I'm Starving Compulsions...Now What?

[@rachaelbeaulieu2152]

Currently going through this. Been spinning for months in certain thoughts pertaining to my salvation. Starting to starve the compulsions to keep spinning and it's definitely not a fun process. It feels like I'm ignoring something important or being deceived by not following the fears and urges, it's tough and I've shed a lot of tears. Thankful that Jesus is my hope and He will get me through. Thanks for sharing, Mark. Your channel is my favorite channel, so encouraging.

[@oliviaruiz51]

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[@vanessadesire7]

Exactly, exactly.. you’re not alone in this feeling for sure.. especially when thinking we’re being deceived 😂 🤦🏻‍♀️ How are things going these days??

[@julietreagus7043]

Hang in there, u'll come thru..

[@dja192]

You’re on the right track. I’m going through a lot of the same … detoxing from the spinning. I have so much more work to do. Blessings sister!

[@M3ganKathl33n]

*nobody* taught me how to work through my emotions. I was taught to hide my emotions and deal with them by myself. I was told "if you're going to cry, do it quietly." and yelled at for expressing anger very very often. Now I'm going through and "re-parenting" myself the best that I can.

[@stars19735]

hey megan, im in a similar boat as you, one thing that's been so healing for me in inviting Holy Spirit to come fill any voids within your soul that wasnt given to you as a child, etc. most of the time, i find that it's very difficult for me to have any empathy, kindness, or grace for myself, but through his grace, i am learning how to let myself be unconditionally loved, which not only begins to heal these deeply embedded wounds, but allows us to begin thinking and processing emotions differently.

[@tru5tg0d90]

Geeesh! Sometimes it's hard to rest in God's love & grace. The spiritual perfectionist in me feels like I need to work, work, work to prove myself to God. I need to work to earn heaven. I gotta do something, I can't just relax. I'm on the journey to allowing God to keep me instead of me trying to keep myself. Thanks Mark!

[@natalieann2000]

This is so true! I'm laughing at me. Investigation is definitely my compulsion. Got to make it better...instead now looking to God and trusting I'm OK. I'm also learning 45 opinions from men through different books doesn't help anything.

[@M3ganKathl33n]

Yep investigating and researching is my compulsions. I get hung up thinking I'm going to find evidence of the 100% pure unquestionable doctrine where someone can tell me exactly the right way to live. That's not how it works though. It's a daily following and trusting God.

[@JenniferPost]

Yep..this is me. It's how I found this channel..haha For me, I think I'm constantly looking for that 'missing piece'.

[@Andrea-iw9gh]

Are you me!?!? 😆 blessings to you sister. We can do this!

[@gracetruthfreedom5068]

Those opinions really got to me. Currently on an open ended break from instagram. Had to unsubscribe to a few channels on KZbin too. It's hard cause I feel like I'm choosing to ignore needed warnings that'll keep me spiritually 'safe'.

[@daisyholt7151]

I’ve been struggling with this stuff for so long, and had no clue what was wrong with me. I’ve been having horrific dreams and thoughts. Please pray God can help me start a new, He said He makes all things new. I’m getting help from a therapist, but I’d appreciate it if someone, anyone, could pray for me. Thank you!

[@shannonl9633]

Praying for you 🕊️🙏

[@natan_skills9976]

How are u doing now ?

[@lukebraganzajones1662]

I hope you are feeling better, realize It is a journey, and God wants US to understand that guilt doesnt come from him and that we have to keep trusting in him and work on ourselfs ❤

[@ashleyodell3778]

Resist the devil and he will flee. I'm practicing not attaching feelings to every thought and thinking I need to do something with every thought. I recognize my unhealthy neuropathways.

[@julietreagus7043]

All i can say is thank you Yahshua for bringing me insight and freedom. Halleluyah

[@amelajay]

For anyone coming along later: something that is helping me is to take Bible reading in smaller doses and focus on psalms or the new Testament primarily in bite sized pieces at first. Focus on grace. Find Scriptures about everlasting love. If you must seek direction, seek out the attributes of God and our faith that fuel your gratitude and adoration. Change prayer to Thanksgiving and praise and worship. Again, make it five to ten minutes if that's what you need to do to not become obsessive. Make it something you do in bite sized pieces throughout the day- a thank You for this beautiful weather here and a thank You for Your faithfulness later...

