I can relate so much! I have two kids 18m apart and I was SAHM since back from maternity till my 2nd child was 1y.. Then I am only working part time around my husband’s work. If I went back full time and had to leave them both in nursery I would have you to use my salary and top it up £700 a month.. Now my son starts Reception in Sep and my daughter is year below we get 30h for him and 15h for her but.. breakfast club, after school club and holiday club.. Lets be honest, even with two kids its not affordable :( PS: See any change as ‘on hold’ rather than loosing! It made my PND easier ;)