leo. - despair [official lyric video] (‘cause it’s not romantic, i swear)

[@leoindreamland]

thanks for all the support on despair!!! what are some of your favorite lyrics? :)

[@arianaizzati4286]

"im not sure if this whole love thing sounds quite right" some of my favourite lines 💗💗 i love your songs so muchh , especially soul of steam !!

[@kentucky_fc]

"Cause even tho I'm pretty sure my head's exploding I'm not ready for hand holding" IT JUST HITS

[@hannahaguto970]

"cause it's not romantic I swear,I'm not gasping for aaaaaaaaiirrr" iloveeyouuuu

[@04.aurelianeysaputrinirwan33]

Pls make a lyrics for soul of steam and dancing in the corner They are also my fav!

[@tanyam6796]

“it’s not love, i swear…it might be closer to despair” hit HARD also i absolutely love your songs 💞

[@Qyzzal]

This is my comfort song I swear.

[@MizukiHoshizora]

Same dude

[@Skyandrainbows]

Same i’ve never felt this attached to a song for a long time

[@strwbz.yoshii]

Same, I always play this on loop

[@GINSHOTGUN]

Sameee

[@ixzy_8214]

lol same

[@doofie_doozles]

this song reminds me of denial of being in love with somebody to find out they like you back and now youre so panicky about literally everything and keep pushing them away. but they dont give up at all, theyre so determined to love you. no matter how much denial youre in, they'll try. so by the end, you accept it:) aka my current situation DHFHSHFH

[@jjais964]

Yeah....That'd probably be me if my crush ends up liking me back-

[@doofie_doozles]

@@jjais964 AW I WISH U LUCK W THAT I HAD THAT AND THEN WE BROKE UP 💀💀

[@jjais964]

@@doofie_doozles Ouchie O3O

[@tranqui_lil_ie]

This happened to me last year...but then I refused them because he was selfish to me and other people.

[@jjais964]

@@tranqui_lil_ie Good Choice.

[@PokerfacedArtist]

every version of this song is literally chefs kiss. my favorite is the jazz ver :3

[@literallyjustabadegg]

*this song literally spawned a whole fandom* (not in an offensive way, this is an amazing song!)

[@hat7475]

The one with a kinky black and white bear?

[@literallyjustabadegg]

@@hat7475 yes very much

[@hat7475]

@@literallyjustabadegg i dont know if it's a good thing or bad because i also thought, the very second i came pon the name, "Oh shi- dgrp????"

[@lilarayne]

i'll be honest i thought you meant the owl house cuz of that one popular lumity animatic

[@AlexaB1325]

What fandom? I'm so confused lol

[@phinehasmaximus]

Leo you have no idea how many months I’ve been listening to this song with a smile on my face every time

[@applesunshiners]

ive listened to this song 744 times

[@50shadesofhappinessoffilip33]

You commented 2 months and this was posted 2 months ago so yes. You've been listening to this in just 8-9 weeks

[@dryelene]

@@50shadesofhappinessoffilip33 actually the original was posted around 5 months ago

[@kentucky_fc]

You're so underrated i swear you need so much more attention

[@shadizaytfriend8559]

True

[@spinoodles4043]

Ikr I could only listen to this song for a whole year and wouldn't get tired of it

[@elk3928]

@@spinoodles4043 same

[@josuedantas9294]

This song reminds me that it's ok to be aromantic 💚🖤

[@Smallishbeansfan101]

IKR -cupioromantic

[@mafyukis]

fr tho.. -a lithromantic person

[@Phone_guyFnaf]

Agreed. -Aroace kid🧡💛🤍🩵💙

[@Space_Prince]

Literally me fr

[@allthegarlicbread4008]

Omg same girlypop

[@AstronomicalJelly]

the aromantic anthem that is probably unintentional

[@hat7475]

Oh shit! Like Hayloft and Seater Weather? Eh, dunno. We'll just have to see!!

[@ARO-Kryzten]

I hope it doenst lol

[@knightlyblues4050]

Dude... this song gives me so many feels. I feel this way so much around someone and it basically got me through quarantine. I'm waiting until I'm a better animator to make something out of this so I ca properly do it justice. I love your work.

