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I want to share this video with ya'll about my journey to becoming pregnant again and to make those out there not feel so alone. In the comment section below please share your stories and lets all be there for each other and offer love, hope and prayers!

[@d3borahhx]

thank you for being so real, raw, & vulnerable. it is not an easy thing to do. you are such a strong woman! ❤️ so happy for you, mike, jolie, & the little babe in your belly. wishing you all the good vibes! ⭐️

[@jessicawilliams710]

Thank you for sharing. My husband and I had a miscarriage after our first child was born. We were struggling the second time around and were lucky enough to get pregnant naturally about 3 months after our miscarriage. Thank you for sharing since it isn't a talked about subject. I remember how alone I felt and I wish I had someone to connect to. Your openness is going to help so many!

[@laurencooper689]

Thank you for being such a brave woman and speaking out about loss. I can relate with you, We lost our 3 month old baby girl 6 years ago. We have been dealing with infertility for 4 of those years. I am now finally pregnant, went in for ultrasounds, empty sac, went in 3 days later for final ultrasound and yolk sac was present...it was a miracle after hearing it will be a miscarriage. Praying to hear babys heartbeat on Friday. Being in limbo, not knowing if this is a viable pregnancy is so hard. I have mad respect for you lady.

[@belabee23]

Praying for you

[@87Mtrujillo]

Lauren Cooper I’m so sorry for all you have gone through. Sending prayers for your little blessing! You are such a strong mama!

[@simbathemagnificent540]

During my patrol of the southern boundaries of the animal kingdom couldn't help but hear the cries of a beautiful women going in circles until getting my barrings right in which direction to go hitting ludicrous speed brought me here Janna I'm sorry for the struggles throughout this video your an amazing and strong woman everything will be OK I promise RROOOOAAARRRR!!!🐯

[@mdavis353]

I love that you did this. It needs talked about. I lost 2 babies between my 2nd and 3rd child and it’s such a miserable feeling. I think as soon as people get pregnant you should share it because in my situation it felt worse that no one but me and my husband mourned the loss of our children. Yes it sucks to share that you lose a baby but it feels very lonely when no one knows and you are mourning alone. It needs talked about, all of it.

[@nicolehanawalt3469]

You have so much strength! After watching this, I held my baby super close as she went to sleep tonight. I’ve miscarried myself, and never told anyone because I was ashamed. But you are such an inspiration!!! Thank you for being so honest and raw and real!!!

[@XOfficialJenna]

I love that you're sharing this!! Miscarriages are so heartbreaking. Even now at 14 weeks, we still haven't announced it yet. So happy but still cautious.

[@kimdavis1690]

You give me hope! I haven’t been able to get pregnant with my partner and we have been going through this for 5 years! I constantly go to doctors and get my bloods and internal scans but nothing is coming up? But my family have problems conceiving too! But Am so glad you’ve been able to get pregnant again with another beautiful child! Your so inspirational for people out there! Thank you Jana for sharing ❤️

[@allisonpolidore2825]

Thank you for being real!! Everything you said is so true. I suffered a miscarriage in 2011 and since then have welcomed a beautiful son. Thank you for documenting you journey! Prayers for u and ur family!

[@sabrinabehuniak8362]

Jana! Omg! 😭Thank you so much for being so real about a subject that so many people make you feel like you are crazy on, I have 3 children, I almost lost my third and that’s where my problems started! We tried so much after her to have another, and nothing, I took meds, got pregnant right away, baby quit growing at 9 weeks, refused to take the meds again because they made me awful, like feel awful and actually made me awful, I hated being around myself, lol, one year later I was pregnant, without meds, was so excited, got into my second trimester, started telling people, and a full on miscarriage! I will NEVER forget that day! The most awful experience! I was never able to get pregnant again, and was told that my 3 children were miracles, as I should have never had them! I had the sister to endometriosis, and ended up having a hysterectomy, I look at my kids today, who are 15, 13, and 7 and thank God everyday for them! Thank you so much for sharing your story!

[@xxxxxxxxl6872]

Girlfriend. I balled my eyes out this entire video. I struggled to get pregnant with my first. Now he’s 6. Took me 5 years before that with tons of fertility treatments and was at my last round when I absolutely gave up. Then 6 weeks later foind out I was pregnant. Now 6 years later, I’m struggling again to get pregnant with our second. I break down daily watching women who don’t even want children end up with them and I’m over here vulnerable and wanting a new baby to hold and kiss and love. You are one brave momma. And I absolutely adore you. Thank you for sharing this. I too had two miscarriages one without even knowing. Thank you Jana for doing this. I will be there right by your side in watching your journey. Love you girl!! Power of prayers!! 💋💋💋

[@mlissatarr8321]

I love that you are speaking out about your loses! I lost my second child at 12 weeks. My then 3 year old son was the only thing that kept me going. Since then I make it my mission to be vocal about pregnancy loss and make sure that my child will not be forgotten. Those angel babies matter!!! 💙💙💙

[@victoriamcfall1515]

So happy for you 💕 i also miscarried after we had our beautiful baby boy but now 19 weeks pregnant with a baby girl 🌈 i still think about the 2 babies we lost but thankful i was given another chance to be a mama to a baby girl!

