You're not a burden to anyone. You belong here with all of us because you've helped me out a lot in the short time that I've known you. Please know and understand that you're not alone in contemplating suicide because I've been there more than once in my lifetime so far. I used to cut my left arm and to this day, I still have the scars from that. Thank you for posting this video and all of your other vlogs because I appreciate your honesty about mental health issues. Your vlogs so far have helped me understand what you go through on a daily basis with your Schizophrenia diagnosis and other things. Thank you for being honest about everything that concerns your mental health diagnoses. You're a great asset to my own recovery from my own mental health diagnoses (Major Depressive Disorder, P.T.S.D., and Anxiety Disorder) and the reason we met in the first place. You're a wonderful and beautiful person!!