[@TomPlantagenet]

Thank you! That is very good advice!

[@Brian-rs4ug]

So Good! Compulsion we are no longer friends. You might call but you have been blocked!

[@annasupyo]

Wow!!! Emotional manipulation is a control tactic! God is not a manipulator! Such good connecting points between the condemning feelings we feel and thinking it's God when God doesn't condemn! ❤ amazing stuff Mark

[@nicoleanthony9398]

“You thought condemnation and anxiety were God speaking to you” 😮😮😮🎉🎉🎉bombshell 💣 💣

[@TomPlantagenet]

I read that a few seconds before he said it!

[@Ness.Vezz3]

This journey isn’t easy at all, I’m in the heat of it all about 7 days in but I am so beyond grateful to God and Mark 😮‍💨‼️🧡 and other OCD teachers. The challenge is worth it. No matter how hard it gets. We can’t stop.❤

[@Mumsy_Soap]

Good morning new friend. Wow. Thanks! I found you today, this popped up in my feed. Thank you Lord!! Lots of great stuff to feed on, oh-my!! What a thought to feed a compulsion with religious activities. What a trap! Looking forward to slowly digesting what God has shown you. Thanks for sharing

[@madisonxcho]

This. I don't know how this video came up on my recommendations but it came at the most perfect timing. I had been suffering at the peak of my anxiety in the past few days, my relapse into catastrophising my worrisome thoughts was growing my fear of God and my own self in an unhealthy manner. Your message gave me such a great reminder of how to reframe my thinking and actions, thank you so much.

[@mrairplanedesigns]

Wow...I really needed this today. Every time I start to have the fear and guilt, I take it as a sign that I need to reconsider and go back to the compulsions. It's definitely hard to walk through them and get to the other side. Thanks Mark, you always hit the nail on the head and I appreciate your boldness, honestly and vulnerability.

[@chrleliu]

So grateful for your videos Mark. Been watching so many videos and tried different therapists, and when I came across your videos, its like omg finally, this is it! I was born in China, grew up in Singapore, its amazing how God connects your videos to me in the midst of my isolation, nothing is ever impossible for God to reach me! Haha

[@Jesusandmentalhealth]

Listened to this 3 times now. Very powerful Mark! So encouraging.

[@vanessadesire7]

The salvation thoughts come up no matter what I learn & no matter how much I feel I believe in God. I went to get reassurance the other day from my Pastor’s wife because I guess she’s a counselor and we talked for about an hour & you would think BAM 💥 that’s all I needed but NOPE!😅Whatever I learn just doesn’t settle in my mind like it should.🤦🏻‍♀️ These thoughts are just always there for some reason. I keep repeating to myself that I am accepted because of Jesus and not me and etc.. which has held me & made me feel more confident & so I’m super grateful to God for helping these thoughts be less intense but the thoughts are still in the back of my mind “Maybe you were never saved in the first place”, “You didn’t feel that salvation prayer enough even tho it’s been like the 20th time you’ve said it” and etc… and even right now I am still struggling with the thought that I don’t have this struggle (OCD) 😅 this thought keeps coming up throughout the day 😅 but I identify it and welcome it to stay because if I keep trying to push it away it’ll come back stronger. Keep going, guys. We got this in Jesus name.❤

[@jamesvan2201]

You keep hearing people say things like "God is love. He wouldn't make you feel condemnation." Etc. But then you think, but what if they can say that because they have no condemnation because they are saved. They don't know what it is to be condemned so they have no issue. "But what if I'm actually accursed of God and I'm condemned and they think I just have some kind of mental struggle?" Something like that? One verse that always freaks me out more is jesus when he said "not all who say lord lord will be saved." Then I start thinking...."omg....maybe I'm one of them!"

[@philipcooksey3422]

@jamesvan2201 I used to be freaked out by that verse too. But I have been trying to take scary verse like that one and go back and read them in full context. He's talking about false prophets in that verse. He was warning about cults or false religions that use His name but are not acknowledged by Him if they as distorting who He is when they are fallowing Him.

[@gailwright8082]

Once again mark excellent teaching. Thankyou. I've fired my interpreter, my fear and anxiety. I have no staff left so that makes God the boss now. Blessings Gail from Australia

[@maddymclaugh9660]

This is the only way I’ve been able to start healing from my ocd after learning about core wounds…

[@leonas3840]

Thank you for sharing , what's core wounds ?

