Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong [Lyrics on screen] HD

[@Kara-ez3ml]

This hits hard when u aren’t able to achieve your dream, which u have wanted all along. When u feel like everyone is moving on and u are just stuck at the same place , hoping that u will be at a place where u belong.

[@NikiWonoto26]

I thought I'm alone in feeling like this... thank you very much for the comment... - from Indonesia -

[@tavocalderon811]

But don't give up💪👍

[@johnolson3411]

I live this comment

[@mdnazirsan3030]

Thnx buddy..i needed that

[@jonc4686]

Great comment, sounds just like me and my crap life.

[@GamingGavel]

"I will never be, anything till I break away from me." Is such a hard line and it hits me to the core.

[@HelloThere-ls7yf]

Its like the solution is obvious, but its so hard to achieve.

[@XJ_Editz]

I used that like for an assignment that involves music and whatever

[@Taniyah22]

l will never be anything till l break away from me ls such a hard line and it hits me to the core

[@GamingGavel]

@@Taniyah22 *Pointing spiderman meme*

[@rachaelmurgatroyd5038]

This song honestly speaks to my soul

[@BrianBloop]

Same

[@starjokerx574]

Me too it hits a lot harder now that Chester is gone.

[@Jihadbearzwithgunz]

Absolutely as a male that was sexually and physically abused as a child this just clicks in my head and miss Chester's voice so much been on a Linkin park kick for the last couple months with my depression almost crippling me and leaving me wanting to find somewhere I belong

[@alexanderclass2506]

Life speaks to my soul

[@Myx9610]

best part at 2:43

[@billyrobbins1169]

I miss Chester, wish he never left us. It's still hard to believe he's really gone. The man who can sing like an angel and scream like a demon. But this legends music will never die.

[@ktmrider4084]

exactly bro

[@crimsonthunder2641]

Facts

[@vincentrosethorn4886]

That vocal description also covers Corey Taylor.

[@berkahlangitramadhan1309]

why you make me remember it again😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@errorbirdesther]

Legends never die R.I.P chester

[@rileyridgway7362]

Rest in sweet peace, chester. You will forever rock on in our hearts!

[@jenniferholmes6644]

Damn straight!!!

[@easonandrew1063]

*I'm not 'DEAD' ... JUST TOOK A NAP*

[@anassdakkina7152]

Yes forever ❤🙏

[@GrimmGio]

Still can't believe

[@lchang1326]

@@anassdakkina7152 He woke up in heaven.

[@profileN7]

I will listen to classic Linkin Park till' I die.

[@thetownenders7930]

Allinmind you sure will... we are great soldiers

[@gracie8110]

Ilias Dante know what? Why always 90s? There's lots of people listening to linkin park that isn't born in the 90s.

[@XacAnon]

Ilias Dante this album was released in 2003

[@emmajensen5246]

well are you still listening?

[@chinkeehaw9527]

trash god like me I'm the 00's

[@G_J_G_1995]

I was 12 when i heard the first song of Linkin Park for the first time. Now I'm 27 and I'm still listening to their masterpieces because they will never gets old. RIP Chester.

[@pranjalshukla3217]

Bro you spoke my words

[@shaakirahjaffer]

This song healed me after a messy break up. Imagine how many people he healed with his music, yet he couldn't heal 💔

[@ashtonr7879]

Same

[@shaunna1912]

💔😪

[@Tina52516]

🙏🏼 agreed 🧡

[@hiimfriks]

A mi me acompaño en mi secundaria cuando me hacian Bullying por ser gamer

[@alissaharris8035]

He saved me too ❤️All the while he needed saving 💔

[@gunjanhaldar5080]

You dont belong to this painful and cruel world. You deserve a better place. RIP man

[@chinkeehaw9527]

He belongs to a place where there is no such things as pain, bully, drugs and sufferings.

[@Kdumonteiro15]

I agree. So I belong the same place that he belongs. I feel that

[@factmachine1860]

@@Kdumonteiro15 You dont want to be, where he is Trust me. If Someone Kills themself they are fosure going to hell For a long time the only question is how long, Altho not Nice to say Its the reality#dontkillyourselves.

