okay, I want to say thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. Everyone's story thoughts and feelings for this band and song are amazing if you're going through a tough time its gonna get better I promise. :')
@jessiej.63515 жыл бұрын
mania was a inside job thank you ,I doubt you’ll see this but I just wanted to say this song helps me cope with my mother and little brother missing ,thank you for this song
@madysonbuck7505 жыл бұрын
@@jessiej.6351 Your so welcome :) it's alright
@nolabratteig9885 жыл бұрын
I might be late to the party but I'm glad I found this when I did. Thank you.
@justadrunksaddo13035 жыл бұрын
mania was a inside job 💖
@gaminggirl67395 жыл бұрын
@@jessiej.6351 This song really makes me think of someone passed
@detestable5 жыл бұрын
"you're not a demon, there's a reason you acted that way" bOI I CRY
@shaden33925 жыл бұрын
"you're not a monster, just a human, and you made a few mistakes" boi that hit me hARD
@detestable5 жыл бұрын
@@shaden3392 this whole song just hit hard tbh
@emmaday30665 жыл бұрын
@@detestable same
@emilthetransking28804 жыл бұрын
blk. aura same
@emilthetransking28804 жыл бұрын
Gamer Girl same
@orangesmoothie62985 жыл бұрын
Mother Mother is more supportive than my actual mother
@HarryStikers4 жыл бұрын
Do what I did, get a mom friend. I met my mom friend when I was 15 and she was 25, I'm 20 now and I swear to god that woman saved my life. I've known mom almost longer than I knew my actual mother, who died when I was five. If it weren't for her I wouldn't be here.
@aneidadietzman4604 жыл бұрын
Mood
@shawnpandel65374 жыл бұрын
Orange Smoothie thats sad
@rissie33154 жыл бұрын
Orange Smoothie anyone who needs a mother friend, I’m now your mother :)
@michael-ge2pc4 жыл бұрын
that's tough
@noodlesramen51674 жыл бұрын
"You're not a demon, there's a reason you behaved in that way" Ya'll that hits too hard, and way too close to home-
@elephantpowerproductions4 жыл бұрын
Noodles Ramen Same
@emilthetransking28804 жыл бұрын
Noodles Ramen same
@hidiuthoff39184 жыл бұрын
same fam
@skyefarrow18994 жыл бұрын
Same
@theeleutheria10534 жыл бұрын
@Noodles Ramen Same
@kwannkao4 жыл бұрын
The fact that mother mother knew that there fans were mentally ill and tried to make us feel better just makes me in kind of happy, not all artists/bands make a whole song to help there fans Rn im just lost in pain and i feel really lonely, mother mother have helped me so much through the pain.
@Look-how-silly-I-am3 жыл бұрын
Hey just wanted to ask how you feeling today? Is it better?
@zanb5903 жыл бұрын
I hope you’re doing okay now sending love 💕
@thespectaclebear3 жыл бұрын
Dude I hope ur ok Ik I'm just a random stranger on the Internet but you are loved and amazing no matter what
@cornybram8453 жыл бұрын
Here if you need to talk
@silly_.rabbit23 жыл бұрын
I hope you are doing wayyyy better now !
@agh7203 жыл бұрын
In another universe: Father Father: it’s not alright
@iampidgeon69233 жыл бұрын
Father Father needs to stop bullying people
@aloserlmao52923 жыл бұрын
Mind: I've grown tiRed of my minDDddDdd
@himdavila87223 жыл бұрын
Lol ya
@Adrian-jo8zt3 жыл бұрын
Do I live in this other universe?
@bobaginny3 жыл бұрын
In another universe: Non-Binary Parent Non-binary Parent: It's probably gonna not be okay, but you do you
@peytonjesse40695 жыл бұрын
When it said “ to fight off what’s inside my head, to fight off what’s behind my meds” That hit me hard
@aquiiver8095 жыл бұрын
Peyton Jesse while reading this comment the song got up to the part you said.
@kkoriat17245 жыл бұрын
Especially that the singer's voice breaks a little, as if it was what he also feels.
@gardencalico5 жыл бұрын
@MARK BATES what are trying to get at? Because I can't see past that as an excuse of a joke-
@emilthetransking28804 жыл бұрын
Peyton Jesse same...
@tara73444 жыл бұрын
Yep.. .
@jjju35 жыл бұрын
This has officially turned into my biggest comfort song Yall know when its late at night and you start thinking about embarrassing things youve done before? Thats kind of what my entire life is like all of the time bcuz of my rsd. Having someone there to say "its alright, theres a reason you acted like that. You made mistakes _thats alright"_ is so much for me.
@nataleevalentine84254 жыл бұрын
B-atiful! Yes!! I love this song for that exact reason, sometimes you just need to hear that it’s okay ya know lol
@emilthetransking28804 жыл бұрын
B-atiful! This is my theme song now. I will listen to this non stop now. And now I’m crying damn it
@fernandaferraz94694 жыл бұрын
That's deep Bro ,_, (srr for my bad english)
@ThatOneJROTCkid4 жыл бұрын
I could listen to this song all night all day
@charlie19484 жыл бұрын
me too
@AtomicWhiskers5 жыл бұрын
I love the echo sound effect on “I said one BILLION foolish things”. God, this song is just awesome
@Tomato_juice16405 жыл бұрын
What's also awesome is that you have 666 likes
@seaturtle35205 жыл бұрын
I am a smol demon child now AtomicWhiskers has 927
@Tomato_juice16405 жыл бұрын
@@seaturtle3520 ...;-;
@jasperquartz46125 жыл бұрын
@@seaturtle3520 you're not a demon, just human, and it's okay to mess-up sometimes. it's okay if you mess up a lot because of genetic factors or how you were raised (or if you were neglected like me and didn't learn all the best social skills.) It's okay to just be.
