Lonely Thoughts - A Chill For When You're Alone

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I go to a place. To sit and look out the window. It's funny because I sit there to see outside but I really don't do it... I get lost in thoughts, the things from the past, the ones that I carry with myself everywhere. I did a lot of bad things. Things that destroyed friendships, trusts but also gained me knowledge yet at a cost.
I remember the hard times. There's not a single day that passes and I don't think about the things that I've done, the things that won't let me sleep. I remember how as a kid I wanted to do big things. To be good for the world but I couldn't be that person. I remember teachers saying I have a unique and creative mind and I will be something in the future. Remembering the loved ones that I wanted to be with even if it meant for a minute but it was a one way road and only for me.
I sit there to apologize. I apologize to my parents for not being the person they wanted me to be. I apologize to my brother for not being a better brother. I apologize to my best friend for runing our friendship. To my teachers who I let down. To the people who wanted to be kind to me but I wasn't. To the persons I could've helped but I didn't. To all the feelings that I destroyed...
An old person looks at me and says that I carry a lot of pain and sorrow. That my smiles are an act and my eyes give me away. I smile... I carry them but I've moved on. I leave a part of my thoughts so I can come back and think about everything again... I've embraced who I've become
Tracklist
00:00 • Sid Acharya - Sid Acharya - An Ocean of Stars - Reworked
04:47 • Exist Strategy - Reverence
07:47 • light dawn - Jesslyn Tong
10:33 • Jacob David & Thomas Haahr - Indfald
14:11 • Jameson Nathan Jones - Carry Me Slowly
Photo by: Jake Melara

[@zum_Wohle_Aller]

If I would be a person from the past that would have a chance to tell you something from the heart it would be: thank you for your honesty. No matter what went wrong, please don't be hard on yourself because no one will feel better when you suffer, dear one. I don't know you, we are strangers, but I would hug you either way, no matter what you think of yourself. Thank you so much for showing up on KZbin.

[@rohambahraee]

Thank you for listening. You're right, no matter what happens in life it's all part of it, part of learning. We should move on and enjoy life as much as we can

[@zum_Wohle_Aller]

@@rohambahraee I know, it's really hard sometimes, often I didn't know if I could take it any longer, but god kept me alive for a reason and I am grateful for that. I don't know where I'm going, but wherever I may go I want to go with love and peace as much as I can.. and sometimes with a smile too 🙂

[@JamesHawkeYouTube]

be kind, do your best to gather wisdom. God will be pleased.

[@rohambahraee]

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