letters for my past self

[@yamadiver9486]

Just had one of the heaviest days of my life. Seeing your notif felt like a pat on the back, thank you very much.

[@MotherCoconut.]

take care dude. i hope you heal out of it alright.

[@carrotlemon2665]

i hope youre doing alright man. stay safe bro

[@stelahanahana1018]

Have a good rest. You are doing really well.

[@Mr.Paperjam]

Everything will be fine eventually. You will see.

[@itzyoung]

Thanks for sharing, wishing you the best

[@stelahanahana1018]

学校は辛い思い出が多いけど、ふとした時にノスタルジーを感じることもある。 この前仕事で見知らぬ小学校へ入ったが、あの特有のリノリウムの床のにおいや、朝、昼、夕方、夜と全く姿が変わる様子が懐かしいなーと思った。もっとあの時間を大切にすればよかったなと思ったり。 過去の自分に手紙が書けるなら、「君は15年後それなりに充実した生活を送ってて、thermosentoというサイコーなコミュニティにも出会えるから、焦らないでいいよ」と伝えたい。

[@y.k.495]

過去の自分に言いたいことが、「焦らなくていいよ」ってなんかかっこいいな。

[@dalbiiru4399]

In two months, I'll be starting my new job. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous; in fact, I'm scared. The job is definitely stable, but it's not my dream job, still a thing to be grateful for. These days, I've been wishing my future self could send me a note saying, "everything will be okay." Getting older means realizing that nothing is really promised.

[@dc0he11]

I'm 2 years into my stable job. I am grateful but some days I wish I could throw it all away and live how truly want

[@K.etanak]

I just started my new job as a new graduate this month. It's not my dream job, but at least it has some good things that I like in this job. I believe in the universe. Trust in what comes. What is truly meant for you will finally find you. Even if I got my dream job, there would be something in that job that I don't like anyway. Sending you love and light ✨️.

[@droplessrain]

Just one week into my job, you'll be fine as the universe will eventually redirect you to a life you didn't want, but you most definitely need. Hang in there Champ!

[@nancysuarezjimenez22]

It'll all work out, and you will be okay

[@f0rtn428]

I tried to write a letter for my past self. As I wrote my words and rechecked one last time, the paper suddenly disappeared. This browser suddenly crashed, erasing all that was supposed to be. The wind gusted away, as if it's trying to tell me something. Maybe that is how it is. As I was flown back to present time, I saw all my memories flash by. The blue and red sunlight, the friends colorful in sepia. Film tapes of old times. Sometimes, we all dream, but the past of us might just be best as distant memories. It was all okay. As the lights shimmered through, memories became stars, and I am stargazing. It is all okay. Farewell, the times of the past, and thank you, thermosento.

[@wanderingghost7324]

I wish it was easy to move past the memories. But the memories kept repeating inside my head in many variation of what could be. I don't know where did it start. In the past, I was anticipating the future with every possible events. I promised myself that I could be better. Once upon a star... My dreams remained dreams... Lost in the quiet ocean.. sinking to the bottom less abyss.. never to be formed... Here I am still drifting in the lost sea.... Starless night and lost dreams... I wish for one last time... To become a star in this quiet eternal night.

[@soggybreadman4035]

@@wanderingghost7324 It is never too late to work towards your dreams. Never ever too late. But i know what its like to feel stuck. You'll still feel that way in the middle of making those dreams happen, but you just gotta keep moving forward, no matter the setbacks... no matter how much time it takes... take as much time as you need, but don't stop moving. Keep going, and keep on living! Know that God above is always working everything for good. Every set back, every past trauma or experience, every long lost memory or forgotten detail... it all happens for a reason. And yes, our dreams may not turn out the way we imagine or dream them to... but with faith and continual movement it will end up better than what we could think of. The God of all creation made me and you with purpose. We are not accidents, and neither are our dreams. So keep walking, just keep going forward, always with the faith in your heart that no matter what happens or how long it takes... these dreams will yet become something... something that is better than anything the human mind can cook up. Better for yourself, those around you, and the generations that follow you. There was a time I wished I didn't have sentience, like i could just be a robot and do what I was put on earth to do without doubt or worry, without extra dreams or ideas to complicate things. I would just serve my purpose and that would be it. But that's not how we are made, we were given free will because we are loved, and that freewill enables us to pursue our dreams in faith and love, sharing them with others in our efforts to keep going. We weren't made to be robots without dreams or memories... love is messy just as life is, not a set of 1s and 0s... but full of setbacks and troubles that in faith only serve to make us and our dreams even stronger! So please keep going, keep walking forward, and hold onto faith as your guardrail... never letting you fall and sink under those waters, but letting you walk along the surface to where ever these dreams lead. This I pray for you, that you would be filled with Peace, Love, and a Sound mind. In Jesus name, amen!

