Marked Jehovah's Witness first video (nervous!) Dec 2018

[@OwenMorganTelltale]

Well that was interesting. I am glad you found your way out. You’ll come to find that worldly people aren’t as bad as Jehovah’s witnesses say

[@prodigalAli]

Oh I absolutely know that! There is no more "us vs them" in my mentality. Just people...drop the adjectives 😀😀

[@OwenMorganTelltale]

Alexandra B definitely

[@ivalov3681]

Didn't expect to see you here!

[@ladymopar2024]

Nice for you to show up and show support very cool.

[@OwenMorganTelltale]

Kelly Schittenhelm I watch a lot of ex jw stories. When a new one appears on YT I usually watch it

[@joelm9474]

Hi Alexandra. I too am an Ex JW, also born in, and 3rd generation. I've noticed that most ex JW's turn atheist, so I'm very happy to see that Watchtower did not turn you away from Christ. He drew you out of false religion and drew you to Him, and now He's using you to help others. Praise God!!! To Him go the glory. Theology reprogramming takes time, so be patient. I've been able to debunk all Watchtower theology with research, prayer, and Bible reading, but it took 4 years. May God bless you and your husband. Thank you for sharing your story. "So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed." - John 8:36

[@prodigalAli]

Amen! All glory goes to God.

[@jesss9378]

Amen

[@blooddisorder]

Joel M John 8:44 You are from your father the Devil, and you wish to do the desires of your father. That one was a murderer when he began, and he did not stand fast in the truth, because truth is not in him. When he speaks the lie, he speaks according to his own disposition, because he is a liar and the father of the lie. James 4:7 Therefore, subject yourselves to God; but oppose the Devil, and he will flee from you. Draw close to God, and he will draw close to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you indecisive ones. REPENT!!!!

[@sokyui]

@@blooddisorder Those verses are meant for you yourself.

[@CrystalCummings1985]

the reason people become atheist is because they are conditioned to believe that their cult is the only true religion so when they leave its like what's the point of god or religion if i left the only true one then there is no other for me to join. At least that's how i felt when i left, i told myself i would never go to a church ever again, then god found me and bought me back to him and im a happy christian now. but i believe in spirituality over religion and separation, any organisation that try to separate is of the devil. even Jesus went to the people the religious leaders were shunning so who are we to shunning people.

[@prodigalAli]

I just want to THANK EVERYBODY for their kind (and a couple not so kind!...lol) comments. I'm a bit overwhelmed (in a nice way) by the response. Remember that song by Aerosmith..."Amazing" and the cliche phrase "Life's a journey, not a destination"...and I was thinking how my life as a JW was all about the DESTINATION (Paradise via Armageddon) and the JOURNEY was something I just wanted to short cut. It's great that we can explore, enjoy, analyze, question, and create our lives in this amazing journey and embrace people of all beliefs BECAUSE we are all at different places in the journey. Laughter (especially laughing at myself and much of the silliness that I took so seriously as a JW...and I don't mean that in a mocking way) has also been a blessing and I just wanted to share this guy's video. I just found his channel and I can't stop listening to his song "Just around the Corner" (compliments jw broadcast)...so check him out and enjoy a healthy laugh. kzbin.info/www/bejne/bqWwnqOeg6ejjbc

[@eddytheman1384]

funny goat video I wish I would understand what his is singing to them ! thanks for sharing

[@Whatever_works]

Can I email you? If you don’t mind?

[@prodigalAli]

me? the goat farmer? [e-mail]

[@shanihunter9289]

Alexandra B your amazing hugs to you . Out of all the ex JW videos I’ve watched yours has truly touched my heart . Lots of love to you ❤️❤️❤️

[@REBELGLAMQUEEN]

You should not have to be quiet - always be honest- but you need to trust that Jehovah will fix whatever is wrong in his own time as you quoted the appointed time is not up to us. Focus on yourself and being the best you can be.

[@luckydl7650]

I was JW for 40 years.I love that you shared your heart felt story. I know your journey will continue and it won't always be easy, but the freedom to live a real Christian life is truly a wonderful thing.

[@danagarza369]

Thank you for speaking out and sharing 🙏 I’m an ex-JW and was a 6th gen witness. 😳 I’m still being shunned. My first celebration of my birthday was when I turned 40 🎉 If you ever want to talk with someone who understands look me up on Facebook: Dana Crouse Garza Blessings! 🙏

[@pitbullruss5636]

I disassociated myself because of the nightmares..... not of Armageddon, but the thought of living forever on paradise earth with my mother in law..... no thanks !

[@oldgit4260]

Lol

[@pitbullruss5636]

Bad Alibi.... lol ... what can i say gots to have fun in life .... got no time for mine control

[@oldgit4260]

@@pitbullruss5636 and mother in law's! Who needs 'em?

[@rebekahwarriorspirit8110]

😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣 I love this!! Hahaha

[@pitbullruss5636]

Rebecca Crooks ..... lol thank you 🙏🏼

[@JillyC5]

My dad was disfellowshipped not long after I was born so I was allowed virtually no contact with him, he died in 2000 and it's my biggest life regret that the religion prevented me getting to know him, I love that you have had chance to have a relationship with your dad.

[@davidaguilar3370]

Thank you, for your words, god bless

[@jesuscasillas9376]

That's not love

[@peryalcala]

I know this happens in this so called “religion” But it’s so hard to believe that you permitted it, I mean there’s a saying that says “when the blood calls” or is it that you are so brainwashed, that you don’t see reality and live in a different world, perhaps is fear or maybe insecurity. WHAT IS IT -WHATS SO STRONG THAT BLIND YOU AT THIS LEVEL?? Are you still a JW till this day?

[@JillyC5]

@@peryalcala I understand it is hard to comprehend if you have never experienced it, but if you do a little reading on mind control and cult mentality it should become clearer. Jehovah's witnesses are a cult, and when you are inside it's almost impossible to be reached, especially when you are born into the cult and programmed from birth. Now I am on the outside, people that are close to me find it just as hard to understand as you do that I ever allowed myself to be treated that way.

[@KatherineRogers]

Its mind blowing to think of your case and of the many families where relatives were forbidden in associating freely with one another. Your father may have not been perfect but ....NO ONE is. I hope you have been able to get to know some of your fathers relatives that are not in the cult. KDRogersMD on twitter

[@Royal-Jaywick]

You will know the truth and the truth will set you free!

[@mariediaz5095]

amen and amen again

[@rickymarkendale7668]

I have always thought about the way the witnesses refer to the faith as 'The Truth'. It is a massively insidious psychologicaly charged term that is used to control.

[@PicardSisko7]

Your dogs in the background are super adorable!

