[@teijaflink2226]

I hope that you can make it better and chance your life around.

[@nesadcruz7840]

There is more to life than one person who rejects you. You still have time to live because you are needed here. Take the time to find what your purpose is and maybe this time next year you will feel very differently. Good luck.

[@asspatsandsuperchats6578]

It's not too late for you. New starts and new decisions happen all through life. Decide not to waste your life. See a doctor to better manage your mental health or whatever you need to sort out to make these changes. You may have wasted a part of your life but you still have time. Don't waste the rest fretting about the past.

[@bendietrees]

There is no such thing as a wasted life my friend.

[@The.Doctor.6149]

@@bendietrees I meant *years* not life, but appreciate the comments. I hope that Kyle, Jenny and the kids are doing Ok, I have far too much empathy and sadness for them - Kyle, you’re doing amazing - miracles *can* and *do* happen. 💙🇬🇧

[@AnnaR-v6o]

I can't even tell you how sorry I am, but I do know that she's leaving you all with wonderful memories and she's leaving you with the continuation of her love..... Your children. I know it's hard but the love that you have for each other is going to help you get through this. You are really an amazing person and so is she , just hang in there.......

[@coopie624]

Kyle, my heart is breaking for you, Jenny and the kids. I have prayed that God will cover you with His grace and peace through this and I know He will. Right now is so hard and you are dealing with shock. Lean on God. Lean on all of us who love you guys. Let your emotions out when you need to, and remember that you are enough! Everything will get taken care of. Just breathe. ❤️🙏

[@dje663]

Dear Kyle, I am crying listening to you. I am so very sorry you, Jenny and the kids have to endure this. It is gut wrenching. You are such a special family and I have been keeping all of you in my prayers and thoughts every day. I know the painful nightmare you are going through and how sad and overwhelming thinking about the future is. Sending love and virtual hugs to all of you. 😢😢🙏🙏❤️❤️

[@joyrobinson4585]

Kyle, I don't have a lot of helpful suggestions for you but one. When my husband was dying of aggressive cancer it was obvious there was no time for a bucket list. I suggested we go for a teacup list instead. He told his nurses and they asked if they could use this suggestion for others since a bucket can feel overwhelming right now. Maybe a teacup which you can visualize for yourselves can feel more manageable right now. This is a little thing in the face of a monster. Maybe it will help. I am holding your family in my heart.

[@lindamacaluso5502]

Kyle you can’t pack a lifetime in months. Don’t try. Do now. You will know what to do as the milestones over the years come because you know Jenny so well.

[@patriciamast8002]

I can't imagine all you're going through. I lost my mom to the same disease Jenny has, and I didn't realize the cancer had progressed to her brain because she had just had a good PET scan. We weren't prepared for her to go, and she didn't want to go. You have such a burden , and as a dad and husband you just want this to be a bad dream, but it is the reality. The heartache and anguish in your eyes and voice just breaks my heart.. Do you have any family or friends that can help you with logistics, childcare, appointments?Are you in grief counseling ?Right now it's going to be hour to hour, minute to minute. I am praying that God will strengthen you and Jenny physically, spiritually, emotionally. I am sending you all the prayers and love. God Bless you!

[@jrodri1538]

I'm crying with you brother. My wife is going through the same cancer shit! I have lot's of regrets and how to deal with the grief. Wish you strenght.

[@domestix1]

When going through cancer with my dad I found 2 words made a difference.Not looking at tomorrow or ahead,thinking about what is going to happen.My words that got me through was’Just being’.Be in that moment of just being got us through that day and every one until the end.Just being there is all she needs now.Praying for you all

[@MsBubbles1970]

All the mental support to you, Jenny and the kids, kyle.More power to you four to face this deep crisis......love , hugs and prayers from faraway Guwahati, India.

