Spiraling in Overwhelming Anxiety, Religious OCD and Pain

[@rockerune]

To the woman who sent this in: I get you. God gets you. I feel so much compassion for you. We all do. You are an overcomer. Just to live with those kind of struggles shows the heart of a warrior. I pray for you. Hang in there, sister

[@JedStevens1234]

Yes Bless this sister !

[@smokingcrab2290]

And God bless you too brother. You gotta good heart

[@jwinters3941]

❤

[@jwinters3941]

@@smokingcrab2290❤

[@DavidSandyOfficial]

If Jesus, the Son of God, wept over Lazarus knowing that he would raise Him from the dead moments later, then surely it reveals our deep need for compassion and mercy and the space to grieve over loss.

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

Yo, spot on brother!

[@hanamas6239]

Jesus peace be upon him is just a prophet he is not a God there is only one God

[@DavidSandyOfficial]

@@hanamas6239 Jesus made himself equal with God. “For this reason they tried all the more to kill him; not only was he breaking the Sabbath, but he was even calling God his own Father, making himself equal with God” (John 5:18 NIV).

[@natalielizabeth]

The belief/feeling of being disqualified ("not good enough") is something that has affected me for a long time, but this beautiful verse changed that for me: “giving thanks to the Father who has qualified us to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in the light.” (Colossians 1:12)

[@marktdejesus]

Amen!!!

[@theresa42213]

She doesn't feed the widows, but she herself is a widow. l'm sad for this woman. Lord PLEASE show this lady your precious love, and teach her how to receive it.

[@himalamaxx6812]

obsessive compulsively watching your content while receiving help for obsessive compulsive tendencies 😭😭🤣🤣🙏🙏😇😇

[@_heyimbritt]

Ha ha ha I did that too when I first started watching this channel 4yrs ago lol

[@shannon47132]

Haha. 😂

[@KeriHilson-gi7rt]

I couldn't have put it any better 😂😂 Thank God were on a journey

[@JenniferPost]

She sounds like the sweetest lady...praying for her.

[@ronfox5519]

I fell asleep with this on. Woke up a few minutes later thinking i was hearing katherine hepburn on the tv.

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

This is me right now. Please help me God!!!!!

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

This is me right now. Please help me God!!!!!

[@ginaderuggiero1947]

This is like listening to someone explain every single thought in my mind, in context and for every situation. This is me 24 hours a day 7 days a week.

[@EYMmusic]

Mark seriously thank you. I literally have been feeling so much better consistently, I feel a huge change by really accepting God’s love for me

[@wastingtimeonyoutube.]

This is so good. After having a stillborn baby boy (died of a genetic condition) , then a miscarrige, then another baby boy with ANOTHER genetic condition, I've had to grieve alone. I've been drowning & tormented by unresolved grief, shame, legalism, condemnation & fear. I haven't been going to church because I've come to the conclusion that most churches aren't a safe place for people who are dealing with grief, mental health issues or torment etc.

[@sandiec6063]

@wastingtimeonyoutube God brought me here today . I was spiraling out and He knew this would help me. Just wanted to say that I hear you about church it's not a safe place for mentally ill or tormented or grieving folks which is really sad. The deep grief you have been through is different from mine but my heart touches your heart and I want to pray for you.

[@TheFoxxyKayy]

Crying because I have felt the same way for so long. Even walked away from God at one point because the torment was too much to bear it felt easier to just not believe at all and even now today sometimes feeling like it’s just too much. Other churches and Christian’s do not help the mental health of people dealing with what we’re dealing with. This was very validating to know there are people out there who feel like me and I’m not alone in the struggle against what does feel like torment

[@wastingtimeonyoutube.]

@sandiec6063 Thank you so much Sandie ♡♡

[@Th4EvilH4nd]

I’m so sorry that you’ve had to endure all of that pain and tragedy. I hope you know how loved you truly, truly are. I have prayed for the Lord’s love, compassion, and peace to wash over you and your family.