[@wanderingghost7324]

@@soggybreadman4035 Sometimes, I feel like jumping into the void. Straight into the arms of Morpheus forever, never to wake up again. But, now I realise that I am in the world of dreams. Where Morpheus lingers in the back of humanity's subconscious thoughts, feeding upon the dreams and hope of human kind. Before I long for eternal sleep, now I just want to pull myself up from this dreamless physical plane. Where everything recycles itself until the sun loses its source. An ouborous egg. Maybe death is not what we thought it was, maybe shamballa or agartha might be heaven or hell to those who slept in those cosmic eggs, incubated within the cosmos, they might have awakened and hatched into a new deity or life outside of its realm fully form or they might be stillborn with the lack of spiritual awareness. Like those sleepers that were born in the sin moon, half dead with mortal body. Good bye world. I'll take my flight out of this cosmic disaster and awaken fully from sheol ( deep subconscious Mind/ abode of the dead).

[@madmax_4917]

complete BS

[@cabbage_cat]

For my past self: Hang in there, everything's gonna be alright. It will be worth the struggle. I know you're lost and wondering if you should quit. I'm glad you didn't. I know it because I'm you. Life is alright now.

[@michelletoth9125]

Hey, past me. I commend your curiosity. I also commend you for living through something you never knew was happening. I'll explain. Your father's knee surgery actually was more than just that. He needed a lot of rest and stopped playing with you and he became more and more absent. There was a lot of family drama, manipulation, and a lot of fighting and as you grew older and matured more, it only got worse. The only thing you wanted was to get away. And you did. You got far away. You got so far away you won't have to worry about anything. Except for what was kept from you. Your future self still hasn't been filled completely in. It's ridiculous, but after moving thousands of kilometers away, you're going to be on a video call with your mom, while she sits on the back porch you knew in real life once, and she's going to break down crying telling you that your father was breathless and pale and sickly looking and that she had to bring him to the hospital. That in and of itself is probably weird to you, because he's never wanted to go to the hospital before. He hates the hospital, and he hates the dentist, and he hates Walmart. Weird because he was always the strong one. Yeah, that's how serious it will be, me. And she's going to tell you, while you sit on an 80 dollar bar stool from Canadian Tire, 5,000 km away from her and that porch, that he had basically no red blood cells in his body because he has leukemia. Past me, you'll come to the realization that everyone but you knew that he has had leukemia for 11 or 12 years, diagnosed whenever he got that knee surgery. And since you were young, they spared the details. Everyone spared the story from you. You'll learn that he stopped treatment because he felt okay, and that he lasted until just after you moved, when his body gave way. You'll learn that's why he was sleeping so much, so old looking- it wasn't just his age. You'll learn that the type of leukemia he has is CLL and that the survival rate for 5 years is over 80 percent, and that some people can live with it up to 20 years and maybe more, but that he's done over half of that time already. You'll learn he's tough like you always knew, but, depending on his condition, he might only have a handful of years. You know he smokes, he puts ten pounds of sugar in his coffee, and that his work isn't the best for the body. You'll come to understand through many means, but especially this one, just how fragile life is. There are so many things I wish I could write to you. I'll have to fill you in if you get this. Past me, maybe for a day, be happy and be blissfully ignorant. Then, go back to being mad that nobody tells you anything. Because some shit like this slaps you in the face and makes you incapable of being one hundred percent for a long time. It slaps all the spoons out of your hand at the start of the day. I know that we hate the treatment we get. But just for a moment, for your future self, go and eat some more dirt and drink some hose water, and catch some more butterflies and keep them inside as long as possible, and eat bear paw cookies and goldfish crackers, and hear the mourning doves and the shitbirds, and push your niece and nephew on the swings and go play soccer with them, and do all the things I will not be able to do with them from over here. We got what we always wanted, past me. But what we want always comes at a price. And it turns out we live a pretty expensive life. Yours, approaching, Future self.