[@pieblooming]

fun fact! leo means star, idk why i said this, but i just thought it was iconic his most popular song, his name means leo, and the song name text has stars surronding it.

[@iker2333]

I'm kinda torn between this song, because on one hand I love it, it give me AroAce vives, it's saying: Its literally not love I want closeness with this person but not in a romantic way I want to be with them but don't want them to think it's romantic The line "cause even though I can feel my head exploting I'm not ready for hand holding" It's so Dammned good But when I tell my friends about this song, they thought I was lovestruck or something, like legit I didn't catch the heartbreak on the song But on and all, this is a great song, mad props for composing it dude!

[@Kqubic]

I feel like the song can be different for everyone, like for me, it’s him being in denial of his feelings to this person or him trying to figure out his feelings

[@pandajesus5052]

Oh yeah I def feel the aroace part of the song but I also see the other interpretation (denial) Mostly I just interpret it depending on how I’m feeling at that moment :) This is coming from another aroace btw~

[@ani_isnt_my_name9445]

As an aro ace myself I agree

[@temin2776]

Well, you want friendship, yes?

[@jadeblack320]

EXACTLY For the longest time i was like "Finally! an Aromantic chill song!" and then recently I applied this song to one of my characters and was like "wait a minute... this song.. kind of sounds like someone who maybe does want romance at some point but just isn't ready for it,,,, noooo". I might internally change the lyrics to sound more aromantic but yeah :c

[@MizukiHoshizora]

I listened to his songs 1 week ago.. Now I'm obsessed! Love the new version of despair!

[@tori9486]

EVERY LINE IS JUST SO BEAUTIFUL!

[@Mars-mc3ko]

I realize that you probably never see this comment, but thank you for writing music, Leo. Heartbreak has gotten me through a crap ton of stuff and the others are just full-on jam songs. You're so underrated and you need more attention for your talent. Thank u!!

[@cameliaaa598]

This has been my comfort song for MONTHSSS!!! So glad there’s finally a comment section now LOL I remember when I first discovered this doing it had 10k views and now it has so much more :3

[@cameliaaa598]

Just noticed my typo after two months,, T_T I meant song not doing..Also I’m so happy my comment got hearted YAY

[@lap7564]

Ah yes perfection in one song. You are amazing

[@someoneworthy1751]

“I want you to be here, but please don’t come near” “it’s not love, I swear, it might be closer to despair” literally so true

[@analuzzalazar399]

This song found me when i could 100% relate to it. It’s so good 🎶i swear🎶

[@mason7224]

"It's not romantic, I swear" are my favorite lyrics

[@silverrrr2992]

I love this song so much

[@hannahjwhitson]

SIR I SWEAR THIS SONG HAS ME IN A CHOKEHOLD

[@choimountain5924]

thank you for making the song ! (: your voice is very calming and it helps express my feelings a lot thank u for this

[@jaydenzap2640]

The chord progression in the Chorus "Cuz even though I'm pretty sure my head's exploding" IS SOO SATISFYING!! The Lyrics are also amazing (Kinda relatable Haha)!! Love it!! Keep making more songs :D

[@hat7475]

YASSSS

[@quinny3153]

bro that part of the song is so familiar but i don’t know where i heard it

[@Therms__Doctor]

You know its getting juicy when this is on the OC playlist.

[@undertale-perseverance]

This song is very calming.. but it has the perfect vibe and lyrics of being in love with someone accidentally, but being in denial.

[@graciellakezia8944]

LITERALLY MY NUM 1 SONG THANKYOUUU U DID A GREAT JOB ❤️❤️

[@Mentally_disturbed_possums]

This song just sings cupioromantic

[@IknowUknowWeknowLeeknow143]

Yesss

[@elenicrews2523]

The first lyric “I’ve lost my cool I’m not sure how to act Not even sure how I can keep my pride intact” really resonates with me :)

[@suyu1816]

I love this song too much, it feels very soft with your voice and the instrument that also gives it its touch, I like how you try to show the desperation of a person who cannot accept if he likes someone and does not know how to control it, I think it is a situation that many people experience, and their only solution is not to accept that feeling. I think you came to represent it very well, I congratulate you. I apologize if there are words that are not understood, I use the translator and if I did not use it it would be a disaster aaaaah.