[@yahsarelremnant9688]

MY EXPERIENCE I love when more former Witnesses come together united adding to the new family. I know your outcry, pain, mental disparity, etc. I been baptized since June 3rd, 2012 and studying little before that. I progress fast through the " Bible teach book" publication when it was in yellow lol then progress quickly through the " Remain in God's Love" publication both within a month in a half cause I studied with my Bible teacher daily for hours. Soon qualified for my baptism at a " Special Day Assembly." I gave many public talks, I held the microphones in the congregation meetings, I participated in the cleaning of the Kingdom Halls, I was getting more hours than what's required for regular pioneers in field service ministry . I made many friends and even brought in some I knew from " the world." I grew an enormous love for the supposed " truth " and for Jah . I traveled to New York driving the entire way with a group that invited me and saw all 3 "Bethel facilities ." There I saw the headquarters of the Governing Body and my connections help me see rooms and more than what they actually are to give in these tours. I have many pictures of this experience. Traveling all throughout the country for this religion doing everything u can imagine. Yet.... I started getting extremely depressed cause the more I elevated myself...the more I was exposed to seeing which was so disturbing even heart breaking in many respects. I notice how so many in the religion idolize man . How? Ever notice that when " Special Guest" appear now suddenly everyone comes to the Kingdom Hall Meeting and all now dress up in expensive suits with bow ties to go out in field service? All cause maybe the " Traveling Overseer " is there which was so fake to me. They call it " hospitality...yet it was idolizing cause everyone competing to get his attention. To knock on doors with him, to go out to eat with him, to talk to him first after his talks, and everyone is acting like extra than usual. Once he leaves its back to the opposite. I also noticed that ones that come out the " world " get treated a little differently than the ones who grew up in the religion. Like in meetings...they're hands get picked first over yours. They get invited everywhere more than u. Many didnt work with me just my teacher most times daily. Times where my hand was literally ignored while sitting up front like wow! Elders always get called the most over all and their wives then kids. It's like levels to this of favoritism. Being related to special men can get u greater protection too from wrongdoing than average ones. Steady observing...I saw how much godly devotion, praise , and worship didnt go to " Jehovah God." It all went to the " Governing Body." The supposed "annointed" men who are the Elites over the entire faith of Jehovah's Witnesses worldwide. They are the men elevated to God like status. Can't question them or you'll be in big trouble. So I researched more , prayed, read Bible, and the more I began to look outside of our bias websites JW.org, or the JW broadcast, the Watchtower society's literature, etc I saw the truth about " the truth." Examples are as follows: The over 5 thousand child sex abuse cases aired live on the news where the Governing Body had to speak in front of the Australian government cause their system based off misinterpretation of scripture paved the easy way of molesting children. * The unexpected affair the Society had with the United Nations whom we call the Beast in Revelation that replaced the " death stroked " one . Once confronted and exposed they ended the partnership to save face quickly doing damage control sending many letters and magazines to the members smh they bought it of course. *How we quickly ban anything pagan as unacceptable to Jehovah God like Holidays, birthdays. Etc. Yet I research roots to weddings and saw that wedding " rings" are pagan customs with ritualistic beliefs to why u wear them..also the " wedding cake" and wind chimes are tied to pagan symbolism. Etc. Yet we're allowed to imitate them. I thought if its pagan stay away...yet the Governing Body can do anything even contradict themselves and the masses in the religion blindly follows and defends. * All the false prophecies which the Bible strongly condemns yet our Organization gave more dates of the end of the world....than just 1914. Every prophecy failed of course cause God isn't with them. So once it dont happen they tweak their words and update it to make excuses. The blind brainwashed followers excuse it and say " No they wasn't wrong, The Light was just dim not its getting Brighter. " lol Sadd The Organization back in the day actually practiced discrimination toward African Americans especially seen evident when " Rutherford " was the man in charge. Read all his letters. * The supposed founder of Jehovah's Witnesses Charles Taze Russel was actually a "Freemason ." That's why the earliest additions of the Watchtower magazines had the satanic symbol called " the Knights Templar " symbol seen in Satanic churches to praise the Devil. The " Knights Templar symbol " can also be found in honor of him after his death. Look up his burial grave site..you'll see a giant monument idol of a Masonic pyramid with the same satanic logo the Knights Templar symbol on it. Pyramids, all seeing eye of Horus, Knights Templar symbol, saturn rings worship...all used to praise not God but Satan the Devil. How disappointing yet many excuse or dont even believe it cause they are brainwashed by the cult dominated by man not Jah. *The Governing Body had stocks in companies that made cigarettes and war planes like Lockey Martin , Boeing etc. *Disfellowshiping! This is over exaggerated and misinterpreted from the Scriptures. God never supported flat out shunning cause it wasn't an effective tool to bringing sheep back. They use Paul words about removing a man or not eating with him etc. Or Prodigal Son. Both examples contradict shunning I'll soon make video of. This practice is user by cults when u question their leaders not really God. It's used as a fear tactic after you're baptized. Listen to whatever we say or lose your family, friends, mates, everything u know . Shunning is evil , ungodly, founded by cults, and even Satanist do the same thing . Their exist over 30 scriptures contradicting the practice of shunning. Read your Bible . *Beards? If u have a beard you're not doing anything in relation to Jehovah's Witnesses. No scripture forbids it yet they use " you look like a hippie" as their sole basis.lol All in Biblical times had beards even Christ yet we cant preach if beard is present etc. * Field Service report card. This is your hours, minutes , books, magazine placements, video showings, return visits, etc. when knocking on doors. Turn in every month. You're graded by men and must participate or you will lose privileges and be seen as non spiritual. They grade u observing u closely . Jesus exposes this practice in Matthew 6. Read it entirely. This religion isnt the truth . It's dominated by brainwashing methods and complete worship goes to the Governing Body yet they keep telling themselves no it's for " Jehovah. " I'm speaking out after 8years. Jehovah God isn't the issue...nor the brainwashed Witnesses...its the Governing Body more so who replaced Jah and Jesus ....and put the system in place that made all these sheeple into brainwash zombies. Ex witnesses arent evil apostates or bad people. They woke up and still love all their love ones trapped in the cult. Ex JWs not lost , they're better off. Wake up and stop judging . Love and truth always win not cults founded by Satan.

[@prodigalAli]

You encapsulated everything in your comment. I'm so happy you are free of the Watchtower box with your faith still intact. 😊

[@yahsarelremnant9688]

@@prodigalAli Lol Thank you ! I been questioning to myself having doubts for awhile so whenever I finished field service and got home after the Kingdom hall....I did extensive research. I knew it was an brainwashing cult long time ago just stayed going to try and rescue others . None listen though and just threaten to rat me out to the Elders lol Biggest lie that made me fade since I was never disfellowshipped, was how they stressed dont watch ex JWs ever cause you all are apostates who got it out for Jehovah and his people lol Hesitated long time til one day I watched you all... and was in love with how honest kind true they are! Pull me right out the Kingdom hall lol please keep doing exactly what u are ! :")

[@anarivera1925]

Thank you so much for your message, I appreciate your points. Thank you thank you thank you.

[@Lovealwayswins1]

Thank you so much for putting into words what has been silent inside of me! Thank you!!! Hope you are healing well and taking care of you God bless you!!!

[@tarheelmama]

Also, add in the changes of scriptures in the NWT Bible so that they work with the JW nonsense teachings.

[@RiaCottingham]

Thank u for sharing your story, and welcome to your freedom

[@utl94]

@5dope What are you suggesting?

[@OwenMorganTelltale]

Welcome to the community. Glad to see you’re starting to ask questions. I’m going to have t give this a watch tomorrow I have to be up in 3 hours

[@prodigalAli]

I really appreciated your recent video re the arson attacks. Thank you.

[@OwenMorganTelltale]

Alexandra B thanks for watching and being a supporter. Anti extremism means rejecting it from all sides right?

[@thebirdwhoflew312]

She was such a joy to listen to that I watched it twice... like hearing a friend tell you about her day except it was about her sad upbringing in the “truth”.

[@celticfiddle7605]

@@thebirdwhoflew312 I agree! What a lovely young woman! She is a joy to watch. She doesnt know how beautiful she is now. Much love to you Ally. I just left this summer of 2018 at 65 years old. It is never too late to start living life!

[@maureenogumah2825]

I love this video

[@judineduerwaechter4043]

Thank you Alexandra for your courage and telling your story. Per my husband Dr. Jack Westfall (a former JW), here is a spurious quote from Freud that fits the entire world of JWs. "Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self esteem, first make sure you are not, in fact, just surrounded by assholes."

