Antonia, have you considered focusing on improving your Thai language skills? While you currently speak like an English speaker, becoming proficient in Thai would be a valuable asset. Personally, having lived in the US for over 60 years, I can speak and write Thai fluently, and I believe clear Thai communication is essential. In my observation, many Thai people, both young and old, appreciate individuals who speak Thai without mixing in English. It's often seen as a sign of intelligence and respect for the culture. I've noticed that you have a down-to-earth Thai background, enjoying traditional dishes like namprick or prara, and having a grandmother who embodies typical Thai values. Therefore, I encourage you to consider improving your Thai language skills for a more authentic connection to your heritage.