[@logancampos2436]

@@factmachine1860 this IS hell man. This whole planet is a fukin prison. Run by EVIL. how do you even know what happens when you die? Huh?? Have you been to heaven by any chance? Or your so call "HELL"? how do you know for sure that he killed himself??

[@ashishhembrom3905]

@@logancampos2436 and how do YOU know there isn't a hell of a heaven? And HOW do YOU know he didn't kill himself?

[@greg5683]

It speaks to the pain that so many young men have suffered. RIP Chester.

[@maria-melek]

Not just men. I wish Chester were still here with us 😔

[@tracycarbonneau8440]

It’s going to come out eventually… they were going to expose the media.. for everything that’s coming out now. Remember they worked with jayz and we all know who jayz is associated with… (Diddy and Beyoncé) They didn’t commit suicide they were murdered. And it was set up to look like suicides.

[@tracycarbonneau8440]

They had names. And they knew too much.

[@rtbrain]

So much pain. So much loneliness despite so many adoring fans. Just so hard to imagine what he must have been going through inside the prison of his mind. This song is a window into Chesters very soul. RIP.

[@rielaxault]

Not for all riches in the world will you be able to put a price on Meaning. And not for all the precious stones on earth will you be able to quantify the value of happiness to a man depressed. Art is HEAVY , because in that piece of art iis not simple media, but your soul. And the soul wants nothing more then to be truly understood The art piece is how it communicates that understanding.🔘

[@SpeedLe3gendGaming]

Mike and Chester is the best duo ever

[@johndef5075]

This is their best song❤

[@SpeedLe3gendGaming]

@@johndef5075 yes so true

[@manuelguerrero2814]

This song is just real I feel alot of people can relate from all different backgrounds. R.I.P Chester his voice was great on these songs

[@Nicky-k3t]

I Love ❤️ you Please Peter My 👧🏽👩🏽‍🦰 🎀👍♥️🏠📱🎼

[@Nicky-k3t]

🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼

[@bliz_]

He helped millions out of tough spots but we couldn't return the favor. RIP Chester.

[@Animus5134]

"I will never know myself until I do this on my own. And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed. I will never be anything till i break from me. I will break away, I'll find myself today". Its like chester is speaking to me. This is exactly what I needed to hear and what I need to do. Thank you Chester.

[@michellekiddhalbert68]

Thank you Chester for saying what so many of us could not find words for. May you live on forever..

[@jweb3550]

These guys knew the depths and were sharing so much wisdom and present day actuality. Going back really listening to music with a different perspective has been unbelievable and beautiful.

[@NikiWonoto26]

Agree. I also feel exactly the same. - from Indonesia -

[@gabrielmascitti8418]

"what do i have but negativity" i feel it in my heart dude. lol

[@KrayzieMurda]

Lol same. Unreal man.

[@adgeifc]

Well it supose to be stomach and heart I will let it slip

[@gusbliss6141]

Thank you for being the music I go to when I’m at my lowest and also my highest. We miss you Chester. Sleep well sweetheart

[@Veg_Sabbath]

I am exercising singing the Chester part but, knowing what happened to him, now, I can't do it without crying. What a loss for the world of music

[@randomobscurity]

I was just talking to my sister a little while ago how the older we get, the more our thoughts are just Linkin Park songs. It’s just too relatable. We’re all just some degree of hurting inside.

[@Davertine]

This is sadly true.. As someone who's battled anxiety, depression and aspergers syndrome. Time and time again I've felt like a black sheep in this world. But I'm not here to vent.. I'm just gonna that LP Helped me when teachers, parents or even therapists couldn't... 2014 was a dark yet bittersweet era.. it was when I got into LINKIN PARK. RIP Chester 🙏 😔

[@vickybala5985]

RIP chester my childhood hero...Rock in heaven Bro...

[@victoriaheffernan3502]

Chester you and Linkin Park have always been there through my darkest times and your still there in my heart through this dark time. Love you Chester. Miss your magestic voice everyday. Rest in Peace

[@nikkiholmes2634]

These words hit home for me. To Linkin Park: THANK YOU SOOO INCREDIBLY MUCH for making this masterpiece.