[@tonypino5415]

A lot of these problems come from demons that became attached through trauma gateways. Don't feed the trolls. Ignore a bully and eventually it will go away.

[@HS-tm4xe]

So thankful for this!🙏

[@bettycox1386]

WowWowWow!! Thanks, Mark!🎯🔥

[@prosper624]

Godbless you man

[@meleahrose3361]

Thank you for all you do, Mark! You’ve helped me tremendously.

[@angelaa1979]

Great Video ! Wow this is Such great information I had to share your channel

[@mjk5254]

"They had me on speed dial" lol

[@martineblanchet-art3377]

So good !

[@KelilaMurdock]

15:30 It's ok, it takes time to live new

[@vanessadesirechavez]

Thank you

[@athelynisalazydirtyhippie4495]

Me worrying about the salvation of those around me. Me: "Alright I'm saved cool" Brain: "But what if THEY'RE not saved?" Me: "Crap" I do not want to go back to that habit.

[@justapseudonym7]

I do this for every problem that i have 😢 I feel guilty when I express my wants and needs because I wasn't allowed growing up. Trying to help myself realize I'm allowed to ask for things

[@nicoleanthony9398]

That’s the TRUTH BROTHA

[@JamesVestal-dz5qm]

As pastor David brown welcomes us to a new academic year of Christianity I am reading the Bible so I get the highest score in the church!

[@carmie2431]

so perfect. been over forty years of guilt, etc.

[@vanessadesire7]

😢❤

[@donnac5917]

I wish my therapist would want to go deep and search the why and root instead of reading off a text book on what OCD is 🥺 but then again writin this post I realize i want to take control of my sessions and bring in my perfectionist self 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@riana-tr4bg]

My compulsion is making noises to disrupt my thoughts or arguing with my thought I feel crazy and exhausted

[@KelilaMurdock]

26:00 Healing how you even revive love, how to be present

[@benjessikarogers1187]

Amen amen hallelujah

[@Will_Vlogz]

What to do when you finally give up the OCD compulsion and your anxiety went away but now you feel nothing and think that you gave up?

[@vanessadesire7]

I would say just keep going the same thing.❤

[@SL-es5kb]

It’s kind of funny cause before we had any idea of what was going on with me my husband and I used to joke that being “disturbed” is my natural state.

[@KelilaMurdock]

6:00 identify the obsession and the compulsion

[@KelilaMurdock]

4:00, there are a lot of compulsions.

[@KelilaMurdock]

8:50

[@KelilaMurdock]

15:00

[@grahamlucas1915]

Which of these scriptures is right? They seem to be contradictory. Romans 7 1-3. Matthew 19 9.

[@ConnorCampbell-g8b]

Mark what if I feel like the Holy Spirit it telling me to do something but if I don’t do I feel Iike I’m denying the Holy Spirit

[@baileyscott3209]

It's depends on what it's telling you to do. And remember, Jonah didn't go to Nineveh when he was called but God forgave him.

[@robertstacey5351]

Romans 14:23 But he that doubts is condemned if he eat, because he eats not in faith. For whatever is not of faith is sin.

[@devinrussel5521]

8:15 ocd asmr

[@rafaburdzy449]

The OCD is abusive , OCD isn't true our friend. OCD is a big bully.

[@jonathanthomasdrums]

Scrupulosity has been my Ocd struggle. Over-praying. Over-reading. Over-sensing. I’ve been starving those compulsions for a while now (a month or so) since beginning to watch your videos. I feel zero motivation to pursue relationship with God at this point...or really, I just always choose “the other thing to do” in any given moment. Felt healing at first but now it’s getting easier to sin and harder to care about God. Am I doing something wrong?! Do I decide to just reintroduce prayer and reading the Word even though I don’t want to? For the record, I’ve condensed and rewritten this question several times already because, thanks to your videos, in fleshing it out I see the holes and “problems that aren’t the problems.” But this is just where I landed.