[@kaitlynbaumann6285]

Thank you so much for sharing your story with us to help know we aren’t alone. I too know that pain. Last August my husband and I found out we were pregnant. We were right in the middle of moving and my period was late so we decided to take a test. We had been not exactly trying for 2 years when we got out positive. I was so happy to finally know I was going to get my life long dream of my own little family. Right from the beginning though it wasn’t easy. I had been having some cramping and spotting. I knew in my heart something wasn’t right but I didn’t give up until at 7 weeks right before my first appointment I passed clots. I was devastated. I couldn’t help think it was my fault. Or that I was being punished. My husband tried to be supportive but for a dad they don’t have that immediate bind as mothers do as we see that positive. Not that it didn’t hit him but it’s different. One month layer my period returned and I still felt that sadness. I didn’t think anything of it at the time but my husband took me out on a date to take my mind off of of things. One month later on October I was feeling sick to my stomach. I thought for sure I had the stomach flu. My period was late but I was spotting so I thought it was just because my miscarriage my body was out of wack. My husband immediately asked if I was pregnant. I was in denial and said there’s no way. After a week when I still felt so sick and my period still wasn’t here I decided to test. I came out of the bathroom not even a minute later and just looked at my husband. He said don’t you have to give it a few minutes and I said I don’t need to. It came back instant. I never felt so nervous in my life as I did those first few months. We didn’t tell anyone and I prayed every night for our baby bean to just hold on. Flash forward here we are and I’m holding my almost 3 week old son in my arms. He came a little early at 36 weeks after a pretty uneventful pregnancy. He was just ready to meet his momma and daddy. I’ve never felt so complete in my life. He truly is a gift from god. Miscarriage is something that always stays with you. And it’s something that we don’t often talk about. It’s a silent struggle. You are not alone. To all of you struggling don’t give up the hope. When you least expect it god will send you your light on the cloudiest day.

[@caseygottschalk591]

Thanks so much for sharing! When we miscarried at 9 weeks, It was such a struggle! I kept hoping there was a song out there that I could relate to during my grieving. It might be helpful for so many women and men if you wrote a song about your losses. So many of us do hide it and a song could make so many women feel less alone! Congratulations!

[@saranicotera6442]

Thank you so much for being vulnerable and putting your story out there! Your story is so heartbreaking, but it’s nice to know that I’m not alone in my struggle with infertility. Thank you so much for sharing you story! ❤️

[@jenmichalski2358]

Thank you for posting this. It is all too familiar. We did infertility treatment for 2 years. We got pregnant once via IUI and lost it at 7 weeks.It was awful. But like you, we ended up getting pregnant on our own with this handsome boy you see in my picture to the left. I feel like my body got pregnant the first time and even though we lost the pregnancy it helped in getting pregnant with my son. I am so happy for you, Mike, and Jolie on your new addition to the family.

[@lc1289-q8y]

Such a brave, sweet Angel. You are a true guiding light shining in this world. Sending hugs from Ireland xx

[@leanneneedham3047]

Thank you, Jana for being so open. I have two beautiful baby girls, who are both rainbow babies. I’m so blessed to be their mommy, but remember feeling so alone during each miscarriage. I hope you’re able to touch so many women this way!

[@lyslo24]

You're the best. Thank you for sharing your story ❤ We have been TTC for 3.5 years. We did 2 IUIs, I traveled out of state for IVF, got pregnant with a fresh transfer but miscarried around 8 weeks. Then I transported frozen embryos, did a frozen transfer and now I'm a little over 11 weeks pregnant. Just waiting on a good ultrasound next week, fingers crossed 🤞

[@hayleymckinney1549]

Thank you for sharing your story. You strong and beautiful woman. Wishing you and your family all the best for the future xx

[@niamarie1177]

I've always liked you!!! This video is amazing!!!! I love how raw and everyday this is!! Every woman that deals with miscarriages should talk about it more because it happens. And everyone should understand what it does to us as a woman mentally and physically. Keep it up Jana!

[@xoitsamber]

Thank you for being so incredibly strong and sharing this story with the world ❤

[@PrincessDiya]

Thank you so much for sharing , JOLIE will be a great BIG sister!! It’s so great that you’re sharing your story , and Iam so happy for you!! Iam have been following you since One tree hill, 🌹

[@BrookeLeAnne]

I love you! Thank you for sharing your journey, I'm sorry you've dealt with loss. But I'm also so happy for you on this healthy pregnancy! I too have experienced loss and it was devastating. I was 9 weeks. Then I was hit by a drunk driver and severely injured. My doctors have told me getting pregnant will not be an option. I'm struggling with it. All I've ever wanted is to be a mom. Some day, somehow I pray I will. To all you women reading this who have lost a baby, know you're not alone. Sending all of you hugs and hope!❤

[@hussanabostan258]

You’re so incredibly brave to share your story with the rest of the world. I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through miscarrying numerous times. You and every other women who have gone through this horrible thing are warriors. Congratulations on this pregnancy

[@krystynthornton4367]

so thankful for your openness & ability to share your journey. it’s helped me to be open to talking about it & hopefully helping others by sharing my story as well. i’ve had 2 miscarriages & 2 DNC’s in 1 year & still hoping for my happy day but for now I know that everything has its reason & my day will come. ❤️

[@davidthayer4307]

You are so amazing. Thank you for being so real about your life. Sharing the loss has to be the strongest thing you have ever done. Sorry for that loss, but so happy for the new pregnancy.

