miscarriage

[@Nakita_Jade]

You probably had what was called a chemical pregnancy. It’s a very early miscarriage before 5 weeks. The embryo started forming but detached or stopped developing. That would make the most sense since the dates may not match. It’s a sign though your body wants to have a baby. I’m so sorry ash, I know how much you want kids. You will be a wonderful mom, it will happen. You’re a strong wonderful woman who’s going to give that child all the love they deserve.

[@sydneytaylor457]

After I had my miscarriage I went to my follow-up appointment after a D&C and I told my doctor that I was experiencing depression and extreme sadness and he said " oh is this your first miscarriage? That's normal " and sent me on my way. I was so taken back. I was at my 15-week check-up when I was told there was no heartbeat, I knew she was a girl and she already had a name. Doctors really can be so insensitive and lack sympathy in these situations. I'm so sorry you are going through this! And I hope your body allows you to conceive and carry on a healthy pregnancy in the future 💗🌈

[@Itslo13]

I’m so sorry you experienced that and those harsh words from someone who was supposed to provide care. I hope you’ve made it through that season in your life. I wish you kindness.

[@lillyanaspinelli4208]

I am so sorry you went through such a traumatic experience at the ER... I agree that doctors and hospital staff nowadays are extremely rude, especially regarding women's health. It is honestly why I am in med school to become a nurse to work in the labor and delivery unit; I can help those struggling women. You deserved so much more than that crappy help from the doctors here in California. You are such an incredible person and deserve so much, Ash! I have been watching your videos since your first upload, and I know you will be a fantastic mother someday!

[@Colourinne]

Hey Ash, Thankyou for sharing this. In Aus we call them ‘chemical pregnancies’ and unfortunately for me, for many drs this was synonymous with ‘not a real pregnancy’. I had a chemical last July but choose to call it an early miscarriage so that people actually recognise the sadness that it can cause. It was actually our first month trying, and I’m very glad for that because now we have been trying for over 6 months and still haven’t fallen pregnant again. It would hurt even more if we’d been trying all this time and had another I think. In your corner my dear, I hope you are able to process this and move through it as comfortably as possible 💕

[@BeautifulSoulCollective]

I experienced something similar, we tried for over a year before having a chemical in September and nothing again since.. The main thing I heard was "at least now you know you can get pregnant." like that's a damn consolation prize. It's absolutely heartbreaking. Sending my love to you. You are not alone

[@cwlau2112]

I have also had a similar chemical pregnancy couple years ago. The doctor then told me that it’s very common (happens to almost 25% people).

[@MyLupitaLove]

Hi! I have Hashimotos/Hypothyroidism and it’s a nightmare dealing with these doctors that don’t know how to monitor your levels and progesterone etc. it’s good that you are going to a fertility clinic to get better care for you next pregnancy! I will also recommend joining thyroid pregnancy groups on Facebook to help you better understand and what to do during your pregnancy!! Trust me they know their sh**! Better than these doctors! I’ve been pregnant twice. First time miscarriage and second time early birth. It’s a lot on our bodies! Sending you lots of love and healing ❤️❤🦋

[@sherrilyndaleofficial]

Im sending you so much love Ash. If you need anything I got you. (Also thank you for still bringing a smile to my face with your preciousness "Boys... mommys trying to film a video") You're already an amazing momma xo

[@bbylua]

Sending you both a lot of love 🤍🤍🤍 You 2 will have your Rainbow one day, I’m so sorry Ash. I miscarried at 13 weeks in an emergency room in 2012 and still am angry at how violated I felt during the exams. They were dismissive/cold and didn’t want to listen to me. I am RH negative as well and they didn’t listen, just let me bleed and get sick

[@kaylinsky4504]

Thank you for being so real all the time with us 🖤 I’m sorry you went through that. Sending all my love and positive vibes 🖤🖤

[@hex-girl]

i can’t even start this video i might not finish it bc well it’s been almost 4 yrs since mine. I want you to know you’re not alone Ash 🥹 miscarriages are tough and painful and talking about them is definitely a big step in grieving. Your angel baby will always be with you and baby dust ash 😭🥺 ❤️ love you

[@hex-girl]

went through a really ruff patch personally i locked myself up in my bed and struggled thanks for your vulnerability in sharing your experience the similar thing happens where i miscarried early they called it a “chemical pregnancy” and my miscarriage also started right along with my period it lasted like almost a month i’m just now this year being open to talk about it because i felt like a let down like my body let them and myself down i still struggle with infertility this journey can feel rough snd lonely but i’m with you ❤

[@hex-girl]

sending you and jayce love and healing ❤️

[@biochroma]

I also miscarried in an ER and it was an extremely traumatic experience. Idk, the whole process. I had PTSD for years over it. I hope that you are doing ok and have good support. Miscarriage is very very common but people don't really talk about it as much as they should.

