Memphis May Fire - The Abandoned

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Staring at the wall,
I never thought this would be so hard.
How could have I been so close and never known you?
I never knew, I never knew you at all!
You will always be my father but I hope you know,
It's your fault and I'll never know what that means.
You left a void that never could be replaced.
I am dying inside but you will never see!
I always had hoped that you did not want it this way,
But no matter how hard I try you always pushed away.
You said you loved me but...
How was I supposed to know
(How was I supposed to know)
When you left here,
You left me here alone?
Do I ever even cross your mind,
Just for second?
Do you know I'm alive?
You know I would let you in but you threw everything away.
So tell me what did you get from all of these years of pain?
You have no clue what I've been through,
But I guess that you wanted it that way!
How was I supposed to know
(How was I supposed to know)
When you left here,
You left me here alone?
Do I ever even cross your mind,
Just for second?
Do you know I'm alive?
If you would've been there,
If you would've stuck around.
If you would've been there when I needed you,
You would've been
You would've been so proud!
How was I supposed to know
(How was I supposed to know)
When you left here,
You left me here alone?
Do I ever even cross your mind,
Just for second?
Do you know I'm alive?

[@shadowrideer]

its incredibly how matty has a great relationship with his dad and everything but wrote this song for all of those he knew who didnt and wanted them to have a song that would touch them this mouch

[@luisbarbosa1958]

i heard the guitarist wrote a lot of the album, maybe that's it?

[@shadowrideer]

Luis Barbosa yes, kellin mcgregor was also a major writer for this album, but i read somewhere that matty wrote it. i cant tell you where it was so i dont know for a fact that it is true, so that could very well be the explaination

[@luisbarbosa1958]

Maybe it was kellin's idea for the song and matty just happen to rip the words from his mind out? who knows, either way awesome track!

[@shadowrideer]

***** i know all of them helped write but i could have sworn i read an article where matty said that he wrote this song in particular for the reason of giving those who had no fatherly relationship a song to relate to. Its very possible he wrote it with the guidence of the other members as well, but yeah, i think their whole band is bery involved in the writing process

[@rdkayyvalorant]

He's a really good writer then@@luisbarbosa1958

[@TheAdamHawk]

Memphis May Fire will always be one of the best bands to ever touch this genre of music and they'll always be my personal favorite. Live long guys, and keep the goodies coming!

[@Beaneabean]

Adam Hawk theyre soft now

[@hollow_in_side_8305]

To soft

[@hannahbeausoleil2237]

I cry every time I listen to this song, it reminds me of my mom. She was always out drinking and cheating on my dad while my dad was home taking care of me and my sisters.. She finally left, and honestly I don't miss her at all.. I'm just lacking that mother figure, y'know?

[@shadowwilson7282]

Understandable.

[@chuckcastle7709]

Not defending your mother but she did carry you for 9 months and brought you into this world. It's okay to forgive, I'm sure she still loves you. The hate will go away, I promise!

[@litaf4889]

Eh cheaters are shitty people in general

[@packerman7410]

@@chuckcastle7709sometimes some parents could care less about their children

[@discoveranceband]

Womp womp L

[@mr.unsaved5949]

No matter how many excuses a parent may have or have justified they make themselves, and no matter how much you love that parent, there will always be a feeling of abandonment when they leave. Single parents deserve gold medals.

[@BreannaJuarez]

I grew up with out loving parents. My dad left us. Matty, i love you so much. I could relate to your songs than any other band....(besides Crown the Empire) but... You.... Y'all... Helped me alot

[@kanewoodworth2816]

Crown the empire is amazing >.>

[@BreannaJuarez]

I love Crown the Empire! \|^0^|/

[@kanewoodworth2816]

Lol

[@Skullcandyfan101]

It's not just Matty's songs, it's the whole band's. (:

[@fabdav333]

by far, my favorite song from Memphis May Fire. the lyrics hit me the core, like if Matty Mullins knew what I said to my dad years ago. ...

[@maddielewis8227]

My favorite genre will always be heavy metal. It's viewed as one of the most violent genres, but it's actually the most loving, genuine genre there is, along with the fans. The songs have such deep meanings that a lot of us can relate to. this song is an example, and it really speaks to me. My dad was an alcoholic. He was physically and emotionally abusive to my mom and I. He had horrible anger issues and usually took it out on me. He's the reason why I have so many internal and external scars, and I'm only thirteen years old.

