Music to Fake Your Own Death to - How to Disappear Completely

[@NateTheMateForever]

How to disappear completely at the end of time

[@ABucketofJake]

Shits a cocktail for the big sads

[@lydiuhhhhh]

im only like a third into everywhere at the end of time i dont think im ready for this mashup

[@forbiddenfursona]

@@ABucketofJake true

[@poweroffriendship2.0]

_"HOW TO DISAPPEAR COMPLETELY..."_ *Me, after listening to this album:* Mr. Stark, I don't feel so good.

[@peepnox7747]

:)

[@deenr.9677]

@@peepnox7747 bro I went to ur channel and i saw ur thumbnails, and i was like "nope, not doing this" and went back to the video

[@deenr.9677]

@@peepnox7747 f' it. ima watch one of ur vids

[@deenr.9677]

@@peepnox7747 yo I judged too fast ur musics funky! great work

[@peepnox7747]

@@deenr.9677 ❤️

[@belvedere7051]

i like it how you still used some ''Everywhere at the end of time'' music in the background

[@ABucketofJake]

Yah bro what are you talking about

[@TheHideout0]

NOOO NOOO NOOOOO NOOO NOO ITS TOO SOON FOR THESE JOKES YOU'RE TRIGGERING MY PTSD

[@grpm1lk]

I don’t think so.

[@OurEnemyScalion]

@@TheHideout0 wat

[@thetrexlogs5355]

@Tom Broome I love you.

[@MuradBeybalaev]

Speaking as an insomniac, what I want most when fighting insomnia is in fact to disappear completely. To stop existing. To stop perceiving, having control of a corporeal body and being able to lead a conscious thought. I think - therefore I am, but I shouldn't *be* when I sleep. Although what you describe in your thoughts on that book sounds like quite the different notion of those same words. Maybe I should give this musical collective a listen.

[@kolbykauffman4180]

You're gonna lose air in those pool floaties if you keep hittin oceans like this, homie. And I went in with a raft.

[@KronosXL.]

What I learnt from this comment: *water*

[@krysiatabachenko8756]

You are so articulate. Love to hear your thoughts on this. I’m from Poland. I love seeing talent being recognized from here, you did them justice.

[@maximelussier527]

Awesome vid, as always! Just wanted to point out that "mer de revs" is mispelled french for "sea of dreams" and "reverie" is "daydream"!

[@ABucketofJake]

Oh shit thank you bro I didn’t even know that, that makes a lot of sense tho

[@grpm1lk]

Interesting

[@latitzouri]

Merci de l'avoir dit 😂 Vu qu'ils sont basés en Pologne c'est assez étrange qu'ils prennent du français du coup. Peut-être que c'est un françicisme en polonais ?

[@Crumb_B]

I've used Seraphim on loop every night, shuffled, to help me sleep. I've been needing to use ambient and drone music to even get to sleep for nearly a decade now, ever since college. This album has been pretty life changing for me, I've been plagued by mental illness for as long as I can remember and this album consistently puts me into a more ok headspace, at least until I drift off. I think there's a really beautiful meaning to the band's name, I also can't help but think they have taken inspiration from Radiohead's song of the same name, very similar feelings, tonality and themes between that song and the music this group makes (depression, struggling with certain things, but also release and comfort). Finally, the fact that it's dedicated to Mark Hollis puts it all into perspective. It was pretty well known he had been dealing with mental health issues even since his time with the band Talk Talk, and I would highly recommend you check out his solo album "Mark Hollis" if you haven't already. The amount of understanding and empathy you can feel for him through his lyrics and music on that album are almost overwhelming, and it is even more truly beautiful music both for comfort and the occasional chance, for me at least, to feel something more positive once again. I hope that anyone reading this who needs it can feel some sort of comfort from it all. Anyway great video man, just checked out a few of your vids and I like the topics and takes you have on them.

[@sethwarner644]

For some reason the music and cover art on these albums makes me feel so depressed, I feel abandoned and unwanted every time I hear it, it hurts to see the protagonist put the new face on, look back and be found; I feel so hated when I listen to it, like I was just left behind with only an empty room filled with their things they didn't even feel important enough to take with because I drove them away, it's a world of constant guilt and remorse, and it's very lonely here; for some reason I don't feel like the one who ran away, I feel like the one who got left behind, and it's hard not to miss someone I don't even know.

