me and my husband // amv

tw for grooming and implied sa!
sorry for such a dark vent but hnnn havent been feeling very well:") made this as a kinda sad fest thinking about how 99% of my relationships with adults in my childhood were predatory
hopefully should have some MAP parts done here soon atl
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[@carcophilus]

from one csa survivor to another i hope you’re doing okay and i wish you luck on your recovery journey. lovely art as always, and i wish you good luck!

[@hotdog2611]

I'm really hope your doing ok now and that this person is FAR FAR away from you (as well as anyone else that did this to you). I know how it feels.

[@arachnits]

god the imagery... i hope youre feeling better and the bunny explodes

[@mintwidow883]

I hope that you find a way to get through this, that you already have, that you know that you owe no one anything if it means it’ll hurt you. Stuff like this-THIS- can really hurt someone’s childhood, and it’s honestly disgusting. It’s disgusting that the point people ever have done it is true, and I hope you find better people than them all throughout, and that you already have. I wish that you have a good day and this person(these people? SRRY dunno) stays a million miles away.

[@Sage_Staddeck]

As someone who has had to live with sexual trauma, yeah. I can understand this. I sense your pain, and I can tell that there's a part of you that is never going to feel whole again.. because every single victim of CSA has a part of them that feels that way. And honestly? I'm kind of glad that you also cope through the mess of emotions that is healing from this. When it comes to Mitski's me and my husband, it's also a very personal song to me. The strange way it represents experiencing it, finding out you did, beginning to try to heal from it, and then seeing how experiences affects how you interact with others, especially when it comes to close relationships(like with platonic ones, romantic ones, even essential things like interacting with authority figures at work and school), and then how it affects your mental state. Sexual trauma really does fuck you up, and regardless of how it's interpreted or depicted, nothing will ever break how much it shatters you(shit, a pun). Even listening to covers of me and my husband feels validating of what I've-and maybe even what you and other victims of sexual trauma-have experienced. And once again, I understand you. I just hope that your recovery, whether it be by yourself or with other people, is going well and continues to go greatly. I also hope that the next drink of water you have is absolutely delicious. Good job on the art too! Have a great time(I dunno what else to say, sorry)!

[@docdoc.4500]

Thank you. I was having a bit of a panic due to my own trauma as a CSA survivor, and saw this in my recommended. It helped calm me down oddly enough.

[@mariibugs]

As a victim of SA (COCSA) and grooming, I want to say to you how much I highly admire your content and just you. It takes a lot of strength to come forward about this kind of stuff, and I am very proud of you for sharing your story. I hope you recover emotionally, and I wish you the best always and forever

[@_.0Sasha_Draws0._]

I had a lot of troubles with adults around me as well so I know what it is like. My mother used to say really mean things to me out of anger, and my dad did as well.. for other adults, I never really had a good relationship with adults since I've been bullied and stopped trusting adults as well as kids. So, I hope you're doing okay now, and remember none of this was your fault, especially as a child. Have a nice day/night!

[@ghostscouts]

That sounds horrid what you went through and I’m so sorry you had to, I really hope this helped you feel less heavy and please know your so much more than the past good luck with your stars

[@chaoticcow4357]

really hope you're doing well! getting through sexual abuse and any form of grooming can really be damaging, i'm thankful I never had to go through the physical part of sexual abuse (or abuse that wasn't over the internet), and it only got as far as pornography and exploiting for sexual roleplay (still pretty damn bad but you get what i mean). i hope that no matter what you're going through, you're able to find the good parts in life, and are getting the help you need, and don't ever let these experiences define you or make you feel ashamed.

[@nekkusu9579]

no yeah online can be pretty bad too as someone else who went through it especially for like 2 years istg

[@chaoticcow4357]

@@nekkusu9579 yeahh, i was 10 and the roleplay exploiting happened for around 2 months, but i'll always know physical and confrontational sexual abuse can kick you in the bum real hard. especially since we're all kinda more triggered by stuff we see and feel rather than what we read (i mean i dont rlly get upset when bringing up the exploiting but my entire brain breaks down when it comes to the pornography)

[@almondsun]

So sorry to hear you went through something like this, I really hope you're doing much better!! :o

[@grgerb]

it's so terrible how someone so sweet can change so quickly. especially when you really thought you had something special.