[@bradwilliams8930]

+Maddie lewis What really grinds my gears is when they say all it is, is a bunch of violent screaming people who worship Satan. Don't know if you've gotten that from people, but before I got into the heavier scene that's what people told me so I stayed away. If you ever get that just print out the lyrics to a The Amity Affliction song Lost and Fading or Shine On or any Memphis May fire song and watch their expression change. The lyrics are what draw me into a band. That and a good screamer/singer with great guitar. Memphis May Fire has grown and are far from violent.

[@danielmartin8675]

+Brad Williams i love the amity aflliction!

[@WeCameAsKim]

Happy Father's Day Dad. This song goes out to you. Thanks for never being here for me. Love, Your Not-So-Much Daughter

[@Jrock12341964]

My dad left my family and i didnt see him that often for a while. But he came back and is a big part of my life. This song explains how i felt at the beginning

[@PerriElias]

Same. My father I never really knew that we'll until just a year ago. I'm into my older teens now but ever since he's seen what I've grown to be he aspires to teach me the responsibilities of growing into a mature adult.

[@loganwilliams1630]

This is for my dad that left me in a one bedroom apartment to take care of my little brother while he was out for days with some woman he barely knew

[@shelbygomez4812]

Logan Williams I'm sorry babe

[@ChronicBreakdown]

God, I miss this MMF sooooo much. This album brings back so many memories for me.

[@generic_flower]

My dad is an alcoholic. Funny how he acts as if he never did anything wrong My mom left him and took me and my sisters with her He stalked and wouldn't accept it All that is over now but there is so much I've had to keep in over the years that i don't think I'll ever be able to let out Thanks dad for all the emotional scarring you've caused and I'm not even 15 yet

[@dubhenepomuceno7752]

To feel better, always remember someone is starving somewhere because their parents were killes in front of them. That worked for me.

[@SourBramble]

Dubhe Nepomuceno Oh yeah that thought really raises my spirits.

[@Ricko199]

بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم

[@DrCopy22]

Dubhe Nepomuceno I'd use only the "their parents were killed in front of them." Because I always thought about killing my parents, which kept me far away from actually doing it, but satisfied me well enough. :> But I'm a wierdo, so... Probably subjective. :D

[@jpearl999999]

HighTidesGaming lol right

[@peaceasyx]

ive heard this song about 39842 times but never even knew all the lyrics. best album in the genre. I will say it.

[@timothymauldwin3856]

Mattys voice in the chorus is fucking amazing.

[@MonkeyxLord]

This is the song I listen to when I’m outside deep in my thoughts.. Everytime it strikes my heart. The way I relate. Memphis May Fire killed it with this whole album. They have become my favorite band within my heart. I wish I knew my father and hell, even my mother too.. Thank you MMF for all the heart touching songs.

[@Zyurg]

do I ever even cross your mind. just for a second ......do you know I'm ALIVE!!!

[@dshizznitrb3]

I think about you everyday. I am sorry for not mustering the strength when i had the chance to climb out of this hole of drugs and depression...i am sorry. then again i felt i stood no chance to the path my genetics and life experiences led me to. if you think im having fun. im not. I know i will never fully be a man until i take care of my child.

[@LilimMarieGaming]

This song still majorly hits home with me.

[@madalinenash1231]

This song is like my life story. I'm also able to relate to beneath the skin and the rose.

[@rvsalki]

same

[@Calbenmike]

I feel for all of the people that post expressing relation to this song. I could never even pretend to understand your hurt inside. I pray that you may replace that void with the unending love of the Heavenly Father.

[@xXRandomStarFilmsXxSSG]

this literally explains my life

[@CautiousMeat]

Also listen to "Verah Falls- Pariah" "Secrets-The best you can't be" and "Ice Nine Kills- Father's Day"

[@MrEveion]

Bronson Morris its almost like they want more stalkers

[@tr6p467]

on god

[@tedbear8168]

Love ya man

[@XxBlackSalvoxX]

See? It's music like this that I can appreciate. To hell with Lil Wayne and Drake. This kind of music sends a message, a message with a hell of a lot more meaning then sex, drugs, drinking, and money. This music actually means something. Music isn't only supposed to sound good, it's supposed to make a change with it's lyrics.