[@yungtraplord1077]

Listening to high quality audio while seeing low quality video is a feeling I never thought I'd get to know.

[@gardenboydon]

So many good quality videos from the music analysis community dropped this week. Pad chennington, Volksgeist and now this 🙏

[@danielakatzenbecher2811]

Pad cunnington doesnt seem to be a thing currently, still appreciate 2/3!

[@gardenboydon]

@@danielakatzenbecher2811 lmao I got the name wrong 🤣

[@danielakatzenbecher2811]

@@gardenboydon give us the right one, guy. I loved Volksgeist's video

[@ABucketofJake]

I like this comment a lot

[@gardenboydon]

@@ABucketofJake I'm a huge fan of your videos 🙏

[@springydingy1]

I think my dad listened to this album... huh.

[@pudding9475]

Oh... God... I hate the fact i understand this

[@adatcat]

Hahahah

[@thegreatbootleg5710]

?

[@shakennotstirred3564]

I once sent this album to a friend and they disappeared completely. Is this supposed to happen?

[@ABucketofJake]

You did it right

[@shakennotstirred3564]

@@ABucketofJake okay good, just making sure.

[@Amphibax]

Yeah that makes a lot of sense

[@KronosXL.]

@@ABucketofJake I sent this to my dad and he responded saying "reverse psychology eh?"

[@xonxt7479]

@@KronosXL. Lmao

[@Trini3488]

You articulate your thoughts so well. I will def listen to this when I have time. Keep up the great work dawg. You got something good going on. Subscriber for life

[@ABucketofJake]

A legend right here

[@salvadormuro7346]

ABOJ is one of the coolest KZbin channels I’ve found. Subscribed for life, keep it up mate. Can’t wait for more videos.

[@Weebslayer13]

first time listener first time caller loved the video, super well done and engaging 💞 however the way u pronounced "Rhiannon" absolutely killed me lmfaoo

[@mcslave3]

Looked this up because I woke up one morning and parts one and two had been almost completely played. I went to bed listening to Drew Gooden, woke up to mer de revs playing. It psyched me out, explains how my dreams were so bizzare that night.. great video as always make

[@vexusmorpheus932]

Fellow stinker :0

[@owencole5774]

“This project was based in Poland. Now that’s where the first issue began”

[@wayfareangel]

Okay, so I listened to this while falling asleep and sleeping last night. It was my first time hearing Mer de Revs. This is the kindest music I have ever encountered. I've been having issues with sleeping lately due to chronic pain and intrusive memories. If you let it, this music will just seep into you, and push everything else out of the way as it fills you up. I found it to be an extremely soothing experience, and I fell asleep very quickly while using it. My cat even woke me up several times, and while normally it would take me hours to fall back sleep, with Mer de Revs it only took me minutes. 100% endorse this for sleeping to.

[@Cannot_handleit24]

The word "Mer" is French for "sea" which would explain why, with a lot of the music, it feels like you're drowning.

[@lotsclosed19]

This video will blow up.

[@sad-dx1lk]

Wat do you mean?

[@belzeva]

Nah

[@soorajmz]

This is the first time in years I'm satisfied with a KZbin recommendation, I could listen/watch your content all day and I cannot thank you enough for bringing such beautiful content. It's always too good to have someone around who understands the emptiness and obscure grief, Thank you for existing :)

[@RazorSaysRawr]

I love the album Seraphim, it's amazing ambience and great background noise.

[@delirivm0000]

im happy that this was in my recommended

[@ABucketofJake]

Tell your friends ;)

[@salvadormuro7346]

When I posted this comment there was not a single thumbs down. Too cool. Really a quality video.

[@salvadormuro7346]

Six months later and only 25 dislikes, I’d say that’s pretty good

[@hx7004]

This gotta get more attention, I love htdc so much and finally seeing someone talking about them is great :D

[@edwardchen9619]

this project is oen of those that i just wanna gatekeep to myself. great anlysis!

[@Groose_McLoose]

"I had free reign to move, but my mind said, "No, you want to stay and get swallowed."" Fuck that hits me harder than it should. Thank you for recommending music that can let me, in a comprehensible way, understand a mindset that I've been stuck with for years.

[@furretqueen1584]

I loved the *everywhere at the end of time* video and I watched this right after, I know this is a week old but.....you are so underrated

[@jdkimple]

Same here. Not the type of music I normally throw in for, but I am very intrigued.