[@onionhaseyo_]

i love this. sending all my love to you , let's meet in the future!

[@sual442]

Dear past self, Be proactive, you can't just let time pass you by while not doing anything. You'll come to regret it. Though I say you'll come to regret it, even with that being said, don't dwell on the past. Move forward, don't let regrets of the past mislead you towards a bad future. Think clearly and positvely about what can be done right now, so you can have the best future possible for yourself. Not about the what if I did this or what if I did that, it won't get you anywhere other than feeling upset; which in turn will cloud your judgement. Remember, even in the worst of situations, there is always still a best decision that can be made. Remember this, always.

[@nartsprt]

I passed through many difficult moments with your playlists playing in the background of my life. Thank you so much for the work that you do. I hope making these playlists, uploading the videos, and maybe reading some of the comments bring you joy.

[@ElijahDearborn]

I remember in one of my lowest seasons of my life so far, absolutely hating myself, and being so full of fear and anxiety, when I had a really awesome dream (that I believe to be from God). I was living at my dad's house at the time, but I met my future-self, in his/my new apartment. He had an acoustic piano, a sick green rain-jacket, his hair was half-up half-down (man bun style, looked sick), and he had two earrings, one was like white marble (and it seemed to almost glow!) and the other was black marble. He/I spoke to my at-the-time current self, and I don't remember exactly what it was he said, but it was so full of love and compassion, patience, gentleness, and care. He spoke to my self-hatred, and to the pain I was feeling in that time of my life. Nowadays, I grow in excitement, as I slowly see myself grow into the man I met in my dream. It's filled me with such richness of life, how can I not be excited to grow and change as a person, and develop into the me I know I was created to be?!

[@Canuchewdeeznuts]

Thank you so much for this comment man🫶🏼

[@alexandrakatemorante1626]

I just lost my dream. I thought that following my passion would lead me to happiness and success. But now, here I am, mindlessly scrolling in my bathroom after bed rotting for the past month, trying to distract myself from the fact that I don't know where to go anymore. As I look back, I remember my 17-year-old self being so excited because she just enrolled at her dream university and course, without knowing it would only take a year to crush those dreams. I am not capable of reaching those dreams. I thought that passion and hard work would be enough to be at the same pace as my classmates, but I guess not. I am scared. I don't want to be a burden to my parents, knowing that they are currently facing a financial problem. I am scared to get left behind by my batchmates, schoolmates, and friends. I want to work so that I can help my parents and have my own house, but I don't know what kind of job I should apply to. School is starting next week and I still haven't applied to any universities because I couldn't afford to pay the tuition and other fees. I don't even know what course I should apply to. I don't know what to do. I'm scared. Very scared.

[@lorenacalvin18]

Deep down, I understand and relate to your situation, even though you're probably older than me and I may not fully understand your situation. I've been there. I used to think that my hard work would help me improve myself, make my parents proud, and perhaps win podium. As life went on, I felt like I wasn't moving forward. But unlike you, I chose to give up. I gave up on my lifelong dream of being an athlete, being a star runner and swimmer. Looking back, I bitterly regretted my decision. Everyday I wonder if I could ever get back to my past self, if I could achieve my dream someday. I'm ready to take the first step, but honestly, I'm very scared. I'm humiliated and disappointed, why wasn't I strong enough? What I'm trying to say is, it's never too late to start anew. Perhaps achieving your dream wasn't as easy as it would be, but you kept the most important thing alive: you never gave up on your dream. The road to our hopes and dreams were never easy. There was one thing I had always kept in mind: if I can't achieve my lifelong dream, maybe, just maybe, I could find a new one. Something to keep me going, a new goal to look forward to, a new drive and motivation. It's easier said than done, and believe me it is. Maybe try taking a step back and take a look at your interests, maybe they'll help you find a new meaning. From my perspective, you are courageous. You're strong enough to face your problems despite your situation, even though it doesn't feel like it now. You don't have to solve your whole life in one night. And you don't have to be ashamed of where you are now. All you can do is focus on one small thing to get closer to where you want to be. Slowly and lightly. You'll get there, I have faith in you :)

[@It-Will-All-Be-Okay-I-Promise]

These playlists never fail to calm me down. Thanks for all this.

