Melancholia by Charles Bukowski

Music: Ariana by Tony Anderson
Speaker: Tom O' Bedlam (SpokenVerse)
Full poem:
the history of melancholia
includes all of us.
me, I writhe in dirty sheets
while staring at blue walls
and nothing.
I have gotten so used to melancholia
that
I greet it like an old
friend.
I will now do 15 minutes of grieving
for the lost redhead,
I tell the gods.
I do it and feel quite bad
quite sad,
then I rise
CLEANSED
even though nothing
is solved.
that's what I get for kicking
religion in the ass.
I should have kicked the redhead
in the ass
where her brains and her bread and
butter are
at ...
but, no, I've felt sad
about everything:
the lost redhead was just another
smash in a lifelong
loss ...
I listen to drums on the radio now
and grin.
there is something wrong with me
besides
melancholia.
Video: All royalty free from from pixabay.com
#Bukowski #CharlesBukowski

[@josteinlobos694]

It makes me so sad because he truly loved that red head there’s so many poems about her

[@tonywalton1052]

Cupcakes was more an object of lust.

[@TtotheCizzel]

It makes me happy that he could love so much

[@Ritwika-Saha]

@@TtotheCizzel what a beautiful perspective!!

[@cassiuscal]

@betty. Yeah

[@josiah9559]

Charles Bukowski and Charlie Brown are the same person

[@rocbronson]

Charles Bukowski existence was needed in every era! Couple his words with the voice of O'Bedlam, you have intoxicating art! This is one of the greatest thing I've ever heard. 🙌🏾

[@dritanvarfi5274]

Indeed man indeed. Truly can't get any better than this.

[@MrFree2nest]

"Me, i writhe in dirty sheets". This line reminds me of my friend's husband who is now bed-ridden with cancer. Happy he was when his son who works abroad sent him some cash to spend for his medical check-up. He squandered the hard-earned cash with his girlfriend instead. When the moment of truth finally arrived he was dumbstruck to learn that he has cancer in his prostate. I could just imagine how regretful he must have felt at being stupid.

[@brettharter143]

boomers, when will they learn

[@jamiepoems]

Thanks Tom your voice is made for poetry and for the stars of old-time poets.

[@paulamitchell1653]

IDK why I love Mr. Bukowski poems maybe it’s that shot of peppermint oil or wasba paste that opens my senses… hahahaha… I feel; it’s the universalness of ppl he is referring to…”there is something wrong with me”… bc stars can fall from dark skies!🎉 An excellent poet…

[@demonview6075]

It’s like this music was made for this poem - great job 👍

[@AniketSingh-hr8mi]

This is one of the poems of all time

[@carlpedro8427]

Yes, it certainly is one of them.

[@crystaljumi]

The music fits 🥺

[@ahmadkhan3134]

I find it funny how meloncholy has also had my back. Its the one thing I can count on when everything seems out of reach

[@arafrahman8363]

Another masterpiece of Bukowski 👌👌

[@josuemazariegos3895]

Everything I've heard so far from him are masterpieces

[@arafrahman8363]

@@josuemazariegos3895 yeah.. Indeed

[@JoaoPedro-le8ib]

It's quite interesting how people get used to melancholic/depressive phases, it's a mix of feelings. Sometimes it feel that melancholia is indeed a friend, but not in a usual good relationship, it's the one that destroys your routine and habits and turns it into a frenzy spiral, yet you can't get away from this toxic dear friend.

[@schechter01]

Melancholia is the friend who substitutes for an enemy.

[@franciscogerardohernandezr4788]

it is addictive, and brings a pinch of pleasure and catharsis through long, hard times.

[@JoshuaBandit]

He was an alcoholic so that helps you stay in that state

[@MissMcGuire]

Your focusing on loss is perfect proof that it is not really loss that brings you grief but that you are nurturing a sense of nostalgia. And that is very poetic of you, in and of itself.

[@Heybuddy1234]

Relax

[@MissMcGuire]

@@Heybuddy1234 Grind and shut up.

[@rauldiaz2518]

A gem

[@endoneswa]

This is David Attenboroughs voice at 1 in the morning.

[@alfonsinavidela5706]

Aca tmb

[@no_one_worth_knowing]

Even better, it's Tom O'Bedlam's voice at every hour of everyday

[@aasaestetich4192]

Here's 2 am :)

[@christopherramos5690]

The music is cheerfull while the poem is melancholic.......

[@christopherramos5690]

A bit bipolar 😄

[@brucewayne7476]

since I was little, I dream of a redhead woman, and since I was a kid I always feel sad and melancholia. like a weight in my chest. always there. I had this redhead woman in my life, it was like christine hendrics but smaller and with green eyes, the most beutifull girl I ever seen. but with so much troubles in mind, suicidal, depression, pills, and other stuff. it was my goddess , my queen, in general. I try to help but she just gone, throw me away . she is alive but not with me. and again , alone again, in the same room , but now with the memories , the bittersweet memories. of the lost readhead, and laugh at this, bukowski was another companion in my life, is like is redacting my toughts again and again.

[@MGMG-lc2fe]

Oh Charles your words are comfort and warmth...love from a melancholic ginger. ✨

[@sabishiikarasu4158]

Thank you 🖤

[@shcxatter2]

Melancholia is the feeling you get when you become inoxicated on your own view of the world. Next time remeber how freeing it is to be yourself.

[@jonathanzuniga3681]

I loved my redhead as well. Gone is she now, to a former lover. Well, current lover better said. I thought we were writing a book together, but I was just a bookmark.

[@arjunkannambath7328]

u r a Bukowski urself (sort of...)

[@whemohguy7020]

I felt that...