[@rowan404]

This song reminds me of my feelings for an online friend who I am somehow have down-bad with comphet for despite already being out as a lesbian. Like, I consider him my mentor, I can talk to him for 6 consecutive hours and it feels like a few minutes, I recently compared us to Yin and Yang, and I want us to move in together and be roommates for life, but, despite the frequent urge to say “I love you” to him, I don’t want to kiss him, cuddle him, or even hold hands romantically with him. (Not only that, but I once told him about my comphet for him, and he misunderstood and immediately friendzoned me.) He keeps me up at night thinking about a potential future together, but it’s less of “what would it be like” and more of “would it even work” because not only have we never met in-person, but it’ll probably be a _while_ before we do because he’s Russian, so his president is currently committing a genocide (but, luckily, thanks to our shared hypothyroidism, he isn’t eligible to be drafted (also, what a strange coincidence that we both have it)), and also, he doesn’t know enough English to hold a conversation (he uses a translator to talk to me). Also, despite knowing him for about a year now, I still have no idea what he looks like, so how would I daydream about him anyways? For now, I just consider myself lucky to have come _this_ far to begin with. Just thinking about the fact that such a wonderful person exists _and_ considers _me_ a good friend sometimes brings me to tears. He makes animations and I started out as one of his fans, so my persisting admiration for him combined with me generally being unpopular makes my feelings for him like a parasocial relationship but in reverse. (I still have a fan mentality despite actually being his friend _and_ being part of his cast and crew now.) I’ve never had such a strong friendship with an _online_ friend before, and, as a matter of fact, I don’t think I’ve even _met_ anyone like him for the entire duration of my life so far. One more thing: Coincidentally, his channel name has the same name scheme as this one (name in lowercase with a period at the end). *Update:* Over a year later, I’ve finally figured it out: I’m actually _aro-ace_ and I have one of those queer-platonic crushes on him. I’ve seen a lot of people refer to this song as an aro-ace anthem of sorts, and just… YES. Now, I need to do research on queer-platonic crushes so I can finally understand this situation. *Update 2:* It turns out I’m actually bi and I’ve had a crush on him for about 2 years now. TWO FUCKING YEARS!!! I was in denial for so long, but last night, I finally decided to consider the possibility, and then, everything fell into place, and it was obvious AF, and I feel so stupid now. I know it changes nothing since neither of us want to be in a romantic relationship, but I’m still spiraling over this realization. _Even though I’m pretty sure my head’s exploding, I’m not ready for hand-holding._

[@amp-le4699]

good luck to you! hope youre doing well now, whoever you are :)

[@rowan404]

@@amp-le4699 Thanks! It turns out that he himself is aromantic, so I told him about queer-platonic relationships and eventually told him about my feelings. He said that, at this time, he doesn’t want to be in a relationship at all, and that I can find someone better than him regardless. Then, we moved on like nothing happened. Also, he actually _did_ get drafted last October, but he was hospitalized and diagnosed with a chronic illness the day before he was due to enlist, so he was exempt. Anyway, we last talked yesterday and he told me that he’s making an indie game based on one of his animated series that I previously thought he’d abandoned. I’m so proud of him.

[@amp-le4699]

@@rowan404 that sounds awesome! glad youre both still in contact :D i hope his indie game works out!

[@GHOUSTTM]

Oh my GORDITA reading this comment was like reading a drama novel or something, with every discovery blowing me I HAVE!!! A SUGGESTION ON WHAT U MIGHT BE FEELING!!!!! See attraction has many forms. There's romantic, the overrated one, and there's different kinds of *platonic* attractions, one of them being Emotional Attraction Its like romantic, except, you DONT want to kiss them, or hold hands necessarily in a romantic way, you just *want to be with them*, want to be *more than friends* but *not in a romantic way* And that i think falls into being a queerplatonic relationship Which is essentially any relationship that is platonic but is special in a way specific to you or your partner! So yeah! Take all that as you want. Or you can just say you guys are the bestest of friends! Best friends technically fall into the category of queer platonic. Hope this helps, and Goodluck on figuring this out!! (Also can u link his channel I'd love to see his animations :o)

[@rowan404]

@@GHOUSTTM I told him I love him and he said that it was obvious and congratulated me for finally saying it. I asked how he feels about me and he said he isn’t good with feelings but he can say for certain that he feels “extremely positive” about me. So, for the time being, we’re two very close friends with mutual alexithymia, and I’m perfectly fine with that. Also, his channel is RIKOchet.