@seaturtle35205 жыл бұрын
Jasper Quartz it’s actual the name of a person on this reply chain but thanks anyways also hope your situation gets better
@AnnajeKing4 жыл бұрын
Mother Mother lives up to their name because they’re already twice the mother my actual mom is
@notreknipa3 жыл бұрын
I have seen a lot of people saying similar things about their moms in these comments. I hope people can see that their moms are worthy of understanding too, in the same way you are. Nobody's perfect. This song's message applies to everyone, not just ourselves, and when you see that, you start to see the good and potential in everyone. We all hurt each other sometimes, but it's good for us all to seek to fix that and do better in the future.
@haveagoodmourning3 жыл бұрын
@@notreknipa If their mom is abusive (they aren't necessarily but there's a chance), then they have no obligation to forgive their abuser. That advice doesn't apply to everyone. And if they're saying things like this in comments sections, they're probably using humor as a coping mechanism for a crappy childhood. I love your optimism but this isn't the place for it.
@aromanticfranziskavonkarma3 жыл бұрын
@@notreknipa People with mothers who are purposefully abusive: Ahaha, yeah no.
@lilautistie52813 жыл бұрын
@@aromanticfranziskavonkarma What, you think those kind of people don't exist? There's a lot of people in the world and a lot of them really don't care. Abusive parents and guardians are a lot more common then most people would think.
@aromanticfranziskavonkarma3 жыл бұрын
@@lilautistie5281 I think you misunderstood my comment, either that or you replied to the wrong comment, literally most of the people I know online have issues with their parents
@RecordsoftheDeepFolk4 жыл бұрын
One of the few songs that helps me cry. PTSD and Depression doesn't mean sobbing all the time. It means being so broken you can't cry anymore. But Mother Mothers songs have helped. Thank you still, even now in the Forsaken Year of 2020.
@Sagu_Un1_3 жыл бұрын
My parents say just stop being sad. It's upsetting and I have no help... I can't go to my friends cause OH YEAH I GOT DITCHED BY 5 BEST FRIENDS! All I have is my best friends on roblox... I'm slowly losing my sanity and hope. I keep on trying spells the only one that's working so far is fictional character.. maybe his will help me fix myself ):
@grimm0133 жыл бұрын
This is the only song I can actually cry to, it also reassures me that my weird/freaky behaviour is fine and that I don’t need to keep putting a mask on to hide it, hell my mother even threatened to take me to the hospital for my behaviour and get them to fix me
@elmirasetayesh14953 жыл бұрын
@@Sagu_Un1_ darling did you see a doctor? You know sometimes mind can play cruel tricks and you may just have a hormonal imbalance that a pill could help? I didn't understand this before I actually learned it first hand the tricks the mind can play on you, but you feel as though its you but its not really you. Its an illness of the mind, short term or long term. And there is help.
@Sagu_Un1_3 жыл бұрын
@@elmirasetayesh1495 are you here to make fun of me or to be toxic about spells?
@elmirasetayesh14953 жыл бұрын
@@Sagu_Un1_ 🤔 I have no clue what you on about but I was trying to be helpful.
@gamingnerd195 жыл бұрын
This song reminds me of how my mum is always trying to keep up my confidence and self esteem because she knows what it’s like to be in a dark place
@andeside115 жыл бұрын
That’s the type of mother I aspire to be~
@-CG5 жыл бұрын
My mom is the complete opposite. She knows what I'm going through because she is mentally ill as well, but she is constantly gaslighting me and pointing out my flaws and manipulating my sisters and my dad into seeing me as an enemy to the family. I'm 22 and I still live with them but I recently got forced out by a lie my 18 year old sister told so I'm staying with my grandma which is an hours drive from work. I can't make it on my own and I'm kinda scared. I love my family so much and I would die for them but I'm always treated like shit by them. I'm so confused.
@oakletashers13435 жыл бұрын
i wish i had a mom like that,my mom or brother dont know me as much as they think they do...like all my struggles and problems.
@iceberry62505 жыл бұрын
She's a keeper ur mom is a rare treasure, not every mom actually understand their children,most of the parents give their children mental illnesses causing them to have a low self esteem and other shit
@googoogaga85665 жыл бұрын
@@-CG you should post your story on Reddit in the subreddit r/raisedbynarcissists You can find a solution there maybe
@bunnipeep5 жыл бұрын
I think my assigned fbi agent saw what I was going through today and is looking out for me so they arranged it so this song would show up on my recommendations. Thanks fbi agent. Update: hey so this was a year ago! Since then, I moved out of my abusive mom’s house, adopted a puppy and im doing soo much better! thanks to everyone in the replies wishing me the best, hope your fbi agent is treating y’all well and so is life. 💕
@Daniilope5 жыл бұрын
Hope you’re doing okay.
@eh57355 жыл бұрын
We all need that one FBI agent Also hope you're doing better these days
@jasontodd50895 жыл бұрын
Cottonbears Mine has been doing the same!
@emoteendaughter34415 жыл бұрын
*virtual hug*
@salemsweets96445 жыл бұрын
My FBI agent doesn't do anything for me ._.