[@sadbuttrue343]

Alexandra, 1. Great video! 2. Don't be afraid of being called an apostate. It just means that you no longer believe the Watchtower propaganda. It is not rejecting religion or Christianity! I am now proud to be an apostate of Watchtower, all EX-JWs are apostates by definition. You did an awesome job of explaining what you went through and I never would have known that you were nervous. Good for you thinking for yourself and thank you for sharing your story!

[@aboundinggrace8763]

A wonderful story of awakening. Praise the Lord you are saved! A beautiful baptism story as well! You have been blessed.MAY our Lord keep you and continue to bless you and also yours.

[@Onazzz808]

What an inspiration you are! Brought me to tears to hear of your baptism in Lake Michigan, and found your way to Jesus Christ where you are truly free. God Bless You!

[@paulbacon5056]

It's not often I listen to hour long KZbin videos, but so glad I did with this one. So glad to hear of your escape from the Watchtower and even more thrilled you found the true Christ. God bless you and your family as you continue to serve Him.

[@JWAbuseHotline]

Paul Bacon very genuine and intellectual this young woman is.

[@jackgtx440]

Are we sure she actually found the true Christ? I never heard her denounce any of the Watchtower’s heresies about Christ. Does she believe Jesus is eternal and denies the Arian heresy? Does she now believe the triune nature of God? She never mentions any of this that I heard. I hope she does believe true doctrine about Christ.

[@thebirdwhoflew312]

You were such a delight to listen to and watch. You made me laugh, you made me sad but I’m so happy you finally woke up. My brother and I are hopeful that one day our parents will do the same. Thank you so much for your story. Keep moving strong towards your own truth.

[@katherinepoindexter4380]

the moment you said "i'm here with my dogs" the bulldog with the tongue, looked up at you..Many will be blessed for your courage. To God be the glory for all who take refuge in Him will be blessed.

[@prodigalAli]

😊. Yeah.. that's Ruby. She has advanced cancer. We don't know how much time we have left with her. One day at a time.

[@katherinepoindexter4380]

@@prodigalAli oh sweetie. i am so sorry to hear that. I lost my last dog two years ago this up coming March. she was a buck shy of 17years..i just basically say she was 17. I miss her very much. I also had a dog that lived 3 years with kidney disease so you never know she may live two more years or even 3. best wishes for you , you hubby and little Ruby..

[@helenrichardson6046]

So so sorry about Ruby.

[@bowrudder899]

If you never make another video, I'll get it. But thank you for making this one. God is so good.

[@vinniegg]

Awesome sincere video! I especially loved the way you ended it. Being in the organization and experiencing the things you and I have, did not feel good at the time. In my case, all of the verbal abuse and politics that occurred when I served as an elder, may have caused me tremendous anxiety. But in the end all of the so-called bad things that we experienced, we can be very grateful for. I always say that these things served as nudges in our Awakening process. And I know for a fact, now with hindsight, that the passive aggressive or passive Rebellion that you feel in the organization which is what you described here, really is a big sign that things are changing for you and you will be heading out of the organization at some point in time. Thanks again! Excellent video!

[@perryanderson5327]

I want to thank you for this video. I have an adult son who is a JW as he married a JW girl. Your video gives me hope that someday he and his wife will wake up some day and see Jesus for who he really is. Blessings to you as you have blessed me. Thank you!!

[@dantoinettetaylor1663]

Keep working at it. Don't do it frontally (flamethrower), you have to do the drip by drip method

[@outsidersperspective13]

Thanks for sharing your story. My heart goes out to you, your husband, and anyone else who has gone through similar events. I used to consider the JWs harmless and well-meaning, but in recent years my opinion has changed drastically. Childhood indoctrination is immoral, and shunning is destructive. Their views on sexuality, marriage, and gender roles are also quite harmful. Glad you're waking up :)

[@claudiazacarias3063]

I loved your video!!!! You are so sweet! I'm an ex JW for a yr now and am born again. Jesus is so amazing! Welcome to the real truth and the real life!! Sending hugs and love!!! 💖

[@Green4peace]

Hi Alexandra (Allie), wow. I think many-MANY-of us question similar things before the load is too much to bear. I haven’t yet finished your video because I just had to comment beforehand as I found myself nodding “yes, yes, yes” to what you had to say. First, I’d like to give you a huge virtual hug! 🤗 So many JWs have mental health issues. We were so beaten down that we just assumed it was from Satan attacking Jehovah’s people. My depression, anxiety, and panic attacks were so severe during the time I was really questioning things. Heavy laden with guilt, not knowing where I’d go if I left, what was I to do? What about my children’s everlasting life? I felt feel like I was in a chokehold with nowhere to go. I prayed. I cried to Jehovah many times, asking if what we were being taught was the truth and if he wanted us knocking on doors. Then one day last August (2017), I had the sudden urge to research, research, research! I headed to the library (a favorite spot of mine) and gathered up a couple different Bible versions and anything else I felt deemed necessary. I, as well, looked around to make sure that a fellow JW wasn’t watching me! Ridiculous that we have to do that. I think the first thing that made my eyes pop was when Thomas wanted to see where the nails (plural) had been in Jesus’ hands. It was then that I realized that if the WT did not have that right, what else were we being taught incorrectly? I was led from one scripture to the next. I gasped several times, seeing scriptures for the first time that I somehow missed before. An extremely important scripture that I came across was at Acts 4:12 (ESV) “And there is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved." Jesus! We never really heard his precious name. He was pushed off to the side like a third class citizen, really. (Jehovah being first, Governing Body being second.) It was not until I pursued my research that I learned that the WT’s official teaching is that the “other sheep” do not have Jesus as their mediator. The only ones who have this relationship are the anointed! I never knew this. It appears as though MANY JWs do not know it either. How deceitful! Without Christ, we cannot even attempt to reach the Father. I could go on. I really could. For myself, I no longer feel worthless. I feel at peace and fell head over heels for Jesus. He was there when I knocked and he answered. ❤️

[@prodigalAli]

Amen!!!! Exactly! The mediator thing was huge for me too. I'm so glad you're feeling better... Jesus carries our load. What a gift!!

[@cindyarnold7322]

Hi Sara, there are so many things rank and file JWs don't know about the WT organization. And we wide awake people pray for them to hear the truth about "the truth".

[@Green4peace]

Alexandra B, I’m so glad you’re feeling better, as well! Jesus is the way, the Truth, and the life! Thank you so much for sharing your story. I’m positive there are many more like us out there. Matthew 11:28 (ESV) “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” ❤️

[@Green4peace]

Cindy Arnold, I know! And they won’t see it unless they’re awake. I pray for them all.

[@tedlumley4470]

True statement about Jesus being a third class citizen. Jws could function just fine without Jesus because aside from a token acknowledgement at memorial - all they talk about is Jehovah and the organization.