[@miliissilly101]

I'm so sorry Ash. It's such a difficult process and a lot of people out there do not know how to help. We're here for you. Sending love.

[@greybone6295]

I’m so sorry you had to go through this. Pregnancy isn’t like in the movies at all for a majority of women. Hollywood has lied to us. It’s mostly being constantly terrified that something is wrong. I’m 23 wks and have yet to enjoy a single day of my pregnancy so please don’t judge yourself for not feeling like you thought you would. Love you guys 🖤

[@Babylegs_St_Clair]

When I got pregnant with my surprise baby at 36 I had a two week period , I mean I thought I was like having a menopause or something lol. Anything is possible Ash! I just really feel it's gonna happen again for you and everything will be fine. People are so insensitive in health care sometimes Im sorry you experienced that! Thanks for sharing your story! We love you!

[@trailertrish]

i had a miscarriage basically 3 years ago to the day. thought about it today actually. to add to that, the man that was the father passed away 2 years ago. i wish i had them both still in my life every day. im single and 37 and it was my only pregnancy. im scared ill never have a baby bc i dont even have a man in my life so the timing is really weighing on me on a regular basis. 😔

[@The_Cherokee_Gypsy]

I was 25 when I had my miscarriage. It destroyed me internally. I know what your going through. Im 33 now and just had my first child January 13. I gave up thinking I would ever be able to carry a child full term, well it happened. I was just like you. I’ve always wanted children. I have PCOS as well, yet I was still able to get pregnant and have a healthy baby boy after a miscarriage. Don’t give up. I did, and when i hit rock bottom, found my husband, and I was able to conceive. It can happen because I’m living proof of it. I’m 33 and finally have my first and only child. It’s when your not trying is when it will happen. You are in my thoughts. My periods were always irregular as well, so I never knew when I was ovulating. It took me 33 years to finally get pregnant. Don’t be down on yourself. It can still happen. I was 25 and I made it all the way ton32 thinking I would never have children yet I finally have one. I feel your pain.

[@phoebe_272]

My sister in law just went through the same type of miscarriage :/ Good news is it makes your chance of a successful pregnancy higher next time, although it still stinks going through this and it still isn’t easy. Sending much love to your family 💕

[@breathingandmakeup]

I'm so sorry 😞 Even when there are people around who share similar experiences, it doesn't make the loss feel better. I've personally had two miscarriages and it was sad and isolating, but talking about it helped. Us healthcare workers become numb to our emotions as a way to cope at times. We don't all mean to be cold and insensitive about what's happening. Sending you the biggest hugs. 💗

[@maureenl1448]

I'm so sorry you had to go through this Ash. You're not alone. I just found out I had a missed miscarriage today. Was supposed to be 12 weeks but US showed 7 weeks and no heartbeat. Have to have the D&C Monday. So I feel like it was irresponsible of the doctor to tell you it'd "clear on its own" when that isnt always the case. Sending love to you 💛

[@maureenl1448]

And I agree I will not do that again. Going 12 weeks thinking I was pregnant but it was gone 5 weeks ago sucks so bad. They should really see women earlier.

[@ShadyBooty]

Hugs and healing 💜

[@callmeclaireee]

You’re going to be the coolest mom one day and Jayce is going to be such a good dad. It just wasn’t the time. But now you know that you can become pregnant and that’s awesome. It’ll happen for you 🥰🖤

[@lindseystein9676]

I have endometriosis, too, so I definitely empathize with what you’re going through. I had multiple miscarriages before having my son. I was diagnosed at 14 & at that time in the early 2000’s, my dr told me it would be unlikely if even have have a child. But that was without any fertility tests, just a general assumption about endo. I’m glad there has been more research since then and doctors aren’t as dismissive about endo as they were then. Sorry you’re going through all of this, it’s tough.