@bonelessbones11765 жыл бұрын
y’all mind if I space out while staring at the ceiling to this song
@spicysalami43015 жыл бұрын
No one minds, but we're here too spacing out while staring at the ceiling to this song
@brennamohagen18185 жыл бұрын
Mind if I join ya?
@novadearest5 жыл бұрын
im doing that rn
@moonchild33225 жыл бұрын
Imma join u
@user-id9kv9ju5x5 жыл бұрын
Imma join all you peeps
@joybiden34604 жыл бұрын
I didn’t even realize how much I needed this song.
@amelliawitte74974 жыл бұрын
Same
@eefusbingus16853 жыл бұрын
Most of the time we only realize it when we reach a certain point. The line between being okay and not is blurred
@I_Hate_Life_3 жыл бұрын
Same
@katsukibakugou59793 жыл бұрын
Same...
@ananyadutta1154 Жыл бұрын
Same here. Tonight, I will shout "same here!".
@wogglywiggler4 жыл бұрын
so i have a mental health playlist for the off days and this is the first song, it really helps when the initial hit of panic or anxiety hits and you just need a little help
@KittenPinkamations3 жыл бұрын
@Shadow Willow Ultimately by Khai Dreams is pretty good, albeit a bit hard to sing along to, lol.
@dajs29873 жыл бұрын
"i" by kendrick Lamar. Similar to this song it repeats positiv affirmations and its catchy
@EmoBatmon3 жыл бұрын
Please share the link. I too have panick attaks and my boyfriend always blasts Hamilton. Wich I love, it forces me to sing along and focus on something else but after a while it started losing its affect cause now always when I hear Hamilton I get flashbacks to bad stuff. Maybe your playlist will help me. Love😘 stay safe💝
@jasmim66123 жыл бұрын
i listen to this (mini) playlist kzbin.info/www/bejne/eHutpGWpm895m80 it’s mostly known songs (and not my favorites) but it gives me some comfort, even though the songs are a bit sad
@silly_.rabbit23 жыл бұрын
Thank you for giving me the new idea. Btw, is your mental health doing okay?
@robinsea5 жыл бұрын
I ugly cried the first time I heard this song
@gracen8045 жыл бұрын
Same
@snazzysnake50515 жыл бұрын
@@gracen804 , I did too.
@feistyjennnn5 жыл бұрын
First time hearing this.. Currently ugly crying
@saltedbuttercups5 жыл бұрын
Yep that's me right now
@sugoish94615 жыл бұрын
Feeling like doing so at least rn (first time!)
@mikecharbs98335 жыл бұрын
I just heard this and it’s already one of my favourites. I’m not a monster Just a human!!!
@dianacao44315 жыл бұрын
You should watch the music video if you haven't seen it already
@mikecharbs98335 жыл бұрын
diana cao Yup I’ve seen it thanks though. I watch the originals first then find lyric vids to make sure I know the words if I like the songs. This one kicks A$& had it on repeat for a day or two lol they actually played this song at a NHL hockey game I watched the other day as well. This song is an inspiration one I recommend it to everyone and everyone.
@babybluexx5 жыл бұрын
My uncle introduced me to this song. He's a cool uncle 😌 he met the band and had drinks with the lead singer.
@PS-vr1uv4 жыл бұрын
damn you've got a cool uncle
@eeee50943 жыл бұрын
your experiences are not universal. but god i wish they were
@Caterpillarzzz3 жыл бұрын
That’s fuckin awesome-
@bumblebeeproductions16733 жыл бұрын
That’s some cool uncle
@sadlittlehero4 жыл бұрын
I was having a panic attack at my friend’s house and I was thinking I was going to die, I couldn’t breathe and I was sure my time was up. My friend, unsure of what to do, asked me if he could put on a song. I was nonchalant at it cause what did it matter, I was going to “die” and he put this song. I didn’t pay attention to the first verses but then the chorus made my stop on my tracks and my eyes filled with tears and I slummed on the ground thinking that was my mother comforting me. It became my mantra *it’s alright, it’s okay, it’s alright, it’s okay you’re not a demon, there’s a reason you behaved in that way* It helped me get over my panic attack and since then, every time I have one, I put this own and it calms me
@Polahking4 жыл бұрын
I think the line that hits too close to home is, "and I am touching, I am grabbing everything I can't be having I am broken down in shame"
@jessarisetty3 жыл бұрын
Right at 1:00, the way the music quiets down really emphasizes it.
@ToxineLycoris5 жыл бұрын
sweetest song I've heard in a while
@vi42695 жыл бұрын
Look up dodie or cavetown mabye mxmtoon now THAT is sweet (I can recommend specific songs if u like)
@アンドラ-z6h5 жыл бұрын
Ansley M. Recommend me specific songs please
@vi42695 жыл бұрын
@@アンドラ-z6h dodie Worthless Absolutely smitten If I'm being honest Would you be so kind Cavetown This is home Mxmtoon Prom dress Feelings are fatal harry styles Sweet creature Laura or somthing idk King Lauren daigle You say Rebel heart If you want more go to my channel hit the dreamland playlist and just listen
@アンドラ-z6h5 жыл бұрын
Ansley M. Wow thank you soo much❤️
@vi42695 жыл бұрын
@@アンドラ-z6h your welcome! after you listen to them tell me if you enjoyed it! Also, I was made for loving you by ed Sheeran and tori kelly
@ariseemo35405 жыл бұрын
it's so strange. *this is exactly what I need right now.*
@Lea-gd7zl4 жыл бұрын
ariseemo same! I've never heard anything about this song or band but it appeared when I truly needed it
@gabrielavalentinacaballero72694 жыл бұрын
I had listen to Body a couple of times last year but this song came just in time, I needed it
@ThrowawaytheRatman4 жыл бұрын
Same my friend.