[@josephdelgadillo4075]

I needed to laugh. I just discovering the ocd in me. The religious ocd. I thank God for you brother Mark

[@Thebeloveds85]

Love her realness . I can totally relate to the self hatred and not being able to fix yourself. Wanting to do right for God, but not being able to fix yourself and then completely feeling condemned, guilty , hopeless etc. And also getting stuck in the rules of the scriptures and then just feeling pressure even more . The very fact she worries about whether she loves others or follows Jesus correctly ; shows me she does or she wouldn't worry about it. I have hope for her . She wants to do right and I believe Jesus sees that and that's enough for him. He knows your heart, my dear. You're validated through Jesus ❤

[@tonypino5415]

Aside from religious OCD and anxiety, there are REAL burdens in our lives that we MUST rely on Jesus for. Somethings only He can help us with.

[@sarena9600]

I can so relate to this precious sister in Christ. I also have a disability and I get frustrated because I can’t do the things I think God wants me to do. Then I find a list of disqualification bc of it. Then think God doesn’t love me bc of it or I’m disqualified for calling myself a Christian. My heart goes out to her bc I hear myself in her. The “ and I don’t feed the widows” …. Yup I can hear myself… thank you Mark for all your help.

[@cvanessa0105]

One things that I just realized is that she is a widow herself.

[@mattmartin4058]

"learning to be safe, not learning to be saved" wow

[@tonyaahn540]

What beautiful transparency this woman has. I identify with many of her struggles. Mark, good work in breaking this woman’s pain down and offering grace, love and Jesus to all the listening, hurting hearts.

[@naomimakessa]

God led me to this video and words can't express my gratitude

[@jasonstreun4993]

I so want to be this lady’s friend. In the very instant we meet the Lord, I am convinced that all of this will fade in an instant for all of us who suffer with this bullcrap.

[@natalieann2000]

Laying down the reasons why God doesn't love you. Really spoke to my heart. I love her and can relate so much. I love how honest she is.

[@Jennifera777]

This is fantastic! I am only half way through but your comedic value alone is worth the watch 😂, and I can totally relate to the caller. Thank you for sharing this call with your insights, it is giving me insight into my own food flying spiraling out traps. Bless the caller's heart, she sounds like a delight!

[@MonicaBU]

I totally related as well! I throw baby bottles most of the time instead of food but the babies throw their food so I related to that as well 😆

[@beaberean3842]

This was such a huge blessing to me. It helped me so much to finally understand how to properly process the grief and the pain that I've been carrying around for most of my life. I pray for this dear woman over the phone. She touched on so many things that I totally identify with. I too am looking for peace, joy, love, ultimately freedom! I pray this to you dear sister from a sister from another mister! God bless you Mark. I've only just started listening a week or two ago and you have helped me tremendously. All glory to God 🙌

[@CarlGarcia]

Mark, you are probably my favorite to listen to, I can see Jesus.

[@Jennifera777]

The fact that caller has an issue with reading the Bible makes me feel safer because I have the same issue, only I can't imagine that she would have committed the same type of sins that I did that makes me feels like I brought this scrupulosity on myself through disobedience.

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

I'm in anxiety and guilt about not being able to work. I feel shame all around me cause I just don't fit in.

[@loomoo2283]

I 100% relate to you, sister.

[@Jennifera777]

I pray that you would continue to grow in the grace of God. He loves you unconditionally. It took awhile for me to renew my mind to that fact but I can now read the Bible through the lens of His love and you will too sister. God bless you!@@loomoo2283

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

In my opinion going through Acts is one you can't go wrong with.

[@blessADD_DK]

So powerful! This woman's vulnerability is so appreciated and endearing. The reality check of the heart of God in our grief was so needed for my own heart. Thank you, dear sister, for being so real with Mark as it allows your spiritual siblings to not feel so alone. And thank you Mark, for all your work in relating biblical truths to mental health!

[@ladyesther]

This is really speaking to me. Thank you. It is very helpful and the fact that you made me laugh was so good because I don't laugh enough and I guess you could say I take myself way too seriously.