[@Danbluey3134]

Ive listened to very minimum MMF songs, but once i heard this song, i instantly fell in love. Im an adoption child and the story goes my "parents" wanted to try without protection, mom got ptegnant, dad hightailed it, and mom was forced to put me up. Idk about any of you other adoption guys and girls, but ever since i found out, ive always had this sense of Darkness inside of me. Like im Supposed to be like my father or mother. Idk, it could just be me, but it scares me alot

[@ThereLiesToday]

This song just proves how much better this style of music is than any other, because it perfectly relates to so many people.

[@anthonyfasanella4650]

leave him alone, he see's music the way most people do, a quick way to make money, not a way to get everything inside out with a enough passion to burn a hole in a heart. i'm glad someone understands that music is a way of life, and some "musicians" don't deserve it...

[@NizziWoods]

best intro for me

[@seangroves4182]

That intro guitar riff 😍

[@sgmfrosty1389]

I love this song so much i was so young when it dropped and still love it been playing it again alot recently

[@samuelguertin9018]

This is Memphis May Fire at their best. I swear this album was such a game changer when it released, those were the days.

[@LMcQuesten]

"You're such a lemon pie!!!" @ 0:55 seconds

[@bb1377]

Do. You know, I'M A LIME??

[@KrakenwithaKam]

Wow I know that these comments are old but you guys are awesome😂

[@Ashley_Jay]

+Lance McQuesten i saw this comment as it was being sung hahaha xD perfect timing

[@acaramanamaraca]

Can't unhear it now, fuck...

[@JspauInc]

WHY!? I can't unhear it now!

[@bayu585]

the intro is so bad ass

[@shelbygomez4812]

bayu585 ikr

[@lilhyuga3044]

Capture Nexus every intro they have is badass

[@BradyWilkinson]

My father left me at birth. I just recently met up with him today, I gave him what he deserved, 19 years of fathers day presents.

[@Amaanderrr]

Omg no new comments. I listen to this song often. Hits home. Love you guys

[@gabrielelias2219]

01: 30 - 01:45 Love that part wish it was longer!!

[@RsKnDR0991]

Yeah that part is awesome! Maybe because it is short, it has a great impact. If it would be longer, maybe it wouldn't sound as special.

[@gabrielelias2219]

+Obi-Wan Shalomi yes thats treu

[@xZYTECx]

holy fuck this song is powerfull

[@amp7296]

Words cannot describe how much I love this song. I love all MMF's music. Whenever I get to that place where I feel like my heads about to explode I just blast MMF as loud as I can and sing/scream along with Matty.

[@MsSjm3]

This song was in my suggestion box. I've heard of the band but never listened. So anyways i clicked on it and within the first 32 seconds i was in love. I live this song. I am also now a fan of the band as of about 2 minutes ago.

[@devonXcloud]

The very first song I ever heard from them and quickly listened to every song MMF has, gotta say The Hollow is the best album with Challenger and Unconditional right behind. Sleepwalking not so much a fan of..

[@justo7336]

I'd always just liked this song but never really read the lyrics, then I bothered read them and found out it described my childhood, the feels, like seriously. Or the irony idefk,

[@soraskeyblade43]

2021 anyone? This came on while I was driving home from work, straight jammy.

[@Vic-nl4ev]

Songs like this just make me feel so many things I didn't want to feel in the first place "no matter how hard I tried"

[@marianidavid9494]

Amo

[@douglasdutra3198]

uma br q curte show!!!

[@mikeemilio9738]

why the f**ck does Memphis May Fire NEVER play this song live?

[@Skurrge666]

IKR!!!

[@samohhTx]

its the ABANDONED

[@kathrynmcclellan6587]

samohhTx I see what you did there....XD

[@bvbarmyforeva]

They played it at Warped tour two years ago

[@nannen342]

It's a very difficult song vocally. So they probably don't want to put undue strain on Mattys voice

[@ReprogrammedToHate]

Listening to this today in father's day, thanks for never being there with me.