@alastorhasagun16733 жыл бұрын
Are you doing any better a year later?
@emilyryan33835 жыл бұрын
The thing that hit me with this was the fact I wrote a song calling myself a 'monster in a pretty doll's skin' and this song almost seems like the version of my acceptance when it said 'your not a monster your a human and you've made a few mistakes' and I think it inspires me to write a part two to my song saying just that. :)) thank you, as this was my first inspiration in a long time.
@peregrine18864 жыл бұрын
currently loosing my shit on the bathroom floor to this. It’s alright, it’s okay. It’ll get better someday, I won’t feel this way soon. I hope whatever you’re going through gets better soon as well. Keep fighting, people love you. You’re always worth it - if you need a sign, this is it. Stay strong :”)
@peregrine18864 жыл бұрын
Just A Skeleton thank you! Honestly, things have been getting better. Shit sucks sometimes but it is what it is. Thanks dude :)
@uhohava3794 жыл бұрын
I hope you’re feeling better now. It’s been tough for me the past couple weeks and I’ve had a few mental breakdowns. Whatever you’re going through remember it will end eventually and someone thinks about you at least once a day.
@aperson28224 жыл бұрын
"You're not a monster, you're just human" oof that hit home
@dray31273 жыл бұрын
Man I've just found this and I love this line
@treebean90435 жыл бұрын
Listened once. Relistened all night.
@fillyreports5 жыл бұрын
I've been using this song to fight off anxiety recently, and youtube recommended this video which is how I heard it the firs time, so thank you for uploading this
@softhunder48115 жыл бұрын
me too.. im starting to listen to it every day
@Betetoelteto5 жыл бұрын
Yea i found the song recently and I play the song to calm myself when the anxiety starts to bother me ^^
@everythingcheryl035 жыл бұрын
@Filly reports I just wanna say, I see two images in ur profile picture, a pony and a women with long blue hair Idk if that was intentional lol
@abandonhumanity41825 жыл бұрын
this is the song my heart strings play when I'm having a mental breakdown I'm glad that mother mother realized that some of their fans weren't doing well in the mind this songs my new favorite
@fatlady36945 жыл бұрын
Tendinous cords / Valve tendons
@fatlady36945 жыл бұрын
Same
@jbetfifty59044 жыл бұрын
"You're not a demon there's a reason you behaved that way" Goddamnit if your gonna do me like that at least buy me dinner first
@IsMyBrotherHuman-8 ай бұрын
😭🤣
@ivantyler22395 жыл бұрын
I’m sitting in the student lounge at my college trying not to break down while listening to this song. I completely disassociated during my first class and I still don’t feel okay. This song speaks to me on such a profound level and it makes me feel like I’m not the only one going through whatever the hell im going through.
@confusedteen4 ай бұрын
I used this song to calm down when I cried at my college too
@jjju35 жыл бұрын
As a person deeply struggling with RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria) this song really helps me out.
@bumblebee-es5ry5 жыл бұрын
me too. i've been getting so many rsd episodes lately n its rlly kicking my ass
@jasperquartz46125 жыл бұрын
@Wowie Zowie So, it's basic'ly extreme emotional reactions to social rejection (perceived, or otherwise) that send the receiver of social rejection into a spiraling sinkhole of distress and depression. I Hope that helps clear things up in terms of understanding!
@HarryStikers4 жыл бұрын
Based on that description I think I experience it as well.
@tealwashablemarker88863 жыл бұрын
ohhhh man i see you fam
@idiomatic4443 жыл бұрын
@@HarryStikers same...
@jubjub46035 жыл бұрын
ive noticed myself slipping into some terrible behaviours the second my subconscious notices i could get away with it. i want to get help. Or help myself. This song helps too. we arent monsters, we just need to notice when our behaviour is uncalled for, and change it.
@yan41795 жыл бұрын
Stay strong! Getting proper help can take time, sometimes years, but it's worth it.
@deadbed22265 жыл бұрын
I think I can relate to you on some level. I think it's impressive that you are consciously looking for help and congratulate you on your efforts, and hope you succeed in getting the help you need.
@theflyingpenguin3425 жыл бұрын
i suppose we've been feeling this way, just know if i can do this so can you
@shirbeals41635 жыл бұрын
JubJub beautiful
@aud32785 жыл бұрын
i saw this at a really important moment. thank you
@zuzannaa.60095 жыл бұрын
same here
@Bonklyboi5 жыл бұрын
Me too
@lauraesqueda92034 жыл бұрын
It's hard to believe that this is the same person who sang body
@aloserlmao52923 жыл бұрын
or hayloft-
@jamillatorres72263 жыл бұрын
Or Little Pistol
@loonylau5 ай бұрын
or burning pile
@octobergothyc89105 жыл бұрын
I first heard this song in concert, and beforehand there was a meet and greet and I got to hug Ryan and it was probably the best night of my life so far.
@PB-gy9ru4 жыл бұрын
Love your profile pic Sanders sides!