[@heatherhas3]

Lost a baby at 11 weeks. So lonely, even my husband didn’t understand. It’s such a sad experience that others who have never experienced just don’t get it. Hugs to all those who suffer. I had a rainbow baby the following year, she’s almost 13 now

[@jenniferoneill7200]

so raw and open, prayers to you and your family.

[@roxannemendoza1740]

This is so raw and real! I feel that struggle trying to conceive right now and it’s so hard the second time around it seems like. I loved the podcast on fertility as well really puts things in perspective and how many women don’t talk about or are too scared to talk about the struggle so openly.

[@haley94xoxo]

Wow thank you for sharing Jana! I can’t even imagine the heartbreak you’ve went through with the losses but am SO glad you are pregnant with your rainbow baby now. Xoxo

[@srf1102]

Thank you for sharing your story! It is comforting for women who have miscarried to hear stories from other women. Thankfully, my husband and I haven't had to deal with infertility, however we have experienced recurrent miscarriages. We had 2 early miscarriages last year. After seeing a high risk doctor (the only change I made was taking baby aspirin) I am now almost 23 weeks pregnant with a baby boy. We have a beautiful, healthy 9 year old daughter now, and we are so excited to complete our family with our baby boy in November!! I will definitely be following your story and be praying for you to have a healthy baby!!

[@sarahnandell510]

Thank you for sharing your story. My husband and I have struggled to conceive a child. We tried an IUI, it did not work. We too have and are trying IVF. We did our first embryo transfer in February and we got a positive. Like you, my numbers did not double. Our first embryo did not take. We have one left to implant. My husband and I did conceive naturally ourselves after the loss of the IVF. It also did not take. I am and have looked into a holistic path as well. We are going to try ourselves again this month, if it doesn’t work, then we will implant our last embryo. I can completely relate to you. I too, have had three miscarriages. It is heartbreaking 💔 and the pain and loss is hard to describe the feeling. When you said, “You feel alone.” That is so true. You do feel alone. You’re right, women suffer in silence alone. We should be supporting one another after a loss. I am hopeful that I will conceive a child ourselves or with assistance. I know how you feel about the shots with IVF, thank you for adding that into your story, because I felt the same way doing our first round. Again, thank you for sharing your story on your journey to conceive another child. ❤️

[@jessicacollins115]

Thank you for posting the video and being so open and honest about it! My husband and have tried for 2 years to get pregnant and in May I found out I was pregnant but at the end of May I was having emergency surgery to take care of an ectopic pregnancy! I don’t understand why it happened but I’m praying we are blessed with another baby! Happy that you and your husband are getting another little blessing in your lives!!

[@megandonooe4906]

Ugh thank you for talking about and sharing your story! I found out on Father’s Day last year I was pregnant for the first time, did the whole Pinterest cute reveal to the daddy and was so excited because my biggest dream is to be a mommy. We ended up miscarrying at 11 weeks. A week away from revealing it to our families. It was the worst thing I’ve ever been through and such a heartbreak. I lost hope big time but not all of it. Well somehow we got pregnant a month later! I’m currently a week late from my due date with a very stubborn baby girl and being induced tomorrow!! I’m so nervous but so beyond excited to meet my little rainbow firecracker baby 💗 I wish you nothing but luck with your baby🤰🏼💗

[@carolynmckinney1572]

Jana, I have loved you since the beginning.. Please keep the faith. You are a fighter. You will over come. Prayers to you and your family. Love to you all.

[@maggiemorad9731]

so real & raw, you’re so strong, thank you for sharing 💗

[@ashleyatkins8118]

So glad you are sharing your story. I had a 37 week stillbirth followed by a miscarriage 8 months later. You are so brave to put your story out there. Praying for you and your family, praying for a healthy, happy pregnancy.

[@Dan-Black]

Thank you so much for posting this! I know it helps a lot of people who are trying to conceive and are having problems. It means a lot to know that they're not alone in their struggle and that other people like you understand and care! It's such an emotional roller coaster even as a bystander. I can't imagine how extreme it must have felt for you directly. I love that you appreciate the daughter you have, and the new baby. It's awesome that they'll grow up always knowing they're wanted and loved. Maybe someday they'll even understand just how much work, sacrifice, and tears you went through to give them life and bring them into the world. Congratulations! I'll pray for continued success for your new pregnancy!

[@ceshalynsimpson2071]

Thank you for sharing your story. I have a 7 year old son and we’ve been trying to add to our family for 2 1/2 years now. We’ve had 2 chemical pregnancies, 2 miscarriages around 7 weeks, and 1 missed miscarriage discovered at 10 week ultrasound. All conceived naturally and a total of 5 unexplainable losses. I see a fertility doctor this month and your story brings hope and encouragement. Blessings to you and your family. 💕💕

[@deelish8613]

Thank you for sharing your story! It was hard to watch, as I was reliving my own experience. Its hard to not feel alone in miscarriage and infertility. I had a miscarriage before my son and I’ve had two since him. I thank God everyday for him!! I know others aren’t so lucky. Congratulations so happy for you!!