[@xMayoCh]

LEOOO THIS SONG IS SO COOLL AND COMFORT ME A LOTT, thank you for creating such a great song 🤍🤍🤍

[@Theyluvme754]

This is a very nice smoothing song and it helps me calm down when I need to and I sing this song when I’m in a good mood so very good job Leo you have now made this my new comfort song/)

[@AlexaB1325]

I'm still so obsessed with this song. Like why does it make me so happy? Who gave Leo the right to make music this good

[@pedrouge8982]

My first time listening to this song made me genuinely smile, great song and I love it.

[@oxandco.2724]

This song single handedly makes me happy and depressed at the same time.

[@jaynawallece1887]

wow leo posting a lyric video to my favorite song on my birthday best present ever! >3

[@cannedbread9214]

I just had a panic attack and this song helped me calm down. Thank you :D 💕

[@nadinesp4089]

YOUR SONGS ARE LITERALLY MY LIFE SUPPORT ❤️😭

[@-avril2643]

This is CRIMINALLY underrated

[@Jean-z1p8r]

HOW IN THE WORLD ARE YOU UNDERRATED?

[@MouseofMischief]

This song perfectly sums up how I feel being aro/ace but somehow still a huge hopeless romantic

[@cigarro9574]

musica de conforto.

[@luciellawliet]

I really love this song, makes me not feel alone about being terrified of falling/being in love and that kind of intimacy. I felt so sick I wanted to puke-

[@SunnyBoun]

Monokuma gonna love this I swear

[@NotMemeCat]

Yes. Yes he will.

[@Yeehawyee2]

LOL

[@wishiwash1]

this is so underrated, i love this song so much

[@beatricemarie2085]

this song is just one of my favorites oh my god it's just so catchy at the same time it's also relating to my feelings right now😭

[@arianaizzati4286]

This song calms me so much , i love it !!

[@Bugg_13]

YOOOOOO DESPAIR HAS BEEN ONE OF MY FAVOURITE SONGS FOR LIKE A YEAR THIS IS SO COOL

[@shenn08]

keep going back to this, happy new year to Leo and everyone!

[@mayaguezbeligan3328]

AHH I LOVE THIS I WOULD GO TO THE OG DESPAIR VIDEO EVERYDAY UNTIL IT HIT 1 MIL VIEWS AND NOW ITS ME AND MY BOYFRIENDS “SONG” THANK YOU LEO

[@wisteria8057]

I'm greyromantic and I love this song :)Sorry my bad english, i'm brazilian

[@prajakta-MarsKamble--Mars]

i'm getting Tamaki vibez from this- I really like it!!

[@DreamyDiamond]

this song made me realize how in denial i was about my feelings and now i'm planning on proposing to my girlfriend

[@sunnobeats]

This is probably the most underrated song on earth

[@SillyTheFirst]

I have no idea how this song isnt viral

[@cheesycakeous]

Love this!

[@titaniumtries4893]

New comfort song unlocked fr

[@Adrochiro]

So underrated istg I love this song too much

[@yasminlopes7770]

Tô apaixonado por essa música 😭💞

[@fairyklebzx4108]

Tbm

[@lizarduv964]

A PFP DO LEO!!!!

[@glmniannn.568]

Bro this is good

[@dizzysaturnring]

this is literally my favorite song :)!!!

