Melissa Kinrenka and how they used to get Panic Attacks [Nijisanji/メリッサ・キンレンカ]

[@GaleVTLs]

Taken from Desc and pinned for visibility. This was from a stream approx. one month ago. Meli is talking about their past experiences with panic attacks and panic disorders and anxiety. Everything is much better now - in fact, the start of the stream was Meli talking about how they would walk 4km every day minimum, sometimes up to 12km a day. I translated this to give people insight towards the person we know as Melissa Kinrenka. It's not meant to suggest or to tell people to give pity or be shocked. Empathy, maybe. But again, above everything else, it's so that more people can know more about the Melissa we know now.

[@Ruki1411]

so...they got panic only when meeting ppl know about they, not stranger? what a strange disorder

[@GaleVTLs]

@@Ruki1411 Both.

[@信三-u3n]

they who? I'am not understanding this, is there someone else?

[@Ruki1411]

@@信三-u3n Melissa gender is not specific, so we use "they" to call him/her

[@信三-u3n]

@@Ruki1411 but "they" is plural

[@GaleVTLs]

Also, listen to Meli's covers. Its a treat for your own ears.

[@Necroneer]

Absolutely, she even has those short audio clips in twitter, really nice.

[@ibjornight]

Gale VTLs Meli definitely is one of my fav niji singer

[@NishidaTegaru_nZk]

Their cover of Cynical Night Plans has to be my fave

[@saktiprima]

I like her bocca della verita cover

[@derpedfox]

Melissa is a vocal powerhouse

[@reicelestial2478]

As someone also diagnosed with anxiety disorder (though not as bad as theirs since i've never really had panic attacks) i hate it when people say that it's just a matter of willpower. I already spend a lot of energy fighting against my own head. It's fucking draining. And when they started describing sensory overload... i felt that. Glad to know they're doing better. Well, this was almost a year ago so hopefully they've made more progress now.

[@Bawinni]

im happy that they are doing better as someone who has struggled with anxiety and panic attacks as well

[@himajinnotameiki]

meli 😭 I just wish her happiness

[@aueneg]

Seriously being a fan of Melissa, I can't help but be glad that she got better. Her covers was the best that it was pretty much a new world if you listen to her songs and voices. She got that weird feeling that you just like to listen to no matter what. Anyways I am just glad that I discovered. Really do.

[@-Raylight]

This reminds me of anime called _Kuuchuu Buranko_ For me mental health problems talk like this is really interesting I knew that Furen and Melissa had a few mental health problems in the past, I'm glad they went pass though those I'm just curious about what's the main problem causing it, probably stress and high-expectation from other people I just wished it's not such a taboo thing to talk in Japan

[@ConspoLopes]

As someone whos currently dealing with anxiety crises (although of a different kind than theirs), thank you for this translation

[@Necroneer]

This feels like the 4th clip I've seen where she talks about something serious, can't really relate with panic attacks but it's nice to know more about her. Also lots of bots these days, I thought they calmed down like a few months ago.

[@GaleVTLs]

I think a bunch of them are ramping up again for some reason. And yeah, life is tough sometimes.

[@skullz0310]

It's not like I am searching for pity or something, but, I could relate to this as I just recently diagnosed with Panic Disorder too. Except that I don't think I've had my lips turned blue, but I do feel the other symptoms and extremely trembling whenever that happen on top of that. And yes, I too do feel more afraid when I'm going out with someone who know me though in some occasion stranger can trigger the symptoms too. It feels so weird to think about it how can someone who is closer to me being the one who most likely to trigger my panic attack, aren't they supposed to be someone I can count on? But this is perhaps one of many reasons that makes me feel hard to talk about my problems since it feels like a nonsense. With that being said, I'm glad that she's slowly overcoming her fear. It's kinda giving me a hope that I could get better too, as since I am still struggling so much to even do anything that requires me to be in contact with another person. Thank you for translating this clip! Pardon my rant (and my English), but it makes me know more about Melissa as a person and it also really motivates me a lot. Thanks!!

[@Catdemondarkness]

I'm glad Meli is doing better these days. While such talks are serious, they're also interesting and pretty inspiring/comforting? Between Meli and Mayuyu for me especially, such mentions of past mental health struggles have definitely helped remind me (and I'm sure many others) that I'm not alone with these kinds of issues and it's bound to get better at some point in the future so long as I do what I can, even if it's a 'small' change. This talk definitely hit close to home, and makes me more seriously consider going outside or exercising every single day for a bit..

[@FatedMusic]

Between her amazing singing and her cool personality in collab streams I definitely have thought "Wow she's just a cut above the rest of us" before (in an awe-struck sort of way), but now I feel sort of bad for thinking like that. It really makes me see her in a new light to hear about her panic disorder like this; thank you so much for translating! I'm glad she's in a place now where it happens less, even if that means she had to move away from close relatives and such.

[@mirzaiscandle]

Melissa is gaining popularity overseas but slowly

[@lostdestroyer8400]

melissa

[@WillowMeow]

2 things I learned 1.) Meli is a boku girl 2.) I relate to her too much

[@Bawinni]

meli is agender! they are fine with all pronouns

[@hayatotenryuu9850]

@Gale VTLs Hypothetically, if Mano Aloe came back independently, would you be willing to collab with her?

[@GaleVTLs]

??? Um, I wouldn't be against it, but why would she collab with me to begin with? Even in this hypothetical situation lol.

[@hayatotenryuu9850]

@@GaleVTLs Well since she's hypothetically returning as independent, her channel probably wouldn't be nearly as big. And your Japanese is significantly better than the other English Vtubers that I'm familiar with. Or Lost Pause. Probably Nux too. Don't worry about it too much, I just miss her. And misery loves company, which I think means 'miserable people like for other people to feel the same way about stuff'. Lol

[@信三-u3n]

they who? I only see one person

[@GaleVTLs]

They is the common gender-neutral pronoun. Meli is fine with either male or female gender pronouns, but I used they just out of habit.