[@rachmaniwuff8198]

THERE'S NO WAY YOU JUST PUT MITSUHA'S THEME HERE OMGOSH RJBEJEJJEE you are the absolute BEST at making these playlists~!!

[@Sunny-s7f]

i'll do this. I sometimes wish I could talk to myself from 8 months ago. I was a very gentle person, calm and kind, always positive and looking to uplift others. I could use one of me right now. I'm still tryna figure life out, I'm only 15, and things get insanely tough. Even still, I clasp my hands, pray, and prepare to start walking again.

[@wxlurker]

A loved one died recently. They have cared for me since my childhood and have been a great source of comfort for me. I realised that I couldn't return to those times ever again moving forward. This playlist brings back feelings of nostalgia.

[@padawan1769]

NEW THERMOSENTO VID EVERYBODY CALM DOWN

[@onionhaseyo_]

a letter to my past self; if theres ever something that i'd wish to tell you is to chase your dreams. I hope you never give up and beat yourself up. I wish you give your all in anything that you do so that you wont be suffering and dwelling on things you wish you could've done so much better on. Make wise decisions and just follow your heart. Protect your heart at all costs. And most of all dont spend your days crying and wishing things were different. It all gets better , trust me.

[@dabama2864]

you did great, keep on doing it, one day it will come to you, you just have to wait... if it doesn't, then at least you trying and not giving up until you die. your dream is to retire as fast as possible and go travel the world once you made it.. its oke if you achieved your dream when you old, at least you made it :D im you, the 19 years old you, youll reach addulthood soon, dont play around oke, lets work hard together!

[@bri3901]

haruka nakamura the goat 🔥

[@evenofday]

항상 잘 듣고 있어요!

[@ikominiko]

2 months ago, it was one of the heaviest moments I had. Every day after school, I will sit by my bed and I'll let my vulnerability take over me. Not because I am not doing well academically, but because of all that I built; from helping myself get up and trying to survive each passing frame all fell apart. I was so lost at that time and I barely even got up from my bed every morning. The hatred, the crippling anxiety building up every day, and full of fear? Those made me miserable day by day. When summer vacation came, all I knew was that I didn't much embrace what I had the past 2 months and I didn't much take action on my own mistakes/failures of living. Another thing is, I didn't get to enjoy being a 3rd year high school. Now I am going to be fourth year soon, I'm willing to forgive and let go of all those maddening burdens I have. The past may still be there but that doesn't change the fact you should not keep going. Keep dreaming because that doesn't mean it isn't dead yet. And what I mean about keep dreaming, you should move too.

[@aisling-nc9fe]

I keep hurting people I love and I don't know what to do. I feel so hopeless but I hope my future self is watching and things will get better one day. Thanks for this playlist.

[@kennethwong8130]

You can say sorry to them, they will understand you unavailability one day

[@rawrdomo45]

The fact that you still hope when it seems hopeless that it will become better with your people shows just how much you care for them ❤ stay strong my friend

[@mmowpm]

コメント欄を見ても分かるように本当に素晴らしい音楽は人種も国境も超えて人々の心の奥に届いて深い感動を与えてくれるんだね

[@chaeryeongswife3709]

19:47 someone like this commentso i can listen to this song agaibn plspls

[@phamquanghuy2222]

Aw finally I found someone sharing the same favorite segment of the video :>

[@sunnysunset]

I recently moved pretty far away from home. Really appreciate these playlists, they can calm anyone down. Even if it's just for a fleeting moment, it's great to feel like everything's gonna be okay.

[@cahayaswo]

Thermo every set of songs that you post always lets me breath for a bit and just clears my clouded mind. I THANK YOU! :')

[@kneho620]

My older brother just graduated two months ago from college. The moment I saw him wearing a toga, I was reminded of how it’s impossible to turn back time. I know I’m the one following next, but I guess I both miss and regret the past. I miss it because It was worthwhile growing up with him. Regret it, because I could’ve done more and I feel like I didn’t appreciate those times that much. He wasn’t the type of older brother that was protective and close to their siblings, but he was the best nonetheless. If I could write a letter to my past self, I wish I could’ve told her to spend more time with him and not hate him too much.