[@morninggloryfarmstead]

Kyle, YOU ARE CAPABLE! ❤ For everything that is to come, no matter what it is, it doesn't even matter, doing hair, kids functions, new stages of life and whatever you can't see that is coming, you are capable. Whatever you do will be enough! We love you Kyle. Lolly ❤

[@cokeef7309]

Kyle you are the epitome of bravery and courage and Jenny is one loved women! Gods healing and strength over you all ❤

[@letitiamcculley9311]

God Bless you Kyle. One of the hardest journeys someone has to make. All those feeling are so so normal.

[@Archimusik]

A thousand blessings on you - you can DEFINITELY do this. All you need strength for is the next thing in front of you. Just take it one step at a time. Your love and care for your wife is inspiring.

[@12LadyHawk]

Thank you for having the strength to help others during your journey. You will never know how much you have touched others that are impacted by cancer.

[@danimace3989]

I am giving you HUGE hugs right now. You are PERFECT in Jenny's eyes, and your kids. You have every right to feel the way you feel. I understand the fears. I am so scared of losing my hubby Gary. He has fought so hard also.

[@GwendolynTideman]

You are amazing. Try to live moment to moment right now so the thoughts of the future isn't weighing you down. You will get through all that comes your way and so will your children. Jennie has set the stage with all her strength and love through out this difficult journey. You guys have raised such sweet, considerate and smart children which will let them endure and continue to grow through out their lives. They couldn't get a better Dad ❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏

[@lynettecoppin3288]

Prayers, love and thoughts for Jenny, for you Kyle and the children. Its a very hard journey you all are on.

[@traceyjones846]

My heart goes out to you Kyle 😢 you are an amazing husband to Jenny and dad to Ellis and Winnie ❤️ please don’t bottle things up we are all here to listen and support you ❤️❤️

[@didisalyers4460]

While you are dealing with all this, don’t be afraid to accept all the help from neighbors and friends that they offer. They are your village and they will help you thru this. During my cancer friends did my laundry swept my home and ran errands and took my children to dance and apts. And remember we are all praying for your family and we love you all ❤

[@revahinderliter3984]

Kyle,you are a very strong husband and father.prayers for all you have in front of you.Jenny is strong ,God will help her and you both. 🙏💕Prayers for you both and your children,you are not alone God is beside you all.

[@shaz219]

Kyle I am so sorry for everything that you are both going through. I am thinking of you, praying for you and sending all the love I can from the uk. Stay strong - I am in awe of your love for each other - everyone is here for you X

[@lauraamante7005]

Take one day at a time. It’s hard to do, but you will get through this with your children. You are a great dad and my heart is breaking for you right now.

[@lorenasiller9281]

No more treatment. Let her enjoy her kids and family. I think she's already been through a lot and you too 😢 it's very hard, I've been through that as well. 😢 take care of yourself. Prayers for your family 🙏🏻 ❤️

[@musikkfamilien]

Oh, Kyle😊 I get you! I totally do. I am a chronic myself. In and out of tests and surgeries since I was 19. Now I am 61. Over 40 years. For many years I had a spouse. We made a lovely family, like yours. Two children. And I never ever forgot him, on the sideline. It is hard to be the caregiver. And so important that you are being recognised as that. An important job. Sending you hugs, Kyle❤ Be as open as you can be to your children. As you have been. Important!❤❤

[@Emma-um4cr]

It’s not often that someone truly finds their true soulmate and you have found your and that’s what is so hard . Life can be so cruel, I lost my sister in law aged 39 from breast cancer and I saw how it affects the spouse and children. My stepdad has been going lung cancer treatment for around ten years . He has now had cancer 3 times, he’s lost his whole lung now . He’s been having treatment this time since 2021 chemotherapy, and immunotherapy. Was told a few months ago that his cancer came back now in his oesophagus and now it’s inoperable he is having intense radiotherapy and chemo to try and blast it away . ❤

[@lydiadelacruz605]

Cancer sucks. You and your family are in my prayers. I'm praying so hard for Jenny. That God give her strength throughout this ordeal she is going through. That she gets more time to spend with her family. That cancer goes away.😢