[@lindamca10]

You are an amazingly strong woman. You've been through so much and I think we can all see the depression was brought on by cognitive dissonance for many years...so glad you got out at 39. My daughter is a fully indoctrinated jw she's 30...apparently I was told by my son she's been in counselling......she doesn't contact me as 5 years ago I asked her to make sure of the organisation and test everything. Her father is called jw and I'm sure together with her jw friends they have destroyed our relationship. I wish she would wake up like you did ...we were so close at one time but now I am lucky to see her twice a year....she looks so frightened of me..she will not accept presents from me. I have actually given up on her now I am so broken hearted...it's like she's dead but still alive and it's such a difficult grief to live with. I believe she's condemned to a miserable life by that bunch of controlling idiots the GB ..what you said about the governing body showing their faces on the broadcasts is spot on....they've revealed the faces behind the hoax and that will be something else to bring them down eventually...it system like the wizard of Oz film...when the curtain was taken down the voice that everyone feared so much showed a scared little old man and it was all a massive hoax. I truly hope my daughter sees the light one day but as I am getting older in my sixties it's having such an impact on my physical and mental health I feel I won't be around to get my daughter back...... So glad you are doing well and your happy now all the best.xx

[@prodigalAli]

My heart goes out to you. Keep showing your daughter love.... however you have energy to do so. Perhaps journal and she can read your letters either while you're still alive....or after you transition... either way you'll have peace knowing you showed her love. I'm just so thankful I could get to know my Dad. He's 81 and he has cancer....so it's been a real gift to be able to bridge almost 4 decades of me trying to make him a JW! Imagine his humility and patience!! Hugs to you

[@franmorrison1080]

@@prodigalAli that's a great idea to write a journal for his daughter

[@wakieup2332]

586bce...Maybe we should start an XJW senior group… LOL! We can all meet at McDonald’s and get free coffees.

[@lindamca10]

@@wakieup2332 great idea!

[@eddytheman1384]

Big hugs and love to you for your struggle ,keep up your hope !

[@bowrudder899]

I love that it's so serious, and your dogs don't even care. ;-)

[@prodigalAli]

Lol

[@JWAbuseHotline]

Super cute and lovely 🐕

[@juliabann2238]

bowrudder I’m sure the dogs are happy for her new found freedom.

[@bowrudder899]

More time with them! ;-)

[@prodigalAli]

Yep....they get walks on Saturday mornings now ;)

[@Dante3214]

I am so sorry you're also going through Depression. I'm glad you have some clarity now that you're out from under the watchtower's gaze. May you be happy, may you be well, may you be free from suffering.

[@prodigalAli]

You too!😊

[@sissyrayself7508]

The "memorial" isn't a solemn and beautiful ritual. It's exactly the same as a Black Mass. JESUS never told His followers to pass the bread and wine around without partaking. The best part about Jesus's death is HIM RESURRECTED! This is why I LOVE to drink in rememberance and eat in rememberance of HIM because HIS blood was shed for ME His body was broken for ME. Every time I take the bread and wine with other Believing Followers of HIM, to this very day, who have faith that they will see HIM appear in the clouds for HIS BRIDE.. I have tears streaming down my face. Even as a small child I ALWAYS knew that I should have just taken that 🍷 and 🍞 and drank and eaten and not just passed it over.

[@ariloves10]

Yes! Agreed. I'm looking forward to this year NOT going to the JW satanic non memorial this year. It really is like by being born again.

[@messianicagejudaism]

Ali's Big TOE: People that left the cult of the JW's or Watchtower never talk about the doctrines that learned as deceptive and misleading...They leave the cult but still believe in the Watchtower's doctrines. why?? Most of them, feel embarrassed , disappointed, violated, deceived. Watch this you tube link which it will tell you the real truth of the JW's and Watchtower kept secret ( the founder's occult practices, and origins of their doctrines) from people that left and people that are still there. You will know what JW's members don't even know or realized yet. Give me your feedback. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iZDVXoKEn6tjd9k

[@messianicagejudaism]

Ali's Big TOE: People that left the cult of the JW's or Watchtower never talk about the doctrines that learned as deceptive and misleading...They leave the cult but still believe in the Watchtower's doctrines. why?? Most of them, feel embarrassed , disappointed, violated, deceived. Watch this you tube link which it will tell you the real truth of the JW's and Watchtower kept secret ( the founder's occult practices, and origins of their doctrines) from people that left and people that are still there. You will know what JW's members don't even know or realized yet. Give me your feedback. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iZDVXoKEn6tjd9k

[@IAM-kg5pq]

The suicides were shocking, those poor people, may they rest in peace (or joy in heaven if that was their calling). Their spilled blood is not forgotten before father and WT should be afraid, they will be called to account for the error of their harsh disfellowship and shunning policy. There are so many positive aspects to your story, thanks for sharing and glad that you are now free of your depression and free from WT.

[@jwsuicides8095]

War On Watchtower 🙏 🙏 🕯 🕯 🕯 🙏

[@cindysmith2295]

Thank you for sharing your story. I have been praying for a long time for a childhood friend to come to the realization that you have. I never understood why she broke off all communication with me. It's been 21years and I miss her terribly. Hearing your story and so many others at least answered my question as to why she will not associate with me. I will never stop praying for her to wake up. May God carry your story to the ears and hearts of those still in bondage.

[@alexanderj2573]

Good job Sister. Good people are out here for you. Stay strong and enjoy life.

[@joha790]

Thank you for sharing your story. A great current, real - life, insight of life inside the WTBTS. I appreciate your warm, interesting, frank and personal liberation from cultic captivity.

[@sunflowergarden8423]

You did a good job telling your story and I'm sure it has helped many people so keep it up!

[@bridgetazaz]

Very moving, so well spoken. You provide not only such a moving testimony of God's grace, but also a lot of insight into the dark, gospel-less Watchtower corporation teachings/practices, for those who have never been JWs. Sharing around for sure! God bless your ongoing spiritual journey, Eph. 1:7. Soli Deo GLoria!

[@franmorrison1080]

you're right! I can hardly believe any of this way of life!!

[@bridgetazaz]

@Kevin Johnson Thanks for the encouragement Kevin! Of course i recognize you from the comments. YES! Robert's videos are so interesting to watch, i get a lot of ideas from him. God bless you too!

[@tedlumley4470]

Only 10 minutes in and you're doing a great job! The first video is a big hurdle to get over - I know. Thanks!

[@amberkatrina6044]

Love that analogy you made of the blind man thrown out of the synagogue!!! Beautiful!!!

[@beverleylucas8182]

I am so happy that I watched your video and grateful that you have wakened. Wishing you all the best in life. Love, Beverley 💖😘😘😘

[@prodigalAli]

Is this THE Beverley? 😉

[@kennethyeoman776]

Welcome to the xJW community there are 1000s of us out here to support you, as we have also left this corrupt religion behind. Welcome to your freedom!

[@nickgcbond]

Watchtower loses another victim of their mind control. Well done on getting out and with a happy ending too. Back in the late 80's I thought we were in the last days and that those who saw the events of 1914 would not all pass away before the end comes and a new world ushers in. Wow, not much time left, maybe I stumbled on the truth just in the nick of time to save myself and others !! What happened? Nothing at all except I made a nuisance of myself trying to warn family and friends of what seemed like imminent Armageddon. Somehow they all knew instinctively Watchtower was a BS cult, but I thought they hadn't researched properly. After all I was studying Watchtower Publications!! Yes Divine Education, complete with lies, whitewashed history, lots of misquotes and much theological claptrap from uneducated men in New York. For some time I thought the Watchtower leaders might just be innocent victims of mind control themselves, but they are actively lying, hiding information and knowingly and deceptively misquoting. Every time they say we have done the research for you, you don't need to spend many hours looking for yourself etc is very disturbing. Absolute con men in my opinion.

[@jwsuicides8095]

nickgcbond I got sucked in during the 80s. Like you, I thought Armageddon was imminent because of the 1914 generation. I'm so embarrassed at how I was with my family and friends as I tried to "save' them from imminent destruction. 😳

[@nickgcbond]

I had forgotten about the whole JW thing as the years went by until I discovered Lloyd Evans and Kim and Mikey several years ago and I've been amazed at just how rotten and sinister the whole watchtower organisation really is. It's great seeing all you activists here on you tube and also the challenging at the carts and the kingdom halls including the Warwick protest. This organisation has got away with it's nonsenses for far too long. Every time a JW knocks now, I give them the whole Australian Royal Commission findings and that's just for starters. It took me quite a few years to rid my mind of the watchtower Virus. I can understand how difficult it is for current witnesses and why it takes years of occasional doubt and noticing odd things before they start waking up and even then, the fear of shunning or being marked just prolongs the captivity.