[@CNaria180]

For my past self : i curse you, i curse you to be forever happy!

[@dc0he11]

My mom has a rare type of cancer. Ive been reading up on in place of her bc I dont want her to think about it and honestly I'm scared. I cant even put my feelings into words. Just thank you for these playlists. Being the strong person in people's lives means no one really checks in on you but these playliss speak to me like no one else can

[@meebu2185]

i just love how your playlists has become a place for people to unwind and rest their hearts for a bit

[@LocalSleepDealer]

Every time I hear the opening track to a thermosento video, The world immediately slows down.

[@生活情弱]

学生の頃のいい思い出と嫌な思い出が蘇る

[@ChimeraLotietheBunny]

for a few simple quote from a game I like whenever I listen to this song to chat with my young self especially in my dreams "Despite everything , You're still you" since , deep down despite changes of time and character development one thing remains with my young self to me now - Never give up to my cherished dreams and ambitions.

[@marcherz]

this doesn't quite match the vibe of the music here but the memory just popped back into my head. today was a gloomy day, i was procrastinating my work because i was so afraid of my future, how ironic it was. while i was sleeping after doing nothing, i had a dream, a weird one in which i went back to my childhood hometown - the school that i went to. i was talking to my old friends whom i haven't seen for almost a decade when i'd overheard something. one of my little friend, she had some conflicts with a boy in class and that boy told her that he would burn her house (she lived in a social housing area for teachers right after my school 'cause her parents were also teaching there). right after hearing that story, i was worried so i went to the back of my school (also where her house was) to check, and there was truly fire, burning in red, i ran into the place and saw her dad standing there trying to put out the fire. i grabbed a water pipe and helped him as well but i couldn't do anything for some reasons idk. the fire went out later and the last moment i remember, her father and i were trying to straighten the pipe to put out the fire outside that area. it was a small burst of fire somehow got on top of the telecommunications tower, we were just standing there watching it die out because the water couldn't reach to that part. it was somehow cruel and tragic, but beautiful. that dream brought me back to reality. man, i miss myself.

[@AerisSummoner]

Isn't it amazing how one of the most vulnerable places in the universe is a comment section? We want to be seen but not really, all of us just want company - to hear out each other's stories...

[@Axemark38]

Dear past self, it's so tough right now. I feel broken but I'm slowly piecing myself together, I have to and so do you. Please hang in there.

[@hazlune]

I'm not so sure how I am supposed to explain this, but I really like how thermosento's playlist starts with a calm song and kinda gives an accent on the last one like an end credit... It makes me feel like I've read a nice story or something, idk

[@きくらげ-g6k]

親孝行や親への感謝の言葉はできるうちにして、伝えておくこと どんなに照れくさくてもそれができずに後悔するよりもずっといいから

[@jimuren8223]

Things are a lot harder than we expected and I’m sorry for letting you down. I know you always wondered if things would get better, and the answer is they have and they haven’t. We’ve changed a lot and also a little. A lot of you remains in me. I’m still shy and I still get sad and need to lie down sometimes. My posture still sucks. I sometimes wonder how people are so successful at making art that they can show to others, and why I have such a hard time. I kick myself for not being genuine and not really having any proper story to tell. I think most of my life is just me fighting with myself. I argue with myself over that. I hold myself back from taking advantage of the moment and I second guess my decisions. I often question whether I have struggled enough to express things that will connect with other people. But then maybe it requires hard work and I think then that I lack the dedication. And I worry that telling you all this is just over dramatizing an easy existence. And the worst part is I think this is something you do too. I was going to talk about some of the good stuff, but now I’m not so in the mood anymore. I think if anything at least I’m more aware of all this. I’ve gotten better at taking care of myself. I’m learning. I bake bread now, and I’m trying to make my own decisions not my parents decisions. It’s little stuff and I guess I’ve realized that it’s going to be a long haul, which is a good thing. I know it’s not what you wanted to hear, though and I’m sorry. But in the same way I know you were hoping things would get better and they did, I’m holding out for something like that. Things will get worse I suppose, too. I’ll be counting on you then. I’m still working hard trying to understand everything that happened to you and I promise I will help you come to terms with it all someday. (I used to want to go back, you know. But writing this I suddenly feel like there’s so much you won’t understand. And that’s okay, you’re just a kid. You don’t have to worry about this stuff, though I know you want to. I just don’t know if you can help me. Life feels so much larger than it did back then. And that’s amazing and scary at the same time. I know you’re trying your best and I wish I could help you more. I wish you could have seen this before. But I’m so proud of you for everything you’ve done and how you handled it all.) I’ll be in touch. Maybe the more we write the closer we will become, like time traveling pen pals. My playlist just ended though so it’s goodbye for now, at least in this formal sense. I love you