[@jonathanthomasdrums]

Follow up: After processing a bit I see that I don’t have a reference for what relationship with God is like outside of obsessive compulsive feelings, sensations and actions AT ALL. It’s always been that or nothing because I was too worn out to care. Black or white. Well here in the grey is all my junk, negative emotions and temptations…and I need to learn that God is present with me and I am loved here. Dare I say, in relationship with me even. EVEN THOUGH I am not emotionally wanting him or pursuing Him right now. This really didn’t seem to be “the answer” until I realized how little experience I have on this side of ocd processes. Maybe I don’t have to start praying now to be accepted. Maybe I don’t have to do all the internal processes to drum up feelings for God. Maybe this is the start of a new type of relationship. Lord knows I’ve tried the other way plenty of times. On a perfectionist’s note: I was reminded that as I’m learning to process emotions I’ve long buried, I don’t have to follow what I feel just because I feel them. So, in leaning into that “saying no to bad things” I feel better. But maybe that’s just me feeing more worthy because I’ve said no to things and yes to Him which would be part of the OCD process right?🤷🏻‍♂️ …there’s more to learn. #process

[@maddymclaugh9660]

I relate to this 500% and I hope he will do a video on this………..

[@jayleighjess]

I could have written every word of this myself. This is my exact struggle too. When I pray or read the Bible I can feel that I’m doing it as a compulsion, so when I stop chasing compulsions, I stop praying, etc. And it feels better at first, but then I start feeling farther from God and more indifferent to him since I’m not taking time to connect with him. I know I’m doing something wrong here, but I’m not sure what it is. I really want to know God more as my loving Father, and I really want to pray and read the Bible, but I never want to do those things in the moment, so whenever I decide to do them, it’s a compulsion done to relieve guilt and make me feel more “acceptable” to God. I really hope Mark does a video on this too, because I’ve had many sleepless nights over this issue. How can I get to know God’s love for me if I’m trying not to pray and read my Bible in a compulsive way, and if I also don’t naturally seem to want to put effort into getting to know God more? And why do I seem to lack that motivation?

[@jayleighjess]

Actually I just had a thought that maybe I don’t feel like doing those activities in the moment because they still feel a bit condemning to me, like I still have negative feelings about them that have built up over years of scrupulously and guilt, and maybe I just need to keep learning to accept myself and accept God’s love, and just accept that it will take time for me to not associate the Bible and prayer with feelings of guilt. Maybe I just need more of a journey mindset. Just putting my thoughts here in case they’re a help to anyone else lol

[@vanessadesire7]

I feel you both on this but this is what happens when we start “avoiding” Mark said we shouldn’t do that.🙏🏼 We can start avoiding by avoiding praying/reading. I would say when you feel calm and not worked up, try reading alil and praying alil. When prayer feels odd or something just tell God to help you through all of this if you can’t think of anything else to say. Tell Him to walk with you through this every step of the way and immediately move forward after your prayer.❤ He knows what you need just keep going and keep moving forward with Him even if you feel nothing. He knows your deepest feelings and desires whether you feel it or not. He got you.

[@brookehawkins5764]

Mark, what do you recommend for someone who fears falling away from God or losing their belief?

[@marktdejesus]

Its a sign of a punishment based relationship with God. Check out my video on that.

[@marktdejesus]

It can also be OCD influenced. If so, check out all my material on that. . .

[@KelilaMurdock]

19:40

[@JamesVestal-dz5qm]

The question isn't whether christ is necessary, the question is whether christ is moral! People can be taught to be christians.

[@Yahuah-d3i]

When i think about i could lose God one day i realy wish i was never born it would have been better that i don't exist at all!!!

[@adiraFEARSHEAVENLYFATHER4EVER]

Awe I am happy you exist. I am sorry you feel thus way 😢😢😢😢 God loves you talk to Him He's with you always.

[@vanessadesire7]

I’m sorry you feel this way. Please don’t give up. You’re not alone.❤

[@Yahuah-d3i]

@@vanessadesire7 thank you dear

[@adiraFEARSHEAVENLYFATHER4EVER]

You can't lose God ever

[@Yahuah-d3i]

@@adiraFEARSHEAVENLYFATHER4EVER thank you So much it's nice to hear

[@alf401]

This sounds like Therapy in General, so this is God.. ?

[@alf401]

because if that's the Way this is Power, and you have to be gratuful because you're the evil black and white thinker - that leads to nowhere. Yeah and what @annasupyo said about control tactic... and after all that. Oh yeah well you didn't try hard enough, thats what's Therapy like