[@kristysokoloski9089]

They have been saying this about the last number of decades about the Last Days.

[@nickgcbond]

"They have been saying this about the last number of decades about the Last Days." Yes, with hindsight now I realise that this is how they sell the religion. It's a bit like a Furniture store that advertises all Furniture half price but only for this weekend, hurry, hurry the last days of the sale or you'll miss out etc. Then they do the same weekend only sales again continuously year in and year out. I think the whole door to door preaching was introduced when the watchtower saw an opportunity that door to door cold selling was working for other products. They twisted a couple of verses to make it look like the early Apostles/Christians went house to house ( but that was more likely about the early church gathering for meetings as they couldn't go in the synagogues). JW's are trained exactly like sales people ( the numbers game), trained to turn around all objections at the door to get the sale.

[@jamesfalconer2959]

nickgcbond

[@dytch7243]

Ally, you are a such beautiful and wonderful person! ❤️❤️❤️. I listened to the whole video and hope you will continue making more videos sharing your experiences as a JW! 🥰😘😍

[@whyistheskyblue5515]

DYTCH72 I know her well, and you called her right! 💕

[@cyn7703]

I have never commented on a video that I've watched. I've always been the mouse in the corner. But I wanted to say I feel happy for you and I feel blessed myself. Blessed that I was raised to believe the God that loved me had no conditions. It was a man that gave you those conditions. I hope you never forget all that has opened your eyes. Take care of yourself.

[@whyistheskyblue5515]

cyn7703 Glad you felt so moved to comment. But I do believe God has conditions (not all the crazy man-made ones like underlining your WT) but simple and doable ones - to accept his Son as your Lord and Savior, and to love him & your neighbor.

[@clarkgrayhame1250]

Thanks for sharing your story I really enjoyed hearing your experiences. I did the fade starting 5 years ago. I came back because my wife and kids are still very much involved. I certainly appreciate the feeling if freedom. I have been partaking for several years. Earlier this spring I did so at the hall. I am glad to be awake so I will do all I can to be of help to others and see how far I go before getting DFd. I certainly am glad to hear you are healing. God bless you.

[@andreabergin3959]

I just re-watched your story here. (I love stories!) The "counting time" thing reminded me that for YEARS I had a recurring dream that I was so tickled, and so sneaky, that I had stopped counting time.

[@sgvdg4623]

Wow!! ♥️ Thank you so much for sharing your story!!!👍🤗 I am spirituel and I know what you talking about.. deeply. Especially your healing! 👍 I was healed, too.. suddenly from one day to the next without any help from people .. The god of JW is nothing more than a construct and an illusion! May God bless you!! Best wishes from Germany!! Susan (third generation jw/ born in /ex-jw /ex-pioneer / father and husband elders / was never disfellowshipped/ I stopped going there, moved away and started a complete new life)

[@stanjones4292]

WTG Grrrl. (Guessing you'll be getting elder visits again... may I suggest a recording device) The 'marking' procedure is covered in the 'organization' book, elders are indeed supposed to meet with with / help / inform the victim. I too was improperly marked (and believe it or not I did absolutely nothing wrong ... really). I only realised when many started shunning me. I collered the CO and an elder to question it....they panicked and totally refused to even discuss it, let alone offer help or support. It was a surreal and bizarre experience. Thank you.

[@prodigalAli]

Crazy. I found out a couple weeks after the marking talk that the 3 reasons I was marked was because 1) I didn't go door to door 2) I refused to practice shunning (I was rather vocal discussing my disagreement with outright shunning with everybody in the congregation) and 3) I expressed doubts regarding the 1914 teaching. That's why I was marked.

[@stanjones4292]

@@prodigalAli I will never practice shunning either...God bless you and your husband.

[@mrjskeptic8281]

Alexandra B haha 1914 teachings which originated from pyramid measurements lololol

[@joec595]

Don’t speak to anyone who reaches out to you from the congregation. Participating in their judicial process only legitimizes a self-appointed position they do not deserve to hold over anyone. Do. Not. Respond. Ever!

[@beverlyharward9631]

@@joec595 I totally agree with you. If they send you a letter, hire an attorney. Let attorney write the jc a letter. Hey, if you're accused of something, you're entitled to legal representation!!!!

[@LorraineParis1]

I thank Jesus that he healed you and that he loves you more than you can imagine!💖😇💖You are free indeed!

[@theworldlyspouse7853]

Truly an inspirational story that gives me hope. May I screen record some of video to use in my video? the part concerning your dad and his involvement which is a lesson for me to be fully involved in my kids life. Thank you.

[@prodigalAli]

Absolutely. Share away!

[@mindyburns401]

From one Daughter of the King to another, welcome to your new life of grace, unmerited favor...such freedom! Thank you for sharing your story. Blessings!!

[@LINEOFTRUTHMINISTRIES]

Thank you for your testimony. It was a great insight into the JW's. I pray that you continue to heal in your walk with Christ and to also be a support for others who were in your position.

[@losborne5]

1969 I remember, "....if you are young you would not grow old in the system of things." They lied to us all.

[@eric5906]

1991: the new order is upon us.

[@terridd6265]

Yes I asked my mother why she got so old, when they told her that she would not, and she responded with something like well the governing body has come out with reasons why what they initially prophesied didn't happen, and the holy spirit revealed more to them, so now we know....yadda yadda yadda. Always excuses!

[@terridd6265]

@Major Key I'm 47, same was said to me all of my life, and still waiting! My parents truly believe that they won't die before the new system, but at 70 their time is running out....Although I was raised in it, I always had questions and so many doubts, especially as a teenager and young adult. They use scriptures to answer questions, but it doesn't prove anything!

[@peryalcala]

Major Key definitely brainwashers lies and lies , I bet teenagers are a challenge for the congregation. Specially because their kids go to public schools where students are in majority “ normal average kids”( sorry I forgot how the J W s call non JWs). Are still in the Jehovah witness “brotherhood “?

[@socorrorotger7559]

Nobody told you to hold any predictions of the end as legit. No one knows the day or the hour so it’s your own stupid fault.

[@informant2331]

if I may PLEASE highlight {this} from the descript box, as it is such a great state of mind to be in, at this time of your journey >>> ***["The Truth shall set you free....but first it'll make you mad ;)"]*** how does it feel to finally exhale from that life? pretty damned liberating, right? your courage and voice are a great inspiration. you may not realize this, but there are many, following the path that leads out. happy trails!! :-)

[@DiabloDisablo]

Very brave to put yourself and your troubles out there like this. I'm glad you found your place finally, but never stop asking those awkward questions, no matter who it is you're asking them of. I wish you well.

[@enyawrebbuj9458]

"If you're a fish born in an aquarium you dont know the sea".....you have a real knack with illustrations.....enjoying them.....very refreshing!!!

[@andreabergin3959]

I guess I watch you at least once a year, Ali. Looking forward to more face-to-face. You're my kind of communicator!

[@russdumontier8431]

I really enjoyed watching you tell your story that took a lot of courage. I myself am an ex JW. I've been out of the game for 20 years myself. My story is long so I won't go into it much. Needless to say I feel I'm in a much better place than I was. I also had interest in medicine and I'm actually in the process of pursuing that. I guess one key difference for me is that I'm essentially turned off from all forms of religion because they all seem the same to me. Also, the concept of the existence of a god I find very difficult to accept personally. Anyways, I very much enjoyed your video thank you so much!