[@ishawarmas]

This song gives me chills every time i listen to it, and it's been well over a year now.

[@ishawarmas]

9 years later and nothing‘s changed- still an excellent song, amazing album, fantastic band

[@losoka]

@@ishawarmas do they have any similar sounding songs like this?

[@ishawarmas]

@@losoka ooh thank you for this- your comment got me listening to this song again hahaha well i would definitely recommend this entire album - The Hollow. still one of my all time favourites (including songs like The Victim, The Reality, The Sinner) there’s also some of the songs off Challenger (Prove Me Right, Vices, Legacy), aaand some of the songs on their latest album Remade In Misery (Blood & Water, Bleed Me Dry, Make Believe, Death Inside) just a side note: i’d also definitely recommend checking out their older stuff like the Sleepwalking album (Quantity is Their Quality) and Between The Lies EP! hope you enjoy diving into MMF’s discography 😊

[@urpoison100]

to my parents: I LOVE YOU BOTH !.............................. this song does not apply to you.

[@libertyIsAll132]

all my feels to the black people listening to this

[@TheSlacker717]

Black or not people all around the word of all sorts of colors, get abandoned.

[@MZinum]

***** Fuck off.

[@dzmason7]

Fucker

[@TheTyrant6]

***** AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHASHAHAHAHAH

[@SalemAccure]

+Master Chief It's not funny, It's racist!

[@breenotlikethecheese6891]

So obsessed with this band, their music and this song is amazing.....I've had it on repeat for days at work lol

[@NoSenseOfSecurity]

Wow, there's A LOT of people here who can relate to this song... and I'm one of them too. That's kinda what depress me the most... The worst fear of all that I have, is that I will end up like another one of these father who just ran away... I pray to God this will never happen.

[@alexandergit4929]

happy fathers day to all those who spend it alone. long live MMF

[@Jacksonwrestler]

I listen to this before wrestling matches, and it gets me PUMPED!

[@TheOfficialSlicey]

So much emotion in this song

[@Hoobojeo]

that begging just kills me everytime. this is the best album ive ever heard in my entire life and really one of the only albums u can listen to without skipping over a song. this band is fucking amazing

[@Blondemom93]

Such a great song. I met my dad once when I was 4 or 6. Never saw him again. Can definitely relate

[@nomnomjujubs]

i was listening to this song while i had an ordeal with my step-father. wondering why he had abandoned me and my mom. it let my know that there are other people like me. wish i could send that bastard this song.

[@VizuAhL]

this song inspires people, let them comment what they want. im not trying to start anything but just dont give people hate and stuff about what they comment please, and thank you.

[@67TrianglesInARow]

I love how much passion Matty always puts into his singing.

[@johnniechavez6465]

My dad recently left back to Mexico, he would always treat my mom, sister, and i like shit. Went through a lot with him. Last time I saw him was like a few months ago, he just stared at me, didn’t try to say anything to me, he left, and he never said goodbye to me. I don’t hate him and I don’t wish him bad, but I just wish he could’ve said something to me.

[@hopecountydeliverance5975]

Have faith, brother. Your Dad was overwhelmed by some spirit of shame. He is not as bad as you think. But he is lost, and he needs your prayers, and your forgiveness. Believe it or not, you will need your forgiveness more than anyone. You will have to overcome a spirit of rejection. It is important to remember that Jesus died for your sins. and he died to set you free from the bondage that is rejection.

[@hopecountydeliverance5975]

you will need to forgive everyone before you will be set free, including your Dad, and yourself.

[@SweetHime]

How can anyone dislike this video,this is such a great song and band. Love you memphis may fire!!

[@vSteadyy]

Favorite album.

[@tiagoalves1052]

Perfect song, the best of the album The Hollow..

[@InMemoryOfJimmy]

i grew up happily with both parents, and this song still gets to me just to know that anyone could feel that kind of pain!

[@Dameon_The_Daemon]

Memphis may fire is sooo good, it still sounds great and I haven't heard this in years.

[@porker510]

The lyrics send chills down my spine every single time i listen to this !!. My all time favorite band ever !!.