[@paluairport9790]

0:41 when this began 0:42 I had nothing to say, and I get Lost in the nothingness in side of me 0:47 I was confused 0:48 And I let it oll out to find that I'm not the only person with these tings in mind 0:53 inside of me 0:54 But all that they can see the words revealed is the only thing that i've got left to feel 0:59 Nothing to lose 01:00 Just stuck, hollow and alone and the fault is my own, and the fault is my own 01:04 I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real, I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so Long 01:15 Erase all the pain till it's gone 01:17 I wanna heal, I wanna feel like i'm close to something real, I wanna find something I've wante all along Somewhere i belong 01:30 And I've got nothing to say I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face 01:34 I was confused 01:35 Looking everywhere only to find That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind 01:40 So What am I 01:41 What do I have but negativity 'Cause I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me 01:45 nothing to lose 01:46 Nothing to gain, hollow and alone and the fault is my own, and the fault is my own 01:51 I wanna heal, I wanna feel, what I thought was never real 01:57 I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long 02:01 Erase all the pain till it's gone 02:02 I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like I'm close to something real I wanna find something I've wanted all along 02:14 Somewhere I belong 02:16 I will never know myself until I do this on my own 02:22 And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed 02:28 I will never be anything till I break away from me 02:34 I will break away, I'll find myself today 02:43 I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real, I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long 02:55 Erase all the pain till it's gone 02:56 I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real, I wanna find something I've wanted all along Somewhere I belong 03:10 I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong 03:16 I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong 03:25 Somewhere I belong

[@nebojsaluzaic5233]

Thank you so much for the lyrics of this song this song is helping me a lot

[@flightofthebumblebee9529]

I am 40 this year and it wasn't until Chester left this world that I truly loved his music on another level. This song takes me there. Love, sadness, strength, depth.

[@Briselance]

Man, do not listen to this too attentively when you feel a bit down. This song just oozes with utter self-disappointment and maybe even shame mixed with an unquenchable, hurting, relentless desire to improve oneself, break free from life-long shackles, and get better. And finally be the way one always wanted to be.

[@aminedif4608]

It's better than being alone and all you can hear is ur mind, music is alot better trust me

[@Tina52516]

Also can be motivational ..I did use to listen to this song in the manner your speaking but now it has become motivation to push yourself out of the darkness ..like helping bring life into oneself.. instead of not feeling..if you get where I'm coming from. Great advice though for sure ! Peace and plenty 🙏🏼🧡

[@dub7122]

It's hard when you're dealing with an unchangeable circumstance and you try to learn to live with it but it still gets the better of you sometimes...

[@anelsemic9377]

It's more uplifting than depressing. It helps you get rid of negativity.

[@alissaharris8035]

This is the epitome of what you should be listening to in your darkest times. He saved me and millions more because he put words to our pain. He sang to heal.

[@msbecky7309]

8 years later...here i am again. I've just convinced myself that this feeling will never go away.

[@thomascambrion4408]

It will, stay strong don't stop fighting and don't lose hope

[@St4r_Z0mb13]

This is starting to suck now

[@Gatyamadzag01]

Maybe never, but you can learn live with it.

[@greedyfoxbernard8335]

I Remember listening to these songs when I was a kid and just liking it without understanding the real meaning of them but now I can 100% relate to them better

[@St4r_Z0mb13]

Welcome

[@dontstay9242]

I Will Never Know Myself Until I Do This On My Own And I will never feel anything else until my Wounds are Healed I will never be anything until I Break Away From Me I will break away, I'll Find Myself Today _Linkin Park_

[@justinhorodeck3489]

Never have I related more to every last word in a song

[@KrayzieMurda]

Same bro it's crazy.

[@chummyweevil3948]

Even the word "I"

[@nikkiholmes2634]

Ditto here, Justin. Ditto here. 🙁

[@Tina52516]

Every single word 🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@shreyashiremath535]

Linkin Park Rocks!!!!