[@ashleynorman2026]

Thank you for videoing this!! I had 7 losses. Five were miscarriages and two were ectopic ruptures. In the midst of all of those I got blessed twice with two beautiful girls now 8&5. Best wishes for this pregnancy and so happy for you!

[@katelynm151]

My husband and I had our son when we were both 17. At age 23 we started to try for our second. It has been two years of trying and buying so many tests. I finally got a positive pregnancy test a few days before mothers day that ended up being a chemical. It has been a tough journey for the both of us. It's so hard when a family member or friend will say "it's time for y'all to have another one. and so on and so on.". I think everyone believes that we just don't want another child which is the farthest from the truth. I hate getting on social media just to see another pregnancy announcement. So glad others are sharing their story.

[@andreaalderman7882]

Your story definetly hit home and so glad that you shared it! My husband and I found out we were pregnant with our first July 2017 and we were excited nervous we were about to become parents. Everything was going great until we went in for our 20 week anatomy scan and found out our baby girl had no heart beat.. I Was sent to the hospital that same day to be induced and to deliver our baby. We had no time to really process everything going on from having to pick funeral arrangements, picking out names, whether we wanted to see the baby or not, and trying to understand why this was all happening; it was all so much to process in less than 24 hours. We never thought we would have to be making all these decisions at almost 20 weeks along. The hardest part has been to deliver my baby and knowing we aren’t taking her home. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to go through and I’m finally in a better place but it was hard. I was afraid to try again cause I didn’t want to go through the same pain again but I want to do badly be a mom. We recently just found out I have PCOS so we are now starting our fertility journey with a specialist and hope soon god blesses us with our rainbow baby!! Thanks again for sharing your story. Means a lot ❤️

[@MKB122]

Thanks for sharing your story and your life. So excited for you and your family!!!!❤❤❤

[@brittneykoehler]

Thanks for sharing! My husband and I had a miscarriage in March when I was 9 weeks along. This was my first pregnancy. We are trying for pregnancy #2 and it never feels like you’re doing enough. So many things to try and worry about. It helps knowing others have been through this. It will all be worth it 💜

[@kellyblazek6312]

Thank you for sharing! You are so courageous for opening up on such an painful subject. My husband and I are still trying to conceive our first after almost 5 years. We had to take a break because my husband was diagnosed with a brain tumor so I am unsure of a baby is in the cards for us at all. 🙏 Thank you for sharing and keeping the faith for all the other women still trying. It will happen for all of us one day! ❤❤❤

[@allisonalden1285]

❤Thank you for sharing!! We experienced 15 loses completely devistating experiences. We have been blessed with 2 precious miracles. Praying for your pregnancy to go smoothly!

[@dannelleboyd8191]

Not sure if I cried because she was crying but I teared up! That's definitely something that would be hard to share with the world! Jana, you're a warrior! 💜

[@gemmaalexander3588]

Hi, thank you so much for sharing your story! It definitely has a massive impact on the millions of couples out there struggling to conceive. My husband and I had two miscarriages before our daughter. My husband is a carrier of a chromosome disorder and so miscarriage is a high possibility. I thought I was prepared for them mentally before hand, but boy was I wrong. When we finally conceived our daughter I was terrified and had to go through tests at 8, 10, 11 and 15 weeks to ensure she was healthy. She is thankfully and she is not a carrier of the disorder. We both desperately want another baby but I am so scared to go through all of this again. I’m not mentally strong enough at the moment. Thank you for sharing your story

[@daniellekramer93]

You’re very lucky! Jolie is going to be an awesome big sister. Glad you shared your story

[@shannondill3329]

I remember climbing into bed with my son who was 2 at the time of our miscarriage, and being so overwhelmed with gratitude that I had him and my heart ached for women that go through this and do not have a child yet. It was a very lonely time, and I never thought I would have been as emotional and sad as I was. But thankfully I gave birth to my baby girl 5 months ago. I wish you the best of luck with this baby, thank you for being so open and honest.

[@kcon724]

Thank you for sharing! We are 2 years into our infertility journey. 2 egg retrievals and 1 recent failed transfer. Trying to stay positive as we get ready to try again.

[@karleystafford9409]

I just wanted to say you’re brave and amazing and inspiring and I love following you and your journey. I truly wish you all the joy and happiness in the world you beautiful soul.

[@Nikkyjo6592]

Your a inspiration to me. I usually never comment on stuff like this, but I just love your music and you were so cute on One Tree Hill. I went to your concert last year in Salt Lake, and you were so cute. Anyways, these past 1.5 years have been incredibly hard. I never knew the heartache and toll it takes on a person trying to start a family. When I first got married almost two years ago I found out I was pregnant three months after being married. We hadn’t been trying, but not not trying either. I was so excited but lost the baby at thirteen weeks. The baby actually stopped growing at 9 weeks. After experiencing that, I was so lost and depressed. I cried myself to sleep many nights for many months. I then started to not have periods anymore and went to the doctor, they did blood work and told me my hormones were very whacked out, and that I PCOS. I was in shock, never being so irregular in my life. They put me on Clomid to help me ovulate and get pregnant. After three months on Clomid I got pregnant again this April. I was so ecstatic but scared because of what happened last time. Again at nine weeks, I miscarried this past May. The doctor can’t find anything wrong with me, and plans to restart the clomid again and put my on progesterone and baby aspirin as soon as I’m pregnant again to balance my hormones. Bottom line, women’s bodies are all so different and a mystery. I can’t tell you how hard it is for me to go on social media or be around babies sometimes. I usually have a good cry when I see another pregnancy announcement, not that I’m not happy for the person, but just how sad it is to feel like I might never have children. All we can do is pray and have faith that every thing happens for a reason.