[@AustinNebbia]

Thank you for this wonderful video introducing me to the group I’ve been using to help me sleep for the past many months now (Seraphim especially). I had to point out my favorite Easter egg from this series: the ending of the first track of the whole MdR project, “Aislin”, directly quotes the melody of “1/1”, the first track of Brian Eno’s 1978 “Music for Airports”, the first album to officially be coined “ambient music” (and coincidentally another one I used to fall asleep to). Love that little nod, made me respect them even more.

[@firsthandsuffering]

The Caretaker - Krakow, Poland (saw it on soundcloud) "HTDC is a live collective based in Poland" Hmmmmmmmmm

[@viktoriajedrzejczyk2619]

Yeah living here isn't really good for your mental health...

[@yllom9372]

I love the way u talk in ur vids. The little break in video flow when u talked about how your door opened up by itself? Few minutes later i was questioning myself "was i outta the room, what was i doing?". Ur vids a really mesmerizing, and i love it

[@ABucketofJake]

Why thank you very much, I try

[@ajyomastr]

"If this was a serious video the entire time, this would be a Pad Chennington video" lmao

[@heythatsprettygood1655]

Dude, you are so underrated. How do you not have more subscribers.

[@heyitstoni]

man these are the type of videos i love to listen to whenever i need something to just relax to

[@gunnison1031]

Honestly I just listened to this and I'd say this is the *pinnacle* of dark ambient in my opinion. And great video Jake! Excited to see what you can do next!

[@CloudBasterran]

Love how the first time I listened to Everywhere at the end of time, this video popped up as one of the recommended and I pretty much went for it as soon as it ended 3 years later, it has done it again!

[@YourName-sx1ye]

Your channel is amazing man

[@fizzeypop3729]

Remember me when this video blows up ;)

[@tilenntia2248]

I wanted you to talk about this so badly, im really happy you did this video. Always love your work !

[@The73rdSecret]

Seraphim is amazing. I can't even tell anymore how many times I've listened to this album

[@driplifecrisis]

thank u bucket of jim! loved this food review!

[@pelicanpelican2055]

yet another BANGER. keep this up mr. bucket (:

[@morgboat744]

i’m so sorry but this is all i can think of kzbin.info/www/bejne/o6DFiZd5mNGAapI

[@recklessralph30]

This is the second video of yours that I've watched and I love how they make me feel so comfortable and yet uncomfortable at the same time. New sub, thanks for your content.

[@gavingordon9323]

I’ve been using Seraphim to fall asleep for the past few months and I literally haven’t made it past Seraph II without falling asleep. On the nights I’m really restless I fall asleep and wake up only to be at like Seraph VII just to pass out again.

[@god_pharaoh6111]

Seraphim was the album i used to fall asleep when i was a really bad place mentally and living situation wise. i'll never forget my first listen

[@shapejustanormaltriangle7659]

I've listened to Seraphim entirely, multiple times over, and I love that album so much

[@georgesracingcar7701]

I love the fact that the song uses the adverb “Completely” in its title. I don’t see as many conspicuous adverbs in the titles of the songs I usually listen to.

[@jbaer0]

I can definitely see improvements in tone from June as far as narration goes, keep it up!

[@randy9680]

“Let’s finally get to music on this music review channel” *ad with the dancing 3D girls to pop music*

[@crassinula]

Banger video

[@Isaac_646]

This music reminds me of this enemy from the game "left 4 dead 2" called the "Jockey" its a crazy zombie that laughs constantly, and this music makes me feel what the Jockey's brain is like.

[@thedweller1119]

Only 799 likes. You should be getting so much more support and more people to see theses videos. These videos take me into a different perspective and different state of mind

[@trashtyler]

I’ve been listening to this for the past 2/3 years or something like that. It’s strange but I can’t fall asleep without this sound now. Without it I toss and turn and struggle. But when I play this I’m almost for sure sleeping like a baby.