[@mgrace3641]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I want to get my story out too, but I'm so nervous. I have a very similar story to yours. When I finally woke up this year the negativity and depression that haunted me forever was finally lifted. Hugs to you!

[@wimpees3]

Awesome share, I too was born & raised as a JW. Thank God I never got baptized & dedicated to the organization. As I got older and they asked me why I was not yet, I told them I felt I was too young to make that decision. I dissociated myself at 17, because all my friends were getting dis-fellow-shipped and what they needed was love, not to be shunned. The sad thing is most ex JW's don't want anything to do with the bible & God after what they have been through, but I am so glad that you read the bible, because that is why I became a Born Again Christian. I always knew I was a child of God, but knew something was wrong with the Organization. I have prayed for years for God to open their eyes, and He has not let me down. Seeing all these brothers and sisters that are waking up to the Real Truth is Awesome. We do have a loving Father in Heaven who loves us so much and would never make us do the things that man made religions make you do for salvation. It is a Free Gift from God. We are saved by Grace. We just need to accept it and know in our hearts and have faith. Jesus is our Lord & Savior and that is the Truth.

[@leowalters8695]

So glad that I watched your video. Very encouraging for someone who has been disfellowshipped for over 15 years and suffering from depression. Thank you Ali.

[@BrookeBullmasterStewart]

What an amazing journey you’re setting out on! I left a while back, was utterly alone in doing so but have built a life I’m VERY proud of! I know you will too!

[@bruderk4257]

Finaly you have come to life. Great to have you here.

[@latonyasmith683]

Hello there,sis! I'm a fader as I have started waking up late December of 2017! Please do not think your videos are too long! We enjoy them!Many videos of the ex jw community have videos as long as 2+ hours! But I love listening to you,we love you and you have friends that won't ever shunn you!You're awsome!-hugs-🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗💗💗💗

[@jbmaruca4397]

Free at last! Congratulations! You are doing the right thing, may Jesus take you under his wing, protect you and show you his love, my heart goes out to you:)

[@summerleigh9674]

Super happy you made this video! I’ve watched so many of these types of testimonies and hear so many leave the organization but loose faith in Christ and their belief in the real truth. Yes, there is hope for ALL!! Thank You! I hope so many more in question watch and listen to your stories. God bless.

[@superdave1263]

Ali, I’m proud of you, sis. Keep up the great message and count your blessings that you got out with your sanity. Great attitude, thanks!

[@CanYouSee1510]

What's up! Bring it Sis... speaking up for injustice....Bravo! Aka #nomoremiddlemen aka Ron...

[@prodigalAli]

Hello my brother!

[@Leonmiller407]

Here’s to your new lease on life! Thanks for sharing. The more videos I see of us who left the more I realize I’m not alone.

[@laravonstaden1838]

Thank you so much for your message. I am not a Jehovah’s Witness but have close friends who were. I am so glad your faith is strong and enduring. Losing faith in a particular religion - the one you were raised with must be challenging in every way. You are blessed to be able to distinguish that the acts of men who are figureheads of whichever religion organisation are not of God but mortal interpretation. A religion that imposes harsh strictures is based upon fear and control. I believe, like you, in a God who is loving and forgiving. I have never found a religion that I wanted to become a part of but God is everywhere and omnipotent and dwells within all who seek Him. My very best wishes to you and your family for the future.

[@lauriemarvel]

Allie, thank you so much, you did a great job telling your story. You didn't look nervous but I can completely understand the totality of coming out and why it is unsettling. Stay good, stay alive and lots of love to you. ❤️

[@NishkaBahnya]

Alexandra, I am so grateful and appreciative for this video. You explained your situation so well. It mirrors my own and helped validate my feelings and what our family has gone through. I am going to send this to our other family members and hope it is helpful for them as well. Prayers and love for you and your family. Thank you.

[@sallypeterson3171]

Great video! It's being shared in groups with thousands of both ex jw and jw! Thank you! You answered so many questions I've had! I left in 1992, and wondered why Jw weren't waking up. So great to hear the things that led to you waking up!

[@_zoinks2554]

Being a born in myself I can relate. It's hard when everyone you know, all you know or have ever known has been corrupted by the WBTS. My sister who felt pressured, was unfortunately baptized at 17. I was 4 years her junior. I started to rebel around my early teens around age 13 or 14. This was before internet age in the late 80's. I would constantly feel the shame and embarrassment of being a jw at school and with my neighborhood friends. No X-mas, no birthdays, no saluting the flag, no sports... I saw my friend's families and the great traditions they all had and I wanted that! I knew the WTBS was a scam and I found what little ex-jw and anti cult literature there was at that time. Shortly thereafter I would literally run out of the house to escape going to meetings. It was 3 times a week back then plus one bible study at someone's home. By age 16 my mother had given up (deciding that Satan was testing her through me). I left her home to live with my non jw father in a different town, some 400 miles away. My sister ended up leaving the jw's few years later. Since she was baptized, she was shunned by our mother and other jw relatives and of course the rest of the congregation. The irony is that I was the one who openly rebelled, firmly denounced and defamed the cult at every possible chance, but since I never baptized "they" could still talk to me, socialize, etc. I chose to shun them to show solidarity with my sister who was deeply hurt by the shunning. They are lost to me but MY family and MY children are lost to them! Thank God my kids never had to go through that bs. My sister and I are still very close and although she has moved on totally, I still denounce the jw cult at every opportunity! As for you. Don't look back. Consider your hardcore jw family members to be dead (they are literally brain dead). If there are any on the fence encourage them to get out! Congratulations on leaving and have a great life. I know you will! Thank you very much for sharing your story.

[@jeanallison4362]

IA close friend became a witness 50 years ago so I had some studies but didn't go further.We are still friends though at one time she wouldn't speak to me until she was disfellowshiped.She is now back in and we speak everyday but she gets very angry if I try to share anything as I am a born again Christian.She threatens to stop speaking to me.So now I say nothing..But have shared a lot.I tried to tell her about the UN but she didn't want to know.l also tried to tell her about all the shares the witnesses have in companies like Lockheed Martine the paedophilea.It has all fallen on deaf ears.We can't even have a gentle discussion.Its so tragic that these people have such a heart for God but perish for lack of knowledge. The Bereans searched the scriptures daily.It is all His grace .

[@pearlytiger564]

This video was very helpful to me. Never was a JW, but my best friend is and I’m trying to learn everything I can so that I may reach him and plant seeds. Everyone has something different that wakes them up. Something that drew them in or keeps them in, so if I can chip away at that foundation, the house of cards falls. Thank you for sharing.

[@lightbearer9367]

My wife recommended your channel to me. We have been out for two years. Its been an amazing journey out of darkness. Thank you for sharing true love is an amazing discovery. Look forward to more content.

[@genevievea2496]

I have way to much to say! But the biggest one is THANK YOU! 🌺

[@amandarae3268]

Pill popping sisters (and brothers!) was so common for my experience too. Everyone was on something, or trading pills, getting prescriptions refilled for eachother, etc. But the reasons were that we werent doing enough in the ministry or have any spiritual goals. OR - its satans wicked system. It was really just living in a cult. So much of this is relatable, and Im so glad you were able to keep your marriage in tact and your life is finally worth living. Hugs!