[@Hashtags4L]

Oh & I this is my favorite album by Memphis May Fire and one of my favorites of all time.

[@RealxProcision]

Hate when amazing albums bring back bad memories in your past. Love the album, hate the memories.

[@emocookiemonster3340]

lyrics are so deep.. i love them.

[@AmericaWest90]

This song is the story of my life, pretty much.

[@lysssssss27]

So I'm pretty much obsessed with this song right now.. Best song in the entire world!!

[@F1reantS]

This song really hits home.

[@samnewman1360]

They were the third concert I’ve ever seen. I’ll never forget it, it was so loud my ears were ringing for hours after lol.

[@100noahpratt]

He's not complaining! This actually has meaning to it, at least to me it has meaning. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one that this song means something to!!!

[@tylerneo5657]

This song fuels the rage I have towards my parents, I see so many others that feel the same way

[@DemonDanielleH]

I dedicate this to my dad. I don't have as much hate towards him as this video expresses but I do have some. He died when I was 7 and its almost been 8 years. Sometimes I wish he either never died or I never met him. Since he died when I was so young I hardly remember him so it feels like I didn't really ever have a dad even though the time we did have together were great.

[@awsomeskaterdude331]

no joke...this made me cry...this hit home way too much

[@kennethjurls8549]

My favorite MMF song

[@RsKnDR0991]

I've searched through youtube without luck... did they ever played this song live? I'm getting more and more into this band, and this is the song that has to have a live version!

[@natalicious787]

I just found this band, new favourite song for sure!

[@amygarcia2202]

I wasn't exactly abandoned, my mom just kept me away from my real dad. I feel that if I ever meet him we will become best friends.

[@luchighwalker7524]

I listen to this song everyday.

[@getmeoutoftamug]

that intro makes my subwoofers happy, and subsequently, my ears are happy too.

[@RobertoVerbeek]

Mostly i am listening to metal, for the music and not for the lyrics, but i think this one is the first metal-song that exactly describes words i feel and cant bring out.. Great song.

[@ravensnightmare9019]

It hits harder everytime u listen to it

[@solninetysix]

REAL MUSIC LIVES!!!!!! I can die happily now.

[@Jmorrisfishing]

I literally listened to like 3 songs, and immediatly bought this album. these guys deserve the support and shi theyre majorlly talented.

[@johnlindley665]

Matty wrote the song for a fan of the band who never had a father figure growing up. It never happened directly to him. He wanted to write a song that the fans could relate to.

[@TheHardC0red1]

I remember when they just started out and I promoted them on twitter. They've come so far. Great talent.

[@breski9553]

matt's clean vocals are so pure and amazing and his screams are so intense love it

[@V0LTUnDeAd]

I really like mmf because you can hear the sadness in the yells/ screams, so you know its true pain.

[@MusicBigDreams]

my real parents left me for drugs.. they never cared, they completely messed up my childhood.. ive found a new home, and a new family that loves me.. i wish they could only see how much better i am, and see the pain on their faces for a change...

[@WhenPigsFly741]

Am I the only one that every time I hear this song counts down with it!?

[@Msnataliegilbert]

I'm glad rise records always posts the lyrics

[@spacemanonshrooms]

the 10 people that hit the dislike button must be ashamed/scared to admit their dads left them...we're all here for you guys.

[@paperkuttv]

i like how ever songs starts with 'the' these guys are sick

[@zEmarosa]

OHMYJESUS. If you have surround speakers or surround headphones, close your eyes and take in the sick bassdrop in the beginning. It even made my fish cry.

[@kweharts]

best song on album! my fav!

[@OHReaper]

can't get enough of this song :O

[@euphoricbrutal]

Holy shit this song tells the story of my life perfectly. Memphis May Fire you are the first band to bring a tear to my eye. Congrats on making this badass tune guys.

[@ninjax261]

I can't stop listening.

[@LiveDreamsNotReality]

I was ever since 4 without a father. and all my life I have ben trying to get to him. But drugs are too important in hos eyes than his own child, he could care less ^^*. This song, touches me so deeply. Brings tears to my eyes almost. I relate to it like omg so much..

[@bigcut78]

i love this song...make u really thing about life if its true to your own life.