LessOfSarah: Is Identity Crisis Is The Root Of My Fears?

[@FatKingsTV]

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[@chelseysummers6178]

This video really touches on something I'm worried about and have been for awhile. I feel like I might of sabotaged myself in the past because I'm scared to not be "the fat girl with the pretty face." I have always been overweight and I can't even imagine what I'd look like or even how I will be if I get to goal. So far I've lost 55lbs and I'm back to the weight I was at before my back issues and I already am worried. I think I might of used my weight as a shield and its starting to disappear.

[@msfancynancy77]

Sarah - You really do need to enjoy and appreciate every moment of this - and, when you get to goal, have a "rebirthing" - so to speak....at that point, you have to start seeing yourself as a petite, thin woman....Honestly, you have small featuresl!. But, here's the bonus - after being "the funny fat girl" for so many years, we have a more "devloped" personality. Before I had my surgery (8/5) I said I want to become the "total package" - thin and a good personality!!! Nancy

[@lace1079]

Love love love this video. I haven't even had my surgery and I already know that I feel like this. I'm having RNY next month. I'm wondering if I'm gonna miss the old me, it seems like it will be harder not to hide behind my fat anymore. Anyway thanks for sharing, you're an inspiration! I'm thinking of starting a Vlog too just for the therapeutic aspect

[@3497cookie11]

You gave me a lot to think about. I work from home teaching distance education and lately I have been hating my job. I think working from home was a good buffer from the rest of the wold and now I don't feel like I need that buffer and I feel isolated. So maybe it's not my actual job but my work environment?

[@karenwest-dean6168]

It almost seems like you're going through puberty...that awkward not knowing who you're gonna be when this is over feeling. Like a caterpillar shedding its cocoon to be a butterfly - just think of how freeing it will be to fly!

[@Bayougranny]

You are so deep and I appreciate that about you. You just say it like it is and how you feel. You are helping way more of us than you will ever know. Love you and I'm sure there are many here that agree wit me

[@canadalady]

Sara you are such an inspiration . I think it will be something you look at for a long time . You are still designing your new life as a new woman . When I look at you I do not see a fat girl . Just saying xoxox

[@msfancynancy77]

It is a lot to wrap your head around....but, I'm a strong believer that it's "mind over matter." if you don't wrap your head around it, I think your weight loss will slow down or even stop.

[@karenwest-dean6168]

I love that you share the real you...it helps all of us to connect- we are all the same. thank you for being so brave.

[@crismartin5150]

The dynamic does change....and its figuring out how it effects us & how we deal with it. Hugs

[@RockeraMJJ]

Can you please put a link to Sarah's video? I don't know who she is / her channel :)

[@FatKingsTV]

My weight limited my choices coming up. But coming up fat made me funny, pushed me to be smart, to be well read, because I felt I needed that to compete against just physical looks. Lots of great traits came from being big for you too, you need to think about those too. Now you'll be invincible. Easy for me to say...I'm only 2 months in... you can remind me of this "know it all" post in 8 months when TJ, James, and I all make crying videos in the same week. :) -Phil

[@NerdInOregon]

I don't even know what to say because you absolutely know that I'm feeling everything that you're saying here. I was thinking today that when you make physical changes in this journey, you have these anchors that give you definitive answers. "I lost weight because my pants don't fit." There's some objective source to say "Yes! You've made progress!" But there's no definitive feedback on the mental journey and it leaves me (us?) questioning everything. It's a lot to process.

[@Getonwithliving]

FEAR: false evidence appearing real

[@vixrevision]

That's a lot to ponder, and makes so much sense.

[@CYRINTHIA212]

youtube won't allow anyone to do a video response :( darn they change everything on here. i would love to do a response video

[@tammywambolt9437]

Wonderful heartfelt video...you go Sarah!

[@dawnmarierny6518]

Oops! ...'the fat friend', etc. One of my friends actually said that selfishly the only thing she was worried about was that my personality would change. I looked at her like she was crazy. Now I can see how that could be true. It's a scary proposition because I like myself :) I can see how we create different coping skills, but I think we have the same heart and soul that we were meant to have. Maybe we'll change in certain ways, but at the core we'll be the same. Sending hugs.

[@sadefrmo]

I have thought a lot over the years about the ways my weight has shaped who I am today. There is a lot of baggage that comes from growing up fat, and it has shaped me in negative ways. However, I do think there is much that has come from living this way. For one I think I am very compassionate/empathetic person. I often wonder if that would be the case (in the same way) if I had been thin my whole life. Great video Sarah! Thank you for sharing. Great things to process. :)

[@PhatnPhlabulous]

Here are my thoughts....I am who I am right now. To me it doesn't matter who I was or who I'm supposed to be. For me, I need to love in the now. When I was fat, I was happy being the fat girl. Not proud of course, but happy. Right now, I'm happy. When I get to goal, I'm sure ill be thrilled. Not happy to finally be thin, but healthy. I think if you live in the now and not stress about the past or over what the future holds, anyone can be happy :)

[@linkinlogs04]

Your right, you hit the exact reason I want the surgery. I have no clue who I am other then just being the fat girl, so your not alone. I worry all the time about everything I say and do, because I feel like I can't mess up, because I'm already the fat girl so I'm on a lower level. It gets old never being good enough because your fat! I have no clue what my life will be like when I'm no longer the fat girl....Thanks so much for sharing your struggle with this!

[@harrydracogirl1989]

Gosh! You, me and Sarah are all in tears quite a bit this week! I know you'll work this out. The beautiful thing is, there is no rush. Take all the time you need. :) ((hugs)) from Australia. :)

[@2V23]

I adore your honesty!!!!! cry, snot, WHATEVER, I love listening knowing we hav some of the same feelings...thanks sooooo much for sharing!!!! Your journey helps so many Sarah!!!

[@dawnmarierny6518]

First of all - you are a beautiful soul. I am pre-op, but can relate with most of what you shared in regards knowing your roll as the 'fat funny girl' or

[@bbbglmrk]

Ty... Very powerful video.... ♥️

[@NoMoreWeighting2199]

Love this video, for real. I think many of us can relate to many of the things you said. Great video friend.

[@MsDanaGerous]

Big hug to you! I understand part of what you are feeling. You will find yourself, I am sure!

[@vsgkirk]

You're kind of a big deal...don't you ever forget that!

[@PhatnPhlabulous]

Sometimes you just have to throw away those "maybe's" and live right now :)

[@kristyandz]

:'( sorry to c u sad

[@nerozeknow]

Love your sharing

[@VSGHope]

Thank you so much for sharing Sarah!

[@FatKingsTV]

her youtube is nerdinoregon ...TJ

[@Getonwithliving]

*journal (not journey)

[@CYRINTHIA212]

awesome awesome video