[@brotherhype-maninchristjes2766]

+Alexandra B Praise the LORD thank you sister Alexandra for your video. i was never a Jehovah's Witness but i truly appreciate your story. outstanding. absolutely touching and outstanding. God bless. Agape love

[@richb.48]

I am so glad you made this video. I only pray that many other JWs will watch this. I am married to a JW and my youngest daughter is going thru what you went thru, while my oldest is still stuck in the mire. I am really impressed how you weren't "angry" when you told your story. The story speaks for itself, and that may be what will help so many others. God bless. \

[@matthewscott1091]

This is by far one of the best videos of its kind on KZbin. I’ve been watching lots of ex JW stories and this one strikes a special chord with me. I think it’s because through it all you didn’t let go of God. I went through something similar and was basically told God didn’t want me. But I never let go and I applaud your faith & strength in sharing your story. Thank you for sharing it. If you’re ever up for it I’d love to hear more about your experiences and thoughts on life & faith in more videos. I just subscribed! ✌🏼🙂

[@prodigalAli]

Thank you for your kind comment. I've had a whirlwind of thoughts and reactions since making this video and right now I'm forcing myself to lay low "in the wilderness" because I feel conflicted about even making more videos. I'm so happy people are using their God given voices of self expression and making testimonial videos, but at the same time I'm overwhelmed by all the voices. (I'm not being literal....I'm not schitzophrenic)...so for now I don't want to add to the noise. Hope that makes sense!

[@matthewscott1091]

Alexandra B Oh, I’m guessing you mean in particular things have really been “stirred up” on social media since the Leah Remini special. That’s sort of slowly but surely unleashing the floodgates. No worries I completely understand. Think about it one day though because you’re a very well spoken and relatable person on camera. By the way I know this is totally random but has anyone ever told you you remind them of actress/neuroscientist Mayim Bialik? (Blossom, Big Bang Theory) My ADD mind wondering off into random thoughts.. lol. Well best wishes, hope to see you on here again (one day). 🙂

[@JWAbuseHotline]

I love this...so true. ‘I didn’t climb the ladder..not that I could I’m a woman..’

[@Onazzz808]

JW Abuse Hotline [phone] wow love your You Tube handle name👍🏼👍🏼

[@jessicacorrea7221]

They love to make woman feel less. Our creator loves us all the same amen.

[@marieriddick8388]

Thank you for sharing your story, may God bless you always.

[@TorahisLifeandLight]

To my JW's friends out there: I can relate to your , disappointment, betrayal, afflictions and pains. You are hungry for the truth?? The harvest is at work as i speak but it's not with the watchtower preaching though. That's the counterfeit of the wheat and the tares parable of Matthew. It's all about the prophecy of the gathering of the children of Israel in the last days . It's really imminent what is about to come also called "the remnant of Israel '". Gentiles and the lost sheep of the house of Israel are not the same group. I am not talking about the teaching of the watchtower of the "great crowd" either. That teaching is a deception to all of the Jw's members. The father will gather his people that were scattered in the four corners of the earth as a ethnic group as the lost sheep of Israel just like the ancient time of Israel. Jeremiah 50:4-6 see Micah 2:12 See also Zephaniah 3: 20 Pay attention to this prophecy, because it's similar like the prophecy of the Messiah coming in the 30AD. to save his people ( and open their eyes, lift the veil) who were of the house of Judah living in Jerusalem. Matthew 10:5,6 and Matthew 15:24 Ex JW's have basic knowledge of the truth, you should dig deeper into this prophetic truth, iam sharing with you. I am a Sephardic Jew by birth and Christianity since 325AD have persecuted and oppressed us so that they wanted us to disappear off the map. Christianity as a whole had the agenda to bring this "spiritual israel doctrine" to mislead the whole world regarding this prophecy of the remnant of israel. The watchtower used the replacement theology of the "144,000" deceptive doctrine to control their members. We are back as redeemed children of the Most High God of Israel. ( Ezekiel 36: 15,19,22-27) The Watchtower recently is teaching their members that there is no "physical Israel" which is a big lie, why? because there is a lot of noise or commotion regarding this topic. They are doing the same thing like the Vatican's agenda since 325AD. I urge you JW's or Ex JW's with all my heart to question everything the watchtower taught you because the doctrine of the 'faithful discreet slave" is nothing but a replacement theology to replace the prophecy for the people of the book, ( Sephardim) we have existed since the Apostle Paul's time , we financed his missionary work as he mentioned in Roman 15: 24, 28 Whereas Paul was taking trips to Spain since it was the headquarters of a big Jewish community that was closely connected with the Saints in Jerusalem. WE helped our brothers financially in Jerusalem because they were persecuted and they needed funds to survive. That's how many survived and they fled from Jerusalem to Spain. Since then, we kept our identity hidden but not confined to the world because we stayed together as a Jewish Community to stay alive until God allowed his Grace to be on us again to receive our Messiah and preach this kingdom of God in the four corners of the earth as a testimony. Woe to those who won't believe this testimony. I hope you heed into my words since the day of the Lord is closer than ever. WE are entering the pre- tribulation period when it's time of the "harvest" to be collected for the kingdom of Elohim. Those who became refined like gold will listen to this message. Please listen to the gospel of the kingdom of God I am preaching in my channel and be diligent.

[@cindyarnold7322]

Hi Ally! Nobody expects the Spanish Inquisition! Lol! No joke, thank you for sharing your story. I am sending you a big hug. You are so brave. You are a survivor honey. So many hurt, wounded and betrayed people out there who need to hear this message. Welcome to the wide awake world and get your butt back in school! Use your gifts wisely! Hugs!

[@prodigalAli]

I know...the school thing! Yes...another thing I've been contemplating. I think I will start small..with a couple of classes. I have a lot of anxiety just thinking about school....the "perfectionist imperfection"...wanting the perfect mark more than appreciating the journey of learning.

[@cindyarnold7322]

I say this because my niece went back to school and is close to getting her degree and she is 46 years young. It's a challenge, but I cheer on all the people who go back to school so they can teach the children. You have a beautiful spirit. You'll figure it out. Whatever you decide just know you are special!

[@matilda4406]

Well... I woke up at 47 and enrolled at Uni straight away (Medical microbiology and human physiology, etc) I got in and so far have completed two years and now two more years to go... I don't know if that helps? At 39, even if it took 6 years, that's only to 45 years of age - mature and qualified. But I TOTALLY understand if you don't do it either, it's very hard... and stressful. (I wanted to study out of school..)

[@broleosis]

Blessings to you my sister in Christ. Thank you for speaking out. Listened to the whole video from start to finish. Just couldn’t stop listening. Mat Christ comfort you forever. ❤️

[@marctheriault726]

Amen Sister. - Thank you to all that shun me and reminding me why I will never go back!!! 1H:06M TimeStamp!

[@whyistheskyblue5515]

That, was awesome. Reminds me why I love ya so much.

[@exjwborn-in2134]

This is a fantastic testimony! Thank you so much! 👍🏽❤️

[@marie-clairedelongchamp1330]

Alexandra, what more can I say that hasn’t already been said? I’ve read all the comments (noticed yours on JC channel) so was excited to listen to your 1st video! Love, Love LOVED it! I’m thankful for your feisty nature! I could identify with a lot of your testimony. However, I had no idea of the sexual abuse cover-ups. A lovely lady in the ministry made me aware, & very next week I dared watch A&E’s « Cults & Extreme Beliefs » I watched «Spotlight » & was horrified! So you can imagine my reaction to WT politics. I was done! (after 33 years) Told my husband, & disassociated after 3 weeks of no meetings or field service. They received my letter during C.O.’s visit. Husband is still active, & respects my decision. (He knows how really unhappy I’ve been, last 5 years) I love him dearly, such a stand up guy! Hoping for the best! I’m on my 7th month out, doing lots & lots of research, (books & videos as well as ARC videos) still not finished! I’m happy again & at peace with my decision! 🤓 thanks for having the courage to speak out❣️🥰

[@prodigalAli]

Wow! You are very decisive and bold! I attended all the meetings for nearly 3 years as a PIMO because I was trying to "be a Jew to the Jews"...it was draining and energizing at the same time. I'm so so so glad your husband respects your decision. Bravo to him. (and you!)