[@lonucs3526]

많이 좋아했었고, 내 마음 한 켠에 접어두어 마무리 시키며 오늘도 난 외로움을 친구삼아 그녀를 좋아했던 마음을 되돌아보며 얘기를 나눠요

[@silverknight8805]

Things aren't really going smooth now that I'm past 18. I have better hopes for the future and I also pray for the fact that even someone like me that is ordinary from the inside out has a place to be and a future to live in. Thinking about my life throws my mind into unsettling waves of various emotions, good and bad. I now am going to live my life to the best as I took it for granted in the past few years.

[@1903n]

Hi, i had trouble sleeping lately but this playlist is so soothing I immediately close my eyes, tysm!

[@Dafdesu]

I fw you heavy bro

[@smexy1141]

my favorite playlist so far, thank you thermosento (:

[@ericduan4297]

listening to this while doing stats hw!! thank you joey ♥

[@KyrstML]

We got this my multiverse self

[@dahampter3844]

you make some of the best playlists out there! been listening since last summer

[@farimafischer6590]

yuri on ice ost hit me like a train

[@mr.s0506]

se siente como una máquina del tiempo jaja Pero hey, a mi yo de hace 3-2 años en verdad te digo, que lo estas haciendo bien. Hiciste cuanto pudiste y sin limitarte, aun sabiendo el final. Y aun mejor, toda esa experiencia y recuerdos te ayudarán en la gran aventura que estas por dar. Por ahora, solo tomate un respiro, y sigue amando. Aun con los errores, aprenderás de ellos Estoy muy feliz y orgulloso de todo lo que haces!

[@putri3042]

Still in progress of letting him go. My past self, I've been doing well, it's not as bad as you thought, don't worry!!!

[@4am11goon]

I was so proud of my past self and tried too bring her come back to the present. But it was worse when i was too obsessed with a " diligent" me and dissapointed about my real one, the one who live in present. And, finally, i let "her" go inside me, cause all of these versions are the true me, and I just need to keep going. All of these memories still belong to me and encourage me to achieve more and more.

[@deepspacetheater]

This presentation has depth of meaning that one could spend time finding. Thank you very much.

[@kako-no-kaminoke]

need new tunes ASAP!!

[@tayotayo3]

omg

[@wwindww]

my heartfelt gratefulness want to send to you for putting theme of mitsuha in the playlist. my past self had been playing this on replay for multiple and seem-not-to-end night long. at that time i just stared at the ceiling and wondered where would my life drift to? i had too much thoughts on my mind and somehow i felt desperated. then i moved to another country, make an end for my beautiful yet nostalgic highschool. studying abroad was the time i realized myself weaker than i thought. there were days i just wanted to lay down and bust into tears, there were days that i cried until i felt hard to breath. but then i reminded myself all of this shall pass. i still try to work on myself everyday, make my days count as much as possible so that whenever i think back about my past, i could proudly pat on my shoulders that "you see, you did it!".

[@cserialen]

Remember me?

[@youneun]

After I became an adult this year, I finally missed my school days.

[@thatlonelydude8636]

I am where I am because you didn't give up, thank you

[@thanhat3415]

to my past self: if only i could spent more and more time together with you my love

[@anugrasalaza9395]

For my past self: hey! you might have already done bad things. But those are the exact reasons you are who you are today :D. It wasn't so bad, you just need to do a little bit more than you are doing now. Thanks for persisting :) For my future self: hey you may or may not read this again, but thank you for hanging on. You may be struggling now. But, someday you'll miss this exact moment. You won't meet those accompanying you on your journey to get here. But I hope you are still with that exact person and things are getting better.