@nathanberryan70684 жыл бұрын
@@PB-gy9ru same here😃
@helenazotek72823 жыл бұрын
Hi this flag is wrong (transphobic) pls check this in google
@andrisutoart90285 жыл бұрын
I love how the lyrics match to the flowers meaning kinda ,( cempasuchil, flower of the dead ) its so nicee
@madysonbuck7505 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much you're the first one who noticed
@milIyrock5 жыл бұрын
I'm having a night dull of dysphoria and my DID is driving me insane, but this really calmed me down.
@iwanmommaerts59605 жыл бұрын
Keep your head up man, if you believe it's the worst time of your life, you believe it can only get better from now on. You are not alone
@ashphoenix32955 жыл бұрын
DID here too. This song is so helpful.
@CelestialEnby5 жыл бұрын
Another person with DID here too! This song is really calming and I'm glad there are other people here who share similar struggles with us
@Mythrignoc5 жыл бұрын
It's nice to see such solidarity, especially on youtube. We have DID as well, it's nice to know we are not alone.
@eternal47805 жыл бұрын
@@itshotinhellfr dissociative identity disorder
@Miss.Meichu7774 жыл бұрын
I'm 16 this song should not make me breakdown because I need to hear this, that's not how my life should be
@ange_le0_7534 жыл бұрын
it shouldn't be like this, for any of us, it's horrible that it is
@jessarisetty3 жыл бұрын
It shouldn’t. I’m sorry. And I don’t know you but I still wish it were better for you. But you needed to hear this and you heard it. There’s magic in that. Hold onto it.
@Bee-qp7wm3 жыл бұрын
I’m 11 and cry every night. I also drink monster, I’m very loud, most people hate me and I hate myself most of the time. This song reminds me that I am just a human
@idiomatic4443 жыл бұрын
I'm 14, and same
@matchamelon3303 жыл бұрын
@@idiomatic444 me too; i can’t wait until i can leave my house for good
@noodletin70904 жыл бұрын
This song makes me feel I’m sitting on the car’s passenger’s seat with the window rolled down feeling the cold wind, watching the sun rise over the horizon over a plain. And at that moment, it literally feels that everything will be okay
@candiedcrusader78414 жыл бұрын
When I was an age too old for this, I was asked by my friend to not walk her home once after school, we had gotten in a fight about something, I can't remember. Anyways, I wanted to make sure she was safe, so I followed her a ways back and I kept by some bushes along the edge of a park. I was watching her on the home stretch, she was a turn away from home and a little ways down an unpopulated road (protected area legally, there are a handful of low population animals in the forest) when a friend of ours, he was a little challenged so we disregarded his creepy behavior and were kind to him, was walking behind her. It was strange since I've also walked him home before, and he lived near me, on the other side of town, not near school. He pulled out a small pocket knife while my friend was reaching in her back pack for a dip'ems she was going to give to him, and he stabbed her in the shoulder I had already been walking towards them by this point and I had began running, when she fell he began pulling her pants down, and when I had reached her, her underwear was off and around her thighs. He was much thinner than me, and much less muscular, so it was easy to push him to the ground, and I did, my friend, still bleeding, began calling 911, both to get him arrested and get medical help, since it was bleeding badly. When he fell there next to her, I immediately began to climb on top of him, and I hit him so much. I couldn't even recognize him anymore, then I moved onto his chest and began pulling at the knife in his hand, I threw it into the bushes and I broke both of his arms, I was in a cold, mindless rage, trapped in my mind, fully conscious of what I was doing, but unable to stop myself. I dragged him over to the curb and put this arm against it so it was resting on it with his elbow in the air, and I stomped on it, he was unconscious at this point, and I had moved to do the same to his other arm, one of them began bleeding. Then I started stomping on him as hard as I could until the police and ambulance arrived, the ambulance arrived before the police and they had refused to try to pull me away from him, I was screaming at them to leave us alone, I was so horrified at what I was doing but it was like my muscles were moving on their own, I eventually calmed down when I heard sirens in the distance again and they were allowed to put him in a stretcher and wheel him and my friend off into the ambulance, the cops came, and they questioned my friend, who had been, from a distance, screaming and crying at me the whole time to stop, until the cops arrived, then they questioned me, I tried to leave out the part where I beat him like a fucking enraged chimp, but they already heard it all from her. They arrested me, and my parents and my friends were in contact to save me from being put in juvy, or, with the brutality of what I did, probably jail. They were talking to our friend's parents about the situation, and with my friend's approval, agreed to not press charges if they didn't. The state still had issue and they pressed crimes against us both for committing crimes on federal property, and I got 6 months in detention, and he, after healing enough to transport, was put in jail. To this day, I have flashbacks and vivid nightmares, of my perspective, but not my body, where I'm watching in the first person as horrible, brutal, visceral things play out in front of me, where I'm beating people close to me, where it feels like the world is about to explode and I'm going to be the only one to die, where it's all bloody and boney and there's bruised flesh that I walk on for miles, and there's screaming, it's always haunting me now and I listen to this song to calm myself sometimes, I'm a mess just saying this, and I feel like a monster all the time, even though I know I did it to protect someone I really loved, I'm so ashamed and terrified of myself, I hadn't been able to hold my baby brothers without fear that maybe that part of me would come out again, it made me avoid everyone I loved, and who made me happy, and I was in hell.i can't even play violent video games, I wasn't the victim of a stabbing and attempted rape, so I didn't get therapy for it, and my parents could not afford that, now that I live with my siblings, I haven't accepted an invite to hold my infant nephew, I was too ashamed to come to his birth, and I couldn't stand being in my familys and friends presence and lost many friends, and made many family members worried, just staying in my room, listening to music and playing games, reading books watching TV, everything normal people do to forget things, like drugs and alcohol, I developed a weed addiction and I've done heroin and meth once, nothing changes the fact that everything, even a flinch from something I accidentally did, like maybe I was reaching over someone, and they flinch, I would feel like shit, ashamed, brought back, like some monster in human skin. I've even taken to scratching the skin off of my fingers and pulling my leg hair absentmindedly, when I don't think I'm stressed or thinking about it, I've not been able to work through all of this, so if it isn't coherent, I'm sorry... It's fucking hard to keep track when im thinking about this. If you read this far, thank you for listening to my story, and if you have the same issues, or any, that make you feel like a monster, I'm here to tell you, you aren't. You're human, flesh and blood and brain, that brain isn't perfect and it can make you do things, when it's poked and prodded the right way, that will horrify you and remind you of your own fragile mortality. You aren't a monster, you're not evil, you weren't gruesome, and that horror is good, it proves it.