[@JustJesus4Me]

Hi Mark I just listened to this video and I so get the anger, anxiety, grief, disparity, and aloneness she was feeling. Working through all of the issues are so hard and just letting go and letting Jesus take that yoke sometimes feels impossible. One thing that I didn’t feel was helpful , although I know you were doing it in a fun loving way was mimicking that poor ladies accent. It could be taken as you were not that serious about her issues . Just a thought from me take it for what it’s worth. I do appreciate so much what you and your wife are doing to minister to those of us with mental health issues and helping us see the Fathers great love for us whether we have it all together or are a hot mess. ❤

[@Ancient-Paths]

I have only just discovered this channel .... and O how I needed it. I thought like you to begin with - and then when I had a really good LOL moment (because this dear lady was just like me), and I couldn't stop laughing at the thought of the food flying everywhere, I realised the importance of humour as a medicine. Mark was laughing WITH her not AT her ... and I am sure she understood. I am disabled and live alone. I had to unblock my loo recently and it made me think of all the s... flying around the bathroom. I sat on the floor and cried, and am ashamed to say I shouted out, "Don't you love me God?" Now I can see how funny it all was!

[@AshantyLovesJC]

i hope you kniw how needed your content is. might be the most important youtube channel i have subscribed too

[@brianmery761]

Man I just love this guy. Hilarious. Powerful. Easy. Loving. Legend.

[@andreash.906]

Sweetheart my heart goes out to you I've totally been struggling with the same self hate and irrationalities that you are. You are loved

[@tee1763]

Amen, Mark! This is a struggle I feel everyone can relate too. Not processing the trauma we've been through. I am trying myself to realize how much God loves me so I can love my son and husband and others the way God does. Thanks for all you do and I pray God blesses you and God bless the woman in the phone call 🙏

[@77lases]

This was EXTREMELY helpful!!! I cried through a lot of it b/c I'm in so many of those same places as her. I can't thank you enough for sharing this with your interjected insights. So,so helpful!!!

[@jasonstreun4993]

God bless you, Mark. The Lord has anointed you for this, sir.

[@shellbell8062]

I love how Mark is not too politically correct to do an impression of a Scottish accent (when the lady is from Yorkshire). Sometimes humour is exactly what we need. I listen to Mark on audio when I take my dog out for a walk and have lost count of how many times I end up belly laughing out loud on my travels. I pray that this lady has grace for herself, and peace and comfort in the love of God.

[@debbiesmith123469]

This was me 2 years ago. She has me in tears listening to her cry out, "I want to be free!" I am praying for her believing that God has opened the healing door. I found myself a therapist who does EMDR and I am no longer the same - I am free. 🧡

[@michellewilliams655]

Hi Debbie! How was your experience with EDMR?

[@debbiesmith123469]

@@michellewilliams655 life changing. Freedom I never knew existed. I am living a peaceful, happy life with PTSD. I am no longer controlled by it.

[@maggiej8358]

Hi what is EDMR?

[@debbiesmith123469]

​@@michellewilliams655It's been great! It has taken me from spiraling 24/7 to complete silence in my head...no more broken record playing in my head that use to beat me up constantly. It's gone!

[@debbiesmith123469]

​@@maggiej8358it's a type of treatment used by a qualified therapist. EMDR (eye movement desensitization and reprocessing) is a technique used to process through trauma to help the brain process past memories. Especially with people who suffer from PTSD but can be helpful for anyone who has unprocessed trauma.

[@lindsaygraham9115]

I feel so bad for this woman, and understand some of what she’s going through. I think understanding the Bible in the right context really helps destroy many of these thoughts. Also, understanding it through the lens of love from the Father is extremely important. I still struggle with this, but am growing in this area. Whoever is speaking on this recording, my prayers are with you. Praying the Lord will fill you with His love, peace, and comfort! 🙏🏻❤️

[@nikkinichelson3854]

😂😂😂. So true. So funny. But miserable when you don’t label it. Thank you for making it funny. Laughing about stuff really takes the power out of it.