[@Emilia24517]

You belong in our hearts, Chester. RIP

[@medhatripathi1333]

I miss you Chester. I miss your voice, your music. Rest in eternity. 💔

[@Nicky-k3t]

I Love ❤️ you Chis miles My 👤👩🏽‍🦳 🎀👍♥️🏠📱⌚️🎼

[@Cheebiez]

2021 and I still miss him, rip

[@bintangandaru7210]

Still searching somewhere I truly belong :'( Love this song, and the lyrics feel so true in my life....

[@idontcareifthisistheendill5653]

Even though Chester is gone I still listen to this today, and remember all the good times when he was alive. R.I.P Chester

[@paddyoconnell4703]

It's like a scream for help Calling someone I'm sorry, Chester, we didn't hear it in time It's my fault, it's fault of all of the people who didn't think that you could do it Sorry, rest in peace, bro

[@Nicky-k3t]

I Love ❤️ you please Peter My 👤👸 🎀👍♥️🏠📱💋🎼

[@Nicky-k3t]

I Love 🧡 You Peter Song My 👤👸 🎀👍♥️🏠📱⌚️🎼

[@Nicky-k3t]

🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼🎼

[@alyssam2602]

Just listened to this, and it explains how I feel.. I love this band right now.

[@garrettpoitras280]

this is the one song out of every single song ive ever heard i can relate to the most cause 16 years of life and i still dont feel like ive found my place

[@bintangandaru7210]

What about now? I truly hope that you will find it somewhere sooner or later :)

[@mmartinez6336]

Rip Chester your music makes it feel like your still here

[@adhipshukla6632]

This is not just a song but the real meaning of life. If you are a true seeker this thoughts must have come to your mind which Linkin Park has carved so beautifully into a song.

[@ryukaijintv2068]

1 good song can change peoples life. im linkin park fan since 2000 ( 15 yrs old boy). now im 33 and still hearing linkin park songs

[@joshuajackson6128]

These lyrics are my life to a tee

[@Taniyah22]

These lyrics are my life to a tee

[@india7680]

I'm finally allowing myself to hear their songs again. I hurt so much still sad. So much talent. Songs full of meaning, sorrow, anger, pain flowing from deep in the soul. 🙏🙏😥😥

[@erino7583]

They always truly get the pain u were in after you die ...I wish I could find a humane way to die but I guess it’s impossible .... Rest In Peace to all of the ones who lived and died with/from mental illness ....I understand the feeling Lost track of how many times I’ve wanted to die ... I wish the best for everyone ...

[@yasminibrahim8214]

Don't give up hope Erin! It doesn't have to be this way! Please get the help you deserve!

[@lanafan4993]

🙏🏼Don’t Give Up H😇pe ✌🏼☯️✌🏼

[@erino7583]

yasmin evans thank you

[@erino7583]

Lana Fan thank you too

[@austinmartin2464]

I've survived 2 suicide attempts and if it wasn't for me getting the help I needed when I did, i wouldn't be where I am today. Keep moving and keep pushing through because great things come off the back side of pain and there are great things waiting on the other side of the tunnel so just keep pushing through. We're all in this together ❤

[@ammshd7060]

Thanks, this is a masterpiece

[@saraiarroyo3672]

what i love so much about his music , rip chester 🖤, rest easy angel . but what i love so much is his songs is almost completely an accurate explanation about how i feel everyday , and when i listen to it , it comforts me cuz for once i feel understood ...

[@johnD1998]

Yea me too. I wish i let go of the pain. But its that easy

[@johnD1998]

Its NOT that easy

[@jvoepptorress7542]

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[@GumpyKidd]

Depression is hard.. I can help you if want, I'm here to hear all of you and it is possible to reset your mind and find your divine self.

[@Tina52516]

When this began, I had nothing to say And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me (I was confused) And I let it all out to find that I'm not the only person with these things in mind (inside of me) But all the vacancy the words revealed Is the only real thing that I got left to feel (nothing to lose) Just stuck, hollow and alone And the fault is my own, And the fault is my own This is the correct lyrics of course, vacancy.