[@AustinMorganDa_paperboy]

@@arjunkannambath7328 Chuck would have killed himself before posting this

[@markheim6731]

Very well put. I am in the same way...

[@lindboknifeandtool]

You have your own fuckin book, hers sounds lame and boring without you.

[@emmakrumm6399]

I will do fiveteen minutes of grieving for the lost redhead. I have been doing one minute of grieving, one per minute. For four months. My soul is bruised and bitten from it, and I so much try not to go back. I feel close to my redhead when I am in pain.

[@emmakrumm6399]

Six months and one day without her now. I didn't go back, but I'm yearning for it often enough. It never gets better, but it will get easier. Take care.

[@TtotheCizzel]

@@emmakrumm6399 turn up the drums

[@lonewolf33945]

One day you will wakeup and you won't feel the same

[@emmakrumm6399]

@@lonewolf33945 In what way do you mean that?

[@yinyang8997]

@@emmakrumm6399 u will heale like nothing happen trust me.

[@VenerateMe]

Keep it up!

[@johncogs8717]

Cheers man, will do!

[@aquagirl9228]

❤️

[@troywilliams6694]

I hadnt seen thisone before

[@Skanda1111]

If you aren't the purpose of someones life you are nothing but a pit-stop. And pit stops never last more than a few seconds.

[@mariamelkholy8567]

This poem seems more random than most his poems, but also more pretty. I guess that’s what melancholia is.

[@christopherramos5690]

He suffered from bipolar

[@schechter01]

Melancholia can manifest in a few different ways, but "pretty" is not a suitable adjective for any of them.

[@jaredbond7908]

I just wish I had young love. And then I would have never felt a day of depression in my life.

[@mic4902]

If I never see you again, I will always carry you, JYA/M.

[@tonywalton1052]

Pamela Wood, cheers to you girl

[@AniketSingh-hr8mi]

who?

[@alexanderson7047]

The comments saying the music doesn't fit bothers me. If you don't think the music fits, you do not understand the poem. Which is a good thing.

[@malissahyatt2425]

Little redheaded girl.

[@toddjohnson271]

Life is nothing but mostly suffering and pain....but I wouldn't miss the good things for the world. Thunderstorms, blizzards, break ups, betrayals, christmas presents, great food, sun rises, and music. Quit whining, and get busy living.

[@Crazicus_Cappicus]

Interesting choice of words… But still beautiful

[@alexanderson7047]

What words do you find interestingly out of place? This is absolutely no objection to what you are saying. I really want to hear. I find his word placements great.

[@TtotheCizzel]

There is something wrong with me besides melancholia

[@r.a.8861]

bread and butter

[@johncogs8717]

Cheers man, I can't say words are my greatest skill and there's probably a mistake in every video. Think of them as easter eggs hahah!

[@radiantchristina]

which collection is this poem in ?

[@DGoalvideogameO_o]

😊

[@aedleathers]

where her bread and butter are at...not brain and butter

[@davidammann7814]

Melancholy head like a melon face like a collie

[@rohan23k]

Music choices are personal but next time you can try this piece for Bukowski's or any sober poems : kzbin.info/www/bejne/iV67nmqpbsp6rrc

[@raviolibackstab6165]

fucking incredible piece

[@johncogs8717]

Thanks man, I used this for the next video!

[@mabelgalloza3515]

MELANCHOLIA ,a long word,full of sorrows and sadness. Who has not felt it??? I look at the blue, the warm sun but melancholia still follows me. When it rains I pray to God to wash away my unwanted guest! Besides melancholia there is something else wrong with me. Is it the curse for marry a priest??? No it can not be God knows I did not ptesure thee! What is it ,what can it be??? I am lost can you find me!!! Take me home where I should be!!! Ifeel I do not belong with the place,timing ,and can not breathe,save me please!!!! Meancholia my unwanted guest that haunts me .😔😥👼🙏

[@batiachazon5245]

My heart tells me to ✝️ cross.the jews leading with you heart by Barbara Streisand love is always right you so right by frank sintra

[@mxtthxw511]

Can someone explain what or who the redhead represents?

[@jaydenhurley4516]

A girl, a "lady of the night" really. Although I asumme the relationship was more complex than that. He wrote a book called "Girls" in which he speaks about them.

[@fezs9027]

Some slag

[@tonywalton1052]

Pamela Wood ("Cupcakes") his girlfriend at that time 1976-1977

[@onlypearls4651]

FFS with the LOUD music!

[@CartalucciCritic]

The music is not right

[@alexanderson7047]

What?!! Perfect

[@netanelfaila7247]

The music doesn't match the poem.

[@Lili-Benovent]

Drab, dismal and depressing, I know it's trendy to pretend to like this guy's musings but it's not poetry. pathetic.

[@MIs4175]

I'm curious to why you say that, poetry is an art form which you know, its always subjective to the one perceiving it. Be it sad or happy, angry or joyful.

[@Lili-Benovent]

@@MIs4175 Yes poetry is subjective but what Bukowski delivered wasn't poetry, it's mostly depressive prose with no destination to it, he shouldn't have called it poetry. Poetry has rhythm and rhyme, it tells a story. The past true poets would be spinning in their graves to hear Bukowski's work described as poetry, my worst poetry is better than anything Bukowski wrote.

[@jaredmatthews252]

Damn I wish I woulda been there to suggest that he trade the bottle and the redhead in for a joint and a blonde or two.

[@kevint.8553]

Are these available without music?

[@creativitylive]

Poetry can love, hate, heal and destroy, hurt and rejoice and always does it beautifully

[@alexanderson7047]

Must be truth

[@brandonvilovski6889]

Shall it be true ? is her a goddess or just another picture of too many , perhaps a goddess that we only hope for .

[@johnytsunami7983]

2:02 "bread and butter" *