[@Elizabeth574]

Hiya Mark, this lady isn't Scottish she is either from Yorkshire or Lancashire or somewhere north in England. I will pray for her

[@MandyGood]

I struggle with this and everything your talking bout I never heard in my life. Thank you.

[@HS-tm4xe]

God bless this sister. I believe there are many, many people who can relate. Thank you Mark. 🙏

[@narutogaming1395]

Thank you Mark for opening up a door of Grace and Healing in Jesus that has been closed for so many people.

[@michellecuneo2427]

I feel for the caller, I have very similar thoughts about not loving people enough like orphans and widows …but she is actually a widow! God loves her so much and sees her in her pain ❤

[@pagen5219]

The phrase "the letter kills, but the spirit gives life" refers in the context to the fact that under the Old Covenant, the law/letter given on Sinai brought condemnation and death as no one could obey it perfectly and be saved.

[@donnasantagata7663]

Mark YOU ARE GREAT!! Love to listen to you! You are so right on! I can hear you describing me! But I also am laughing so hard !! But keep it going Mark. Much love !!!😊

[@pagen5219]

He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant-not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.”

[@JenniferBartram-gr4np]

I have gotten so much help from your videos! Thank you so much! I wanted to say that I really enjoyed this style of video.

[@jenn_jean_kent_artist]

Precious woman and wonderful counsel. Thank you! You are helping me so much, in Jesus’ name!🎉

[@perseverance9888]

As always amazing wisdom . Love the quick sand analogy 👍🙏💙

[@wesleybarnes5376]

Thank you Mark, thank you ❤

[@truththatmatters]

Man this was one of the best videos that remind us to have God's heart of compassion when dealing with our flaws, struggles and difficult circumstances. A harsh inner critic builds a wall between self and receiving & understanding God's love for us. Learning to respond to myself in love is the biggest thing you've taught me Mark. Very grateful for your work...and your humor as you teach.

[@TheDreamDetective888]

This made me tearfully think about the song from Casting Crowns "Happy Plastic People"... All wholeness be to the caller! (And: wow, the crazy rants has been my issue... )

[@Tdav424]

I want you to know your channel is a great blessing for my life. 🙏❤️

[@tamzar2440]

Wow thank you , this was ❤❤❤ bless you Mr Mark & that precious lady! 🫶🏼😊🕊️

[@narutogaming1395]

Thanks!

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

We love him because Jesus is the Alpha and Omega of love!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@_cr8ive_]

This is me 100%. Never had a present father in the home. Its an ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE emotional state to be in. 😖😖😖🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️

[@xx_azura_xx8899]

Ok only 18 minutes in just about, and I’m 18, who also struggles with ADHD, GAD, and probably undiagnosed OCD (scrupulosity), and this practically describes the torment I’ve been feeling for about the past 10 or 11 months. I lost my aunt back in November of 2021, and I actually don’t deal with my emotions correctly, I just often suppress them or try to distract myself from them because I don’t know how to deal with it and I don’t like dealing with them, but this is probably also causing me a lot more issues than actually helping. But this already is very relatable and describes what I’ve been dealing with. Let alone my faith I constantly question like “Do I have it or not?” Then it just spirals into even more thoughts and worst feelings and whenever I try to read my Bible I just feel condemned. It feels like I’m going insane. On top with the struggles ADHD already gives me then add GAD on top of that, I feel I’ve gone down a hole and I don’t even know how I got myself in here, let alone how to get myself out. edit: this whole video sounds like me, and this lady sounds like me, even though our situations are different I can relate to this, and we may not have all the same disorder/pain, but yet I still relate to this. It also becomes hard for me because my ADHD and GAD seems to like to overlap. However I’ve also yet to be officially diagnosed with OCD, but therapist said it seems like I do also suffer from obsessions and compulsions. It just becomes harder for me because like I said my ADHD and GAD already presents issues that could look similar to OCD. Probably why it’s important for me to see a psychiatrist. Anyways, this entire video sounds like me. The other issue for me is that I also don’t often express my emotions outwardly, yet internally that’s how I deal with them. And also dealing with the issues growing up because my ADHD made me different and it already gives me issues, then when puberty hit it seems like my mental state got worse when that arrived and just worse over my teen years. However there are some times I have expressed my emotions outwardly, but I don’t often do this. Plus I am also not a people person, I seem to avoid people yet at the same time I fear being alone. I don’t really seem to care for people yet at the same time I do. Heck I fear becoming like Judas yet my brain tells me I’m worse than he was, and just this wave of negative feelings, mainly guilt, shame, anger, frustration, sadness, regret, pain, hatred, condemnation, I just feel like I’m drowning or there’s not enough air, I’m struggling to breathe it feels like. Yet I also as well hate myself for all of this as well. I’m in a toxic/abusive relationship with myself.

