MY 1 YEAR ON TESTOSTERONE TIMELINE (FTM)

[@ourladyofsorrowsxx]

4-5 months is INSANE like your voice dropped so fucking hard dude I’m so happy for you

[@queerpagan]

Aahhh I know right? Testosterone is crazy! Thank you so much ❤️

[@user-jc8cc4ch6w]

Id say it's because your so young of course it's going to have a huge effect on a young girl's body

[@mattiarenzi5673]

that 5 months hit so hard, noice. Also, you always had a very handsome voice if you ask me, this girl over here found you super manly to begin with, do the math ❤

[@queerpagan]

Thanks so much ❤️ and I know right? My voice dropped significantly at 5 months!

[@queerpagan]

@@lordfreeza_ imagine having no support in your life 😂

[@problemperson4221]

congrats! that 4 month drop was crazyy lol

[@queerpagan]

Thank you!! I know right, started really hearing some difference at 4/5 months!

[@dysperdotted]

the shift between 4-5 months killed me lmao. plus i gotta give a shoutout to that beard coming in at the end.

[@queerpagan]

haha I know right, the three chinhairs deserve a shoutout (I have a better beard now !!!)

[@quatre4]

4, 5, 7 and 10 months hit like a truck ahah

[@g0desq]

ignore the hate, proud of you my man

[@queerpagan]

Thanks so much!!!

[@Fostero7]

Only 3 more years then I can start t! I can't wait!

[@queerpagan]

Those 3 years will pass quicker than you think if you have something to look forward to! Good luck!

[@wikiotic]

Same!

[@queerpagan]

@blinksthreeandahalftimes good luck to you both then!

[@andrxew]

bro went ♀---> ♂

[@queerpagan]

hahahah yupp

[@simonsmiles9186]

Hell yeah. I’m getting my consultation soon. Mighty excited.

[@queerpagan]

That's amazing! Wish you all the best!!

[@sevyeun]

I'm at 4 months and my voice still doesn't change at all

[@queerpagan]

Hey! transitioning is different for everyone, and just because my voice dropped at 4 months, doesn't mean that that is the case for everyone! Your voice will drop, don't worry!

[@zackisherenow]

mine dropped after 8

[@EvanNeedsTherapy]

damn the hate comments man. Got my first shot today and I'm so hyped.

[@queerpagan]

Omg! That's awesome! (And yeah, the hate comments are so annoying, just let people live!)

[@MK_-vr1hr]

🙏🙏🙏 aaah te ves genial, yo estoy apenas en el 4 mes

[@julyvvi]

Wow! Why was there such a sudden drop after 4 months? Is it common for there to be a sudden drop like that rather than a slower paced change? Im a trans guy too and Pre-T !

[@queerpagan]

It's different for everyone! I started at a very low dose of testosterone (0.2 ml) and got it steadily raised every 3 months! But honestly when your voice drops depends on things like genetics, how low your voice was pre-T, how you speak etc!

[@hvnlymin]

Im 17 FTM and This made me so happy to see because im looking forward to when i get on T :DD but im at the beginning stage of going on T wT, i just had a talk with a child psychiatrist and stuff~ BUT SHE TOLD ME THAT THE WAITING LIST WOULD PROBABLY BE 2 YEARS... :(( I kinda cried when i finished the appointment because 2 years is too long to wait... i dont want to keep getting misgendered :// I feel like i cant start my life until i go on testosteron :< CAUSE I WANNA BE A KZbinR AND VTUBER >:CC AAAAAA and i dont want to sound or look like a girl hmphhh

[@queerpagan]

ooof I feel that one, cringing so hard at my earliest videos because of my voice... but don't worry, you will get there! The wait is horrible but at some point it really does get better!

[@KeritechElectronics]

4mo mutation kicking in, nice :)

[@queerpagan]

I know right? My voice dropped significantly after 4-5 months!

[@Space-bd3gp]

Hey I’m the first one that liked

[@queerpagan]

Thanks! Good for you!

[@damnboy-xl2jc]

You sounded manly before too. Dude you're lucky

[@queerpagan]

Thank youu! And yeah I never really had a super high-pitched voice, super grateful for that 😊😊

[@geode6]

Hope it helped

[@queerpagan]

It definitely did! I feel so much better now!

[@geode6]

@@queerpagan can I ask what it helped with?

[@queerpagan]

@@geode6 yeah of course! It helped with my dysphoria, the thing you feel when you're transgender. So I don't feel as bad and disconnected from my body as I did before. I feel like I can finally be me, and when I look in the mirror I see what should have always been there!

[@queerpagan]

@@JoeyJame I mean what always should have been there in the sense of physical changes that I've noticed, I'm not objectifying myself 😂

[@queerpagan]

@@JoeyJame because I'm a man and have always seen myself that way, and now other people see me as a guy too, and when I look in the mirror I recognize myself and I don't feel disconnect like I did before!

[@Kdvodemiyorum]

Bro looks like sigma male

[@queerpagan]

needed to check the urban dictionary for this one, you never know if something is an insult or compliment 😭 but thanks bro

[@Kdvodemiyorum]

@@queerpaganjust Google it! 😅

[@queerpagan]

​@@Kdvodemiyorumyeah I did that's what I'm saying haha

[@livordeath2]

20 years later...let me guess....

[@queerpagan]

We will see in 20 years!