[@moonandsons]

Im so sorry 💔 ive had two as well. It honestly gets ao confusing and drs dont explain it very well. Its like we have to go through the trauma, and they just keep us guessing or in the dark. But also, its a no win for drs. Ive had them be some kind of endearing and it was atill just ao uncomfortable. I was just like, right im obviously miscarying as i bleed all over your bed. I went through a very dark and dissasociated time for years after my miscarriage. I hope you find your hope. Your light. 💛

[@melstarclover9647]

I'm so sorry Ash. Doctors always ruins any experience, they're the coldest and makes you feel stupid... I don't understand how they can be this heartless beings, maybe that's part of the job, an essential requirement. Thank you for sharing your experience with all of us. I send you all my support and love. I missed you sweetie.

[@beab1359]

I feel so many feelings of hurt for you 💕 Everyone always tells you that pregnancy and childbirth will be wonderful, but no one ever talks about the possibility of loss. I also had a miscarriage three weeks ago, I bled so much I had to be admitted to the hospital. It’s such a heartbreaking thing, but something the doctors and nurses told me then was ‘not every pregnancy will end in loss’ and somehow that sentiment has kept me going. One day it will work for my husband and I, and also you and your hubby ❤

[@warhols.littlequeen]

Oh ash. I’m so sorry you went /are going through this. And I totally hear you on the medical industry not being supportive etc. that’s a whole other conversation! I did just want to add that the book Spirit Babies by Walter Makichen talks about miscarriages and it is (in my opinion) so so comforting. I hope you find some comfort in it also. 💕✨ sending you guys so much love

[@lucyhelenamu]

Hard agree. Go to a fertility clinic. Get all the tests you need to make sure your levels regular back down. They’ll monitor you more closely.

[@pynklyzurd14]

Sorry you're experiencing this! To you & your loved ones. As someone who worked in a clinic, I was also shocked to find out they won't see pregnancies until they're about a month or so in; ESP when it's a first-time mom-to-be! There are so many concerns & questions (rightfully so!) and to have to wait so long to have them addressed is so absurd & dismissive! I hope you find compassionate healthcare professionals that are willing to respectfully and attentively address your concerns b/c they are valid & matter! Sending you & your family all my love!!!

[@kittykattadam7564]

I am so sorry you have gone through this, it is really emotionally and physically hard, doesn't help when it seems like they are dismissing it all on you and you are feeling it. I lost two before I had my rainbow baby, I also have autoimmune, very high risk , high risk miscarriage Endo, etc etc, I didn't get to carry my kid to full term but they were only 6-7 weeks early and they are now 16 and amazing, no I wouldn't have another because of the health risks I went through but I wouldn't change it either. Your angel will find you. Miscarriages are very personal and they can be so hard to go through, process in your time do things moving forward in your time. Look after you. I love that you are sharing your experience, I think it helps us all when we can share and talk about it these things so we can have more understanding and support each other. You will be an amazing mum one day ❤️ (hope I have worded this ok, brain fog messes with me when I type things out lol)

[@AshesOddities]

I’ve been trying to have a baby for a few months now and I’m sobbing for you now. Stay strong Ash, sending you so much love 🫰🏻🖤

[@ASHARK17]

We effing love you Ash. My husband and I are in a similar season of life this year, you and I are the same age- I hope you know how much subs like me benefit from the “real talk.” It can be really overwhelming to see the lives of others on social media when I’m going through struggles with health, finances, conceiving. You know, that extremely lonely place of suffering 😅 I’m sure there is pressure as a creator to perform or pretend for your audience, but content like this is exactly what a lot of us need right now. It’s nice to feel less alone in the struggles and get that reality check. I know things will change for all of us who are feeling the weight of life but, until then, it’s refreshing to engage with a content creator I can relate to so deeply. Thank you for being brave & empathetic. Thank you for sharing; you two will be wonderful parents.

[@natalieo2345]

Exactly the same experience with the brown discharge and cramping… went for blood work and saw those numbers dropping and knew exactly what was happening… it sucked so bad and now I feel like I will be forever traumatized for the future :( thinking of you ❤

[@kerrisaruvalcaba5973]

I’m sorry for your guys’ loss Ash🤍 I know family and women who experienced a miscarriage or the baby out of the sac before having their first baby. So sad and I hope and pray that your family gets your little blessing soon! Thank you for sharing

[@sianfxckingamazing]

So sorry Ash, as a chronic oversharer myself I do understand that aspect of your character and how sometimes it feels like not speaking to anyone makes you go a little crazy! This will help so many people though and you’re incredibly brave for sharing 💚

[@whitetigeraffair]

Thank you for being vulnerable with us and sharing your story. I support you and I'm sending you all my love and condolences. I saw a tiktok where this woman said that the little ones are always with you and during the time they spent with you they helped your body heal from ailments you face. I thought this was a beautiful perspective that I wanted to share in hopes it gives you some comfort.