[@crazylady61]

Keep sharing and unburdoning Kyle that's what we're all here for... none of us can do anything practically to help, but if we can just help by being be an offloading tool, than we've done something and it feels good. Your mum raised you alone and you're a massive credit to her, as you're an amazing person/dad/husband/ friend etc, and we can all see that while this feels an impossible load to bear, you're going to do just great and Jenny couldn't have picked a more capable person to guide those 2 beautiful children into adulthood 👍 Sending big hugs to all of you from the UK. 🫂💕💕💕💕

[@nicolecoxnewton416]

Kyle, you are one of the most genuine, loving husband I've seen. I've seen many, none like you. You're so authentic. Sending peace, love and light to you and your entire family 💜

[@7389]

I'm praying for you. I was a caregiver for several years, and a lot of people don't understand how terribly stressful it is. Not only are you already starting to grieve, but you worry sick for your loved one, you feel helpless and you have other responsibilities to take care of. You are a good person, and you are a great example to others. I am praying.

[@bers5796]

I’m so sorry Kyle! Reach out and accept help and support. No one can do it all on their own and it will free you up for more time to do what’s important. ❤

[@xmoomoo9158]

Yes❤️

[@cindygere]

Kyle, you have been such a loving husband and father. Jenny is blessed to have such a supportive husband. I’m pretty sure all Jenny needs and wants is as much time as possible with you and your children. Most of us never know when it’s our time and we don’t make the most of each day. You get to cherish every day with Jenny. Your journey is sure opening my eyes how precious every day is. I heart breaks for you and Jenny. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. You both are in my prayers! 🙏♥️

[@ceebeecee56]

Kyle, I lost a parent unexpectedly when I was a little girl. As an adult, I was on the journey with my mom in her lung cancer battle from diagnosis to the last day. Let others help you and tackle that legal stuff a little each day. Looking back, as for the bucket list, the special moments were just everyday stuff. Making lunch. Watching the sunset. Laughing together at a movie. Simple things. The little special things between us. It was special enough. My heart breaks for you. I’m glad you have a therapist and this channel to honestly share your fears, doubts, and tears, and the unfairness of all of this. Some days, it’s enough to live in each moment for what it is. Prayers and thoughts to you and all.

[@marlenecardinahl9346]

U R doing Your BEST- and she has Great Strenght to fight- GOD BLESS U and family

[@informalrain4878]

Kyle - I Know you don’t know any of us but I’m willing to bet that most of your supporters, just like me, is willing to do ANYTHING for you and your family. Please just let us know what we can do. Yes: we’re all strangers but this channel is full of good people and we love you and your family. We’re here for y’all. God bless you, Jennifer and your babies. Xoxo from Athens GA

[@roseanderson8527]

My husband just been discharged home to palliative care. No time line given. Stage 4 nsclc with liver and spinal mets. I feel your pain.

[@sharigentili9060]

It is heart breaking to see what Jenny is going through. In the short time I've known her she is beautiful caring funny and so strong. The love the bond the two of you share is beautiful and amazing to see. As brave as Jenny is you are equally brave. I have so much respect for you. I can't begin to imagine how painful this is for you. I am so sorry. 🙏

[@browneyedgirl4637]

I lost my favorite uncle to mesothelioma lung cancer. I pray for you, your wife, your kids and your family.

[@vickieg8791]

One day at a time Kyle. You don't have to know all the answers right now. I wish i could give you a big hug right now. I lost my best friend/ husband at 29 when we' d been married almost 10 years. Cancer truely sucks.

[@marleen6507]

I am sorry to hear that ❤️🇨🇦❤️ How are you doing now?

[@carolynkiem868]

Sucks is putting it nicely love is ev/thing memories forever still miss mine 35 yrs now still so fresh

[@ClaudiaGingrich]

Prayers for your family 🙏