[@sleepykawa09]

@@queerpagan just an mid aged hairy dad lmao 😂😂😂😂 (Srry if that’s offensive)

[@queerpagan]

@@sleepykawa09 offensive? I don't think there's anything wrong with looking like a middle aged hairy dad hahaha

[@infinite5019]

I have your accent omgg

[@queerpagan]

That's cool! I don't even know what accent I have 😭

[@infinite5019]

@@queerpagan I meant love lmaoooo

[@queerpagan]

@@infinite5019 ohhhh makes more sense hahahha thank you!

[@infinite5019]

@@queerpagan yw! I was literally half asleep when I wrote the original comment ahaha

[@mirmir0003]

how would were you when you started?

[@queerpagan]

Do you mean how old? I started a month before I turned 17

[@mirmir0003]

@@queerpagan yeah, my bad typo youre so lucky dude, thats awesome. is age a factor in how well voice drops?

[@queerpagan]

@mirmir0003 haha that's okay, typos happen 😅 Honestly I think how much your voice drops depends mostly on genetics, however, the younger you start, the more likely it is you haven't been taught to speak "like a woman" yet. I know some trans men who started later and have problems with getting their voice lower because they're used to raising their tone when they speak. But at the end of the day I do think transitioning earlier can impact how you look and sound, especially if you go on puberty blockers before. The less feminine your body is, the easier to get it too look masculine! Hope this answers your question 😊

[@bouldering122]

Curious how old you are? Trying to gather a general age timeline for people who legitimately wish to transition to help understand the why. Would be genuinely curious to know your age

[@queerpagan]

I'm turning 18 next week. Not many people get the chance to transition (medically) before they turn 18 so I'm thankful for that!

[@bouldering122]

@QueerPagan do you feel as though there is any chance for regret about a decision made down the line once your through the portion of your life that your natural hormones aren't still going through major changes on their own? What makes you feel like this is the correct thing to do? Again not trying to come from a hateful space to be clear just trying to understand the why and how it's important to people.

[@queerpagan]

@@bouldering122 sure, of course everyone's experience is different, but globally the rate of regret/detransitioning is about 1% of all transgender people, so it's really not that big of a portion as some people might think. I've known I was trans from a very young age, and I've noticed that the gender affirming things (coming out, changing my name, starting hormones, getting surgery) have made me feel wayyy more comfortable in my own skin and I'm able to enjoy life without hating myself! So based on that I really don't think I will regret this decision. I have given informed consent, I was guided by multiple professionals for years before I got to this point. As far as my "natural" hormones, I still got my ovaries, so would I ever be forced to stop taking testosterone that would not be a problem. But what I will and won't do with my reproductive organs is not for the internet to know :)

[@petrosnikopulos7098]

why you use testosterone and you dont use ferormone?

[@queerpagan]

I'm sorry, I have never heard of ferormone, only of pheromones, which is something completely unrelated 😅. I use testosterone because I'm a trans man. Could you explain what the other thing is?

[@petrosnikopulos7098]

@@queerpagan ferormone is the oposite of testosterone, testosterone doesnt give you balls or penis not even the doctor can , why you dont try to be a good woman ,you will never be man , life is short

[@queerpagan]

@petrosnikopulos7098 bro learn basic biology, the opposite of testosterone, if we're calling it that, is estrogen. Not "ferormone". And it's not entirely true that testosterone doesn't give you a penis. There has been research suggesting that the cells of the clitoris turn into prostate cells. And the thing grows. But of course it's not going to completely change your genitals, that's not why people take it 🤣

[@queerpagan]

@petrosnikopulos7098 and yes, in fact a doctor can give you balls and a penis, it's called bottom surgery. I am not a woman, both biologically and legaly. I never was and never will be. Go cry about it.

[@coolpotato273]

Where do you get testosterone. I need it for my workouts

[@queerpagan]

at the pharmacy lmao

[@jofeeney]

God help you

[@queerpagan]

God doesn't exist

[@isabel4056]

Yeah because God would just love the fact you are dropping hate comments. If you have never read the Bible, here ya go. John 15:12-13. “My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. ''

[@Fostero7]

God wouldn't want to push the homophobic life style because its hateful

[@queerpagan]

@@lordfreeza_ so you don't have a gender? Alright then, we support non binary people here!

[@queerpagan]

@@lordfreeza_ not really, it's not only true because I say so but also because multiple medical professionals have concluded that it is in fact the case.

[@deec3561]

😞

[@SuperDesignguy]

You'll regret it eventually.

[@queerpagan]

Sure....

[@isabel4056]

Just like your mom regrets not getting an abortion. Feel bad for her honestly... :/

[@crowmagpie]

Yep

[@555Seweryn]

Society collapse

[@queerpagan]

There's bigger problems in society than my gender yknow

[@555Seweryn]

@@queerpagan nono, this gender swapping identifying etc etc is the big society problem, because not only it affects people but it's also being pushed to the children, pretty much brewing a generation of pedophiles

[@isabel4056]

I'm so sorry your parents never loved you, Adam... but pls keep that agression away from other people. Thanks :)

[@555Seweryn]

@@isabel4056 my parents do love me, that's why I don't have multiple personalities disorder and i don't hide my mental illness behind mutilating and stuffing myself with drugs in hope to lie to myself to be ok 😘

[@isabel4056]

I'm sure they do but maybe you should "stuff yourself with drugs" (medicine) to deal with your anger issues, sweetheart... and let people live.