[@thawnjohns4405]

I'm so sorry, I've followed you for years and I cant imagine what you're going thru or what you went thru but I want you to know that I support you and if there's anything you need, please reach out. You never have to feel like your own on this uphill battle x

[@rachelsauseda6135]

I had a miscarriage at the beginning of the year. I was not wanting to get pregnant again bc my previous pregnancy 13 almost 14 years ago was high risk and rough on me mentally/physically. I still had very troubling emotions bc I felt like a failure and so alone. No one prepares you for the emotions you face when you’re going through it and the aftermath. Thank you for being so open about your story. I hope the fertility specialist you see can help and y’all get to experience parenthood. It’s a very special thing to experience.

[@moonandsons]

Also i agree, my anxiety was rampit waiting for my 9 week ultrasound... BUT early ultrasounds can also be worse for pregnancy. So it can feel like a lose lose feeling. I was put on progesterone and had no idea if i was even pregnant or not. But thankfully, so far im almost 11 weeks now and hoping this one sticks ❤

[@knoelle1357]

I’m so sorry. I have endometriosis and PCOS and I’m pretty sure I’ll never be able to have a viable pregnancy. Can’t imagine what it would be like to lose a pregnancy, I’m so so sorry. 😞 Also, too many doctors are incredibly callous, patronizing and frankly, unkind towards their patients. Our healthcare system is very broken.

[@hannahdon1886]

I had a missed miscarriage three weeks ago at what was supposed to be 12 weeks and it’s just been the most awful experience. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I also had a horrible medical experience, I feel the same with it clouding my experience of pregnancy it was just very clinical and though some nurses were amazing, the doctors didn’t seem to care at all that not only was it physically horrible, but we were going through so much emotional turmoil and everyone was so dismissive and passive. Wishing you lots of love and healing ❤

[@ianthe.w]

I'm so sorry Ash. I can't imagine the hurt you've been feeling but I hope this comment section full of love helps to ease that a little. Thank you for sharing your experience so candidly and truthfully!

[@Damoll87]

It’s been almost a year since my miscarriage and I had a similar experience to yours in the ER . I ended up passing the baby before the ultrasound but still had to go through the ultrasound process to confirm. My HCG levels were in the low hundreds.The doctor on site kept going back and forth with you lost your baby to telling me wasn’t much of a baby at all. I was gutted by that. I have no idea how far along I was but I decided to name the baby Dalton because I heard it helps with the grieving process. I also felt like I let people down because we had just told everyone we were expecting a few days before the miscarriage. It was almost embarrassing. I still cry and wonder what that baby could have been it would have been almost 4 months old by now. I’m sorry you went through this but you are far from alone.

[@brandidawn2491]

I’m so sorry you experienced this. I had one in late December and it was an awful experience. I know how shitty and alone it feels even with family and support from your husband. It is a good feeling to know you can get pregnant. I also struggled getting pregnant for two years. I’m just so sorry and know how you feel.

[@elisa-gracebrown-wilson8631]

So sorry for your loss miscarriage is such a hard experience and definitely can make you feel so isolated and alone glad you have love and support in your life

[@marlenaluna2792]

I'm so sorry and you are not the only one who had a bad experience with doctors and the health system, it's really sad that we have to go through that in such a vulnerable moment. I send you a big hug and I hope you feel better!

[@jayjayguurl]

This is such an important thing to talk about especially right now with everything going on. You’re a beautiful a human and I know that you’re going to be a great mom someday.

[@hms7191]

My first pregnancy was ectopic and it was deeply traumatic since ectopics are so dangerous. Then it took me 10 months to get pregnant with my daughter. After her I had my second loss through another ectopic but this time I wasn’t listened to and my Fallopian tube ruptured. It was scary and dangerous and if I would have not begged for surgery I would died from internal bleeding. Then I had to do IvF because no way I’d ever again have ectopic again and risk my life. My son is now 3. Take your time to grieve- it’s a wild rise of emptiness and sadness. 🧡🧡🧡🧡

[@courtneylittle462]

Sending you so much love. ❤ I am currently working on figuring out what is up with my body, as nothing has ever been regular and we have been trying for 3 years. Thank you for sharing. Hoping everyone here sharing their stories get the news that they are wanting soon enough. You and Jayce will be awesome parents. 🧡

[@goldenshadow7691]

I’m so terribly sorry this happened to you. Praying for healing mentally and physically.