[@jessicagirard5502]

Oh girl I was crying with you!!!

[@jbfdz4563]

Thank you so much for sharing this, I commend your bravery to share your story. Because you’re right, I have a very supportive husband but somehow that horrible two week wait period and the moment you find out it just didn’t take, is a moment one has never felt so alone and down because you want to be brave and hopeful for the next round. So thank you and I love your bravery and heart for this.

[@elise03831]

I know it’s going to help a lot of women that have gone through or going through the same thing. I do think it’s something that should be talked about more. Oh my goodness....Mike is such a good sport! Thank you for sharing and being so real 💙

[@laureltinsley4796]

Gosh, I feel all these emotions with you. I appreciate your raw vulnerability. It’s such a taboo subject. What a brave and strong women you truly are. My husband and I have been trying to conceive for six years now. We have had five failed rounds of IUI. We then were at a crossroads between deciding if we wanted to pursue IVF or adoption. We prayed hard and felt God leading us to adoption. We thought for sure by choosing adoption we’d become parents by the end of it. We signed up with an adoption agency and raised money through fundraisers. An expectant mother chose us to parent her child and we followed her along in her pregnancy. We invested in this woman and truly got to pour into her which was amazing. We had a nursery ready to go and our families and friends threw showers for us. A week before the baby was to be born the mother decided to parent her baby. Obviously we were heartbroken that our dream of parenting this child was falling apart but we were also thrilled to hear this baby would be raised by his birth mother. We took some time to heal and then pursued foster care. We took in a 13 year old boy from the foster care system. We loved on that kiddo and had planned to adopt him. That plan fell through for reasons I am not able to share, however, we were devastated yet again, to see our dream of our family of three falling apart. Throughout the journey to motherhood I have blogged about my perspective and how my faith in Jesus has been what has kept me going. God is good even when it doesn’t make sense. God is worthy to be trusted after what He did for us on the cross many years ago. This experience has brought me incredibly close to Jesus and has strengthened my marriage in ways I couldn’t have imagined. We’re not sure what the future looks like for us as far as parenthood goes, but we are thankful to have each other. We are trusting God has orchestrated everything according to His will for our lives. I do know that I plan to release my book “My Imperfect Perfect Life” sometime in 2021 to help raise awareness of infertility and encourage other women in this difficult journey. Thanks again for sharing your story and helping other women, like me, not feel so alone in this struggle!

[@andreamarple3479]

Love you Jana! You really are inspiring and have helped me a lot in my journey. I recently miscarried this last February. I ended up sharing it on my social media, and would encourage all women to! This is not a pregnancy announcement, though I desperately wish it was. This is post uncommon to see, but a common tragedy that 1 in 4 women have or will experience. A few weeks after Brant and I got back from Mexico this past January, we were given the best surprise, the news that I was pregnant. I don’t think there was a moment in life I was happier. I started reading pregnancy books, searched for names, even bought some gender neutral baby clothes. However, that all came to an abrupt hault when around 7 weeks I started having symptoms of a miscarriage. The nurse whom I spoke with several times on the phone, gave me hope and said not to worry too much. However one morning I woke up and felt as though I needed to be seen. I knew something was not right. I was able to get an ultrasound that morning. During the ultrasound, Brant and I saw the baby. The baby was very small, but there was a baby, and more importantly, there was a baby with a heart beat. After the ultrasound tech took some measurements and pictures, we finally were able to sit down and talk with the doctor. He told us I was having a threatened miscarriage, and said there was a 60% chance I would miscarry. I left that appointment sobbing and tried to hold on to the 40% of hope that it would all would be okay. However, 24 hours later, I miscarried. The thing that I’ve looked forward to for as long as I can remember, becoming a Mom, was finally en route, until it wasn’t. This all happened relatively early in my pregnancy, so most people don’t know that I was ever pregnant. However, when I miscarried I would tell those who knew that I’m at peace with what happened. If you look up the phrase “at peace”, the definition is “free of anxiety and distress” which couldn’t be further from the truth. I thought it would make things easier if I told people I’m okay. Maybe If I kept saying it I would start to believe it, I thought. I masked it because I didn’t want or know how to deal with it. The more accurate response to all of this, is that I’ve accepted that this is part of our journey, I mean, I have to. I believe in God's master plan, though I may not ever know why this had to be part of our plan. I’ve accepted and have been reminded that conceiving is a miracle and life is a precious gift. I’ve accepted the pain, and have accepted that although this baby wasn’t born, we were given an angel. I really contemplated sharing this on social media for all to see. It’s personal and something that most people keep private. I felt embarrassed and felt as though my body was defective. Why would I want all of you to know this about me? I didn’t want people to know because I don’t want people to feel bad for me, pity me, and be uncomfortable to talk to me about this. I especially don’t want those who are pregnant feel like they can’t talk about the excitement of their pregnancy around me. Over the last few months, I’ve had a lot of bad days, though you’d probably never guess by the smile on my face. I have a great deal of love, support and the most wonderful husband by my side through this entire journey, whose baby was also lost. So the bad days are not because I lack support. However I’ve felt alone as a woman, and have felt like no one understands. I so often see pregnancy announcements on social media, and hardly ever, if ever see posts about pregnancy losses. I’ve felt like I'm the only one experiencing this type of loss right now, at least for the people in my network. So I’m sure you’re wondering why I shared this then if it would be easier to say nothing at all. I’ve realized that miscarriage is so rarely talked about, that many people don’t realize how common it is. I didn’t until I was living it. Yes, I’m sure I may have read articles over the years about miscarriage, but I figured I never needed to keep it on my radar. I’m an active, healthy, young woman and honestly, I didn’t think it would happen to me. I haven’t talked to many people about this for the many reasons I’ve already listed, which may or may not also be some of the reasons others keep it to themselves. However I’m left with knowing with the unsettling number of women who will miscarry and have been led to believe there are women I know who have or are suffering in silence. So I thought what if by me posting this could help someone who has gone through this, or will go through this in the future? What if this could help someone feel less alone? I mentioned that this has felt quite isolating, despite knowing that statistically I’m not alone. I have to believe that others who are also part of the 25% may be feeling the same way as me. And for that, I decided that I needed to do this. If this post is speaking to you, and you don’t want to share your miscarriage with me, I completely understand and respect that. We all cope in our own ways, and if it’s easier for you personally to keep private, you are entitled to that. However, I do want you to know something. I am praying for you and your heart and you will always have an open invitation to confide in me. Whoever you are. I know what it feels like and please know y o u a r e n o t a l o n e. “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God.” It was by the grace of God I got pregnant, and believe that one day when I too leave this earth, I will be reunited with my angel.