[@spuddleaf]

as a quoiromantic/Cupioromantic person,, this song is literally relatable to me

[@IknowUknowWeknowLeeknow143]

Frr I'm a Cupioromantic too!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@ineffable_bungee_gum8251]

This song was how I discovered the rest of your music, so it holds a very special place in my heart 💜

[@objectshowsforever]

I feel like I’m ascending whenever I listen to this it’s so good

[@theverycringenogoodname8453]

I was instantly charmed. Also I relate to this a lot, I've been having doubts that I might be demiromantic and not aromantic, because one of my friends, but calling that feeling love doesn't sit right with me. The song captured my feelings pretty dang well (even if it's not about a situation like mine)

[@SliceOfBread01]

Love listening to this song!

[@elenicrews2523]

I love the chorus “it’s not love I swear it might be closer to despair” ofc

[@objectshowsforever]

Leo I love this song it’s literally so mesmerizing and it makes my stomach hurt from how good it is omg it gives me some nostalgia somehow I love ittttt

[@sanity0715]

I’ve listened to this song on repeat so many times and I say that proudly 😩

[@SomeRandomArtist_Offical]

HELLO THIS COMMENT WAS MADE IN OCT 12 2023! I JUST WANTED TO SAY I RLLY LOVE THIS SONG! I LOVE THE TUNE THE LYRICS? AMAZING!!!

[@naturesuniverse1]

my comfort songg

[@The-Jettisoned]

This is me right now. I love a guy I've known forever and I'm so panicked near him and anxious but then when I think about him I get all fuzzy, and my heart pounds. I told him and he said he appreciated it and my honesty, and he was focusing on school and stuff, and that if I ever needed anything I knew who to come to. I know he friend zoned me, but I can't stop thinking about him. I just love him, you know? Ugh...

[@trashsushi1838]

Thank you for summing up my feelings these past few weeks

[@rayconlon5461]

Played this song at 11:59 because it's me and his song for the new year

[@midnightdistance3866]

Every time I listen to this song, I end up in tears. I love this song so much

[@ovainshtok]

Thanks! You make me a little bit happier with this song

[@kittheskater]

HOW DO YOU NOT HAVE MORE SUB?!?!? THISA ISNT FAIRRR

[@coufused]

this dude is so underrated

[@ritupaknikar4812]

So refreshing to listen to a song like this. Way to go!!

[@rando3794]

this needs more attention

[@asmi14]

this is great!! :D

[@nadinesp4089]

This just make me so much happy each time I listen to it❤️❤️

[@Soda_bomb1]

This song gives me aromantic vibes! It’s my comfort song too ❤

[@yzafr]

just wanna say that ur music is so comforting, and this is one of my top fav songs

[@whatisreena1208]

I'm surprised how underrated this is

[@MSKofAlexandria]

for people who want to play this on ukulele; chords are C (0003), Em6 (0102), Dm (2210), G (0232) the chord progression is in that same order strumming pattern is dudu dudu

[@rocket_cat4289]

i used to listen to this song with my friend, brings back so many memories.

[@jovialSpecter]

Pure gold as per usual with your edits.

[@Bunnie_0]

This is one of my favorite songs now!

[@elgomas647]

My take on this song is that it's about negating your own feelings for someone you love. About the despair one feels while trying to shut off your love for this person, because no matter what you just won't stop thinking about them. I was in love with my best friend once. And it was horribly painful to even be around them, eventually I convinced myself I didn't have a chance and kinda "turned off" these feelings (or just learned to ignore them idk). Sooo this song is kinda personal to me, and a fucking banger

[@gojorse2091]

I can't stop myself from listening to this

[@Cloudy__edits]

A nice song to listen to for people who just want platonic love! :D

[@starsw2e]

WHY I KNOW THIS SONG SO LATE, ITS FREAKING GOOD AAAAA

[@akhirachloemaglanque1773]

I love this song sm😭

[@goldenest9760]

I remember when this song had only a few hundred likes!I can’t believe how far it’s gotten,nice job Leo :D

[@keerpacopeca]

i was sure this song was viral and had millions of views because I've been hearing it for years and now that it's in my memory and such a good melody makes me assume it's pretty well known, well... I'm kind of shocked

[@Clara28462]

THUS IS UNDERRATED AND I LOVE THIS SONG I CANT ATOP HEARING IT

[@v_lad8559]

Wow, this is great!

[@breakthewall6450]

your songs are the most beautiful thing that is heard 💗