[@raechel0116]

So sorry for your loss. I just buried my grandmother today so I’m in the same headspace. Praying for you.

[@wanderlustrhiannon]

i’m so sorry that this happened and that you’re going through this😔

[@stephanielynn6459]

I’m so sorry for your loss ash ❤ sending you and jayce lots of love and hugs ❤️

[@VictorianDollface]

Omg Ashley the same thing literally just recently happened to me these past few months wtf… 👀👀 I wonder what’s going on with the planets.

[@Val.666]

Appreciate you sharing such a personal experience. Sending you lots of love and hugs 💓🖤

[@butterfly8514]

I cannot watch this. I am however sending you SO MUCH LOVE, healing and support. Take all the time you need. Sending love to you both

[@karolmolina1031]

Your vulnerability is admirable, I’m sorry for your loss and I hope that one day you’re able to have what you’ve dreamed of ❤

[@Charristar]

Was so excited to see that you posted something!! Then I read it 😔 Sorry this had to be the first thing you post in so long 💔 Honestly everything you said (except maybe the date thing) is all very common. I’ve had 4 miscarriages that I know of. And they were all different but also similar. The first one I had I was 4 months pregnant going on 5. I started spotting and my doctor not only told me it was nothing but treated me like I was over reacting for even asking if it was ok. After she said it was normal and I was fine… I went through one of the most traumatic times in my life 2 days later. It was years ago and it still fucks me up as if it was yesterday. I don’t know if you read this anywhere or if anyone told you but… your body is a type of serval mode. Because you were pregnant your body still thinks it’s pregnant. So it actually will try its hardest to get pregnant again. All the information that I got over the years was that basically a miscarriage is (sadly) common but also like a step closer to getting pregnant again and being able to carry full term. I never did. But I also at a certain point decided not to have kids. Not because of my pregnancy struggles but for other reasons. If you need to find some positive in this situation… definitely be happy that this made you more aware of the steps you need to take especially with your conditions 🥰 Not to mention the fact that you can even get pregnant. That’s the most amazing news!!! Right?! But so much love to you and the family. And so sorry for this heartbreak you are going through ❤️ It really is one of the worst things us women have to experience 😔

[@sydneyteal2116]

I’m so sorry. Sending you and Jace love & peace through your loss ❤️

[@cady4917]

I'm so sorry. You've been through so much. I know myself how exhausting the chronic illness train is. Hope good health is in your future and good days.

[@haileyyardley3118]

love you angel. thank you for being so open and vulnerable. so many women appreciate vulnerability like this whether theyve gone through it, havent, or havent and may in the future. wishing you love and happiness and take your time with everything ❤

[@dodge10P1N]

I have Hashimotos, too. The struggle with hormones is just a wild ride. Im so sorry youre dealing with this. Please take the time you need to process and heal.

[@jadejadejade1992]

I’m so sorry Ash, sending you so much love.

[@itscarolinemary]

I'm so sorry ❤ there needs to be more support & resources for early pregnancies and miscarriages. I'm thankful you weren't far along, I can't imagine how physically painful that would be. Still, any miscarriage is horrible. I've never been pregnant/had a miscarriage and I suspect I have endometriosis due to painful periods.

[@Xxbubbly10]

I’ve had two miscarriages without even knowing I was pregnant I must have fudged up my Nuva ring cause I was skipping periods they were definitely only like maybe two weeks in maybe I remember having like horrible horrible sharp pain then starting my period and what looked like a small sac came out and I could feel it come out which is what really made me feel like oh wth and actually looked at it I personally have never wanted kids so I was happy that if I was pregnant that I didn’t have to make a choice to end those But I am sorry you have to go through that. I hope you all r doing ok

[@jfur5881]

Oh Ash, I'm SO sorry. I can agree that the Dr. situation here in the states is horrible. You are not alone.

[@onyaaaaah]

I’m so sorry for you loss. Being a mom has never really been the first thing on my mind but I always wonder if I can even carry….I have POTS and many other health conditions and there were DEFINITELY times where I could’ve easily gotten pregnant in the last 10 years and I never have. I’m torn on if I even wanna know.

