Miku Godzilla Fortnite

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What a surprise! Me, playing FORTNITE?????? More likely than you think! And I love it! My aim may be terrible and I may suck at the game, but it's fun!
Donate so Big John can get Hatsune Miku:
gofund.me/7814...
More of me:
2nd Channel: ‪@ItsAlsoHayden‬
Twitter: / itshaydentw
Twitch: / itshaydentw
(I have a code in the item shop lmfao use code 'ItsHayden' to support me, it's free)
Big John:
Twitch: / biggyboyjohn
And here is a long sappy emotional message of what I've been up to the past few years.
Hey, been awhile hasn't it? Hope everyone has been doing well cause it's been a bit iffy for me for awhile 😅. My personal life has been kind of all over the place, I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for awhile and just very clueless with what I want to do with my future which just causes more stress. I'm able to handle it enough but the real world is a scary scary place, been practically doing nothing besides some seasonal local job but I'm starting to put in the work to properly get on my feet. Which considering I haven't uploaded in 2 years I doubt people would be expecting consistent uploads after this, which if I get busy in life no one will know and I can just upload whenever! I really really do wanna get back into content creation, but honestly I really feel like I peaked back in 2017 which is really unfortunate cause I dislike the person I was back then despite only being an early teenager. I do think content creation is a lot of fun but I feel I'm not creative enough to actually provide meaningful content that both satisfies the viewers and myself, which considering the Switch 2 is coming out soon I might just start wanting to do very simple Nintendo videos. I feel like I'm going off course a lot but eh who cares you're probably not reading this anyways. A big part of whats stopping me from having done semi consistent videos before is just feeling too embarrassed about creating content where I'm showing a lot of real emotion about stuff I'm interested in and reading scripts and stuff like that, I think because I still hold onto the thought from when I was a teenager of "showing emotion is cringe" which I know is bullshit now but it really is hard to get rid of bad thoughts like that. Which if I ever were to start uploading more consistently and trying new video formats, all I ask is that you bear with me and just let me figure some stuff out while I get comfortable, I hate to ask for this to be a consistent thing but I would greatly appreciate if you could give the videos real support while I would try to go through figuring stuff out. Gah, I feel like I'm repeating myself a lot which probably just makes this hard to follow along. And along with the embarrassing part, I do wanna act somewhat "professional" but the videos I have ideas for but editing them is a big hurdle for me, my standards for my own content are WAY higher than what my current abilities are capable of, which I know requires a lot of practice to get better at, but that really is a big factor in me not making videos.
I feel like thats about it for my satisfaction for content and lastly just wanna touch on what I've been doing. I stream quite a bit over on Twitch, not often enough to where you can rely on getting more content from me but more whenever I feel like it and whenever I wanna play games with friends. I do have a lot of fun streaming over there but it's the most fun when theres people to talk to in chat during so if you ever catch me live then feel free to stop by and talk for a bit. And related to twitch, I started moderating for Alpharad's Twitch channel about 2 years ago and it really has been some of the most fun I've had on the internet in awhile, gotten to meet a lot of fun new people and gotten to do some small opportunities which I could've only dreamed about doing which this is honestly partially a dream come true. And my 2nd channel I pretty much upload whenever but you can guarantee if theres a Nintendo Direct or anything of the sort I will be uploading a video there. I've been pretty inactive on it but that really can change if I ever get into a shitposting mood.
But yeah, I feel like that's all I really have to say, Thank you so much if you read all that and I hope to see you in the future.

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@ItsHayden 9 күн бұрын

Hey all! I know it's been awhile, if you really care about how I've been and also where I've been, I left a pretty lengthy explanation in the description. TL;DR I've been doing alright, I do stream decently often over on Twitch even tho I don't have any schedule and its just whenever I feel like it, and 2 years ago I started moderating for Alpharad's Twitch channel which has been extremely exciting and a lot of fun. As for youtube stuff, my motivation for edited content creation has been extremely low because my own standards for content are higher than what I'm able to do. I really do want to continue doing stuff like this, but you're gonna have to bear with me for a bit as I figure stuff out, even if it takes a long time in between uploads.