@musichoudini86274 жыл бұрын
Hello, would you mind if I did a shout out to you in one of my videos? I am so sorry that happened to you, I am in tears because you saved your friend's life. But faced challenges that you did not deserve. I am proud of you for saving your friend and so sorry that you were punished for defending. Even if "you went to far". Your friend may have died if you were not there
@candiedcrusader78414 жыл бұрын
@@musichoudini8627 thank you, but I definitely did go too far. Nobody deserves to be permanently deformed and broken because they are mentally unstable and did something horrible once. I was definitely not in the right, but neither was he.
@musichoudini86274 жыл бұрын
@@candiedcrusader7841 Thank you for reminding me of that. I apologize, and I hope you are doing better now
@Bolbabul-gd6pt4 жыл бұрын
I hope you are okay now. Like genuinely hope that you are okay. You really aren't a monster,you know that right?
@jillybean84544 жыл бұрын
Hey, it's not you fault. The guy has issues and you needed to protect your friends. I hope your doing okay along with everyone that was involved. Have a nice day.
@catherineeva60125 жыл бұрын
This song is really comforting...
@pioupiou16035 жыл бұрын
Somehow it gives me hope. I hope I'll become someone better someday
@anakrivokapic7055 жыл бұрын
You will trust me!I believe in you!!!
@erinlopez53445 жыл бұрын
You sure will!
@meanieeheart42365 жыл бұрын
ur profile pic makes me smile 😊
@jasperquartz46125 жыл бұрын
This song helps me cope.
@delivermypain4 жыл бұрын
I'm sure you're alright the way you are.
@FXIRYBXTCH5 жыл бұрын
This kind of music saves lives!
@kaseyjayne4 жыл бұрын
does anyone else imagine their comfort character singing this to them and then cry even more?
@virgilisanxious18173 жыл бұрын
Yeah. I do that a lot, mostly with a guy I watch called Wilbur Soot
@virgilisanxious18173 жыл бұрын
@Renske de Jong I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE IT WAS HIM WTF-
@virgilisanxious18173 жыл бұрын
@Renske de Jong well, I used to be,but my name is Virgil (I named myself after the character-) and I'm anxious all the time so- yeah
@virgilisanxious18173 жыл бұрын
@Renske de Jong Aw, thank you! It is really a problem but thank you! :)
@bumblebeeproductions16733 жыл бұрын
@@virgilisanxious1817 my comfort character is Tubbo :3
@Geeky.rainbow.vampire4 жыл бұрын
This song is a type of therapy
@michaelbraschuk66995 жыл бұрын
Every song from them is a banger just pure geniusly constructed amazing melodies and music
@madysonbuck7505 жыл бұрын
Someone gets it
@plodimsocks4 жыл бұрын
The best thing about this is that when u sing it, its like your telling it to yourself and the people around. Its warming in a way that feels so rare
@nataliabarnett6113 Жыл бұрын
I love your comment and stuff I just gotta say I love your username.
@bajablastpasta4 жыл бұрын
" I'm not okay" Me, an individual: *I promise*
@snailiplier4 жыл бұрын
I’M NOOOOOT OOOOKKAAYYYYY-
@Mundane_InTheMembrane4 жыл бұрын
DFGDFGDFHHGF IM -
@laffytaff34434 жыл бұрын
MEE
@virgilisanxious18174 жыл бұрын
YASSSSS!
@laffytaff34434 жыл бұрын
@@virgilisanxious1817 Virgil
@tabea_white45243 жыл бұрын
I'm shaking to this song having a panic attack, but this song is REALLY like really really comforting to me. Mother mother in general is my comforting band haha
@CosmicPearl4 жыл бұрын
This song kissed the little anxiety gremlin in my brain and told him it loves him. Now he's crying and now I'm crying...
@lyricsandlemons11384 жыл бұрын
I found this song last night when I was having a really bad episode and it helped so much and it helped me not relapse. This is exactly why I want to pursue music, music has saved my life hundreds of times over and I want to help others in the same way it helps me. I love you all, (even if i don't know you) and things can get better.
@joshuagareau71652 жыл бұрын
As an addict/alcoholic in recovery this song is so special to me, this past month has been really hard and I've been struggling with my depression but found this song at the perfect time.. it's helping to give me the courage and the strength to keep going
@ananyadutta1154 Жыл бұрын
Hear me out whoever you are. (KNOW THAT I AM SHOUTING) YOU WILL SMILE BRIGHTER THAN A DAY ONE DAY. Must you know that somewhere in this world, or entirely out of the planet somewhere midst cumuli and nimbus grey, I will smiling for you.