[@kiannasun4023]

I’m so sorry, you are so strong for sharing your story

[@brendabriones22]

Hey love, I’m so sorry ❤️‍🩹 I know that nothing I say or do will help. But I feel you 100% you are not alone. It’s been 2 years since I lost my baby due to a miscarriage. I experienced all that you went through at the hospital. The most cold way to tell someone that their baby won’t make it as they say it with no sympathy. And the uncomfortable ultrasound.. and the doctor not showing you or knowing what’s going on. All of it.. you are not alone ash. I’m grieving with you all the way. I’m here for you. I’ve been following you for years and I feel like we’re friends 🤍 I pray for you and your famiky

[@taylorfisher]

So sorry for your loss Ash! I’m happy you have such a strong support system through your friends, family, and doctors!

[@citieebythebay]

I’ve had two miscarriages and decided to do some testing because I thought I might have have PCOS and I found out that I have translocated chromosomes. So my chances of keeping a pregnancy have decreased incredibly. Thank you for sharing your story. There are so many of us that go through miscarriage and other health conditions and people just don’t talk about it. I hope you heal in all ways quickly.

[@merediiithgrace]

I'm so, so sorry for your loss and for the awful way you were treated through it. You will absolutely be amazing parents some day. And even if this pregnancy was short, you were/are still an incredible, strong, loving mother to your little one. Sending you (and Jayce and your families) so much love. 💗

[@hannahlee6053]

Thankyou for sharing your experience ❤ I have Hashimotos Thyroiditis and understand the struggle with hormones 😢 keep listening the the doctor you like, I have a good feeling about him. Your rainbow baby awaits and is already so loved 🥰 We love you Ash!

[@lizziebeggimbo]

I'm sorry i'm just seeing this now and I'm an OG folkower 😢😢😢so sorry this happened. I hope you are recovering ❤

[@marycorreia4359]

Sending you so much love and comfort. I'm so sorry you experienced this and are continuing to deal with the emotional, mental, and physical effects. And that pregnancy test was mean. It's so awful that the doctors made the experience even worse. I hope things will start being better for you.

[@melissaedwards3894]

thank you sharing this, i know it probably wasn't easy. i don't have any words of wisdom or shared experience, but sending you soooooo much love and support. ❤

[@ladyfashionsoul]

Sending love your way! This almost exact thing happened to me. I found out about rh factor, and that was most likely what caused my miscarriage. Basically my blood type was incompatible with the fetus. I didn’t know that was a thing until it happened to me, but maybe look into that too. They have shots they can give you to help fix the issue.

[@michelle5873]

I am so sorry! It sucks the normal obgyn system is chaotic. Happy u are going to fertility clinic & doctors 💜 sending tons of hugs

[@ruthy1056]

if your ever in this situation again. please please please dont go to the ER. they are absolutely clueless about pregancy (the er nurses and doctors), and they priorities trauma and heart patients. literally ppl that need immediate care or they will die. thats why they talk to their own obgyn for their advice. i know this as i used to work in the medical field checking in patients in the ER. i know you felt really anxious but they do not care to treat anything but those types of patients. you will need to go to a specialist. best bet talk to your primary and see if they can give you an emergency referral to an obgyn they trust. im so sorry you went through this. no matter how many stories i listen to of women going through the heartbreak of a miscarriage it never get easier to hear. the rabbit hole of doctor google always makes things worse, especially if you arent sharing your grief. i can say that about myself at least. im so happy to hear you are taking steps to get the support you will need going forward with any future pregancies and just for your overall mental and physical health. stay safe, sending a big ol' virtual hug.

[@JC-sb7rj]

I had a chemical pregnancy in February 2020. I got pregnant November 2020. I now have a 20 month old. When I got pregnant I had very elevated blood counts and severe anemia. Other than that my pregnancy was relatively normal. 9 months after my daughter was born I was diagnosed with chronic leukemia. All that was going on in my body and my daughter was born healthy and is thriving. It’s amazing what your body can do even under stress. Hopeful for you and your family. ❤

[@anikacollinge9591]

In regards to the timeline of your period- I too have endo and I thought I was pregnant cause I was around 5 days late as well, took the test, it was negative. So I was like ok whatever I guess not. Got a weird period after that, definitely not my normal and I just couldn’t shake the feeling that I was pregnant so about a week or two after I took that initial test, I took another and it came back positive. No idea why I had this weird mini period in between. But had a very similar experience!!