[@SavoryFilth]

A bit long and maybe a little pretentious, but I still wanted to share. The seraphim skeleton album showed up in my recommended after I experienced the worst breakup I had ever went through, when I lost my significant other I lost my tight group of friends as well, I had never felt more truly alone. I clicked on the video for the title, at that point I wanted to know how to disappear completely. I was laying in bed at the time in my pitch black room, my pillow and sheets completely damp and my face raw, but the instant the slow, pulsating drones started of seraphim l, it felt like I was floating above my body and into the void. It wasn’t a comforting feeling, but it wasn’t unnerving either, not benevolent or malevolent, it felt like a dull, numb and hollow nothingness in my very soul, an all consuming void that lulls you away from your humanity. I’ve never slept more soundly and dreamless then I had that night, and I doubt I will again.

[@jacksonmcleod9708]

To be honest, this video truly was a banger. I'm glad you got to stop listening to Yung gravy. Great work.

[@personperson6516]

You deserve so much more subs then you do my guy, Also thanks for these reivew videos I have alot of questions about these random creepy eerie music on youtube

[@PavltheRobot]

Great video, thanks for covering that subject. I once tried to find some information about that band, but I quickly gave up.

[@bigwijdsljla]

your videos make me cry over songs I've never listened too

[@mrsiresir250]

"if this was serious video the inter time it would be a pad chennington video" what a quote

[@tyr9499]

I've always loved that music video. I'm glad that you covered it. There is another artist that i also love, his name ia Giles Corey. It's not the same music as in this video but they are still very good.

[@ABucketofJake]

I was actually planning on covering Giles Corey at some point

[@nature.boy1362]

Hospice by The Antlers is a really good album that has a more obvious message than something like this, but still makes you feel things you didn't know you could feel

[@DNK972]

Hey loving the fantastic content keep it up, I would like to hear your thoughts on some experimental rock type stuff, I would personally recommend the voidz tyranny album.

[@defusedhero6561]

i found this artist late one night to help me sleep and I love it

[@clever2769]

Even though your Everywhere at the end of time video blew up your content is still very underrated and i really like your other videos as well. Good luck mate, I hope more people are going to start watching other of your videos as well. c:

[@d333ds]

i randomly found seraphim on bandcamp at 3 am and listened to the whole thing. i cried a lot that night.

[@FIRE-mx6vc]

This might be lost in the sea of comments but I just want to say I’ve been loving your content recently. From the experimental rap albums list to the artists who changed their sound vid. But i was curious if you would check out A Crow Looked At Me by mount eerie. It is a wonderful listen but also very emotional and I would love your thoughts on it. I love your content and have a good day.

[@InutiLuke]

lucky man, you were chosen by the algorithm

[@simplebanana5949]

Quality content sir, keep it up :)

[@amadeusgraysmith2175]

Dude you should, well... you HAVE to listen Lustmord´s records. I´ve always seen in my you tube recommendations those albums by How to disappear completely. After listening all Caretaker´s records, I didn´t felt ready for HTDP. Well, now i feel more interesed and ready for the living nightmare. Hahaha. I like this kind of artist and works. It´s like they come form nowhere and what lives is just the music. Another case is the musician Jandek. This is the channel that have almost all his particular works. It could be interesting if you make a video about him (or about Lustmord). Anyway, very good job with this video.

[@DetachedJoy]

Discovered your channel today. I have two recommendations. The first, to keep in line with the music, would be DWIG. It's hard to explain. Perhaps just listen to them for yourself and you'll see what I mean. The second, although not exactly musical in nature, would be the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows. Written by John Kroenig it was a series of videos where John attempted to put words, description and meaning to feelings that do not have an exact word to define them.

[@ZephyrusAsmodeus]

It's interesting to me that you take this in a more.. reality based direction, because when I listen to this, I hear less of a literal disappearance from a life and more an embracing of a disconnect from reality, existentialism. It's titled Mer de Revs, music for insomniacs, and I feel that title is multifaceted in that it both means to represent someone awake in the night against their will with fears, thoughts and suffering, and/or someone awake at night on purpose, because they choose to dwell on their place in existence, and whether it should be the way that it is, and the journey, and conclusion they find. To me, it's not so much disappearing from a mafia hit or spiteful spouse and more slipping, or reaching into the void of nonexistence.