[@brookevaliente]

Oh my goodness I'm so sorry but I'm glad that your journey brought you to a better place. Prayers and positive thoughts.

[@katherinehelmer3942]

Thank you for sharing! It was hard to watch but it was something I needed to watch. 😭 I’ve been ttc for 5 years now and nothing seems to work. I try to stay positive and keep pushing on to the next month but it’s so hard! I also feel like none of my friends understand because they are going on the 2nd round of kids and I don’t want to bring my negativity into their lives. So what do I do....put a smile on my face and hope I become lucky enough one day to be a mom! Enough about me...Thank you for sharing your journey and I’m so happy that you are pregnant!! You are truly a role model and a great mom! I wish you nothing but the best!! ❤️❤️

[@alyssadelieto9018]

So raw and beautiful. Thank you for sharing!

[@vanessawilliams4912]

So thankful for this video. Me and my husband had two miscarriages last year. We found out the cause of them. Have been trying since. Have went through 4 IUI procedures with no luck. Now we are towing a break it wears you down. Our miscarriages were tough. We almost got a divorce from it. I really appreciate you being so raw and real. The emotions you feel are indescribable and no one will ever understand unless they go through it.

[@pink2blue1angels6]

So many are so not alone! I had 6 miscarriages in a row after having two beautiful healthy baby girls! It took a new Dr and some tests to find out I needed to be on Baby Aspirin and progesterone. Needless to say I got pregnant again and my rainbow baby is now a healthy 14 year old young man! Thank you for being so real and raw.

[@lilbballqt26343]

I am so so happy for you. Thank you for sharing your journey and your struggles with getting pregnant. I recently had my first miscarriage at 8 weeks and it's still hard day to day. I am hopeful that soon I will be blessed with a sticky little bean ❤

[@mgchase22]

Yours and Mikes bravery to share this is inspirational. I can't even imagine the pain you guys went through. But please know that by sharing your story, your truth and your tears. I'm 100% sure you are helping other women and couples out there. You guys are amazing. Sending you massive full heart congratulations on your happy news. Keep smiling and sharing. You are an inspiration xx

[@rachelnichols303]

Thank you for sharing your story! I teared up and balled my eyes out. I had an ectopic pregnancy 2 years ago and I was heart broke and still am. I got so depressed to the point my doctor put me on anti depressant medication and I'm still grieving I get scared every time my body feels pregnant because I can't go thru the lost

[@carisahalstead2094]

Thank you for sharing your story ! Youre such a strong person!! I'm so happy for you !

[@justrayena526]

Many blessings to you and your family, and to all the others who have dealt with the difficulties, and heartbreak

[@robynfair8268]

Thank you so much for speaking so openly about such a taboo subject. I have a 21 month old little boy and just 1 month ago miscarried our second baby at 9 weeks. It’s been a very isolating and heartbreaking experience.

[@shainacormier1350]

Thank you for sharing what so many don’t feel strong enough to.

[@kellyehanson]

Thank you for sharing your story! GOD bless your sweet baby girl and your new baby to come and all your babies in heaven. Having been through this myself (4 losses) I can relate to your rollercoaster of emotions that are shown in this video. I do have a sweet baby girl, Caroline, who I am SO grateful for. I also work as a Bereavement Specialist, whose program offers support for women and their families who have experienced miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, stillbirth, and newborn death.❤️ It is truly a blessing helping those who feel alone during these difficult times.