[@ogomaokwor6657]

I feel you on the compulsions and wanting be away from ppl at times AND the toxic relationship w urself. It’s not easy but ik God loves us and will see us through. A tip for intrusive thoughts or spinning; for spinning - if u feel trapped in a loop of thoughts that u can’t escape breathe and say the truth shall set you free! John8:34 if you don’t feel free it’s not true. For intrusive thoughts before u freak out be still and realise if it just popped in then it wasn’t u! And thank God that u don’t desire these thoughts. Or reject bad thoughts mean thoughts against yourself by saying the opposite with scripture❤ I pray you find breakthrough.

[@tc7605]

Your videos help me so much !!! You have no idea

[@JessicaJoy34]

This was so good 😊

[@angelablain3846]

She’s English not German 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😂😂😂😂😂😂this is hilarious. I can relate so much, the truth in it all makes it so much more funny. I’m laughing at myself.

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

This is really great content your putting out Senor Dejesus! Gracias lol

[@vanessachavezzz]

I'm currently spinning as I'm watching this and I'm crying and laughing at the same time.. what a mess.. lol

[@samanthaspeaks4206]

This was so good! Facts!!!

[@knowtruth2773]

Did anyone else die laughing when he screamed, " And by the way I don't feed the widows!"😂😂 I've totally been there!

[@ninadorado7341]

Love the shrek voic..a bit of entertainment with our learning today!

[@BrianFreligh]

I'm living in thought of blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I feel the loss of the desire to pray and other spiritual things. My life is constant worrying and anxiety, I'm a hot mess. I'm having physical symptoms of pain in my chest and I get this icy/hot sensation on my arms and neck and head and chest. I'm on medication for the anxiety and intrusive thoughts but, still suffer in my mind. I feel guilty of doing the blasphemy that I had in mind. Functioning on a Daily basis is non productive. I'm always looking for an answer to my dilemma. The thoughts of eternal torture and damnation can drive a person insane.

[@kevinmcdonogh7750]

Hi there 👋 please let us know if there is an update on this lady's situation . I would like to know how she is doing? 😊Thanks

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

Hey Mark, I'm very similar like this lady. I'm very angry and I'm trying to do better, but alot inner voices come and hurt me.😢

[@tamzar2440]

“”” when we are weak …. HE* IS SO SO SO STRONG 💪🏽 “”” TEAM* JESUS 💯 💯💯

[@lillymedesto]

This is so good to remember!!!!

[@skytrooper506]

If Gods love for me is based on my performance in any way I'm doomed! If God does love me he can love anyone.

[@maryannkinley5802]

This is so me😢. I thought it was adhd cause all the crazy constant thoughts

[@radvibes]

I also get self condemnational. & misinterpret scripture. Sounds like this sweet lady also struggles with health OCD and extreme lonliness. Bless her 💜 Mark you really got the accent Lol. My best advice to her would be to get a puppy!

[@tayma6743]

My OCD is on steroids. This has been a difficult 3 years. I’m trying to break free.