[@julissaarenas4443]

Thank you Linkin park for helping me get through the toughest times of my life right now. 🙏

[@shaindarkart5412]

Chesters lyrics are just fuckin awesome, He's one of the very few great lyricists, hes up there with Robert Smith.

[@jadezzeddine2723]

DarkestArt true

[@ciaranmulleary1898]

And Mike aswell

[@Lucas-sc3yw]

was in the past....rip

[@fragezeichenwenn]

His lyrics are still great, and the sad fact that he passed away does not change that. Beethoven is a great composer, because his work is great even 300 years after his passing. Chester's work as a musician and writer is still great, I feel touched by a lot of his songs and this does not change because he died.

[@chummyweevil3948]

The only music I really listen to is linkin park

[@rampage4405]

Everything makes sense now. I will always remember you and your struggles even you're gone. Cause I felt the same way. Rest in peace brother.

[@SealBoi]

Man, teen me would've loved this. Rest in peace Chester.

[@corestudios2000]

Linkin Park music has a soul, it's alive ❤️🎶🎵🎧💞🎼™️... I'm just sad that Chester is gone with his unique voice.

[@yuritarelko9916]

One of my favourite LP songs.

[@kikinhugs11]

damn... this always brings a flood of vivid memories, ❤

[@lovenewsmaria]

"Just stuck, hollow and alone and the fault is my own"...Still rockin' in August 2017.. #vibing #linkinpark

[@ethanpage175]

Hey Chester, i know you never et me, but I wanna say thank you not just for me, but for all the millions of other people you helped. You helped us no matter what was going on with our lives. It’s hard to believe you left us 2 years ago. You’d be proud to see how much we all care. What happened to you as a kid was cruel and unforgivable, no kid should have to go through what you went through. My heart breaks every time I remember that while you saved us, we couldn’t save you. #rememberchester

[@Jay-O_Carlow]

well said and RESPECT 💪🖤🙏

[@fiol.muzikizlifeftw5801]

Awwww i know it..sumway sumhow we saved him As well he jus doesnt know it at the time

[@alissaharris8035]

This is so accurate. He saved us, and all the while he was the one who needed saving 💔

[@payelbiswas2423]

And I'm still listening his masterpiece

[@Oztosh]

Damn, man… I started listening to Linkin Park when I was about 12. I loved their songs even without actually understanding what they were talking about because they rocked. They still manage to convey the vibe of the song through the music, even when you don’t understand the words. I’m now 30, and with each passing day, I realize that Linkin Park was, or even is, the greatest band for me. I can connect and relate to their music on such a personal level that anything else has little chance of competing with it. I’m sure there are other people who think this too. I say good luck and you can do it to those like me, on a journey of reconnecting with themselves after years of untreated mental problems. It can be hard. I may be feeling down today, but I will try again tomorrow. LP and Chester have inspired me and prevented me from giving up.

[@athir30secvideoanimefanedi82]

The only thing that can back to the past is music.

[@Mtsky03]

I went from being a small isolated boy to a man. I took up fighting and dropped bad habits. Music was always there for me when people weren’t in tough times. Linkin was one of them. Fly high Chester. 🙏🏼 thank you LP

[@lisarobinson385]

As much as I love this song it reminds me of my precious dog Princess that passed away in 2003. See you again in Heaven. Until then I love and miss you everyday

[@GoutamVenkatesh]

I could relate to this when I was a teenager, and I can relate to this more as I hit the age of 25. Lol.

[@maria-melek]

Hope you're doing well

[@TheReetu234]

Favorite all time of song. Meteora ❤️👌🤟🤟

[@kranny66]

Rest in peace Chester ,we still hear you 2020!!!!

[@velvet8859]

thank you for your music, linkin park ❤

[@Mucha-cha0318]

I love Linkin' Park from Hybrid theory album until now... Chester FOREVER! ❤️

[@jpSmyC]

This song gave me a good cry. Rip Chester.

[@fallencyano9015]

normally linkin park songs remind me of the bad times, and i cant handle listening to them even i relate to the lyrics. this is one of the few that dont remind me and that i can actually listen to.