[@anikacollinge9591]

Also fuck those ER drs.

[@bribeee]

So sorry you had to go through this, & that you were met with such a lack of compassion at the hospital. 🥺 sending you love ❤

[@annag4635]

💔💔 Ash I’m so sorry, sending you so much love

[@Nighttwolfe]

I’m sorry Ash. We’re all rooting for you and Jayce. When it happens your baby will be so lucky to have you and Jayce as parents. 🤍

[@MissAniB]

Don’t blame yourself for how your body functions. Some stuff is out of your control ! I recently had my second baby and both of my pregnancies, deliveries, and recoveries have been rough. It’s so easy to blame myself and to think it’s all my fault..that I could and can do better. But, that’s just adding more stress and negativity ❤ We don’t need that. Be kind to yourself. You guys will be the cool, awesome parents all the kids want.

[@satrianna]

Sending you love and strength. Went through it in January. It gets better 🖤

[@renmcg12]

sending you and Jayce all my love, I'm so sorry for your loss

[@ZombieShag]

Hey girlie. You are so strong. I will pray that you get through this. I know that you will. I’ve been watching you for (hmm trying to be accurate without cheating and looking at your channel) at least 6 years now. You are awesome for sharing this and helping out so many other people. 💕

[@michellebelle6269]

I am so sorry Ash! Thank you for sharing your story. You and Jayce will be amazing parents someday, it just wasn't your time and it's definitely not your fault! I am also autoimmune and it's so hard dealing with everything that comes with it health wise. I'm glad my husband and I are on the same page of not wanting kids because I could only imagine how difficult and stressful it would be going through a high risk pregnancy. You're very strong Ash and I wish you the best of luck with everything ♥

[@thandekadumas3623]

Ohh babe I am so sorry 😞😔 I am going to pray for you and I am sending you a virtual hugs 😢

[@WhitneyPaige]

I’m so sorry you’ve had to deal with this. Hearing your experience with all the doctors too. Ugh. I hate that so much. Just know that pregnancy will be beautiful when you have a doctor that cares about you! They will let you see the ultrasound and talk to you about it. I’m so glad you are going through a clinic that can watch closely as you try again. I have PCOS and was always told it would be hard to conceive so when I got pregnant I was scared. When i saw my OB she found that I was low progesterone and immediately had me start taking it as well as prenatal vitamins. Hopefully they will get you on that protocol too!! I know words can’t really help you right now, but I just know you will have a beautiful pregnancy and you’ll be the best mama. I’m so sorry that you didn’t get to meet this baby.

[@allaroundnona]

I'm sorry Ash, sending u so much love

[@misslee1564]

I’m so sorry I have also had a miscarriage it’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through sending you guys love 💕

[@radnessbysam]

Im so sorry, ash. sending warm hugs and lots of love to you and your family.🖤

[@cj23813]

I’m so sorry to hear this and will be praying for you guys. I know the fertility journey is hard.

[@chickenlittle5738]

I’m sorry for you and Jayce, it’s really hard for a couple. But getting through this together, will only strengthen your love for each other. I can say from personal experience that most first pregnancies are miscarriages because they are not developing properly. Think of it as God’s little part of a big plan. My bf and I have been together 13 years in June. 2012 had a miscarriage, but in 2015 we welcomed our beautiful baby girl into the world. So again, I’m so sorry Ash from one Mama to another, never give up💌

[@cairo9675]

I'm very sorry you have to go through this. thank you for sharing with us and i hope with time this gets easier. We are here for you! sending love and infinite positive energy

[@melbrown6058]

I'm sorry Ash 😢 Sending love to you and Jayce. It's such a difficult time and experience for both you and him. You have a little angel and will go on to make the best mummy! From one loss mama to another, sending you all the love ❤️

[@RamonaFlowers781]

Ugh. Feel better. So proud of you for sharing this. Sending you so much love.

[@BeautifulU27]

I’m so sorry ash :( you’re going to be the best mom someday soon 🫶🏻

[@Saraaaa_13]

I have very similar health issues to you and I had an almost identical miscarriage. I’m sorry you went through this too. ❤❤❤

[@krystalrussillo7650]

thank you for sharing your experience! So sorry you’re going through this, sending you love. ❤️

[@olgamelissourgos735]

I miscarried last month it’s so painful. I’m so sorry:(