[@idiotoclock1326]

Amazing vid king

[@zdeadfalloutxx8084]

Just subbed, and I'm enjoying the ride. Keep it up :')

[@pookah1488]

deadass needs more attention

[@apocalypt1k752]

i heard the background music in this video and immediately thought of (ironically) the caretaker's deleted scenes and forgotten dreams. an "airey" choir-like synth piece intended as being whatever the hell you think it is supposed to be. with ups and downs in tones. and it's very easy to turn your thoughts into the abscence of thought

[@AtrocityEquine01]

I now have new music for sleep, thanka :D

[@yawbyss981]

Maybe the reason there is so little information about them and the reason they say they’re inspired by the book is because they themselves disappeared completely and make music about their experiences

[@harvey2217]

'You don't want to do that. You want to sit here and get swallowed' - the Mind

[@James-ud3ns]

I gave Seraphim a shot in September and I remember enjoying it quite a lot. I guess I'll give Mer de Revs a chance. If you want more ambient, look through the Geometric Lullaby label, there are tons of strange albums under them.

[@suleymantekingurmen7643]

You should talk about Tarentel, the unsung experimental band that went from a generick post-rock band to a very noise-based experimental band. Good video anyways.

[@latitzouri]

They straight up feels like Coconut, with Silverlight being a song in the Hotline Miami franchise. Coconut and their EP with the same name are the only thing they produced and I really loved the album, as dark as it is.

[@benpalmer4688]

another masterpiece jake 😃👍

[@850shantanubhardwaj8]

Cool video buddy 👍

[@lakeside1168]

These are the feelings I wish I could conjure. I think magic is from with in and manifesting literal emotion. Extreme music is magic.

[@calebandreano]

Hey not sure if you're still trying to document this sort of thing but Imagine Drowning is a very cool artist along these lines. It feels a little more overtly oppressive than a lot of HTDC's discography but it's similar while staying unique. I'd reccomend their latest album, I Live in the Hills

[@terrestrialgmusic]

The difference is that everywhere at the end of time is horrifying and depressing. How to disappear completely is beautiful and graceful.

[@birdlisa58]

1:16 what albums are those? I recognize the top row but what are the other 6.

[@ABucketofJake]

I don’t know all of them unfortunately

[@birdlisa58]

@@ABucketofJake d-d-d-d-d-d-dang

[@jordycordemans]

Middle row left to right: Clouddead - self-titled American Football - self-titled 100 gecs - 1000 gecs Bottom row: Radiohead - Kid A Salvia Palth - Melanchole My Bloody Valentine - self-titled

[@jordycordemans]

*The My Bloody Valentine one was Loveless not self-titled

[@r.ouellette6192]

@@jordycordemans The Silvia Palth one bugged me to no end. I thought it was teenage suicide's early stuff or one of their solo projects. That album cover brought back some weird memories. I had to look it up and then realized it was on Run for cover and they went ham on trying to promote that record. Along with crying, camera shy, and night school. Even though they were on graveface? Went into a nostalgia worm hole.

[@tayzatun6351]

Their Seraphim series is my religion

[@wanntobe7324]

anyone know the album one the top right on 1:19

[@ABucketofJake]

In the aeroplane over the sea

[@wanntobe7324]

@@ABucketofJake I was so attracted to the cover I had to know

[@kylethesonovbaphomet7171]

Hey, my lawyer Saul Goodman has a guy if you really wanna disappear completely. (If anyone gets the reference, I fucking love you.)

[@Caesar_Online]

15:47 Bruh 😂

[@MaestreHavok]

Mer de Revs is french, means something like, "sea of dreams", very accurate imo.

[@VixenFirefluster35754]

Carbon Based Lifeforms is one to try and Godspeed You! Black Emperor ,

[@OkRiver06]

Can’t wait for this to blow up

[@limlimlimlimlimlimlimlimlimlim]

if you like longer projects i think you should check out “silence is the key to life” by insulin. its a 20 hour “drone” project that reaches into experimental waters. i think its pretty cool and i haven’t seen anyone on youtube talk about it, let alone any other insulin albums. it is pretty harrowing and long (obviously), so i don’t expect anyone with normal eardrums to get past the first song, but if your interested check it out.

[@jamesmochoa]

Listen to this at work

[@moss5356]

I’ve been getting this recommended to me for so long (The album, not this video.) and I always ignored it, because I thought it looked cursed

[@Vincent_cat6]

Man, you have to check out album "Guilt noir" by Michael Arthur Holloway. It's really dark and yet beautiful atmospheric jazz that really drowns you into something inexpressible

[@lara3540]

1:17 I feel so attacked because I immediately recognized 7 out of these 9 records hahaha