[@marie-clairedelongchamp1330]

Alexandra B, believe me, it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, but I just had to stay true to my values. I’ve come to realize this was my journey, not his! I can only hope some day he’ll wake up too! After listening to others, ( Mark O’Donnell) I’m convincing myself to be patient, & go about this in the right way, ( no pressure) perhaps he’ll start questioning things, in HIS own time. Thanks for responding, it does me a world of good❣️🥰

[@shanec8812]

Beautiful. Your are so loved by Jesus and now you can rest in his amazing grace and have a relationship with him. Amazing testimony and thanks for sharing!

[@unplugged2842]

Without 1914 they don’t have 1919, without 1919 they have no authority!!! Gold. I just loved your video. I faded a year ago, this is my 1st missed memorial. I have a PIMI husband so it’s been a hard year! Thank you.

[@Bamba1955]

Wonderful to hear, and really nice to hear an ex-JW who hasn't lost their faith in God, that's a double whammy to the WTBTS.

[@mockingjayg4855]

Thank you for sharing your story I am 48 born in and have just awoken in last few weeks thanks for giving me the strength hope and courage. I know I have a long journey ahead but I know will make it..

[@prodigalAli]

wow...just a couple weeks? I was in a full existential crisis mode then. Fear, doubt, anger, depression, paranoia, gullibility, anxiety, self righteousness, and a thousand thoughts a minute. What was the "aha" moment for you recently? I'd recommend journaling...I wish I had kept a record of where my brain was during my researching process...because I went through several interesting phases and my beliefs have evolved. Here's my other two cents: (take it or leave it...I'm not in the business of telling others what to do) Keep reading the Bible. Keep praying. And I've found a lot of healing (for my brain) on this website: beroeans.net/ I've personally met several from this group in person and they are really great people. Not dogmatic. It's like being in Theology Kindergarten...very safe space. No bullying allowed! But there is always the danger of starting WT 2.0 and so far I don't see anybody trying to be a narcissistic leader. Welcome to a crazy rollercoaster! I hope you have support from family and friends...you are not alone.

[@mockingjayg4855]

Thank you for your kind words I have had my doubts for a while but the Leah Remini special sent me over the edge I had always been quiet until that show even though I had been down the rabbit hole and horrified at what I was discovering. but after the show something snapped and I also made the mistake of posting a thank you for doing the show about this cult on her website which was linked to my facebook and some of my wifes friends contacted her that I was an apostate so everything is crashing around me but surprisingly I feel alive inside. iam going to take your advice on journaling and funny you mention keep reading the bible I was writing scriptures down to read later during your video thanks again for sharing your story I know I have a long road ahead but I am hopeful even though I don't have support network I feel I have been a bit conditioned for it I was DF when I was 19 and again at 32 that time for about 3 years no communication with anyone I will survive thanks for your advice I hope the best for you and your family your story has inspired me more than you know.Take care J. Grant

[@ariannarivera8629]

mockingJay g it’s been a year maybe a little more. How have you been?

[@PicardSisko7]

Thank you for sharing your story! You did great! Have you checked out the John Cedars channel? He has some helpful videos. I was never baptized as a Jehovah's Witness, thankfully. But I studied with them for 5 years as a child and it did so much damage. I chose college instead of getting baptized.

[@prodigalAli]

Yep! I like the John Cedar's channel...has helped me a lot.

[@whyistheskyblue5515]

Peter Banner - I like his channel for the news it provides, but of late his constant preaching of atheism is a bit annoying, imo.

[@massagetherapyforinjuriesf8197]

@@prodigalAli still i am inside .. what man.. what a bunch of elders so hypocrites .. lairs.. they lay to me 3 times in my own face... cold blood treatment to some specially to those who do not have to much education.. secularly .. prohibiting going to college... i have seen with own eyes that the elders protect themselves if some of them commit sins against of the sisters or brothers... Jehovah is still with them?

[@matilda4406]

@@whyistheskyblue5515 Yes, everyone has something good to share, but imo I too find atheists who leave seem to have more personal problems and seem to sneer at Christians. I totally understand mental health and healing with Christianity. God cannot lie. That makes us stronger than the universe, and more loving than we can even ever understand. Love Ali's addition to EXJW YOU TUBE - I'm addicted to watching and listening to everyone's stories.

[@WakeingUp]

The experience is different for everyone but in many ways Your experience resonates so much with me. Thank you for posting. I woke up at about 45 and 50 yrs old now been PIMO or 5 years. It tough! A psychiatrist and a psychotherapist keep me halfway sane at least. I have my wife adjusted to the fact that i don't accept as Gospel anything from the GB that isn't in the scriptures and the "door to door" isn't as big a deal as they proclaim so i haven't been to in person ministry since start of COVID. Although recently she has been and trying to get me out in the in person ministry. Also have worked on her a while to where she is OK with ZOOM for a lot of the meetings since my anxiety goes into overdrive anymore just thinking about going. She, my kids and other family are all still fully in so i expect it to be quite a while but hopefully someday i can go full POMO without losing all my family.

[@markusbrauns4274]

Great video. I'm 57, born in. I've been disfellowshipped/shunned for approx 20 plus years. I survived a suicide attempt soon after my last birthday. As good as mental health professionals are, I find it more encouraging to listen to xjws videos like yours. As they say, take it 1 day at a time.

[@justmadeit2]

Alexandra, i will add this video to the huge collection of Ex JW videos that i have been putting together for some time now, there are over 600 so far, possibly the biggest on youtube. They are a resource for people to refer back to. They are on my channel on here in the Playlist part, look for the folder titled 'The Truth about The Truth' and i ask that people condsider sharing the link once they are on the folder itself to places where it may be useful, forums, facebook etc, Thanks :) Justin. Fantastic video by the way, you are making a difference

[@secretgarden8821]

God does not have an organization, he has a family. Jesus said; we are all brothers, my mother and brothers are those who do the will of God. Sheepfolds that should belong to The Way.

[@fabiane5500]

I love your dogs ain't down with dat jws nonsense there snoring makes it All awesome

[@prodigalAli]

😊🐾❤️

[@eric5906]

True. I like the white dog stretch his legs, yawn and go back to sleep. Probably a happy home w/o the Witchtower cult. 🥂🕺💃😀

[@veratonnisen3639]

Read Jason Zelda and get get the full understanding of Gods word E T.

[@prodigaleve4580]

Good on you girl. I'm with you in this. Believe me when I say that it will only get better and better. Christ will open your eyes more and more, in his perfect timing. Welcome dear sister to the real family of Christians. This is where you belong. Thanks be to God for another JW being saved.🙏💕

[@craiglange4523]

Lovely video, I totally agree with you with the way the WT operates. Pioneers here in Australia I know are part of the reason why I decided to wake up due to their frantic desires to get their hours. I always believed in God and Jesus and don't view them the way JWs do now anyway. I'm glad you shared your story and have a desire to live. The hypocrisy in this organization is rampant. I was even in a congregation with one of the elders who were on the ARC for 7 years. I too stop attending meetings this year, I'm 37. I hope you continue to heal and thanks for your wonderful story