[@유저-l6s]

미츠하 테마는 좀 사기인 것 같아요... 오랜만에 들으니까 너무 좋고 너무 슬프고,.,

[@김아람-h8f]

I love you

[@al-walking6321]

Today is one of those days when I feel it. I call it the „Aether“ and it‘s a feeling of deep dissatisfaction, a scream in the darkness, from the center of my gut. Don‘t get me wrong, I‘m not depressed or anything, I‘m living a happy live, working a job i love. But every now and then, particularly on days I have little to do, it manifests itself. When the Aether arises, i sometimes try to understand where it came from. Am I doing something wrong? Why is my soul so dissatisfied? I think todays Aether stems from feeling I can‘t reach my goals lately. I have a girlfriend, she lives on the opposite side of the world. Everyday after work I study flashcards and practice grammar to be able to communicate with her in her native language. Oftentimes, it‘s actually fun and a thing I enjoy doing, even tho I‘m exhausted from work. Furthermore, I‘m motivated by my goal of one day living with her in her country. Lately however, I‘ve been feeling increasingly exhausted after work. On some days, this led to me not finishing my due flashcards, resulting in a bigger stack of reviews for the next day. I got thinking: „What‘s wrong with me now? I‘ve been doing this for more than a year now and I never slacked off before. Am I not motivated anymore? Does this mean I don‘t love her enough anymore?“. I felt defeated and confused. But after self reflecting in form of this YT comment, I feel the Aether getting resolved. Like a knot thats slowly getting loose. The problem isn‘t that I stopped loving her, in fact I probably love her more than ever. I think I just put too much pressure onto myself lately. The journey to reachmy goal of living with her is just that: a journey. It‘s normal to feel exhausted, and sometimes you ineviteably sit down and look around. Reflecting on how far you‘ve come, how far is still ahead and perhaps also if you want to even bear it any longer. I decided I will continue. It may be the hardest thing I‘ve ever tried, but now that the Aether has passed I can feel that I still want to reach my goal. And maybe one day, when I see this video in my watched videos list again, I will be reminded of the hard parts of my journey. I love you Natsuki. See you in Japan.

[@dancake2094]

lmao take a look at this guy 🤖

[@DuongNguyen-we8us]

cool

[@MyNameIsKairos]

When theme of mitsuha started playing, i opened an ear to ear smile, i love Your Name so much!

[@Genny-Zee]

Yello

[@Happybread6075]

heavenly album as always

[@sha_0_rkie337]

THERMOSENTO UPLOAD LETS FUCKING GO

[@hmmyess4320]

💖💖💖

[@3a1s5v4a61r46v]

Thank you very much for curating this playlist!

[@MrBlerg]

:)

[@aii520]

ty for the upload your playlists never fail to make my day :)!

[@신짠구]

거짓말 안하고 여기 채널 주인장이 진짜 기가막히게 플리 뽑아놓음 ..미쳤다

[@ー_ーv]

ㄹㅇ 진짜 모든 플리가 레전드임 제목이랑 사진이랑 음악 셋다 모두 조화를 이룸..

[@no1benjaminbunnyfan]

favourite yt account posted 🙀

[@giahungnobi]

Love your colllection

[@16warithankiatkla77]

Beautiful as always❤❤!

[@lepryn818]

Thanks for another 🙏

[@eshanmcgee]

Life hits hard

[@yuzu54o]

Haruka Nakamura ❤

[@no1benjaminbunnyfan]

hi thermosento!!

[@3doh527]

Thermosentooo

[@jeongong815]

항상 잘 듣고 있습니다 고맙습니다 ❤

[@galactic-hamster7043]

I was just thinking last night about how one of my favorite lofi music curation channels, Dreamwave, had stopped uploading and had this channel on my mind as one of my go tos- thanks for all you do, no matter exactly how much it is because i love it

[@Endo_ls_listless]

Yes

[@lil-berg]

ty joey

[@gemmeix]

To my past self: You have no idea how far you've come. I'm proud of you