[@anglepsycho]

Honestly, I'm similar to you. My ex was atrocious to me, I'm baffled I even tolerate NSFW when it doesn't involve me directly from how gross she was to me. She was my first partner too, so it felt weirdly normal to have her loudly declare me abusive when she would never stop except when my friends and the school bell came around. So now, there's my best friend and my current partner, who helped me realize I was being groomed in a way my own mom couldn't explain it. The reason I describe it is, from being mentally disabled as autistic, nobody takes your emotions seriously because you don't know what's socially normal behavior. So when someone implies they take photos of you sleeping, really push for non-con Yandere Simulator roleplays with the two pedophile rivals and the boy target, keep pushing to explore your body when you don't even touch anywhere like that, and then complain when you say you need a break for a couple hours because school all day drains your social battery and calls you a domestic abuser from it? It needs to be told, in a way similar people can understand. Aka why Vocaloid and My Little Goat hit so hard.

[@toastedtoast4332]

When i saw the tw i already know what would happen. Really really hope youre okay.

[@ed3lweiis]

this is literally the saddest and the prettiest thing ive seen

[@maximumorgans]

your artwork is beautiful and the way you portrayed your experiences in this video are so incredibly visceral and effective, im so sorry about what happened and I hope you're doing better now

[@Nebulilac]

This is such a beautiful beautiful animation. Im so so sorry you had to go through what you did and i well and truly hope things are becoming better for you now. You deserve the best. ❤

[@p0gothep1ratec4t]

I had not read the description the first time I saw the video. I thought it was just OCs..... I'm sorry. I can't imagine what all that was like... I hope you are much better now, with people who love you and want you to be happy and stay well :)

[@crows_nest1873]

This just gross this even happens and I hope everything is so much better now!!! Good wishes to you

[@astronomydemon6312]

As a another childhood SA victim I'm so sorry that you had to go through that

[@anonymousfloppa2917]

I did experience grooming but i never experienced this sa, i hope your doing okay, man.

[@AngelCnderDreamer]

Oh dang... I'm sorry whatever you went through of with these sickos, I hope it gets better for you in the end. :c I jsut came across this so I don't know what else to say.. except wish you luck and hope. ♥ Btw your amv was lovely, even it was a vent it was still lovely, I hope it helped you release some emotions, I know doing art can help with that as it can be like therapy in some way. Anyway good luck to you. ♥

[@jemjem461]

Hey, I hope you feel better soon! I'm so sorry that happened to you Bad times always pass eventually, you are so strong and I know you can get through this! People care about you and you can always find help when you need it! Be it from family, friends or even a therapist. You are worth so much and you deserve happiness! Always prioritize your mental health, take breaks when you need them! We will support you no matter what! I hope things get better! I wish you the best!

[@janelle9998]

I hope you're doing alright, that's a terrible thing to go through. You're not alone ❤️

[@tailsfan23new]

fellow survivor here. i felt this on such a deep and personal level. thanks for having the courage to share this beautiful piece of work. fuck the people who did this to us.

[@finley_cx]

I really hope you're healing okay and that the person is not in your life anymore. Stay strong and please remember you're not alone

[@sylverscribs0490]

YOU’RE BACK

[@Feraldinosaurr]

i hope all ur abusers get what they desevred ]: i also wish u luck on ur recovery!

[@vynniev9611]

What a gorgeous amv for such an awful experience. Godspeed

[@InkAnimates]

Oh god, I hope you're doing better :(

[@HelloHello0w0]

Im sorry that happened to you, hope everything is better now ❤

[@idiotrat2698]

i hope you're taking care, i really don't know you but your art portrayed clearly what most are too afraid to speak, it's really difficult to deal with this all i'm sure (csa survivor as well, unfortunately), i hope you can find the closure you deserve

[@NeonLightsNOCAP]

*hug* We’re all by your side :) and we know you’ll do and be great. I hope you recover soon ❤

[@strawbeetle]

I understand how this feels, lemme know if you need anything

[@LeslieDAho]

I'm sorry for you

[@ghosty-1]

My sibling broke our stove in a RENTAL HOUSE and my parents don’t have the money to pay for it rn, and from the way things are looking we’re not gonna have a Christmas this year. I’m mad at my sibling because my parents are already really stressed out and they just made it worse for them, so is there any way a 13 year old can help out his parents with money? Please I need ideas

[@MiiPunchy]

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