[@oniisenpai6592]

He probably somewhere he belongs in heaven rip chester you belong somewhere in heaven

[@testfortester7131]

2:18 when you listen to this song don’t forget he adds this part in, letting you know that you are able to break free, you just have to find your self today.

[@NikiWonoto26]

2003: I don't like Linkin Park 2023: I can deeply relate to the lyrics... thank you Linkin Park...

[@sakinhasan7411]

cant believe this is a classic song today

[@JohnRoy1999]

Great song!

[@matthewderitis7007]

Still listen to this band, now it makes sense why chester hits so hard because he truly felt this way and not just lyrics

[@trixkingolboyfrancis6335]

I'm sorry for what they did to you brother fly high , forever in our hearts Chester much love .

[@versablog1]

Listened to this song daily after a major surgery. Helped me heal. Still helping me heal.

[@kaireese6965]

I wanna let go of the pain I held so long ! ( Erase all the pain til it's gone )

[@Ninja-ty4lw]

holoholo haole no ka oi Bra...

[@retaj7194]

2:17 this part hits so hard when you’re going through a lot and not where you want to be even when you’re doing good you feel like you’re not achieving anything and not proud of yourself

[@iam_ckaneoskyhoriasone]

Amo Likin Park, y aquí estoy aprendiéndome las letras de sus canciones

[@ScottMoyer-k2q]

This song helped me out a lot. It helped me understand i was not the only one desling with being an "outcast"

[@thegreyworldwalker8882]

This is literally like it was made for me...

[@BrianBloop]

My new theme song honestly

[@mpaz2607]

Good day all you LP fans!! I am 70 and my son loved them when he was 12 so I heard them and liked them back then! Now I work part time and guess who’s on my ear buds? Yep! Makes me work faster! Chester I think never found where he belonged, and I also never found where I belong. Still looking😢Their lyrics are very strong and they touch a nerve. But they also pump me up to work at my cleaning offices job. And at the end I always ask Chester to be in a happy place. He had to have had some massively deep dark feelings but I am glad to have been introduced to them! Rock on!!!😊

[@blancaelizabethibanezliccr8687]

20 años despues y es como me siento en estos momentos. Glorioso Chester, gracias por todo, perdon por tan poco

[@amylovell9713]

Been listening to Linkin Park since day 1. Still listen to this day. Always will!!❤❤❤❤

[@Sevarientharal]

Chester i thought you made it :( I guess it just never goes away... [*]

[@lindadelgado7885]

It can! It did for me with true love, which I learned is Jesus Christ ❤

[@commandixnostalgia2321]

Linda Delgado Not everyone survives a suicide attempt,unfortunately..

[@Bacon00024]

@@lindadelgado7885not everybody wants to be a christian at all some people could just be grieving and I think depression could be a different part of grieving depending on how close somebody was to you when they died and depending on how long you knew them

[@dead_poet28]

It took me 10 years to understand the song. The fault was my own finally arrived. cheers!

[@blind1828]

This is by far the best song off the album Meteora

[@eclipsestudio.]

i have 27yo and now i am crying remembering all the time i was listening to this

[@aizentaicho44]

This song make me cry.. 😭😭😭😭

[@edmoss883]

No matter what depressing shit people say about anybody, linkin park rocks the fuck out of music

[@kineticone6602]

'Nothing to gain, hollow and alone And the fault is my own' True story

[@heathhart6447]

This song makes it so REAL!!!!! NOT THA ONLY ONE!!!!!

[@7009138]

Crying while listening to this.

[@trevorhardin1796]

This song let's us into his soul n what he must have been goin thru all along on the inside...... God Speed Brutha

[@nicolashernandezlarriera2541]

Miss u, Chester. Rip legend 🙏 LP forever

[@pieromatic]

I just came to check the lyrics... Not knowing that I would have felt so identified with them...

[@arthurvitor9201]

R.I.P Chester

[@enemi7048]

I was listening to this song 10 years ago nonstop, but I never payed attention to the lyrics. Today, I came back to this, while having depression, and it shocks me how accurate it describes how I feel.