@rebeccaanamu8122 жыл бұрын
I swear my parents and parental figures never gave me any support like this song does. I'm more of a mother to my mother. Every time I feel down or sad this song always helps so much. I could listen to it on repeat and never get tired of hearing it...
@ashessakura75182 жыл бұрын
"I don't wanna know who I am 'cause heaven only knows what I'll find. I don't wanna know I'm not capable of coming out alive." These lyrics came straight for me and my jugular, it fucking hits so hard and first time I heard it this it made me break down
@codymoncrief84784 жыл бұрын
This got suggested out of nowhere and it may have just saved my life
@mintyfresh87324 жыл бұрын
I come back to this song every now and again, to remind myself that “it’s alright”. I will grow from my mistakes. I will become better. In the end, I will still be me. I will be ok.
@simonhitt57912 жыл бұрын
This song helped me through my withdrawals when I quit drinking and is reaffirming on my continued journey to sobriety. Much love.
@KayleeDoesEverything10 ай бұрын
I screamed this full force when I saw them in concert. With tears in my eyes bro and another fan hugged me through the song.
@themaxarchive_01614 жыл бұрын
I sung to myself during the chorus "I'm alright I'm okay" and just cried, this song means a lot to me due to the amount of anxiety I have with abandonment issues, this song makes me feel at home whenever I play it.
@kjhkjg49865 жыл бұрын
**tw** First time I ever heard this song, now id been listening to Mother Mother for a while and I just never came across this one. It was late at night and I had just gotten through a really bad panic episode after I had tried to do some bad stuff to myself. I heard this song and I've never cried that hard before. This song really touched me like nothing has before.
@szczurwczapce71395 жыл бұрын
I just found an awesome song, great feeling
@veryconfused24044 жыл бұрын
I love how everyone's being so positively effected in the comments. Things get better ❤
@lovelylilypad13803 жыл бұрын
I listen to this song everyday to remind myself that everything is going to be okay, after 6 years of living in pure hell and being in agonizing pain, I'm finally on my way to being better. For a month I have to have a feeding tube so I can gain weight and this song really helps me push through. Thank you mother mother.
@alix57643 жыл бұрын
These songs help people realize that they're not alone in this world and it's comforting.
@FurryFBI5 жыл бұрын
Im at school rn and im trying not to cry cuz life is hitting me in the face and this song made me feel loved and safe The best song
@coffinoleanders37585 жыл бұрын
*inhales* this almost got me crying, it's been a while
@parunzel46984 жыл бұрын
its okay to cry sometimes
@agora80725 жыл бұрын
the absolute taste of this song.... this song really helps if you take it to heart 🥺
@snowdevil28634 жыл бұрын
I remember listening to this song before I really understood it. It’s weird what can happen to you in a year. Ive been on meds for a while now for depression and ptsd symptoms. I was abuse as a kid and early teens and was in the hospital often. I’m finally doing better and getting the help I need. Learning heather coping strategies instead of alcohol (I’m 15 I can’t even have it where I live or buy it) and just getting better in general
@maryhirota5404 жыл бұрын
Reading all these comments made me so sad! All y'alls who are hurting right now, I just wanna give ya all the hugs. Keep on going because whoever you are, I love ya and whatever you're dealing with is temporary. Never give up. Fight till the end. You are priceless. You are worth it. You are loved.
@cindylou24292 жыл бұрын
looking for this type of song for years! finally something that...actually relatable, nothing super depressing, with a good message but still acknowledges the pain and the struggle. 😭💖💖
@Mx.zz053 жыл бұрын
I wish other people especially my mother understood.. 💔 “I’m lonley, lost in pain” “I am touching, I am grabbing everything I can’t be havin’” “I am broken down in shame” “You’re not a demon, there’s a reason you behaved in that way” These words really spoke to me especially the last one which made me emotional..
@MrsMossoW5 жыл бұрын
That one dislike is a Monster and it's not okay
@madysonbuck7505 жыл бұрын
:')
@The_Faded_Bliss5 жыл бұрын
:3
@Suckeychicken5 жыл бұрын
They’re not a monster, there’s a reason they behaved in that way
@tigerdomino5 жыл бұрын
They're not monsters, they're just human and they made a few mistakes
@jasperquartz46125 жыл бұрын
Didn't you really actually listen to and read the lyrics....?
@natetime3653 жыл бұрын
If only Mothers were actually this supportive.
@chloeunderwood45974 жыл бұрын
You ever have a song hit you so hard that you shatter? This song is exactly that kind of song.
@Laaveendeer2 жыл бұрын
This song really made me tear up Remembering all my past mistakes i've done when i was a kid as a grow older ruined me Thank you mother mother for creating this beautiful song
@aspenisatree68153 жыл бұрын
Where was this song when I needed it most
@whatrhymeswithcharlsie5 жыл бұрын
God, when his voice broke on “behind my meds” I felt that 😭
@sammalsikuri38284 жыл бұрын
Didn't know I needed to hear this today, I started bawling my eyes out when the chorus hit.
@Shin_001 Жыл бұрын
I discovered this song like an hour ago while listening a playlist trying to calm myself and now it's on repeat and I'm in tears but I definitely feel better 🙏🙏 I was reading the comments while listening and I really love how everyone is so supportive, this feels good thanks y'all ❣️❣️
@alexl.90765 жыл бұрын
This popped up randomly in my recommended list and I'm so glad I decided to click! The song is awesome, the lyrics are so sweet and supportive... To any of you struggling to get through today: it's okay if you make more mistakes, you just carry on and you will see how wonderful life can be. Hugs to everyone out there!