[@mommymimi94]

Thank you for this video Jana. I myself have never experienced a miscarriage but I can still pray for the women who have. I will be praying for you to have a healthy pregnancy and labor. Thank you for always sharing real life so that other women experiencing this don't feel alone. I have 2 beautiful kids that I love very much and I know they are miracles sent from God. God bless you Mike and your many many blessings.

[@Jubileewqueen]

Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable and open. I was 12 weeks pregnant and just found out I miscarried. So I am just going through this process. I already have 3 children and never had a problem so this really shocked me. The baby stopped growing at 9 weeks. Thank you again

[@tarshaburr4735]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. You are such a strong and powerful woman. Love to You, Mike, Jolie and Bubs

[@magicalvacationplanningbyk3165]

Thank you for sharing, thank you for being raw and real.. no one ever talks about it and it shouldn’t be a taboo thing. I have been using Ava too for 10 months now. I have had 3 miscarriages and 8 Chemical pregnancies. IUI is probably our only option since my AMH is so low! I Appreciate this video so much!

[@lisasatturo7988]

So very true! We tried for years, got pregnant naturally after 1.5 years, turned out it wasn’t viable and had a DNC at 10.5 weeks. Then we went through three IUI’s which never worked. I have a ton of issues. Finally after four retrieval’s, got two healthy embryos. Put them both in Sept 2016, my first beta was 22.... but kept doubling and we had our baby girl May 2017. Then four months later got pregnant naturally and had our baby boy four weeks ago in June. IVF journey is the most painful and scariest journey for all and we are super grateful for the outcome. My heart goes out to all woman who are on that journey and to let them know they are not alone. Congrats Jana on your pregnancy. Happy and healthy 9 months!

[@mandykraft8499]

Jana, thank you so much for sharing your story! You truly are an inspiration to all. I remember seeing you in Mechanicsburg, Pa pregnant with Jolie. Thank you for keeping it real with all of us. 💞

[@heatherlynn1317]

Thank you Jana so much! This gives me so much faith that sometimes things work out in God’s time! This hit home in so many ways thank you 🙏🏼

[@kelseymay6655]

Jana... you are absolutely amazing!! Thank you for being so real and raw and sharing your story with all of us!!! I have followed you ever since OTH and you are such a strong women! Thank you for being such an amazing role model and so REAL! i hope that when i try to conceive one day that i can be as strong as you if i come across these hardships. I know many women will be able to watch this and hopefully it will help them not feel alone. You have such a beautiful family and I’m so beyond happy for you and your pregnancy now!! ❤️ THANK YOU!! 💖

[@caitlingreen2553]

Thank you so much for sharing!! So happy for you and your family. I had three miscarriages before my rainbow baby was born. She is now 17 months old and my whole world. We are getting ready to try for baby #2 and I am so scared of more miscarriages. But you are right. I have a beautiful little girl to be thankful for. Some women still are struggling just for their first. God bless you and your family. You are touching so many people❤️

[@katrinabeaver5097]

❤️❤️❤️❤️I needed this. I appreciate you being so honest and showing your true emotion and story! I balled my eyes bc I can feel your pain. I have now nearly 4 years TTC my first child and it is the most lonely feeling when having a miscarriage. Thank you for sharing your story!

[@sarahjoseph2519]

Thank you for this video, thank you for your podcast. When I had my miscarriage I came to KZbin to find women who had lost. Watching their videos helped me so much, they had great advice on how to cope things to do talks to have. It helped so much! My husband and I tried for five years to have a baby. The doctors said they don’t know why. Then I found one that said this is why, I had PCOS gave me the meds and boom a baby. Three years later with the same meds we had baby number two. I was told I would never get pregnant with out medical help. But when my son was 10 months I was pregnant. On my own. I hate to say this but I was mad. I was scared. I was surprised. The doctors said they did not understand how it happened. 9 months later we welcomed our daughter. Then two years later again boom pregnant. This time I was so excited, I had crazy baby fever. My husband was so happy. We knew we were meant to have four kids. It was great. Then it started, the cramps, and bleeding. I go to the doc and they do an ultrasound and find the baby and the heart beat. They tell me to go on bed rest and wait. The bleeding got so bad. The next week we go back to the doc and the baby no longer has a heartbeat. We were heart broken. I was convinced that because I was not so happy about our third this is what I get. I know now that is not what happened. But I blamed myself for everything. I know I have an angel baby watching us and waiting to meet me face to face. Three months after our loss we got pregnant with our rainbow. He is going to be one on the 26th of this month. We have our four here with us and one waiting for us. I am so blessed to have our miracles, the doctors still don’t know how it keeps happening. When we lost our baby it did let us know we were not done growing our family and we decided to become foster parents as well. So we r now waiting on our first placement and are so excited about all of our adventures to come. Jana you are amazing, and I thank you so much for starting these talks. They are so needed and they do help!