[@TAQ2Music]

I am in one now and pray that this video will offer some help. I have been crying out to God and doing the right things and am still crippled mentally and physically from this anxiety. Please tell me there is real practical help.

[@NoraHeartfix]

Are u in therapy or counselling now?

[@TAQ2Music]

@@NoraHeartfix Just started a few weeks back. So much to cover.

[@evolgenius1150]

This must be the hyper vigilant can’t shut my brain off, everything is a bad omen, sense of impending doom and abandonment shame attack and my mind runs in circles with racing and often condemning thoughts like a runaway train. Is that spinning? 😵‍💫

[@milkywayrocks]

Mark, thanks for these advices. My teenage daughter is likely having a case of religious OCD-everyday, there’ll be an episode where she blames herself for straying from god, and not feeling as passionate as before. Can you suggest some practical actions when she’s having those episodes? I don’t think praying, reading the Bible, or thinking more about the whole thing is productive, in fact the “distorted lens” situation makes the spinning worse…what can she do instead?

[@TheDreamDetective888]

39:24 it is so.

[@ABC-48483]

My life is Pretty much over and I'm only 28

[@reneeb.dandridge6522]

Wow, You slammed and mocked her the whole time. This is the first time i’ve heard you do this. 😢

[@pebblebrookbooks4852]

Technically, the caller and I are widows - y'all "should be" "helping" "us". 😜

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

I got 50,000 reasons why I'm feeling yucky inside.

[@arrenjaymeabel946]

How can we avail of the book and how much?

[@beegs7746]

What about the scripture that says " God did not give us a SPIRIT of fear but of power love and a sound mind."? I'm not being rude I'm just asking because it obviously says that it's a spirit that God didn't give us. Thanks!

[@MissPixel22]

🤣🤣🤣 I can relate to her

[@NoraHeartfix]

I felt it so much, i laughed and then i cryed becsuse i am just like her in dome things.. weeks ago i cslled my sis because of foodflys i cryed😢😮😅😂❤🎉

[@narutogaming1395]

Revelation 3:8 know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.

[@pagen5219]

#4:”…not of the letter…” Not of the Mosaic law. The Mosaic law is referred to as the “letter” because it tells people what they should and should not do. It is a series of writings that regulate moral and civil actions. Mosaic law is not a path to everlasting life. Some commentators interpret “letter” to mean the literal interpretation of the Scriptures (as opposed to the spiritual meaning), but this is not the currently favored interpretation.

[@shanalee8469]

Can you deal with the topic when you’re angry with God

[@marktdejesus]

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[@learningsevenresearchgoals1127]

What did the pilgrims do when this happened? Did they have self help or would they just give into the compulsions?

[@marktdejesus]

Yes. And they would pass down those compulsions to the next generation.

[@evolgenius1150]

I think she has a disability that makes it hard for her to eat, (she said she has a disability right before talking about food flying and being frustrated) she probably has bad shakes and can’t hold a spoon 🥄 to her mouth without the food flying all over. It’s a common issue with some elderly unfortunately… Parkinson’s and tremors from nerve damage. They even make special gyroscopic spoons that are designed to eliminate the shaking of the utensil. 😢 imagine trying to eat food but your hands are constantly trying to roll dice. 😢

[@pagen5219]

HE USED THE TEACHINGS TO SHOW LAWKEEPERS NONE COULD BE HOLY,THEY NEEDED HIM AS SAVIOR,

[@LexHeroux]

This is so me when I read the Bible 😢

[@dja192]

You do a great Irish accent Mark!

[@erraticvidsz]

🔥👍

[@ssuswlkr]

She doesn't say what physical condition she has.

[@kamyanorville645]

Very helpful info but moking this old lady in her pain is not right,i understand your trying to lighten the mood but you gotta find a better way

[@learningsevenresearchgoals1127]

Does he do that?

[@kimcurtis1943]

Please stop imitating her accent and laughing at her spiraling. All the words you are ministering are life-giving aside from accent and laughing.