@someoneelsehere87894 жыл бұрын
Friends: uh dude? Ya good Me, quietly huddled in a corner: ~its alright, it’s okay~
@lonedoeseverything17442 жыл бұрын
4 years ago I did something horrible, this song really helps me when I think about the path of broken hearts I've left behind. It hurts and I still don't think I can forgive myself yet but, I'm happy that I have something to make me feel a bit better when I'm feeling down.
@ereynolds72 Жыл бұрын
Everybody deserves forgiveness, remember, I don’t know what you did, I don’t care. I see you’re struggling with it, I forgive you
@lonedoeseverything1744 Жыл бұрын
@@ereynolds72 ❤
@1Rose_ Жыл бұрын
Just remember, the amount of remorse it seems it took you to type all that, I'm sure you've grown so much as a person to recognize your wrong doings. I hope by now you're on the path to forgiveness for yourself.
@auran4043 жыл бұрын
This is actually really helpful for me. I've dealt with bullies for YEARS, and the way I tend to react to them trying to hurt me is to lash out and hurt them back. but I don't want to hurt anybody. I just want to be left alone
@mikeydraws3 жыл бұрын
I relate to this song too much. I needed to hear this.
@jordanpierrotti52205 жыл бұрын
I've never commented on a song before. But I had to. This song is insanely comforting and sweet. I'm going through on of the roughest times of my life and I was at the point I wasn't feeling anything, just moving through life knowing I'm struggling but not being able to identify any specific emotion I was feeling. But for some reason, as dumb as it sounds, this song made me feel. I'm crying now in my car waiting for my work shift eating DQ ice cream, but at least I feel something. This song is SO comforting. I appreciate the band (which I am now a fan of despite not hearing them until now) and the one who posted this. Thank you!
@mariateresaacevedo59665 жыл бұрын
People may think that they are emotionless because of the pain they had been through. But we are all humans after all, having feelings is what makes us humans, people just keep all there feelings stuffed inside them, which soon or later grows in to depression, its good to let all those feelings go for you to feel relief, and its ok. Theres no roses without thorns. If your life its not good now it doesnt mean that it cant get better.
@Emma-bs8ux4 жыл бұрын
This is how I feel about it too, I'm happy to hear that this song was able to help you as well :)
@nickyerps50515 жыл бұрын
Damn i like this song alot
@r.a.d.d.a.d.79035 жыл бұрын
At first it didn’t sound very good, but then the lyrics came on and they meant something and it caught me. Great work. Keep it up
@ihavenolife15414 жыл бұрын
I'm going through one of "let's look at all my mistakes" nights and found this. The mistake that bugs me the most tonight is that I left a 100 dollar knock of instrument my parents got me for Christmas at the school and never grabbed it again. That was 2 yrs ago and I regret it but I've never told them.
@fredbearpostsfnaf93143 жыл бұрын
I heard this song in a animatic and when I stopped to hear what was being said, it made me feel a lot better. I relate to this song a lot. Nothing really bad, but I get really guilty feelings from the smallest things I do, even if it was from when I was young and just didn’t know what I did.
@gabecassidy36753 жыл бұрын
I just wanna say, it does get better, and I'm talking from expirience. This song was one of the things that helped me get through my issues, so I figured I wasn't the only one who needed to hear this. Hats off to you for making it this far.
@katherinecorey9635 Жыл бұрын
My dad went with me to a mother mother concert one time and on the way there he said “their music just seems so negative “ like sir, are you listening to what they’re saying
@aubrey72262 ай бұрын
It's realistic and about life. Is your dad one of those annoyingly "optimistic" people who are actually just in denial about everything?
@avajohnson2758Ай бұрын
lol
@Tanjiro_simp-x9v15 сағат бұрын
That’s what my dad says about everything 😑
@alli_xo10173 жыл бұрын
This song is the only reason I am sane. I listen to it whenever I am about to break down and it relaxes me
@hctirdle.4 жыл бұрын
As someone with DID, this hits hard. A friend sent this to us, and...well, we're so grateful.
@shishybb854 жыл бұрын
I think the whole DID thing is really cool. It's interesting. And, uh, I hope you guys are doing okay.
@hctirdle.4 жыл бұрын
@@shishybb85 We’re doing fine! Thank you for your consideration! 🤍🖤
@aayushisanadhya25362 жыл бұрын
I am absolutely marinating in this song, it is taking me back to when I was about 13 and my self esteem was in the trenches, and I took comfort in a bunch of characters who were the same way. I feel like I would have really liked this song then. Especially the bridge about not even wanting to look at your own capacity for doing terrible things, and the mess that you are, that really hits
@tamarabrigewell89115 жыл бұрын
I feel like crying now Edit: These are the few times I'm grateful that KZbin listens on me
@AlabasterCat5 жыл бұрын
Kid me needed this song. Adult me still needs this song. Old me will need this song.
@necrodistic4 жыл бұрын
This song feels like a hug I really needed.
@storm-gliderdarando58832 жыл бұрын
This song made me cry…..I can’t thank you enough. This is better then anyone in my life, I can’t express how much I love this, thank you❤
@onsideramen48093 жыл бұрын
*My friend told me to listen to songs by Mother mother. Damn, I don't got no regrets about listening.*