[@melaniewitt1038]

I can't thank you enough for being the strong lady you are. Your such a wonderful mommy sweetie. God is saving his best for you an your husband. God bless you always an never lose your faith. Sending you love an hugs from my family to your growing one. 💋❤👶

[@sabrinabaratta9744]

Jana, you’re so brave and also beautiful. I wish you nothing but greatness with your family and also that little baby inside your tummy ❤️

[@daniellewalraven1484]

Thank you for sharing your story! ❤️ We have been TTC for 15 months now. Diagnosed with PCOS and endometriosis. We did 4 rounds of Letrozole before having a laparoscopy in May and am now on my 2nd round of Clomid. Hoping for our first baby sometime this year! 👧🏻👶🏻

[@badrobotskill]

Miscarriages are rough. No matter what anyone says, no matter how far the pregnancy. You will never forget. Im with you girl. ✊PS it’s so rough pushing yourself to have another baby, with every loss. Trying again and not getting pregnant, or just the waiting in between. Its just so hard. Good luck to everyone struggling. If it’s something you want, do it! The pain of loosing a baby never fully goes away, but it gets easier to cope. The joy from meeting a baby, your baby will be such a blessing.

[@traciewilke8826]

Thank you so much for this video and being real. I have a beautiful 11 month old daughter, but two months ago, I had a miscarriage at 7 1/2 weeks. It’s so true that you feel so alone even though you aren’t. And you feel like it’s all your fault. I’m still working through the emotional side of it but we hope to have another baby if it’s God’s plan. Congrats on your pregnancy! ❤️

[@phileshatresik3331]

Me and my husband have been trying for 7 years. We have had 10 failed IUIs and we are currently 7.5 weeks pregnant from our 2nd round of IVF. Thank you for sharing your story. Let’s everyone know their not alone.

[@laurathompson3852]

I was told when i was 19, I may not have children. I was was blessed with a beautiful daughter at 25. My husband and I tried so hard to have another baby. God had other plans. I missed carried 4 times. I understand your feelings completely! The feeling that your broken, the whats wrong with me. I know the excitement and the loss. You are sharing a journey with everyone that is not easy to share. Thank you, thank you for helping me feel not so alone. ❤❤

[@ColonialFlorals]

I just had a miscarriage last Sunday, and hearing these stories is both comforting and encouraging. We are so blessed to have 2 beautiful, healthy children already, and we had been trying for almost 2 years for our 3rd. We are sad, but God is GOOD no matter what. He has a plan and He is in control. Thanks for sharing your story. ❤️

[@butterflyhippie123]

Love you Jenna. Thanks for being so honest and raw with us.

[@tinacorcoran7752]

I had my 1st miracle baby at 19, he was 10 lbs 7.5 oz. when he was 10 months old I had my 1st miscarriage, followed by 5 more miscarriages over the next 6 yrs. about 3 months after my 6th miscarriage I got pregnant with my 2nd miracle baby, an 8 lb 2 oz boy. Now my miracle babies are 28 and 21 years old. I actually have 5 conditions that make it nearly impossible to safely carry and safely deliver a baby. I know I'm blessed to have my sons, but I always thought I would have a houseful of kids. Thank you for sharing Jana!

[@erinme1986]

I had my first IUI in May. It worked and I was pregnant but my HCG levels were extremely low and not going up like they should have. I miscarried on June 11 and they tested my HCG levels again that week. They had surged so we thought it was just a failed twin pregnancy but a few days after finding that I out I started having symptoms of miscarriage again last week. They will test my HCG levels again this week and I am hoping this nightmare is over so I can begin to heal. Thank you for sharing your story and being vulnerable because I know it is not easy and people can all have their opinions on TTC but keep sharing girl!!

[@michellefales8871]

Thank you for sharing your journey. Though iv only had one loss (first pregnancy at 9 weeks) I completely understand the struggles and the real life situations that infertility brings on. I’m currently carrying out rainbow baby almost 18 weeks and I pray everyday for this very fortunate opportunity that I know many many women struggle with daily. 🖤

[@lexianderson2654]

Jana I have always been a huge fan since OTH and I am so happy for you on your recent pregnancy. I cried as I watched those videos, seeing a celebrity go through this hard thing make us woman feel better, just knowing that we are not alone. We have been trying for two years and have not yet had a pregnancy yet. You have inspired me to keep trying. Thank you!

[@kristindoehling4144]

My heart goes out to you. I can't imagine the pain and fustation you must have felt. Thanks for sharing your journey! Hoping your family stays happy and healthy through all of this!

[@jessicadamon9321]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. It’s because of you that i have decided to share my story with others as well. My husband and i started using contraceptives when we got married in Sept 2014. We’re like if we get pregnant, we get pregnant. We knew we wanted to start a family but wasn’t sure when. Bring it up to Christmas 2017 and we’re like okay, it’s been a little over 3 years and nothing has happened and we knew we wanted to get pregnant and start our family for real. We went to the doctors come end of April 2018 cause we still haven’t conceived. Both of our doctors tested us and we are in normal range for fertility. We were told we shouldn’t have any problems conceiving and to keep trying. My doctor suggested tracking my ovulation and BH Temp. So we had a lot going on the month and half after and we started tracking my ovulation; even added in fertility prenatal’s to hopefully help. But you are such a strong woman for sharing your story. I’ve been following you since One Tree Hill cause you’ve been inspiring to me since then and now even more knowing that i’m not alone. I know i’m not alone with the issue of trying to conceive, but you feel like it when you keep it to yourself. I’m waiting for my ava woman’s bracelet to come and hoping that can help us know when the best time to try is. Thank you again! And Congratulations to you and your family on this baby.